I Had Post-partum Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 295 People

    Depression? Not Sure

    I was 18 years of age when I found out  I was pregnant. I hadn't planned for this to happened and was on my way to enjoying life. I was fearful for what my family would think and do. My mother was very upset and my father wouldn't even speak to me (although we never had a great...
    smellies smellies
    Apr 16, 2012

    A Time For Meloncoly

    My world came crashing down while I was sitting in my doctors office at my 6week PP appointment. My doctor calmly sat me down in his office and explained to me that the emotional pain I was experiencing was Post-partum Depression. This is not what was supposed to happen. PPD is...
    mammaofone mammaofone
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 13, 2013

    Post Partum And Anxiety

    wow, glad I found a group for this. Anyone get bad anxiety constantly nagging you saying what if you hurt your baby? it scares the hell out of me and has caused many panic attacks for me. This has been going on since may of 2012. I just want it to stop. I want to be happy again...
    AstroBlue AstroBlue
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 30, 2013

    I Have Been There...

    If I had to describe post-partum depression (PPD) in only one word, it would be the word "HELL". It is truly your... own... personal... HELL. It has been 8 years since I first started experiencing PPD. I remember how much I hated myself and how I could do absolutely NOTHING right...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Nov 4, 2012

    Scared :s

    Hi, my name is Diane. Im 42 and live in Canada. I have 3 kids.. 22/17 and 10.  When I had my last daughter, about 3 months after, I had the worst night of my life. I remember, Alyssa woke up in the middle of the night. I went to get her and after a bit of crying, I went to lay...
    GypsyWolf43 GypsyWolf43
    Dec 15, 2011

    I have 3,5 month old baby.

    On her second day here in this world she started to scream all the time she was awake, 9h in row, non-stop (I was feeding her too of course, breast milk only).We went to the doctor many times. They found that eating is new to her digestion system, so it hurts + colics. Okey...
    Belier Belier
    26-30, F
    Dec 10, 2015

    Not Me, Or Is It?

    I've had a pretty difficult life. I was diagnosed with having depression as a teen but I was always able to control it. On Sept 15, 06 I found out that I was pregnant. I was nervous...I had a miscarriage with the previous one in March, 06. I had a normal pregnancy and gave...
    mybaby07 mybaby07
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 21, 2008

    Prone To Depression

    I've battled depression all my life, and I had no idea how much worse it would get after I had my son. It was worsened even more because of the fact that we had so much trouble with breast feeding in the beginning. I had to give it up after a while because it just broke my heart...
    FellidayaFiresong FellidayaFiresong
    36-40, F
    Sep 2, 2013

    I Got Out Of It And Am 1000 Percent Better

    I have been depressed before but this little bugger of an illness took the cake. I had the depression, the crushing anxiety and a year later had the OCD component as well! So I ran the gammet. For those of you familiar to the It Gets Better Project; a site aimed at gay, lesbian...
    Jan 15, 2013

    My Story

    I am sharing my story to let all the woman out there know that you are not alone. As I was struggling with PPD even tough I had a great support system, I still felt so alone as nobody in my close knit group of Friends and family had ever had gone thought this and could not truly...
    dlc6008 dlc6008
    1 Response Oct 15, 2010

    Postpartum Depression And Marriage

    My son is two years old. I am just barely starting to feel better about life since having him. I have battled an extreme case of PPD. I attempted suicide and spent weeks in a mental institution because of it. There have been tons of other "less than good" experiences I have...
    AmForm AmForm
    22-25, F
    3 Responses May 31, 2012

    Fade To Black

    A baby. what a responsibility to accept, knowing that this little bundle is relying on you. One baby per household is overwhelming, and additional children can be an addition to the overwhelming feeling you have. The "baby blues" is a more serious condition that others can't...
    lonelinessmyfriend lonelinessmyfriend
    3 Responses Aug 29, 2011

    I Need To Be Me Again

    Ok so I need somewhere to write this out before I loose my mind. So please follow me as I vent. I had my daughter 6 months ago and I have a son who almost 5 year old. I had PP with my son but it was me diving into work and not really wanting to become a mom. So when I had my...
    peachbum0323 peachbum0323
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 13, 2013

    More Than Just The Blues

    I have a beautiful baby boy who will be 14 months this April 2011 and I am currently getting treatment for post-partum depression at a hospital in Edmonton, Alberta.  I did not realize this in the beginning, but I had alot of anger issues in the spring of 2010.  By November of...
    mtbear mtbear
    2 Responses Mar 20, 2011

    Going Through It Now...

    I delivered my baby girl via scheduled c-section August 29th. Instead of having a spinal block as originally planned, I had to be put under general anesthesia because the idiot anesthesiologist couldn't place the block correctly. That right there could make any mother depressed...
    asajaybird asajaybird
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 16, 2008

    Post Delivery Problems

    I had, much to my surprise, twins.  I guess I should have known that somehow that would be in the 'cards.'  My father (born in the 1940's) was a twin.  My brother and I were twins.  After all the problems I had conceiving (I had to greatly curtail my training schedule and eat...
    mrswinecaddyman mrswinecaddyman
    51-55, F
    Sep 16, 2011

    Ppd With Second Son

    I had my second son feb 2 of this year. After i had him at the hostipal i was good, but the next day i couldn't walk at all. it took over 1 month for me to be able to do everything for myself and take care of my boys. On top of all this, the hostipal didn't keep a eye on dereks...
    sweetgirl49022 sweetgirl49022
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 13, 2008


    This is one thing that scares me if I ever get a child.  I am prone to depression and post-partum can affect me.  I already have enough...I don't need more.  What are the chances not being affected by it in my case?  Very slim.
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr
    36-40, F
    Nov 19, 2011

    My Heart Aches

    so here i sit alone, so sad. had a new baby, my older boy is 2. I can't laugh, im so tired. The dad doesnt help at all except to yell at are 2 year old and call him names lke punk. i never sleep, never have a break. my husband has took to calling me a ***** and screaming at me i...
    withoutwithin withoutwithin
    26-30, F
    3 Responses May 7, 2011

    I Want To Cut My Mother Out My Life

    i just cant do it no more i reached my breaking point i feel the need to just cut her out my life all my mom ever does is belittle me she never has nothing positive to say about me its been this way since i was little she even told me that she could see i was going be a...
    coolrunningsned coolrunningsned
    1 Response Oct 7, 2012

    You Are Not Alone

    My post-partum depression started 2 weeks after I gave birth to my daughter. It was a very serious depression, I couldn't drive anywhere alone, I couldn't go anywhere alone, I felt like I was a prisoner in my own body. I had panic attacks so bad that I couldn't even go...
    inmyworld inmyworld
    2 Responses May 28, 2008

    Post-partum Depression ;(

    I'm 28yrs old & struggling with Post-partum depression and I feel so lost. We was trying to get pregnant for 4yrs God Blessed us with a beautiful baby girl. But I can not enjoy her I have massive Panic Attack maybe if I get out of the house more it will help. I'm a stay at home...
    Zellmom Zellmom
    3 Responses Jan 19, 2012

    My second pregnancy was a tiring one,

    full of morning dizziness/lightheadedness throughout the entire 40 weeks.I was ready to have it over and to meet my sweet little man. He eventually came...a week overdue, and millions of appointments later. He was a healthy guy and started off an easy baby. As I had no...
    vandea9 vandea9
    22-25, F
    Oct 29, 2015

    The Years of Living Hell

    When my mom and dad divorced, my mom soon began to look for new boyfriends. She could only find abusive men. One of my stepdads beat my mom and that led to my mom being a pill-addict, and she doesnt remember a thing from those years because of her pills. Ive heard, but...
    Ninasaurusrex Ninasaurusrex
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 23, 2007

    Yes, I Cried Without Being Abl...

    Yes, I cried without being able to stop for 2 days after my first child was born - but after that - I guess I got over it.  It didn't linger.
    moxiesurvivor moxiesurvivor
    66-70, F
    2 Responses May 24, 2007

    Post Partum And Abortion

    i am a mother of two beautiful and amazing children my son who is about to be 6 and a daughter who is a demanding drama queen who should be going on 20 but is actually soon to be 4. I was 19 when my fiance and i had a unplanned pregnancy and i was so immature at that age i...
    hikergirl85 hikergirl85
    1 Response Feb 14, 2011

    The Irrational Thoughts Still Scare Me...

    Before I got pregnant with my first daughter, I suffered 3 miscarriages and took the losses especially hard.  With help from a fertilty doctor, I carried my next pregnancy to term and named her Angelina.  I don't  remember feeling depressed after I had her, but...
    MargaritaSandcrab MargaritaSandcrab
    1 Response Sep 7, 2008

    Glad It's Over

    I never experienced this with my boys, my first three children.  When I found out I was having a daughter, I was estatic!  The pregnancy was harder than my others, and when it was over I was always so depressed.  I'd spend hours just crying and crying and not...
    Jennaflower Jennaflower
    36-40, F
    Jan 19, 2008
    LMB1990 LMB1990
    26-30, F
    Mar 3, 2016

    Coming Out Of Post-partum Depression

    When I got pregnant with my third child at 29 I was very upset.  I had two children and I was happy with that.  I had been putting off getting my tubes tied so beat myself up about getting pregnant.  I somewhat came to terms with being pregnant.  After I had the baby I became...
    junabuna junabuna
    4 Responses Apr 30, 2012

    I Don't Know What Is Wrong With Me

    I feel like I am stupid and have nothing to complain about but I can't help the way that I feel It started off with our first born. I found out I was pregnant 2 days after I had my last final exam. I was going to school studying science and getting awesome grades while working 3...
    crafttacular crafttacular
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 3, 2012

    I'll Never Have More Children

    I really feel like I am in mourning. I had postpartum depression horribly with my first daughter, born in 2004, and ended up on 200 mg of Zoloft and Ativan to get through it. It lasted 2 months. I just had a baby in November of 2006 and I am still depressed this time. This time...
    aka746 aka746
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Feb 21, 2007

    I Was Angry Before During And After...

