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I Force Myself to Eat

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    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    I force myself to eat.

    Not because I wouldn't eat if I didn't, because I would. And not because I need to gain weight, because I don't. I force myself to eat because it is something I can control. I've never been in control of my life, but it's always been easy for me to control what I could eat. So I...
    tRueInSAnItY tRueInSAnItY 16-17, F Sep 3

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    I Like Food

    Really I do, its just that I generally don't have much of an appetite. I can go an entire day (including a visit to the gym) without feeling the need to eat. I also tend to prioritize work/school/writing over sitting down for a meal....its far too easy for me to get into what I'm...
    vinividivici21 vinividivici21 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 26, 2009

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    Food

    I haven't willing ate food in months. I always feel sick afterwards no matter how much or little I eat. So I make myself eat food. And it sucks. And I don't know what t do. Arg.
    SCChick1990 SCChick1990 18-21, F Jan 26, 2009

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    My eating disorder

    I have something called EDNOS. It is an acronym for "eating disorder not otherwise specified". Mine is closely related to binge eating disorder, but not exactly. I do it because my whole life I have been underweight and my highest weight has been 108 pounds or 7 stone 10 pounds...
    nomeatforshrimp nomeatforshrimp 16-17, F Jul 21, 2012

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    My Weekend Plan

    Two days off and even if I'm full to bursting I am simply going to force myself to keep eating the whole time so that I can gain about 14lbs in two days.  I know my feeder will help me get the food down and take care of me but I simply want this big push to get some fat on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 20, 2010

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    Can't Ep and Eat

    This is not the real story. This is just a recent phenomenon since i began to EP 9 days (?can i even remember?) ago. I immediately became addicted to EP, the first time I used it. I cannot face eating anything during or after EP sessions. I feel sick quite a...
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo 31-35, M 4 Responses Jan 28, 2009

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    Don't Stop!!

    I was overboard eating so much my arms began to look bigger than my friend Nadia's giant 40'' hulk arms..I was overcompensating for last nite when I didn't eat my 100k cals like I chow down on like a piggie I'm getting so fat my belly reaches below my knees and made me fall and...
    bigbootygirl3 bigbootygirl3 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 7, 2013

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    One night I was eating some of my favorite hot wings and I took a huge bite and it went down so far so i had for force myself to throw up
    smitlord smitlord 16-17, M 1 Response Oct 30

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    I'm feeling really down lately... ever since I got to college I've just felt more and more alone. I dont want to eat, have no energy to get work done, and rarely even want to hang...
    TaylorNicole312 TaylorNicole312 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Ever since the sixth grade I've been battling a eating disorder. My friends were starving themselves I thought it was the cool thing to do. Boy was I wrong. I started to force...
    kittycat2213 kittycat2213 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 9

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    My self-esteem is at an all time low. I want to die again. I want to just...stop existing. School is stressing me out, my life is stressing me out, I can't stop comparing myself to...
    Skollon Skollon 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 13

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    hey guys 😊! So I decided that from today, I'll starve myself. it hasn't been an easy decision as a lot of people kept saying it's bad blablabla I know. but I am 16 yo, and I...
    goldringss goldringss 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 2

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    I'm fat. That's just the way it is. I'm not some person who weight 110 lbs & think they're huge. I'm actually big. I love food. Have always loved food. I have been overweight...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I think I have an eatig disorder now. I was and still am obese. I hated myself and wanted to be skinny at all costs. I began trying to lose weight in Feb, but it was slow (I was...
    goldwin64 goldwin64 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 16

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    I have EDNOS (eating disorder not otherwise specified). I was a previously recovered anorexic and found myself falling into a bad eating pattern of EDNOS. How my eating disorder...
    OnyxHeart OnyxHeart 18-21, F Nov 13

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    I actually met my boyfriend 11 months ago, when I met him I had no idea he was in the air force. We live in different states so we are used to the long distance and cherish what...
    rubyreb rubyreb 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 14

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    I see myself over eating but I never think to stop myself in the moment. Then I will go on a kick where I eat nothing but salads for two weeks and drop 20 pounds, but the cycle...
    emoteemo emoteemo 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    If I want to lose weight by starving myself- I'm going to do it!!! I would rather be thin and hungry rather than fat, ugly, low quality of life, diabetes, unattractive, etc etc...
    ijustneedtoletitout ijustneedtoletitout 31-35, F 4 Responses Oct 30

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    I honestly think I'm so fat I cry a lot about it . I am trying to workout and get in shape and I have been trying for like 2 years now . I keep gaining . I started thinking I was...
    relatableALY relatableALY 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 13

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    Yep, it's part of the gainer thing. There's honestly nothing better than feeling how round and bloated I've gotten after a good binge, and if I didn't have to worry about my...
    TheSocialOutcast TheSocialOutcast 13-15, M Nov 16

