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I Had An Eating Disorder

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    Anorexia and bulimia seemed

    so distant to me when I was growing up. It seemed completely irrational to me that someone could just not eat, and puking seemed impossible to force. However, being hormonal and insecure, my teenage mind felt a desire to be better, to be prettier, to be anything that wasn't who...
    rachelthedreamer rachelthedreamer 16-17, F Jul 27

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    Surviving Anorexia And Bulimia.

    A confession So I’ve decided to go public and use my writing skills – I’m no longer keeping this a secret from my past. For those of you who don’t know, I used to be anorexic and bulimic. Last night I was watching ‘Intervention’, featuring a pair of twins who both...
    RainbowEmily RainbowEmily 22-25 2 Responses Sep 18, 2012

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    From Everyday To Never Again

    For about 4 years bulimia was my best friend. It was made me feel happy when I felt sad, pretty when I felt ugly, and calm when I felt out of control. It was all I thought about and for the majority of that time, all I cared about. It took over my life faster than I thought it...
    SarahJune SarahJune 16-17, F Jun 26, 2011

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    My Anorexia Story

    When I was in 7th grade, I stopped eating so I could be in a ballet class. Once I was thin enough be be accepted, I decided that I wanted to be the thinnest dancer. Not too long after, my eating disorder spun out of control. I fainted at school and had to go to the hospital. Once...
    slowlymakingprogress slowlymakingprogress 16-17, F Sep 18, 2013

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    My bulimia soon turned into anorexia

    after finding out what throwing up does to my teeth, as I'm super strict with oral health. Anyways, through that time, i dropped a lot of weight from starving and the lack of nutrition reflected on me. eventually my family noticed and i went through a program with my therapist...
    ProHappiness ProHappiness 13-15, F Apr 16

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    Aspiring Ballerina...

    My story probably starts 2 years ago, when I left home, with 15, to attend a prestigious ballet school... Before that I was thin anyway and healthy because my family took care of me. But there I was, alone and dealing with big pressure. You know how are girls with 15, their...
    vaganovagirl vaganovagirl 18-21, F Jun 26, 2013

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    I didn't really have a full-blown eating

    disorder. I used to make myself throw up. a lot. I would eat a meal then feel so sick and so gross that I would immediately run to the bathroom and puke it back up. one of my good friends found out (how I don't know because I didn't tell anyone) and she helped me stop. I went to...
    countryanon countryanon 16-17, F Apr 12

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    My Story With Anorexia

    I'll put my story here in case it helps anyone. From 19 or 20 to age 24 I had anorexia...I am 5'10" and was about 145-150 in highschool, average body size but very nice shape and busty, so I had boyfriends and was considered 'very pretty' and ate whatever i wanted, pooped...
    SMBR SMBR 31-35 2 Responses Jul 29, 2010

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    Finally I Am Stepping Out Of My Comfort Zone! I Am Going To Share This To My Instagram. First Time Confessing. What Do U Think? I Am So Afraid What My Friends Will Think Of Me...

    Finally on the way out from the eating disorder torture. Many times I escaped but ended up in your trap again. This time I will escape successfully from you. Removing you from my dictionary. All those starving, binging, purging, laxatives, water pills ruined not just my body but...
    Szzquestx Szzquestx 18-21 May 18, 2013

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    I Had One, And Thinking Of Going Back.

    I'm going down that hole again. I slipped back I to depression and I feel the need to starve. I really want to lose weight.
    icecoldqueen613 icecoldqueen613 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 27, 2013

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    I remember my anorexia like it was yesterday.

