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I Had An Affair

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    Today, urged on by an EP friend,

    I deleted the Hotmail account that I had used exclusively, off and on, to correspond with my OW between 2006 and 2013. In there were the early love notes when we were exploring the possibility of crossing the line. I also kept some sad ones from the times that we were apart at...
    Wilbury Wilbury 46-50, M 17 Responses Jan 15, 2014

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    Affair With Son In Law, Now Pregnant

    I have searched all over the web for this situation and I have yet to find anything that remotely correlates.  I lost my job a few months ago and I moved in my eldest daughter and family.  I will admit right here and now that I have always had a crush on...
    littlejon63 littlejon63 46-50 351 Responses Mar 24, 2009

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    why do people like to call the ap women home

    wrecker??!! Come on... So sad to hear people say that.. It's ignorant, judge mental and so much more...truth is... If the home wasn't off to begin with the affair wouldn't have happened. It takes two people to make an affair work. So if anyone is a home wrecker it's the dam...
    ventingagain ventingagain 31-35, F 28 Responses Nov 19, 2014

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    I don't miss him. I miss corny / adorable /

    endearing / intelligent / sexy / understanding / funny / fun all wrapped into one.
    nothingbetterthanlaughing nothingbetterthanlaughing 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    Do you ever wish you could meet done of the

    friends you have made on here.....the ones who know everything about you but never judge you? We can't have these conversations with our friends (or many of them. I think we all have at least one that we trust enough to tell) ....they might judge/spill our secrets. But out...
    sallyanne44 sallyanne44 46-50, F 16 Responses Jul 30, 2014

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    So I read that a sexless marriage makes one look

    for every possible pit in town. Shape, age, compatibility does not matter in wanting to find affection or the rush of release. Once found. The validation, the probe, the examining from all angles and the natural connection, he turns his back. Returns to his cave of duties...
    Fmina Fmina 51-55, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    There are numerous older men in the world

    who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to find women for dating and companionship. The spokesperson reports that many older men have started finding perfect companions through their...
    alicacc11 alicacc11 26-30, F Aug 19

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    I have come full circle with my affair.

    .. This was the most beautiful yet unhealthiest relationship I have ever engaged in.... I trashed my self esteem, my morals and my heart for this relationship. I loved with every fiber in my body and every cell of my brain yet I was slowly reduced to a friend with no possibility...
    marmelade marmelade 51-55, F 9 Responses Dec 17, 2013

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    Amazing what a change of environment did.

    I took an overseas job, and once I started the stint, my thoughts of him went from daily to maybe once a week or less. Fleeting thoughts mostly. The preoccupation is with finding my way in a new environment and being out of my comfort zone. I am happy that I am no longer...
    HurtsEverywhere HurtsEverywhere 31-35, F 6 Responses Aug 18

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    I'm hurt, sad , numb ,

    lost, confused. I ended a 2 yr affair 3 days ago. I am married and my Ap is single. I love him, am in love with him. However our relationship for the most part was TOXIC & UGLY. Omg the constant arguing his lack of respect, his controlling behavior, he hated that I was married, I...
    IWhoAmI IWhoAmI 31-35, F 9 Responses 1 day ago

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    I dont get why people

    who are having an affair are turned on by the thrill of being caught,I ended mine coz hiding too much from alot of people made me realize that theres too much prize to pay to maintain it and once or twice a week of fun is not worth the stress and paranoia
    charmedangel1978 charmedangel1978 31-35, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    Dear Jonathan And Our Two Children.....i'm So Sorry.

    Tomorrow 01/13/13 is the1 year anniversary of my relationship with the man I'm having an affair with, the man I compromised my entire life for, the man I chose over my family when I got caught 6 months ago, and the man I currently live with today. And 1 year ago tomorrow I...
    Annie3321 Annie3321 26-30, F 84 Responses Jan 12, 2013

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    My Husband's Best Freind

    I t was exactly 1 yr ago. I was so depressed and ready to give up on ever being happy. My husband at the time was being very emotionally and verbally abusive. I got an e-mail from my husband's best freind. He was wondering how we were doing, and needed to talk. He had just split...
    hotandcuddly hotandcuddly 51-55, F 43 Responses Sep 1, 2011

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    I'm married to a wonderful man

    and have two beautiful children but I have been having an affair with a MM for over a year. It's been a tremendous experience for me, both good and bad, and I don't know if I ever want it to end. Lots to talk about sometime but just saying hi to you all for now. I'm so glad I...
    Wikedangel Wikedangel 36-40, F 16 Responses Jan 4, 2014

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    An affair... The beginning: The best part.

