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I Had An Eating Disorder

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    I suppose I had EDNOS: a mix of starving,

    overeating, excess exercise, laxatives, throwing up here and there, chweing and spitting food, and obssesion with my body and weight...things like that. I have just begun to feel free. I am so glad my eating disorder was short. Feb 2013-may 2013. Still june, july, august...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21 Mar 3

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    Longer With Than Without

    I have had a disordered form of eating since the age of 8, I am now 25.  I have been diagnosed in past with Bulimia Nervosa and Anorexia Nervosa - purging type.  I am apparently in recovery, however finding that quite a problematic term at present.  I still abuse...
    deleted deleted 26-30 23 Responses May 19, 2008

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    Ana Had A Hold On Me

    It started back in  8th grade when I realized how beautiful the "Victoria Secret Models" looked at the fashions show thats on TV every year. I watched that show, looked in the mirror and realized...I wanted to look like that. My WHOLE life turned around because this time I wasn...
    xxDreamerXx88 xxDreamerXx88 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 12, 2011

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    "Nothing Tastes As Good As Thin Feels"

    When it comes to extreme unfavored body image and body weight, I recognize there are certainly two sides of the coin. My sister, for one, has always been very very lean and petite, tall but small weight wise. She hates it. She'd kill to gain weight and even when she does she'll...
    WomanReclaimingSelf WomanReclaimingSelf 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 14, 2011

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    From Everyday To Never Again

    For about 4 years bulimia was my best friend. It was made me feel happy when I felt sad, pretty when I felt ugly, and calm when I felt out of control. It was all I thought about and for the majority of that time, all I cared about. It took over my life faster than I thought it...
    SarahJune SarahJune 16-17, F Jun 26, 2011

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    Sometimes I remember my eighth grade year,

    when dance put so much pressure on me, with nostalgia because I felt so deliriously happy. I acknowledged I was anorexic, but I thought I controlled it, that it couldn't hurt me; it consumed my thoughts and just repressed insecurities I never actually placated. Since then, I...
    phoebegolde phoebegolde 16-17, F Mar 23

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    I Was Anorexic

    Once you have an eating disorder you forever have a distorted perception of yourself... Mine began when I was in 7th grade through 9th grade.. I was bed ridden for most of that time with what they called... "A fever of unknown origin"... heh... eventually it went away...
    Xeno Xeno 26-30, M 4 Responses Jul 10, 2007

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    Not Totally Over It

    i started having an eating disorder at the age of 14, and its only now, 5 years on, that i can say i did it for 2 reasons. 1 to gain attention and 2 because i literally couldnt handle what was happening in my life. my mum had done some terrible things and was therefore being...
    silvermidnightshot silvermidnightshot 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 3, 2009

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    Surviving Anorexia And Bulimia.

    A confession So I’ve decided to go public and use my writing skills – I’m no longer keeping this a secret from my past. For those of you who don’t know, I used to be anorexic and bulimic. Last night I was watching ‘Intervention’, featuring a pair of twins who both...
    RainbowEmily RainbowEmily 22-25 2 Responses Sep 18, 2012

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    Wholeness: How Our Friendship Grew Because of Anorexia

    January 14th, just before 8:30 pm. Earlier that day, I knew that I would somehow tell her of the eating disorder I had dealt with. She arrived at about 7 pm looking thin as usual, but not knowing the fact herself. Our chit chat lacked truth for the first hour and a half. Then...
    EclecticExpectations EclecticExpectations 18-21, F Jan 15, 2013

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    It was the beginning of 7th grade

    when I started my "diet". I had been bullied about my weight a lot before that.I started it of really well, I was exercising, eating plenty of fruit and vegetables, etc. I ate like this for a really long time with no results. I was becoming depressed. I hit myself, never cutting...
    LoveIsInfinite LoveIsInfinite 13-15, F Dec 14, 2013

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    I Think I Am Almost Recovered :)

    I am now 22 and have had suffered from anorexia or bulimia since I was 14. I have been in and out of treatment since then. My last admission was almost a year ago. I have 4 kids and 1 still born while still suffering. All my kids have suffered some way or another because of it...
    weirdkelsee weirdkelsee 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 19, 2012

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    Finally I Am Stepping Out Of My Comfort Zone! I Am Going To Share This To My Instagram. First Time Confessing. What Do U Think? I Am So Afraid What My Friends Will Think Of Me...

