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I Find Myself In a Cycle That I Need to Break

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 195 People

    And Who Doesn't?

    We all find ourselves in this point at some moment of our lives... Sometimes you dont really know why (specially at the beggining) but in the end... there's this little thing... sometimes a secret... that just needs to be told so we can be free        ...
    wonttell wonttell 22-25 Jul 20, 2008

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    Since I'm not on school right now,

    not working, and all my friends are busy these days, I haven't been doing much of anything at all lately. It's just been a cycle of eating, sleeping, and Internet surfing. The break was nice at first, but now it's just depressing. And after lazing about so much, I can't find...
    almaera almaera 18-21, F Apr 24, 2014

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    My Current Life

    Ok here it is, my life is kinda dull right now. I'll start off with my job. I'm a landscaper and it's alot harder than you might think. I have a TON of stress from my job due to the fact that I get ragged on most of the time for stupid mistakes and I'm usually the one to get in...
    Hopelessinjersey Hopelessinjersey 22-25, M Sep 13, 2009

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    Ehm

    Depression.I need to break the cycle.*throws depression into a puddle**puts on rain boots and goes back to pick depression up**decides to throw depression into the ocean**hopes that depression burns in the pits of hell*:D
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 70+, F 2 Responses Sep 19, 2011

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    From Each Day A New Beginning

    A woman who has no way of expressing herself and of realizing herself as a full human has nothing else to turn to but the owning of material things. —Enriqueta Longeaux y Vasquez Each of us struggling with these Twelve Steps is finding self-expression and self-definition...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Oct 15, 2013

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    If We Do Not We Are Perfect ..... Not

    There are many cycles to break out of ... right now I am drinking to much beer and smoking to much. Sometimes the cycles just creep up on me and it takes some time to realize. I believe no one is perfect and its only denial that can hurt us. If we take the time to examine, I...
    francis28340 francis28340 61-65, M May 18, 2008

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    I Guess Im Stuck In the Middle

    im stuck in a cycle of demanding friendships and emotional leaches, i find it hard to find time to myself, i try to make more time, its a sort of guilt for no being enough, for not being more available, i am steadily breaking free though, little by little
    Donalh Donalh 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 8, 2008

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    Broke the Mold

    Finally Stepped outside the Cycle. Been happy going on two weeks now. Nothing Can change that. Once you Say no more Put your foot down. Walk to the light. Open your heart and begin to shine. You Find that Cycle Breaking. I am happy with my choices now.. Next Keep Pushing no...
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 8, 2008

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    I was doing a photo edit (because sometimes

    that's my only real way to be myself in life). And I labeled it with one of my favorite quotes. "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results each time". Albert Einstein Man was truly smart on so many levels. And this is so true.
    lu7998 lu7998 31-35, F May 2, 2014

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    Computer

    I need to get it out. Mind feels clouded. I waste my days off . I need to clean my room, I run off to work everyday. I feel most energetic to get something done before I must go to work. I feel spiritual when I am on EP. I listen to my music. Someone, please, I just thought it...
    NateGreat4 NateGreat4 31-35, M Oct 6, 2011

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    I am stuck in a stupid pointless unfeeling

    relationship that is ruining every good part of me. I love my girlfriend but we dont have much in common we dont have sex and i doubt shes attracted to me we rarly communicate and i know im missing somthing great right now settling for her. So why am i still with her? Habits...
    StormOokami StormOokami 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 24, 2014

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    Random

    So some days it's like the world is at my feet. But that's only when I get what I want. There is this vicious cycle I'm afraid i've created for myself. I hate to be alone, I think. At times I'm totally comfortable being alone. But At times I just want an escape. I...
    huggsnkissezz huggsnkissezz 18-21 1 Response Feb 18, 2009

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    I think this speaks for it's self.

    N 14 years I have been married and up and down up and down. But hey is it bad or is it for the kids or is it because it is what has to be done?
    lu7998 lu7998 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 24, 2014

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    Strike Three...not Looking For #4....

    I guess my story starts when I was married to my first husband....he was abusive and not grown up yet. We loved each other alot but things just got really bad fast...he cheated, we fought then my daughter came into the picture. To make a long story short things happened and I...
    truetomyself truetomyself 46-50, F 4 Responses Aug 30, 2011

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    Ellytheoutcast Ellytheoutcast 13-15, F May 2, 2014

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    The Big Circle

    I had a huge revelation recently and I am caught up in a cycle that has to stop. I am extremely hard on myself and talk negatively daily. Done it as far back as I can remember and it's going to stop. Hard to catch myself sometimes but making a concerted effort to stop it...
    VoteForPedro VoteForPedro 51-55, F Jul 9, 2012

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    A Bad Romance

    It seems I'm with a guy that will love love love me and then go back to his baby mama. We go through this cycle of him being nice, getting distant, deciding he wants to be with no one, taking me back, making things up to me, and then it starts all over again. I guess the...
    joeysemtex joeysemtex 18-21, F Apr 12, 2010

