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I Find Myself In a Cycle That I Need to Break

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    I think this speaks for it's self.

    N 14 years I have been married and up and down up and down. But hey is it bad or is it for the kids or is it because it is what has to be done?
    lu7998 lu7998 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 24, 2014

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    The Big Circle

    I had a huge revelation recently and I am caught up in a cycle that has to stop. I am extremely hard on myself and talk negatively daily. Done it as far back as I can remember and it's going to stop. Hard to catch myself sometimes but making a concerted effort to stop it...
    VoteForPedro VoteForPedro 51-55, F Jul 9, 2012

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    I was doing a photo edit (because sometimes

    that's my only real way to be myself in life). And I labeled it with one of my favorite quotes. "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results each time". Albert Einstein Man was truly smart on so many levels. And this is so true.
    lu7998 lu7998 36-40, F May 2, 2014

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    If We Do Not We Are Perfect ..... Not

    There are many cycles to break out of ... right now I am drinking to much beer and smoking to much. Sometimes the cycles just creep up on me and it takes some time to realize. I believe no one is perfect and its only denial that can hurt us. If we take the time to examine, I...
    francis28340 francis28340 61-65, M May 18, 2008

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    imveryboring imveryboring 13-15, F May 2, 2014

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    A Bad Romance

    It seems I'm with a guy that will love love love me and then go back to his baby mama. We go through this cycle of him being nice, getting distant, deciding he wants to be with no one, taking me back, making things up to me, and then it starts all over again. I guess the...
    joeysemtex joeysemtex 18-21, F Apr 12, 2010

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    My Current Life

    Ok here it is, my life is kinda dull right now. I'll start off with my job. I'm a landscaper and it's alot harder than you might think. I have a TON of stress from my job due to the fact that I get ragged on most of the time for stupid mistakes and I'm usually the one to get in...
    Hopelessinjersey Hopelessinjersey 22-25, M Sep 13, 2009

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    Computer

    I need to get it out. Mind feels clouded. I waste my days off . I need to clean my room, I run off to work everyday. I feel most energetic to get something done before I must go to work. I feel spiritual when I am on EP. I listen to my music. Someone, please, I just thought it...
    NateGreat4 NateGreat4 31-35, M Oct 6, 2011

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    I Guess Im Stuck In the Middle

    im stuck in a cycle of demanding friendships and emotional leaches, i find it hard to find time to myself, i try to make more time, its a sort of guilt for no being enough, for not being more available, i am steadily breaking free though, little by little
    Donalh Donalh 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 8, 2008

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    Strike Three...not Looking For #4....

    I guess my story starts when I was married to my first husband....he was abusive and not grown up yet. We loved each other alot but things just got really bad fast...he cheated, we fought then my daughter came into the picture. To make a long story short things happened and I...
    truetomyself truetomyself 46-50, F 4 Responses Aug 30, 2011

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    Random

    So some days it's like the world is at my feet. But that's only when I get what I want. There is this vicious cycle I'm afraid i've created for myself. I hate to be alone, I think. At times I'm totally comfortable being alone. But At times I just want an escape. I...
    huggsnkissezz huggsnkissezz 18-21 1 Response Feb 18, 2009

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    Broke the Mold

    Finally Stepped outside the Cycle. Been happy going on two weeks now. Nothing Can change that. Once you Say no more Put your foot down. Walk to the light. Open your heart and begin to shine. You Find that Cycle Breaking. I am happy with my choices now.. Next Keep Pushing no...
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 8, 2008

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    From Each Day A New Beginning

    A woman who has no way of expressing herself and of realizing herself as a full human has nothing else to turn to but the owning of material things. —Enriqueta Longeaux y Vasquez Each of us struggling with these Twelve Steps is finding self-expression and self-definition...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Oct 15, 2013

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    And Who Doesn't?

    We all find ourselves in this point at some moment of our lives... Sometimes you dont really know why (specially at the beggining) but in the end... there's this little thing... sometimes a secret... that just needs to be told so we can be free        ...
    wonttell wonttell 22-25 Jul 20, 2008

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    I am stuck in a stupid pointless unfeeling

    relationship that is ruining every good part of me. I love my girlfriend but we dont have much in common we dont have sex and i doubt shes attracted to me we rarly communicate and i know im missing somthing great right now settling for her. So why am i still with her? Habits...
    StormOokami StormOokami 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 24, 2014

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    Ehm

    Depression.I need to break the cycle.*throws depression into a puddle**puts on rain boots and goes back to pick depression up**decides to throw depression into the ocean**hopes that depression burns in the pits of hell*:D
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25 2 Responses Sep 19, 2011

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    Since I'm not on school right now,

    not working, and all my friends are busy these days, I haven't been doing much of anything at all lately. It's just been a cycle of eating, sleeping, and Internet surfing. The break was nice at first, but now it's just depressing. And after lazing about so much, I can't find...
    almaera almaera 18-21, F Apr 24, 2014

