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I Had And Lost My First Love

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    Love is so far from me I can't

    even reach. At times like this it kills me softly but I hold on to my smile. Maybe I like pretense but underneath this mask is a sorrowful girl losing out so much emotions and left with sympathy and bitterness. I only wish for you to be kinder. You left me unwanted, you left at...
    MoonMusicLover22 MoonMusicLover22 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 16

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    So it was 16 years ago

    while we were in high school. I met him in Spanish class. Oh the attraction was instant and electric. After a while, I let him be the first man I was intimate with. It was amazing. Things were as good as they could be. Then we started hanging out less which made me feel insecure...
    AEM26 AEM26 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 30

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    I Messed Up My Relationship By Being Too Cautious.

    Girlfriend broke up with me 9 months ago (as of 5/29/12). I was best friends with the girl for 4 years before we started dating. We went out for almost 4 months. She broke up with me because she "fell out of love with me". We are still good friends. I still have strong feelings...
    H3boy H3boy 18-21, M 5 Responses Mar 23, 2012

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    I didn't realize that meeting my first love

    again after six years would stir so much emotion and so many memories in me. Being the one who left, I thought I have long ago moved on. Now I just regret leaving him without closure. He seems to be fine with it though. He said he has forgotten about it. But I feel the need to...
    Moonhearted Moonhearted 22-25, F Apr 28

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    I made some dumbass decisions

    while we were together..So, June last year we broke up for 2 months..i didn't think he'd come back to me so I slept with my best friend.. Anyway, we got back together and we moved past it. I then got diagnosed with depression and anxiety which lead to me pushing him away and...
    sophiejade92xo sophiejade92xo 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 23

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    She Was My Everything

    What a wonderful girl she was. I seen her one day hanging around my best friend Gabe early one day at school. I immediately thought to myself she was the one. She has sandy blonde hair in the sun and brown hair in the shade. Wonderful big brown eyes and the cutest little dimple...
    Daphney1001 Daphney1001 18-21, M 4 Responses Jan 20, 2012

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    I was sure that we wouldve lasted a lot longer

    than we did , but once everything confusing and difficult he gave up on me and ended everything that we had . I questioned myself "was i a bad girlfriend ? What did i do wrong ? Im so confused" i was deppressed about it for i dont know how long . I still am and now i have my...
    savannah0115 savannah0115 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    I Was Too Young

    I fell in love with my ex in 2007. We dated for 3 years but I feel we we're so serious at a young age that we didn't get along. There was continuous fighting everyday. I broke up with him in 2010 and started a relationship a few months shortly after, I was rebounding I soon...
    Torontoforever Torontoforever 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 19, 2013

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    Cossie227 Cossie227 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 8

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    It all started 3 days ago, Thursday, July 30, 2014. I drove with my mom two hours north of my Minneapolis home to a wedding by the massive Lake Mille Lacs. Technically, the wedding...
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    :( I lost the love of my life. I lost the boy I love Jose Chavez. Wow how could I been so stupid. Why am I always scared to get hurt. It's my fault. I broke up with him because I...
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    I couldn't find a thing for first hookup but just a few hours ago I. Had my first hookup with my girlfriend we hooked up for 6 mins straight she really wanted it SHE GAVE ME THE...
    GGTSS2014 GGTSS2014 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 15

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    I still love that person.i wrote a post last month or something.got loads of help and advice.and my craving to hear his voice or see him has reduced.but still I can't forget him...
    Naina94 Naina94 18-21, F Jul 28

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    I have never had my first kiss, but I recently met this guy and i really like him. but I'm scared about my first kiss!! What if it goes wrong!?!?!
    dancingtoatune dancingtoatune 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 31

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    I had my first French kiss when I was 14.
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    So my ex girlfriend is back in my life. We have a college class together. We've been talking and it's been real nice catching up. I secretly miss her, but I don't know if she feels...
    SIRROM88 SIRROM88 18-21, M 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    So my very first serious boyfriend Shane, was not just my boyfriend but my best friend, my partner in crime. I loved him to death and I still do. I was just 16 at the time and he...
    deathlessfear deathlessfear 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    I’ve been trying to figure out how to write this for a month now. Every time I start, I always get off track or start to sound a little depressing. Although I suppose that’s...
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    I just found out that he's died. Crashed his tractor on the A1. They cut him out of it, then he died in hospital. He was 19. Once upon a time he was my light. The boy I became...
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    I never experience love until I turned 23. I had plenty of girlfriends throughout the years...but never love. I would say it but I didn't feel it till she came into my life. I met...
    ebah22 ebah22 22-25, M 17 hrs ago

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    Bougalou Bougalou 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 12

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    secretgal2 secretgal2 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 30

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    I lost the joy of living since she left me. 7 years has gone an nothing has been the same. Since that very day I've been living a grey darker life. I suppose disdain is one of the...
    urius urius 26-30 1 Response Aug 3

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