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I Find It Difficult to Forget My Past and Move

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    A Life of Living Hell

         I used to be a typical tomboy who loved school and hanging out with her friends. I loved my home back in Wyoming and never wanted to leave. All that changed when my dad decided to pack up everything we owned and move us to Missouri. We lived in a park for...
    robsangel2008 robsangel2008 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 20, 2008

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    Can't Forget

    I can still remember the blood and tears my father caused. I can't forget feeling powerless as he harmed my older brothers. I still dream of blood and hear his screams in my head. I look over my shoulders, I can't relax. Sleep is something I rarely get. I will always feel like I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 8, 2012

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    I Use To But Not Anymore

    For years my past was stuck in my head like a scratch record that I could not stop. Now is happening and I am moving on with my life. I am not saying that the path that I have to travel is without risks but I will do my best.
    jc2009 jc2009 41-45, M 1 Response Sep 16, 2010

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    Thanks Mom

    my past was and still is hell.my mom could not find love in any of her relationships,so she crawled into my bed when i was very young.since this kind of abuse is hidden more than others i had no choice but to suppress.after she died i thought it would be better.my life has gone...
    riverside riverside 51-55, M 3 Responses Jan 11, 2008

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    I Keep Looking Over My Shouler. . .

    I have had a several people in my past ex-boyfriend and ex-friend who treated me liek crap when we were together whether it being a relationship or just hanging out. I had one ex-boyfriend who abused me verbal and wanted me to hurt myself physically and then when I broke up with...
    RebekahWriter13 RebekahWriter13 31-35, F Sep 17, 2010

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    I'm A Different Person Now

    and that's what Jesus keeps trying ot remind me of.  I constantly lift my past up to Him and He takes it, and then I keep taking it back.  Remembering things is one thing, but I keep trying to relive them in my imagination which surfaces in my personality.  I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 11, 2009

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    Thanks Mom

    my past was and still is hell.my mom could not find love in any of her relationships,so she crawled into my bed when i was very young.since this kind of abuse is hidden more than others i had no choice but to suppress.after she died i thought it would be better.my life has gone...
    riverside riverside 51-55, M 1 Response Jan 11, 2008

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    Therpist

    my therpist saids that i should letgo and move on from my past but ican,t i allways remmber that i was sexually asusted and that brothers me cause i can,t forget what happened to me i try to read alot sow the past woun,t brother me as munch but then it creeps up on me again...
    barribi barribi 22-25, F Oct 19, 2012

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    I Cant Let Go Of My Past Hurts And Failures

    i managed to finish my primary education successfully.....i managed to perform very well and go to a top school in my home...when i reached thea in my high school i developed depression in my second year...i felt like everybody hated me.....i felt like  i did not belong thea...
    bonnke bonnke 22-25 Sep 8, 2011

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    It Hurts

    I do not understand why I still struggle with my past. I realize I end up screwing my present over the hurtings of the past. I don't like carrying this burden in my heart which makes me break down once in a while. Its a mixed feeling of feeling sorry for myself, bitterness,regret...
    Iikya Iikya 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 10, 2012

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    Have You Ever Had A Feeling You Cant Ever Forget

    I have this feeling that I am trapped in my past an can't escape it ever. I'm happy in my new relatioship but for some reason I always look back at my past relatioships an. Compare it to my new one. I'm tired of this feeling its so depressing an annoying that it makes me not ever...
    forgetmenot08 forgetmenot08 16-17, F Jul 9, 2013

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    Why Can't I Let Go

    I have been been abused physically and mentally for all of my childhood and most of my adult life. I have managed to walk away form all of this relatively unscathed. I have been trying to move on with my life since my son's death but it is like living a travesty of life. Other...
    syntechnik syntechnik 46-50, F 2 Responses Oct 28, 2007

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    My Boyfriend's Past

    ok so ive been dating my boyfriend for a year and a half now. we get along pretty well and everything's good. but before i met him of course we both had a past. i told him all about mine which is no  big deal because i didnt do much. he told me he didnt do anything with...
    cisforcasey cisforcasey 18-21 1 Response May 5, 2010

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    I Am Much Better, Though...

    I used to obsess and over-analyze my past to pieces. I'm not really sure what changed it or when, but it was just a colossal waste of time, effort, and energy. I love being able to be more present in the here-and-now. Thoughts of my past come and go, and I will go thru phases of...
    VendettaVita VendettaVita 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 14, 2012

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    I'm glad I found this site. It might help me find someone who would accept me and help me forget the miserable things in my past. Just glad I'm here.
    stoawaywife stoawaywife 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 30

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    I've never been in a good relationship and don't think I ever will. The past was quite bad it's hard to forget at times. I really want to move on and date again. The experiences...
    Myalee Myalee 41-45, F Feb 3

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    Singapore is one of the world’s most important commercial hubs with great job opportunities for many people all over the world. Finding jobs in Singapore can be a hard job but...
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    I never forget. Really, I don't. But I keep the past in the past, and I move on, whether I forgive them or not.
    BananaSmoothiee BananaSmoothiee 18-21, F Feb 6

