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    An Excercise In Patience

    I have within me plenty of good things. I've walked a long path and collected a few scars. For a while I waited to see those scars dissapear, but I learned to love those markings because they tell my story and remind me of my history. I still have so much to learn. I want to be a...
    40ishgirl 40ishgirl
    41-45, F
    Apr 29, 2012

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