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I Hate Being Alone With My Thoughts

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    Confusion

    When alone with my thoughts they wonder. I can start out thinking of a list of some hardware for repairs, then end up with thoughts of remodeling a room to make a loving wife happy. I can go from the thoughts of making a list of flower seeds to make the lawn look nice, to the...
    oldfarmguy oldfarmguy 61-65, M 2 Responses Jun 9, 2011

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    Hollow Shell

    I hate being alone. Whenever i am my mind wanders, and not to the usual 'happy place' as some people call it, but to every mistake and failure I have ever made. It eats away at my soul , taking a little peice of my happiness as it goes. If I'm left alone too long i become a...
    CyanideKisses CyanideKisses 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 3, 2009

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    .....

    I live in a four bedroom house alll alone. I turn my music up so I don't get to deep in tought. I think that is pretty much the only thing that saves me some days.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 30, 2009

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    Even More Confounded Confusion

    I posted this on my blog, but I also felt I should post it here for those that may never find and read my blog. YOU are not alone. Whats next? Nothing lasts, everything passes. In all things the words ring, this too shall pass. Things happen during a lifetime. Some bring pain...
    oldfarmguy oldfarmguy 61-65, M 2 Responses May 30, 2012

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    On The Trail

    I ride and race mountain bikes. To train for this requires that I spend a long time riding my bike on an often deserted trail. When I am totally alone at home , I usually listen to music while doing homework and when I'm done I watch TV or play videogames. When I'm on a bicycle 5...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 12, 2012

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    This is the worst for me.

    That's when I think of every horrible thing I've been trying to forget my whole life. I love when people can make me forget about these horrible things.
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F Dec 16, 2014

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    But There Is Some Humor

    I'm a thinker. I like to learn and then I like to think about what I learn to decide for myself how to deal with different things. Well, being alone there is no way to bounce ideas off of someone to see if they sound right or even get a different perspective from someone else...
    oldfarmguy oldfarmguy 61-65, M Mar 29, 2011

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    How do you run away from the things

    that are in your head?
    SunshineAnderson13 SunshineAnderson13 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 16, 2014

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    Being Alone Sucks

    I wake up at like 6. Dads already gone to work, mom and brother are still asleep, leaving me downstairs ...... Alone. Me by myself with my thoughts. I could have happy thoughts one moment ..... Then it could change to crappy thoughts..... Then that could quickly change into...
    stripesANDsunshine stripesANDsunshine 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 14, 2008

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    Alone Could Be The Only Way

    Sometimes being alone with thought leads you into a deep chasm that leads to only more thought. I've had an unsettling thought recently that has left me in just such a place. It's a lonely place. A deep hole with vast caves and dark tunnels that seem to lead in many directions...
    oldfarmguy oldfarmguy 61-65, M 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    It isnt that I have bad thoughts,

    its just that I think about to much when im alone. And start worrying about meaningless things.
    Disqualify Disqualify 16-17, M Dec 18, 2014

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    Think

    Me, generally, I'm an extremely happy person! I'm always smiling and loving and enjoying my life. I love life, it's amazing. I love being around people and people love being around me so it works out. But when I am left alone, especially at night. I don't know something comes...
    coolkitten1 coolkitten1 13-15 2 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    It Drives Me Insane

    I need something to preoccupy my brain. I can't stand just sitting there alone with my thoughts. I'm not one for watching tv but if it can stop me from thinking too much then I do it. When I'm alone my mind starts to wander into very bad places. I start to think of the negative...
    HanaNoMizu HanaNoMizu 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 21, 2009

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    My Tornado Brain

    My mind depresses me far too often. I am much more negative than I am positive. Even though I am very successful and driven to achieve, I am very hard on myself so I never get to appreciate it. Its so difficult because my thoughts on my failures and past never stop. Being with...
    shesokay shesokay 18-21 May 17, 2012

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    I honestly hate my thoughts sometimes more

    than anything in this world and wish there was something I could do to get rid of them. I can go through a normal day and some annoying random thought can go through my head. I honestly wish my thoughts would leave me the **** alone because sometimes they can be extremely...
    michael198121 michael198121 26-30 Sep 10, 2014

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    My Medicine.

    Lately, my girlfriend and I have been going through some problems. Not between ourselves, but the world. Her mother does not like me, and has taken away any means of communication from my girlfriend, and moved her 239 miles away from me. I suffer from Anxiety, and without her I...
    nofaithinman nofaithinman 18-21, M Jan 30, 2013

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    New Years Eve

    people say demons walk the earth on halloween, i say they are wrong.... true demons the ones that possess power to hurt us walk the earth around new years eve. i lay here in the dark my december playing and they swing at me.... for 25 seconds i forget my age and believe that next...
    sashafierce sashafierce 31-35 1 Response Jan 2, 2009

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    My Mind Is Stuck On Repeat.

