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I Get Suicidal Thoughts

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 35 People

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    We all feel down at times, but taking your life won't fix anything, trust me been there done that, not worth it, stay a live and enjoy life, if not you may miss out on someone special coming into your life. This come from someone with many things that have gone wrong.
    Goldwing244ricky Goldwing244ricky 51-55, M 5 Responses Jul 17, 2012

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