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I Get Stuck In My Past In My Mind Sometimes

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    I have had very dark times

    where no one supported me. I made it thru but only just. This makes me bitter. And eager to see the worst in people. How can it not when you are so accustomed to watching those you thought you knew turn their back on you?
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 16, 2014

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    The One Who Loves You

    It is easy to get caught up in fantasies of former lovers or almost lovers, heightening and romanticizing what actually *was* or, god, could be. I think it isn't about them at all. We get seduced by our own mental constructions of the "one-who-loves-us," one who was never a real...
    dominomomo dominomomo 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    I Dont Understand

    picture this lets say your in traffic your lane is all backed up and the other lane is speading by you just sit there like damn those lucky people thats how i feel about life im always stuck stuck in this bubble eccept i dont have a whole line of cars with people in them...
    murphy8 murphy8 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    I've been spending more time with my mom

    since she's been sober. and as nice as it seems... I think its messing me up. For 1. I'm not used to her being there so I am trying to be happy about it. For 2. I have some terrible memories of her. I vividly remember her touching me while her boyfriend raped me as a...
    bluediamond325 bluediamond325 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2014

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    When they trying to cheer you up,

    they going to put the pos. more than the neg. I think it's grate to be reminded that life goes on. But you can't stop feeling something that has played with your emotions for so long. So when that feeling hits me, now, I wouldn't even tell anyone. I would mentioned a thing. I...
    masmelo masmelo 18-21, F Apr 21

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    I keep thinking about the summer

    and what I did wrong but if I change it you lose an experience.
    599gto 599gto 13-15, M Nov 16, 2014

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    I Don't Feel Stuck

    I do tend to dwell on my happier times.I don't think that is necessarily a bad thing. I think it helps me to face the problems I am now facing.
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F Oct 22, 2012

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    It's like it just hits me,

    and I can't come out of them.
    MatildaBlack MatildaBlack 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    Nothing

    That's basically what I consist of; nothing. Sometimes too many episodes of my past dominate my mind and I wish they would go away like turning off the TV when an uncomfortable scene pops up. That's not how most minds work though. Rape and torture isn't something you easily...
    Brielle18 Brielle18 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17, 2013

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    Questions For My Ghost

    Do a thought of me ever cross your mind? Does it bring a bittersweet smile to your face, or a pang of guilt to your heart? Have you given me two seconds thought after all these years? Just wondering...
    amelia714 amelia714 46-50, F Apr 25, 2013

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    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 11

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    If I could just do something ,

    if I could just stop it along time ago , if could just change it , if could've just move on,if I could've just forget, I just hate life sometimes!!!...
    Anabe1995 Anabe1995 18-21, F Nov 16, 2014

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    Over-thinked thoughts take over

    and overcome everything. Worst feeling :/
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 16, 2014

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    Converted Converted 46-50, M Apr 28

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    Who Doesnt??

    If you picture yourself 20 yrs younger or whatever age and act like that, are in reasonably good health, keep on living your glory days. They are still happening. Be in control, you prob wasnt back then. Comments, questions, or discussion??
    linksysfan linksysfan 51-55, M Jul 20, 2011

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    (warning this is a very long story

    and i was just wanting to vent) my thoughts are going 100mph while I lay here in Ned awake since 2am it is now 7 am. I'm thinking about how much people can hurt you and don't even realize it or don't want to. 7 years ago I suffered from postpartum psychosis and it was all due...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 12

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    Revolving Door

    I dwell on certain things that happen and I get stuck in these thoughts until I am completely tormented. It turns into nightmares so vivid that I will keep myself awake on purpose so I dont have to live thru things again.  I keep thinking I can find a resolution to things but I...
    WakgUp WakgUp 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 10, 2012

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    "Can't go home again,

    need someone to numb the pain..."
    masmelo masmelo 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    The Real War Is Inside...

    I've been through many traumatizing events! I always thought that just because I can talk about them over and over, it meant that they didn't effect me. But in all reality they did. I was molested at 8 years old by my old baby sitter, It was terrifying but I knew I was strong...
    MoodSwingBetty MoodSwingBetty 18-21, F Jul 20, 2011

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    I can't ever escape it no matter how hard I try.

    I'm drowning in my past struggling to breathe.
    leaguegirl97 leaguegirl97 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2014

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    It's never the nice places .

    It's hard to remember the good moments sometimes .
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 18-21, F Apr 22

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    Growing Up In Black And White

    We baby boomers have a wide stretch of time to recall. I sometimes think back into the joyfilled days when I was maybe 3 or 4. A late potty trained kid, I had accidents, which meant that in addition to "big boy undies" I still had some thick cloth training pants and rubber (yes...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 28, 2012

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    Once my boyfriend falls asleep it's almost the same thing nightly. I am awake just thinking. Why is it at night in bed that you think about all of the "important" things in life...
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    Sometimes its better to let go off your past....atleast one can feel much lighter from inside....
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    a message i sent to a girl that is having despair and wanting to die:: "no, sweetie, i don't judge you. i understand it's probably just become an obsession to ease your pain or...
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    Never mind i'll find someone like you,i wish nothing but the best for you .....
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