    I wasnt happy whe I found out I was pregnant because I was deployed at the time and when my husband and had the sex that made the baby, it was meant to be the last time we saw eachother. We had been having marriage problems and were using deployment as a reason to drift apart so...
    Ashahmal Ashahmal
    22-25, F
    Mar 12, 2011

    I Had And Have Now Again Post-partum Depression

    I am suffering for the second time a Post-partum Depression. It all began after the birth of my first son. I had both an easy and problem free pregnancy and fast birth. When I held my son I felt pure love and for 6 months I shared a beautiful time with him. When he was 6 months...
    warby warby
    1 Response Dec 6, 2010

    I Thought I Was Strong Until...

    I had my son 3 months ago via C-section. I have a history of depression and anxiety so I knew I was at risk for PPD, but I had no idea what was in store for me. I sat at home with him, feeling quite isolated for about 2 months. It seemed like I escaped the PPD with my usual...
    Dandra Dandra
    36-40, F
    Aug 16, 2012

    Pregnant with 3rd baby now

    and the last one was a real challenge not to throw her down the stairs when she wouldn't stop crying... Hope I can do it again!
    BadMomKira BadMomKira
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 15, 2016


    I was blissed out with my first child, so I was caught completely off-guard when I became severely depressed after my second. When it got to the point where I was starting to think that leaving it all behind and just taking off somewhere alone sounded like a good idea, I called...
    summertime summertime
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Dec 13, 2006

    My Story - Written During the Depression.

    ATTENTION: this was written when I was going through PPD. My son is now 15 months old and I am doing much better.     I had Hayden, my son, three and 1/2 months ago. Since about a week after his birth, I just can't shake the fact that I feel hopeless every day. I put...
    neemeeneemee neemeeneemee
    Jun 9, 2008

    One Of The Darkest Times Of My Life!

    My son was born in September of 2011 via csection. He had a somewhat difficult time during his hospital stay, as he couldn't eat or keep anything down. I was worried about him, and I felt it was all my fault. I want to start off now by saying that I believe I met my sons dad in...
    ashleyhanson2512 ashleyhanson2512
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 13, 2012

    I Have Had Post-partum Depression

    i have had post-par-tum depression twice.... and its definitely the worst thing that has ever happened to me... in March 2008 i got married to the most amazing guy i had met,while been pregnant....we also got our new apartment,getting settle to start a new live and getting ready...
    cookieymacho cookieymacho
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 30, 2012

    My Husband Is Deployed and Dealling With Postpartum Depression

    I have been dealing with postpartum depression.  i am really scared and all i want is my husband home from Iraq.  I have never felt like this before.  i cant function and i just want to be a good mother to my kids.  I am seeing a therapist and my doctor has...
    nevaehsent nevaehsent
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 22, 2007

    I had my son 4 1/2 years ago.

    I always wanted children but I was scared as hell when I found out I was pregnant. my pregnancy was full of sickness the whole time and when I had him it was via c-section. I tried breastfeeding and I couldn't get it. however I was lucky that I didn't feel pressure or...
    parisblues parisblues
    36-40, F
    1 Response Dec 12, 2013

    Postpartum Depression

    I was in denial and unsure why i was feeling the way i did nearly every day after my daughter was born. It was a little over 2 years later that i finally sought help and discovered i had untreated postpartum depression. I tried so hard to fill my days with activities, desperate...
    angelpie923 angelpie923
    31-35, F
    2 Responses May 8, 2012

    My Experience With Post-partum Depression

    My experience with post-partum depression  During my pregnancy, my husband and I heard many stories in regards to post-partum depression and we actually were a little worried that it could happen to me. On August 11, 2005 I had our first son, a boy. I took my maternity...
    RotRosha RotRosha
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 12, 2006

    I Think I Have Post-partum Depression.

    My name is Cassandra I am 18 years old and just had my beautiful son 5 months ago on the 22nd of August. I was 135 lbs before getting pregnant, this was not a planned pregnancy but I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. I gained 50 lbs and weighed 186 lbs at delivery. I...
    CassandraAplin CassandraAplin
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jan 17, 2012

    I Think I Had A...

    I think i had a mild case of PPD after my first child was born, but i was never diagnosed with it. If what i had was a mild case of PPD than i seriously FEEL for the women who have to suffer from a greater degree of PPD and than there are the women who have Post Partum...
    AlwaysRemembers AlwaysRemembers
    41-45, F
    1 Response May 24, 2007

    Bad Postpartum Depression

    So I hate to admit it but I still have Postpartum Depression, every time I think I'm getting better I get down. So I have struggled for 2 years now, been on meds for 1. I have 3 very active kids and 1 workahokic husband, Never even had baby blues with the other 2, so when the 3...
    300ladybug 300ladybug
    Jul 15, 2008
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