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I Hate Being Alone With My Thoughts

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    I started dating this kid who's really nice

    and good to me. We didn't have sex until a week after he asked me to be his gf . Let's just say I was very disappointed with the sex, now I'm kinda turned off . I thought I was doing the right thing by waiting, but now I'm stuck with someone that I'm turned off intimately with...
    leaom22 leaom22 22-25, F Oct 12, 2014

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    New Years Eve

    people say demons walk the earth on halloween, i say they are wrong.... true demons the ones that possess power to hurt us walk the earth around new years eve. i lay here in the dark my december playing and they swing at me.... for 25 seconds i forget my age and believe that next...
    sashafierce sashafierce 31-35 1 Response Jan 2, 2009

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    especially these past few days.

    its getting to be too much.
    AriesRain AriesRain 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 7, 2015

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    One thought that I get often is

    why do I not cry as earlier .?Am I becoming hardened or is it due to age?I think I believed in people more when I was younger .I still do but I have second thoughts too.
    whitesunshine87 whitesunshine87 51-55, F 1 Response Jun 12, 2015

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    I honestly hate my thoughts sometimes more

    than anything in this world and wish there was something I could do to get rid of them. I can go through a normal day and some annoying random thought can go through my head. I honestly wish my thoughts would leave me the **** alone because sometimes they can be extremely...
    michael198121 michael198121 26-30 Sep 10, 2014

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    debonaireash debonaireash 18-21, M Dec 16, 2015

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    On The Trail

    I ride and race mountain bikes. To train for this requires that I spend a long time riding my bike on an often deserted trail. When I am totally alone at home , I usually listen to music while doing homework and when I'm done I watch TV or play videogames. When I'm on a bicycle 5...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 12, 2012

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    It Drives Me Insane

    I need something to preoccupy my brain. I can't stand just sitting there alone with my thoughts. I'm not one for watching tv but if it can stop me from thinking too much then I do it. When I'm alone my mind starts to wander into very bad places. I start to think of the negative...
    HanaNoMizu HanaNoMizu 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 21, 2009

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    There is nothing worse

    than talking about how shifty I am to myself.
    youcthrume youcthrume 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 14

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    My Medicine.

    Lately, my girlfriend and I have been going through some problems. Not between ourselves, but the world. Her mother does not like me, and has taken away any means of communication from my girlfriend, and moved her 239 miles away from me. I suffer from Anxiety, and without her I...
    nofaithinman nofaithinman 18-21, M Jan 30, 2013

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    Without my thoughts I don't exist,

    I have many, but but don't talk about. Them.
    gerold60 gerold60 61-65, M Aug 14, 2015

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    .....

    I live in a four bedroom house alll alone. I turn my music up so I don't get to deep in tought. I think that is pretty much the only thing that saves me some days.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 30, 2009

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    My Mind Is Stuck On Repeat.

    Well it's 4am again. Surprise I am terrified to put my phone/computer down or turn the tv off, if only someone would talk me to sleep. I have these horrible feelings of guilt I can't control but lately I can't stop replaying this horrible image from my head. It was only a few...
    MissMay06 MissMay06 22-25 Nov 26, 2013

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    I Don't Want To Think Something Bad

    I have spent a lot of my young years alone. It lead me to be a bitter sad person with bad intentions. I use to self harm and think the worst of myself. Well, I have done a complete turn around on those actions and feelings. However I still have a small bad thought when I spend to...
    Tara277 Tara277 26-30, F Nov 19, 2012

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    It's like all the things you repress thinking

    bout throughout the day come rushing in when you're alone and it is just too much to handle and start feeling low because everything is not so great in my head and it drives me crazy
    qeust24 qeust24 22-25, M Jun 11, 2015

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    I don't mind being alone,

    I just hate not being able to distract myself. It never ends well for me mentally if i am left with them.
    rhoswenv rhoswenv 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 6, 2015

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    Think

    Me, generally, I'm an extremely happy person! I'm always smiling and loving and enjoying my life. I love life, it's amazing. I love being around people and people love being around me so it works out. But when I am left alone, especially at night. I don't know something comes...
    coolkitten1 coolkitten1 13-15 2 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    I guess I can't keep running.

    no matter how good or bad my life is. .. it's just not possible to get away. no body's gonna feel your pain
    debonaireash debonaireash 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 19, 2015

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    As much as I hate being alone with my thoughts,

    I'm terrified to talk about certain things. I don't want to scare people away. I have certain people in my life that I trust, but I'm terrified of having them drop me once they hear the f*cked up thoughts in my head. I just don't know what to do anymore...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 27, 2015

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    This is the worst for me.

    That's when I think of every horrible thing I've been trying to forget my whole life. I love when people can make me forget about these horrible things.
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F Dec 16, 2014

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    master338 master338 22-25, M Jun 17, 2015

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    Hollow Shell

    I hate being alone. Whenever i am my mind wanders, and not to the usual 'happy place' as some people call it, but to every mistake and failure I have ever made. It eats away at my soul , taking a little peice of my happiness as it goes. If I'm left alone too long i become a...
    CyanideKisses CyanideKisses 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 3, 2009

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    and in that instant. I felt sick

    and disgusted at everything I had ever done. and suddenly, I worried about myself, my faith, my life, and my future... I don't know. but I'm scared. I don't know why, or when it'll end but... I'm scared, more so than ever. and I don't know why.
    debonaireash debonaireash 18-21, M Dec 19, 2015

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    How do you run away from the things

    that are in your head?
    Sunshineh13 Sunshineh13 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 16, 2014

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    How do you get yourself into these situations.

    how do you get yourself into these predicaments, how do you do it ? and more importantly, how will you get yourself out? Do you even want to? How will you do it. Come on Houdini. How will you get out. Can you get out ?
    debonaireash debonaireash 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 18, 2015

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    My Tornado Brain

    My mind depresses me far too often. I am much more negative than I am positive. Even though I am very successful and driven to achieve, I am very hard on myself so I never get to appreciate it. Its so difficult because my thoughts on my failures and past never stop. Being with...
    shesokay shesokay 18-21 May 17, 2012

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    Being Alone Sucks

    I wake up at like 6. Dads already gone to work, mom and brother are still asleep, leaving me downstairs ...... Alone. Me by myself with my thoughts. I could have happy thoughts one moment ..... Then it could change to crappy thoughts..... Then that could quickly change into...
    stripesANDsunshine stripesANDsunshine 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 14, 2008

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    It isnt that I have bad thoughts,

    its just that I think about to much when im alone. And start worrying about meaningless things.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 18, 2014

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