I Find Myself In a Cycle That I Need to Break

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 239 People

    Strike Three...not Looking For #4....

    I guess my story starts when I was married to my first husband....he was abusive and not grown up yet. We loved each other alot but things just got really bad fast...he cheated, we fought then my daughter came into the picture. To make a long story short things happened and I...
    truetomyself truetomyself
    46-50, F
    4 Responses Aug 30, 2011

    Random

    So some days it's like the world is at my feet. But that's only when I get what I want. There is this vicious cycle I'm afraid i've created for myself. I hate to be alone, I think. At times I'm totally comfortable being alone. But At times I just want an escape. I...
    huggsnkissezz huggsnkissezz
    18-21
    1 Response Feb 18, 2009

    Computer

    I need to get it out. Mind feels clouded. I waste my days off . I need to clean my room, I run off to work everyday. I feel most energetic to get something done before I must go to work. I feel spiritual when I am on EP. I listen to my music. Someone, please, I just thought it...
    NateGreat4 NateGreat4
    31-35, M
    Oct 6, 2011

    The Big Circle

    I had a huge revelation recently and I am caught up in a cycle that has to stop. I am extremely hard on myself and talk negatively daily. Done it as far back as I can remember and it's going to stop. Hard to catch myself sometimes but making a concerted effort to stop it...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 9, 2012

    And Who Doesn't?

    We all find ourselves in this point at some moment of our lives... Sometimes you dont really know why (specially at the beggining) but in the end... there's this little thing... sometimes a secret... that just needs to be told so we can be free        ...
    wonttell wonttell
    22-25
    Jul 20, 2008

    I was doing a photo edit (because sometimes

    that's my only real way to be myself in life). And I labeled it with one of my favorite quotes. "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results each time". Albert Einstein Man was truly smart on so many levels. And this is so true.
    lu7998 lu7998
    36-40, F
    May 2, 2014

    Ehm

    Depression.I need to break the cycle.*throws depression into a puddle**puts on rain boots and goes back to pick depression up**decides to throw depression into the ocean**hopes that depression burns in the pits of hell*:D
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    22-25
    2 Responses Sep 19, 2011

    If We Do Not We Are Perfect ..... Not

    There are many cycles to break out of ... right now I am drinking to much beer and smoking to much. Sometimes the cycles just creep up on me and it takes some time to realize. I believe no one is perfect and its only denial that can hurt us. If we take the time to examine, I...
    francis28340 francis28340
    61-65, M
    May 18, 2008

    I really find myself in a closed circle the

    same person with same conditions repeat himself over and over again with different people in my life Maybe small things are different in the personality or how they treat me but the main issues are being repeated over and over I don't understand why? Now I met 5 of them In...
    Nouf1 Nouf1
    26-30, F
    Apr 17

    I Guess Im Stuck In the Middle

    im stuck in a cycle of demanding friendships and emotional leaches, i find it hard to find time to myself, i try to make more time, its a sort of guilt for no being enough, for not being more available, i am steadily breaking free though, little by little
    Donalh Donalh
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 8, 2008

    A Bad Romance

    It seems I'm with a guy that will love love love me and then go back to his baby mama. We go through this cycle of him being nice, getting distant, deciding he wants to be with no one, taking me back, making things up to me, and then it starts all over again. I guess the...
    joeysemtex joeysemtex
    18-21, F
    Apr 12, 2010

    My Current Life

    Ok here it is, my life is kinda dull right now. I'll start off with my job. I'm a landscaper and it's alot harder than you might think. I have a TON of stress from my job due to the fact that I get ragged on most of the time for stupid mistakes and I'm usually the one to get in...
    Hopelessinjersey Hopelessinjersey
    22-25, M
    Sep 13, 2009

    I am stuck in a stupid pointless unfeeling

    relationship that is ruining every good part of me. I love my girlfriend but we dont have much in common we dont have sex and i doubt shes attracted to me we rarly communicate and i know im missing somthing great right now settling for her. So why am i still with her? Habits...
    StormOokami StormOokami
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 24, 2014
    sighselly sighselly
    13-15, F
    May 2, 2014

    From Each Day A New Beginning

    A woman who has no way of expressing herself and of realizing herself as a full human has nothing else to turn to but the owning of material things. —Enriqueta Longeaux y Vasquez Each of us struggling with these Twelve Steps is finding self-expression and self-definition...
    zeeva70 zeeva70
    41-45, F
    Oct 15, 2013

    Since I'm not on school right now,

    not working, and all my friends are busy these days, I haven't been doing much of anything at all lately. It's just been a cycle of eating, sleeping, and Internet surfing. The break was nice at first, but now it's just depressing. And after lazing about so much, I can't find...
    almaera almaera
    18-21, F
    Apr 24, 2014

    I think this speaks for it's self.

    N 14 years I have been married and up and down up and down. But hey is it bad or is it for the kids or is it because it is what has to be done?
    lu7998 lu7998
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 24, 2014

    Broke the Mold

    Finally Stepped outside the Cycle. Been happy going on two weeks now. Nothing Can change that. Once you Say no more Put your foot down. Walk to the light. Open your heart and begin to shine. You Find that Cycle Breaking. I am happy with my choices now.. Next Keep Pushing no...
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 8, 2008

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