I Go Into Self Destruct Mode When I Am Upset

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    I feel like I want to drink

    or cut, or both. Well, I threw away my cutting tools a while ago. Besides, alcohol kills the pain faster, so I guess that wins tonight.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    Dec 9, 2015

    I Have

    i go into self destruct mode when i am stressed out .
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 25, 2010

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    when i am really upset, like can't get through a few hours without crying. its hard for me to reamin strong, and not hurt myself. i get into a self destruct mode, and want nothing more than to hurt myself for everything that is going on. I hurt myself when I am really really...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 5, 2009

    I Can't Get Out Of This Rut I'm Stuck In...

    Not really sure where to start, so I might as well give you the full background and see where we go from there. I am a father of three with a partner who has, for most of our kids' lives been a single parent while I've worked long hours. For a decade I put heart and soul into my...
    SpiralDown SpiralDown
    36-40
    1 Response Aug 25, 2010

    My Personality

    When I'm upset I always manage to convince myself that it was my fault and that I'm a horrible person. Because of this I punish myself by not eating, self harming and excessive drinking as well as sleeping around. I'm not proud of any of these things but they get me through. I...
    100secrets 100secrets
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 7, 2009
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