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I Hate Being Alive

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    I Wish I Were Aborted

    Everyday is another day of depression and suicidal thoughts I lots of crying and doing wreck less things to hurt myself. I really don't know why I'm here I should of never been born. I know that no one cares about me or think of me. I hate how people treat other people. I...
    Mylifeisending Mylifeisending 18-21, M 4 Responses Jun 4, 2012

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    Feelings

    I hate being alive, I hate feeling feelings of any kind. I just want all feelings to stop, I want to feel nothing, I want to sleep permanently and not have to feel..
    JustVenus JustVenus 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 20, 2013

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    I have been rejected by women all my life

    and have no friends. I hate my life. I hate it so much. I have to get used to being alone forever and try to be happy with the fact that I will always be alone. I have no other options. I will never have people in my life. Nobody likes me. I hate myself.
    atr7887 atr7887 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 10, 2015

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    There is no point to life.

    Death is inevitable. Get it over with.
    Mirmulnir Mirmulnir 22-25, M Nov 8, 2014

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    I Want To Be Shot In The Head! I Hate Being Alive! To Hell With Life! >:-(

    GRRRR IM SO ANGRY AT STILL BEING ALIVE! im a waste, a burden, a failure, i dont deserve love or respect, i dont deserve life, i should die do you know every single minute i beg and pray for someone to take me hostage with a gun to me head thatd be a dream come true for me, if i...
    IFeelSoLonely101 IFeelSoLonely101 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 10, 2013

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    Redundant

    Most people come on sites like these to rant about wanting to take their life cuz its so bad, or some variation of that. But the reason I'm here is because I want go find others who hate being alive, and meander through life waiting to die. I know I'm too much od a coward to...
    distubed07 distubed07 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15, 2010

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    I hate being alive...

    ..i hate that i have to get up every day to just suffer through every day with a fake personality and fake emotions...i hate that i cant even kill myself because thats no longer an option.......i hate being trapped in this existence.....im not sad or depressed....im just tired of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses May 24, 2015

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    I wish I could close my eyes

    and fall into a deep peaceful sleep and never awaken. All my worries would be washed away and I would finally feel at ease. My mind would become blank. The pain and the suffering would vanish. I would be free from the prison of life.
    busybrain busybrain 26-30, F May 12, 2015

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    I just found out JESUS predestined my friend

    for HEAVEN and me for hell. What really cuts me is that she thinks JUST LIKE ME I know cause if i put myself in the same life as her , I think JUST LIKE HER . So it is like God picking a twin sister ovet you. Do you know ot hurts me a lot. I feel INDESCRIBABLY HURT TILL NO ONE...
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 20, 2015

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    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M Jul 11, 2015

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    My dad doesn't Even Listen To What I Say,

    Thats Why i Can Never Come up With Anything To Say, Caus I Always End Up Forgetting It Caus He Tries To Talk over Me
    Tdollablind Tdollablind 26-30, M Jun 13, 2015

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    Whats the point of me being alive

    if all i so is get screamed at for nothing be called a worthless piece of **** get stuck serving my mean *** mother the rest of my life and cant even have any friends i just want the pain to go away
    timeladynat timeladynat 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 12, 2014

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    CatacombsKitten CatacombsKitten 41-45, M 1 Response Feb 11, 2015

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    Life Is Pointless

    There really is no point to being here, call it a fatalistic ideation, but really being born to die is an oxymoron. It makes no sense and religion makes even less sense of our current state of existence. Put here by an all-loving Deity with a wrathful vengeance towards those who...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 30, 2013

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    It's hating my family

    for abandoning me, despising my friends for always leaving me, having to endure real loneliness, just being completely on my own through life and I'm so sick of these stupid idiots who act like talking about it will make things any better... They're always brainless 15-17 year...
    xXverlorenXx xXverlorenXx 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 22, 2015

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    I can not stand being alive

    and aware. I am so angry that I have to deal with being alive and dealing with all the bullshit little tasks that make up life. I love my husband and my family so much that I can't fathom the idea of killing myself and destroying them all. Especially since my husbands best...
    Smilesforscience Smilesforscience 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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    i just want it over with.

    right now. its too much.
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M 2 Responses May 24, 2015

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    No Such Thing As 100%

    Same story as the rest of the posts, except I'm not a kid who just got dumped or a high-schooler trying to make it to graduation. I'm 44 years old and I've hated life since I was 18. I'm NOT afraid of death and have attempted suicide a few times. I've successfully killed myself...
    noneofyourbusinesspal noneofyourbusinesspal 41-45 2 Responses Sep 21, 2012

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    It makes no sense. I don't

    even live for myself. I live to make my parents proud, to keep friends/sibling company, to hand money to schools, to make money for companies. There's nothing here for me.
    PendulEmPlum PendulEmPlum 18-21, F 2 Responses May 23, 2015

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    lonelybutfriendly lonelybutfriendly 18-21, F 2 Responses May 23, 2015

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    You know, I'm getting really tired of the

    constant drag that is life. I'm honestly getting sick of it. There's not enough good to outweigh the bad and I've had enough bad attacking me lately. I hate highschool to no end its a flawed and ridiculous system. I'm failing just about all my classes and I hear everyone around...
    Mrmanaphy Mrmanaphy 18-21 4 Responses Apr 9, 2015

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    To be honest everything seems meaningless.

