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I Hate Being Alone With My Thoughts

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    This is the worst for me.

    That's when I think of every horrible thing I've been trying to forget my whole life. I love when people can make me forget about these horrible things.
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F Dec 16, 2014

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    Hollow Shell

    I hate being alone. Whenever i am my mind wanders, and not to the usual 'happy place' as some people call it, but to every mistake and failure I have ever made. It eats away at my soul , taking a little peice of my happiness as it goes. If I'm left alone too long i become a...
    CyanideKisses CyanideKisses 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 3, 2009

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    Being Alone Sucks

    I wake up at like 6. Dads already gone to work, mom and brother are still asleep, leaving me downstairs ...... Alone. Me by myself with my thoughts. I could have happy thoughts one moment ..... Then it could change to crappy thoughts..... Then that could quickly change into...
    stripesANDsunshine stripesANDsunshine 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 14, 2008

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    I live in a four bedroom house alll alone. I turn my music up so I don't get to deep in tought. I think that is pretty much the only thing that saves me some days.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 30, 2009

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    My Tornado Brain

    My mind depresses me far too often. I am much more negative than I am positive. Even though I am very successful and driven to achieve, I am very hard on myself so I never get to appreciate it. Its so difficult because my thoughts on my failures and past never stop. Being with...
    shesokay shesokay 18-21 May 17, 2012

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    Even More Confounded Confusion

    I posted this on my blog, but I also felt I should post it here for those that may never find and read my blog. YOU are not alone. Whats next? Nothing lasts, everything passes. In all things the words ring, this too shall pass. Things happen during a lifetime. Some bring pain...
    oldfarmguy oldfarmguy 61-65, M 2 Responses May 30, 2012

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    New Years Eve

    people say demons walk the earth on halloween, i say they are wrong.... true demons the ones that possess power to hurt us walk the earth around new years eve. i lay here in the dark my december playing and they swing at me.... for 25 seconds i forget my age and believe that next...
    sashafierce sashafierce 31-35 1 Response Jan 2, 2009

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    But There Is Some Humor

    I'm a thinker. I like to learn and then I like to think about what I learn to decide for myself how to deal with different things. Well, being alone there is no way to bounce ideas off of someone to see if they sound right or even get a different perspective from someone else...
    oldfarmguy oldfarmguy 61-65, M Mar 29, 2011

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    My Mind Is Stuck On Repeat.

    Well it's 4am again. Surprise I am terrified to put my phone/computer down or turn the tv off, if only someone would talk me to sleep. I have these horrible feelings of guilt I can't control but lately I can't stop replaying this horrible image from my head. It was only a few...
    MissMay06 MissMay06 22-25 Nov 26, 2013

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    It Drives Me Insane

    I need something to preoccupy my brain. I can't stand just sitting there alone with my thoughts. I'm not one for watching tv but if it can stop me from thinking too much then I do it. When I'm alone my mind starts to wander into very bad places. I start to think of the negative...
    HanaNoMizu HanaNoMizu 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 21, 2009

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    I started dating this kid who's really nice

    and good to me. We didn't have sex until a week after he asked me to be his gf . Let's just say I was very disappointed with the sex, now I'm kinda turned off . I thought I was doing the right thing by waiting, but now I'm stuck with someone that I'm turned off intimately with...
    leaom22 leaom22 22-25, F Oct 12, 2014

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    Confusion

    When alone with my thoughts they wonder. I can start out thinking of a list of some hardware for repairs, then end up with thoughts of remodeling a room to make a loving wife happy. I can go from the thoughts of making a list of flower seeds to make the lawn look nice, to the...
    oldfarmguy oldfarmguy 61-65, M 2 Responses Jun 9, 2011

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    Alone Could Be The Only Way

    Sometimes being alone with thought leads you into a deep chasm that leads to only more thought. I've had an unsettling thought recently that has left me in just such a place. It's a lonely place. A deep hole with vast caves and dark tunnels that seem to lead in many directions...
    oldfarmguy oldfarmguy 61-65, M 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    It isnt that I have bad thoughts,

    its just that I think about to much when im alone. And start worrying about meaningless things.
    Disqualify Disqualify 16-17, M Dec 18, 2014

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    My Medicine.

    Lately, my girlfriend and I have been going through some problems. Not between ourselves, but the world. Her mother does not like me, and has taken away any means of communication from my girlfriend, and moved her 239 miles away from me. I suffer from Anxiety, and without her I...
    nofaithinman nofaithinman 18-21, M Jan 30, 2013

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    Lonely And Alone

    Was sitting alone again on the porch last evening enjoying the warmth at the end of the day and a lingering thought returned to my mind. I will die lonely and alone... Was mowing the huge lawn before the rain came today. While I rode around looking at the half kept flower...
    oldfarmguy oldfarmguy 61-65, M 2 Responses Jul 23, 2012

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    I honestly hate my thoughts sometimes more

    than anything in this world and wish there was something I could do to get rid of them. I can go through a normal day and some annoying random thought can go through my head. I honestly wish my thoughts would leave me the **** alone because sometimes they can be extremely...
    michael198121 michael198121 26-30 Sep 10, 2014

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    I Don't Want To Think Something Bad

    I have spent a lot of my young years alone. It lead me to be a bitter sad person with bad intentions. I use to self harm and think the worst of myself. Well, I have done a complete turn around on those actions and feelings. However I still have a small bad thought when I spend to...
    Tara277 Tara277 26-30, F Nov 19, 2012

