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    My eating disorder

    I have something called EDNOS. It is an acronym for "eating disorder not otherwise specified". Mine is closely related to binge eating disorder, but not exactly. I do it because my whole life I have been underweight and my highest weight has been 108 pounds or 7 stone 10 pounds...
    nomeatforshrimp nomeatforshrimp 16-17, F Jul 21, 2012

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    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2014

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    Food

    I haven't willing ate food in months. I always feel sick afterwards no matter how much or little I eat. So I make myself eat food. And it sucks. And I don't know what t do. Arg.
    SCChick1990 SCChick1990 18-21, F Jan 26, 2009

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    Don't Stop!!

    I was overboard eating so much my arms began to look bigger than my friend Nadia's giant 40'' hulk arms..I was overcompensating for last nite when I didn't eat my 100k cals like I chow down on like a piggie I'm getting so fat my belly reaches below my knees and made me fall and...
    bigbootygirl3 bigbootygirl3 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 7, 2013

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    My Weekend Plan

    Two days off and even if I'm full to bursting I am simply going to force myself to keep eating the whole time so that I can gain about 14lbs in two days.  I know my feeder will help me get the food down and take care of me but I simply want this big push to get some fat on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 20, 2010

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    I Like Food

    Really I do, its just that I generally don't have much of an appetite. I can go an entire day (including a visit to the gym) without feeling the need to eat. I also tend to prioritize work/school/writing over sitting down for a meal....its far too easy for me to get into what I'm...
    vinividivici21 vinividivici21 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 26, 2009

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    So I do do it but I want more food I'm

    beginning to get hungry constantly
    Thefatgainer13man Thefatgainer13man 13-15 1 Response Feb 4

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    Can't Ep and Eat

    This is not the real story. This is just a recent phenomenon since i began to EP 9 days (?can i even remember?) ago. I immediately became addicted to EP, the first time I used it. I cannot face eating anything during or after EP sessions. I feel sick quite a...
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo 31-35, M 4 Responses Jan 28, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    when ever im with different people i feel like im not able to be myself.i want to have that confidence my friends have to interact with other people. i feel left out like im a...
    lilibeth415 lilibeth415 16-17, F 33 mins ago

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    I hate myself for falling in love with ********
    escape1424 escape1424 16-17, F 3 hrs ago

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    Hello everyone! I'd like to take this time to share a little bit about myself in hopes of reaching out and making new friends. For starters, my name is Emily. I'm 17 years old and...
    TeaspoonEm17 TeaspoonEm17 16-17, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    1. |I feel different from everyone else. 2. |Sometimes I feel we're not alone. 3. |I wonder about the universe. 4. |Sometimes I feel like killing myself. 5. |I love Jordan's and...
    Claygamin Claygamin 22-25, M 7 hrs ago

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    I eat too much,can't even stop :(
    Littlemisssunshine67 Littlemisssunshine67 22-25, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    The kid who sat in front of me in math would always turn around and say 'huh?' And I had to say I was actually talking to myself.... sorry. He got used to it.
    AlwaysRestless AlwaysRestless 18-21, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    The old me. Me in the middle of the road running and crying out for my friends, Laughing my heart out over their shoulder. Today also I smile because I love to smile but my eye...
    evilingod evilingod 18-21, F 16 hrs ago

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    Yes. I'm going to involve myself in the movement
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 18-21, F 19 hrs ago

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    I've cried myself to sleep recently it seems like my "friends" don't seem to understand me anymore, and my family has many problems right now, always ending up in the hospital...
    emily1213 emily1213 13-15, F 21 hrs ago

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    I often eat my lips or the inside of my cheeks until they are bleeding. I don't know why I do this, since it hurts and I have to watch what I eat, as to not make it even worse. I...
    IIVLOtaku IIVLOtaku 13-15, F 23 hrs ago

