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I Had An Abortion and I Feel Guilty

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    Today is two years past what my due date would

    have been. How awesome would it be to have Halloween as a birthday? I wish I could say I was over this choice I made at 17. I wish I could say that my husband and I talk about it. I wish I could say that I haven't pictured my what my baby would look like at 2 a million of times...
    MandeSe MandeSe 18-21, F Oct 31, 2014

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    ever since ive had my abortion it has changed me

    for the worst. im not the same person as i use to be. my day to day life has different patterns of mood swings. ive gone from a happy bubbly person to a person that is dark inside. i have no one to talk to about it cos people have worse situations than me. For example i find it...
    cjay89 cjay89 26-30, F 4 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    I still remember the feeling

    while I was sitting on my bed in my hospital gown and slippers waiting for them to call me. It became so hard to breathe, the room was spinning, my heart was beating fast, I was nauseous, and I had cold sweats. It was absolutely horrible.
    g0backtoreality g0backtoreality 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 1

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    I thought "there's no way I can be pregnant.

    " I bought a pregnancy test so I could prove it to myself because my boyfriend was worried about it. People have late periods all the time, right? But when it came down to it, I proved myself wrong. I never ever thought it would happen to me, but it did. My boyfriend was...
    sweetsydchris sweetsydchris 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 5, 2014

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    Not So Teen Mom

    I was 23. But, the moment I found out I was pregnant with you, I felt 16. I had an apartment, school, job.. But, I never felt more alone. Your father.. Upon hearing the news was probably ******** bricks. Financially, you would've probably would've had all you needed. But, I made...
    jen2086277 jen2086277 26-30, F Oct 15, 2013

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    Hi Everyone, I hope everyone in previous

    messages are feeling a little better...I feel for everyone of you xx I had an abortion a week ago ;( I am not coping very well with it...having nightmares and crying at random times at work in the day, in the morning and at night. I read stories all day on the internet, and...
    sofiamac sofiamac 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    I guess it's time to open up.

    After I broke up with my ex (due to a hasty decision I made, even did it via text, well FML), my period didnt come. I was worried so took a HPT but it was negative, I decided to wait out a bit but still, my period didnt come until one day I had an odd bleeding so I was a bit...
    MotherOfTheodorus MotherOfTheodorus 22-25 2 Responses Dec 7, 2013

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    I never had an abortion,

    but I want you to name your child since there nameless in heaven just say "dear God name my child ____ if she is a girl or ___ if he is a boy, please for give me for what I did. But I know my child is with you now, thank you for forgiving me!" It should take some of the...
    EmojiGirl EmojiGirl 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 2, 2014

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    You were inside of me,

    but only for a little while You weren’t planned. You weren’t meant to come into my life, just not yet. I wasn’t ready for you, I couldn’t cope. I couldn't give you everything you needed. I couldn't make my heart feel Something it didn't You were an intrusion At least...
    YoungHeartOldSoul YoungHeartOldSoul 18-21, F 1 Response May 8, 2014

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    Even though I am with the man I'm going to marry

    and trust that one day when the timing is right that we will have beautiful children. I also know that he will never understand the maternal guilt that I hold. Everyday I think, "I used to have a precious life, the love of my life's child, like every girl dreams of, and I killed...
    Katelynntx Katelynntx 18-21 2 Responses Mar 12

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    I can't sleep, I can't eat.

    I think of things I didn't used to think about, like dying and being in darkness. I try to be happy but behind it all, when I am alone, I cry and I cry. I don't want to be sad anymore. I am a Christian and I don't agree with abortion, that is until I found myself in this...
    jackkeee jackkeee 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 26, 2014

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    Our Lord Jesus Christ is here to forgive you of

    your sins and you have no need to carry the weight of such guilt. There is help out there for you to start the healing process. Here is one website I know of. http://www.silentnomoreawareness.org/
    jmmoosey jmmoosey 31-35, M Nov 4, 2014

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    Another website to help women who've had

    abortions find healing and forgiveness. http://www.rachelsvineyard.org/
    jmmoosey jmmoosey 31-35, M Nov 4, 2014

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    I recently had an abortion around 2 weeks a go

    and I cant help but feel guilty about it. I was having really bad morning sickness to the point where I was starting to be sick throughout the day, every morning and every night before I went to bed. I told my boyfriend that I thought I was pregnant so we both went to the clinic...
    Confused251195 Confused251195 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 25

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    It hasn't even been a week

    since I had it done. Yet all I can feel is guilt. I can't get over it.
    Kkgunny Kkgunny 16-17, F 5 Responses Apr 16

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    When I had the abortion I was married.