    I did things every day for 3 years that did harm to my body-I was killing myself slowly each day. It made me who I am today. Recovery was the hardest part of the entire process for me. I am a stronger person because of it and now I'm working toward getting my degree in clinical...
    kissthedeadly kissthedeadly 18-21, F Apr 3

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    footfungusfairy footfungusfairy 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 26

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    I do not really count it

    as being a full on eating disorder but I was on the brink of anorexia. I always hated my body it is just so un proportional and hard for me to look at, anyways I got back to school from summer break and went back to dance cheer ect. Suing the day at school I don't eat because I...
    Birdy5513 Birdy5513 16-17, F Dec 26, 2013

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    The Road To Recovery And Life After

    The biggest loser, Dr.Oz,Herbal Magic ,Weight Watchers these are just a few of the people that stole my money and infected my brain for years. I was in a game and at war with my weight and the scale, the addiction had taken over and ED became my friend, my Best friend. Watching...
    christymello christymello 31-35, F Feb 13, 2013

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    The Sad Life Of An Othorexic

    The story begins when I was 12. I realized how "fat" I was. I really wasn't I just gained weight which is normal. I couldn't stand looking at myself in the mirror and decided to lose some weight. When I was 13 I decided to get serious. I decided no more sweets ever again in...
    GingerMalik GingerMalik 13-15 May 31, 2013

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    Need Help Please

    I need help... not for myself, but for my amazing girlfriend. She has been through alot in her life, depression, eating disorders, and so on. Recently she has been doing really well, and I am so proud of her, but what can i do to help her ?? I help her as much as i can...
    Dobbo18 Dobbo18 18-21, M 6 Responses Apr 14, 2010

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    My Eating Struggles

    Hey everyone I'm Chloe, I'm 16 and starting to recover from anorexia. I don't quite know how it started but when I was 12 I decided that I was done eating. At that point in my life I had just lost my sister to cancer, my mom was an alcoholic and my dad was in the military. I felt...
    TeenMomSouth TeenMomSouth 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 5, 2012

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    cowboy331 cowboy331 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 3

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    Amber's Artwork

    I wanted to share this with you--a very brave young lady named Amber shared several pieces of art work which she drew based on her experience with an Eating Disorder.  I really encourage everyone to check it out.   http://www.experienceproject.com/uw.php?e=162360
    EPSarah EPSarah 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 4, 2008

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    In The Past And Better Now :)

    I guess I never fitted in school; well I was not the typical popular girl more a misfit. I wished I was the same as everyone else I began to change the way I looked, talked and acted. I was in 4th year 16 years old at the time in an extremely small high school, ten in a class...
    lemur1 lemur1 18-21 Apr 10, 2013

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    9 Yeard Old And 3 Stone Worried About My Weight Wanted To Be Perfect.

    Right, here's how it started. I'd sit at the table be passed my food play with it a little and then eat a few bits and then put in the kitchen. Every night without fail I'd have to wash my hands, I don't know why I just used to blame it on germs. I'd find it hard to sleep...
    xmeggymorgan08x xmeggymorgan08x 13-15, F Jul 22, 2013

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    High School Anorexia

    It was the summer before my junior year in high school. I had been obsessing about wanting to lose weight for a while and told this to my doctor during an anual check up. I was 5'2'' and 122 Ilbs and wanted to be skinnier. My doctor told me that wasn't possible and that I would...
    chemisandy chemisandy 26-30, F Apr 23, 2013

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    You're Getting Fat...

    When I was little I was thin thin thin, I could eat anything and still be a stick. And then I fell into a depression after my step-dad comitted suicide. So did my mom and she spent most of her time in bed...we ate out...a lot. I was maybe 7 or 8 when I began to gain weight fast...
    nerdbabe102 nerdbabe102 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 1, 2013

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    My Friends Ana And Mia

    When i was in seventh grade, i had this one friend who always complained about her weight and how fat she was. She was skinnier than me so i started wondering if i was fat. I researched how much i SHOULD have weighed and found out that i was a tiny bit overweight. I suddenly saw...
    KelseyRay KelseyRay 16-17, F 2 Responses May 19, 2013

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    Hey guys :) my name is Chelsea.

