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I Hate Living As Room-mates When I Love Him

A place to vent when someone special in your life tends to blow you off emotionally, but continues to drag you back into the fold under the safety net of friendship. Join me in venting!

    Why I'm Here ... Part 5

    The last four entries were the beginning of Jack and I.  The emotional roller coaster ride we both endured.  The blissful reunion or two souls drawn to one another by something much bigger than each of us could wrap our simple minds around.  I honestly thought the...
    zencricket zencricket
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 2, 2007

    Why I'm Here ... Part 4

    I couldn't keep focused for the rest of the day after hearing his voice.  So many thoughts ran through my head.  So many unanswered quiestions left open for so long now about to be answered.  Did I really want to know the truth?  Was the fairy tale I...
    zencricket zencricket
    31-35, F
    May 2, 2007

    Dinner Woes ...

    He isn't working right now.  I put in 9 hours a day.  You'd think when I got home, the very least he could do was ... I dunno ... leave some freakin dinner for me!!  He makes dinner for himself, but doesn't offer to even make just a bit more so I could have...
    zencricket zencricket
    31-35, F
    May 1, 2007

    Why I'm Here ... Part 2

    The sheer rush of good emotions that befell me while looking upon Jack for the first time FAR outweighted any negative.  I felt at ease, at peace, when his arms wrapped around me for the first time.  Is this what feeling comfortable feels like?  I could so get used...
    zencricket zencricket
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 2, 2007

    Why I'm Here ... Part 1

    At a turning point.  Something had to give, and quickly!  Still fearing the only thing that gave was my sanity, and my sense of self.  This is going to be long, but will explain a lot.  I was married at the time w/ two small boys.  My then hubby was...
    zencricket zencricket
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 2, 2007

    Happiness Vs Keeping the Peace

    It's obvious in this living situation my happiness is not taken into consideration, or is even supposed to be a passing thought.  If I bring it up, I'm being emotional!  If I try to talk about it, I'm throwing a monkey wrench in "our" plans...
    zencricket zencricket
    31-35, F
    Apr 19, 2007

    This Chapter Is Over

    If you were to have asked me 7 years ago where I thought I'd be, it wouldn't be here, I'm sure.  If you asked me that very same question every year till today, I still doubt I'd fathom being here.  Here ... today ... in this position.  This situation.   ...
    zencricket zencricket
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jun 6, 2007

    A Bitter Sweet Ending

    Soon I will be able to put this experience in the closet.  Soon this chapter of my life, and this love/hate relationship can be put to its final rest.  So very soon I will be able to add new experiences into my life.  Healthy, loving, flowing, and growing...
    zencricket zencricket
    31-35, F
    Jun 5, 2007

    Why I'm Here ... Part 3

    This part is, while having the knowledge I do from having been there already, harsh ... for lack of a better way to describe it.  How does one go back to tell a spouse, someone you swore you'd be true to till death, that you've been unfaithful to them, and your vows ... all...
    zencricket zencricket
    31-35, F
    May 2, 2007
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