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I Hate Being Alone With My Thoughts

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    I Don't Want To Think Something Bad

    I have spent a lot of my young years alone. It lead me to be a bitter sad person with bad intentions. I use to self harm and think the worst of myself. Well, I have done a complete turn around on those actions and feelings. However I still have a small bad thought when I spend to...
    Tara277 Tara277 26-30, F Nov 19, 2012

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    Lonely And Alone

    Was sitting alone again on the porch last evening enjoying the warmth at the end of the day and a lingering thought returned to my mind. I will die lonely and alone... Was mowing the huge lawn before the rain came today. While I rode around looking at the half kept flower...
    oldfarmguy oldfarmguy 56-60, M 2 Responses Jul 23, 2012

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    It Drives Me Insane

    I need something to preoccupy my brain. I can't stand just sitting there alone with my thoughts. I'm not one for watching tv but if it can stop me from thinking too much then I do it. When I'm alone my mind starts to wander into very bad places. I start to think of the negative...
    HanaNoMizu HanaNoMizu 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 21, 2009

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    Hollow Shell

    I hate being alone. Whenever i am my mind wanders, and not to the usual 'happy place' as some people call it, but to every mistake and failure I have ever made. It eats away at my soul , taking a little peice of my happiness as it goes. If I'm left alone too long i become a...
    CyanideKisses CyanideKisses 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 3, 2009

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    New Years Eve

    people say demons walk the earth on halloween, i say they are wrong.... true demons the ones that possess power to hurt us walk the earth around new years eve. i lay here in the dark my december playing and they swing at me.... for 25 seconds i forget my age and believe that next...
    sashafierce sashafierce 31-35 1 Response Jan 2, 2009

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    Alone Could Be The Only Way

    Sometimes being alone with thought leads you into a deep chasm that leads to only more thought. I've had an unsettling thought recently that has left me in just such a place. It's a lonely place. A deep hole with vast caves and dark tunnels that seem to lead in many directions...
    oldfarmguy oldfarmguy 56-60, M 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    I honestly hate my thoughts sometimes more

    than anything in this world and wish there was something I could do to get rid of them. I can go through a normal day and some annoying random thought can go through my head. I honestly wish my thoughts would leave me the **** alone because sometimes they can be extremely...
    michael198121 michael198121 26-30 Sep 10

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    On The Trail

    I ride and race mountain bikes. To train for this requires that I spend a long time riding my bike on an often deserted trail. When I am totally alone at home , I usually listen to music while doing homework and when I'm done I watch TV or play videogames. When I'm on a bicycle 5...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 12, 2012

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    Confusion

    When alone with my thoughts they wonder. I can start out thinking of a list of some hardware for repairs, then end up with thoughts of remodeling a room to make a loving wife happy. I can go from the thoughts of making a list of flower seeds to make the lawn look nice, to the...
    oldfarmguy oldfarmguy 56-60, M 2 Responses Jun 9, 2011

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    Being Alone Sucks

    I wake up at like 6. Dads already gone to work, mom and brother are still asleep, leaving me downstairs ...... Alone. Me by myself with my thoughts. I could have happy thoughts one moment ..... Then it could change to crappy thoughts..... Then that could quickly change into...
    stripesANDsunshine stripesANDsunshine 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 14, 2008

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    But There Is Some Humor

    I'm a thinker. I like to learn and then I like to think about what I learn to decide for myself how to deal with different things. Well, being alone there is no way to bounce ideas off of someone to see if they sound right or even get a different perspective from someone else...
    oldfarmguy oldfarmguy 56-60, M Mar 29, 2011

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    Think

    Me, generally, I'm an extremely happy person! I'm always smiling and loving and enjoying my life. I love life, it's amazing. I love being around people and people love being around me so it works out. But when I am left alone, especially at night. I don't know something comes...
    coolkitten1 coolkitten1 13-15 2 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    How do you run away from the things

    that are in your head?
    miseriae316 miseriae316 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 16

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    This is the worst for me.

    That's when I think of every horrible thing I've been trying to forget my whole life. I love when people can make me forget about these horrible things.
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F Dec 16

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    My Medicine.

    Lately, my girlfriend and I have been going through some problems. Not between ourselves, but the world. Her mother does not like me, and has taken away any means of communication from my girlfriend, and moved her 239 miles away from me. I suffer from Anxiety, and without her I...
    nofaithinman nofaithinman 18-21, M Jan 30, 2013

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    It isnt that I have bad thoughts,

    its just that I think about to much when im alone. And start worrying about meaningless things.
    Disqualify Disqualify 16-17, M Dec 18

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    I started dating this kid who's really nice

    and good to me. We didn't have sex until a week after he asked me to be his gf . Let's just say I was very disappointed with the sex, now I'm kinda turned off . I thought I was doing the right thing by waiting, but now I'm stuck with someone that I'm turned off intimately with...
    leaom22 leaom22 22-25, F Oct 12

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    My Tornado Brain

    My mind depresses me far too often. I am much more negative than I am positive. Even though I am very successful and driven to achieve, I am very hard on myself so I never get to appreciate it. Its so difficult because my thoughts on my failures and past never stop. Being with...
    shesokay shesokay 18-21 May 17, 2012

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    Even More Confounded Confusion

    I posted this on my blog, but I also felt I should post it here for those that may never find and read my blog. YOU are not alone. Whats next? Nothing lasts, everything passes. In all things the words ring, this too shall pass. Things happen during a lifetime. Some bring pain...
    oldfarmguy oldfarmguy 56-60, M 2 Responses May 30, 2012

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    .....

