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I Hate Feeling Like My Heart Is Breaking

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 249 People

    Eating Out Of The Palm Of Her Hand

    "Try it," she said. "No," he replied. She circled him, eyeing him. "Are you afraid?" "No." "Are you worried what others will think?" "No." "Try it?" He shook his head. "No." She took his hand and looked into his eyes. "Will you do it for me?" "Yes." He tried it. Immediately, he...
    Doggonnit Doggonnit 41-45, M 1 Response May 1, 2012

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    One Step At A Time..

    Everytime I feel his hands beating me my heart breaks a little more, when will my heart finally break for good, never to be repaired again?I hurt so much and he doesnt even know it, I think that the fact that he doesnt care that he is hurting is the reason my heart is...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 31, 2012

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    i being second to those i put first ),

    : he's slowly breaking my heart in to pieces .
    youngadult14 youngadult14 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 28

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    "Heavy In Your Arms" Florence

    and the Machine I was a heavy heart to carry My beloved was weighed down My arms around his neck My fingers laced to crown. I was a heavy heart to carry My feet dragged across ground And he took me to the river Where he slowly let me drown My love has concrete feet My love's...
    littleboxofsecrets littleboxofsecrets 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    Lied To And Broken

    Awhile ago i met an amazing guy who broke up with me. I am still not fully over this person but i never will be and it got to the point 4 months ago i decided to move on from him. Four months ago i went out to a friends party and met another amazing guy i had feelings for him...
    lylkitkat lylkitkat 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 9, 2012

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    It's been 20 weeks and I still feel

    so low I hate myself for having feelings.
    ohhla ohhla 36-40, F 6 Responses Feb 2

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    The Sting Of A The Slap In The Face

    We had met online at EP and were spending many hours each week chatting. We had even progressed to video chats, one in particular lasted 8 hours. Although we were growing close, I hadn't revealed all of my personal information to her because I just don't give my information out...
    Doggonnit Doggonnit 41-45, M 3 Responses Jun 3, 2012

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    I broke up with the person I loved most in my

    life. Long distance relationship are hard. But I thought we would be able to fight it. Love is powerful. We loved each other so much. It lasted one year. And now I feel broken. He couldn't bear the pain anymore. He thought he was hurting me but now I hurt more. I will always...
    LadyHilarious LadyHilarious 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 30

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    Must Continue On

    I thought I had met my match, long ago, we fell in love, he was extremely smart, charming, charismatic, and has a silver tongue. We dated, I got pregnant. He manned up and took on the responsibility. He was there when I got into the bad wreck that almost took both my legs, he was...
    fallentears fallentears 31-35 3 Responses Feb 18, 2013

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    TealMarie TealMarie 16-17, F Jan 27

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    Not Always A Happy Ending

    I don't know how to forget him, to make the memories stop playing across my mind. It must be fate or a cruel joke right? Love is so quiet, it just slips up on you. Summer 2009 At 16 I had no idea the boy I spent every free moment with would be the love of my life. I just saw...
    emivb emivb 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 18, 2013

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    Battle

    Shards of glass searing my soul Biting emotions commence overflow A mind full of turmoil rushing this way Am I going to make it through, even through, just one day? Questions cloud my mind Still, no answers can I find Has it been destroyed? Has the ammunition been deployed? Is...
    Invisible2unow Invisible2unow 41-45, F 5 Responses Nov 5, 2011

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    DAY 1

    Today we talked i heard you crying and it broke my heart, i wanted to break down too but i stayed strong and kept my voice steady. i gave you a choice 10 days until your decision . it kills me doing this because i no longer know what your answer will be, but i hope and pray...
    sadbaby103 sadbaby103 18-21, F Mar 12, 2013

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    Yearning To Love

    My heart isn't broken and I do not miss a lost love. My heart aches because it is full of love to the point it splits open. I have no one to love, no one to share my silly indulgences and no one to hold and let the love flood out. It kills me that my kindness, gentleness and...
    ktmchristian ktmchristian 41-45, M 3 Responses Jun 4, 2013

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    I Numb Myself

    Not with drugs or alcohol. But I put up this wall. It protects me subconsciously/consciously. It closes me off and prevents me from feeling emotion(especially sadness). It can last any where from a few seconds to a few weeks or more. Depending on what type of heartbreak I'm going...
    Beyonder33 Beyonder33 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2013

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    I hate feeling things, I hate it when my feelings get involve, I hate getting mad, I hate feeling sad, I hate love. Everybody thinks I'm heartless and brutal. I have this wall that...
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    I hate feeling, to feel hopeless, heartbroken. Just when my emotions get involved. I hate feeling weak and vulnerable.
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    I just need to vent for a moment. I don't have anyone that I can talk to. My life is not a life. I feel as though I have nothing. No friends, no job (kinda), a broke down car,very...
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    That sinking feeling you get when your heart hurts.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 1

