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I Force Myself to Eat

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    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    My Weekend Plan

    Two days off and even if I'm full to bursting I am simply going to force myself to keep eating the whole time so that I can gain about 14lbs in two days.  I know my feeder will help me get the food down and take care of me but I simply want this big push to get some fat on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 20, 2010

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    Can't Ep and Eat

    This is not the real story. This is just a recent phenomenon since i began to EP 9 days (?can i even remember?) ago. I immediately became addicted to EP, the first time I used it. I cannot face eating anything during or after EP sessions. I feel sick quite a...
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo 31-35, M 4 Responses Jan 28, 2009

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    I Like Food

    Really I do, its just that I generally don't have much of an appetite. I can go an entire day (including a visit to the gym) without feeling the need to eat. I also tend to prioritize work/school/writing over sitting down for a meal....its far too easy for me to get into what I'm...
    vinividivici21 vinividivici21 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 26, 2009

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    Don't Stop!!

    I was overboard eating so much my arms began to look bigger than my friend Nadia's giant 40'' hulk arms..I was overcompensating for last nite when I didn't eat my 100k cals like I chow down on like a piggie I'm getting so fat my belly reaches below my knees and made me fall and...
    bigbootygirl3 bigbootygirl3 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 7, 2013

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    Food

    I haven't willing ate food in months. I always feel sick afterwards no matter how much or little I eat. So I make myself eat food. And it sucks. And I don't know what t do. Arg.
    SCChick1990 SCChick1990 18-21, F Jan 26, 2009

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    My eating disorder

    I have something called EDNOS. It is an acronym for "eating disorder not otherwise specified". Mine is closely related to binge eating disorder, but not exactly. I do it because my whole life I have been underweight and my highest weight has been 108 pounds or 7 stone 10 pounds...
    nomeatforshrimp nomeatforshrimp 16-17, F Jul 21, 2012

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    I force myself to eat.

    Not because I wouldn't eat if I didn't, because I would. And not because I need to gain weight, because I don't. I force myself to eat because it is something I can control. I've never been in control of my life, but it's always been easy for me to control what I could eat. So I...
    tRueInSAnItY tRueInSAnItY 16-17, F Sep 3

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    When I was younger I never ate. Not because I was scared to gain, but because when I was hungry I never felt like actually eating. The thought of it even made me nauseous at times...
    MiniMe57 MiniMe57 13-15, F Dec 6

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    I'm feeling really down lately... ever since I got to college I've just felt more and more alone. I dont want to eat, have no energy to get work done, and rarely even want to hang...
    TaylorNicole312 TaylorNicole312 18-21, F Nov 20

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    There is something about either my home environment or my family, but I have about 1-2 small meals a day... Like take today. I had 2-31oz cups off coffee, and a TV dinner kind of...
    deademotion11 deademotion11 22-25, M Nov 28

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    So i asked a question earlier about whether or not i should go out to hang with friends. ive been at home since im sort of overwhelemed at the moment and having a hard time...
    spreadyourwings spreadyourwings 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm fat. That's just the way it is. I'm not some person who weight 110 lbs & think they're huge. I'm actually big. I love food. Have always loved food. I have been overweight...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 23

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    I remember on my birthday after dinner, I told my husband I wasn't full and my husband strapped me into a chair and put my arms behind my back and made me eat anything he gave me...
    maddytheMILF maddytheMILF 36-40, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I see myself over eating but I never think to stop myself in the moment. Then I will go on a kick where I eat nothing but salads for two weeks and drop 20 pounds, but the cycle...
    emoteemo emoteemo 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 22

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    Today I received a letter from my dad who has been incarcerated since April. This is the first letter he has sent me. I have not seen him due to circumstances in the family that...
    Aml4 Aml4 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 28

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    Here is the thing. I know that I can be and do anything. Other people have told me that I have the potential to fly high - I have mental images where I am flying high. The problem...
    befabolous befabolous 22-25, F 10 hrs ago

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    Im going to make this quick but realistic.One night at the club I was with a bunch of friends and then I was bored so I decided to walk home by myself. while I was on my way home...
    Bdshoxh Bdshoxh 22-25, F Nov 22

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    I have a fantasy i can't shake. I can't stop fantasizing about loss of control. More specifically, about someone literally sponsoring and controlling what I eat. As long as it's...
    need2Bcontrolled83 need2Bcontrolled83 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    Idk, i guess i've always been this way...it simply got worse with time. I'm not anorexic, or bulimic or a binge eater or anything along those lines. I don't have issues with my...
    IAmOptimusPrime IAmOptimusPrime 22-25, F Nov 30

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    The worst aspect of them is that even in recovery, you never entirely let go of the thought-patterns and emotions that link so deeply with the behaviours that drove you there...
    morea morea 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    My doctor recently told me that I was developing an eating disorder that's being exacerbated by my Depression, and newly diagnosed OCD. I've always been overweight my entire life...
    kiiroibori kiiroibori 18-21, T 1 Response Dec 1