    I live in a four bedroom house alll alone. I turn my music up so I don't get to deep in tought. I think that is pretty much the only thing that saves me some days.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 30, 2009

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    My Mind Is Stuck On Repeat.

    Well it's 4am again. Surprise I am terrified to put my phone/computer down or turn the tv off, if only someone would talk me to sleep. I have these horrible feelings of guilt I can't control but lately I can't stop replaying this horrible image from my head. It was only a few...
    MissMay06 MissMay06 22-25 Nov 26, 2013

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    I moved to Texas 12 years ago, and rarely have I spent the holidays alone. I have traveled to see family or been with friends but I still feel alone or like I am crashing someone...
    ballen0420 ballen0420 36-40, M Dec 7

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    I hate being single around the holidays ugh
    adeechloe adeechloe 13-15, F Nov 27

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    I don't care how much you'd say you want to left alone I'd rather be with someone than alone by far
    Chewbacca47 Chewbacca47 16-17, M Dec 9

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    I am so sorry about this, but I feeling very alone and sad right now. If anyone is online and sees this please help me. I don't want to go something I will regret. I am sorry.
    Scaredmonster Scaredmonster 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    I'm so bored of being bored because being bored is boring. -,- Can someone please talk to me *puppy face*
    RebeccaMontero RebeccaMontero 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 6

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    The first time since I was 19. Oh well...that's life
    Josh1978 Josh1978 36-40, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Is it bad that I'm like not even excited for Christmas? Family communication really isn't my thing so..
    ForeverKittenn ForeverKittenn 13-15, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Wish I had someone to cuddle me and give me a cold wash cloth. Never thought I'd say it but I miss my mum. Probly busy drinking somewhere.
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    It's nice when I'm left to my thoughts. I feel like they swirl around me like butterflies. I touch them, feel them, understand them, and then I'm at peace. Sometimes they are a...
    alric alric 16-17, F Nov 29

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    I like my little bubble I made, where all my favorite things are and I like being alone with them for a long time before eventually socializing
    emilylightning16 emilylightning16 22-25, F Dec 8

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    Today I went on a walk by myself. It may not seem much to some people, but it's a big deal for me. My dad was visiting my stepmom's family with her, my boyfriend was busy (see...
    LolaSparks LolaSparks 22-25, F 8 hrs ago

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    So being alone is something I love yet hate? I like to be alone because it'll leave me to my own thoughts, but the silent kills as well where my overthinking just jumps in. So...
    daniebravo daniebravo 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 2

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    "I wish I had a twin!", "If I pinch you will your twin feel it?", and "I like you better than your twin." All of those things have been asked/told to me in the past week alone...
    sarahjohnsony sarahjohnsony 18-21, F Dec 8

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    I hate being ignored but I also like being alone sometimes . I think we all hate being ignored but like alone time also
    Runawaywithme123 Runawaywithme123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 15

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    I have my own children and I hate being a step mom! I know that doesn't sound right, but that's the way I feel. I met my partner about over a year ago. We've had a rough...
    Jeshayna Jeshayna 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 13

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    I really hate being a stepmom...which knowing me you would find so hard to believe. Due to having endometriosis and losing the only baby I ever conceived to a miscarriage caused by...
    Maylissa Maylissa 41-45 2 Responses Dec 15

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    I have a pretty demanding job, young child and a partner who barely comes near me despite the effort I make. When I'm alone I feel so much better like the stress just vanishes and...
    friendlygent friendlygent 26-30, M 2 Responses Dec 8

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    I hate being poor... I hate it when I have to save my money for my next week allowance... I hate it when we don't have any television or dvd...I hate it when we have no money to...
    kiendy123 kiendy123 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 1

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    I hate him. I'm in pain. I hate being rejected. I hate being told I'm not good enough. I hate being taken advantage of. I hate him. I hate feeling this way, like my head is about...
    classicslove classicslove 26-30, F 11 Responses Dec 2

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    The only thing to me that is worst than the actual loneliness itself is the scary thought that eventually overtime I'll finally get comfortable with the idea of being alone...
    SweetcakesJr SweetcakesJr 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 11

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    My husband decided two years ago to get back into law enforcement after being out of it for many years. He wasn't a cop when I married him. I fully supported his decision to go...
    tulippilut tulippilut 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I had lived a very tough life. We are poor. I encountered bullying, discrimination, have been mocked and my father hates me. He even denied that I am his daughter and he seldom...
    kiendy123 kiendy123 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 8

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    Like all of you I hate being a stepmom. My husband and I have been together for 4 years and have two children together. He also has a daughter who is 12 with a woman he only dated...
    LisaC617 LisaC617 26-30, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I absolutely hate being lied to. I was seeing this boy and he told a really severe lie. We'll we were seeing each other for a bit. We decided to take things to the next step. I...
    Hiimamyimdead Hiimamyimdead 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 30

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    I Being Alone Well, I guess he'll make it official tomorrow. Hubby went berserk because he broke into my laptop and found an email I had sent to an ex boyfriend I ran into here...
    zanyzoey zanyzoey 36-40, F 7 Responses Dec 7

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    I'm terrified of being alone, but the worst part is that I know I deserve to be =/
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 11

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    I do hate being ditched.. I hate the fact that I still do care for the person who ditched me for no reason.. hell yeah, I want to stop caring but not able to :/
    amazingmoment90 amazingmoment90 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 18