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I Force Myself to Eat

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    Can't Ep and Eat

    This is not the real story. This is just a recent phenomenon since i began to EP 9 days (?can i even remember?) ago. I immediately became addicted to EP, the first time I used it. I cannot face eating anything during or after EP sessions. I feel sick quite a...
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo 31-35, M 4 Responses Jan 28, 2009

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    My Weekend Plan

    Two days off and even if I'm full to bursting I am simply going to force myself to keep eating the whole time so that I can gain about 14lbs in two days.  I know my feeder will help me get the food down and take care of me but I simply want this big push to get some fat on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 20, 2010

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    Don't Stop!!

    I was overboard eating so much my arms began to look bigger than my friend Nadia's giant 40'' hulk arms..I was overcompensating for last nite when I didn't eat my 100k cals like I chow down on like a piggie I'm getting so fat my belly reaches below my knees and made me fall and...
    bigbootygirl3 bigbootygirl3 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 7, 2013

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    Food

    I haven't willing ate food in months. I always feel sick afterwards no matter how much or little I eat. So I make myself eat food. And it sucks. And I don't know what t do. Arg.
    SCChick1990 SCChick1990 18-21, F Jan 26, 2009

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    My eating disorder

    I have something called EDNOS. It is an acronym for "eating disorder not otherwise specified". Mine is closely related to binge eating disorder, but not exactly. I do it because my whole life I have been underweight and my highest weight has been 108 pounds or 7 stone 10 pounds...
    nomeatforshrimp nomeatforshrimp 13-15, F Jul 21, 2012

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    I Like Food

    Really I do, its just that I generally don't have much of an appetite. I can go an entire day (including a visit to the gym) without feeling the need to eat. I also tend to prioritize work/school/writing over sitting down for a meal....its far too easy for me to get into what I'm...
    vinividivici21 vinividivici21 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 26, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    I am anorexic. It started when my friends would poke my stomach and say I gained weight and I hate gaining weight I hate it. Then my dad started calling me fat and calling me a pig...
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F Jul 7

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    It started when people in my school started calling me fat , so i started to diet but then i started eating less and less , then i completely stopped eating , i started exercising...
    Theworldismyhell Theworldismyhell 18-21, F Jul 6

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    The harder I try to eat healthy, the more junk food I eat. I try to eat the unhealthy stuff in moderation... but it never works out. I'm at the point where I'm ready to give up on...
    Ridiculousity Ridiculousity 18-21 3 days ago

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    As of late, my life hasn't been what I would consider to be optimal; I distanced myself from the only person that I have had any inkling of romantic attraction to, bickered with my...
    woahwoahpotato woahwoahpotato 13-15 Jul 5

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    I don't HATE looking in the mirror I just avoid it. Its so weird. I honest to God don't know if I'm hideous or mediocre or pretty or beautiful. I just don't know.. I mean growing...
    bluemoon93 bluemoon93 18-21, F Jul 13

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    I want friendship & I want to be social, but whenever I go to a party or a gathering, I freeze up. I don't force myself into conversations like I should. I just stand there quiet...
    kennalynn67 kennalynn67 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    So I was busy tonight at home. And realized I had forgotten to eat and I had no desire to deal with the store. So I went a head and made biscuits from scratch! Yummy with Marion...
    TheCuckcake TheCuckcake 26-30, F 3 hrs ago

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    Why can't my mother understand! Every night I destroy myself into tears cause I feel like I didn't eat that much food. Now that dad is away and mom is working I'm forced to stay...
    broadwaybabe99 broadwaybabe99 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    Anorexia and bulimia seemed so distant to me when I was growing up. It seemed completely irrational to me that someone could just not eat, and puking seemed impossible to force...
    rachelthedreamer rachelthedreamer 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    I used to fantasise about fattening others, but I've started fantasising about being fattened against my will by a woman / female partner and growing larger and larger. The idea of...
    enplumpen enplumpen 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 9

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    I grew up with a mother who has slowly become morbidly obese. All my life she was overweight but as I grew older I began to notice just how overweight she was becoming. My dad is...
    tracy1990 tracy1990 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    One day I went over to my friends house for a sleepover. her parents weren't home for the night and so she was like "lets have an eating contest!" this was before I really started...
    growinggirl123 growinggirl123 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 11

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    I got a boyfriend a couple months ago and we were eating dinner at Golden Corral (I'm pretty light weight) my boyfriend asked me if I wanted him to get my plate I said sure and he...
    ammynope ammynope 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    I certainly don't think we fought our way to the top of the food chain to be vegetarians. No offence to all vegetarians and vegans out there, but you simply can't judge and force...
    atikin atikin 18-21, F 8 Responses Jul 4

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    A few months ago, this would have said I HAD an eating disorder.... I guess I would call it a relapse. I cook a lot, for other people. I love to cook. I just... hate to eat. I...
    xoxomaya93 xoxomaya93 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 7

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    I was a gymnast when I was younger and gymnastics was my life. When I was about 11, I was getting really conscious about my weight and the way I looked. I started skipping meals...
    caribbeanbabe808 caribbeanbabe808 13-15, F Jul 8

