I Had An Eating Disorder

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    I didn't really have a full-blown eating

    disorder. I used to make myself throw up. a lot. I would eat a meal then feel so sick and so gross that I would immediately run to the bathroom and puke it back up. one of my good friends found out (how I don't know because I didn't tell anyone) and she helped me stop. I went to...
    countryanon countryanon
    18-21, F
    Apr 12, 2014

    Anorexia and bulimia seemed

    so distant to me when I was growing up. It seemed completely irrational to me that someone could just not eat, and puking seemed impossible to force. However, being hormonal and insecure, my teenage mind felt a desire to be better, to be prettier, to be anything that wasn't who...
    rachelthedreamer rachelthedreamer
    18-21, F
    Jul 27, 2014

    I had, and still do(just not

    as bad) an eating disorder. I'd stand on the scale and get off before it told me my real weight because the number was to high for me to deal with. I've thrown up, used laxatives, exercise and extreme food restriction yet I'm still a whale.
    Gabrielaa1699 Gabrielaa1699
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 28, 2016

    I Think I Am Almost Recovered :)

    I am now 22 and have had suffered from anorexia or bulimia since I was 14. I have been in and out of treatment since then. My last admission was almost a year ago. I have 4 kids and 1 still born while still suffering. All my kids have suffered some way or another because of it...
    weirdkelsee weirdkelsee
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 19, 2012

    I Was Anorexic

    Once you have an eating disorder you forever have a distorted perception of yourself... Mine began when I was in 7th grade through 9th grade.. I was bed ridden for most of that time with what they called... "A fever of unknown origin"... heh... eventually it went away...
    Xeno Xeno
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Jul 10, 2007

    10 years ago I chose to live.

    10 years ago I was at my lowest point of my life. I was barely 78lbs at 5'4. I was suffering from a major illness very few people discuss with compassion: body image + eating disorders. 7 years old is when I had my first disordered thought sitting cross-legged in school that my...
    Emilyleahywho Emilyleahywho
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 3, 2015

    Let's be honest; I don't have a pretty face.

    I never have, and I probably never will. You can't really change your face, but you can change your body, so I decided I would make up for my face by making my body beautiful. But once I started starving myself, I couldn't stop. I never got happy with my body. It just got worse...
    deleted deleted
    May 21, 2015

    "Nothing Tastes As Good As Thin Feels"

    When it comes to extreme unfavored body image and body weight, I recognize there are certainly two sides of the coin. My sister, for one, has always been very very lean and petite, tall but small weight wise. She hates it. She'd kill to gain weight and even when she does she'll...
    WomanReclaimingSelf WomanReclaimingSelf
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 14, 2011

    What was the main factor

    that helped you to recover from your eating disorder? Was it medication, seeing a nutritionist or therapy? My mum wants to take me to the doctors about my eating, but I keep putting it off.
    FrickenChicken FrickenChicken
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 8, 2015

    This is a PSA about Mental Health,

    Suicide, and Anorexia based on my experience. I made this yesterday and an sharing for Mental Health Awareness Month. Please tell me what you think! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xa36qFTnBCE&feature=youtu.be
    Lithium619 Lithium619
    22-25, F
    May 11, 2015
    footfungusfairy footfungusfairy
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jun 26, 2014

    I feel like I'm falling into past problems.

    I've eaten about 210 calories today and already feel like it's too much.
    palewildfox palewildfox
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 2, 2015

    I haven't told anyone

    that I am doing it. I would usually be working this out with my therapist but I don't have one right now. I just want to tell someone so that I don't think I am crazy. I just want the comfort. I think I feel so uncomfortable right now and that is why I am doing it. Maybe trying...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 13, 2015

    I had anorexia since the middle of seventh

    grade.it's difficult and Ive actually been anorexic for a total of two and a half years and bulimic off and on. some days for me Its easier to eat then other days.and its a long process. I still deal with it to this day but all of you should know your body is unique.and for me I...
    ansleyOneal ansleyOneal
    16-17, F
    Mar 23, 2015

    From Everyday To Never Again

    For about 4 years bulimia was my best friend. It was made me feel happy when I felt sad, pretty when I felt ugly, and calm when I felt out of control. It was all I thought about and for the majority of that time, all I cared about. It took over my life faster than I thought it...
    SarahJune SarahJune
    18-21, F
    Jun 26, 2011

    its harder to quit than smoking.

