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I Force Myself to Eat

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    I force myself to eat.

    Not because I wouldn't eat if I didn't, because I would. And not because I need to gain weight, because I don't. I force myself to eat because it is something I can control. I've never been in control of my life, but it's always been easy for me to control what I could eat. So I...
    tRueInSAnItY tRueInSAnItY 16-17, F Sep 3, 2014

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    Don't Stop!!

    I was overboard eating so much my arms began to look bigger than my friend Nadia's giant 40'' hulk arms..I was overcompensating for last nite when I didn't eat my 100k cals like I chow down on like a piggie I'm getting so fat my belly reaches below my knees and made me fall and...
    bigbootygirl3 bigbootygirl3 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 7, 2013

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    Can't Ep and Eat

    This is not the real story. This is just a recent phenomenon since i began to EP 9 days (?can i even remember?) ago. I immediately became addicted to EP, the first time I used it. I cannot face eating anything during or after EP sessions. I feel sick quite a...
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo 31-35, M 4 Responses Jan 28, 2009

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    My eating disorder

    I have something called EDNOS. It is an acronym for "eating disorder not otherwise specified". Mine is closely related to binge eating disorder, but not exactly. I do it because my whole life I have been underweight and my highest weight has been 108 pounds or 7 stone 10 pounds...
    nomeatforshrimp nomeatforshrimp 16-17, F Jul 21, 2012

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    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2014

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    So I do do it but I want more food I'm

    beginning to get hungry constantly
    Thefatgainer13 Thefatgainer13 13-15 1 Response Feb 4

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    Food

    I haven't willing ate food in months. I always feel sick afterwards no matter how much or little I eat. So I make myself eat food. And it sucks. And I don't know what t do. Arg.
    SCChick1990 SCChick1990 18-21, F Jan 26, 2009

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    I Like Food

    Really I do, its just that I generally don't have much of an appetite. I can go an entire day (including a visit to the gym) without feeling the need to eat. I also tend to prioritize work/school/writing over sitting down for a meal....its far too easy for me to get into what I'm...
    vinividivici21 vinividivici21 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 26, 2009

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    My Weekend Plan

    Two days off and even if I'm full to bursting I am simply going to force myself to keep eating the whole time so that I can gain about 14lbs in two days.  I know my feeder will help me get the food down and take care of me but I simply want this big push to get some fat on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 20, 2010

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    Today I forced myself to puke again. I was out with some friends and we were hanging out at the skate park. After a couple of hours of skating I wanted to do something else. So I...
    pukeboy pukeboy 22-25, M Feb 6

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    its the weekend where I'm supposed to feeling happy but I'm gonna be forced to eat, and if I don't my parents will suspect! I guess I can survive for 2 days
    lauraa36 lauraa36 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 14

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    I tried writing this experience once but it shut down in the middle, so I'm a little frustrated but I'll try again. I was saying that I find myself doing things just for the sole...
    Shamandora Shamandora 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    I couldn't make myself eat today or most of yesterday and I am past the point of hungry, like I'm so hungry that I'm not hungry anymore. The thought of eating is just making me...
    ThatBitch15 ThatBitch15 18-21, F Feb 2

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    WHY CAN'T I FORCE MYSELF TO WORK??? I plan to finish so many things every weekend then I end up finishing less than half what I planned. I don't know how I made it to college when...
    ihavecoolname ihavecoolname 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 14

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    I have been eating corn starch for 16 years it started with my second pregnancy I would eat a box every other day needless to say my baby was covered in it but I still eat it to...
    kitafuller kitafuller 36-40, F 3 hrs ago

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    It started at a young age...i would refuse to eat hide away in a dark corner an cry everytime someone brought it up....id scream when they would try an force the food down my...
    SweetGazePup SweetGazePup 18-21, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    It's something I just haven't realized for the longest time.... I think I suffer from this. I first heard of the disease a while back and since then I've compared it to myself...
    TheMasterMan1 TheMasterMan1 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 19

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    Everything came out from nothing, I was home enjoying the Friday night when my girlfriend called me. Me: hi, what's up She: nothing I was passing, and wanted to say hi & have a...
    bohatlan bohatlan 18-21, M Feb 9

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    Angry tears burn in a way that anguished tears don't. Leaving acidic track marks as a sign you have been truly broken. Fury emanates from every fiber of the being...eating you up...
    Superficialsaint Superficialsaint 31-35, F 11 Responses Feb 2

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    I had an eating disorder onec or twice where I stopped eating but a little bit maybe a bit a day or nothing at all even if there was food infront of me. this would start fights...
    hellokitty206 hellokitty206 18-21, F Feb 11

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    Just love the feeling of having to force food down my throat and then having the pains in my tummy cuz it's being stretched back to normal. Ugh! Not eating is just easier sometimes...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 14

