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I Find Myself In a Cycle That I Need to Break

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 194 People

    Since I'm not on school right now,

    not working, and all my friends are busy these days, I haven't been doing much of anything at all lately. It's just been a cycle of eating, sleeping, and Internet surfing. The break was nice at first, but now it's just depressing. And after lazing about so much, I can't find...
    almaera almaera 18-21, F Apr 24, 2014

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    A Bad Romance

    It seems I'm with a guy that will love love love me and then go back to his baby mama. We go through this cycle of him being nice, getting distant, deciding he wants to be with no one, taking me back, making things up to me, and then it starts all over again. I guess the...
    joeysemtex joeysemtex 18-21, F Apr 12, 2010

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    And Who Doesn't?

    We all find ourselves in this point at some moment of our lives... Sometimes you dont really know why (specially at the beggining) but in the end... there's this little thing... sometimes a secret... that just needs to be told so we can be free        ...
    wonttell wonttell 22-25 Jul 20, 2008

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    From Each Day A New Beginning

    A woman who has no way of expressing herself and of realizing herself as a full human has nothing else to turn to but the owning of material things. —Enriqueta Longeaux y Vasquez Each of us struggling with these Twelve Steps is finding self-expression and self-definition...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Oct 15, 2013

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    I am stuck in a stupid pointless unfeeling

    relationship that is ruining every good part of me. I love my girlfriend but we dont have much in common we dont have sex and i doubt shes attracted to me we rarly communicate and i know im missing somthing great right now settling for her. So why am i still with her? Habits...
    StormOokami StormOokami 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 24, 2014

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    If We Do Not We Are Perfect ..... Not

    There are many cycles to break out of ... right now I am drinking to much beer and smoking to much. Sometimes the cycles just creep up on me and it takes some time to realize. I believe no one is perfect and its only denial that can hurt us. If we take the time to examine, I...
    francis28340 francis28340 61-65, M May 18, 2008

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    The Big Circle

    I had a huge revelation recently and I am caught up in a cycle that has to stop. I am extremely hard on myself and talk negatively daily. Done it as far back as I can remember and it's going to stop. Hard to catch myself sometimes but making a concerted effort to stop it...
    VoteForPedro VoteForPedro 51-55, F Jul 9, 2012

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    Strike Three...not Looking For #4....

    I guess my story starts when I was married to my first husband....he was abusive and not grown up yet. We loved each other alot but things just got really bad fast...he cheated, we fought then my daughter came into the picture. To make a long story short things happened and I...
    truetomyself truetomyself 46-50, F 4 Responses Aug 30, 2011

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    My Current Life

    Ok here it is, my life is kinda dull right now. I'll start off with my job. I'm a landscaper and it's alot harder than you might think. I have a TON of stress from my job due to the fact that I get ragged on most of the time for stupid mistakes and I'm usually the one to get in...
    Hopelessinjersey Hopelessinjersey 22-25, M Sep 13, 2009

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    I think this speaks for it's self.

    N 14 years I have been married and up and down up and down. But hey is it bad or is it for the kids or is it because it is what has to be done?
    lu7998 lu7998 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 24, 2014

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    Ehm

    Depression.I need to break the cycle.*throws depression into a puddle**puts on rain boots and goes back to pick depression up**decides to throw depression into the ocean**hopes that depression burns in the pits of hell*:D
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 70+, F 2 Responses Sep 19, 2011

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    Random

    So some days it's like the world is at my feet. But that's only when I get what I want. There is this vicious cycle I'm afraid i've created for myself. I hate to be alone, I think. At times I'm totally comfortable being alone. But At times I just want an escape. I...
    huggsnkissezz huggsnkissezz 18-21 1 Response Feb 18, 2009

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    Ellytheoutcast Ellytheoutcast 13-15, F May 2, 2014

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    I was doing a photo edit (because sometimes

    that's my only real way to be myself in life). And I labeled it with one of my favorite quotes. "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results each time". Albert Einstein Man was truly smart on so many levels. And this is so true.
    lu7998 lu7998 31-35, F May 2, 2014

