I Get Stuck In My Past In My Mind Sometimes

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    Questions For My Ghost

    Do a thought of me ever cross your mind? Does it bring a bittersweet smile to your face, or a pang of guilt to your heart? Have you given me two seconds thought after all these years? Just wondering...
    amelia714 amelia714
    46-50, F
    Apr 25, 2013

    If I could just do something ,

    if I could just stop it along time ago , if could just change it , if could've just move on,if I could've just forget, I just hate life sometimes!!!...
    Anabe1995 Anabe1995
    18-21, F
    Nov 16, 2014

    I can't ever escape it no matter how hard I try.

    I'm drowning in my past struggling to breathe.
    leaguegirl97 leaguegirl97
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 16, 2014

    I have had very dark times

    where no one supported me. I made it thru but only just. This makes me bitter. And eager to see the worst in people. How can it not when you are so accustomed to watching those you thought you knew turn their back on you?
    katariffik katariffik
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 16, 2014

    The One Who Loves You

    It is easy to get caught up in fantasies of former lovers or almost lovers, heightening and romanticizing what actually *was* or, god, could be. I think it isn't about them at all. We get seduced by our own mental constructions of the "one-who-loves-us," one who was never a real...
    dominomomo dominomomo
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 13, 2013

    I Dont Understand

    picture this lets say your in traffic your lane is all backed up and the other lane is speading by you just sit there like damn those lucky people thats how i feel about life im always stuck stuck in this bubble eccept i dont have a whole line of cars with people in them...
    murphy8 murphy8
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Nov 25, 2013

    Growing Up In Black And White

    We baby boomers have a wide stretch of time to recall. I sometimes think back into the joyfilled days when I was maybe 3 or 4. A late potty trained kid, I had accidents, which meant that in addition to "big boy undies" I still had some thick cloth training pants and rubber (yes...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 28, 2012

    It's like it just hits me,

    and I can't come out of them.
    MatildaBlack MatildaBlack
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Nov 15, 2014

    Nothing

    That's basically what I consist of; nothing. Sometimes too many episodes of my past dominate my mind and I wish they would go away like turning off the TV when an uncomfortable scene pops up. That's not how most minds work though. Rape and torture isn't something you easily...
    Brielle18 Brielle18
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 17, 2013

    To be thinking about your past is something

    that happens regularly. Sometimes you don't even notice that you're thinking about it again; and you know what? That's totally okay, as long as you don't lose yourself and remember you're living in the here and now.
    Jinyxo Jinyxo
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 17

    Used dwell, wallow, and ruminate ALL the time.

    I think I just reached my breaking point where I stopped giving a damn. I'm just as stressed about life, but at least that painful component of regret and beating myself up constantly for making bad decisions being gone is a huge relief. So I guess my point is, as hard as we try...
    ChaoticEnigma ChaoticEnigma
    36-40, M
    Jan 17

    When they trying to cheer you up,

    they going to put the pos. more than the neg. I think it's grate to be reminded that life goes on. But you can't stop feeling something that has played with your emotions for so long. So when that feeling hits me, now, I wouldn't even tell anyone. I would mentioned a thing. I...
    masmelo masmelo
    18-21, F
    Apr 21, 2015

    Who Doesnt??

    If you picture yourself 20 yrs younger or whatever age and act like that, are in reasonably good health, keep on living your glory days. They are still happening. Be in control, you prob wasnt back then. Comments, questions, or discussion??
    linksysfan linksysfan
    51-55, M
    Jul 20, 2011

    I Don't Feel Stuck

    I do tend to dwell on my happier times.I don't think that is necessarily a bad thing. I think it helps me to face the problems I am now facing.
    Serenitree Serenitree
    70+, F
    Oct 22, 2012

    (warning this is a very long story

    and i was just wanting to vent) my thoughts are going 100mph while I lay here in Ned awake since 2am it is now 7 am. I'm thinking about how much people can hurt you and don't even realize it or don't want to. 7 years ago I suffered from postpartum psychosis and it was all due...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 12, 2015

    It's never the nice places .

    It's hard to remember the good moments sometimes .
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies
    18-21, F
    Apr 22, 2015

    I've been spending more time with my mom

    since she's been sober. and as nice as it seems... I think its messing me up. For 1. I'm not used to her being there so I am trying to be happy about it. For 2. I have some terrible memories of her. I vividly remember her touching me while her boyfriend raped me as a...
    bluediamond325 bluediamond325
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 16, 2014

    The Real War Is Inside...

    I've been through many traumatizing events! I always thought that just because I can talk about them over and over, it meant that they didn't effect me. But in all reality they did. I was molested at 8 years old by my old baby sitter, It was terrifying but I knew I was strong...
    MoodSwingBetty MoodSwingBetty
    18-21, F
    Jul 20, 2011

    I keep thinking about the summer

    and what I did wrong but if I change it you lose an experience.
    599gto 599gto
    13-15, M
    Nov 16, 2014

    Revolving Door

    I dwell on certain things that happen and I get stuck in these thoughts until I am completely tormented. It turns into nightmares so vivid that I will keep myself awake on purpose so I dont have to live thru things again.  I keep thinking I can find a resolution to things but I...
    WakgUp WakgUp
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 10, 2012

    "Can't go home again,

    need someone to numb the pain..."
    masmelo masmelo
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 14, 2014

    Over-thinked thoughts take over

    and overcome everything. Worst feeling :/
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 16, 2014
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 11, 2015

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