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I Force Myself to Eat

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    Don't Stop!!

    I was overboard eating so much my arms began to look bigger than my friend Nadia's giant 40'' hulk arms..I was overcompensating for last nite when I didn't eat my 100k cals like I chow down on like a piggie I'm getting so fat my belly reaches below my knees and made me fall and...
    bigbootygirl3 bigbootygirl3 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 7, 2013

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    Can't Ep and Eat

    This is not the real story. This is just a recent phenomenon since i began to EP 9 days (?can i even remember?) ago. I immediately became addicted to EP, the first time I used it. I cannot face eating anything during or after EP sessions. I feel sick quite a...
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo 31-35, M 4 Responses Jan 28, 2009

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    I force myself to eat.

    Not because I wouldn't eat if I didn't, because I would. And not because I need to gain weight, because I don't. I force myself to eat because it is something I can control. I've never been in control of my life, but it's always been easy for me to control what I could eat. So I...
    tRueInSAnItY tRueInSAnItY 18-21, F Sep 3, 2014

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    Food

    I haven't willing ate food in months. I always feel sick afterwards no matter how much or little I eat. So I make myself eat food. And it sucks. And I don't know what t do. Arg.
    SCChick1990 SCChick1990 18-21, F Jan 26, 2009

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    My eating disorder

    I have something called EDNOS. It is an acronym for "eating disorder not otherwise specified". Mine is closely related to binge eating disorder, but not exactly. I do it because my whole life I have been underweight and my highest weight has been 108 pounds or 7 stone 10 pounds...
    nomeatforshrimp nomeatforshrimp 16-17, F Jul 21, 2012

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    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2014

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    I Like Food

    Really I do, its just that I generally don't have much of an appetite. I can go an entire day (including a visit to the gym) without feeling the need to eat. I also tend to prioritize work/school/writing over sitting down for a meal....its far too easy for me to get into what I'm...
    vinividivici21 vinividivici21 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 26, 2009

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    So I do do it but I want more food I'm

    beginning to get hungry constantly
    Thefatgainer13man Thefatgainer13man 13-15 1 Response Feb 4

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    My Weekend Plan

    Two days off and even if I'm full to bursting I am simply going to force myself to keep eating the whole time so that I can gain about 14lbs in two days.  I know my feeder will help me get the food down and take care of me but I simply want this big push to get some fat on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 20, 2010

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    I love puking nothings better then when you've eaten then to get rid of the fat feeling by puking, and I love getting it in my hair and on my clothes, I also love eating my puke...
    ILoveToBeTortured ILoveToBeTortured 18-21, F 1 Response May 19

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    Not a bulimic, although I love the feeling of purging after particularly big meals. My favourite thing to vomit is ***** though. I love to give head on an empty stomach then puke...
    CurvyOxfordMum CurvyOxfordMum 31-35, F 1 Response May 19

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    Not like bullimia or anorexia or anything like that. I, am an extremely fussy eater. Its not like im saying that i dont want this to touch that blah blah etc. On the contrary, ive...
    imme163 imme163 13-15, F 2 Responses May 10

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    My body doesn't tell me when to eat. Once I participated in a research to see how my body would deal with fasting for 30 hours. Because of some confusion about the moment I started...
    Gentle153 Gentle153 26-30, M 1 Response May 21

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    Nobody loves me. Nobody cares about me. I eat because nobody likes me. I force myself to eat until I vomit. I vomit to lose weight because I'm too fat. Nobody loves me because I'm...
    oOoitslucyoOo oOoitslucyoOo 22-25, F 7 Responses May 9

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    Well the fear of food is back. I have been struggling with weight my whole life due to a medical condition I was over 250 pounds at one point but had lost over a hundred pounds and...
    fractalpterodactyl fractalpterodactyl 26-30, F 2 Responses May 11

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    I am learning that it's bad how much my weight fluctuates. Been over eating since Thursday. Currently typing this while eating a slice of pizza and chicken. Probably my 5th slice...
    GodsArte GodsArte 18-21, F May 3

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    Today was hard I force myself to be this person everyone expects me to be I went out saw people got drunk but the feeling on the inside is still the same. I smiled whipped my hair...
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F May 20

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    Maybe Kris Jenner forced feminized Bruce to accept being Kaitlyn - using all the money and resources available to her to trap Bruce and hypnotise him into accepting his...
    Hot4Tgurlz Hot4Tgurlz 31-35, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I want join the air force into a law enforcement type of thing but I don't know what to do. My parents don't like it but are all for the idea of pursuing it. but I'm currently in a...
    Psychedelic101 Psychedelic101 18-21, F 6 hrs ago

