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I Find Myself In a Cycle That I Need to Break

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    Strike Three...not Looking For #4....

    I guess my story starts when I was married to my first husband....he was abusive and not grown up yet. We loved each other alot but things just got really bad fast...he cheated, we fought then my daughter came into the picture. To make a long story short things happened and I...
    truetomyself truetomyself 46-50, F 4 Responses Aug 30, 2011

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    From Each Day A New Beginning

    A woman who has no way of expressing herself and of realizing herself as a full human has nothing else to turn to but the owning of material things. —Enriqueta Longeaux y Vasquez Each of us struggling with these Twelve Steps is finding self-expression and self-definition...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Oct 15, 2013

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    A Bad Romance

    It seems I'm with a guy that will love love love me and then go back to his baby mama. We go through this cycle of him being nice, getting distant, deciding he wants to be with no one, taking me back, making things up to me, and then it starts all over again. I guess the...
    joeysemtex joeysemtex 18-21, F Apr 12, 2010

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    I am stuck in a stupid pointless unfeeling

    relationship that is ruining every good part of me. I love my girlfriend but we dont have much in common we dont have sex and i doubt shes attracted to me we rarly communicate and i know im missing somthing great right now settling for her. So why am i still with her? Habits...
    StormOokami StormOokami 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 24

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    The Big Circle

    I had a huge revelation recently and I am caught up in a cycle that has to stop. I am extremely hard on myself and talk negatively daily. Done it as far back as I can remember and it's going to stop. Hard to catch myself sometimes but making a concerted effort to stop it...
    VoteForPedro VoteForPedro 51-55, F Jul 9, 2012

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    Wishingtobegone Wishingtobegone 16-17, F 2 Responses May 2

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    And Who Doesn't?

    We all find ourselves in this point at some moment of our lives... Sometimes you dont really know why (specially at the beggining) but in the end... there's this little thing... sometimes a secret... that just needs to be told so we can be free        ...
    wonttell wonttell 22-25 Jul 20, 2008

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    Since I'm not on school right now,

    not working, and all my friends are busy these days, I haven't been doing much of anything at all lately. It's just been a cycle of eating, sleeping, and Internet surfing. The break was nice at first, but now it's just depressing. And after lazing about so much, I can't find...
    almaera almaera 18-21, F Apr 24

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    I was doing a photo edit (because sometimes

    that's my only real way to be myself in life). And I labeled it with one of my favorite quotes. "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results each time". Albert Einstein Man was truly smart on so many levels. And this is so true.
    lu7998 lu7998 31-35, F May 2

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    If We Do Not We Are Perfect ..... Not

    There are many cycles to break out of ... right now I am drinking to much beer and smoking to much. Sometimes the cycles just creep up on me and it takes some time to realize. I believe no one is perfect and its only denial that can hurt us. If we take the time to examine, I...
    francis28340 francis28340 61-65, M May 18, 2008

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    Random

    So some days it's like the world is at my feet. But that's only when I get what I want. There is this vicious cycle I'm afraid i've created for myself. I hate to be alone, I think. At times I'm totally comfortable being alone. But At times I just want an escape. I...
    huggsnkissezz huggsnkissezz 18-21 1 Response Feb 18, 2009

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    Broke the Mold

    Finally Stepped outside the Cycle. Been happy going on two weeks now. Nothing Can change that. Once you Say no more Put your foot down. Walk to the light. Open your heart and begin to shine. You Find that Cycle Breaking. I am happy with my choices now.. Next Keep Pushing no...
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 8, 2008

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    My Current Life

    Ok here it is, my life is kinda dull right now. I'll start off with my job. I'm a landscaper and it's alot harder than you might think. I have a TON of stress from my job due to the fact that I get ragged on most of the time for stupid mistakes and I'm usually the one to get in...
    Hopelessinjersey Hopelessinjersey 22-25, M Sep 13, 2009

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    I Guess Im Stuck In the Middle

    im stuck in a cycle of demanding friendships and emotional leaches, i find it hard to find time to myself, i try to make more time, its a sort of guilt for no being enough, for not being more available, i am steadily breaking free though, little by little
    Donalh Donalh 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 8, 2008

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    Ehm

    Depression.I need to break the cycle.*throws depression into a puddle**puts on rain boots and goes back to pick depression up**decides to throw depression into the ocean**hopes that depression burns in the pits of hell*:D
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 19, 2011

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    I think this speaks for it's self.