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    Hey guys, I'm new to this website and i'm here to share my story and help others. At age 6 I already knew i was the fattest out of everyone (looking back i now know i wasn't at...
    xoxocat xoxocat 16-17, F Feb 9

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    Last semester of college I basically stopped eating altogether, lost weight. I think in hindsight it was an attempt to replace self-harm habits by refusing myself food. I didn't...
    343lh 343lh 18-21, F Feb 1

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    From the time I was very young, I knew I was different. I was always more comfortable expressing and embracing the more masculine side of my personality. I was the consummate...
    lavendersea lavendersea 41-45, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I'll give you the key to explore my body and discover my soul.  Let me see myself, fully, by you loving me.
    MyLady9 MyLady9 46-50, F 12 hrs ago

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    Lately I've been addicted to playing with myself naked while watchin **** and stoned outta my mind. I've never had a ****** like it.
    NastyNikki4u NastyNikki4u 22-25, F 4 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I really do. I hate being a teenager. I hate everything about myself.
    lamiavarc lamiavarc 16-17, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    32 year old female currently in a relationship going on 4 years together. When I drink, I get out of control, insecure and jealous and I hit my boyfriend. I go to therapy and he...
    cubankutie cubankutie 31-35, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Forget just a spoon full of sugar... a spoon full of butter is the way forward! Its such a cliché - if you want to get fat eat a stick of butter. Well I couldn't stomach that but...
    fatspinster63 fatspinster63 22-25, F 8 Responses Feb 15

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    I eat almost the entire time I am awake, which is usually 9-10 hours a day. I weigh 540 pounds, and I am nearly immobile. It seems like as soon as I'm done eating I get hungry...
    Alistair2 Alistair2 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 18

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    I'm skinny, but recently I've been gaining weight due to eating unhealthy stuff and eating a lot due to stress. I recently visited my older sister and she slapped me on my thighs...
    laubrown1 laubrown1 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I'm unable to be involved in relationships that have healthy exchanges of affection, compassion, and love. This is not my choice, but the result of many years of chronic anxiety...
    DarkPathos DarkPathos 51-55, M 4 Responses Feb 3

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    yo..n ep is the only one to know about it..I had little whisky n thoda sa rum..they taste yuk..n I didn't have soda..so had it raw..yuckkkk..n then I am eating so much.. even...
    angelcares angelcares 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 13

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    I'm always switching it up. Someday I'll stop eating period. Maybe breakfast. Some chocolate too keep me calm. Then I'll just drink water and call it a day. I've been back at it...
    IvyRed15 IvyRed15 16-17, F Jan 29

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    well, I hope I don't.... but I am really struggling from resisting food.... I can really hardly resist food.... and if I get to eat, I eventually regret and kinda hate myself...
    pitchy28 pitchy28 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    My boyfriend is currently settled in at Andrews Air Force base in Maryland. He really wants me to come visit him March 20-29, our anniversary is on March 29. I'm a little confused...
    macky24 macky24 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    I don't wanna starve myself. I live to eat but sometimes I have no choice because I have no money right now. but I can go at least 2 days without eating. even tho by the end my...
    jenniebaez1992 jenniebaez1992 22-25, F Feb 4

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    This really upsets me especially when they call me names and judge me for living my life as I choose. I don't tell them what to do or force them all to wear clothing of my choice...
    louisetiger1 louisetiger1 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 6

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    I never knew that I would end up here. 4 years ago, I was anorexic. I restricted my foods, I tried my absolute best to skip meals, I hid food from my family, I fed my sister more...
    Lilah2828 Lilah2828 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 13

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    I can feel myself slowly becoming more piggish in nature. All I want to do is lay around and eat constantly. My body is slowly becoming softer and rounder and my appetite harder...
    enplumpen enplumpen 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 14

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    Am i anorexic? i eat less than 400 calories a day. the past 4 days ive ate around 300 cals. i eat once a day, dinner or lunch. i dont eat anything i dont know the calories from...
    roselain roselain 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    Everytime I try to fit in a group, I get hurt deeper and deeper. Finally I made up my mind to never open heart to new ppl anymore. For me its too scary to face ppl, or say, to...
    one151405 one151405 22-25 3 days ago

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    BEWARE!! I am about to write the most personal and sucky story ever. I just need to get it out since no one will talk to me anymore. On Wensday, my "friend" Cam had a party to...
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    The pictures above indicate what my fake Mother's boyfriend's Father did because of her lies. She told these "men", and their families that I was a product of an African American...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F Feb 5

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    and NO i do not have an eating disorder. i only starve myself as a way to punish myself. because i feel so extremely fukking guilty for everything there is about me. i HATE myself...
    gurldeleted gurldeleted 41-45, F Feb 5

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    I'd been feeling so sick all day that I decided to make myself vomit. I went to the toilet and started trying to burp up the vomit but it didn't work so I had to finger my throat...
    pukeboy pukeboy 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 6

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