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    I've asked this to myself for the past 5 years. sometimes I wish faking your death was possible somehow, like an actual wake & funeral. just to see the effect. & I would totally...
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    I just want to say I was just talking to myself a minute ago and I was complaining about me talking to myself again cause its just a habit and then "Everybody Talks" by Neon Trees...
    wingsofcas wingsofcas 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    I have a good life. Now listen to me ***** about it. Most recently, my parents were abruptly forced into retirement and came to live with me. Can't really complain, they give me...
    RustinCohle RustinCohle 18-21, M 2 hrs ago

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    Yeah, so... I'm too ugly to be loved... I don't go anywhere and sometimes I'm afraid to because I fear rejection... I felt like if I ever lost weight, I know I'd be in check, so...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 4 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    good morning guys....i am thinking to join gym,but i fail to find motivation,i need a gym partner although i have some plans to get in better shape by the end of this year and...
    deepakchopra6192 deepakchopra6192 22-25, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    It's been 10 months since we've broken up and honestly, losing him was the best thing that ever happened to me. It took losing him to find myself. I've accomplished so much without...
    teenagelesley teenagelesley 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    "Don't hang onto the past" "Move on from what happened" "You're making a problem out of nothing" It isn't nothing when I can't sleep at night due to being too restless because of...
    Kkgunny Kkgunny 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    When you go through these groups do you read the title and do a little self-assessment to see if it applies to you? In essence, I've led an easy life, never in great need, devoid...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    .. And it was like everything i did was falling apart.Everything i had was fleeting and everybody i loved ..they were losing trust on me.I couldn't find myself anywhere in their...
    anupamasatyarthi anupamasatyarthi 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I find myself to be absolutely repulsive. Every person I've come across has rejected me or turned me away (except for one) because I'm too negative. I can't help it if I have this...
    JSylvia1015 JSylvia1015 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    But here I am...I'm teaching myself to eat breakfast...194calories...i ate the other piece of turkey bacon[not seen]
    lonelysoul1088 lonelysoul1088 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    Actually, I'm talking to the TV (same difference). I'm kind of a news junkie, but lately the stories being covered and the spin being put on them are just plain annoying in my view...
    Dave002 Dave002 56-60, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I married young... I loved being married, but being single for the last year has really made me examine who I am as an individual. I realize that as independent as my husband and...
    Dahlia2020 Dahlia2020 31-35, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm growing emotionally weaker and weaker everyday. I'm starting to give up on life and contemplating on suicide right now, I'm on the edge. Through all my years of high school and...
    emlugo1996 emlugo1996 18-21, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Wake up. . Tidy up.. Go to moms. Shopping Tidying Making the lunch Cycle home.. Cook dinner Cycle to work Do three peoples jobs Cycle home Coffee Shower Bed... Repeat ad...
    expressomarkie expressomarkie 46-50, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    "Reap" I read a story about the land of Judea being cursed for their sins becoming barren, unfruitful, sowing good seeds growing unattended with repentance and good works attended...
    sister11 sister11 36-40, F 5 days ago

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    emotional clearing is a gateway to the next level of development on the individual basis it seems. since yesterday; being emotionally triggered revealed many things perhaps i was...
    Solongotgon Solongotgon 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    Hey everyone, the name's Floyd and i'm a proud Jamaican. At the moment i find myself in a bit of a financial situation where i am falling behind on most of my monthly obligations...
    floydowner floydowner 26-30, M 6 days ago

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    I keep finding myself keep going on his Facebook and Twitter profiles all the time and it's doing my head in because he's acting normal like nothing's wrong.. And this little slag...
    Victoriaa95 Victoriaa95 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    another day another story cherishing the hate gifted to us knowing more, making all pointless what makes sense is silence in which we judge ourselves and living in the prison...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I was with this guy for 5 years (I am 24, he is 28)I had known him for 7. We started out as best friends. We met on Valentine's Day, had the same birthdays, lived in the same...
    NatashandAres NatashandAres 22-25, F a week ago

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    I was with this guy for 5 years (I am 24, he is 28)I had known him for 7. We started out as best friends. We met on Valentine's Day, had the same birthdays, lived in the same...
    NatashandAres NatashandAres 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I don't want I be gay. However, my feelings insist on me being gay. A gay **** pop-up appeared one time when I was watching a show on an apparently unprotected website, and it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response a week ago

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    I swear I really don't know who I am. It is really messed up. I don't know what makes up me anymore. Can a person go through life and enjoy it not knowing who they are because...
    jenjef jenjef 36-40, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm not sure how long I will be gone but I know I will be back. Hubs had a heart to heart with me today and said he was concerned about the amount of time I spend on EP. He knows...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 16 Responses Jul 21

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    Many people who stumble on my profile will read my experiences, stories, see my picture; and assume that I am a deviant who's sole purpose is to fulfill some teenage masturbatory...
    PatrickMoosePants PatrickMoosePants 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 20

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