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    I Guess Im Stuck In the Middle

    im stuck in a cycle of demanding friendships and emotional leaches, i find it hard to find time to myself, i try to make more time, its a sort of guilt for no being enough, for not being more available, i am steadily breaking free though, little by little
    Donalh Donalh 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 8, 2008

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    Computer

    I need to get it out. Mind feels clouded. I waste my days off . I need to clean my room, I run off to work everyday. I feel most energetic to get something done before I must go to work. I feel spiritual when I am on EP. I listen to my music. Someone, please, I just thought it...
    NateGreat4 NateGreat4 31-35, M Oct 6, 2011

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    Broke the Mold

    Finally Stepped outside the Cycle. Been happy going on two weeks now. Nothing Can change that. Once you Say no more Put your foot down. Walk to the light. Open your heart and begin to shine. You Find that Cycle Breaking. I am happy with my choices now.. Next Keep Pushing no...
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 8, 2008

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    My life seems like a series of hit and runs, and at times I find myself returning to the scene of my own crimes. I accept and im fully aware that life is going to have its up's...
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    The more I find myself, the more people I lose.
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    After finding myself, I just want to feel alive.
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    I am going through a lot right now. Trying to figure out who I am, what I believe, how to express myself, how to be comfortable in my own skin, & how to do all that without...
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    Today can be considered normal to some but for me I can't seem to catch a break. Just it one thing after another and more and more stress being added on and on. It to the point i...
    kankuro18 kankuro18 18-21, M Apr 13

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    Sometimes I cause my own headaches. I need to keep myself from sinking into the "what if's", "how come's","what's the purpose ","should I's", and "why not's". I surprise myself...
    aLadywithoutaclue aLadywithoutaclue 22-25, F Apr 20

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    20th April 2015 What I truly wish….to is free in every possible way. Not patriotic freedom but when one is separated from the reality and a sense of self…..oblivion. A person...
    HopeEverlasting HopeEverlasting 31-35, F Apr 20

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    This just seems to be natural. Scenario: I'm at a gas station, alone, at about 8:00. I see a older black man at the gas station. Irrationally, stupidly, I get nervous. I then...
    BlackDigitalis BlackDigitalis 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    How can I say this.... ok..... Say l found an awesome puzzel that iv been looking for forever, and now that I have this awesome puzzel, I just sit and do nothing with it. Like I...
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 17

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    We all grow and change, but lately I realized in the process of getting my **** together after being crazy for awhile - I'm no longer sure of who I am. Certain things I do know...
    unsuresubmaybe unsuresubmaybe 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 13

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    It's odd but I have found myself but it's hard finding ways to express the bits of me left but I'm giving it a shot and to some manner it's working
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 20

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    I've come to the crossroad in my life where... I have slim tolerance for those that treat me or others poorly. In fact after 15 years of marriage, divorce, death of my baby brother...
    BambooChic BambooChic 36-40, F 1 day ago

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    we will never find ourselves, only in bits in pieces... and I say this because as we age we gain knowledge and wisdom which helps us find out more about ourselves..
    nenabee nenabee 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    One of the greatest challenge in life is discovering who you are. The second greatest is being happy with what you find.
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    One thing I found out about myself, is that I'm that friend that's down to sit in a car with you at 3am and talk about whatever.
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 16

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    I overthink myself into bad moods :/
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 16

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    Becoming deeply attracted to a man based mostly on his intellect, whit, and sarcasm. It's crazy, but I find it all so appealing.
    BambooChic BambooChic 36-40, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I am mine, before I am ever anyone else's.
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    Kinda emotional, kinda emotionless.
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F Apr 16

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    You can only push yourself so hard until everything ends up collapsed. Being pulled back and forth, it's like you have no control. In reality, there's a way out of every problem.
    Kkgunny Kkgunny 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 19

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    Don't know why but i've always been attracted by weird things to other people. Like Domination / Submission, feet, leather, latex... Very ashamed to talk about it with people i...
    ScummyGuy ScummyGuy 18-21, M Apr 19

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    I'm still kind of lost. :/
    EgoInSomnisResurget EgoInSomnisResurget 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 19

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    I only grow apart from people who don't grow.
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F Apr 19

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    I'm honestly just trying to level up spiritually, mentally, financially, physically and emotionally.
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F Apr 19

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