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    BlackDigitalis BlackDigitalis 13-15, F 1 Response May 1

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    I've come to the crossroad in my life where... I have slim tolerance for those that treat me or others poorly. In fact after 15 years of marriage, divorce, death of my baby brother...
    BambooChic BambooChic 36-40, F May 4

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    I am alone in my apartment, it is unfortunate. I leave to do what I need to do but then I come home and I'm all alone, just me. What I wouldn't give for some female companionship...
    turnpike1971 turnpike1971 41-45, M May 7

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    Becoming deeply attracted to a man based mostly on his intellect, whit, and sarcasm. It's crazy, but I find it all so appealing.
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    I've been hearing from some people that I'm creepy and such. So I'm here to say sorry to the people that I have come across to strong to. I don't have a significant other and with...
    Growinggirl31 Growinggirl31 22-25, F 4 Responses May 1

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    I hate to admit it. but ive seen some beautiful and sexy young girls. im lucky I live next to a high school
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    I'm applying to companies right now and I see a lot of stuff I can do. There are some jobs that I can get hired for right now but are insanely boring and some jobs that are...
    ranjan25 ranjan25 31-35, F May 8

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    I am considering the idea, > Write down how you feel about your whole life,bad memories,pictures of people who give you bad memories.and put them in a box, write bad memories on it...
    petramullins petramullins 13-15, F May 16

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    We entangle ourselves in knots of our own making and struggle, lonely and confused.
    Trying2FixIt1 Trying2FixIt1 36-40, F 1 Response May 17

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    (..close enough.) I realized that I'm kind of a hormone junkie. That's all I wanted to say.
    junedew junedew 18-21, F 18 hrs ago

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    I'm here again tonight, just when i thought i should have by now feeling more better about myself after the short escape from the hermit shell i've been self-confined in - I'm not...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F May 9

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    I had a good morning today and yes, I hate waking up because it's cold outside of the bed, but I was okay. I actually spent time with my mum and talked to her and went shopping...
    TunedOut TunedOut 16-17, F 2 Responses May 3

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    I cant seem to combat against it for very long, my mind always seems to find its way trickling back into thoughts of him...He, who is my best friend. I felt awkward about the...
    SophisticatedPsychopath SophisticatedPsychopath 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    Hello EP. This is the first time I've gotten back on this site since November of last year. It's been too long.. I'm finding myself ready to burst with too much on my mind and in...
    UniqueToTheCore UniqueToTheCore 26-30, F 4 Responses May 9

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    so I've been trying to stop drinking, just because its done more bad than good to me. I really don't think my drinking is as extreme as others but I find myself drinking just to...
    teehee342 teehee342 18-21, F 5 Responses May 11

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    I find myself lusting for my ex but having no real desire to be with him. Makes me question myself a bit. Am I capable of loving anyone? Maybe it's me with the issues. Shouldn't I...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F 2 Responses May 2

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    I am a 20 year old from London who studies Performance at University, which is about to end in a week. After that ill be off to America for five months working and experiencing new...
    Amyflorence Amyflorence 18-21, F 1 Response May 4

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    I wish I could just sleep forever. I'm tired of having to explain myself over and over and over again only to find myself being treated the way people assume of me to be. Life...
    kamparejok kamparejok 16-17, F 1 Response May 1

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    I am working on myself trying to find myself, and who I am.
    hazlewood hazlewood 16-17, F 2 Responses May 2

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    I've always had trouble with my self-esteem and base it too much on winning the approval of others. Because I always view myself as needing to have something to offer other people...
    brianwmc9 brianwmc9 22-25, M 5 Responses May 6

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    I´m just starting to learn to lose myself...and he, he is just learning to find myself...
    Brunette4U Brunette4U 31-35, F 3 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    1. I'm a Christian male 2. I'm separated from wife and children 3. light skin complexion 4. professional driver 5. love football 6. loner 7. find myself parked in parking lots...
    mattjr mattjr 41-45, M 1 Response May 2

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    I seem to find myself at this place quite often . Questioning others real intent . Questioning everything about everyone . My lack of trust in others prevents me in making any real...
    chernobylplayground chernobylplayground 36-40, F 11 Responses May 18

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    I'm trying to work on finding myself but I have no idea where to start. I feel like I don't know what I want anymore. Like everything I wanted before is just so out of reach. I...
    Ladyred93 Ladyred93 18-21, F 3 Responses May 18

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    I know I shouldn't be comparing with other people. I should be comparing with myself. I need to stay positive and feel genuinely happy for other people's successes and achievements...
    rileystella rileystella 22-25, F 3 Responses May 8

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    I can't sleep in a bed by myself. I need someone next to me, in my arms.
    deadine deadine 18-21, M May 16

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