I Hate Having Borderline Personality Disorder

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    Borderline Personality Disorder

    I dislike the mood swings i go through, i hate the fact that i try so hard to be myself but i end up wanting to be like someone else, or either dead. I hate being the type of person to love you then hate you. But the thing is i don't hate you i dislike you for a reason but then i...
    Soups Soups
    18-21, F
    Jun 25, 2013

    I clone a character one you'll like I spin a

    web of lies I'll make you in to my best friend And leave before we die Destined to be a loner Jumping from friend to friend Borrowing different personas Till on my own I end Abandoned and hurting Feeling my inner scream Cut my self or starve Anything to wake from a dream Flip...
    kalikent kalikent
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Dec 19, 2013

    I don't think I'm going to be ok.

    I can't do this anymore I don't want to be me. I don't want to have a illness anymore! I thought I could cope but I can't! I'm having horrible thoughts and can't stop crying! I don't want to be me anymore
    lauraslark lauraslark
    26-30, F
    Dec 14, 2014

    Well I did it again..

    .. I fought with my boyfriend and my head is screaming just stop just stop don't break it off he loves you just stop but I can't stop. I ******* can't I'm crying wanting to scream please don't let me leave you but of course he lets me make my own choices like anyone would and I...
    xoxoFireyIcexoxo xoxoFireyIcexoxo
    26-30, F
    Jul 25, 2015

    It's like a pressure

    that won't stop building. It's causing me to lash out and hurt people I care about, one in particular. I'm over reacting at everything and tearing into him. I don't want to hurt anyone! I can't stop no matter how hard I tried. I hate who I am! I hate being this way and now I'm...
    lauraslark lauraslark
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 5, 2014

    I feel too deeply. It's a curse.

    My emotions control my life. I just want it to stop. Make it stop!! Why won't this pain leave me. Find someone else. I want to live comfortably numb. Just let me become numb. I don't want to feel or care. Make me cold and hard inside. You didn't know. You didn't know...
    Curiouscee Curiouscee
    51-55, F
    Dec 16, 2015
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