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    Moving on and forgetting the past feel like trying to pull yourself out of a house that has collapsed on you, especially when there's no one to help.
    FlawfulCreation FlawfulCreation 18-21, F Jan 31

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    I was already forgetting my past.. and the guy I lost it to 3 years ago somehow got my number and called me last night. I'm sad.. but happy that I heard from him.
    hazelrodriguez3696 hazelrodriguez3696 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    It flew by... soaring past me, but it has become increasingly difficult to forget, moving foward has always been the target goal but it becomes increasingly overwhelming when there...
    SummerMacabre SummerMacabre 18-21, M Feb 4

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    I, myself, prefer not to talk about my past. I have overcome it on my own and will give a brief statement here and there, but I do not think a history lesson on anyone's life will...
    Stickwithmebabe Stickwithmebabe 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    I feel depressed at the moment. Everything that happened with my ex has just bubbled to the service she found out I'd met someone new and basically said we would have gotten back...
    0815Jade 0815Jade 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 4

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    Once in a blue moon, someone's come along that you'll never forget...
    KarenIsMyName KarenIsMyName 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    This is something I kind of labeled as unrealistic for many years, but I'm really making an effort to move to LA next year. I never considered it before I started my college search...
    cmitchellichs cmitchellichs 16-17, M 6 hrs ago

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    So I was on Facebook and I have new friend suggestions pop up. One is evil friend A from my past. I've mentioned her in several stories. Why these are all popping up is beyond me...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 Jan 29

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    I want to but everywhere I turn I see the little things that remind me of him. I see all his favorite things and it's hard. I am trying to forget but it's just so difficult. I'm...
    JeannieInAChampagneBottle JeannieInAChampagneBottle 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 6

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    I tried writing this experience once but it shut down in the middle, so I'm a little frustrated but I'll try again. I was saying that I find myself doing things just for the sole...
    Shamandora Shamandora 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    Dear World, I am aware that there is no such thing as 'true love', that happiness comes through hard work, and that for most, the harsh reality of 'settling down' is just another...
    buzzingbee buzzingbee 26-30, F Feb 16

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    How to forgive the people who have wronged you? Good values teach us to forgive the people who hurt us. Forgive and forget. But can we really? I think that as humans, forgetting...
    thecasualdilettante thecasualdilettante 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I just recently transferred to a university in California from my community college. I am currently living off campus with four other college students and an art professor who...
    dalvaro178 dalvaro178 22-25, M Feb 17

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    There are times like these where I'm just waiting for the storm to pass and I don't feel like trying. I don't want to do anything but cry. This emptiness in my heart is getting...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 10

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    These past 2 months I've been trying to find myself. At the end of Jan I went down to Ga to see my boyfriend which he turned out to be great! and I've also found myself being down...
    BekkaGrimm BekkaGrimm 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I'm dating another guy but my ex still calls & texts me everyday & I answer..what can I do to move on? I feel guilty if I just stop talking to him
    kayshay1991 kayshay1991 22-25, F 2 hrs ago

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    I posted this as a blog but will cut & paste it here:Beauty from the Mind How to Study Life and the Essence of LearningThe physical form can exude beauty, but personally I am also...
    Soroe Soroe 36-40, M Feb 3

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    Finding true love scare me alot. Dunno if I can handle it. I'm used to bad relationships but I honestly don't want anymore of those. It drains me, makes me feel bad about myself...
    Myalee Myalee 41-45, F Feb 16

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    It's interesting, being in a group of friends who also have DID. Our alters have found love in one another and there are at least two within me, paired up with two alters of the...
    AScarletDream AScarletDream 22-25, T 1 Response Feb 17

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    I need to move on and forget my ex of 20 yrs but how
    Kimberlee123 Kimberlee123 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    For the past three years I am really fed up by this situation..I am forgetting the names of people I know .Even my dear ones.Is that a serious problem? My memory is also fading a...
    MaddyBale MaddyBale 18-21, F Feb 4

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    2/7/2015 It has been 4 years to this month( unsure about the day) and i have not kissed/loved or touched another person until i met Him. I am writing this because i do not want to...
    lovexghoul lovexghoul 36-40, F Feb 8

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    I am trying every day to forget about you. I try to not beat myself up over missed opportunities. I try to use reasoning that things are the way they are and that's that. Sometimes...
    tormentedinternally tormentedinternally 26-30, M 6 days ago

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    How do I move on and for get about my past?
    22Tori 22Tori 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    These past few days, I've become more and more interested in Starseeds, Incarnated Angels, Elementals, and the like. I have done my research throughout the internet and, although...
    marustarseed marustarseed 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Sometimes one of the difficult tasks is to put your thoughts in words or writing because unless others understand what you are going through it is difficult It is like being dumb...
    FightingTillTheEnd FightingTillTheEnd 31-35, M Feb 12

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    During the past 30 years Ive moved at least 15 times. In the past 3 years Ive moved 5 times alone. A divorce kind of disrupted my living situation. Ive been at my current residence...
    Xhaxabrel Xhaxabrel 26-30, M Feb 16