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I Gave Up On Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 90 People

    Loved, Hoped, Believed, Got Traumatized, Cant Do Anything Anymore. Literally

    First time writing stuff like this, as you can see from the quality of the title. i dont even know what to write. Its just that i am so tired of everything , i guess sharing stuff anonymously where i cant be affected directly is kind of the only way to get stuff of my chest. I am...
    kragoth135 kragoth135 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 29, 2013

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    treegurl94 treegurl94 18-21, F Jun 20, 2014

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    It was after I made a mistake.

    I thought I should die.I shouldn't be here.My friends had opportunities to make the same mistake as I but me being the stupid teenage girl. I did it. I had nose bleeds,I cut,I didn't eat,I cried my self to sleep for months. My heart wasn't shattered, it was in pieces so much...
    Parbatie Parbatie 16-17, F Jul 10, 2014

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    I did something I promised myself I would never

    do again. I'm so disappointed in myself.
    justakookiegirl justakookiegirl 18-21, F Aug 31, 2015

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    This morning I woke up

    and knew I missed my bus, and for the first time, I was thankful. I'm in my last year and I get so tired of going to my hell-hole of a high school just to get judged by not only my peers, but my teachers. I think I've missed about 15 classes this year alone. I'm not proud of it...
    alexis3000 alexis3000 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2014

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    treegurl94 treegurl94 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2014

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