I Hate Feeling Lost

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 49 People

    This Again

    I feel so alone right now and bored and sad and oh I don't know, mixed emotions I guess. I suddenly felt the urge to write. I'm not even sure of what to write about. It feels like there are a lot of things running in my mind but I can't really tell what they are. I had a sudden...
    gb0485 gb0485
    22-25, F
    Nov 19, 2013

    My Life

    from a young age I was sexually and mentally abused by my older brother, with no explanation or understanding as to why. It stopped at the age of 12 and never happened again. Aged 13 I was raped in an unconnected event. I feel as though these two things have completely changed me...
    Catherineh94 Catherineh94
    18-21, F
    Aug 2, 2013

    Sometimes I Just Feel So Out Of...

    place.I wake up, go to work, school, etc.But I feel out of body or something similar.I don't belong.Where I do belong, I haven't quite found out.I want to leave.I want to burst out of my clothes,Run down the street,And scream to the reaches of the atmosphere!If I have to search...
    significantlyinsignificant significantlyinsignificant
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 8, 2011

    Confused

    I'd be lying if I said I was trying to embrace all that I am feeling, to be in the moment of it and just accept it. While thats what I'd like to be doing, it is not. I am very conflicted right now with -myself- who I am - what I want... I am having a really difficult time...
    polkio polkio
    26-30, F
    Aug 18, 2012

    Will Anyone Ever Understand Me?

    I feel so broken and hurt. The thing about it is..... I don't know.... Why. I am pretty sensitive, naive, emotional, and insecure. I feel like a broken glass. I've been fixed, but now I'm being chipped off piece by piece. It kills me. My broken heart feels like broken lungs...
    ForiegnBeauty ForiegnBeauty
    16-17, F
    Jul 24, 2013

    Music Saves Me

    Whenever i feel lost or empty, i just have to plug in my ipod listen to my favorite bands and its almost like it fills a hole within me. I love music, and im not sure what kind of place the world would be without it.
    yeahhh yeahhh
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Nov 8, 2009

    Thought I Knew

    I hate feeling lost I thought I knew what I was after out of life and had made all the right changes and decisions but now I sit with no clue. I had done it all our relationship was never better I had gradutated college and we had two amazing girls, then in a matter of a year my...
    specks77 specks77
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Nov 3, 2012

    I im not a wiz kid nor am I a star athlete,

    well atleast up until my ACL injury. I have little to no motivation to do anything anymore. Im 17 and I feel like a divorced 40 year old. (Sorry if I offended anyone) That is literary how I feel and I CONSTANTLY give myself pep talks like everyday. I know what I have to do as...
    BornBlank1 BornBlank1
    18-21, M
    Sep 9, 2015

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