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I Gave Up On Myself

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    treegurl94 treegurl94 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2014

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    This morning I woke up

    and knew I missed my bus, and for the first time, I was thankful. I'm in my last year and I get so tired of going to my hell-hole of a high school just to get judged by not only my peers, but my teachers. I think I've missed about 15 classes this year alone. I'm not proud of it...
    alexis3000 alexis3000 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2014

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    It was after I made a mistake.

    I thought I should die.I shouldn't be here.My friends had opportunities to make the same mistake as I but me being the stupid teenage girl. I did it. I had nose bleeds,I cut,I didn't eat,I cried my self to sleep for months. My heart wasn't shattered, it was in pieces so much...
    Parbatie Parbatie 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2014

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    Loved, Hoped, Believed, Got Traumatized, Cant Do Anything Anymore. Literally

    First time writing stuff like this, as you can see from the quality of the title. i dont even know what to write. Its just that i am so tired of everything , i guess sharing stuff anonymously where i cant be affected directly is kind of the only way to get stuff of my chest. I am...
    kragoth135 kragoth135 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 29, 2013

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    treegurl94 treegurl94 16-17, F Jun 20, 2014

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