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    i luv stuffing myself it makes me feel amazing! my fat friends stuff me constantly it feels so amazing! i love belly rubs and cuddling! im so fat and love it
    chubby4life chubby4life 26-30, T 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I need help.. I want to lose weight... But I can't stop eating... I am bulimic but I want so badly to be anorexic please help.
    sjchance95 sjchance95 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    I haven't eaten in four days and I'm not sure how much longer I can last! I forced down a gatorade and it helped some. I just don't want to eat!
    Rose2123 Rose2123 18-21, F 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Over this past year I've changed.The truth is I can hardly recognise myself,I'm almost a completely different person from before.I'm not really sure what triggered this change,it...
    MeAndMySelf98 MeAndMySelf98 16-17, M May 10

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    All those times I criticized people for not taking a stand and fight, it turns out I have come to eat my words. It's easy to risk your own life. Yes, it is easy to say a person is...
    mareliberum mareliberum 26-30 1 Response May 7

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    Why could I lose a bit of weight? Because I eat when I'm mostly upset. I eat when I'm sad, when I'm angry or when I'm stressed. I used to fight other kids when I was younger, but...
    EccentricalMind EccentricalMind 22-25, F 1 Response May 4

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    Ive had disordered eating patterns since 5th grade. I used to weigh 180lbs and my father at the time (foster care) would call me fat every day. He wouldn't let me wear stripes...
    magentaplacenta magentaplacenta 13-15, F a week ago

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    fictional story written from my dreamsEvery time we talked on the phone she lay in bed playing with her puffy points. She's a chubby petite,cute girl in her middle twenties.Tired...
    AfanOfbigNaturals AfanOfbigNaturals 46-50, M 1 Response May 4

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    I used to be really pretty and healthy a few years ago. I was getting bullied at school, I became anorexic. When I started to recover I was eating a lot, and it's been 3 years and...
    flyingvnc flyingvnc 18-21, F 2 Responses May 13

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    I probably only eat once a day. I always forget to feed myself. Like when I go to the store, I'd get everyone else's things, but I'd forget to get mine. However, I'd be...
    RocaAzul RocaAzul 18-21, F May 22

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    I eat as a way of self harm. I feel so empty inside and sad that I just eat and eat to fill that void until I feel pain. Then after a few months of that, I starve myself and do...
    mightymouse69 mightymouse69 16-17, F 2 Responses May 4

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    I love touching myself it's so wonderful love playing with myself never get enough of it looking at women's **** just makes it worse talking about it turns me on even more with...
    starryeyes2008 starryeyes2008 31-35, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    well i dont have a choice :< i need to be loved :/ my parents are always so busy also were an extended family already.i live alone and for some reason i dont really fit in and i...
    lemonexpress lemonexpress 18-21, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Since we don't have a lot of food in the house right now, there are some periods of two to three days that I don't eat... I'm trying to ration whatever food I have left. I haven't...
    DementedKarkat DementedKarkat 13-15, T 1 Response May 20

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    For about a year now, I have suffered from an eating disorder. During that time I have gone from a beautiful, healthy girl to a grossly, thin stick. At first it was great being...
    Emilymay100 Emilymay100 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I over ate by 900 calories today I feel horrible. I have been keeping track on my lose it app for the last 8 days which is pretty good for me I usually give up on day 1. Everyday I...
    Slackergirl Slackergirl 31-35, F 2 Responses May 20

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    I struggle with my body image and what I eat all the time. I spend some days eating nothing, and others eating too much then forcing myself to puke.
    Ellytheoutcast Ellytheoutcast 13-15, F May 11

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    I am a picky eater. I just picky when it comes to everything before I grab a cup from a stack of cups I usually remove the top cup and get the 2st to the last cup. You get what I'm...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 3 Responses May 22

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    I wish I wasn't so hard on myself but I'm afraid if I stop I won't have any motivation to move forward. It's as if I have this real of all my shortcomings and it just plays again...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F May 3

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    I was done being told that I didn't know who I was. I was not accepted and my beliefs were attacked with false proof. I got criticized for my work before it was completed and have...
    decimatedxdreams decimatedxdreams 18-21, F 1 Response May 7

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    Today was a good day. I haven't over eaten once and am stopping myself from overeating by asking myself if I am really hungry or just thirsty. Boyfriend has been great with...
    marlett marlett 41-45, F May 14

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    I'm completely unable to eat anything without hating myself afterwards. I can't remember the last time I ate anything without falling physically sick about myself afterwards.
    L382 L382 22-25, T 1 Response May 19

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    Dear God, I pray that I get to have the courage and the perseverance to fight and not care of the risks involved. I am truly ashamed of myself. If it was only myself, I would...
    mareliberum mareliberum 26-30 May 20