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I Force Myself to Eat

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    Can't Ep and Eat

    This is not the real story. This is just a recent phenomenon since i began to EP 9 days (?can i even remember?) ago. I immediately became addicted to EP, the first time I used it. I cannot face eating anything during or after EP sessions. I feel sick quite a...
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo 31-35, M 4 Responses Jan 28, 2009

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    My Weekend Plan

    Two days off and even if I'm full to bursting I am simply going to force myself to keep eating the whole time so that I can gain about 14lbs in two days.  I know my feeder will help me get the food down and take care of me but I simply want this big push to get some fat on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 20, 2010

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    My eating disorder

    I have something called EDNOS. It is an acronym for "eating disorder not otherwise specified". Mine is closely related to binge eating disorder, but not exactly. I do it because my whole life I have been underweight and my highest weight has been 108 pounds or 7 stone 10 pounds...
    nomeatforshrimp nomeatforshrimp 16-17, F Jul 21, 2012

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    I force myself to eat.

    Not because I wouldn't eat if I didn't, because I would. And not because I need to gain weight, because I don't. I force myself to eat because it is something I can control. I've never been in control of my life, but it's always been easy for me to control what I could eat. So I...
    tRueInSAnItY tRueInSAnItY 16-17, F Sep 3, 2014

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    Food

    I haven't willing ate food in months. I always feel sick afterwards no matter how much or little I eat. So I make myself eat food. And it sucks. And I don't know what t do. Arg.
    SCChick1990 SCChick1990 18-21, F Jan 26, 2009

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    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2014

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    Don't Stop!!

    I was overboard eating so much my arms began to look bigger than my friend Nadia's giant 40'' hulk arms..I was overcompensating for last nite when I didn't eat my 100k cals like I chow down on like a piggie I'm getting so fat my belly reaches below my knees and made me fall and...
    bigbootygirl3 bigbootygirl3 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 7, 2013

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    So I do do it but I want more food I'm

    beginning to get hungry constantly
    Thefatgainer13man Thefatgainer13man 13-15 1 Response Feb 4

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    I Like Food

    Really I do, its just that I generally don't have much of an appetite. I can go an entire day (including a visit to the gym) without feeling the need to eat. I also tend to prioritize work/school/writing over sitting down for a meal....its far too easy for me to get into what I'm...
    vinividivici21 vinividivici21 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 26, 2009

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    Mum order Chinese for dinner tonight and immediately I knew it wasn't a good decision, after finding a big black hair in the special fried rice previously I couldn't keep the food...
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    Idk what to do. I've put on about 40 pounds from binge eating. My mind goes so fast when it comes to food so some times I eat before I realize I even ate anything. I'm not as...
    pawsandclaws pawsandclaws 22-25 6 days ago

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    I have wanted to be really fat forever, I just can't do it myself. I want people to force me to eat food and get way fatter. Comment exactly what I should eat and how much, I'll...
    genericjoe genericjoe 18-21, M Mar 21

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    I, Caylee, had delayed 2 weeks of my life stuck in that hellish hospital, but today is my release date. So I guess I’m sort of happy. Either way I actually missed Anna and Miah...
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    It has taken me years to admit that I, in fact, do have an eating disorder. Ever since I was young, I've been obsessed with my weight. I was always heavier than other girls, even...
    angelique422 angelique422 22-25, F Mar 26

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    I had an eating disorder for almost 4 years. it started with the fact that I hate eating around people and I don't like chewing noises and then progressed to not just avoiding...
    shannonjade shannonjade 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Growing up, weight was always an issue. Not my own weight but my mothers. She's struggled with an eating disorder since her late teens. She "has been in recovery for 20 years". I...
    DizzieDazie DizzieDazie 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    To eat or not to eat that is the question! okay so I'm wondering should I eat or not ? I know I'm hungry and need food but on the other hand I'm ashamed of myself because I'm fat...
    DepressedAngell DepressedAngell 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    Babysitting slumber party part 4: read parts 1-3 for context. I had just aquired freedom from the babysitter's house but there were a few problems though, first of which was the...
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    Watching a documentary the other day on the eating peculiarities around the world, I came across a certain group of a certain population and how dog was a staple part of their diet...
    diegodlavega diegodlavega 46-50, M 3 Responses Apr 7