    Finally on the way out from the eating disorder torture. Many times I escaped but ended up in your trap again. This time I will escape successfully from you. Removing you from my dictionary. All those starving, binging, purging, laxatives, water pills ruined not just my body but...
    Szzquestx Szzquestx 18-21 May 18, 2013

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    Realization - Eating Pattern

    If I eat, The experience will not go away If I eat, The experience will not go away But still remain here, it'll just be suppressed If I eat, there will be no point to it as I am not hungry and the experiences within still remain inside of me I forgive myself that I have not...
    michellemhere michellemhere 22-25, F Nov 3, 2012

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    Thrilled To Be Noticed

    I was never fat per se, but average. In middle school, my first real boyfriend cheated on me. For some reason, I decided that if I were prettier (and thinner) he wouldn't have. So, I started excercising. I would go for runs, do countless sit ups, and even got a wii fit so I could...
    eternalmusing eternalmusing 16-17, F 30 Responses Jun 8, 2011

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    Starving In New York City

    People, we get it, obesity is unhealthy, and not very attractive either. But here's a news flash. Anorexia is pretty unhealthy and ugly too. Pretty much everyone knows that a healthy mind, body and soul involves living squarely within your BMI (body mass index). Well everyone...
    MaxineR MaxineR 36-40, F Feb 23, 2012

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    cowboy331 cowboy331 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 3

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    Recovered Anorexic

    Ever since I was 8 or 9 years old, I always felt like I was alot bigger then all the other girls my age. I starte dusing food for comfort. I was never really big but I felt huge. When i look at pictures of then, I was average size. When I was 11 I started extreme exersizing and...
    elle1994 elle1994 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2010

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    This Is Me!

    Starting a new chapter in life. I am a determined, ambitious, very smart college student. I know where I want to be in the future and I am excited to get there. One problem....for years I struggled with eating disorders until I found my best friend "the bottle." Denial and...
    strugglin strugglin 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 16, 2012

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    Recovering From An Eating Disorder

    All my life, I had felt left out because all my sisters were thinner than I was. I was a chubby kid up until about ninth grade, and had been mercilessly teased near my entire life. When sophomore year rolled around, I became an anorexic.When it first began, I was being treated...
    Ablyn Ablyn 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 21, 2011

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    My Friends Ana And Mia

    When i was in seventh grade, i had this one friend who always complained about her weight and how fat she was. She was skinnier than me so i started wondering if i was fat. I researched how much i SHOULD have weighed and found out that i was a tiny bit overweight. I suddenly saw...
    KelseyRay KelseyRay 13-15, F 2 Responses May 19, 2013

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    High School Anorexia

    It was the summer before my junior year in high school. I had been obsessing about wanting to lose weight for a while and told this to my doctor during an anual check up. I was 5'2'' and 122 Ilbs and wanted to be skinnier. My doctor told me that wasn't possible and that I would...
    chemisandy chemisandy 26-30, F Apr 23, 2013

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    Amber's Artwork

    I wanted to share this with you--a very brave young lady named Amber shared several pieces of art work which she drew based on her experience with an Eating Disorder.  I really encourage everyone to check it out.   http://www.experienceproject.com/uw.php?e=162360
    EPSarah EPSarah 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 4, 2008

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    I Suffered From An Eating Disorder

    It started when I was about 11 or 12, in the sixth grade. I was precocious, so naturally I was taller and bigger than most other girls my age. I also come from a family of stocky women, so I'm pretty solidly built with big legs and quite... "Well endowed." Anyways, I was between...
    GirlvsWorld GirlvsWorld 16-17, F Aug 13, 2013

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    Ed-Nos ... Question Too

    Hi... I was diagnosed as a teenager in high school as having ed-nos (eating disorder not otherwise specified). I went through an eating disorder program at 21 and MEDA (massachusett's eating disorder association) meetings. Now, if anything I eat TOO much! The thing is, I used to...
    Androgosane Androgosane 31-35, F Jan 28, 2013

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    Had :)

    My whole life I've been skinny, and as everyone knows, weight comments are never helpful, All I ever heard was "Oh I hate you for your size!" or, "Gosh! Why cant I be like you?" I wish that I could say that this made me feel beautiful, of attractive. But honestly each night I...
    pandapuzzle pandapuzzle 18-21 5 Responses Apr 27, 2012

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    The Road To Recovery And Life After

    The biggest loser, Dr.Oz,Herbal Magic ,Weight Watchers these are just a few of the people that stole my money and infected my brain for years. I was in a game and at war with my weight and the scale, the addiction had taken over and ED became my friend, my Best friend. Watching...
    christymello christymello 31-35, F Feb 13, 2013

