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I Hate Being Alive

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    I am counting down the days and wishing for a future that I don't want. I am shattered and I wish that I could just die without a plan and without using something to kill myself with. Each piece of myself dropping on the ground. I look at my life in tears and wish that I could...
    RavenWolf RavenWolf 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 28, 2012

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    Seriously. I live in a small town,

    I have two friends one is 15 years older and has twin 1 year old boys and has no spare time the other is moving to cairns. I do have a partner of three years but when we fight it's be nice to have a friend to talk to... My mum has all of a sudden decided she wants nothing to do...
    Rachelmarie94 Rachelmarie94 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2014

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    I've Always Hated Living

    As a kid, I was the happiest kid in the world, I think. We started moving around a lot after 1st Grade and we moved for the last time right before 6th grade. From 6th grade on I hated life. I didn't know you could consistently hate breathing for 10 years straight. I joined the...
    CyRxJustin CyRxJustin 22-25 2 Responses Apr 11, 2011

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    I Want To Be Shot In The Head! I Hate Being Alive! To Hell With Life! >:-(

    GRRRR IM SO ANGRY AT STILL BEING ALIVE! im a waste, a burden, a failure, i dont deserve love or respect, i dont deserve life, i should die do you know every single minute i beg and pray for someone to take me hostage with a gun to me head thatd be a dream come true for me, if i...
    IFeelSoLonely101 IFeelSoLonely101 18-21, M Apr 10, 2013

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    And I've Woken Up...Again :(

    Now I lay me down to sleep I beg the night my life to keep Find I've not died before I wake I'll tempt the day my life to take. 32 years old. So past teen angst. This is **** pointless. Not so much depressed as I am really pissed with being burdened by existence. Suicide is...
    SundaysMourning SundaysMourning 31-35 1 Response Sep 4, 2013

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    Feelings

    I hate being alive, I hate feeling feelings of any kind. I just want all feelings to stop, I want to feel nothing, I want to sleep permanently and not have to feel..
    JustVenus JustVenus 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 20, 2013

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    Its really just one ****-storm

    after another. Thats pretty much life summed up. Please let me die. I can't stand being alive anymore. If god was real and had and ******* kind of mercy AT ALL I'd be dead. I hate being alive, I hate it hate it hate it. Someone please kill me. I am such a **** up ALL THE TIME. I...
    mysteryhatcat mysteryhatcat 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 17, 2013

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    Whats the point of me being alive

    if all i so is get screamed at for nothing be called a worthless piece of **** get stuck serving my mean *** mother the rest of my life and cant even have any friends i just want the pain to go away
    timeladynat timeladynat 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 12, 2014

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    There is no point to life.

    Death is inevitable. Get it over with.
    Mirmulnir Mirmulnir 22-25, M Nov 8, 2014

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    I Wish I Were Aborted

    Everyday is another day of depression and suicidal thoughts I lots of crying and doing wreck less things to hurt myself. I really don't know why I'm here I should of never been born. I know that no one cares about me or think of me. I hate how people treat other people. I...
    Mylifeisending Mylifeisending 18-21, M 4 Responses Jun 4, 2012

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    CatacombsKitten CatacombsKitten 41-45, M Feb 11

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    I dislike talking about this sort of thing.

    I suppose it is because it makes me feel weak, I don't know. I have not felt right since I was really little. I have been anxious, regretful, and heavy-of-heart for as long as I can remember. It grew much more somber and grave when I hit adolescence, and it has been with me ever...
    jord4567 jord4567 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 21, 2014

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    I'm Just Tired Of It All ~

    I woke up sad today and yesterday and the day before and I'm sick of it. I'm tired of crying, of feeling lonely, of feeling depressed, and of cutting. I'm tired of it all. I don't see the point of living like this. I want my life to end. I want a truck to run me over, killing me...
    lilgiglzz lilgiglzz 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 21, 2012

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    Alone Is No Way to Live

    i am so sick and tired, burnt out and frustrated over having to do everything alone. i have no family support due to a traumatic family and being in that family did nothing to establish relationships with extended family. today i am not in touch with any extended family and haven...
    tm3245 tm3245 51-55 May 27, 2009

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    Why Do I Think This Way?

    Im a very unhappy person. I wish I could turn back time and choose differently. I am not sociable and hate being forced to be sociable. I enjoy my space, time alone, my beliefs, and just living in my own thoughts. I loathe having to be someone Im not just because of appearance...
    SEARCHINGME SEARCHINGME 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 19, 2012

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    I can not stand being alive

    and aware. I am so angry that I have to deal with being alive and dealing with all the bullshit little tasks that make up life. I love my husband and my family so much that I can't fathom the idea of killing myself and destroying them all. Especially since my husbands best...
    Smilesforscience Smilesforscience 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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    Life Is Pointless

    There really is no point to being here, call it a fatalistic ideation, but really being born to die is an oxymoron. It makes no sense and religion makes even less sense of our current state of existence. Put here by an all-loving Deity with a wrathful vengeance towards those who...
    justme8903 justme8903 22-25, F 3 Responses May 30, 2013

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    Why Am I Even Alive?

    everyday is so painful for me. it takes too much energy just to wake up. i have so much to do and just cant seem to get anything done. i f-ing hate being alive. i have so many worries. i cant take it anymore. just got my first car. i thought id be happy after that. but nope, not...
    imallihave imallihave 18-21, F Aug 23, 2011

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    Redundant

    Most people come on sites like these to rant about wanting to take their life cuz its so bad, or some variation of that. But the reason I'm here is because I want go find others who hate being alive, and meander through life waiting to die. I know I'm too much od a coward to...
    distubed07 distubed07 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15, 2010

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    No Such Thing As 100%

    Same story as the rest of the posts, except I'm not a kid who just got dumped or a high-schooler trying to make it to graduation. I'm 44 years old and I've hated life since I was 18. I'm NOT afraid of death and have attempted suicide a few times. I've successfully killed myself...
    noneofyourbusinesspal noneofyourbusinesspal 41-45 2 Responses Sep 21, 2012

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    First thing's first. I hate it when people in my generation act like we are the worst generation known to man. We are not. We are just getting started and we have our pros and cons...
    Allforaview Allforaview 18-21, F Mar 1

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    Being lied to and/or ignored.. :/ Hate it!
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