    I can choose not to be here. I dint want to be here. Everything is a matter of choice so what's wrong with me opting out?
    jevhan jevhan 22-25, M 3 Responses May 24, 2015

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    ksnowman ksnowman 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 15, 2015

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    I'm Just Tired Of It All ~

    I woke up sad today and yesterday and the day before and I'm sick of it. I'm tired of crying, of feeling lonely, of feeling depressed, and of cutting. I'm tired of it all. I don't see the point of living like this. I want my life to end. I want a truck to run me over, killing me...
    lilgiglzz lilgiglzz 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 21, 2012

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    I hate how my life is.

    I hate my life I want someone to understand me totally and love me . I want this person as described to be my true friend and I CANNOT find such a friend. I hate it. I cannot do what I want . I missed the fun in my teenage years . I am so so severely demonically oppressed .
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow 16-17, F Apr 14, 2015

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    Developed PTSD at 13

    and since 16 I have been feeling this constantly. I've matured, I would never act on the thoughts but in a way they are what help me get to sleep at night.
    attsverige attsverige 22-25, M 1 Response May 23, 2015

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    I can't remember a day

    that I wasn't aware of the emptiness inside. First g/friend; first car; getting married; having a child; some books; a few friends: all these things brought some temporary happiness, but never joy. The great, dark emptiness and sense of futility is still there. Best to all, Paul...
    small5paul small5paul 51-55, M Dec 3, 2015

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    I've Always Hated Living

    As a kid, I was the happiest kid in the world, I think. We started moving around a lot after 1st Grade and we moved for the last time right before 6th grade. From 6th grade on I hated life. I didn't know you could consistently hate breathing for 10 years straight. I joined the...
    CyRxJustin CyRxJustin 22-25 2 Responses Apr 11, 2011

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    Done

    I am counting down the days and wishing for a future that I don't want. I am shattered and I wish that I could just die without a plan and without using something to kill myself with. Each piece of myself dropping on the ground. I look at my life in tears and wish that I could...
    RavenWolf RavenWolf 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 28, 2012

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    And I've Woken Up...Again :(

    Now I lay me down to sleep I beg the night my life to keep Find I've not died before I wake I'll tempt the day my life to take. 32 years old. So past teen angst. This is **** pointless. Not so much depressed as I am really pissed with being burdened by existence. Suicide is...
    SundaysMourning SundaysMourning 31-35 2 Responses Sep 4, 2013

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    I know it's hard right now,

    I know you want to just give in because it seems easier. But it's not, being alive is one of the most painful experiences of our existence. Yet being alive can bring our existence happiness and love. to get that you must hold on. Hold on with both hands and never let go. The...
    gaminggirl97 gaminggirl97 18-21, F May 23, 2015

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    I sometimes think about having a little

    barbacue inside the garage. Close the windows, bring the grill in. Fire up the charcoal. Sit down in a chair with music on. Maybe a beer or two till I pass out.
    sadandpoor87 sadandpoor87 26-30, F Jun 9, 2015

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    Alone Is No Way to Live

    i am so sick and tired, burnt out and frustrated over having to do everything alone. i have no family support due to a traumatic family and being in that family did nothing to establish relationships with extended family. today i am not in touch with any extended family and haven...
    tm3245 tm3245 51-55 May 27, 2009

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    moorejt84 moorejt84 31-35, M 2 Responses Jun 18, 2015

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    Why Am I Even Alive?

    everyday is so painful for me. it takes too much energy just to wake up. i have so much to do and just cant seem to get anything done. i f-ing hate being alive. i have so many worries. i cant take it anymore. just got my first car. i thought id be happy after that. but nope, not...
    imallihave imallihave 22-25, F Aug 23, 2011

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    Why Do I Think This Way?

    Im a very unhappy person. I wish I could turn back time and choose differently. I am not sociable and hate being forced to be sociable. I enjoy my space, time alone, my beliefs, and just living in my own thoughts. I loathe having to be someone Im not just because of appearance...
    SEARCHINGME SEARCHINGME 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 19, 2012

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    Its really just one ****-storm

    after another. Thats pretty much life summed up. Please let me die. I can't stand being alive anymore. If god was real and had and ******* kind of mercy AT ALL I'd be dead. I hate being alive, I hate it hate it hate it. Someone please kill me. I am such a **** up ALL THE TIME. I...
    mysteryhatcat mysteryhatcat 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 17, 2013

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    I dislike talking about this sort of thing.

    I suppose it is because it makes me feel weak, I don't know. I have not felt right since I was really little. I have been anxious, regretful, and heavy-of-heart for as long as I can remember. It grew much more somber and grave when I hit adolescence, and it has been with me ever...
    jord4567 jord4567 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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