Today started out good. I didn't feel sad this morning. But as the day went on, I fell deeper and deeper. I cried part of the way home. I don't really know why. I just kept thinking about my life and where I am right now and I cried.
One look at me you would think, she so happy,
But deep, way deep within me,is a sadness.
its so dark, so cold ,i cant sleep
i cants erase it,
its eating me up slowly, like a cancer
it has enchanted me with its dark magic
its incurable and i have embraced it
its incapacitated me...
So today was such a depressing day...
It started off well I mean I got up early and went to morning detention. I was generally pleased with myself. I even told my favorite two teachers about it all excitedly.
But by second period I became rather upset and depressed for what...
The waves of sadness come and go, but some nights they just stick with you. Tonight is one of those nights that makes being alone difficult. My heart is heavy and I just want to reach out and have some one there.
I’m truly not unhappy all the time. The moments of happiness are...
I always just feel so sad... Most of the time I don't know why. I just all of a sudden feel depressed and moody... and then I feel like I'm about to start crying. For some reason though I never do cry.. I just feel like I'm about to start crying. I wish I could cry sometimes...
My cries will never end,
like a stream in the winter they will flow,
A bag of sadness they console,
My anger they wash away,
As i slip into comfort,
An wipe them away,
They have a golden way
Just to make me feel okay.
I am so tired. Tired of feeling. Tired of fighting. Tired of being responsible. Tired of pretending things are good. Tired of acting like everything is fine and all things will work out. Tired of broken promises and faded dreams. Tired of people who want nothing more than to see...
but I have friends in school but then when am at home no one what to hang out with me I don't really know I guess just feel all down and get sad my family kind of hates me and away judge me for what I look like make me sad at time:(