    My husband and I were fighting a lot and was going through a BAD rough patch. I found out I was pregnant and he didn't seem to care, He suggested we got rid of it. At first I thought it was the right thing. I made the appointment. Didn't feel much because at the time I thought...
    BamaGirl1112 BamaGirl1112 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 7, 2014

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    I haven't had much time to think about it

    lately, which is nice. But just a little while ago, I got a call from a place in my hometown called the pregnancy help center. It was there that I found out that I was for sure pregnant, after taking multiple tests at home. They asked if I wanted to be put down for a gift basket...
    reneeo11314 reneeo11314 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 4, 2014

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    I had an abortion in June.

    The guy who got me pregnant also got another girl pregnant (his girlfriend) who decided to keep it. I was sixteen, a junior in high school, and terrified. Everyone was pressuring me into it. The guy told me I needed to get rid of it, his mom yelled at me and sent out his sister...
    feather64 feather64 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 23, 2014

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    It's been over 4 months

    and instead of time healing everything, I feel like it's sinking in and getting worse... I wish someone could understand how much my heart hurts thinking about what might have been.. I'm seeing a counsellor, I've talked to suicide prevention hotlines, my boyfriend is amazing...
    Helen91x Helen91x 22-25, F Apr 22

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    I'm so sorry. I wish I could bring you into

    this world. I wish I could meet you. I'm so so sorry. I would be almost 6 months pregnant rn...
    g0backtoreality g0backtoreality 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    my perfect little angel,

    nothing will ever break my heart more than the thought that i stopped yours. daddy and i loved you oh so very much but daddy loved someone else more. you see he was only fifteen, and didnt understand what you meant to him. he wants to go travelling and wants to be young. i...
    eviemay6 eviemay6 18-21, F May 14, 2014

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    Im Sorry Bby Please Forgive Me! Id Do Anything To Have U Back

    For months now I have been looking for groups to join in about other girls who've had abortions at first I still didn't want too Cus I didn't want to be judge (even tho I deserve it ) but today my best friend told me she was pregnant and instead of congratulating her I cried . I...
    ForgiveMe10 ForgiveMe10 18-21, F 3 Responses May 7, 2012

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    When I was 15 I had an abortion on October 6,

    2009. I thought I was at the most 8 week but I was a lot farther , the nurse at the clinic said at most I was around 4 months. Sometimes I felt like the nurse told me more than she should have bc the part that haunts me the most was that she told me I was having a boy. As I went...
    xxbroken xxbroken 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    I Need Some One To Talk To...

    I'm constantly depressed and I don't know what to do. I recently had an abortion that only my mum knows about and its tearing me apart. I have nobody to talk to about it and I regret the decision I made every minute of my life... I cant forget about it and I don't want to. I didn...
    UnknownTeenGirl UnknownTeenGirl 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 12, 2013

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    Regret..

    It's been 12 hours since I swallowed the second set of abortion pills. Within 2 hours it was all over, and I made the mistake of looking at the little circle of almost life that came out of me. I feel so sad now.. I feel sad that I almost could have had a family with the love of...
    Marygilbert9 Marygilbert9 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 15, 2013

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    I know this may sound crazy to some

    but to finally come to terms with my abortion I picked a gender for my baby and a name. I decided she was a girl and I named her Hailie. It helps a lot. Now I'm just worried for the future when I become pregnant again am I going to constantly think about Hailie or this baby. The...
    g0backtoreality g0backtoreality 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 1

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    It was my first baby.

    I was so excited. I always wanted to be a mum. There was no way if ever terminate. At 20week scan we found out it was a little girl...she only had half a heart. Her broken heart broke mine. My husband didn't want to abort. I chose to end the pregnancy as she was deemed...
    aussiegirl2014 aussiegirl2014 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 7, 2014

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    So I had a medical abortion

    and I saw the fetus. I had been pregnant for 6 weeks and 6 days and hadn't felt a thing. No emotional connection or guilt or anything. All I knew is that I wasn't financially stable or even stable with my bf to want to have a child. Mind you I only believe in abortion up until...
    laniersimone laniersimone 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    I suppose guilty isn't the correct phrase,

    but for lack of a better word. I had an abortion a year and a half ago… I guess I'm not still not dealing with it so well. I was never a person who thought I would get abortion. Never one that was against it but just never thought I would of course that is till it happened...
    helpme1993 helpme1993 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15, 2014

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    Scared To Death.

    I was 13 when I found out I was pregnant my boyfriend being 16 was scared. Our option was to abort... I never really thought it through. I told my dad and his girlfriend at the time and he helped me but I can't seem to shake the guilt. My boyfriend is no longer with me and I...
    CantSeemToStayTheSame CantSeemToStayTheSame 13-15, F 8 Responses Nov 10, 2013

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    Let's start out by saying I didn't plan

    for this to happen. My boyfriend of 5 years and I had just moved into our first place, he was 20, and I was just shy of 18. We had planned on having children, in the future when we could afford a descent house in a nice neighbourhood. I found out I was pregnant on July 4 2014. 2...
    Tryingtoforget1221 Tryingtoforget1221 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 19, 2014

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    How do I forgive myself/get over it?

