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I Get Stuck In My Past In My Mind Sometimes

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    I've been spending more time with my mom

    since she's been sober. and as nice as it seems... I think its messing me up. For 1. I'm not used to her being there so I am trying to be happy about it. For 2. I have some terrible memories of her. I vividly remember her touching me while her boyfriend raped me as a...
    bluediamond325 bluediamond325 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2014

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    Over-thinked thoughts take over

    and overcome everything. Worst feeling :/
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2014

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    If I could just do something ,

    if I could just stop it along time ago , if could just change it , if could've just move on,if I could've just forget, I just hate life sometimes!!!...
    Anabe1995 Anabe1995 18-21, F Nov 16, 2014

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    Revolving Door

    I dwell on certain things that happen and I get stuck in these thoughts until I am completely tormented. It turns into nightmares so vivid that I will keep myself awake on purpose so I dont have to live thru things again.  I keep thinking I can find a resolution to things but I...
    WakgUp WakgUp 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 10, 2012

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    "Can't go home again,

    need someone to numb the pain..."
    masmelo masmelo 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    Nothing

    That's basically what I consist of; nothing. Sometimes too many episodes of my past dominate my mind and I wish they would go away like turning off the TV when an uncomfortable scene pops up. That's not how most minds work though. Rape and torture isn't something you easily...
    Brielle18 Brielle18 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17, 2013

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    I can't ever escape it no matter how hard I try.

    I'm drowning in my past struggling to breathe.
    leaguegirl97 leaguegirl97 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2014

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    The One Who Loves You

    It is easy to get caught up in fantasies of former lovers or almost lovers, heightening and romanticizing what actually *was* or, god, could be. I think it isn't about them at all. We get seduced by our own mental constructions of the "one-who-loves-us," one who was never a real...
    dominomomo dominomomo 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    It's like it just hits me,

    and I can't come out of them.
    MatildaBlack MatildaBlack 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    I keep thinking about the summer

    and what I did wrong but if I change it you lose an experience.
    599gto 599gto 13-15, M Nov 16, 2014

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    When they trying to cheer you up,

    they going to put the pos. more than the neg. I think it's grate to be reminded that life goes on. But you can't stop feeling something that has played with your emotions for so long. So when that feeling hits me, now, I wouldn't even tell anyone. I would mentioned a thing. I...
    masmelo masmelo 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    It's never the nice places .

    It's hard to remember the good moments sometimes .
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Questions For My Ghost

    Do a thought of me ever cross your mind? Does it bring a bittersweet smile to your face, or a pang of guilt to your heart? Have you given me two seconds thought after all these years? Just wondering...
    amelia714 amelia714 46-50, F Apr 25, 2013

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    I Dont Understand

    picture this lets say your in traffic your lane is all backed up and the other lane is speading by you just sit there like damn those lucky people thats how i feel about life im always stuck stuck in this bubble eccept i dont have a whole line of cars with people in them...
    murphy8 murphy8 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    Who Doesnt??

    If you picture yourself 20 yrs younger or whatever age and act like that, are in reasonably good health, keep on living your glory days. They are still happening. Be in control, you prob wasnt back then. Comments, questions, or discussion??
    linksysfan linksysfan 51-55, M Jul 20, 2011

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    Growing Up In Black And White

    We baby boomers have a wide stretch of time to recall. I sometimes think back into the joyfilled days when I was maybe 3 or 4. A late potty trained kid, I had accidents, which meant that in addition to "big boy undies" I still had some thick cloth training pants and rubber (yes...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 28, 2012

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    The Real War Is Inside...

    I've been through many traumatizing events! I always thought that just because I can talk about them over and over, it meant that they didn't effect me. But in all reality they did. I was molested at 8 years old by my old baby sitter, It was terrifying but I knew I was strong...
    MoodSwingBetty MoodSwingBetty 18-21, F Jul 20, 2011

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    I have had very dark times

    where no one supported me. I made it thru but only just. This makes me bitter. And eager to see the worst in people. How can it not when you are so accustomed to watching those you thought you knew turn their back on you?
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 16, 2014

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    I Don't Feel Stuck

    I do tend to dwell on my happier times.I don't think that is necessarily a bad thing. I think it helps me to face the problems I am now facing.
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F Oct 22, 2012

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    Part 1 I'm standing in front of the hotel hoping I can gather the courage to go up to your room. We've gotten to know each other on here. We've even traded pictures. I feel like I...
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    Part 2 The way you look at me simply takes my breath away. The feel of your hand on my face shows me that this is real. Not just one of a hundred times I've dreamed of this moment...
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    Part 3 Caressing. Moving hands. Pinching them. Making them harder. I try to turn around. It's only fair that I get to undress you too. But no I am made to stay. Your hands slide...
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    Any boys 13-21 wanna talk? I'm open to almost anything
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    It's not always necessary to change someone's mind: Sometimes it's just plain not worth it to try and change someone's mind, best to just agree to disagree and move on. For the...
    CrystalRainsPearls CrystalRainsPearls 41-45, F 5 Responses Apr 16

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    I hate how i can hav such a dirty mind sometimes. lol I disgust myself ?????? ??
    SunshineAnderson13 SunshineAnderson13 22-25, F Mar 30

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    I really want to forget some ******* things from my past
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    I have to admit divorcing after 17 years of marriage, a part of me could never put all my heart and soul into one man again. For four years, I dated three to get the ONE I needed...
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    It's my favorite sandwich I also love it with pasta
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    Canters a Jewish deli in Los Angeles has great pastrami sandwiches
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    The best place for a pastrami sandwich
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    I sometimes answer the door sometimes in an outfit. its embarrassing but its also a turn on
    ilikepugs ilikepugs 13-15, M 19 hrs ago

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    im so tired of feeling let down all the time. im tired of the hurt an pain i go through each an every day. i hate how i struggle to be happy. its not a good feeling, depression...
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    Sometimes, my mind cannot seem to stop. It races faster and faster with thoughts that become increasingly dramatic and scary. Thoughts like "It would be a good idea to just sleep...
    TopazWeaver TopazWeaver 18-21, M Apr 15

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    Roses are red Violets are blue-ish I sometimes follow my heart Does that make me foolish?
    spreadyourwings spreadyourwings 22-25, F 7 hrs ago

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    Her day is done. Her energy spent. She’s alone in the calm at lastShe sits at the base of the big oak tree, thinking of days gone past.Her head falls back against the bark...
    Chrye Chrye 51-55, F 4 Responses Mar 25

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    AllTheEmotions AllTheEmotions 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 25

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    5:32 here staying at a hotel, can't sleep a wink. I didn't know I was going to wake up yesterday and my life flipped upside-down. Tomorrow I'll be homeless, again. Sometimes I...
    NighthawkBM NighthawkBM 22-25, M Mar 31

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    I'm in the middle of my legend of Zelda a link to the past playthrough and I'm at the last neckless the blue one before I get the master sword :) I'm stuck THO :(
    ZeldaGuardian95 ZeldaGuardian95 18-21, T Apr 5

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    I hate my past and I blame it for who I am. I grew up too fast and ended up trying to fill a void my parents left in my heart, it led me to lot of bad decisions I regret and its a...
    RawrrItsAlexa RawrrItsAlexa 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 5

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    The days seem longer. Time seems to be slipping away. The walk seems almost unbearable. Not to mention your feet are starting to hurt. At this point you are completely exhausted...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 14