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I Gave Up On Myself

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    It was after I made a mistake.

    I thought I should die.I shouldn't be here.My friends had opportunities to make the same mistake as I but me being the stupid teenage girl. I did it. I had nose bleeds,I cut,I didn't eat,I cried my self to sleep for months. My heart wasn't shattered, it was in pieces so much...
    Parbatie Parbatie 13-15, F Jul 10, 2014

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    treegurl94 treegurl94 16-17, F Jun 20, 2014

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    treegurl94 treegurl94 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2014

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    I did something I promised myself I would never

    do again. I'm so disappointed in myself.
    justakookiegirl justakookiegirl 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Loved, Hoped, Believed, Got Traumatized, Cant Do Anything Anymore. Literally

    First time writing stuff like this, as you can see from the quality of the title. i dont even know what to write. Its just that i am so tired of everything , i guess sharing stuff anonymously where i cant be affected directly is kind of the only way to get stuff of my chest. I am...
    kragoth135 kragoth135 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 29, 2013

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    This morning I woke up

    and knew I missed my bus, and for the first time, I was thankful. I'm in my last year and I get so tired of going to my hell-hole of a high school just to get judged by not only my peers, but my teachers. I think I've missed about 15 classes this year alone. I'm not proud of it...
    alexis3000 alexis3000 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2014

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    I scare myself, sometimes the person in my head isn't me, sometimes I break my personality down to the point where there are three distinct voices in my head, someday I feel like I...
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    I really do. I'm lying in bed, and truly feel that I hate myself for how weak, ugly and alone I am. I always think I'm gonna change but I never do. Ever. I really suck....
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    When I was still in kindergarten - second class of primary school, I swore to myself that I will never do any of the following: 1. Smoke or do drugs 2. Drink 3. Have a plastic...
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    I may not always have a good day, but I am in general, mostly on good terms with myself. I don't want to be anyone else.🍩🍰🍪🍯🍮🍳🍔🍬🍫🍖🍕🍝
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    Its not that I've cried myself to sleep, its that I couldn't stop crying today yet. There has been so much stress in my household between me and my boyfriend. I know were not...
    4merself 4merself 36-40, F 4 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    revealed what wasn't was in me anymore dream like reality i embraced in this temple of gloom and misery i created a light..in me wishing to see things differently longing...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 11 hrs ago

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    I've done so many amazing things this past year. My parents going through a divorce (a very long and drawn out one) My entire world ripped away from me multiple times.>>>>surviving...
    Anonymouscoast Anonymouscoast 22-25 12 hrs ago

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    i cried myself to sleep countless times. Who cares if I am happy or not? It becomes meaningless and when I am sad nowadays, it is hard to cry. Just hope I will never wake up
    Nat2138 Nat2138 36-40, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    **** you you ******* fucktard.... How's that for expressing myself? And Oh yeah.... Go to hell.
    AngelaBelievesInLove AngelaBelievesInLove 22-25, F 18 hrs ago

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    Not a day goes by were i think about my first girlfriend ,my best girlfriend who would have soon been my fiancee . Five years since that night since that car accident. five years...
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    And honestly, I don't like it... Deep in the inside, I know it's better to just accept that I'm not nice at all, which is how I've seen myself as for a long time now. I know as...
    Sil833 Sil833 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    how much time do we need to make a single choice sometimes it take years to even realize what's happening what we become..and giving a name to a feeling, bothering us for a...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M a week ago

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    this is a true experience, and just for note I don't like peeing myself at all. I don't mind desperation in private, but I don't like it in public or find it fun at all. This for...
    kgirl17 kgirl17 18-21 2 Responses Aug 24

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    Since 4 months I have been fattening myself up every single minute of the day I gained weight rapidly each and everyday thanks to a friend here with my girlfriend I turned into an...
    M19946 M19946 18-21 2 Responses Aug 24

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    hymn of nothingness oh i have serve feels like eternity to feel...joy and sadness illuminate my path with darkness and nothingness away from all this madness unite me with...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M Aug 24

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    Some time ago I promised myself I wouldn't cut myself with a knife anymore. Last night I broke that promise. According to my promise this means I have a problem with cutting. I...
    jsualmtha jsualmtha 18-21, F Aug 23

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    When I am in my room.. When the lights are out.. When the noise and sound are gone.. When I am alone laying in my bed or sitting in my chair... I feel the most myself. The me I am...
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    a gift wrapped... drifted in my way life's unknown mysteries so i picked it up felt it and gave it a name i didn't knew.. but now i know wanted to say no...when my lips...
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    I never admitted this to myself. I'm afraid of being abandoned. I'm super sensitive to ridicule and humiliation. I hate my parents. I wrote mom a letter when I was about 6-7...
    MentAl69noMAD MentAl69noMAD 18-21 2 Responses Aug 16

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    I don't even know myself let alone able to be myself. I am so fake. I have social anxiety, which is getting better, but only because I force myself to behave more enthusiastic, or...
    WhereaboutsUnknown WhereaboutsUnknown 22-25, F Aug 16

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    I always fantasise about hurting myself, especially in public. I analysed myself (as cold as I could be) and found that I could be seeking for attention. I hate that part of myself...
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    I knew he was trouble, but I loved him anyway because he told me he loved me too and wanted to be with me for the rest of his life. But our relationship ended just as badly as I...
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