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    I may not be the biggest, strongest, fastest, skilled, or whatever the hell you say is the best, im a ******* force to be reckoned with. i may not hit hard but when i do hit itll...
    LoveLessOne97 LoveLessOne97 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    Forced to wear very high stiletto pumps! Probably my biggest of all my fantasies is having my girlfriend find out about my love of high heels (wearing them myself I mean) and...
    lockedheels lockedheels 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 25

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    well i am the type of person that would try everything to help others, help them laugh, a very "hyper" as you may say...i try to keep up this happy face just so people can like me...
    neeuQ neeuQ 18-21 1 day ago

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    I feel I am my own worse critic, I am hard on myself constantly and always pushing myself for improvements... I think I may need to start taking meds to calm down a little or maybe...
    John2526 John2526 31-35, M 13 hrs ago

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    Im always talking to myself wondering about all the lost and homeless animals :( it's sad... but then I tell myself it's ok and go look for some :3 they are always so full of life...
    hdhdodkdhdi hdhdodkdhdi 16-17, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Happy Birthday to me. I turned 23! I knew nobody would bother to remember my birthday so guess what I remembered me and my existence :-) Got me a slice of blueberry cheesecake and...
    thewildkind thewildkind 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I seriously am in love with myself. That statement may sound narcissistic but it really isn't. I spent a lot of time caring about what people thought of me that I didn't take the...
    CuriousCupcake7 CuriousCupcake7 26-30, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I'm a flawed person....inside and out . I guess we all are . For me....I spent my entire life trying to be prefect....trying to look perfect....still I was told I'm just not good...
    Sjenka Sjenka 36-40, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Nov. 20, 2014 5:30pm I don't know what is wrong with me. I felt so happy when I got home. I felt so much love for mj and I was just on cloud nine. But I guess my flight reached...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F a week ago

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    It's undiagnosed but I'm pretty sure I have a disorder. Sometimes I eat just to make me feel better about myself. For instance, I was having a ruff morning the other day. I woke up...
    Soccerman5 Soccerman5 31-35, M Nov 21

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    When I don't eat, I feel so in control of myself. I can't eat, I'm too fat. if I eat, I'll get sick.
    brokenlovatic1999 brokenlovatic1999 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    What a lovely group to join :)I do like porridge and had some this morning.. The kids insist on porridge for breakfast when it cold ..like now a days ..and who can blame them...
    Mmmcherries Mmmcherries 46-50, F 6 Responses Nov 28

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    As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth. Today, I know, this is “AUTHENTICITY”. As...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M 1 Response Dec 9

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    Im losing weight... But still feel like **** at the end of the day... Though I'm so hungry, I don't want to eat... I end up forcing myself to... But I really don't want to... I'm...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Ever since i was a small boy i have been fascinated by fat and getting fatter. In 7th grade i remember going out to a buffet with my family and stuffing myself till i felt like i...
    Mrhikro Mrhikro 56-60, M 3 days ago

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    I forgot to marinate the chicken in Italian dressing this morning so I was forced to just pour it over the chicken in the pan. Still turned out great, lots of moisture and very...
    Theycallherelly Theycallherelly 13-15, F Nov 19

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    I keep gaining weight, and it's no wonder why. Now, it's important to know that I've always been big and I've always eaten a lot. Lately my eating habits have changed, however...
    tRueInSAnItY tRueInSAnItY 16-17, F 5 Responses Nov 21

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    So I my sister likes to crossdress people and she likes messing with me and my friends. I've said before I have lost many friends because of thing she did such as:either dressing...
    Butterking47 Butterking47 18-21 5 Responses Nov 23

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    When i was six or so my sister liked to cross-dress me and make me girly. Of course I hated it because she would put me in mini skirts and said to be"cute"tops and even panties...
    Butterking47 Butterking47 18-21 2 Responses Nov 23

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    I mean I don't really exercise minus dance and yoga . I eat junk food constantly because I'm too busy to cook for myself and no one takes out food I eat . I smoke . It's a habit...
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 23

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    I'm a young male adult and, I've been chosen by God to preach his word. So I am trying my hardest to better myself. So that people may look at me and see his grace instead of my...
    BubbaSasquatch BubbaSasquatch 18-21, M Nov 24

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    Plz someone I just want a buddy who would actually help me and lead me to my goal in no time advice me what to eat drink or what not to eat or drink I would do anything I would...
    Thin1997 Thin1997 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 24

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    I ate so much on Thanksgiving, I stuffed and stuffed till I was past full to where it hurt a little. I love eating, I love eating the most in my family. It feels so good to pig out...
    Secretconfessions7 Secretconfessions7 22-25, M 3 Responses Nov 27

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    I cut yesterday on Thanksgiving. I am sorta anorexic so i dont like to eat alot. Only when i feel hungry, so like 2 times a day i will eat something small. But being around (No...
    Nick54 Nick54 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 28

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