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    I cannot order food by myself. I was able to for so long but over time that skill has diminished. The only way that I can do it is if I have a huge order. Most people can simply...
    SylenaEverlasting SylenaEverlasting 16-17, F 6 Responses Mar 22

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    When I go out to eat. I order very small. I get embarrassed when I'm eating because I can eat all my French fries and a big burger not Mc.D burgers but a burger from BBQ or Apple...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F Apr 8

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    She followed the blood stains on the carpet, leading her to the hurt one. It was hiding under the chair in the living room. Scared. Shaking. Dying. Surrounded by the fear of death...
    MyLady9 MyLady9 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    What are your thoughts on: gay marriage? Jesus told us not to judge and He didn't join in the crowd when they wanted to judge someone for what she did that they didn't like. He...
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    IF YOUR NAME IS ALEXA OR MATTHEW DONT READ: YAY!!! I haven't ate today I hope my pro ana buddy is proud of me u know who u are lol I'm proud of myself for not eating at all now I...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 2 Responses Apr 12

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    i want to be fed until i pass out ir physically can't eat any more
    prodemonz prodemonz 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 21

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    Babysitting slumber party Part 2: quick recap, I was being babysitted by 2 siblings for the first time. These two had dressed me up as a girl and we spent te rest of the night as...
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    Here I am, an empty canvas that blends in with any color splashed on me, my whole life has been all about adapting but I had no identity. It was like I was lost in an ant farm of...
    DragonAcid DragonAcid 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 8

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    This is true, sadly... I've lost so much weight over the past three years that I honestly feel a strong case of the gags when I think about, see, or smell certain foods. I used...
    OdiumIncantatum OdiumIncantatum 36-40, F 2 days ago

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    The doctor said I should lose weight so I have been trying to diet. I gained 80 lbs. But I just like to eat so much i forget how to eat normally. I stuffed myself full of food and...
    person12670 person12670 31-35, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I was about 12 years old. A friend at school had invited me to her 13th birthday sleepover, I had no idea who else was supposed to be there but I was curious enough to attend. I...
    Boygirltime Boygirltime 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 30

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    The greatest reward in my life would be to *finally* have the ability to be myself, regardless of what others think.
    RhinosaurusRex RhinosaurusRex 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    The big reason i got so fat is because once i start eating, i get so aroused i never wanna stop and my mindset gets to that point where its like "eat more. Its the right choice"
    Ilovefat44 Ilovefat44 18-21, M Mar 22

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    Hi, so I guess everything has started again. It was really never over, I just found other says to deal with my anxiety. I've been battling anorexia since I was 13, so yeah 10 years...
    StEaMa StEaMa 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    My friend married a vegan, and now he isn't allowed to eat any kind of meat, fish or dairy product - And now every meal time he is thoroughly miserable. Poor guy. I have taken it...
    UntilTheEnd UntilTheEnd 31-35 3 Responses Mar 25

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    I can't stand to look at a mirror anymore. Went shopping with my younger sister and trying on clothes gave me anxiety I'm so fat...I need to lose weight I don't want to eat anymore...
    lovelybones14 lovelybones14 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    I wish I didn't have to eat. I wish I could go on and on without eating. I wish I could look in the mirror and not be disgusted.
    TeenagerInPain TeenagerInPain 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 27

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    My current weight 3 weeks ago: 205 current weight now: 190 been exercising all day and night eating less and less everyday. restricting a lot barley eating STAY STRONG PRO ANA"S
    myproanalifestyle123 myproanalifestyle123 13-15, F Mar 29

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    I had an epiphany a few days ago I was sitting on a stoop in front of a gas station thinking about how I was at the point of no return, feeling broken to the point I couldn't even...
    OhhBoyOhBoy OhhBoyOhBoy 26-30, M Mar 31

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    I want to eat and eat till I can't even sit up or look over my enormous belly full of food
    fattenmelikelugia fattenmelikelugia 18-21, M Apr 1

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    mergirl123 mergirl123 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 3

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