    I feel like I never will. I basically murdered someone and it's hard to face that fact about myself.
    sweetsydchris sweetsydchris 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 12, 2014

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    I Need Help

    I really want to talk to my mother about the abortion but I am to afraid. I just am so tired of hiding it from pretty much every one. I don't know what to do.
    LovelyCupcake LovelyCupcake 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 29, 2013

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    It has been 3 months

    and it's 1am and I'm sitting here crying. 😢😭💔 When will things get better? 😔
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jan 26

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    You would of been still with me.

    . June 27th is the date they told me.. I will always remember the date I had the procedure, November 16th.. Ever since I decided to do the procedure is just another day I can't forget the choice I made.. You'll never understand until you go through it yourself, and after all...
    KatieMarieRose KatieMarieRose 18-21, F 6 Responses May 13, 2014

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    Well start by saying

    that things didn't turn out as I planned. I had a surgical abortion almost 2 months ago & it seems to only be getting worse with time. The days after the procedure I was fine, not too sad, but now I find myself crying every night. The image of my 6week ultrasound literally...
    beachgirl07 beachgirl07 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 24

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    Last night I had a dream about my baby.

    It was so tiny and beautiful. I believe it was my baby visiting me in my dream. I wish it wasn't a dream and could have it with me always.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 18

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    I Am A Christian That Had An Abortion And I Struggle With Grief/Sorrow/Guilt

    Hi, Reader: If you are a Christian (believe in Jesus Christ and what He did for you on the cross and you accept Him as your personal Lord and Savior ... John 3:16 and Romans 10:10 and 9) or a Messianic Jewish woman that has had an Abortion or a man that encouraged a woman to have...
    Tracy09052013 Tracy09052013 31-35 4 Responses Sep 25, 2013

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    Back in June I found out I was about 4 weeks

    pregnant. immediately I phoned my boyfriend (of 11 months) , told him I was pregnant. he said 'oh, we'll have to talk about this when I come home' I went to walk my dog, and started crying whilst I was out. it was a mixture of shock and relief (as I thought I couldn't get...
    hannahruby56 hannahruby56 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 28, 2014

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    It's been almost two months

    since I had my abortion. The first couple weeks it had a sense of relief and felt that I needed to live my life to the fullest from now on. After those first few weeks, I become terribly unhappy, I am constantly crying and always feeling guilty for what I've done. The past...
    bubblesbrit bubblesbrit 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 8

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    The day after my 18th birthday I was in

    hospital with horrible pains. I found out I was pregnant. My boyfriend at the time told me straight up he didn't want a child and cried because it was going to ruin his life. I was just eighteen and pregnant and scared and soon got pushed along into termination. It wasn't really...
    JeshRose JeshRose 18-21 1 Response Jun 11, 2014

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    He Left Me After Abortion - Dealing With P.a.s.s

    Last christmas i found out i was pregnant with my then boyfriends baby, we had only been together for two months but i was absolutely 100% crazy in love with him.(i never mentioned the L word to him. Through fear of scaring him away) We worked in the same office (thats where we...
    Experiencethis124 Experiencethis124 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2012

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    It's been four months

    since I had undergone the procedure and I think about it more and more everyday. When I first discovered I was pregnant I was so lost, the only thing I could bring myself to do was cry and cry and cry. My boyfriend was the one to suggest taking a pregnancy test because he...
    angelbaby4 angelbaby4 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 4, 2014

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    Hi everyone. I doubt anyone will read this

    really but I wanted to post to this page to maybe help at least one period. I had an abortion almost two months ago. I did not want it, neither did my boyfriend, my mother and brother pushed it on me. Afterwards they yelled at me when I looked upset, they wouldn't give me time...
    g0backtoreality g0backtoreality 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    I know why I did it. I was only 16,

    even with my boyfriends help I would still need help. My family said they would "support me" meaning, they would pay for my baby and me as long as it was their rules. They wanted me to get an abortion. They wanted my baby to die. I disagreed, not wanting my baby to be supported...
    BlooRae BlooRae 16-17, F 4 Responses Apr 6, 2014

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    I recently had an abortion.

    I did it for all the wrong reasons. My boyfriend wasn't ready for a baby and I felt pressured to do it. In reality, I am obviously at fault because I didn't have the courage to speak up and take action on proceeding through the pregnancy until full term. I feel am anger towards...
    runnergirl722 runnergirl722 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 1, 2014

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