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I Grew Up Without a Father

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    I'm 18 and never seen my dad once.

    I don't even know his first or last name. I've never seen a picture of him. I don't know how he looks. But the thing is it never bugs me, I honestly just don't think about it ever. But it's kind of weird that I'll never meet half of me, or my grandma and other relatives I have...
    xoxtina xoxtina 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 12

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    I skyped with my father today.

    We are beginning to have a relationship. I can't dwell on the past anymore. I always think that his ex wife had a lot to do with the fact that we didn't see each other for months on end. She was always jealous of me for some reason... After they got divorced he made a huge 360...
    Nannyxd Nannyxd 18-21, F Nov 27, 2014

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    We Left My Father

    The last time i've seen my dad was when i was 2 years old. I can't remember anything about him, only the things my mom told me. He is a musician,he is Italian, stole money from my moms family and i am not his only child. He has 2 daughters and 1 son. He hasn't spoke to any of his...
    ihatemylife4 ihatemylife4 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2013

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    well i never met my father ever just found out

    last year that his name is Matthew i know that he is related to my uncles wife and aperantly he has always lived in LA found that out last month come on we've lived in the same fn county for 25 years and never has he looked me up or my family mentioned this time hiw ****** up is...
    ea91702 ea91702 22-25, M Mar 4

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    I want to see you one last time!

    I love you dad! I wish you were back so I wouldn't have to live with my ******* stupid step dad. I don't even call him dad I call him ***** every were I go
    Strangerdanger47 Strangerdanger47 13-15, F Oct 26, 2014

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    I didn't grow up with one.

    I didn't really understand that I had one tbh.. At 4 I couldn't really comprehend that EVERYONE had a mommy and daddy. Then at 5 he visited me for my birthday. I wasn't sure how I felt but i was sorta happy. But I didn't talk to him after that. 11 years later, I'm still without...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 18, 2014

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    Dried Up Tears- You said you love me You said

    you care You said you'll never leave All the pain all the lies that's all you gave me. Now I'm alone confused and lost Thanks to you my heart is broken Every night I cry thanks to you The tears on my face once they dried up they stay there as a permanent reminder of what you...
    EM1620142016 EM1620142016 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    Dear Dad

    This is a letter I won't ever send for many reasons but feels good to write. I really dislike Father's Day. It's a day I endure and which I am grateful will be over in a couple hours. I have tried to keep my mind occupied all day to avoid the emptiness I feel. When I met you as...
    hischelsea hischelsea 46-50, F 5 Responses Jun 16, 2013

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    I Lost Him

    Death didn't take my father jail did my father hit my mother when she was pregnant wih my brother he would never lay a hand on me because he thinks I'm his little girl but the only thing we have in common is DNA he was never in my life because he is a violent bastard and when he...
    JasmineTheDecider JasmineTheDecider 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 9, 2012

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    I Blamed Myself But Of Course I Was Wrong.

    My dad left when I was five. He ran off with his secretary.  Robbed the house.  Cleaned out the bank accounts.  Left my mom with two little kids and no income.  She was working on her PhD at the time.  I know that was all bad stuff but what really got to me was that I loved...
    TKD1 TKD1 46-50, F 2 Responses Sep 27, 2013

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    When I see my friends I can relate how they act

    just like their fathers, as I never met my father I think that´s the reason why I´m so insecure about my actions.
    ThompsonX ThompsonX 18-21, M May 28

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    Life Is Promised to No One.

    Hi all , I just want to share how am I feeling as a growing adult who has grown into maturity knowing only a Mothers love. He died when I was 2 yrs of age, before I could put a face to the name which left my only understanding being those of pictures and stories. It was hard...
    trinicaleb trinicaleb 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 26, 2009

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    I've Written About Him Before-now Things Have Changed

    My mother passed away on Tuesday, and her last gift to me was the identity of my father. I've since contacted him and we've corresponded, and I've sent him some information to help my claim. He's offered to pay to fly me out to England to meet him and have a paternity test. I'm...
    cosmicspeck cosmicspeck 22-25, F May 4, 2012

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    So my father came camping to the area I live.

    Drove 12 hours for it. I got to visit him, with my siblings. It's been 13 years or so since he moved out. I'm glad I visited him. It was a nice afternoon. But I feel like the experience was not beneficial to me at all, in a sense. Now that I left for home, I feel lonely and...
    JustThat6irl JustThat6irl 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    I still am growing up without one.

    I can tell you that when I did have one, he was the greatest man I knew. I was really attached to him and loved him a lot. He was my hero. Some might even have said that I was a daddy's girl. To me he was the best father in the world. But I was 5 when it started to go down hill...
    Jessica4729 Jessica4729 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2014

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    Father's Day here today.

    Favourite day of year!!! :)))))))))))))))) *note sarcasm*
    glitterme23 glitterme23 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 21

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    I was born in a man's house

    and about a year later, I was sent to the village to my maternal grandmother. This is a story I grew up to hear. My grandmother was living in a very small local community. We use to drink water from a stream. When I was a teenager, I then realised my mother had given birth to 5...
    stanlis stanlis 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 18, 2014

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    shayshay16 shayshay16 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 2, 2014

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    I wish to sleep in my fathers shoulder like

    when i was a baby ................. But for long time i didnt get that plessure ; happiness ; enjoyment and all love from my father ;-(
    srikanth9622 srikanth9622 18-21, M Sep 28, 2014

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 22, 2013

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    My Story

    So um well I guess ill start out by saying I'm 16 and honestly growing up without a dad sucks. So when I was born he left my mom and I for another girl and her baby boy...I used to think maybe he wasn't ready for a family you know,boy I was wrong...so I got to be about two and my...
    babiigirl17 babiigirl17 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    kinda grew up without a father

    when I was 5 he beat me wit a belt buckle and after I fainted he left and was never seen again if anything I think that's Wats missing from my heart that big whole is not knowing about my father or jus having him in my life
    Royboyg Royboyg 16-17, M 2 Responses Feb 27

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    Growing up without a dad.