    My anorexia began when I was in the 9th grade. I realized that I couldn't do what everyone else could do with my disability and for me my eating disorder screamed acceptance. I recovered, was doing great and then all of a sudden I started to care about what others thought about...
    the1andonlyChelsChels the1andonlyChelsChels 18-21, F Jun 30

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    During my sophomore year of high school I

    suffered from ENDOS. In my sophomore year, I realized that I wasn't happy with my body, and I was gonna do something about it. It started with me working out everyday for an hour and eating only 1000 calories a day. I lost 10 pounds within 2-3 weeks. I was so happy with the...
    rumblingheart rumblingheart 16-17, F Aug 18

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    Starving In New York City

    People, we get it, obesity is unhealthy, and not very attractive either. But here's a news flash. Anorexia is pretty unhealthy and ugly too. Pretty much everyone knows that a healthy mind, body and soul involves living squarely within your BMI (body mass index). Well everyone...
    MaxineR MaxineR 36-40, F Feb 23, 2012

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    An Accomplished Woman

    “She’s growing up, a little podgy but very cute”-- Rima Taleb (Mom’s friend commented on how much of a lady I was becoming at one of our dinner parties.) We had just migrated from New Zealand and it was our inaugural dinner party in Australia.  I...
    umathena umathena 18-21, F 13 Responses May 26, 2007

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    Thrilled To Be Noticed

    I was never fat per se, but average. In middle school, my first real boyfriend cheated on me. For some reason, I decided that if I were prettier (and thinner) he wouldn't have. So, I started excercising. I would go for runs, do countless sit ups, and even got a wii fit so I could...
    eternalmusing eternalmusing 16-17, F 30 Responses Jun 8, 2011

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    I Think I Am Almost Recovered :)

    I am now 22 and have had suffered from anorexia or bulimia since I was 14. I have been in and out of treatment since then. My last admission was almost a year ago. I have 4 kids and 1 still born while still suffering. All my kids have suffered some way or another because of it...
    weirdkelsee weirdkelsee 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 19, 2012

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    I Was Anorexic

    Once you have an eating disorder you forever have a distorted perception of yourself... Mine began when I was in 7th grade through 9th grade.. I was bed ridden for most of that time with what they called... "A fever of unknown origin"... heh... eventually it went away...
    Xeno Xeno 26-30, M 4 Responses Jul 10, 2007

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    I suppose I had EDNOS: a mix of starving,

    overeating, excess exercise, laxatives, throwing up here and there, chweing and spitting food, and obssesion with my body and weight...things like that. I have just begun to feel free. I am so glad my eating disorder was short. Feb 2013-may 2013. Still june, july, august...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21, F Mar 3

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    I Suffered From An Eating Disorder

    It started when I was about 11 or 12, in the sixth grade. I was precocious, so naturally I was taller and bigger than most other girls my age. I also come from a family of stocky women, so I'm pretty solidly built with big legs and quite... "Well endowed." Anyways, I was between...
    GirlvsWorld GirlvsWorld 16-17, F Aug 13, 2013

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    Eating disorder was never my main illness,

    it think it developed due to my Schizotypal Personality and Depression, but I know what is to struggle with eating disorder...I can say that I overcame it and I am proud of it, because that was not easy...Cause I won that battle with ED, I can say to everyone who still fight...
    lauruze lauruze 22-25, F Apr 12

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    Are You Still Hungry ? What I Think About Before I Eat . .

    Look at what you are about to eat . Then read this . Are you hungry ? Are you Really hungry ? Could you go without it ? Think of how great you'll feel . Think about how great your body will look . Push the plate to one side . Drink a pint of water . Now . Right now , halve the...
    EmberWazowski EmberWazowski 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 18, 2013

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    Ana Had A Hold On Me

    It started back in  8th grade when I realized how beautiful the "Victoria Secret Models" looked at the fashions show thats on TV every year. I watched that show, looked in the mirror and realized...I wanted to look like that. My WHOLE life turned around because this time I wasn...
    xxDreamerXx88 xxDreamerXx88 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 12, 2011

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    My ED is coming back

    and I don't want it to. I am not happy with my weight but I am not unhappy, I'm pleasant. I weigh 145 pounds but I'm only 5'1 . I'm fifteen. I hate this. My mind is telling me I'm too fat to eat but I know I am not .
    alexahatesyou alexahatesyou 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 5

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    There are days when i cant look in the mirror.

