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I Had Anorexia

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 523 People

    I Had It Because the Ones Who Love Me Have It.

     Throughout highschool, I always wore a size 6 and never catagorized myself as fat or skinny until junior year when i joined the gym. My boyfriend told me i could afford to lose 10, and because i was loving my new workouts, i decided to do it.  I healthily lost 10...
    morgan521 morgan521
    18-21, F
    Sep 17, 2009

    Hey guys :) my name is Chelsea.

    My anorexia began when I was in the 9th grade. I realized that I couldn't do what everyone else could do with my disability and for me my eating disorder screamed acceptance. I recovered, was doing great and then all of a sudden I started to care about what others thought about...
    the1andonlyChelsChels the1andonlyChelsChels
    22-25, F
    Jun 30, 2014

    I'm Susan. I'm twenty years-old

    and I had anorexia. It went unnoticed and undiagnosed. It all started when I was fifteen years-old. I was a normal 10th grader. In fact I was pretty popular. I had lots of friends and two best friends. Anyway, I was unhappy. My older sister, Michelle, died. She ate lots even...
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    2 Responses Nov 22, 2014

    What Would You Say to Anorexia? Hey, I found this group someone created on EP about "What would you say to Anorexia if it was sitting next to you"?  I had a friend in college who struggled with anorexia and as part of her treatment she...
    EPSarah EPSarah
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Nov 28, 2007

    Control Freak Perfectionist

    I hesitate to use the phrase 'recovered anorexic' when writing this post, because in truth I don't feel that I am despite being a healthy weight for the past 6 months. I still struggle when I'm put under pressure, I struggle when I can't exercise enough and I struggle when a lot...
    Blondiejb Blondiejb
    1 Response Nov 29, 2012

    Relapsing Again.

    This road to recovery has been a *****, and I've expierenced it first hand many times. Everytime I'm at the edge of healing, I slip and sink. I don't think I'm ever going to completely recover from the grasping hold of mind games called "anorexia", I'll just learn how to cope...
    SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 20, 2013

    hello everyone reading this.

    in May 2013 was the start of my anorexia.its completely took over my life.for the longest time i didn't look at it as a disorder.i wasn't even completely sure what it was.i started obsessing over weight,looks,tumblr and life was taken over by ED(my eating disorder)i...
    kittykatt13 kittykatt13
    18-21, F
    Sep 19, 2014

    My Life With Anorexia

    First of all, I wanna make sure people understand that some people don't chose having anorexia. I didn't. I see a lot of girls sayins that want to have this illness and, seriously, they are lost. They have no idea what they are talking about. My story begins in my childhood, I...
    J13Abby J13Abby
    Dec 14, 2010

    I Got Help.

    Well, this is my first time here, so here goes nothing. :) First off, I'm anorexic. Recovered, but the disorder still lingers with me. Here is my story of how this horrible disorder took over my life. In the world of a small Nebraska town, if you have any talent whatsoever, you...
    AHSJewcake AHSJewcake
    Jan 16, 2012

    I Am A Survivor

    First off, I would like to say that I wasn't going to talk about this with EP because I feel like it's something personal and embarrassing to me. I want to share this because those who still struggle could read this, knowing that they can get better as well. So there I was, in...
    ZappedToTheUnicorn ZappedToTheUnicorn
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 22, 2012

    This is a bit hard for me to talk about

    but i just have to say it to someone. I am 6.2 tall and my weight was 108 pounds, my family was concerned and my friends were always complaining about how skinny i had become and random people was commenting on my weight and that i looked better before. I went to the doctor not...
    vhjoo vhjoo
    22-25, M
    Oct 23, 2015

    The After Time

    I have a friend who is a little chubby, but not really. What really irritates me is that she tells everyone she's going to stop eating. She doesn't bring a lunch, but she says she's going to diet. The she picks food off of everyone until she has probably eaten twice as much as...
    doyouhearthepeoplesing doyouhearthepeoplesing
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 7, 2013

    In November 2013, ana came into my life.

    Before that even, in summer of 2013, I attempted it for a day. I are next to nothing, and my mom started to notice. There were days I would cry, and look down on myself seeing my fat and not ribs , I felt like I was dying. Not to mention I was pressured also, because my friend...
    Justlookinok Justlookinok
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 13, 2014

    and got admitted to a clinic

    and treated there for 2,5 years. After I was weight restored and on a semi-normal meal plan, I got discharged while still being very eating disorded, mentally speaking. But now, I'm also struggling with depression and an anxiety disorder, which I am getting treatment for at the...
    lunalilith lunalilith
    22-25, F
    Apr 10, 2016

    I was 14 years old when it really hit hard,

    but I was 12 when it all began. My whole family had picked on me for years for my ever extending waistline due to stress from my parents divorce. I finally decided to act on their words. I started a very time consuming workout regime. I didn't really do anything else besides...
    altemosee altemosee
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 20, 2014