    ..what a crazy epidemic. I was a "daddy's girl" until I was 6, and then my dad left. Weird to think that him and I were so close until we weren't
    CestLaVegan CestLaVegan 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 4

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    Yesterday was Father's Day.

    At work clients kept asking me if I called my dad or was going to see him. I just smiled and said no. It was easier than saying he was in jail. Like he's been for a lot of my life... But honestly I am finally letting go of what I can't control which is his actions. I was given a...
    CassyNicole CassyNicole 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    I wouldn't say I grew up completely without him,

    but the way things look it was a shock that I had one. My parents were never really close even when they were married, and my mom made my dad get so many jobs just to pay for all the luxuries she wanted. She would drop me off at her parents house when I was really little, and go...
    bemyforeverlove97 bemyforeverlove97 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 27

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    No Chance Of Finding Him

    Mt mother never told me a lot about my father. When I was growing up she told me that a stork brought me to her. I didn't know anything about sex, even though she had boyfriends. I learned where babies came from when I was 8 and I read a book about it. I got older, and started...
    cosmicspeck cosmicspeck 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 20, 2011

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    When I was in pre-k, my father was an abusive

    alcoholic. I of course wasn't old enough to completely realize it.. Or maybe I completely blocked the memories out. I just know that before elementary school, my neighbors had called the police on my dad on numerous occasions. On one of these times, my older brother called the...
    EverythingIsOkay EverythingIsOkay 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2, 2014

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    I was born and raised by a father I spell

    m-o-t-h-e-r because the man who made me couldn't understand his responsibility to the life he had created... You see I am the by product of a generation taught to follow free love, no consequence to their careless following the heart, the first generation told to listen to...
    SeedlingDreams SeedlingDreams 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 7, 2014

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    My father never was around

    when I was a child. Its a long very long story but it isn't his fault. But even though he wasn't around, we where able to keep in touch by phone and mail but unfortunately the contact diluted for some reason. I was very upset about not having contact with him for years and years...
    toughbaby toughbaby 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 26, 2014

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    What Does A Word "father" Mean?

    Once I read a story about our famous actor. He had handycaped mum,who died when he was 20....People were saying to him Oh you poor little thing and he started to feel different than the others, in a negative way...He began to put a wall around himself... I find myself in this...
    tia55 tia55 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 8, 2010

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    Due To Illness

    But I was fortunate enough to have a healthy relationship with him as an adult.
    IamGone IamGone 41-45, M 3 Responses Apr 12, 2010

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    Dear Daddy

    I want to be your baby girl. I want to mean something to you.    Can you hug me? Can you hold me? Can you tell me everything is going to be alright? I want to wake up and smile because I know you're making breakfast for me. I want to feel the embarrassment when you come to pick...
    AmityCalamity AmityCalamity 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 14, 2011

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    When I watch the movie “Mermaids” with Cher

    and Wynona Rider. I can see my own childhood any many ways in that film, it’s so uncanny. I never met nor knew my natural father until after I was grown and married. He was a naturalized citizen from the Dominican Republic, and my mother never married him. When she became...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 6, 2014

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    my dad was physically there.

    he had a stroke when i was 9 or 10 i think. he was never the same. he always got mad over the smallest things. he yells at me the most when i was 14 we went a month, or maybe a couple of months without speaking and that was the true downfall with our relationship. he got really...
    enemyinthemirror enemyinthemirror 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 26, 2014

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    I'm A Better Father Than He Was

    My father sent us to live in another country when I was 6 years old. He supported us financially, but we hardly saw him or heard from him. When he was around he was mean to my mother. He never called or wrote. He was never there at my graduations. He was not there to...
    scrambledegg scrambledegg 31-35, M Nov 6, 2011

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    I have a father, but he is awful

    and I just want to get away from him(he is a psychopath)
    EmoGirl286 EmoGirl286 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 26, 2014

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    RandomHashtags RandomHashtags 22-25 Feb 23

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    A step father but it seemed like he didn't like

    me so he never was around for me
    annirawrmuffin annirawrmuffin 18-21, F Mar 27, 2014

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    My dad left when I was around 7.

    I'm not entirely too sure why he left, never really asked I guess. Probably his drinking was a cause. He kept in touch for a couple years but immediately stopped after that. Ever since then I've had to put my big girl panties on and help my mom care for my 3 younger siblings...
    JustThat6irl JustThat6irl 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 26, 2014

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    Since about 4 I never really had a dad due to

    the fact he was always in another county disarming bombs by hand you might think what a cool dad to that I say you can have him I hate my dad he always belittles me undermines me and puts me down because I don't meet his expectation
    ash18bmth ash18bmth 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 24, 2014

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    He Left When I Was Two

    My dad left when I was 2 to be with a ********.I have only seen him once since then when I was around 5 or 6 he took me to McDonald's.I wish that I would have got to know him & see who he was.I now live in a different state from him. It makes me so sad that he never came back or...
    zar13 zar13 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 21, 2012

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    My dad left when I was only a month old,

    or so. I didn't speak to him until I was fourteen. Now we talk at least once a month. I'm happy he decided to be a dad, finally. 💙
    H3LLS1C H3LLS1C 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 31, 2014

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    My father passed away

    when i was 13.
    Gblue5 Gblue5 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 26, 2014

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