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I Get Suicidal and Don't Tell Anyone

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 32 People

    I Go...

    There are times, when my depression gets really bad, and I become really depressed, sometimes I don't know why my mind always goes to ending my life. I just can't handle someone knowing that I feel that bad, because usually when I am feeling that bad, there is about  nothing...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 8, 2009

    No One to Tell

    Because no one listens when i speak- forget when i cry or scream or beg- so what's the point They are all sick of hearing it Most of them think i have minor problems wish they had my life- hey try living it- try watching everyone get theirs while you work as hard as...
    tulick tulick
    31-35, F
    15 Responses Apr 9, 2009

    Not So Much Now.

    I am not allowed to really do anything because I have a neice and a nephew and I can't bear to hurt them. I still have the desire to disappear sometimes though. The option is always there. When I spend a lot of time by the sea I will have those depressed moments and it is...
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jul 2, 2009

    Right Now

     Yes, right now. But I wouldnt tell anyone because I would be thrown into the hospital again. I have therapy tomorrow, but I still wont say anything. Hopefull the feeling will have passed. 
    MissMadz MissMadz
    18-21, F
    May 3, 2009

    Yes I Do...

    I get suicidal often, and I don't tell anyone at all. I keep it all to myself. I don't tell anyone, because I don't want to worry them or anything. I don't want to cause problems with anyone. I don't tell anyone, I just keep it to myself. Not like anyone would want to know...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 19, 2009

    Not So Much Anymore

    I use to alot, I admit i contemplated it alot in past years, espcially in 2005-2007. Alot of people didn't know it and most still don't. The urges and all are rare anymore, but sometimes i still think about it, how i'd do it and all that. The only thing that stops me is...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 3, 2009

    Well...

     I don't for a couple of reasons.. I don't want to worry anyone of my friends.. I've learned from that one and I now know that it hurts my friends if I tell them if I'm suicidal or thinking about suicide. I don't want to worry my friends because I care about them to much...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 8, 2008

    Yes

    Yes there have been moments in my life where I felt so depressed and down that I felt like ending it.  Then I would look at all the positive things in life even if there were not many.  Like my health, my kids, my job, my home.  |Then I would be...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings
    36-40
    May 28, 2009

    Why

    i dnt tel eni 1 as some ppl dnt belive me eniway and th ones tht do wil keep txtin me n phoning me which annoyes me even more.  also if i tel eni1 i wuld have 2 go into hospital. also i feel tht if i tell somebody thn i wuldnt really wanna do it as some ppl see it as a...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 16, 2009

    The Truth

    No one knows that I've been suicidal these years. Firstly, I don't want them to get upset or worried about me. Actually there is not much they can do about it, so why bother them? It can only worsen my mental state. Secondly, I don't want them to think that I am...
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow
    18-21, F
    Jul 18, 2009

    Since My Friends Suicide When I Was 7 Years Old

    I have been feeling these feelings that something is not good in me.  the guilt and pain of his death cut thru me on top of all the child sex abuse.  I felt so vultured by the families of the deceased and my cousins when their mother had breast cancer.  I felt...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    Apr 5, 2010

    It Passes...

    I don't get to the point where I want to act on it.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 19, 2009
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