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    Food

    I haven't willing ate food in months. I always feel sick afterwards no matter how much or little I eat. So I make myself eat food. And it sucks. And I don't know what t do. Arg.
    SCChick1990 SCChick1990 18-21, F Jan 26, 2009

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    Don't Stop!!

    I was overboard eating so much my arms began to look bigger than my friend Nadia's giant 40'' hulk arms..I was overcompensating for last nite when I didn't eat my 100k cals like I chow down on like a piggie I'm getting so fat my belly reaches below my knees and made me fall and...
    bigbootygirl3 bigbootygirl3 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 7, 2013

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    My Weekend Plan

    Two days off and even if I'm full to bursting I am simply going to force myself to keep eating the whole time so that I can gain about 14lbs in two days.  I know my feeder will help me get the food down and take care of me but I simply want this big push to get some fat on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 20, 2010

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    Can't Ep and Eat

    This is not the real story. This is just a recent phenomenon since i began to EP 9 days (?can i even remember?) ago. I immediately became addicted to EP, the first time I used it. I cannot face eating anything during or after EP sessions. I feel sick quite a...
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo 31-35, M 4 Responses Jan 28, 2009

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    My eating disorder

    I have something called EDNOS. It is an acronym for "eating disorder not otherwise specified". Mine is closely related to binge eating disorder, but not exactly. I do it because my whole life I have been underweight and my highest weight has been 108 pounds or 7 stone 10 pounds...
    nomeatforshrimp nomeatforshrimp 16-17, F Jul 21, 2012

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    So I do do it but I want more food I'm

    beginning to get hungry constantly
    Thefatgainer13man Thefatgainer13man 13-15 1 Response Feb 4, 2015

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    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2014

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    I Like Food

    Really I do, its just that I generally don't have much of an appetite. I can go an entire day (including a visit to the gym) without feeling the need to eat. I also tend to prioritize work/school/writing over sitting down for a meal....its far too easy for me to get into what I'm...
    vinividivici21 vinividivici21 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 26, 2009

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    I did not realize my childhood was ****** up until.. I experienced loads of therapy. As an 8 year old child, I thought I liked cleaning, if you can believe it. "What 8 year old...
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    that's lovely you have an opinion... and what makes yours so much more important than my own? What gives you the right to demand I make changes to my behaviour to fall in line...
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    this is such a bizarre fantasy of mine... I would love to be forced into a diaper and made me to eat high calorie baby food while being humiliated.. I would be so turned on if they...
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    Mmmm how i love to eat i love food more than my own family i cant stop eating am never fullam never satisfied i am always wanting it , its addiction its a drug ,its all i think...
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    Whobody Whobody 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 25

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    I really have been struggling with this lately... well more like for the past 7 or so months. I ******* hate myself, I hate that I'm useless and can't bring home any income, I hate...
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