I Hate Being Alone With My Thoughts

Was sitting alone again on the porch last evening enjoying the warmth at the end of the day and a lingering thought returned to my mind.
I will die lonely and alone...

Was mowing the huge lawn before the rain came today. While I rode...

I need something to preoccupy my brain. I can't stand just sitting there alone with my thoughts. I'm not one for watching tv but if it can stop me from thinking too much then I do it. When I'm alone my mind starts to wander into very...

Me, generally, I'm an extremely happy person! I'm always smiling and loving and enjoying my life. I love life, it's amazing. I love being around people and people love being around me so it works out. But when I am left alone...

I hate being alone. Whenever i am my mind wanders, and not to the usual 'happy place' as some people call it, but to every mistake and failure I have ever made. It eats away at my soul , taking a little peice of my happiness as it goes...

I live in a four bedroom house alll alone. I turn my music up so I don't get to deep in tought. I think that is pretty much the only thing that saves me some days.

Sometimes being alone with thought leads you into a deep chasm that leads to only more thought. I've had an unsettling thought recently that has left me in just such a place.

It's a lonely place.
A deep hole with vast caves and dark...

I posted this on my blog, but I also felt I should post it here for those that may never find and read my blog.
YOU are not alone.

Whats next?

Nothing lasts, everything passes. In all things the words ring, this too shall pass...

I wake up at like 6. Dads already gone to work, mom and brother are still asleep, leaving me downstairs ...... Alone. Me by myself with my thoughts.
I could have happy thoughts one moment .....
Then it could change to crappy thoughts...

I ride and race mountain bikes. To train for this requires that I spend a long time riding my bike on an often deserted trail. When I am totally alone at home , I usually listen to music while doing homework and when I'm done I watch TV...

My mind depresses me far too often. I am much more negative than I am positive. Even though I am very successful and driven to achieve, I am very hard on myself so I never get to appreciate it. Its so difficult because my thoughts on my...

When alone with my thoughts they wonder.
I can start out thinking of a list of some hardware for repairs, then end up with thoughts of remodeling a room to make a loving wife happy.
I can go from the thoughts of making a list of flower...

I'm a thinker. I like to learn and then I like to think about what I learn to decide for myself how to deal with different things.
Well, being alone there is no way to bounce ideas off of someone to see if they sound right or even get a...

Lately, my girlfriend and I have been going through some problems. Not between ourselves, but the world.
Her mother does not like me, and has taken away any means of communication from my girlfriend, and moved her 239 miles away from me...

people say demons walk the earth on halloween, i say they are wrong.... true demons the ones that possess power to hurt us walk the earth around new years eve. i lay here in the dark my december playing and they swing at me.... for 25...

I have spent a lot of my young years alone. It lead me to be a bitter sad person with bad intentions. I use to self harm and think the worst of myself. Well, I have done a complete turn around on those actions and feelings. However I...