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I Grew Up Without a Father

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    My father never was around

    when I was a child. Its a long very long story but it isn't his fault. But even though he wasn't around, we where able to keep in touch by phone and mail but unfortunately the contact diluted for some reason. I was very upset about not having contact with him for years and years...
    toughbaby toughbaby 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 26

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    So my father came camping to the area I live.

    Drove 12 hours for it. I got to visit him, with my siblings. It's been 13 years or so since he moved out. I'm glad I visited him. It was a nice afternoon. But I feel like the experience was not beneficial to me at all, in a sense. Now that I left for home, I feel lonely and...
    JustThat6irl JustThat6irl 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    I Blamed Myself But Of Course I Was Wrong.

    My dad left when I was five. He ran off with his secretary.  Robbed the house.  Cleaned out the bank accounts.  Left my mom with two little kids and no income.  She was working on her PhD at the time.  I know that was all bad stuff but what really got to me was that I loved...
    TKD1 TKD1 46-50, F 2 Responses Sep 27, 2013

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    I didn't grow up with one.

    I didn't really understand that I had one tbh.. At 4 I couldn't really comprehend that EVERYONE had a mommy and daddy. Then at 5 he visited me for my birthday. I wasn't sure how I felt but i was sorta happy. But I didn't talk to him after that. 11 years later, I'm still without...
    BallinBae BallinBae 16-17, F Aug 18

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    Dear Daddy

    I want to be your baby girl. I want to mean something to you.    Can you hug me? Can you hold me? Can you tell me everything is going to be alright? I want to wake up and smile because I know you're making breakfast for me. I want to feel the embarrassment when you come to pick...
    AmityCalamity AmityCalamity 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 14, 2011

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    No Chance Of Finding Him

    Mt mother never told me a lot about my father. When I was growing up she told me that a stork brought me to her. I didn't know anything about sex, even though she had boyfriends. I learned where babies came from when I was 8 and I read a book about it. I got older, and started...
    cosmicspeck cosmicspeck 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 20, 2011

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    He Left When I Was Two

    My dad left when I was 2 to be with a ********.I have only seen him once since then when I was around 5 or 6 he took me to McDonald's.I wish that I would have got to know him & see who he was.I now live in a different state from him. It makes me so sad that he never came back or...
    zar13 zar13 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 21, 2012

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    When I was in pre-k, my father was an abusive

    alcoholic. I of course wasn't old enough to completely realize it.. Or maybe I completely blocked the memories out. I just know that before elementary school, my neighbors had called the police on my dad on numerous occasions. On one of these times, my older brother called the...
    EverythingIsOkay EverythingIsOkay 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    Dead Beat Dad

    My dad was in prison most of my life. Before he went to prison.. I was too young to remember him. When i was younger my grandmother (his mom) would take me to visit him. But it was like i didn't know who he was. I was born in Indiana so that's where he lives now.. Before my mom...
    Channelle1985 Channelle1985 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 21, 2009

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    I've Written About Him Before-now Things Have Changed

    My mother passed away on Tuesday, and her last gift to me was the identity of my father. I've since contacted him and we've corresponded, and I've sent him some information to help my claim. He's offered to pay to fly me out to England to meet him and have a paternity test. I'm...
    cosmicspeck cosmicspeck 22-25, F May 4, 2012

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    I still am growing up without one.

    I can tell you that when I did have one, he was the greatest man I knew. I was really attached to him and loved him a lot. He was my hero. Some might even have said that I was a daddy's girl. To me he was the best father in the world. But I was 5 when it started to go down hill...
    Jessica4729 Jessica4729 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    A Long Life To Go Without My Male Figure

     I've come eighteen years with just a mother I can talk to about the stuff I've gone through well that and a godfather who is around every couple of months. My step dad is an *** and has compared me to his kids, or sorry his "angels" since I was about six. My...
    JordanR JordanR 18-21, M Nov 8, 2009

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    I Will Rise

    From what I can remember my dad wasn't around as much while I was growing up. He used to break the law by stealing and fraud and he would end up in jail. I remember during my 3rd grade year my dad was arrested at my elementary school for stealing money from his job. That day...
    EM1620142016 EM1620142016 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 26, 2013

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    I'm A Better Father Than He Was

    My father sent us to live in another country when I was 6 years old. He supported us financially, but we hardly saw him or heard from him. When he was around he was mean to my mother. He never called or wrote. He was never there at my graduations. He was not there to...
    scrambledegg scrambledegg 31-35, M Nov 6, 2011

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    I skyped with my father today.

