I Hate Drugs But Not How They Make Me Feel

addiction and learning to deal with it 37 People

    -NOT So Confidential-

            For so long my only thought was of staying high. Where am i going to get my next fix from?!  So i got into selling them. Whatever i could sell to make money, to supply myself with drugs. Then eventually i sold to a undercover cop...
    notsodeadpoet notsodeadpoet
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 27, 2007

    Dont Do Drugs

    i dont do drugs and never woudl i judge anyone who does or did.  Please listen to me your life is worth so much more than you know.  I had to take my sister off life support because of heroin and she was just 24 at the time.  I am older and i thank god for all i...
    luvbugg77 luvbugg77
    26-30, F
    Mar 29, 2007

    Addiction....The Only Thing Left.

    I hate drugs. the fact that they are illegal and yet i keep using makes me sick. My wife has caught me on several occasions and still i choose to use. I have even taken money from her in order to get my fix. This makes me feel like the worst husband ever. I need help from...
    alpineboogie alpineboogie
    18-21
    1 Response Nov 18, 2008

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