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I Find Myself In a Cycle That I Need to Break

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    Ehm

    Depression.I need to break the cycle.*throws depression into a puddle**puts on rain boots and goes back to pick depression up**decides to throw depression into the ocean**hopes that depression burns in the pits of hell*:D
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 19, 2011

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    And Who Doesn't?

    We all find ourselves in this point at some moment of our lives... Sometimes you dont really know why (specially at the beggining) but in the end... there's this little thing... sometimes a secret... that just needs to be told so we can be free        ...
    wonttell wonttell 22-25 Jul 20, 2008

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    Computer

    I need to get it out. Mind feels clouded. I waste my days off . I need to clean my room, I run off to work everyday. I feel most energetic to get something done before I must go to work. I feel spiritual when I am on EP. I listen to my music. Someone, please, I just thought it...
    NateGreat4 NateGreat4 31-35, M Oct 6, 2011

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    The Big Circle

    I had a huge revelation recently and I am caught up in a cycle that has to stop. I am extremely hard on myself and talk negatively daily. Done it as far back as I can remember and it's going to stop. Hard to catch myself sometimes but making a concerted effort to stop it...
    VoteForPedro VoteForPedro 51-55, F Jul 9, 2012

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    Broke the Mold

    Finally Stepped outside the Cycle. Been happy going on two weeks now. Nothing Can change that. Once you Say no more Put your foot down. Walk to the light. Open your heart and begin to shine. You Find that Cycle Breaking. I am happy with my choices now.. Next Keep Pushing no...
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 8, 2008

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    Theycallherelly Theycallherelly 13-15, F 1 Response May 2

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    I am stuck in a stupid pointless unfeeling

    relationship that is ruining every good part of me. I love my girlfriend but we dont have much in common we dont have sex and i doubt shes attracted to me we rarly communicate and i know im missing somthing great right now settling for her. So why am i still with her? Habits...
    StormOokami StormOokami 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 24

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    I Guess Im Stuck In the Middle

    im stuck in a cycle of demanding friendships and emotional leaches, i find it hard to find time to myself, i try to make more time, its a sort of guilt for no being enough, for not being more available, i am steadily breaking free though, little by little
    Donalh Donalh 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 8, 2008

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    A Bad Romance

    It seems I'm with a guy that will love love love me and then go back to his baby mama. We go through this cycle of him being nice, getting distant, deciding he wants to be with no one, taking me back, making things up to me, and then it starts all over again. I guess the...
    joeysemtex joeysemtex 18-21, F Apr 12, 2010

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    From Each Day A New Beginning

    A woman who has no way of expressing herself and of realizing herself as a full human has nothing else to turn to but the owning of material things. —Enriqueta Longeaux y Vasquez Each of us struggling with these Twelve Steps is finding self-expression and self-definition...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Oct 15, 2013

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    If We Do Not We Are Perfect ..... Not

    There are many cycles to break out of ... right now I am drinking to much beer and smoking to much. Sometimes the cycles just creep up on me and it takes some time to realize. I believe no one is perfect and its only denial that can hurt us. If we take the time to examine, I...
    francis28340 francis28340 61-65, M May 18, 2008

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    My Current Life

    Ok here it is, my life is kinda dull right now. I'll start off with my job. I'm a landscaper and it's alot harder than you might think. I have a TON of stress from my job due to the fact that I get ragged on most of the time for stupid mistakes and I'm usually the one to get in...
    Hopelessinjersey Hopelessinjersey 22-25, M Sep 13, 2009

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    Random

    So some days it's like the world is at my feet. But that's only when I get what I want. There is this vicious cycle I'm afraid i've created for myself. I hate to be alone, I think. At times I'm totally comfortable being alone. But At times I just want an escape. I...
    huggsnkissezz huggsnkissezz 18-21 1 Response Feb 18, 2009

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    I was doing a photo edit (because sometimes

    that's my only real way to be myself in life). And I labeled it with one of my favorite quotes. "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results each time". Albert Einstein Man was truly smart on so many levels. And this is so true.
    lu7998 lu7998 31-35, F May 2

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    Since I'm not on school right now,

    not working, and all my friends are busy these days, I haven't been doing much of anything at all lately. It's just been a cycle of eating, sleeping, and Internet surfing. The break was nice at first, but now it's just depressing. And after lazing about so much, I can't find...
    almaera almaera 18-21, F Apr 24

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    I think this speaks for it's self.

    N 14 years I have been married and up and down up and down. But hey is it bad or is it for the kids or is it because it is what has to be done?
    lu7998 lu7998 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 24

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    Strike Three...not Looking For #4....

