I Find It Difficult to Forget My Past and Move

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 207 People

    I Keep Looking Over My Shouler. . .

    I have had a several people in my past ex-boyfriend and ex-friend who treated me liek crap when we were together whether it being a relationship or just hanging out. I had one ex-boyfriend who abused me verbal and wanted me to hurt myself physically and then when I broke up with...
    RebekahWriter13 RebekahWriter13
    31-35, F
    Sep 17, 2010

    I Cant Let Go Of My Past Hurts And Failures

    i managed to finish my primary education successfully.....i managed to perform very well and go to a top school in my home...when i reached thea in my high school i developed depression in my second year...i felt like everybody hated me.....i felt likeĀ  i did not belong thea...
    bonnke bonnke
    22-25
    Sep 8, 2011

    Why Can't I Let Go

    I have been been abused physically and mentally for all of my childhood and most of my adult life. I have managed to walk away form all of this relatively unscathed. I have been trying to move on with my life since my son's death but it is like living a travesty of life. Other...
    syntechnik syntechnik
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Oct 28, 2007

    Therpist

    my therpist saids that i should letgo and move on from my past but ican,t i allways remmber that i was sexually asusted and that brothers me cause i can,t forget what happened to me i try to read alot sow the past woun,t brother me as munch but then it creeps up on me again...
    barribi barribi
    22-25, F
    Oct 19, 2012

    My Boyfriend's Past

    ok so ive been dating my boyfriend for a year and a half now. we get along pretty well and everything's good. but before i met him of course we both had a past. i told him all about mine which is no  big deal because i didnt do much. he told me he didnt do anything with...
    cisforcasey cisforcasey
    18-21
    1 Response May 5, 2010

    Thanks Mom

    my past was and still is hell.my mom could not find love in any of her relationships,so she crawled into my bed when i was very young.since this kind of abuse is hidden more than others i had no choice but to suppress.after she died i thought it would be better.my life has gone...
    riverside riverside
    51-55, M
    3 Responses Jan 11, 2008

    A Life of Living Hell

         I used to be a typical tomboy who loved school and hanging out with her friends. I loved my home back in Wyoming and never wanted to leave. All that changed when my dad decided to pack up everything we owned and move us to Missouri. We lived in a park for...
    robsangel2008 robsangel2008
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 20, 2008

    I Am Much Better, Though...

    I used to obsess and over-analyze my past to pieces. I'm not really sure what changed it or when, but it was just a colossal waste of time, effort, and energy. I love being able to be more present in the here-and-now. Thoughts of my past come and go, and I will go thru phases of...
    VendettaVita VendettaVita
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 14, 2012

    It Hurts

    I do not understand why I still struggle with my past. I realize I end up screwing my present over the hurtings of the past. I don't like carrying this burden in my heart which makes me break down once in a while. Its a mixed feeling of feeling sorry for myself, bitterness,regret...
    Iikya Iikya
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 10, 2012

    Have You Ever Had A Feeling You Cant Ever Forget

    I have this feeling that I am trapped in my past an can't escape it ever. I'm happy in my new relatioship but for some reason I always look back at my past relatioships an. Compare it to my new one. I'm tired of this feeling its so depressing an annoying that it makes me not ever...
    forgetmenot08 forgetmenot08
    18-21, F
    Jul 9, 2013

    Can't Forget

    I can still remember the blood and tears my father caused. I can't forget feeling powerless as he harmed my older brothers. I still dream of blood and hear his screams in my head. I look over my shoulders, I can't relax. Sleep is something I rarely get. I will always feel like I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 8, 2012

    I Use To But Not Anymore

    For years my past was stuck in my head like a scratch record that I could not stop. Now is happening and I am moving on with my life. I am not saying that the path that I have to travel is without risks but I will do my best.
    jc2009 jc2009
    41-45, M
    1 Response Sep 16, 2010

    Thanks Mom

    my past was and still is hell.my mom could not find love in any of her relationships,so she crawled into my bed when i was very young.since this kind of abuse is hidden more than others i had no choice but to suppress.after she died i thought it would be better.my life has gone...
    riverside riverside
    51-55, M
    1 Response Jan 11, 2008

    I'm A Different Person Now

    and that's what Jesus keeps trying ot remind me of.  I constantly lift my past up to Him and He takes it, and then I keep taking it back.  Remembering things is one thing, but I keep trying to relive them in my imagination which surfaces in my personality.  I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 11, 2009

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