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I Get Stuck In My Past In My Mind Sometimes

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    I've been spending more time with my mom

    since she's been sober. and as nice as it seems... I think its messing me up. For 1. I'm not used to her being there so I am trying to be happy about it. For 2. I have some terrible memories of her. I vividly remember her touching me while her boyfriend raped me as a...
    bluediamond325 bluediamond325 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 16

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    It's like it just hits me,

    and I can't come out of them.
    MatildaBlack MatildaBlack 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 15

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    Growing Up In Black And White

    We baby boomers have a wide stretch of time to recall. I sometimes think back into the joyfilled days when I was maybe 3 or 4. A late potty trained kid, I had accidents, which meant that in addition to "big boy undies" I still had some thick cloth training pants and rubber (yes...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 28, 2012

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    The Real War Is Inside...

    I've been through many traumatizing events! I always thought that just because I can talk about them over and over, it meant that they didn't effect me. But in all reality they did. I was molested at 8 years old by my old baby sitter, It was terrifying but I knew I was strong...
    MoodSwingBetty MoodSwingBetty 18-21, F Jul 20, 2011

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    If I could just do something ,

    if I could just stop it along time ago , if could just change it , if could've just move on,if I could've just forget, I just hate life sometimes!!!...
    Anabe1995 Anabe1995 18-21, F Nov 16

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    The One Who Loves You

    It is easy to get caught up in fantasies of former lovers or almost lovers, heightening and romanticizing what actually *was* or, god, could be. I think it isn't about them at all. We get seduced by our own mental constructions of the "one-who-loves-us," one who was never a real...
    dominomomo dominomomo 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    I have had very dark times

    where no one supported me. I made it thru but only just. This makes me bitter. And eager to see the worst in people. How can it not when you are so accustomed to watching those you thought you knew turn their back on you?
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F 3 Responses Nov 16

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    Revolving Door

    I dwell on certain things that happen and I get stuck in these thoughts until I am completely tormented. It turns into nightmares so vivid that I will keep myself awake on purpose so I dont have to live thru things again.Β  I keep thinking I can find a resolution to things but I...
    WakgUp WakgUp 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 10, 2012

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    Who Doesnt??

    If you picture yourself 20 yrs younger or whatever age and act like that, are in reasonably good health, keep on living your glory days. They are still happening. Be in control, you prob wasnt back then. Comments, questions, or discussion??
    linksysfan linksysfan 51-55, M Jul 20, 2011

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    When yelled at. Or fired.

    Or tired of both.
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M Nov 15

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    Nothing

    That's basically what I consist of; nothing. Sometimes too many episodes of my past dominate my mind and I wish they would go away like turning off the TV when an uncomfortable scene pops up. That's not how most minds work though. Rape and torture isn't something you easily...
    Brielle18 Brielle18 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17, 2013

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    Over-thinked thoughts take over

    and overcome everything. Worst feeling :/
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 16

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    I Don't Feel Stuck

    I do tend to dwell on my happier times.I don't think that is necessarily a bad thing. I think it helps me to face the problems I am now facing.
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F Oct 22, 2012

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    Questions For My Ghost

    Do a thought of me ever cross your mind? Does it bring a bittersweet smile to your face, or a pang of guilt to your heart? Have you given me two seconds thought after all these years? Just wondering...
    amelia714 amelia714 46-50, F Apr 25, 2013

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    I Dont Understand

    picture this lets say your in traffic your lane is all backed up and the other lane is speading by you just sit there like damn those lucky people thats how i feel about life im always stuck stuck in this bubble eccept i dont have a whole line of cars with people in them...
    murphy8 murphy8 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    I can't ever escape it no matter how hard I try.

    I'm drowning in my past struggling to breathe.
    leaguegirl97 leaguegirl97 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 16

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    I keep thinking about the summer

    and what I did wrong but if I change it you lose an experience.
    599gto 599gto 13-15, M Nov 16

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    "Can't go home again,

    need someone to numb the pain..."
    masmelo masmelo 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    So my dad was watching football earlier and I was walking past as they were chatting at half time and one of the guys just starts talking about penatrating harder and harder and I...
    ardw ardw 13-15, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    It is good to get dirty sometimes in kinda conversations :P lol
    ashley9898 ashley9898 18-21, M Nov 22

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    Having a dirty minds comes in handy when you want to space out during a boring lecture/conversation you don't want to be apart of :)
    ksgirl93 ksgirl93 18-21, F 14 Responses Dec 11

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    As my friend and I like to say...I don't have a dirty mind, I just have a sexy imagination.
    MusicSavesMyLife MusicSavesMyLife 13-15, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Sometimes, no let's try all the time.
    orchids2blu orchids2blu 36-40, F 51 Responses 1 day ago