    The getting to know each other, the can't get enough, the spark, the passion, the excitement, the fun, the romance, the constant communication, you won't fall in love The middle: Still passionate, still exciting, still fun, still communicating regularly, the romance is still...
    nothingbetterthanlaughing nothingbetterthanlaughing 31-35, F 14 Responses Feb 22, 2014

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    I was curious if my MM still had sex with his

    wife. Especially, after he started texting me provocative texts on what he wanted to do to me and before then, when we met and I had to put up a fight although he had promised to be 'good'. And a few other befores. I was working on the friends, admittedly continuing to have...
    Fmina Fmina 51-55, F 16 Responses 3 days ago

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    It was off and on for almost three years.

    And it was totally off for extended periods of time. But it's true what they say about the importance of No Contact (NC). Contact just started it up again every time. Well now it's off again. I never intended to leave my marriage and she's hell bent on getting out of hers. I...
    SeeMeSmirk SeeMeSmirk 41-45, M 10 Responses Aug 19

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    I'm an affair success story.

    In a short period of time, my life took a direction that I never thought possible. I never saw it coming, did things I never thought I was ever capable of, and struggled through some turmoil...but it took my life in a direction that was best for me. This is quite long, as I'm...
    happyasever happyasever 31-35, F 7 Responses Nov 23, 2014

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    So after some thought

    and review of my own experience and others I have discovered the following. If you are involved in an affair there is something major missing from your marriage. We seem willing ( especially us women) to be used by our AP for their own satisfaction even at the expense of our...
    Freedomnow01 Freedomnow01 31-35, F 16 Responses Mar 27, 2014

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    Feeling really good today.

    . Spent time with a the new MM man again yesterday..He's so into me, I love it! I will never ever waist my time again on a man that's not!
    Differentforever Differentforever 46-50, F 18 Responses Jan 23

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    feeling a little heartbroken today.

    that ******* ashleymadison leak... his wife found out.. after 5 months, looks like I'll be starting some involuntary no contact time. you don't realize how much you'll miss a person til they're gone
    redpelican7 redpelican7 31-35, F 7 Responses a week ago

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    It was just sex. That is what the plan was

    anyway. We are both married, and yes, I know it's awful of us to seek comfort in each other, but we did. The first time we met for sex I was so nervous that I accidently locked my keys in my car. He had to call AAA to come open it for me. That sucked, but we still managed to...
    klady23 klady23 26-30, F 26 Responses Feb 23

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    So I'm learning a new reality from EP.

    Getting the perspective from some of you here, especially the opposite sex really hits you like a brick. It's much needed and I thank you, no matter how painful the truth really is.
    seashaker seashaker 46-50, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    The nature of forbidden love is uncertainties.

    I hated that. I hated that feeling of there is no tomorrow. Any promises are just fake and empty. I hated that. I cannot say about others' affairs. But mine was a mirage, an escape, a fantasy, but in realty, in retrospect, it was a lie. I was lying to myself to believe that he...
    MorningRose10 MorningRose10 31-35, F 10 Responses 5 days ago

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    "Very often we don’t go elsewhere

    because we are looking for another person. We go elsewhere because we are looking for another self. It isn’t so much that we want to leave the person we are with as we want to leave the person we have become." Nothing could explain the last year of my life better than this...
    AnnUrban AnnUrban 26-30, F 12 Responses Aug 20

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    "I'm afraid of changing

    because I built my life around you." I remember how the Landslide song came on while I sat with my ex ap in the back of a restaurant. His hands caressed my face and he called me his secret wife. I felt so close to him and in love. I felt as if he would never leave me. Well he...
    broken418 broken418 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 20

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    More Like, 'my Affair Had Me'

    my affair did have me - for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. it chewed me up, spit me out, and i have yet to recover. we were in love, and probably still are (i definitely am) but ultimately it was my choice to end it - i didnt want to end my marriage for various reasons and knew...
    IJustWantYouToKnowWhoIAm IJustWantYouToKnowWhoIAm 31-35, F 23 Responses Dec 26, 2011

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    I am drowning in an ocean inside,

    but I have to fake a smile to everyone on the outside. My ex ap just proposed to his girlfriend, and I am crushed...mainly because our relationship just ended recently, and he doesn't seem fazed by it at all. How can he be in the mindset for engagement after what just happened...
    broken418 broken418 22-25, F 18 Responses 4 days ago

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    I am a father of 2 boys.

    I've been married over a decade. I am a professional with a career, home and financial security. I have loving parents, loving dog and good friends. I am able to enjoy my sports teams and hit the gym 5 days a week. I am also an addict. As nat king cole sang, some call it...
    MyThermopylae MyThermopylae 41-45, M 15 Responses Nov 3, 2014

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    What a storm in a teacup affairs really ARE.

    .. All contained within the walls of our hearts and minds, never to see the light of day. Haunting in their hidden beauty and their memorable "one liners". Covered with innuendos and lies just to have that one more hug, one more look, one more talk, one more kiss, then one more...
    marmelade marmelade 51-55, F 22 Responses Oct 13, 2014

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    I know I'm never going to get divorced.

    my husband has been once already, and we just don't want to split up our young kids anymore. plus we run a business together. we're great parents and our jobs really depend on each other, we just make really awful spouses. I think we're to the point where we don't even like each...
    redpelican7 redpelican7 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 16

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    "And the dilemmas of love

    and desire, they don't yield just simple answers of black and white and good and bad, and victim and perpetrator. Betrayal in a relationship comes in many forms. There are many ways that we betray our partner: with contempt, with neglect, with indifference, with violence. Sexual...
    AnnUrban AnnUrban 26-30, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I just have to vent. I am

    so sick of reading that affairs are always the fault of the person who has the affair. Really? I call BS. Is there anything that my spouse could have done to prevent me from having an affair? Well, let's see... Being emotionally absent and a fg cold fish. Refusing to get a...
    untenable untenable 41-45, F 30 Responses Aug 17

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    I Could Help It

    It started about 4 months ago in the grocery store i caughgt a guy about 23 watching me it kind of creaped me out and excited me at the same time seeing that my husband isnt interested anymore.So i paid for my things and headed for my car. As i turned around that guy had folloed...
    imsweetenough imsweetenough 31-35, F 181 Responses Dec 30, 2011

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    so ..I as everyone else just saw the Ashley

    Madison on news...my mm is on there... I'm sorry.. I laughed so hard.. all those lies!!! what kind of an idiot am I? thank god at least I can say I've owned my part in this and that is now between him and his wife...she will fund out...she saw it in his email.. he gave her...
    Bancy918 Bancy918 51-55 3 Responses a week ago

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    I love the first time you meet someone

    and you can sense they are attracted to you. I have met two different people on EP that I met in person and had sex. Both were nice but not like the build up of an affair that starts when you first see each other at work, a party, etc. the flirt, first kiss and first...
    intenselycomplicated intenselycomplicated 46-50, M 3 Responses Aug 15

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    I hope... ...Every day

    when you wake up, you miss the good morning texts and calls we shared. ...Every night you think about how we would say " goodnight love bug." ...When you see a woman with auburn hair, you think about how you loved to wrap my curls around your fingers when we kissed. ...You...
    Urbancowgirl Urbancowgirl 36-40 12 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    prettyinpink79 prettyinpink79 36-40, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I am married, so is he.

    I love my husband, I love the man I had an affair with, I'm a mess. Let me be clear, this is the first time I've done this. And I've been married over 25 years. I got married very young, had kids very young. Devoted myself to my family completely. I know I was wrong.im not...
    lolagrace90 lolagrace90 41-45, F 17 Responses 6 days ago

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    Hi all. Here's a question

    for you all. When you have had or are having an affair, is there any expectation of the affair lasting long term forever or do both sides understand that the nature of an affair is finite with an undetermined end date (as hard as that may be to think about).
    NJBeachGuy NJBeachGuy 51-55, M 17 Responses a week ago

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    I asked myself today,

    what did I learn from all this? The lesson for me is *Stay the heck away from a married man!* Until now, I kept convincing myself that he was separated when I met him.. his wife had a kid from another guy... she was a B and a User and a cheater.. yada yada yada. Time to fess...
    Fmina Fmina 51-55, F 40 Responses Feb 10

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    He's a drunk. He woke up at 8pm thinking it

    was morning. He showered and got dressed for work. I watched the entire freak show.. So sad. I need to get out of this marriage. It's toxic. He's crazy one minute then loving the next. It's insane. Having the affair was an escape... I'm a coward. I took the...
    Differentforever Differentforever 46-50, F 34 Responses Jun 4

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    It's officially over!

    I saw his true side and I finally was strong enough to end it. I am hurting but relieved at the same time. This has definitely been a learning experience for me. :( I know in time I will get stronger each and everyday. Thank you to all to my EP friends for your support and...
    Cheeks2014 Cheeks2014 36-40, F 25 Responses Jan 19, 2014

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    Shocking Love Affair

    I must confess something here that I thought, I would never ever talk about in my life. But I have to admit, I had an affair. Yes I did, and now I have to live with it for the rest of my life. Here's my shocking story..... About two weeks ago, I cheated on my true love...I...
    LongLiveRockAndRoll LongLiveRockAndRoll 26-30, M 29 Responses Jun 25, 2012

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    It's been over for a year.

    The toughest year in my adult life. I believe like everyone, I have an innate emotional intelligence that will direct me to my personal bliss. The affair woke me up to passion, like nothing else has ever done before. I'm more empathic, less judgmental & more open minded than...
    marmelade marmelade 51-55, F 12 Responses May 27, 2014

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    I signed up on Ashley Madison

    for less than 24 hours and now my email is out there. My husband doesn't pay attention to the news so I doubt he will take the time to search. I never even talked to anyone on there. I was just looking.
    KandyFoxx KandyFoxx 31-35, F 4 Responses