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I Had Post-partum Depression

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    You Are Not Alone

    My post-partum depression started 2 weeks after I gave birth to my daughter. It was a very serious depression, I couldn't drive anywhere alone, I couldn't go anywhere alone, I felt like I was a prisoner in my own body. I had panic attacks so bad that I couldn't even go...
    inmyworld inmyworld 22-25 2 Responses May 28, 2008

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    Ppd With Second Son

    I had my second son feb 2 of this year. After i had him at the hostipal i was good, but the next day i couldn't walk at all. it took over 1 month for me to be able to do everything for myself and take care of my boys. On top of all this, the hostipal didn't keep a eye on dereks...
    sweetgirl49022 sweetgirl49022 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 13, 2008

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    My Story - Written During the Depression.

    ATTENTION: this was written when I was going through PPD. My son is now 15 months old and I am doing much better.     I had Hayden, my son, three and 1/2 months ago. Since about a week after his birth, I just can't shake the fact that I feel hopeless every day. I put...
    neemeeneemee neemeeneemee 22-25 Jun 9, 2008

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    Path Of Pain.

    I walk these streets......broken home.....broken bones, I don't know if you know but I know that no one knows. this is a story about to unfold, people told me your worthless, I know, meaning of nothingness, yeah so, useless, used and abused, confused, livin through the same...
    darktwistedmind darktwistedmind 22-25, M Dec 23, 2010

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    Yes, I Cried Without Being Abl...

    Yes, I cried without being able to stop for 2 days after my first child was born - but after that - I guess I got over it.  It didn't linger.
    moxiesurvivor moxiesurvivor 66-70, F 2 Responses May 24, 2007

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    I Got Out Of It And Am 1000 Percent Better

    I have been depressed before but this little bugger of an illness took the cake. I had the depression, the crushing anxiety and a year later had the OCD component as well! So I ran the gammet. For those of you familiar to the It Gets Better Project; a site aimed at gay, lesbian...
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    Glad It's Over

    I never experienced this with my boys, my first three children.  When I found out I was having a daughter, I was estatic!  The pregnancy was harder than my others, and when it was over I was always so depressed.  I'd spend hours just crying and crying and not...
    Jennaflower Jennaflower 36-40, F Jan 19, 2008

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    My Story

    I am sharing my story to let all the woman out there know that you are not alone. As I was struggling with PPD even tough I had a great support system, I still felt so alone as nobody in my close knit group of Friends and family had ever had gone thought this and could not truly...
    dlc6008 dlc6008 26-30 1 Response Oct 15, 2010

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    Depression? Not Sure

    I was 18 years of age when I found out  I was pregnant. I hadn't planned for this to happened and was on my way to enjoying life. I was fearful for what my family would think and do. My mother was very upset and my father wouldn't even speak to me (although we never had a great...
    smellies smellies 18-21 Apr 16, 2012

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    Post Delivery Problems

    I had, much to my surprise, twins.  I guess I should have known that somehow that would be in the 'cards.'  My father (born in the 1940's) was a twin.  My brother and I were twins.  After all the problems I had conceiving (I had to greatly curtail my training schedule and eat...
    mrswinecaddyman mrswinecaddyman 51-55, F Sep 16, 2011

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    Not Me, Or Is It?

    I've had a pretty difficult life. I was diagnosed with having depression as a teen but I was always able to control it. On Sept 15, 06 I found out that I was pregnant. I was nervous...I had a miscarriage with the previous one in March, 06. I had a normal pregnancy and gave...
    mybaby07 mybaby07 21-25, F 3 Responses Mar 21, 2008

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    I'll Never Have More Children

    I really feel like I am in mourning. I had postpartum depression horribly with my first daughter, born in 2004, and ended up on 200 mg of Zoloft and Ativan to get through it. It lasted 2 months. I just had a baby in November of 2006 and I am still depressed this time. This time...
    aka746 aka746 26-30, F 6 Responses Feb 21, 2007

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    Serious Symptoms, But Still Unsure...?

    I don't know if this is PPD or "baby blues", but I have been experiencing symptoms since the birth of my son, a little over a month ago. I feel like I want my old self and life back so badly that sometimes I resent my son and my boyfriend. I constantly think about what would...
    ange81290 ange81290 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    I Have Been There...

    If I had to describe post-partum depression (PPD) in only one word, it would be the word "HELL". It is truly your... own... personal... HELL. It has been 8 years since I first started experiencing PPD, it took me a little over a year to completely come out of it. I remember how...
    SilentDolphin SilentDolphin 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 4, 2012

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    Not the Same As "Regular" Depression

    I have been depressed off and on for years. PPD is a completely different cat. I actually expected to have depression after giving birth. What I got was something completely out of control, illogical, overpowering, scary and confusing. I think the initial PPD wore off as soon...
    noexcuses noexcuses 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 26, 2008

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    The Irrational Thoughts Still Scare Me...

    Before I got pregnant with my first daughter, I suffered 3 miscarriages and took the losses especially hard.  With help from a fertilty doctor, I carried my next pregnancy to term and named her Angelina.  I don't  remember feeling depressed after I had her, but...
    MargaritaSandcrab MargaritaSandcrab 26-30 1 Response Sep 7, 2008

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    Post-partum Depression ;(

    I'm 28yrs old & struggling with Post-partum depression and I feel so lost. We was trying to get pregnant for 4yrs God Blessed us with a beautiful baby girl. But I can not enjoy her I have massive Panic Attack maybe if I get out of the house more it will help. I'm a stay at home...
    Zellmom Zellmom 26-30 3 Responses Jan 19, 2012

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    My Husband Is Deployed and Dealling With Postpartum Depression

    I have been dealing with postpartum depression.  i am really scared and all i want is my husband home from Iraq.  I have never felt like this before.  i cant function and i just want to be a good mother to my kids.  I am seeing a therapist and my doctor has...
    nevaehsent nevaehsent 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2007

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    Postpartum Depression And Marriage

    My son is two years old. I am just barely starting to feel better about life since having him. I have battled an extreme case of PPD. I attempted suicide and spent weeks in a mental institution because of it. There have been tons of other "less than good" experiences I have...
    AmForm AmForm 22-25, F 3 Responses May 31, 2012

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    Fade To Black

    A baby. what a responsibility to accept, knowing that this little bundle is relying on you. One baby per household is overwhelming, and additional children can be an addition to the overwhelming feeling you have. The "baby blues" is a more serious condition that others can't...
    lonelinessmyfriend lonelinessmyfriend 26-30 3 Responses Aug 29, 2011

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    Going Through It Now...

    I delivered my baby girl via scheduled c-section August 29th. Instead of having a spinal block as originally planned, I had to be put under general anesthesia because the idiot anesthesiologist couldn't place the block correctly. That right there could make any mother depressed...
    asajaybird asajaybird 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2008

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    I Want To Cut My Mother Out My Life

    i just cant do it no more i reached my breaking point i feel the need to just cut her out my life all my mom ever does is belittle me she never has nothing positive to say about me its been this way since i was little she even told me that she could see i was going be a...
    coolrunningsned coolrunningsned 18-21 1 Response Oct 7, 2012

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    Scared :s

    Hi, my name is Diane. Im 42 and live in Canada. I have 3 kids.. 22/17 and 10.  When I had my last daughter, about 3 months after, I had the worst night of my life. I remember, Alyssa woke up in the middle of the night. I went to get her and after a bit of crying, I went to lay...
    GypsyWolf43 GypsyWolf43 41-45 Dec 15, 2011

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    I Don't Know What Is Wrong With Me

    I feel like I am stupid and have nothing to complain about but I can't help the way that I feel It started off with our first born. I found out I was pregnant 2 days after I had my last final exam. I was going to school studying science and getting awesome grades while working 3...
    crafttacular crafttacular 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 3, 2012

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    Postpartum Depression

    I was in denial and unsure why i was feeling the way i did nearly every day after my daughter was born. It was a little over 2 years later that i finally sought help and discovered i had untreated postpartum depression. I tried so hard to fill my days with activities, desperate...
    angelpie923 angelpie923 31-35, F 2 Responses May 8, 2012

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    Damn Nightmare

    I was so crappy and bitchy. Wow.. I'm glad that was over... I'm happy now..
    mother1983 mother1983 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2011

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    I Just Want to Feel Happy For Once

    It seems like everything has been crashing lately. I feel like the worst mother for being angry at my daughter. I feel so guilty for this feeling i have. I just want my freedom again. To not be annoyed at night, to go out to eat, to go out with my girlfriends. Honestly I just...
    secretzz916 secretzz916 22-25 1 Response Jul 29, 2008

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    My Heart Aches

    so here i sit alone, so sad. had a new baby, my older boy is 2. I can't laugh, im so tired. The dad doesnt help at all except to yell at are 2 year old and call him names lke punk. i never sleep, never have a break. my husband has took to calling me a ***** and screaming at me i...
    withoutwithin withoutwithin 26-30, F 3 Responses May 7, 2011

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    A Time For Meloncoly

    My world came crashing down while I was sitting in my doctors office at my 6week PP appointment. My doctor calmly sat me down in his office and explained to me that the emotional pain I was experiencing was Post-partum Depression. This is not what was supposed to happen. PPD is...
    mammaofone mammaofone 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    I Think I Had A...

    I think i had a mild case of PPD after my first child was born, but i was never diagnosed with it. If what i had was a mild case of PPD than i seriously FEEL for the women who have to suffer from a greater degree of PPD and than there are the women who have Post Partum...
    AlwaysRemembers AlwaysRemembers 41-45, F 1 Response May 24, 2007

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    Prone To Depression

    I've battled depression all my life, and I had no idea how much worse it would get after I had my son. It was worsened even more because of the fact that we had so much trouble with breast feeding in the beginning. I had to give it up after a while because it just broke my heart...
    FellidayaFiresong FellidayaFiresong 31-35, F Sep 2, 2013

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    More Than Just The Blues

    I have a beautiful baby boy who will be 14 months this April 2011 and I am currently getting treatment for post-partum depression at a hospital in Edmonton, Alberta.  I did not realize this in the beginning, but I had alot of anger issues in the spring of 2010.  By November of...
    mtbear mtbear 31-35 2 Responses Mar 20, 2011

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    Post Partum And Anxiety

    wow, glad I found a group for this. Anyone get bad anxiety constantly nagging you saying what if you hurt your baby? it scares the hell out of me and has caused many panic attacks for me. This has been going on since may of 2012. I just want it to stop. I want to be happy again...
    AstroBlue AstroBlue 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 30, 2013

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    I had my son 4 1/2 years ago.

    I always wanted children but I was scared as hell when I found out I was pregnant. my pregnancy was full of sickness the whole time and when I had him it was via c-section. I tried breastfeeding and I couldn't get it. however I was lucky that I didn't feel pressure or...
    parisblues parisblues 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 12, 2013

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    I Need To Be Me Again

    Ok so I need somewhere to write this out before I loose my mind. So please follow me as I vent. I had my daughter 6 months ago and I have a son who almost 5 year old. I had PP with my son but it was me diving into work and not really wanting to become a mom. So when I had my...
    peachbum0323 peachbum0323 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 13, 2013

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    I Thought I Was Strong Until...

    I had my son 3 months ago via C-section. I have a history of depression and anxiety so I knew I was at risk for PPD, but I had no idea what was in store for me. I sat at home with him, feeling quite isolated for about 2 months. It seemed like I escaped the PPD with my usual...
    Dandra Dandra 36-40, F Aug 16, 2012

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    One Of The Darkest Times Of My Life!

    My son was born in September of 2011 via csection. He had a somewhat difficult time during his hospital stay, as he couldn't eat or keep anything down. I was worried about him, and I felt it was all my fault. I want to start off now by saying that I believe I met my sons dad in...
    ashleyhanson2512 ashleyhanson2512 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 13, 2012

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    Post-partum

    This is one thing that scares me if I ever get a child.  I am prone to depression and post-partum can affect me.  I already have enough...I don't need more.  What are the chances not being affected by it in my case?  Very slim.
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F Nov 19, 2011

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    Post Partum And Abortion

    i am a mother of two beautiful and amazing children my son who is about to be 6 and a daughter who is a demanding drama queen who should be going on 20 but is actually soon to be 4. I was 19 when my fiance and i had a unplanned pregnancy and i was so immature at that age i...
    hikergirl85 hikergirl85 26-30 2 Responses Feb 14, 2011

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    Coming Out Of Post-partum Depression

    When I got pregnant with my third child at 29 I was very upset.  I had two children and I was happy with that.  I had been putting off getting my tubes tied so beat myself up about getting pregnant.  I somewhat came to terms with being pregnant.  After I had the baby I became...
    junabuna junabuna 31-35 3 Responses Apr 30, 2012

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    I Had And Have Now Again Post-partum Depression

    I am suffering for the second time a Post-partum Depression. It all began after the birth of my first son. I had both an easy and problem free pregnancy and fast birth. When I held my son I felt pure love and for 6 months I shared a beautiful time with him. When he was 6 months...
    warby warby 36-40 1 Response Dec 6, 2010

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    I Have Had Post-partum Depression

    i have had post-par-tum depression twice.... and its definitely the worst thing that has ever happened to me... in March 2008 i got married to the most amazing guy i had met,while been pregnant....we also got our new apartment,getting settle to start a new live and getting ready...
    cookieymacho cookieymacho 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 30, 2012

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    Bad Postpartum Depression

    So I hate to admit it but I still have Postpartum Depression, every time I think I'm getting better I get down. So I have struggled for 2 years now, been on meds for 1. I have 3 very active kids and 1 workahokic husband, Never even had baby blues with the other 2, so when the 3...
    300ladybug 300ladybug 31-35 Jul 15, 2008

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    Over And Above Normal Depression

    After I had my daughter, I was thinking about dying and crying after every song I heard because regardless of whether it was a sad song or not, it seemed terribly and overwhelmingly sad to me. We were visiting with some good friends and they had the radio on and I started...
    OnewithJC OnewithJC 36-40, F Apr 30, 2011

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    The Years of Living Hell

    When my mom and dad divorced, my mom soon began to look for new boyfriends. She could only find abusive men. One of my stepdads beat my mom and that led to my mom being a pill-addict, and she doesnt remember a thing from those years because of her pills. Ive heard, but...
    Ninasaurusrex Ninasaurusrex 16-18, F 2 Responses Apr 23, 2007

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    I Was Angry Before During And After...

    I wasnt happy whe I found out I was pregnant because I was deployed at the time and when my husband and had the sex that made the baby, it was meant to be the last time we saw eachother. We had been having marriage problems and were using deployment as a reason to drift apart so...
    Ashahmal Ashahmal 22-25, F Mar 12, 2011

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    My Experience With Post-partum Depression

    My experience with post-partum depression  During my pregnancy, my husband and I heard many stories in regards to post-partum depression and we actually were a little worried that it could happen to me. On August 11, 2005 I had our first son, a boy. I took my maternity...
    RotRosha RotRosha 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 12, 2006

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    I Think I Have Post-partum Depression.

    My name is Cassandra I am 18 years old and just had my beautiful son 5 months ago on the 22nd of August. I was 135 lbs before getting pregnant, this was not a planned pregnancy but I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. I gained 50 lbs and weighed 186 lbs at delivery. I...
    CassandraAplin CassandraAplin 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 17, 2012

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    Scary

    I was blissed out with my first child, so I was caught completely off-guard when I became severely depressed after my second. When it got to the point where I was starting to think that leaving it all behind and just taking off somewhere alone sounded like a good idea, I called...
    summertime summertime 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 13, 2006

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    Related Experiences

    This is kind of a downer for my first EP post, but yeah. I've had issues with depression since I was a little kid. I remember being in primary school and just feeling so oddly...
    lightningstripe lightningstripe 13-15, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I feel like I've lost every ounce of the personality I had before my depression. It's all gone. I'm just miserable and annoying to be around now. I've lost my friends and everyone...
    Sbrooke Sbrooke 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 3

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    Haven't left my apartment in 3 days. Found my neighbor dead about a month ago and think I'm just beginning to process it. Between that and my already unstable mindset, I don't know...
    mi33sardonic mi33sardonic 31-35, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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