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    I have finally come to terms that I am an emotional eater. It has been a long process for me to understand why I cannot control my feelings and cravings towards food. Now that I am...
    theConfused theConfused 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    All I ever want to do is eat!! I'm not even hungry all the time I just do it from being bored, stressed, and because well food is just delicious! I am definitely a binge eater and...
    kortskat kortskat 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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    over a year ago i was in a really bad place. i hated myself and everyone around me, i was really depressed and i struggled with bulimia. the bulimia was not that bad and i got...
    littlemeonly littlemeonly 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    More often than not I can eat all I want and not feel bad, but lately I've felt more compelled to give in to an old middle school habit of mine. My eating disorder, though mild...
    TeaspoonEm TeaspoonEm 16-17, F Jul 12

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    I don't know of this is really an eating disorder, but... I lose my appetite sometimes for days at a stretch and can only really eat one meal in the day and sometimes I don't eat...
    Loner1990 Loner1990 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 13

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    For over a year now, I've been on the verge of anorexia. I go two, maybe three days without eating or eating very small amounts, then I stop. I know it's terrible, but there's a...
    PairOfTrees PairOfTrees 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 16

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    The rivers that were plagued by my emotions, They run with a force, The crimson tide has eroded the deepest of pleasures, I'm riding on like a racehorse, I'm being brought to...
    HUMAN2BME HUMAN2BME 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    Stay away from eating disorders and prevent them when you can! They will basically destroy your life, your relationships with friends, love, and family, your body, your mind, YOU...
    starsarediamonds starsarediamonds 13-15, F Jul 7

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    I'm unhappy today and you can tell :( eaten way too much good today!! Having a curry with chips for tea and currently baking buns and no doubt be eating them later!! I go through...
    Sinead432 Sinead432 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 16

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    Today I woke up late weighted myself 190.5 disappointed I left it at that figured I am stuck at this weight my goal of 200 seamed far . I went to taco time . Worked OUT HARD...
    juicepro juicepro 31-35, M Jul 17

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    This is what college has done do me (in Canada it starts at 17). Before the semester I had abs... I guess this is not the case anymore. When I arrived in college, the first thing i...
    austinjackson1996 austinjackson1996 16-17, M 4 days ago

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    I don't like eating alone. I end up not really eating because of it. I'll have a protein bar and coffee in the morning and then at like 4pm be so fatigued that I remember I should...
    CoffeeBrewin14 CoffeeBrewin14 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    I starve myself cuz I don't want to eat it been days like this but I don't want to stop starving myself ,I just eat very little food everyday so I'm not gonna die . I know that no...
    DrowningInPain2 DrowningInPain2 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    I love cooking and I seriously would rather cook than go out to eat. At least I know how my food is being handled and exactly what I'm eating. It's way better and healthier so I...
    PepperX PepperX 22-25, F Jul 15

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    A few months ago I had bought myself some new clothes. This isn't something I do often but when I do, its a treat. A few weeks ago...I got to wear my new clothes for a special...
    LadyJunebug LadyJunebug 31-35, F 8 Responses Jul 17

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    I want to spend a whole day smoking and eating so that by the end of the day, I look pregnant.
    beautifulbellyfull beautifulbellyfull 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 2

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    On Christmas Eve two years ago my Mother was combing my hair and realised that I had two bald patches that were no larger than a 2p. After worrying and being very dark all...
    elanawaite elanawaite 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 5

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    Just saw TFIOS with a friend... who like doesn't eat! (I was dissatisfied with the movie but that's not the point) so we got there and I got a large popcorn with extra butter for...
    BasicallyFat BasicallyFat 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 5

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    I am bulimic and have been since December. 4 days ago I decided I wanted to get my **** together so I promised a friend of mine that if he quitted cigarettes I would quit throwing...
    Lifebugzme Lifebugzme 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    I have been staying in my room for 3 days now...maybe 4....I have been doing much els sleeping, eating and watching grey's anatomy, I'm so sad I just don't wanna socialize with...
    catxfreak catxfreak 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    I am a Binge eater. I keep promising myself i'll stop and get better. Then the cravings take over and i'm back in the rabbit hole. Sugar is my trigger food. When i eat something...
    Analog25 Analog25 18-21, M Jul 13

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    I think i have ednos. (Eating disorder not otherwise specified) as you know i have body image priblems. But what you dont know is that im restricting fiod quite alot. But idk i...
    majahi majahi 13-15, F Jul 17

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    I haven't weighed myself today, I think I'm around 121 lbs, I haven't eaten anything today, I've been in bed all day.. It's 5:25pm and I hope I can last the rest of the day without...
    Jodiii14 Jodiii14 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    I went on a diet in the last months. It wasn't properly a diet. but i hadn't enough time to eat or stuff myself, and i run from a part to another of the city all day long, so i...
    kyarahfel kyarahfel 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 19

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    It seems like I FAIL at EVERYTHING I do. I never achieve my goals, which I set pretty often. For the last 4 days, I have binge eaten nothing but junk food or fast food. I've never...
    mnm92 mnm92 18-21, F 6 days ago

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