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    A friend from middle school found out somehow about my eating habits and is a nutritionist. She's started me on this plan to help me "lose the weight while staying healthy" it...
    Kimi0 Kimi0 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I definitely need to take better care of myself.. I forget to eat or get too lazy to eat, so my weight fluctuates constantly. I forget to drink enough water and have lost...
    boklenHolley7 boklenHolley7 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I hate eating and I don't like when my mom and sis force me to eat and I know the effects of not eating but I'm too upset to eat
    dominick6 dominick6 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    Hello, I will not put my name out there for obvious reasons. I'm not ashamed of what I do, or how I do it, however, I know it's not approved of. Always, I looked at skinny people...
    StarvingNoob StarvingNoob 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Hey guys. I had eating disorder. I was hating my body and everything about me. I made a decision that I will change my life. So I started doing exercises . My body is getting...
    staystrongandlive staystrongandlive 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    This is my ultimate fantasy. Piling on the pounds while confined to my bed by my own massive body. I would need a tube of weight gain shake constantly pumped into my mouth. There...
    porkyprincess porkyprincess 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm really struggling with binge eating right now. I've been relatively healthy my entire life but the past year has been really rough and I'm starting to slide. EVERY TIME I...
    drewcole232 drewcole232 22-25 5 days ago

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    Statements of mystical truths and palpable absurdities overwhelm my mind with unintelligible euphoria. Locking myself in the comfort of solitude, I unleash all eccentric thoughts...
    Mira11 Mira11 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Feasting and Drinking Wine at The China Buffet With the end of the month of July coming my best female friend Linda and I are going to celebrate a great summer month together by...
    BlueJeanedPrincess BlueJeanedPrincess 56-60, F 6 days ago

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    I hate myself so much... I over eat so much when I need to be skinny.. I need help and advise with sticking to strict diet plan because I can't go on this size.
    stevieluvsyu stevieluvsyu 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Just last week I wrote a story about hating myself which I have deleted. I'm big, 222 pounds on a small 5 foot frame. Yes, I'm morbidly obese. However, I eat healthy & I work out...
    purplepumpkin17 purplepumpkin17 16-17, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    I have been researching tons on this subject. I have suffered from this since puberty. The #1 mistake of compulsive eaters is dieting. Restricting any one food or any combo of...
    onmyway214 onmyway214 26-30, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I am on a mission every day to become a better version of myself. Yesterday I felt a huge sense of accomplishment. I have about five major goals. Get my health in order, get my...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I have had this problem with myself since I was a kid. I think this may have something to do with my autism but I get a bit hard on myself and put myself down all the time. Every...
    WokenandOpen WokenandOpen 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 27

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    I have lost interest in eating. I can not even imagine eating food my whole life. Thinking about food and eating it grosses me out. If I eat, it's usually barely any at all. Let's...
    evravon evravon 13-15, M Jul 26

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    But here I am...I'm teaching myself to eat breakfast...194calories...i ate the other piece of turkey bacon[not seen]
    lonelysoul1088 lonelysoul1088 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 26

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    My mom saw me naked It happened when I was 16, that day my school was off so, in morning I went to ground to play football with my friends. I came home @9 fully sweating. Till...
    Xavier10john Xavier10john 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 24

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    Sometimes I feel like I want to kill myself, that feeling just randomly hits me at full force and i feel like my life is out of control so i cut myself or burn or sometimes I...
    IHateYourSmile IHateYourSmile 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    I've always been overweight and I've always wanted to be thin but I've also always had a love for food. I've spent the last 10 months trying to lose weight (I managed to lose...
    FightingForRecovery FightingForRecovery 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    For example, my boyfriend forced me to meet his mother and brother once. It was probably the most uncomfortable hour of my life. Everyone at the table just ignored me. I couldn't...
    cairah cairah 22-25, F Jul 23

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    I feel like complete and utter crap. Everything hurts, and it's a result of me having this binge eating disorder thing for the majority of my life. Personally, I think it's kind of...
    philosocrastinator philosocrastinator 22-25 Jul 22

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    this may sound bad but I don't want to recover at all I can't just stop starving it's hard I want to talk to be just like me trying to lose weight and trying to be skinny I can't...
    anaskitty anaskitty 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    Loneliness Everyone can say they are lonely. Married people talk about their loniness, but only a single person can know true solitude, the aloneness of the morning midnight hours...
    jaymepopejoy jaymepopejoy 56-60, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    I don't eat as much as i used to. I used to be able to eat all day, and now i only eat dinner, and its usually around 10-11 pm. And thats all i eat. And its usually only a few...
    Love143x3 Love143x3 22-25, F Jul 20

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