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    Im going to make this quick but realistic.One night at the club I was with a bunch of friends and then I was bored so I decided to walk home by myself. while I was on my way home...
    Bdshoxh Bdshoxh 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    I have a fantasy i can't shake. I can't stop fantasizing about loss of control. More specifically, about someone literally sponsoring and controlling what I eat. As long as it's...
    need2Bcontrolled83 need2Bcontrolled83 31-35, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    I was 14 when my father raped me again I truly believe he was the one to get me pregnant, but because he prostituted me out I can not be positive who was the father. They took me...
    squirllykid squirllykid 46-50, F 8 Responses Oct 31

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    I was dragged to the doctor by my step mom. (This was a couple of days ago- at night) "I'm fine!" I tried convincing everyone. I had just fainted, for the second time this week...
    Theworldisminenow Theworldisminenow 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 2

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    I am fat and unfit. And it is partly because I am a compulsive eater. And I hate it. I need help stopping. I don't want to be unhealthy anymore. I hate eating. I eat so much that I...
    SeemsEverythingGoesWrongInLife SeemsEverythingGoesWrongInLife 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 7

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    For my entire life, I've had an unhealthy relationship with food. My recent anorexia probably stemmed from many things, including my childhood obesity, my need for control, my OCD...
    cahill11 cahill11 13-15, M Nov 14

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    I may not be the biggest, strongest, fastest, skilled, or whatever the hell you say is the best, im a ******* force to be reckoned with. i may not hit hard but when i do hit itll...
    LoveLessOne97 LoveLessOne97 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Forced to wear very high stiletto pumps! Probably my biggest of all my fantasies is having my girlfriend find out about my love of high heels (wearing them myself I mean) and...
    lockedheels lockedheels 31-35, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I think I'm a worthwhile person,so why can't I exercise more? I need to keep in mind everyone exercises and does more than I do.I need to extend myself and push for more.It should...
    mirth mirth 46-50, F 1 hr ago

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    I've stayed at my sister's every night this week except this night. She went out to eat, and I'd just be sitting there doing nothing anyway. I ended up going to my niece's and...
    NastasyaFilippovna NastasyaFilippovna 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 30

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    I feel like my eating issue is back or at least coming back. Idk maybe it is back. As far as I know as of right now I've lost five pounds but I need to lose more. I weighed myself...
    Spilled Spilled 22-25, F Nov 4

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    Slam poetry piece: Unperturbed view of future's abyss. So now the lines of seemingly well constructed literature are literally eating me. If I look at all the white spaces in...
    LegitimateRabbit LegitimateRabbit 18-21, M Nov 8

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    Actually I rarely eat a full meal. I just snack a lot. I'm not starving myself, food just makes me really sick a lot. I basically live off of coffee, cappuccino, crackers, noodles...
    MissChelsea97 MissChelsea97 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 17

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    It's undiagnosed but I'm pretty sure I have a disorder. Sometimes I eat just to make me feel better about myself. For instance, I was having a ruff morning the other day. I woke up...
    Soccerman5 Soccerman5 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    When I don't eat, I feel so in control of myself. I can't eat, I'm too fat. if I eat, I'll get sick.
    brokenlovatic1999 brokenlovatic1999 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I was wondering if anyone who struggles with an eating disorder would like to email me and we can talk about our experiences. I am currently not getting medical help, because I do...
    enchanted101 enchanted101 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 30

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    Down to 193 ! This is working. I don't eat til after noon, eat light when I do, and if I eat too much I purge it. I hate doing that but I don't F-ing care! I've lost about 10...
    ijustneedtoletitout ijustneedtoletitout 31-35, F Nov 2

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    I haven't been wanting to eat lately. I get hungry but when the food comes I just don't feel like eating. like I'll find something wrong with it (too cold, didn't come fast enough...
    sydneyduran sydneyduran 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 8

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    Before I start, I realise this will be a short but chaotic story, as I'm just writing down my emotions in a certain state of what I believe to be panic...
    Keyamon Keyamon 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 9

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    last year around this time, my friend was starting to become anorexic and I decided I wanted to become skinny too, so I did it with her. I used to barely eat any lunch and if I did...
    aflurryofemotions aflurryofemotions 13-15, F Nov 18

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    I forgot to marinate the chicken in Italian dressing this morning so I was forced to just pour it over the chicken in the pan. Still turned out great, lots of moisture and very...
    Theycallherelly Theycallherelly 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I keep gaining weight, and it's no wonder why. Now, it's important to know that I've always been big and I've always eaten a lot. Lately my eating habits have changed, however...
    tRueInSAnItY tRueInSAnItY 16-17, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    So I my sister likes to crossdress people and she likes messing with me and my friends. I've said before I have lost many friends because of thing she did such as:either dressing...
    Butterking47 Butterking47 18-21 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    When i was six or so my sister liked to cross-dress me and make me girly. Of course I hated it because she would put me in mini skirts and said to be"cute"tops and even panties...
    Butterking47 Butterking47 18-21 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I mean I don't really exercise minus dance and yoga . I eat junk food constantly because I'm too busy to cook for myself and no one takes out food I eat . I smoke . It's a habit...
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago