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I Had An Eating Disorder

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    I Think I Am Almost Recovered :)

    I am now 22 and have had suffered from anorexia or bulimia since I was 14. I have been in and out of treatment since then. My last admission was almost a year ago. I have 4 kids and 1 still born while still suffering. All my kids have suffered some way or another because of it...
    weirdkelsee weirdkelsee 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 19, 2012

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    I had an eating disorder onec

    or twice where I stopped eating but a little bit maybe a bit a day or nothing at all even if there was food infront of me. this would start fights between me and my family but it was not as simple as that to just go eat. I usally locked myself in my room not to even be around...
    hellokitty206 hellokitty206 18-21, F Feb 11

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    Hey guys :) my name is Chelsea.

    My anorexia began when I was in the 9th grade. I realized that I couldn't do what everyone else could do with my disability and for me my eating disorder screamed acceptance. I recovered, was doing great and then all of a sudden I started to care about what others thought about...
    the1andonlyChelsChels the1andonlyChelsChels 18-21, F Jun 30, 2014

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    I don't think I could say

    that I "had" an eating disorder. I think it's like being an alcoholic. You're just constantly in recovery. I relapsed this week. Mentally and physically. I recently put on weight. I had an incident where I put on some old pants that I couldn't button anymore. This was a major...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    Ana Had A Hold On Me

    It started back in  8th grade when I realized how beautiful the "Victoria Secret Models" looked at the fashions show thats on TV every year. I watched that show, looked in the mirror and realized...I wanted to look like that. My WHOLE life turned around because this time I wasn...
    xxDreamerXx88 xxDreamerXx88 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 12, 2011

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    I'm not sure what caused my ED.

    I think it was dieting but I'm still unsure. Most people say that it's usually down to depression but I didn't get that until a few months into dieting.
    FrickenChicken FrickenChicken 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 9

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    Thrilled To Be Noticed

    I was never fat per se, but average. In middle school, my first real boyfriend cheated on me. For some reason, I decided that if I were prettier (and thinner) he wouldn't have. So, I started excercising. I would go for runs, do countless sit ups, and even got a wii fit so I could...
    eternalmusing eternalmusing 16-17, F 30 Responses Jun 8, 2011

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    I remember my anorexia like it was yesterday.

    I did things every day for 3 years that did harm to my body-I was killing myself slowly each day. It made me who I am today. Recovery was the hardest part of the entire process for me. I am a stronger person because of it and now I'm working toward getting my degree in clinical...
    kissthedeadly kissthedeadly 18-21, F Apr 3, 2014

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    Recovering From An Eating Disorder

    All my life, I had felt left out because all my sisters were thinner than I was. I was a chubby kid up until about ninth grade, and had been mercilessly teased near my entire life. When sophomore year rolled around, I became an anorexic.When it first began, I was being treated...
    Ablyn Ablyn 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 21, 2011

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    For my entire life, I've had an unhealthy

    relationship with food. My recent anorexia probably stemmed from many things, including my childhood obesity, my need for control, my OCD, and Asperger's syndrome. But, before I go into that, I should tell you, the reader, about myself.... I'm 15 years old, I'm a recovering...
    cahill11 cahill11 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 14, 2014

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    Hello, everyone:) I have mentioned my struggles

    with my weight off and on, but I think it is important that I tell you all the whole story. I was always chubby, and this problem got progressively worse with time. When I was in 3rd grade, I was 4' tall and weighed 150 pounds. I struggled with anorexia that year, and my weight...
    Leopard3487 Leopard3487 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    Two years ago I was anorexic.

    I thought No one noticed except my close friends. It turned out that I was wrong- my friend told me a classmate of ours asked her about me when I was at hospital for a month, she said he said "does her disappearance has to do anything with the fact she's lost so much weight...
    Gayooshit16 Gayooshit16 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    My ED is coming back

    and I don't want it to. I am not happy with my weight but I am not unhappy, I'm pleasant. I weigh 145 pounds but I'm only 5'1 . I'm fifteen. I hate this. My mind is telling me I'm too fat to eat but I know I am not .
    alexahatesyou alexahatesyou 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 5, 2014

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    An Accomplished Woman

    “She’s growing up, a little podgy but very cute”-- Rima Taleb (Mom’s friend commented on how much of a lady I was becoming at one of our dinner parties.) We had just migrated from New Zealand and it was our inaugural dinner party in Australia.  I...
    umathena umathena 18-21, F 13 Responses May 26, 2007

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    My Eating Struggles

    Hey everyone I'm Chloe, I'm 16 and starting to recover from anorexia. I don't quite know how it started but when I was 12 I decided that I was done eating. At that point in my life I had just lost my sister to cancer, my mom was an alcoholic and my dad was in the military. I felt...
    TeenMomSouth TeenMomSouth 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 5, 2012

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    My bulimia soon turned into anorexia

    after finding out what throwing up does to my teeth, as I'm super strict with oral health. Anyways, through that time, i dropped a lot of weight from starving and the lack of nutrition reflected on me. eventually my family noticed and i went through a program with my therapist...
    ProHappiness ProHappiness 13-15, F Apr 16, 2014

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    There are days when i cant look in the mirror.

    This day is one of those days. I dont have Ed anymore. It stopped when i was 14, so right now i just feel bad. Real real bad
    paigeevans07 paigeevans07 22-25, F 1 Response May 13, 2014

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    Recovered Anorexic

    Ever since I was 8 or 9 years old, I always felt like I was alot bigger then all the other girls my age. I starte dusing food for comfort. I was never really big but I felt huge. When i look at pictures of then, I was average size. When I was 11 I started extreme exersizing and...
    elle1994 elle1994 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2010

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    Sometimes I remember my eighth grade year,

    when dance put so much pressure on me, with nostalgia because I felt so deliriously happy. I acknowledged I was anorexic, but I thought I controlled it, that it couldn't hurt me; it consumed my thoughts and just repressed insecurities I never actually placated. Since then, I...
    phoebegolde phoebegolde 18-21, F Mar 23, 2014

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    From Everyday To Never Again

    For about 4 years bulimia was my best friend. It was made me feel happy when I felt sad, pretty when I felt ugly, and calm when I felt out of control. It was all I thought about and for the majority of that time, all I cared about. It took over my life faster than I thought it...
    SarahJune SarahJune 16-17, F Jun 26, 2011

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    I had anorexia as a teenager.

    I have stable times. I'm ok.weight wise. I sometimes overeat. my weight usually doesn't change much.at Xmas I have eaten a lot of sweets etc and lately been eating a lot for comfort maybe. it always scares me. how much.I can eat.
    mysmugcat mysmugcat 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    I didn't really have a full-blown eating

    disorder. I used to make myself throw up. a lot. I would eat a meal then feel so sick and so gross that I would immediately run to the bathroom and puke it back up. one of my good friends found out (how I don't know because I didn't tell anyone) and she helped me stop. I went to...
    countryanon countryanon 16-17, F Apr 12, 2014

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    Eating disorder was never my main illness,

    it think it developed due to my Schizotypal Personality and Depression, but I know what is to struggle with eating disorder...I can say that I overcame it and I am proud of it, because that was not easy...Cause I won that battle with ED, I can say to everyone who still fight...
    lauruze lauruze 22-25, F Apr 12, 2014

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    footfungusfairy footfungusfairy 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    My Story With Anorexia

    I'll put my story here in case it helps anyone. From 19 or 20 to age 24 I had anorexia...I am 5'10" and was about 145-150 in highschool, average body size but very nice shape and busty, so I had boyfriends and was considered 'very pretty' and ate whatever i wanted, pooped...
    SMBR SMBR 31-35 2 Responses Jul 29, 2010

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    Not Totally Over It

    i started having an eating disorder at the age of 14, and its only now, 5 years on, that i can say i did it for 2 reasons. 1 to gain attention and 2 because i literally couldnt handle what was happening in my life. my mum had done some terrible things and was therefore being...
    silvermidnightshot silvermidnightshot 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 3, 2009

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    I Was Anorexic

    Once you have an eating disorder you forever have a distorted perception of yourself... Mine began when I was in 7th grade through 9th grade.. I was bed ridden for most of that time with what they called... "A fever of unknown origin"... heh... eventually it went away...
    Xeno Xeno 26-30, M 4 Responses Jul 10, 2007

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    When I was very young,

    I'm talking 10 years old. I was bulimic. My mothers boyfriend would always say "she's getting hefty." So I would get so nervous, that I would vomit. It went on for months. I lost so much weight, that the doctor gave me supplements to make me gain it back... Who would call a 10...
    MaddyAlexis MaddyAlexis 16-17, F Jul 24, 2014

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    I don't know if someone can completely get over

    an eating disorder, but for me, I still get a thrill out of being hungry and deprived of food every once in a while.
    rumblingheart rumblingheart 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    10 years ago I chose to live.

    10 years ago I was at my lowest point of my life. I was barely 78lbs at 5'4. I was suffering from a major illness very few people discuss with compassion: body image + eating disorders. 7 years old is when I had my first disordered thought sitting cross-legged in school that my...
    Emilyleahywho Emilyleahywho 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    I suppose I had EDNOS: a mix of starving,

    overeating, excess exercise, laxatives, throwing up here and there, chweing and spitting food, and obssesion with my body and weight...things like that. I have just begun to feel free. I am so glad my eating disorder was short. Feb 2013-may 2013. Still june, july, august...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21, F Mar 3, 2014

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    "Nothing Tastes As Good As Thin Feels"

    When it comes to extreme unfavored body image and body weight, I recognize there are certainly two sides of the coin. My sister, for one, has always been very very lean and petite, tall but small weight wise. She hates it. She'd kill to gain weight and even when she does she'll...
    WomanReclaimingSelf WomanReclaimingSelf 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 14, 2011

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    Living I'm Australia made my anorexia sorest

    because not only did I research that we as a country came third on the scales but also because most of our food is take away, full of fat and grease. I became a fruitarian for three years, lost so much weight I had to be hospitalised which was the most humiliating thing I had...
    Puck4Eva Puck4Eva 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2014

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    I haven't told anyone

    that I am doing it. I would usually be working this out with my therapist but I don't have one right now. I just want to tell someone so that I don't think I am crazy. I just want the comfort. I think I feel so uncomfortable right now and that is why I am doing it. Maybe trying...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 13

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    sophiedeleveau sophiedeleveau 16-17, F Jul 16, 2014

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    its harder to quit than smoking.

    I can't see myself as anything but fat and out of shape until I reach some unobtainable goal. I can't stop withholding, binging, and purging. my negative thoughts won't stop. I have all these clothes that I feel like I can't wear because you can see my body. I have a beautiful...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty 26-30, F Feb 8

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    You're Getting Fat...

    When I was little I was thin thin thin, I could eat anything and still be a stick. And then I fell into a depression after my step-dad comitted suicide. So did my mom and she spent most of her time in bed...we ate out...a lot. I was maybe 7 or 8 when I began to gain weight fast...
    nerdbabe102 nerdbabe102 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 1, 2013

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    Surviving Anorexia And Bulimia.

    A confession So I’ve decided to go public and use my writing skills – I’m no longer keeping this a secret from my past. For those of you who don’t know, I used to be anorexic and bulimic. Last night I was watching ‘Intervention’, featuring a pair of twins who both...
    RainbowEmily RainbowEmily 22-25 2 Responses Sep 18, 2012

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    Need Help Please

    I need help... not for myself, but for my amazing girlfriend. She has been through alot in her life, depression, eating disorders, and so on. Recently she has been doing really well, and I am so proud of her, but what can i do to help her ?? I help her as much as i can...
    Dobbo18 Dobbo18 18-21, M 6 Responses Apr 14, 2010

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    Anorexia and bulimia seemed

    so distant to me when I was growing up. It seemed completely irrational to me that someone could just not eat, and puking seemed impossible to force. However, being hormonal and insecure, my teenage mind felt a desire to be better, to be prettier, to be anything that wasn't who...
    rachelthedreamer rachelthedreamer 16-17, F Jul 27, 2014

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    So I dealt with an eating disorder junior

    and senior year of high school. Coming to college was going to be a change, but I recovered and I was ready to face a new chapter of my life, a good one. Everything was going smoothly until my roommate started to express concern about freshman 15. I explained to her my concern...
    mb8422 mb8422 18-21, F Nov 18, 2014

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    What was the main factor

    that helped you to recover from your eating disorder? Was it medication, seeing a nutritionist or therapy? My mum wants to take me to the doctors about my eating, but I keep putting it off.
    FrickenChicken FrickenChicken 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 8

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    Help... I am 16 years old,

    and never been more stressed in my life. I am recovered from my Eating Disorder for under a year now but had a relapse yesterday, and it's because I think I am going crazy. Long story short, my father is handicapped and I hate him (I always have, he is neglectful, chosen to be...
    marchdahl marchdahl 18-21, F Mar 4

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    Amber's Artwork

    I wanted to share this with you--a very brave young lady named Amber shared several pieces of art work which she drew based on her experience with an Eating Disorder.  I really encourage everyone to check it out.   http://www.experienceproject.com/uw.php?e=162360
    EPSarah EPSarah 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 4, 2008

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    Starving In New York City

    People, we get it, obesity is unhealthy, and not very attractive either. But here's a news flash. Anorexia is pretty unhealthy and ugly too. Pretty much everyone knows that a healthy mind, body and soul involves living squarely within your BMI (body mass index). Well everyone...
    MaxineR MaxineR 36-40, F Feb 23, 2012

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    Still Trying To Recover

    I am 26 years old.  I became anorexic when I was 16.  I honestly do not know why it started.  I was not abused, molested, made fun of, traumatized, or anything else that sometimes turns into an ED.  It all started out pretty slowly and innocent.  I was running cross country...
    o0kymmie0o o0kymmie0o 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 13, 2012

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