    This day is one of those days. I dont have Ed anymore. It stopped when i was 14, so right now i just feel bad. Real real bad
    paigeevans07 paigeevans07 18-21, F May 13

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    It was the beginning of 7th grade

    when I started my "diet". I had been bullied about my weight a lot before that.I started it of really well, I was exercising, eating plenty of fruit and vegetables, etc. I ate like this for a really long time with no results. I was becoming depressed. I hit myself, never cutting...
    LoveIsInfinite LoveIsInfinite 16-17, F Dec 14, 2013

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    "Nothing Tastes As Good As Thin Feels"

    When it comes to extreme unfavored body image and body weight, I recognize there are certainly two sides of the coin. My sister, for one, has always been very very lean and petite, tall but small weight wise. She hates it. She'd kill to gain weight and even when she does she'll...
    WomanReclaimingSelf WomanReclaimingSelf 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 14, 2011

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    Recovered Anorexic

    Ever since I was 8 or 9 years old, I always felt like I was alot bigger then all the other girls my age. I starte dusing food for comfort. I was never really big but I felt huge. When i look at pictures of then, I was average size. When I was 11 I started extreme exersizing and...
    elle1994 elle1994 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2010

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    Recovering From An Eating Disorder

    All my life, I had felt left out because all my sisters were thinner than I was. I was a chubby kid up until about ninth grade, and had been mercilessly teased near my entire life. When sophomore year rolled around, I became an anorexic.When it first began, I was being treated...
    Ablyn Ablyn 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 21, 2011

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    Old Habits

    Got invisalign this week. Just another tool in my quest for perfection. I feel so self-conscious with it even though it is "invisible". I'm feeling the need to compensate for this imperfection and I'm finding myself gravitating to old habits. Now I even have a great excuse to not...
    CountessDawn CountessDawn 26-30, F Nov 15, 2013

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    When I was very young,

    I'm talking 10 years old. I was bulimic. My mothers boyfriend would always say "she's getting hefty." So I would get so nervous, that I would vomit. It went on for months. I lost so much weight, that the doctor gave me supplements to make me gain it back... Who would call a 10...
    MaddyAlexis MaddyAlexis 13-15, F Jul 24

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    Sometimes I remember my eighth grade year,

    when dance put so much pressure on me, with nostalgia because I felt so deliriously happy. I acknowledged I was anorexic, but I thought I controlled it, that it couldn't hurt me; it consumed my thoughts and just repressed insecurities I never actually placated. Since then, I...
    phoebegolde phoebegolde 16-17, F Mar 23

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    Ha(D) Or Ha(Ve)?

    Seriously though.That is the million dollar question.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F Nov 5, 2013

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    Not Totally Over It

    i started having an eating disorder at the age of 14, and its only now, 5 years on, that i can say i did it for 2 reasons. 1 to gain attention and 2 because i literally couldnt handle what was happening in my life. my mum had done some terrible things and was therefore being...
    silvermidnightshot silvermidnightshot 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 3, 2009

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    sophiedeleveau sophiedeleveau 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    Still Trying To Recover

    I am 26 years old.  I became anorexic when I was 16.  I honestly do not know why it started.  I was not abused, molested, made fun of, traumatized, or anything else that sometimes turns into an ED.  It all started out pretty slowly and innocent.  I was running cross country...
    o0kymmie0o o0kymmie0o 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 13, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    Gosh! Where to begin? So it’s fair to say that I haven’t been suffering for as long as some people with their eating disorders but I can’t dismiss the fact that I HAVE been...
    Thatgirl889 Thatgirl889 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    So basically i have an eating disorder and i think my teacher was figuring out that i had one and i need to know if you guys think that he started to figure it out or not. At lunch...
    flowerqueenx flowerqueenx 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    I debated wether to join this group or one that uses the term "might have" an eating disorder. I've studied it. Logically I know I do. But sometimes I feel just utterly paranoid...
    danii92 danii92 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I can remember the moment and day when I was 15 years old and started my long journey with anorexia and bulimia the same way an alcoholic can remember their first drink. I started...
    scmichelle051 scmichelle051 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 2

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