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    I do not really count it

    as being a full on eating disorder but I was on the brink of anorexia. I always hated my body it is just so un proportional and hard for me to look at, anyways I got back to school from summer break and went back to dance cheer ect. Suing the day at school I don't eat because I...
    Birdy5513 Birdy5513 16-17, F Dec 26, 2013

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    My bulimia soon turned into anorexia

    after finding out what throwing up does to my teeth, as I'm super strict with oral health. Anyways, through that time, i dropped a lot of weight from starving and the lack of nutrition reflected on me. eventually my family noticed and i went through a program with my therapist...
    ProHappiness ProHappiness 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    My Eating Struggles

    Hey everyone I'm Chloe, I'm 16 and starting to recover from anorexia. I don't quite know how it started but when I was 12 I decided that I was done eating. At that point in my life I had just lost my sister to cancer, my mom was an alcoholic and my dad was in the military. I felt...
    TeenMomSouth TeenMomSouth 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 5, 2012

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    9 Yeard Old And 3 Stone Worried About My Weight Wanted To Be Perfect.

    Right, here's how it started. I'd sit at the table be passed my food play with it a little and then eat a few bits and then put in the kitchen. Every night without fail I'd have to wash my hands, I don't know why I just used to blame it on germs. I'd find it hard to sleep...
    xmeggymorgan08x xmeggymorgan08x 13-15, F Jul 22, 2013

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    I Had One, And Thinking Of Going Back.

    I'm going down that hole again. I slipped back I to depression and I feel the need to starve. I really want to lose weight.
    BrittneyJean15 BrittneyJean15 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 27, 2013

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    Aspiring Ballerina...

    My story probably starts 2 years ago, when I left home, with 15, to attend a prestigious ballet school... Before that I was thin anyway and healthy because my family took care of me. But there I was, alone and dealing with big pressure. You know how are girls with 15, their...
    vaganovagirl vaganovagirl 16-17, F Jun 26, 2013

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    Old Habits

    Got invisalign this week. Just another tool in my quest for perfection. I feel so self-conscious with it even though it is "invisible". I'm feeling the need to compensate for this imperfection and I'm finding myself gravitating to old habits. Now I even have a great excuse to not...
    CountessDawn CountessDawn 26-30, F Nov 15, 2013

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    My Story With Anorexia

    I'll put my story here in case it helps anyone. From 19 or 20 to age 24 I had anorexia...I am 5'10" and was about 145-150 in highschool, average body size but very nice shape and busty, so I had boyfriends and was considered 'very pretty' and ate whatever i wanted, pooped...
    SMBR SMBR 31-35 2 Responses Jul 29, 2010

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    Still Trying To Recover

    I am 26 years old.  I became anorexic when I was 16.  I honestly do not know why it started.  I was not abused, molested, made fun of, traumatized, or anything else that sometimes turns into an ED.  It all started out pretty slowly and innocent.  I was running cross country...
    o0kymmie0o o0kymmie0o 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 13, 2012

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    Ha(D) Or Ha(Ve)?

    Seriously though.That is the million dollar question.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F Nov 5, 2013

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    Bulimia And Anorexia Nervosa Isn'T Just Physical, Its Mental.

    Ive had a problem with Bulimia ever since i tried it as a curiousity in the 7th grade. I am now in 10th grade, and let me tell you, time deffinately did not heal me. It always sticks with u, most of you know the feeling that im talking about, but u just gotta ignore the Mia and...
    JessicaW328 JessicaW328 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2013

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    My Anorexia Story

    When I was in 7th grade, I stopped eating so I could be in a ballet class. Once I was thin enough be be accepted, I decided that I wanted to be the thinnest dancer. Not too long after, my eating disorder spun out of control. I fainted at school and had to go to the hospital. Once...
    slowlymakingprogress slowlymakingprogress 16-17, F Sep 18, 2013

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    I remember my anorexia like it was yesterday.

    I did things every day for 3 years that did harm to my body-I was killing myself slowly each day. It made me who I am today. Recovery was the hardest part of the entire process for me. I am a stronger person because of it and now I'm working toward getting my degree in clinical...
    kissthedeadly kissthedeadly 18-21, F Apr 3

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    Ana

    I have been anorexic for almost one year (i think). I can't remember where or why it starded, but it had absolutley nothing to do with fashion. In that time i didn't had friends at school, so I really hated to be there. I didn't really talk with anybody. I started to eat...
    olfinsdottir olfinsdottir 19-21, F 1 Response Jan 20, 2008

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    Middle School Drama.