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    On The Trail

    I ride and race mountain bikes. To train for this requires that I spend a long time riding my bike on an often deserted trail. When I am totally alone at home , I usually listen to music while doing homework and when I'm done I watch TV or play videogames. When I'm on a bicycle 5...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 12, 2012

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    Think

    Me, generally, I'm an extremely happy person! I'm always smiling and loving and enjoying my life. I love life, it's amazing. I love being around people and people love being around me so it works out. But when I am left alone, especially at night. I don't know something comes...
    coolkitten1 coolkitten1 13-15 2 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    How do you run away from the things

    that are in your head?
    SunshineAnderson13 SunshineAnderson13 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 16, 2014

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    every time I'm alone, my thoughts get to me. I doubt myself and hate myself more and more and it sucks
    JayJay911 JayJay911 16-17, M Jan 1

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    It's not like I don't have friends I do have many but then I prefer being alone more than having human interactions most of the time. I don't know but I'm kinda lazy to set up...
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    I'm scared to get close, and I hate being alone, I long for that feeling to not feel at all, the higher I get, the lower I'll sink, I can't drown my demons they know how to swim...
    mcrxforever mcrxforever 13-15, F Jan 8

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    Depressed miserable another sleepless night. I can honestly say I didn't know what I was in for. My husband had been divorced from his first wife for three years before we met and...
    annacoy annacoy 31-35, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I hate being young completely. I want facial hair, I want to look older. I am sick and tired of people thinking I am 14 or 16 years old. I want people to think I am 18 or maybe...
    whatupdoc54 whatupdoc54 18-21, M 18 mins ago

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    It's not in any way the same as being alone. Being alone is just being isolated. Being lonely is wanting someone near, but you still have no one. I'm tired of feeling alone and...
    SnowyBirdie SnowyBirdie 13-15, M 4 days ago

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    So, A few years back, I didn't really care about music at all. In fourth grade we wrote a yearbook and when it came to writing favorite bands, I left the field blank because i...
    JurassicTimes JurassicTimes 18-21 1 Response Jan 12

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    i love being alone.. but i hate being lonely.
    unknownana unknownana 18-21, F Jan 8

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    I like being alone, I hate being lonely.
    Lovelife090994 Lovelife090994 18-21, M Jan 24

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    So tired of this empty bed Waking up in the middle of the night alone Wanting so bad to feel the warmth of a body Laying close to me and hearing them breath So sick of turning to...
    zanyzoey zanyzoey 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 10

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    Well technically I hate having a male body as there's really nothing male about me other than, I love women. Where do I start with why I hate being male? 1) I hate being with...
    DawnR59 DawnR59 51-55, T 1 Response Jan 3

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    I'm someone who is really friendly, I don't really say no to a good time. I work hard, I try to be as talented as I can, and I do a lot of things but no one seems to care. I just...
    LusiusBlack LusiusBlack 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    I just hate being lied to, to me it's one of the worst things you can do to someone because that means that I or the other person being lied to can't trust you. Here's a little...
    ECESES ECESES 13-15, F Jan 1

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    I’m tired of being alone, no one to share my feelings with. I need a touch, a worm smile, sharing my emotions and honest conversation about whatever the moment is about at the...
    1KindBuddy 1KindBuddy 66-70, M Jan 3

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    One of the best things that I discovered while being alone is that you have a greater perception of things and people around you. You see them as they are, you observe their work...
    TheMisanthropeOtaku TheMisanthropeOtaku 18-21, M Jan 6

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    Honestly, I ******* hate being ignored. I think being ignored is one of the worse feelings. I hate when I message my friends, and they don't answer, and it shows that they actually...
    BananaSmoothiee BananaSmoothiee 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 10

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    Being alone is better than being hurt constantly. It's better than being lied to. It's better than falling for someone that don't really want you. At least when you're alone the...
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F 5 Responses Jan 14

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    Maybe I shouldn't post in this experience. I don't hate being a stepmom. Not anymore anyway. I don't hate being a stepmom because I am OVER being a stepmom. The "children" are...
    sueselala sueselala 51-55, F 3 Responses Jan 13

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    I don't know where to start with this post, especially not if I don't want to be seen as ungrateful or spoiled. Maybe I am, I don't know. I'm ranting because I hate being...
    artist40 artist40 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17

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    I like being alone but i Just wanna be alone with a significant other..
    internallybroken internallybroken 16-17, M 17 hrs ago

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    I really hate being a black female. It's really hard to know whether a guy likes black girls. People always ask if your hair is "real". If you get mad or upset, boys think you're...
    Theconfused1 Theconfused1 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    Being alone doesn't necessarily mean that you are lonely. Sometimes I'll be alone, but still feel a sense of companionship. And sometimes I'll be among among others, and that's...
    rumblingheart rumblingheart 18-21, F Jan 24

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    I love being alone and like not hanging around other people because I feel comfortable enough to do things by and for myself, but the times I do get lonely I get kinda sad but then...
    jynx1 jynx1 18-21, F a week ago

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    I hate being lied to and i hate lying but it's a tricky paradox since sometimes lying is to protect someone or protect yourself but at the same time it can be morally taxing
    Horse10202 Horse10202 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 4

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    I'm in college, 3rd year, and I will admit I don't really know any people like that and I never tried to make an effort to. Sure I talk to others, but I've always been that one to...
    vadupree vadupree 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 10