    I can't see myself as anything but fat and out of shape until I reach some unobtainable goal. I can't stop withholding, binging, and purging. my negative thoughts won't stop. I have all these clothes that I feel like I can't wear because you can see my body. I have a beautiful...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty
    31-35, F
    Feb 8, 2015

    Help... I am 16 years old,

    and never been more stressed in my life. I am recovered from my Eating Disorder for under a year now but had a relapse yesterday, and it's because I think I am going crazy. Long story short, my father is handicapped and I hate him (I always have, he is neglectful, chosen to be...
    marchdahl marchdahl
    22-25, F
    Mar 4, 2015

    Amber's Artwork

    I wanted to share this with you--a very brave young lady named Amber shared several pieces of art work which she drew based on her experience with an Eating Disorder.  I really encourage everyone to check it out.   http://www.experienceproject.com/uw.php?e=162360
    EPSarah EPSarah
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 4, 2008

    Accepting or loving my body is a daily battle.

    But the worst is being constantly self-conscious wherever I go and whomever I'm with. I'd pass a group and immediately feel like they're observing and judging my body, actually whenever I'm around people I feel like they're staring at my body being disgusted. The other thing...
    yxfx yxfx
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 25, 2015

    At Age 12, I started skipping maybe 1-3 lunch

    breaks a week. It was innocuous. At 14, when I skipped lunch daily, it stooped being innocuous. When I start feeling like I needed to lose a bit of weight, it stopped being innocuous. When I was tired and cranky and incapable of working every afternoon, it stopped being...
    AsYetNameless AsYetNameless
    16-17, T
    Apr 14, 2016

    Need Help Please

    I need help... not for myself, but for my amazing girlfriend. She has been through alot in her life, depression, eating disorders, and so on. Recently she has been doing really well, and I am so proud of her, but what can i do to help her ?? I help her as much as i can...
    Dobbo18 Dobbo18
    18-21, M
    6 Responses Apr 14, 2010

    im surrounded by amazing people

    and I found out that being skinny wouldn't make me happy, they would. that's what helped me.
    circledletters circledletters
    18-21, F
    Jul 26, 2015

    I'm not sure what caused my ED.

    I think it was dieting but I'm still unsure. Most people say that it's usually down to depression but I didn't get that until a few months into dieting.
    FrickenChicken FrickenChicken
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 9, 2015

    When I had it, I didn't

    even know I did. I spent hours reading articles on anorexia, taking online quizzes to see if I was. Even when all those quizzes said I most likely had anorexia, I never believed them. I thought I was doing what every girl did when they wanted to lose weight. I thought that to be...
    Tranc764 Tranc764
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 18, 2015

    Thrilled To Be Noticed

    I was never fat per se, but average. In middle school, my first real boyfriend cheated on me. For some reason, I decided that if I were prettier (and thinner) he wouldn't have. So, I started excercising. I would go for runs, do countless sit ups, and even got a wii fit so I could...
    eternalmusing eternalmusing
    18-21, F
    30 Responses Jun 8, 2011

    Still Trying To Recover

    I am 26 years old.  I became anorexic when I was 16.  I honestly do not know why it started.  I was not abused, molested, made fun of, traumatized, or anything else that sometimes turns into an ED.  It all started out pretty slowly and innocent.  I was running cross country...
    o0kymmie0o o0kymmie0o
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 13, 2012
    sophiedeleveau sophiedeleveau
    18-21, F
    Jul 16, 2014

    I want to give people hope!

    !! You can recover even from a very serious eating disorder. I basically fully recovered:) I recovered after a five year battle with anorexia nervosa. Including five inpatient stays & tons and tons of intense outpatient. At my worst I weigh 90lbs less than I do today & it made me...
    JuliaHHL JuliaHHL
    22-25, F
    May 10, 2015

    Two years ago I was anorexic.

    I thought No one noticed except my close friends. It turned out that I was wrong- my friend told me a classmate of ours asked her about me when I was at hospital for a month, she said he said "does her disappearance has to do anything with the fact she's lost so much weight...
    Gayooshit16 Gayooshit16
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 16, 2015

    You're Getting Fat...