    N 14 years I have been married and up and down up and down. But hey is it bad or is it for the kids or is it because it is what has to be done?
    lu7998 lu7998 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 24

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    Computer

    I need to get it out. Mind feels clouded. I waste my days off . I need to clean my room, I run off to work everyday. I feel most energetic to get something done before I must go to work. I feel spiritual when I am on EP. I listen to my music. Someone, please, I just thought it...
    NateGreat4 NateGreat4 31-35, M Oct 6, 2011

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    I've been trying out different ways to find happiness in myself.. Listening to different kinds of music, exposing myself to new cultures and lifestyles, It helps quite a bit...
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    I know what it feels like to face the darkness.. Feeling lonely.. Its the feeling I know best. I hate feeling this way, Ive gotten out of it once before but its like a relapse but...
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    Oh wait! There I am! Finding yourself is the wring task. The correct would be "getting busy living and choosing little goals to accomplish".
    davidinverness davidinverness 22-25, M Jun 26

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    It's weird but in just like, "Oh my good, I'm too funny. I'll kill myself with laughter."
    ILoveYourSmile ILoveYourSmile 13-15, F Jul 10

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    Hate speaking to people bc I know how annoying I am and I don't want to annoy them
    fashionanxiety fashionanxiety 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 28

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    don't know what im doing, don't know what i want to do, don't know where im going haha hmmm....
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    I have a giant whole in my heart and soul iv been trying to fill my whole life and it's hard to do
    kintobeans kintobeans 22-25, M Jul 7

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    I dont know what should I do but I have to do something
    Darlinghton Darlinghton 18-21, M Jul 12

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    always and forever - there's a new chapter to discover all the time, in the book of my life
    Li1981 Li1981 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    I now realize that you should never say your jealous or envy anybody. You ate yourself & have the things you have to mold you. I'm so happy with the knowledge i have & my true...
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    Suicide has always been in the back of mind for as long as I can remember. Tonight, I could not wish for anything more realistic than that sweet release. A year ago I moved two...
    BanTheChan BanTheChan 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Okay , so yes I'm very young and maybe this is crazy cuz people say that people my age don't know what love is .. But I feel terrible . I fell in love with my Bestfriend , we dated...
    iamangel123 iamangel123 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 1

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    TinkerFae TinkerFae 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 25

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    I've spend the past few months helping my friends and family with their own emotional and mental issues that I haven't made time to help myself and I've reached a point where I...
    Spencer7742 Spencer7742 18-21, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    What to do... When you find yourself wanting to hold someone and tell them how much you love and care for them but they no longer seem to have the time how do you pretend it doesn...
    Forbiddenkisses Forbiddenkisses 22-25, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I need to write like I need to breathe, but lately there is no place for my words to fall. I am tired of being all over the map looking for a place to land. I have a therapist...
    truthandbeauty truthandbeauty 36-40, F 2 Responses Jun 25

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    I have been being less safe with almost everything I do. I won't buckle up when I'm in the car, I'll hold scissors pointy side up, I know I'm to cowardly to kill myself. So I just...
    hugrycaterpillar hugrycaterpillar 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    Sometimes I swear I have split personalities! Part of me Thinks of Brenda as a loving mother and part of me doesn't understand her. I love her dearly, but I find myself not...
    SaphiraJane SaphiraJane 16-17, F Jun 29

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    I seem to always need someone to talk to...it's hard my best friend/soulmate loving husband died in December and I find myself talking to myself a lot when I'm alone...idk at least...
    dmlongobardo23 dmlongobardo23 26-30, F 11 Responses Jul 7

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    Well a year has come and it has also passed , since I've found out my wife was having an affair , yes we talked and tried to make it through everything together but a lot can and...
    juniorjohn juniorjohn 31-35 Jul 12

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    So July 16th 2006 12:30pm I lost the brightness in my life, the man who held my hand when I fell over, the one who read me bedtime stories and held me when I was afraid, the one...
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    My itch is that I didn't have the luxury of enjoying my childhood; I grew up too fast, like Anakin. I've constantly transitioned, adapted and overachieved to an unhealthy point...
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    My b/f & I have been together 7mnths & he just isn't a very outwardly affectionate person. I'm clingy & touchy feely by nature while he is more of the loner kind of keeps to...
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    My mom and me never get along well at all. She was very emotionally aloof when i was growing up and she never hugged me at all. Even right now, she would always degraded me...
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    Cry cry cry.. anybody else go through this? I have absolutely no clue why I'm balling (crying) lol. I have nothing to be sad about right now, yet here I find myself. What even?
    JayPeeTee JayPeeTee 22-25, M 3 Responses Jun 23

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    I just found out Im pregnant and I am so upset..I have 3 young children and my husband is ill.. his medical issues take up all his time as it is... my kids are 4,6 and 1 I work...
    ohshit101 ohshit101 36-40, F 2 Responses Jun 25

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