    Well it's 4am again. Surprise I am terrified to put my phone/computer down or turn the tv off, if only someone would talk me to sleep. I have these horrible feelings of guilt I can't control but lately I can't stop replaying this horrible image from my head. It was only a few...
    MissMay06 MissMay06 22-25 Nov 26, 2013

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    I started dating this kid who's really nice

    and good to me. We didn't have sex until a week after he asked me to be his gf . Let's just say I was very disappointed with the sex, now I'm kinda turned off . I thought I was doing the right thing by waiting, but now I'm stuck with someone that I'm turned off intimately with...
    leaom22 leaom22 22-25, F Oct 12, 2014

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    I Don't Want To Think Something Bad

    I have spent a lot of my young years alone. It lead me to be a bitter sad person with bad intentions. I use to self harm and think the worst of myself. Well, I have done a complete turn around on those actions and feelings. However I still have a small bad thought when I spend to...
    Tara277 Tara277 26-30, F Nov 19, 2012

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    Lonely And Alone

    Was sitting alone again on the porch last evening enjoying the warmth at the end of the day and a lingering thought returned to my mind. I will die lonely and alone... Was mowing the huge lawn before the rain came today. While I rode around looking at the half kept flower...
    oldfarmguy oldfarmguy 61-65, M 2 Responses Jul 23, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    Being alone never seemed to bother me until we had to put my dog down in December. I always got excited for when my parents would go away on business and I got the house to myself...
    lezbihonest93 lezbihonest93 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 10

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    Being depressed for 5-6 years and trapped in your own thoughts everyday/night at home with no friends or anyone to talk to takes a lot out of me..though I find ways to keep myself...
    Treybased Treybased 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 11

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    Well there is good times to be left alone but I'm usually left alone every weekend which starts out good because I get the house to myself. But as the weekend goes on It gets...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 16

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    So much rain today! Can you say boring? Lol Entertainment is everything that isn't outside. It's the type of day where a good video game match up would be cool. Or if you took...
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 12

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    can someone please txt me I'm a bisexual guy who likes to have clean chats but not afraid to have fun
    pilot2022 pilot2022 13-15, M Feb 18

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    When I turned 9 I started to name my cuts and scars. I used to talk to them about what I was going through, and the sorrow I was feeling... One is a cut along the top of my thigh...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 25

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    I always break their hearts.
    SarahChevalier SarahChevalier 16-17, F Feb 16

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    seriously, I know I'm not that good looking, but I just hate being alone. I atleast want a best friend to talk to :(
    izzyx15 izzyx15 13-15, F 50 Responses Feb 7

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    It's hard to express emotions and not carried away in the emotions. It's hard to talk to people when you are talking about something that might hurt the other person, and then in...
    redfreckledface redfreckledface 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    I enjoy being alone. I am able to entertain myself in ways I can't when I'm around others. But I hate being lonely and left or forgotten. That causes a person to be lonely.
    planter715 planter715 51-55, M 4 days ago

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    I love being alone, walking, on the bus, lisening to music or with My phone, i love it. But on work i have to be 1 hour alone, without music or phone, just alone with myself, And...
    Sorrowonmyheart Sorrowonmyheart 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I don't like being single. I hate coming home with no one to look foreword to seeing me or vice versa. I hate going to bed alone and I hate taking care of my own "needs"
    myshell91 myshell91 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I don't know how it's possible. I have a side that loves being alone, but another that wishes to be more social. It's so strange.
    MarioT96 MarioT96 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I hate being insecure my confidence level goes 100-0 real quick. Nobody knows but me and only two of my friends who are twin sisters, everyday I cry myself to sleep because of how...
    Hopeisalie Hopeisalie 13-15, F Feb 22

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    After a long day at work, coming back to your room, only to find your roomate and her friends talking...and you have to talk and chitchat, when you really want to shut the door and...
    starlit11 starlit11 22-25, F Feb 20

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    I hate being sober! I was a functional, daily opiate user for just over 15 years...half of my life. I decided on my own, mainly out of frustration , to do up the rest of my morph...
    shaybaby26 shaybaby26 26-30, F a week ago

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    Sometimes I really feel as if I'm better off being alone....not relationship wise. Me being in college these past 3 years showed me who and how I was. I didn't really realize it...
    vadupree vadupree 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I need to be alone i need some time for myself away from people to find myself to reflect on things and to get myself on track I do appreciate people who are kind and try to help...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 11

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    I hate being sick My little sister got me and my mother sick And we are both suffering Meh I hate being sick
    Aroura666 Aroura666 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 10

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    I hate being disabled I hate being lonely
    silveroo silveroo 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 22

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    After another couple grand for a lawyer - I am overwhelmed with the situation with the ex & children! I do really "hate" being a "stepmom!" My boyfriend was with a woman with 3...
    patientlove patientlove 22-25 1 Response Feb 7

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    Idk why I hate being touched, I just grew up that way. Like when a family member comes up to try to hug me and give me a kiss, I struggle to get out of it and I absolutely hate it...
    Greywolf205 Greywolf205 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 8

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    I am 27 years old male. i am very afraid of the idea that I will never find my true love and being alone for the rest of my life. I have dated a few women, but they don;t work out...
    manesh515 manesh515 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 12

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