I Fight My Dark Side Constantly

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    Wednesday was a year that Devin committed suicide. I remember it like it was yesterday. It was going around "Devins dead". I thought it was a sick joke so I texted devin and asked him what was going on why was everyone saying this. I never got a text back. Tons of kids from...
    FightingMyDemons FightingMyDemons
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 9, 2013

    Instead of emphasizing the negative aspect of

    admitting to a tough experience, I choose to emphasizing the positive side, that I fight daily - and I rarely give in. Yes, my dark side is a burden, and is always in the background, and sometimes I let it control my feelings. But I'm fighting, constantly. And the negative and...
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    2 Responses Feb 6, 2016

    I'm a wolf in a sheep's clothing,

    mingling around with normal sheep's (people) as though there is nothing wrong. I like it this way, I dont wanna come out of the clothes I wear. Fighting my Innate nature to be one of the 'good guys' is too damn tiring. I hope nobody see's the bad side of me....it wont be good...
    sinseeker sinseeker
    31-35, M
    1 Response Sep 25, 2015

    my dark side is winning,

    i don't think i can do this
    mxlly mxlly
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 20, 2015

    He came out the other day.

    And I kinda liked it.
    BlueStreak95 BlueStreak95
    22-25, M
    1 Response Sep 13, 2015

    Everyone keeps pushing me.

    They're asking for it. I can't keep him held back any longer.
    BlueStreak95 BlueStreak95
    22-25, M
    Sep 10, 2015

    I need torture, baby.

    Are you scared?
    Perfectdreamingskull Perfectdreamingskull
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Sep 17, 2015


    if I think about it i can control it. It is hard when lying and manipulating come as easy as breathing. I don't have a depressing childhood( dog, siblings, loving parents, live in a nice town, go to private boarding school) I was jest born with a powerful dark side.
    Stell17 Stell17
    13-15, F
    Jun 13, 2011

    My dark secret have been found.

    .. Currently stabilizing emotion
    MissHara MissHara
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 27, 2014

    Lol. I've had so much self control w/people

    one day I'm just gonna snap and it's not gonna be pretty.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 14, 2015

    Can't We All Just Get Along?!?

    Good vs. Evil I just want to mash them together. To coexist. Damn it's exhausting I I I V http://s1.hubimg.com/u/2047224_f520.jpg
    UnderTheBridge UnderTheBridge
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 18, 2011


    As a child I was scared of being lost...now I am lost. I was afraid of not finding God, now God is dead...I was afraid of monsters under my bed...and now, all elementaries compounded, and all equations made complex...I have become one.
    2girls1knife 2girls1knife
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 10, 2012

    I think I'm hiding and I don't

    even know it. I'm acting a story I told myself till it was real, and I'm too scared to dig up what's underneath. But it does come out, in dreams and painful feelings I can't remember why I have. I keep having to remind myself and to make excuses for the feelings that pour out of...
    Itekimasu Itekimasu
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 7, 2015

    it looks like im going to have to fight my

    urges a little harder, even with a small scent of alcohol on your breath people will still treat you like a drunk when your not even that drunk.
    MyraTomPhil MyraTomPhil
    26-30, F
    Sep 8, 2015

    I think a lot and stuff happens in my head.

    Because of my experiences, I hate being used and pushed around. I've killed people in my head and I'm afraid that someday someone might push me over the line and into the dark... And the battle inside is still going on and I'm getting so tired of waiting for it to end. It's like...
    PsychMarshmallow PsychMarshmallow
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 19, 2015

    My dark side When you see me,

    you see a strong individual who has been through so much but still manages to live the best life she can. You see a positive person who always has encouraging words. Always happy and thankful never rude but outspoken. Someone who loves with everything she has. And would do...
    RuRave93 RuRave93
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Aug 20, 2015

    The Never Ending Battle

    i fight it constantly. its truly a never ending battle cause everyday brings a new fight between myself and myself. i push against it with all your help but sometimes the rest of me wants to give in and let the darkness wash over me with its cold numbing embrace. With her in my...
    CaptainJackass CaptainJackass
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Dec 3, 2010