    We are beginning to have a relationship. I can't dwell on the past anymore. I always think that his ex wife had a lot to do with the fact that we didn't see each other for months on end. She was always jealous of me for some reason... After they got divorced he made a huge 360...
    Nannyxd Nannyxd 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 27

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    My Story

    So um well I guess ill start out by saying I'm 16 and honestly growing up without a dad sucks. So when I was born he left my mom and I for another girl and her baby boy...I used to think maybe he wasn't ready for a family you know,boy I was wrong...so I got to be about two and my...
    babiigirl17 babiigirl17 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    Dear Dad

    This is a letter I won't ever send for many reasons but feels good to write. I really dislike Father's Day. It's a day I endure and which I am grateful will be over in a couple hours. I have tried to keep my mind occupied all day to avoid the emptiness I feel. When I met you as...
    hischelsea hischelsea 46-50, F 5 Responses Jun 16, 2013

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    Due To Illness

    But I was fortunate enough to have a healthy relationship with him as an adult.
    IamGone IamGone 41-45, M 3 Responses Apr 12, 2010

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    I wish to sleep in my fathers shoulder like

    when i was a baby ................. But for long time i didnt get that plessure ; happiness ; enjoyment and all love from my father ;-(
    srikanth9622 srikanth9622 18-21, M Sep 28

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    I was born in a man's house

    and about a year later, I was sent to the village to my maternal grandmother. This is a story I grew up to hear. My grandmother was living in a very small local community. We use to drink water from a stream. When I was a teenager, I then realised my mother had given birth to 5...
    stanlis stanlis 31-35, M Oct 18

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    What Does A Word "father" Mean?

    Once I read a story about our famous actor. He had handycaped mum,who died when he was 20....People were saying to him Oh you poor little thing and he started to feel different than the others, in a negative way...He began to put a wall around himself... I find myself in this...
    tia55 tia55 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 8, 2010

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    My dad left when I was only a month old,

    or so. I didn't speak to him until I was fourteen. Now we talk at least once a month. I'm happy he decided to be a dad, finally. 💙
    H3LLS1C H3LLS1C 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    Pray For Forgiveness

    You are going to pray for forgiveness and love when death draws near We will stay far away as you always kept us at a distance You never wanted us near in anyway only loved our presence when we could serve as little punch bags as easy targets for your emotional frustrations...
    indigowitch indigowitch 22-25, F Jun 5, 2013

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    I want to see you one last time!

    I love you dad! I wish you were back so I wouldn't have to live with my ******* stupid step dad. I don't even call him dad I call him ***** every were I go
    Strangerdanger47 Strangerdanger47 13-15, F Oct 26

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    We Left My Father

    The last time i've seen my dad was when i was 2 years old. I can't remember anything about him, only the things my mom told me. He is a musician,he is Italian, stole money from my moms family and i am not his only child. He has 2 daughters and 1 son. He hasn't spoke to any of his...
    ihatemylife4 ihatemylife4 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2013

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    Since about 4 I never really had a dad due to

    the fact he was always in another county disarming bombs by hand you might think what a cool dad to that I say you can have him I hate my dad he always belittles me undermines me and puts me down because I don't meet his expectation
    ash18bmth ash18bmth 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 24

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    shayshay16 shayshay16 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 2

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    Emotional Absence

    My father was never there emotionally...and my mother was also not emotionally available to her kids. I guess my father was always dead to me in a sense even though he is still alive. .since he does not give a fiixk about his children...nevermind his own wife....we are also never...
    indigowitch indigowitch 22-25, F Jun 5, 2013

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    When I watch the movie “Mermaids” with Cher

    and Wynona Rider. I can see my own childhood any many ways in that film, it’s so uncanny. I never met nor knew my natural father until after I was grown and married. He was a naturalized citizen from the Dominican Republic, and my mother never married him. When she became...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 6

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    I Lost Him

    Death didn't take my father jail did my father hit my mother when she was pregnant wih my brother he would never lay a hand on me because he thinks I'm his little girl but the only thing we have in common is DNA he was never in my life because he is a violent bastard and when he...
    JasmineTheDecider JasmineTheDecider 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 9, 2012

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    My dad left when I was around 7.

