I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday Forum & Chat Board | I Don't Know What To Do Anymore

I'm clinically depressed. Nowadays I just sit at home and read books and watch TV! I'm constantly gaining weight! I try not to eat anything. Then when I can't fast anymore I end up overeating. I hate myself for feeling hungry. I don't want to go out because of shame. I feel embarrassed with the way I look. I avoid the mirror. I've started to avoid my friends. I'm basically alone 24/7. And I hate it. I want to go out, hang out with friends and do all sorts of things that normal people do. But I can't. I'm destroying myself everyday. Even while I'm writing this confession, I'm horrified to just read these words which makes up for my life! I want to live so much and yet I don't. I never, NEVER thought that I would end up like this and yet here I am. Just wasting away...waiting for the end. And the worst part is I'm just 22. And I don't see any light at the end of the tunnel.

 

i also dn't see any light in my life, i m 20 no friends and there is no hope in my life, i m completely alone but all i can say is we have to just live it whatever life gives to us!

 

Depression can be a real pain in the emotions.  It causes people to want to be alone and at the same time intensifies the depression because of the loneliness.  Having said that, you need to start taking care of yourself and as lousy nas you might feel you need to be proactive.  Just begin with several small steps at a time.

Try going out for a brisk 5 or 10 minute walk.  You will be surprised at how much better you will feel.  If you can get that up to a daily walk, all the more better.  Next, a support system is so important to help you on the road to recovery.  Ask your doctor or other mental health professional about joining a support group in your area. If you have family or friends you can talk to, all the more better.  Finally,, try the "Depression and BiPolar Alliance" website. They offer great information for people who suffer from depression.

Please keep us posted as to how you are doing.

Kindest regards,
Dave
 

 

think first you have to want to change things being alone is never going to help depression
get out start walking you body will make a drug that will help for awhile tillit waers off then run again or find something else to rase that levle

 

Nothing wrong with taking time out for yourself to heal mentally !   You would do it if you were recovering from surgery.  Society doesn't give mental fatigue and depression patients *permission* to heal.   Take your meds....often there is a chemical *deficiency* in the brain which causes these very real symptoms.  The meds may be temporary ( like me) or something we accept as permanent ( like my girlfriend).   Consider it like a vitamin that you supplement your body with when you are coping with extra things on your plate.

I am a Natropath by profession, so I don't advocate *meds* readily, but I have seen the results in myself when I needed them.  My friend could not live independently without them, so they serve different needs for her.

On the food side of things, I can certainly help.  A person gets *hungry* when they are either dehydrated or lacking in protein.   So my suggestion would be to have a bottle of water beside you whilst watching TV and sip regularly.  You would aim to consume about 2-3 litres in a 24 hour period

Protein is one of those super foods which fills your tummy without presenting as bulk, and it takes a long time to digest, so hunger doesn't return quickly.   I would recommend you *graze*  by eating several ( 6-7) times a day  ( just like a diabetic) 
Eat small amounts, the amount you could fit into one hand..

Protein foods include:  boiled egg ( have several on hand...you cannot eat too many they DON'T raise blood levels)  almonds, piece of cooked chicken with any flavors, fish, meat, cheese, 

You will also find that it takes more energy to burn protein so in fact you will start to reduce weight.

Carbs are the foods which fill you with empty calories, make you feel hungry, and pile on the weight.

Good luck , take some time for yourself, and PM me anytime
Hugz
Naomi

 

I am also 22 and feel the same way. I've felt this way for much of my life. I am thinking about seeing a therapist, but I'm so scared and nervous about that. Maybe I feel like it won't change anything.

I am trying to get myself to eat regularly, because as you describe I don't eat and hate it when I'm hungry because I have no appetite. It's so annoying. All I do when I get home is play a game. I've been this depressed on and off since middle school. I get bored easily, so I move on to the next obsession; the obsession is the only thing that keeps me going. Right now it's an MMORPG game. Next it might be a TV show. No matter what I do, I feel like I'm just using fantasy to get through life. 

I want to live, too, but I have pretty persistent thoughts of suicide. I like to plan it out. But I would never do it. Somehow, through sheer force of will, I have a steady full-time job and live on my own renting a house. Doesn't sound like a depressed person, does it? But I am horribly unmotivated. I'm so afraid I'll get fired because of this, and lose my progress. Well, I say "progress" loosely. I'm slowly accomplishing goals I've set for myself. But I still feel like the loner in middle school who everyone ignored, who lived only to read and play MMO games. Nothing has changed.

Sorry for the mini-rant, it's just that I really relate to what you wrote. I'm wondering why I'm even alive at this point.

 

The Massai African tribe Is it Masai? are said to be the happiest people on the planet. Why? They have a tribe.  They know who they are amongst eachother. The way we live now is hard for sensitive people.  The industrial revolution and the car has fashioned a world that is hard on us emotionally.  It's not your fault. Don't blame yourself.  We did not evolve to be emotionally healthy in this new world.  Everything is determined by someone else's greed, even Facebook. Think about how we lived for hundreds and thousands of years not like we live now.  that is why you are too isolated.  We live in little boxes alone.  Don't blame yourself.

 

You must change environment in order to get different stimulus...people who you will get to know now will take you as you are, not knowing you put on extra weight or not...keep moving because people that know you for a long time Andre always full of judgements and expectations and it all make life more difficult... Move on and be happy while the sense of renewing your life stay with you...