I Hate Feeling Like My Heart Is Breaking

Shards of glass
searing my soul
Biting emotions
commence overflow

A mind full of turmoil
rushing this way
Am I going to make it through,
even through, just one day?

Questions cloud my mind
Still, no answers can I find
Has it been...

Not with drugs or alcohol. But I put up this wall. It protects me subconsciously/consciously. It closes me off and prevents me from feeling emotion(especially sadness). It can last any where from a few seconds to a few weeks or more...

Leaving my family and closest friends this week..after loving and bonding and learning and growing and understanding and also learning to stand up and let go
So many reasons I simply can not write them all here..it simply tears my heart...

My husband and I haven't fought in 10 years & we've now had 2 battles within a week. I feel pathetic. My wishes and requests that I talked to him about in Dec failed... what I was asking I didn't think to be "out there" or too much...

I don't know how to forget him, to make the memories stop playing across my mind. It must be fate or a cruel joke right?

Love is so quiet, it just slips up on you.

Summer 2009

At 16 I had no idea the boy I spent every free moment...

I thought I had met my match, long ago, we fell in love, he was extremely smart, charming, charismatic, and has a silver tongue. We dated, I got pregnant. He manned up and took on the responsibility. He was there when I got into the bad...

"Try it," she said.
"No," he replied.
She circled him, eyeing him. "Are you afraid?"
"No."
"Are you worried what others will think?"
"No."
"Try it?"
He shook his head. "No."
She took his hand and looked into his eyes. "Will you do it...

Everytime I feel his hands beating me my heart breaks a little more, when will my heart finally break for good, never to be repaired again?I hurt so much and he doesnt even know it, I think that the fact that he doesnt care that...

Awhile ago i met an amazing guy who broke up with me. I am still not fully over this person but i never will be and it got to the point 4 months ago i decided to move on from him. Four months ago i went out to a friends party and met...

Today we talked i heard you crying and it broke my heart, i wanted to break down too but i stayed strong and kept my voice steady. i gave you a choice 10 days until your decision . it kills me doing this because i no longer know what...

We had met online at EP and were spending many hours each week chatting. We had even progressed to video chats, one in particular lasted 8 hours. Although we were growing close, I hadn't revealed all of my personal information to her...