    I've been through some stuff lately

    and now I can feel it waking up. I've been doing things that I normally wouldn't do. He's back.
    BlueStreak95 BlueStreak95
    22-25, M
    Sep 9, 2015

    Yes, the dark side is always here,

    waiting for those moments to pop in and cover all the positive thoughts and feelings I try to keep. It's amazing the range of thought and emotion the mind can in a given time. And it's even more amazing how well the darkness can be hidden.
    soulrunher soulrunher
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Sep 15, 2015

    I am getting nervous I just moved in an all

    girls house and they have no idea about my dark side certain girls get on my nerve and I have to find someway to calm down
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Sep 22, 2015

    Trying To Talk Sense To Myself Just Doesn't Work....

    Sometimes I hate myself. I see there is no real way to stop being the screwed up person I am. Even when I am doing good just a small set back because a catastrophe to me. Yes I can talk myself down but it is so tiring and often I don't really believe what I am telling myself...
    normil normil
    36-40, F
    Sep 5, 2011

    I keep it beneath the surface

    but hope, given the name, that I can find like-minded people here. I have dreams where I both inflict and receive pain. Whether i am the torturer or tortured, the other is always a woman, and I like role playing my fantasies
    Christuner666 Christuner666
    31-35, M
    Dec 22, 2015

    The sad fact is that I have to wear a smiling

    mask just so I am not regarded as a psychopathic asylum inmate. I've killed people in dreams, in my head, I draw the way they die and whatnot. Where people will see me as cheery, they do not know the abyssal interior that lies within. And I know it will not stay within...
    Sepulchral Sepulchral
    26-30, M
    1 Response Aug 20, 2015
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    1 Response Sep 22, 2015

    I was just contacted by a good friends wife.

    This woman is exquisite. I have tasted her and could have devoured her, but we refrained. It was the most control I've ever exhibited in my life. Well there was one other time. You people know the fire that burns inside me. The desire that needs to get out! I weaker than I've...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 27, 2016

    It's not as though i want to be sane

    or normal those are entirely overrated but for one night I would like to not fear the whispers in my mind the anger in my heart the leech on my soul..
    RuRave93 RuRave93
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 21, 2015

    So today I went to my favriote vape shop I was

    there first customer and after looking around for a good 10minutes as I was about to leave the shop owners daughter(who is friends with my ex bf that ended badly) told me she is going to call the cops of I don't pay 10$ for a bottle of juice I supposedly stole last time ibwas...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Sep 23, 2015

    This guy obviously doesn't know

    who he's dealing with. Maybe it's time for Jack to come out and deal with him.
    BlueStreak95 BlueStreak95
    22-25, M
    1 Response Sep 19, 2015
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    1 Response Aug 20, 2015

    How To Turn Six Dollars Into Six Thousand

    Dollars: I found this on a bulletin board and decided to try it. A little while back I was browsing through newsgroups just like you are now and came across an article similar to this that said you could make thousands of dollars within weeks with only an initial investment...
    manusundr manusundr
    51-55, M
    1 Response Aug 22, 2015

    Things of the darkest intentions

    once unknown to me mean to introduce themselves in a big way The Dark is not buoyant and has acquired the chains to anchor my soul All that cannot be seen or saved are all hidden here just beneath this flesh Ice forms within the veins And everything is hot as hell Crept...
    LadyGallivanter LadyGallivanter
    5 Responses Aug 24, 2015

    Yin And Yang: A Sense Of Balance

    Growing up in a fairly volatile and tumultuous environment as a child has led me to an understanding and a familiarity with the darker sides of the human condition. It's created a core of dark impenetrable shadow inside of me that will be there until I die. I've seen enough...
    ltemplar ltemplar
    26-30, M
    1 Response Feb 11, 2012

    I am not even Sure if it's a dark side .

    ..Mabey I am fighting others dark side
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Aug 20, 2015

    I have so many thoughts in my head it screws me

    up what with the thoughts of maiming and physically hurting people who get on my case in my life it takes up virtually all of strength to stop myself from doing anything, I used to be a happy go lucky kind of guy but as the years have passed and the constant stress of being in...
    nastybastard nastybastard
    36-40, M
    Sep 22, 2015
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