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    Mostly do to my appearance Im very,very insecure.I have so many things that make me feel abnormal like a freak and it's all these things piled up together that make me feel hideous...
    seeminglypossible seeminglypossible 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 2

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    The heart chooses, not me.
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 6

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    I try to pull the lone wolf tough guy routine sometimes, but the truth is that I kind of hate being alone. I hate that lonely feeling in my gut when I'm on my own and my friends...
    Xamad Xamad 22-25, M Nov 10

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    it sucks being a vampire. evedything inside me freezes when i go to bed and i actually feel like im dead. but ik im dead ive been dead for 1400 years. i just hate this feeling. the...
    stanmagicman2 stanmagicman2 13-15, M 4 Responses Nov 1

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    So... Last night I was sitting in the living room with my family, and this s*x scene came on tv, like it showed EVERYTHING... I pretended I didn't see and and just awkwardly walked...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 22

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    I know there are more important things to worry about in this world, but I'm sick of feeling undesirable and shunned by women because of my face. I feel like I'm going crazy...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 3

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    That feeling is creeping in again.... That pit of loneliness .... Deep and familiar .... It cuts into me... Makes me question everything .... Like I've been waking around with...
    Orangerocket Orangerocket 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 4

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    Still trying to understand how one day you love me and then the next you don't... How is it you go off and act like there was never an us? I guess I should be happy that it was...
    stillhavehope3 stillhavehope3 41-45, F Oct 21

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    I am done with everything I just want to graduate and leave everything behind the people I once was close to hate me so there's no point in staying here when I can just leave for...
    sissyemmy13 sissyemmy13 16-17, F Oct 22

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    I feel like this a lot of the time. I put so much work into things, or I try really hard, and I don't feel like people appreciate my effort or are at least aware of it.
    emelon12 emelon12 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I can't excel in college, not in karate, not at home, not at work, not anywhere. I'm either a burden or just barely good enough. Like today, for example. It's sparring class. As...
    ForestTea ForestTea 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 21

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    I realized after being in love with same man for 14 years that I'm the only one whose trying and loving the person. I lost all the love and respect for myself. While I was blinded...
    ezzy2014 ezzy2014 26-30, F 6 hrs ago

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    Went to sleep for a few hours last night. Spent a few hours awake and now I'm so tired all over again. I hardly eat dinner anymore because I'm going to bed very early from the...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 Oct 24

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    So we are on our holidays and we've all but two and me been ill but when my boyfriend was ill yesterday I was sleeping with him when I was woke up to him coughing so I said ill get...
    cbailey301 cbailey301 22-25, M Oct 26

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    I want to vent but can't find the words.. I want to cry but the tears won't come out.. so much has happened in these past few months and its happened so fast. :/ I feel alone...
    SaraBear87 SaraBear87 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 27

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    In bed dyin out with the flu :( brother in law pestering me, husbands not home, heads killing me, throats all tickly, nose is blocked and I'm just not physically able for this...
    lilyrose234 lilyrose234 18-21, F Oct 28

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    I just want to feel again. It's torturing
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M Oct 31

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    How many more times do I have to feel rejected? It kills me every time to the point where I want to give up on any kind of relationship at this point
    emelon12 emelon12 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 9

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    sometimes expectation can lead to disappointment...
    LoveHadassah LoveHadassah 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 12

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    all I do is **** things up. I'm useless. nothing seems to change how I feel anymore, maybe I should just go off and end it,haha haha haha yea...right I couldn't I'm too much of a...
    Picokill Picokill 18-21, M 15 hrs ago

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    So another occasion. For a high school requirement, everyone had to deliver notes to classes sometimes. I had it happen twice. I feared it so much. I knew how much I was hated, I...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 6 hrs ago

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    1. I hate my pathetic heart. 2. I hate my ex for breaking my heart. 3. I hate that I'm turning to worse because of him. 4. I hate that I have to be flawless girl for someone...
    unknown159231 unknown159231 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 7

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    the repeated words said by someone you love. those words cut so deep that you can literally feel your heart breaking..then..the numbness starts to kick in..after that....the words...
    KearBrooke KearBrooke 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 10

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    PART FOUR Wouldn’t she think “Hmm, I wonder why Sonya wrote that letter to Kristine…maybe I should ask…” She hasn’t asked or shown any concern for me, Cory, Hiram...
    VeryHurtAndMad VeryHurtAndMad 31-35, F a week ago

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    Wondering If I Am Wrong: I get thrown in my face What others feel is wrong Why must it be viewed as bad When it’s not breaking the law So I live my life of loss Depression and...
    darkreality68 darkreality68 41-45, M Nov 10

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