I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday Forum & Chat Board | I hate not understanding :(

Being a male isn't easy as it is, but on top of that I have been battling depression and anxiety all my life.  I was emotionally, physically, and verbally abused by the males in my life when I was 8 years old. Years of molestation and verbal beatings have left me highly sensitive and unsure of myself. I get confused when people get upset with me for holding them accountable for their actions. For instance if I bring up any hurt or wrongdoing they have done to me, I get attacked for it.  I hate not understanding and being beat up. I'm 22 years old and whenever I do express myself or think that I can trust someone the first things they say are "you think its all about you" or "you're a grown man so act like it."  It hurts my feelings because all my life I've been told that I don't have the right to feel.  All my life I've been told that men aren't suppose to be vulnerable or care that much.  I do care and I haven't been able to run from that.  

I've been in a committed relationship for the last 2 years and Its been rough because she doesn't really understand everything I'm feeling. I dread expressing myself because she claims i don't care about her feelings and I'm too self absorbed.  I disagree and I feel that I am the most sacrificing man in the world, I give my last and have for years to make others I care about happy. Sacrifice has left me in situations of homelessness and poverty.  

Sorry for rambling. I just don't understand. I expect others to give me what I give them....i don't understand whats wrong with that? :(

 

It is hard to be a man and have any emotions.  Women can cry and become hystarical if need be, but men are held to a higher standard.  As a woman, I fall into the trap to, I get wierded out when I see a man cry.  Men don't do that! 
 All I can say is hang in there, get help, find a safe place to express your self.

 

Hey. I want you to know that you aren't alone. I am a 20 y/o male and am rather emotional as well. I have very few outlets and it can be extremely frustrating. I have not had great relationships with most people in my life. especially my father. I was definitely verbally abused. I also expect I was physically/sexually abused, I have just suppressed that part of my life. Please don't run from your feelings. Understand that most people are, unfortunately, not open to listen to other people's problems. We do tend to shy away from the things that truly matter in life because other stuff is easier to deal with or think about. Just know that I am here. I am no expert and will never claim to be, but I know what it feels like to be alone and I would be more than happy to talk with you anytime.

 

i have same problem.since  last 6 months feeling so depressed and lonliness,my dad my mom friends can't understand my feelings everyone is there own life,they can't i have some feelings for enjoy the life but they can't feel,

before this 6 months the life was really beautiful but now i am so depressed 

i get  sleeplessness,heart problems,and so many cause of depression,

so don't feel alone i am with you,i understand your feeling

i wish your life will be fine
take care
fullfill dreams,learn which you have interested in,remember you are not alone