    When I was little I was thin thin thin, I could eat anything and still be a stick. And then I fell into a depression after my step-dad comitted suicide. So did my mom and she spent most of her time in bed...we ate out...a lot. I was maybe 7 or 8 when I began to gain weight fast...
    nerdbabe102 nerdbabe102
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Mar 1, 2013

    I don't think I could say

    that I "had" an eating disorder. I think it's like being an alcoholic. You're just constantly in recovery. I relapsed this week. Mentally and physically. I recently put on weight. I had an incident where I put on some old pants that I couldn't button anymore. This was a major...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Dec 17, 2014

    I had an eating disorder

    for almost 4 years. it started with the fact that I hate eating around people and I don't like chewing noises and then progressed to not just avoiding eating in front of other people but avoiding eating at all. I was ashamed of the way I looked and all my friends were skinnier...
    shannonjade shannonjade
    18-21, F
    Apr 14, 2015

    For my entire life, I've had an unhealthy

    relationship with food. My recent anorexia probably stemmed from many things, including my childhood obesity, my need for control, my OCD, and Asperger's syndrome. But, before I go into that, I should tell you, the reader, about myself.... I'm 15 years old, I'm a recovering...
    cahill11 cahill11
    18-21, M
    1 Response Nov 14, 2014

    During my sophomore year of high school I

    suffered from ENDOS. In my sophomore year, I realized that I wasn't happy with my body, and I was gonna do something about it. It started with me working out everyday for an hour and eating only 1000 calories a day. I lost 10 pounds within 2-3 weeks. I was so happy with the...
    rumblingheart rumblingheart
    18-21, F
    Aug 18, 2014

    Recovering From An Eating Disorder

    All my life, I had felt left out because all my sisters were thinner than I was. I was a chubby kid up until about ninth grade, and had been mercilessly teased near my entire life. When sophomore year rolled around, I became an anorexic.When it first began, I was being treated...
    Ablyn Ablyn
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jul 21, 2011

    I don't know if someone can completely get over

    an eating disorder, but for me, I still get a thrill out of being hungry and deprived of food every once in a while.
    rumblingheart rumblingheart
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 3, 2015

    So I dealt with an eating disorder junior

    and senior year of high school. Coming to college was going to be a change, but I recovered and I was ready to face a new chapter of my life, a good one. Everything was going smoothly until my roommate started to express concern about freshman 15. I explained to her my concern...
    mb8422 mb8422
    22-25, F
    Nov 18, 2014

    I'm the very last person you'd expect to have

    had anorexia and bulimia. I'm 320lbs and 6'0 tall, and if anything you'd think I had a problem with binge eating. Actually, at this weight now I have a healthier relationship with food than I've ever had. I've been overweight my whole life, even as a newborn I was ten pounds...
    JustinAlixander JustinAlixander
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Jun 9, 2015

    I still have one, I mean like wants you start

    you can't stop, just like cutting yourself
    emmacannon16 emmacannon16
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Feb 16, 2016

    When I was very young,

    I'm talking 10 years old. I was bulimic. My mothers boyfriend would always say "she's getting hefty." So I would get so nervous, that I would vomit. It went on for months. I lost so much weight, that the doctor gave me supplements to make me gain it back... Who would call a 10...
    MaddyAlexis MaddyAlexis
    18-21, F
    Jul 24, 2014

    Hello, everyone:) I have mentioned my struggles

    with my weight off and on, but I think it is important that I tell you all the whole story. I was always chubby, and this problem got progressively worse with time. When I was in 3rd grade, I was 4' tall and weighed 150 pounds. I struggled with anorexia that year, and my weight...
    Leopard3487 Leopard3487
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jan 9, 2015

    An Accomplished Woman

    “She’s growing up, a little podgy but very cute”-- Rima Taleb (Mom’s friend commented on how much of a lady I was becoming at one of our dinner parties.) We had just migrated from New Zealand and it was our inaugural dinner party in Australia.  I...
    umathena umathena
    18-21, F
    13 Responses May 26, 2007

    For a long time in my youth I struggled with

    food. I was painfully conscious of others and craved the approval of my peers. I became obsessive about what stared back at me from the mirror, and began to pick out every little fault with myself. It took me a long time and a lot of effort to build up a positive relationship...
    Saintlysinner Saintlysinner
    31-35, F
    Apr 5, 2015
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