    Look In The Mirror

    When I started sixth grade, I got this Calorie Counter that I used everyday. At first I told myself that this would help me lose a little weight. At that time I was 5'2" and 115 lbs. It became obsessive, and I measured my weight and my waist every single day, multiple times a day...
    doyouhearthepeoplesing doyouhearthepeoplesing
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 7, 2013
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    1 Response Apr 30, 2015

    Divorced From 'ED'. Life With Anorexia

    Hey. So I'm 20 years old and have dealt with anorexia since I was 13 years old. Imagine seven painful years of starving yourself to have some sort of control in your life. Not easy. In May, I unfortunately ended up in the hospital due to my eating disorder. They urged me to go...
    TaraG1993 TaraG1993
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Nov 16, 2013

    I Have Anorexia

    I have anorexia.  I'm 15 and I have delt with anorexia and bulimia nervosa for two years now.  I'm fasting right now for six days.  I haven't ever been treated or diganosed as either.  But, I think my theripest wants to diganose me but I keep makeing excuses...
    Arisha09 Arisha09
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Feb 10, 2007

    I didn't even know what anorexia was.

    I was only 8 or 9 when I started. I felt so fat and ugly. I would starve myself. I used my stomach problems as an excuse. My parents caught on and would threaten to take me to the hospital. As I got older I started gaining weight. I will never forget the time when I found out...
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 16, 2014

    I went through a bout

    if depression with my ex husband--/ I didn't eat for 2 weeks maybe more because i was so depressed over the insane situation ... That created the monster. In Highschool I was naturally thin but after having two children and gained an excessive amount of weight and it was...
    clari3441 clari3441
    Jul 28, 2014

    Bella Thorne Obsession

    It started out me hating her because she was so skinny and I was green with envy. But later on I became obsessed with Bella! I have posters of her on my wall, I am dieting to look like her, I dyed and cut my bangs, and I am gonna go buy clothes from the "Shake it up" collection...
    Punchinginadream Punchinginadream
    22-25, F
    28 Responses Jul 25, 2011

    My Journey Through

    I was always the "chubby girl" growing up. My young days were spent being laughed out about my weight. I even had a friends parent call me fat and no good once. Needless to say, my self esteem was extremely low. On top of this, I came from a pretty rocky home life. I saw my...
    MaliLo MaliLo
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 24, 2012

    I’ve never had A great self-esteem

    and as a child was never concerned with health. I just ate what tasted good and ate it until I was stuffed. Once I reached high school I became a bit concerned and self conscious- so I joined weight class. Obviously, this made no difference when I never changed my diet and never...
    dontgetmewrong dontgetmewrong
    18-21, F
    Nov 25, 2014

    It started last year. be honest I always had it, but I never knew.... I say to myself yea I'll just eat it and then I'll throw up, it was because I love to eat, I love food!! It makes me so happy, but then it went out of control for ten days I couldn't eat! I hated food I couldn't even stand the...
    Kittyxfreak Kittyxfreak
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 22, 2014

    Four years ago at this time I was in the

    beginning stages of overcoming anorexia. I will be honest. At times it is still a struggle but I never wanna get to that dark place again...
    DrPepperFanatic97 DrPepperFanatic97
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 23, 2014

    My name is Neda Dropulic

    and I have published a novel about anorexia „The weight of Beauty“. Novel is my personal experience of struggle with anorexia. On my facebook profile, you'll find everything about the novel. Thank you for join me, you will get a free copy of the novel. I'm interested in your...
    Maestral Maestral
    26-30, F
    Dec 14, 2013

    A long time ago. I dropped weight really fast.

    I was never able to gain back, even after recovering. I get cold and sick easily. I hope anyone who suffers from this understands that there are some things you can't gain back, and when you're ready to be healthy again you may not get back to the way you were before. Now, I'm...
    happycupcake happycupcake
    26-30, F
    Nov 8, 2014

    I Wanna Have Anorexia Again

    During the tenth year of high school I got really sadand i really dont know why but i started feeling fat and with a very low self-steemso start doing diets, at first i stopped eating fat, then sugar... and finally I just feed myself with liquidswater, caffe or juice, i was cold...
    Harmont Harmont
    5 Responses May 9, 2012

    I Was 13

    I was about to start high school, and there was some family stress. I was struggling with depression (which later turned out to be bipolar disorder) and I just decided one day that I was fat. (I was 5"2' and 110 pounds- I was not fat). I started living on rice cakes and fat free...
    AgentScully1013 AgentScully1013
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 6, 2011

    I Want Out Of This

    I had anorexia few years ago. Back then, it was about weight loss. It started off as a healthy vegetarian diet, but then I became obsessed with it. I used to live on one apple a day. I loved being in control of my diet, in control of what I eat. I loved that I was shedding pounds...
    wannabebeautiful wannabebeautiful
    1 Response Aug 13, 2010

    I Use To Suffer From Anorexia Also

    In my twenties I suffered from anorexia b/c I thought being thin would solve all my problems. I thought my life would be perfect. Well it didn't and only ended up hurting myself. You have to realize no one has a perfect life b/c no one is perfect. You live your life for you...
    akan akan
    41-45, F
    1 Response May 11, 2011

    Where Did I Go?