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    Does anyone think I'm pretty?
    AshleyNicolee AshleyNicolee 16-17, T 1 Response Dec 1

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    This is not true. For it is ALL the time ._.
    aFuzzyBlouw aFuzzyBlouw 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 10

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    I will append "that's what she said" or "that's what he said" in my head to a lot of what people say.
    timsmith88 timsmith88 26-30, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Too many people get stuck in their stubborn ways and habits that they've gotten use to over the course of their life. You have to step outside of your comfort zone or you will...
    ozboybrian ozboybrian 26-30 4 Responses Nov 25

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    I had lived in Eastern Europe up until I was about 12 and then moved to France with my parents. Growing up, western culture was not really a part of my everyday life, so I didn't...
    katarinagg katarinagg 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    im 15, turning 16 in january really soon. i have no idea where to begin, but one thing i can say is that my life is what you call the most significant roller coaster i can only...
    essaahoopz essaahoopz 16-17 Nov 30

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    I'm a mother, wife, and a full time employee. My mother in law and brother in law live with us in our tiny house, supposedly helping with the children while my husband and I work...
    secret2nite117 secret2nite117 31-35, F Dec 10

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    As I'm sitting this house wondering what going to happen in my later life. As right now I do not understand myself because there so much stuff that I wanted to do. Well I can't do...
    colonaileen colonaileen 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I have the song Hater by Korn stuck in my head for the past 3 days lol. 🎼🎢🎢🎢🎢🎢🎢🎢🎧🎧🎧🎡🎡🎡🎢🎢🎢🎢🎢🎼🎼🎢🎢🎢🎢
    TerraMeranda TerraMeranda 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 29

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    It's an interesting term, we use it in discussions everyday in some form or another whether it be in our jobs, to friends, girlfriends, boyfriends, husbands, wives, relatives...
    xxSTEVE7xx xxSTEVE7xx 31-35, M 4 Responses Dec 4

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    So umm.. funny story. I all of a sudden had a craving for parsley.. dried parsley.. so I went to the cabinet and took the "holed" lid off of the parsley flakes thingy, stuck a...
    DiaLuz DiaLuz 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 11

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    Yep. Why exactly is it so hard to let the past go and move on from it?
    trayomis trayomis 31-35, F Dec 4

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    I had to drink wine to be able to sleep. I have trouble sleeping this past few days. It started when someone from my past started to communicate with me again. Actually, it was me...
    JustStrongEnough JustStrongEnough 31-35, F Dec 12

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    The past is cruel! It haunts me so Desperately needing Many many host The wetness on my face The redness of my sight Spirals of depression That block the holy light The nostalgic...
    newbeginnings15 newbeginnings15 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 26

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    I am slowly slipping back into old habits and my stress & anxiety levels are at an all time high. I've cried every night for the past week. my dad is a lying cheater and I can't...
    roryrawry roryrawry 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    I have been working on an associates degree for 6 years! One minute I want to say **** it and go to art school. The next minute, I want to finish my degree in psychology. Sometimes...
    AnnUrban AnnUrban 22-25, F 7 Responses Dec 3

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    It sometimes takes a new person in your life to gain a better perspective of your past. What I believed I never had, might have been, that I never understood the power of love...
    EverlyAnn EverlyAnn 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 3

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    I do drugs, alot. dont judge me please. I find that certain chemicals make me able to enjoy life by being able to just lay in be, close my eyes and go on a mind trip, not like acid...
    Dissociator Dissociator 13-15, M Dec 10

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    today i got stuck in an elevator, i am extremely claustrophobic and i always hated elevators, it was an old small red colored elevator ..i was gonna face my fears and it's the...
    antoneli antoneli 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 27

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    You know what, I like to be real, I love cutting out all the rubbish and getting to the route of the problem, I used to be the kind of woman that would suppress so many emotions...
    pristee88 pristee88 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 2

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    Hey. I'm a new member here, and I was browsing through this website, looking for my old posts. I couldn't find any, so I decided to rewrite my past, in case anyone's interested. I...
    Madgiddypig Madgiddypig 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    And it's really bugging me. RANT SESSION (warning):You're in my thoughts. When I'm at different places and I'm reminded of you or memories we've shared. Honestly, I wish you weren...
    xxblasianxx xxblasianxx 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Let me rephrase... I am not damaged. I have some little scars in my mind from the past, but I do not let it rule my life. I let it go and move forward with life. I become a better...
    MissyMo MissyMo 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    is it right for an aunt and uncle of a 1 yr old child not to bribg any gifts for them? it seems to b a patter with them that they show up eat n hang out n make no contribution...
    figmentoftheirimagination figmentoftheirimagination 26-30, F Nov 21

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