    I'm not entirely too sure why he left, never really asked I guess. Probably his drinking was a cause. He kept in touch for a couple years but immediately stopped after that. Ever since then I've had to put my big girl panties on and help my mom care for my 3 younger siblings...
    JustThat6irl JustThat6irl 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 26

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    A step father but it seemed like he didn't like

    me so he never was around for me
    annirawrmuffin annirawrmuffin 18-21, F Mar 27

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    my dad was physically there.

    he had a stroke when i was 9 or 10 i think. he was never the same. he always got mad over the smallest things. he yells at me the most when i was 14 we went a month, or maybe a couple of months without speaking and that was the true downfall with our relationship. he got really...
    enemyinthemirror enemyinthemirror 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 26

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    Dried Up Tears- You said you love me You said

    you care You said you'll never leave All the pain all the lies that's all you gave me. Now I'm alone confused and lost Thanks to you my heart is broken Every night I cry thanks to you The tears on my face once they dried up they stay there as a permanent reminder of what you...
    EM1620142016 EM1620142016 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 21

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    Life Is Promised to No One.

    Hi all , I just want to share how am I feeling as a growing adult who has grown into maturity knowing only a Mothers love. He died when I was 2 yrs of age, before I could put a face to the name which left my only understanding being those of pictures and stories. It was hard...
    trinicaleb trinicaleb 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 26, 2009

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    I Hate My Dad

    Poem to an arsehole: I was never good enough And when i really needed support you only loan a superficial hand You think it is cool playing my niece up to me and her brother to my own Why we will show you muthafucckkker.... That's right push us farther away right over the edge We...
    indigowitch indigowitch 22-25, F Jun 5, 2013

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    My father passed away

    when i was 13.
    Gblue5 Gblue5 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 26

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    Broken Beyond Repair

    I try to forgive you daddy But each time i am nice to you You act like a total dickkkwad when i am around I am done trying.... The scars will never heal and you will never change I just think some people are born arseholes And some things are just never meant to be perfect or...
    indigowitch indigowitch 22-25, F Jun 5, 2013

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    I was born and raised by a father I spell

    m-o-t-h-e-r because the man who made me couldn't understand his responsibility to the life he had created... You see I am the by product of a generation taught to follow free love, no consequence to their careless following the heart, the first generation told to listen to...
    SeedlingDreams SeedlingDreams 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 7

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    I have a father, but he is awful

    and I just want to get away from him(he is a psychopath)
    EmoGirl286 EmoGirl286 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 26

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    There But Not Really

    My father isn't dead.  Neither was the "guy" that attempted to be my step father those years ago (though I wouldn't mourn his passing in the slightest). But he was never really ever there to begin with for me. When I was 5 my parents split up after much abuse and...
    RaineyEyedGirl RaineyEyedGirl 31-35, T 1 Response Sep 27, 2009

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    Hi guys... This will be such a long story . But I need help ... or someone just to tell me that they are there for me ... Because I don't know what else to do. So here it goes my...
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    he wasn't the brightest out there, he was just a man who had a different brand of knowledge. he was a generous man, always happy when he seen me and my sister, and he hadn't always...
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    I thought I wrote this here before, but I guess I was mistaken. It’s probably buried somewhere on my hard drive. Either way, it's on my mind and I'm going to write about it again...
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    Oh, where to begin... I'm not sure if he has NPD or if he's just very narcissistic, but he's definitely not an easy person to live with. I experienced abuse as a child from my...
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    While growing up our family was very typical and we were all open minded as it was nothing to see one another in different stages of being dressed. I seen my dad just in his...
    titelips titelips 31-35, F 9 Responses Nov 24

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    Anna120570 Anna120570 41-45, F Dec 6

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