      I was hungry, but I hungered not for food in my stomach. After three years of voluntary starvation, hunger was not a sensation of pain, but one of the few things that still allowed me to feel alive. I had been driven by an irrational obsession to count ribs on a concave...
    jamiesam26 jamiesam26
    5 Responses Jul 25, 2009


    When I was 12 in the 6th grade I suffered from Anorexia. I was on this crazy anti depressant & it suppressed my appetite and made me hate myself and the world. I had an amazing teacher that made an impact in my life. She noticed that I looked thinner progressively and talked to...
    closetcasecat closetcasecat
    22-25, F
    Jul 13, 2013

    Freshman year, I approached my new school with

    fear and apprehension. I would be attending for the first time with boys and I feared rejection like death. So of course I thought the way to go about fixing it was weight loss... Six weeks later hospitalized and down 20 lbs. anorexia tore my first semester of freshman year away...
    Jillianchn Jillianchn
    22-25, F
    Mar 28, 2014

    My Anorexic Story.The above photo is what I

    looked like Christmas two years ago, when I was suffering from Anorexia. Sorry if it doesn't show up. I am NOT going to offer any tips or tricks on how to be Anorexic. If you are suffering from Anorexia, then get help! It started off when I was stressed out a lot. A...
    deleted deleted
    Aug 23, 2015

    Living With Anorexia

      Living with Anorexia  During my childhood and adolescent years I was always know as the “skinny” girl. My father and his friend called me olive oil (from Popeye), tooth pick, and if that gives you any idea as to how tiny I was, and consistently staid I...
    RotRosha RotRosha
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Jul 12, 2006

    Can someone please help me.

    I believe my niece is struggling with anorexia, she has lost significant amount of weight in a very very short time. Her BMI is very low and she does not see it herself. She knows she's thin, but she's trying to get even more thinner. She says she gets more compliments and she...
    Offing Offing
    22-25, F
    3 Responses May 14, 2015

    First Time Here So Here It Goes

    right i don't know whereto start so here's a little background i am a 23 year old male living in England. i have always been a big lad always had a big frame. basically i was 280lbs yes i know this is big but i was always active walking nearly 4-5 hours a day and weight lifting...
    chrisj88 chrisj88
    Jun 16, 2012

    Starving In New York City

    People, we get it, obesity is unhealthy, and not very attractive either. But here's a news flash. Anorexia is pretty unhealthy and ugly too. Pretty much everyone knows that a healthy mind, body and soul involves living squarely within your BMI (body mass index). Well everyone...
    MaxineR MaxineR
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Feb 23, 2012

    I'm curvacious and confident!

    I spent 5 years of my life struggling with body image, and eventually became anorexic. I thought that by being skinnier, I would be happier. It actually did the opposite. The more and more thin I got, the bigger I felt. The less and less I ate, the more unhappy I became. And it...
    KierstenJ671 KierstenJ671
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 7, 2015
    OIGirl18 OIGirl18
    18-21, F
    Aug 5, 2015

    In 7th grade I was bullied

    for being normal weight. When I went to a different school the same bully kept sending me texts saying I should kill myself and that I'm fat and ugly so no one will love you. Then my dad came home drunk so I had to call 911 on him. In 8th grade is when I started to starve and...
    BooBear99 BooBear99
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 19, 2014

    I Had Severe Anorexia Nervosa

    Ok, I still live with anorexia nervosa and still get triggers and cravings not to eat.  However, I don't think that I will ever get to where I was a year ago. I've always had anorexia my whole life since I was 10.  I wasn't active in it until I spent 8 years binge...
    WoundsAreWaysToRevealUs WoundsAreWaysToRevealUs
    19 Responses Apr 13, 2010

    Kind Of Did And Still Do.

    Well, lately I've been depressed and I think I'm fat. For certain stretches of time I would/will only eat enough to keep people from knowing and to keep myself from passing out and then I will eat normal to keep people off my case. I am almost certain I am a wombtwin survivor...
    RedFlowers349 RedFlowers349
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 28, 2013

    My Sister Has It

    My sister is anorexia, and she is 6 years older than me. She was married at a very young age, and had kids early too. When she was 21 and I was 15, she would have me come stay with her every chance I had. Summer vacation, Christmas, Thanksgiving, etc... As much as my mom would...
    joiebobby joiebobby
    Apr 18, 2011

    I used to work in a little store

    where it was hard to leave to go eat so I didn't eat very much. I became less and less hungry so I would find myself only having one meal a day for a long time. Meanwhile I was falling into depression and to cope with this I used to sleep. So now I stopped eating all day maybe I...
    madlola madlola
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Sep 4, 2014

    I am anorexic. I sort of started

    when I was 11 and now five years later I still think I'm fat. Anorexia has changed my life and I can't get out of it now. I got addicted to watching my calories and carbs and everything I eat to the point when I stopped eating. The mirror lies, people are right: I was getting...
    moredeadthanalive moredeadthanalive
    18-21, F
    Mar 6, 2014
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