    I guess my story starts when I was married to my first husband....he was abusive and not grown up yet. We loved each other alot but things just got really bad fast...he cheated, we fought then my daughter came into the picture. To make a long story short things happened and I...
    truetomyself truetomyself 46-50, F 4 Responses Aug 30, 2011

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    I let myself go to this boy and now I am struggling to find who I am. I feel myself changing and I want to get back to the independent, happy person I was. I tried to find my...
    murn murn 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    Who am I? I have no clue! Maybe I don't need to know exactly but just something to work with. Something to build on! So I can build a future for myself!
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    I like to consider myself a normal guy with no real special habits that may put me in any situations that may be seen as conniving. But at times in my life I find that I end up in...
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    People think that I'm the happiest person because I smile and laugh a lot. But actually I'm not. Sometime I just want to end everything when everyone that i trust cut all the...
    Julietxxx Julietxxx 16-17, F Nov 22

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    I don't really understand myself. I don't really feel like there is much motivation for me being here, but at the same time I know I'll never off myself. I'm just super confused...
    dabram71 dabram71 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 3

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    Everyone who terrifies you is sixty-five percent water. And everyone you love is made of stardust, and I know sometimes you cannot even breathe deeply, and the night sky is no...
    Bubblery Bubblery 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    When your best isn't good enough...
    bambi456 bambi456 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 28

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    It happens bit by bit. I get excited when I rediscover old passions and hobbies and get that old contented feeling. I get even more excited when I discover something new to do, or...
    ZigNamaste ZigNamaste 41-45, M 3 Responses Dec 2

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    I have dreams about me but I'm older and I have lost my way of life constantly living in fear and when I wakeup it's the same only now.There is this girl at my school from day one...
    venomsounds venomsounds 13-15, M Dec 7

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    Outside these walls, there waits a world that is often cold, lonely. Everyone wearing masks and expecting you to don yours as well. Little half truths and white lies and fake...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    You look like, a perfect fit.
    wanderquietly wanderquietly 18-21, F Dec 8

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    Heya ladies, I'm getting pretty tired of being told, “You can't write this or that.” I've decided that's ok though because I've found a new website. I've only been here for 2...
    DevilishTongue DevilishTongue 26-30, F Dec 10

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    Hey, my name is Anrietta(Anna for short). I am a 21 mtf (pre-op) transgender who struggles against myself, my family, and the world on a day-to-day basis. All I want is to be...
    anriettaxo anriettaxo 18-21, T Nov 21

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    My boyfriend and I have been dating for about a year next month. It's been great, but I guess what you would call the 'honeymoon period' is over and now I find myself facing a...
    Queenofprocrastination Queenofprocrastination 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 6

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    I'm trying a lot of things but they won't work out. I'm doing boxing but my punches won't break someone's ribs, I'm studying but I won't become a scholar, I'm loving but I love...
    yiskah yiskah 18-21, M 4 Responses Nov 26

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    Someone needs to fix me, because I don't know how to do it myself. Someone needs to bring me happiness, because I can't find it myself. Someone needs to wake me up inside, because...
    Cece4 Cece4 18-21, F Dec 11

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    I wished I had someone to talk to or connect with emotionally. My boyfriend never wants to talk to me because all he does is work anymore and it's taken all his time. I feel...
    Adpatrick Adpatrick 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My demon stood with me He who took all i had from me, Who had stolen away from me Family, Joy and Peace. I sought help from my savior, Christ, Praying for strength, begging for...
    TwentyTwoReasons TwentyTwoReasons 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 27

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    I'm a young male adult and, I've been chosen by God to preach his word. So I am trying my hardest to better myself. So that people may look at me and see his grace instead of my...
    BubbaSasquatch BubbaSasquatch 18-21, M Nov 24

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    I'm a girl with a PAST. A past that no one completely knows about. Just me. yes I've shared a few things to like very few people but I have never said everything. I feel that I don...
    vnesanarti vnesanarti 22-25, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I hate that I left my wife. Ever since I left I have missed her so much. A few months ago we signed the papers. It was so hard too but I did it. She was the world to me and still...
    mophasa mophasa 36-40, M Dec 11

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    As part of my job, I often speak to young people in need of support (often through no fault of their own). On almost a daily basis I find myself dumbfounded at the way some parents...
    splashUK2014 splashUK2014 41-45, M 3 Responses Nov 20

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    I am such an idiot. I'm tired of believing people, why can't they say what they mean or not to say what they don't mean? I wish people can be more responsible for things they say...
    backofpostcard backofpostcard 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 24

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    Last night as I was trying to fall asleep, I had a plethora of feelings wash over me. But these were in regards to my boy friend of 2.5 years. The holidays make me kinda sappy and...
    Iyaha Iyaha 56-60, F Dec 2

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    But I just don't know how,We've discussed the situation,We've made promises and commitment to each other . Even hit the global relationship reset button,,Removed our rings and...
    JerkBag JerkBag 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 9

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    I find myself worried when I walk into a store, bumping into people is a weak point, for me.(depends who it is.) What would they think of my face? Will they ask about my future...
    Frenchgal11 Frenchgal11 26-30, F Dec 11

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    I often write or type what I feel not because I prefer to express myself that way, but rather no one seems to be too concerned with what I have to say. I have always been pushed...
    rrainfall rrainfall 31-35, F Nov 25

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    So lately I've find myself dancing around the room... My roommate is always trying to say or do something to embarrass me... Like today she said she was going to record me... But...
    IndecisiveLateBloomer IndecisiveLateBloomer 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    I hate my self as stated above. I don't like my face, figure, voice, friends, family, location, and just overall life. I have sever anxiety and always find myself counting and...
    mckennaolsen mckennaolsen 13-15, F 6 days ago

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