    I've never been a 'huge' girl yet I've never been 'skinny' either...I've always been either fluctuating between normal and chunky; unfortunately. I still struggle with my weight, and genetically I am prone to struggle with it for the rest of my life, but when I was much younger I...
    Ardestin Ardestin 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 31, 2009

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    Shouting, Screaming: I Stopped Eating.

    I can remember the first time, i was hospitalized. I was turning 13 and it was spring break. no one knew where i was, only my family and relatives. i thought it was over dramatic, "i don't belong in the hospital, im fine", but i was just being misled by this horrible...
    mhl304371 mhl304371 16-17, F Jan 31, 2009

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    My ED is coming back

    and I don't want it to. I am not happy with my weight but I am not unhappy, I'm pleasant. I weigh 145 pounds but I'm only 5'1 . I'm fifteen. I hate this. My mind is telling me I'm too fat to eat but I know I am not .
    alexahatesyou alexahatesyou 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    You're Getting Fat...

    When I was little I was thin thin thin, I could eat anything and still be a stick. And then I fell into a depression after my step-dad comitted suicide. So did my mom and she spent most of her time in bed...we ate out...a lot. I was maybe 7 or 8 when I began to gain weight fast...
    nerdbabe102 nerdbabe102 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 1, 2013

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    In The Past And Better Now :)

    I guess I never fitted in school; well I was not the typical popular girl more a misfit. I wished I was the same as everyone else I began to change the way I looked, talked and acted. I was in 4th year 16 years old at the time in an extremely small high school, ten in a class...
    lemur1 lemur1 18-21 Apr 10, 2013

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    An Accomplished Woman

    “She’s growing up, a little podgy but very cute”-- Rima Taleb (Mom’s friend commented on how much of a lady I was becoming at one of our dinner parties.) We had just migrated from New Zealand and it was our inaugural dinner party in Australia.  I...
    umathena umathena 18-21, F 13 Responses May 26, 2007

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    Need Help Please

    I need help... not for myself, but for my amazing girlfriend. She has been through alot in her life, depression, eating disorders, and so on. Recently she has been doing really well, and I am so proud of her, but what can i do to help her ?? I help her as much as i can...
    Dobbo18 Dobbo18 18-21, M 6 Responses Apr 14, 2010

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    The Sad Life Of An Othorexic

    The story begins when I was 12. I realized how "fat" I was. I really wasn't I just gained weight which is normal. I couldn't stand looking at myself in the mirror and decided to lose some weight. When I was 13 I decided to get serious. I decided no more sweets ever again in...
    GingerMalik GingerMalik 13-15 May 31, 2013

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    Eating disorder was never my main illness,

    it think it developed due to my Schizotypal Personality and Depression, but I know what is to struggle with eating disorder...I can say that I overcame it and I am proud of it, because that was not easy...Cause I won that battle with ED, I can say to everyone who still fight...
    lauruze lauruze 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    I didn't really have a full-blown eating

    disorder. I used to make myself throw up. a lot. I would eat a meal then feel so sick and so gross that I would immediately run to the bathroom and puke it back up. one of my good friends found out (how I don't know because I didn't tell anyone) and she helped me stop. I went to...
    countryanon countryanon 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    Are You Still Hungry ? What I Think About Before I Eat . .

    Look at what you are about to eat . Then read this . Are you hungry ? Are you Really hungry ? Could you go without it ? Think of how great you'll feel . Think about how great your body will look . Push the plate to one side . Drink a pint of water . Now . Right now , halve the...
    EmberWazowski EmberWazowski 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 18, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    My father and I both had eating disorders. I'm a girl though. someone once told me that a girl said eating disorders are for girls. That probably didn't help them, it just puts...
    kissthedeadly kissthedeadly 18-21, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I have never truly came out about my eating disorder. I have been on and off with anorexia for a while. I recently became bulimic and I also binge eat a lot. I'm 17 and gay and...
    rchris96 rchris96 16-17, M 3 hrs ago

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    I have never truly came out about my eating disorder. I have been on and off with anorexia for a while. I recently became bulimic and I also binge eat a lot. I'm 17 and gay and...
    rchris96 rchris96 16-17, M 3 hrs ago

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    I have suffered from an eating disorder for most of my life. I am 23 now. Anorexia developed in me when I was 10, by the time I was 15 it was severe and included bits of bulimia. I...
    Mslip Mslip 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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