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      My name is Caitlin.

    I am an ftm. I'm still in school (12-16). I have known for a long time I'm not a female. I know that I shouldn't be in this body. So everyday at 4:30-5:00 I am going to post about my day and how I feel starting now. Today: Sometimes I wish I could express my feelings but o cant...
    tomboycait tomboycait 16-17, T 1 Response Dec 3

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    I just cant... I just.

    ... I can't do it... I cant... ugh, I can't do this, I refuse... it's hopeless and pointless and ugh, I'm done with life.
    debonaireash debonaireash 16-17, M 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am only 12 years old.

    Wow, you'll say she's too young. But first of all, my parents are divorced, so now i live with my dad and step mom. But , i cant live with my mom because she married this summer, and I really feel like i want her more than ever. I am also diabetec. From 6 years ago. And these...
    Naty111 Naty111 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 28

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    wassup305 wassup305 13-15, F 5 Responses Dec 8

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    Sorry I didn't post I was caught up in revision

    so here's what happened yesterday Yesterday I was thinking about how my life us and how it should be. Sometimes life doesn't get on with you. Sometimes friendships fail or just slowly fade away. Like my friend's. They meet new people and leave me behind and only talk to me when...
    tomboycait tomboycait 16-17, T 1 Response Dec 5

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    I feel like no one even wants me around I feel

    like for everyone's sake that I should just drop dead
    EmHeartsX EmHeartsX 13-15, F 6 Responses May 4

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    that feeling you get

    when you're just waiting to get home into your room and let everything you have been digging deep within you all day out.....
    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F Jun 13

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    Sometimes life puts you in

    so difficult situation which you can not share with anyone. Repeating same things with you is such an horrible thing. You can share your problem with a person once or twice but when it becomes a never ending problems. People tend to ignore you. That is very obvious. Be it...
    Life26 Life26 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    You know you're messed up

    when you're sad because you're not dead.
    TheRouge TheRouge 16-17, F 6 Responses Oct 16

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    themeaningofwhat themeaningofwhat 18-21 Dec 2

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    im so broken alone and depressed

    but no one seems to notice they dont care at all my so called friends never seem to understand me well its not their fault no one does anyways and im just tired of living in such a cruel world my boyfriend is the only reason to why im still alive but he hurts me a lot i just...
    xxSuicidalPrincessxx xxSuicidalPrincessxx 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 26

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    I'm sick and tired of people telling me

    that it's gonna get better. Can they see the future? How the hell do they know if its gonna get better? What if it actually doesn't? All they're doing is bringing my hopes up without knowing if its the truth or not!
    Vagabond01 Vagabond01 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 30

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    When i close my eyes,

    I can see the good things I can feel the good feelings I can smell the good smells I can hear the good things When i open my eyes, I have no senses I can't see the good things I can't feel the good feelings I can't smell the good smells I can't hear the good things Im numb...
    Maya0989 Maya0989 13-15, F Nov 30

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    Jennaleeeee Jennaleeeee 13-15, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    But Not Everyday

    when I joined this group I was feeling particularly down.  I dont actually hate my life and any of you in this group shouldn't either.  Life is too short to focus on the negatives.  I hate the parts of my life that are beyond my control and some that I am smothered...
    johnwad3 johnwad3 26-30, M 8 Responses Dec 18, 2006

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    Scaredmonster Scaredmonster 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    Its not like im being ungrateful,

    but you all have no idea what im going through, i hate my life cause whenever i tried to be positive there are some people who will bring me down. Whenever i tried to be happy, someone will make me sad. And i thought i have great friends who have my back but i dont. And my...
    flamedoll flamedoll 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 9

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    I'm 21, and feel like I've already given up on

    life. I've been brought/dragged up in a town full of people who have just bullied and tormented me. I was always the weird kid, when I was really young I have been told I had tonnes of personality. I lived with my mother my whole life because my dad lives in and is from another...
    snowkey snowkey 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    catherineabox catherineabox 18-21, F 2 Responses May 12

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    I broke up with her,

    because I didn't feel anything. But now it's so much worse because she's so upset and I feel horrible. It's awkward with all our mutual friends, and I should have just lived with it. If I could do it all over I would have just let things be. I'm so stupid and I hate myself.
    Synthesiate Synthesiate 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 11

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    I Use To Hate My Life, But I Found My Way

    I use to hate myself, my life and the People around me and the whole world. I never hated God I would just question him,ask him why we're things happening to me. Why am I fat and ugly?,why do people hate me and bother me?,why doesn't my mother love me?,why do I cry and cut myself...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 7, 2013

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    TheRouge TheRouge 16-17, F 8 Responses Apr 17

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    I just want to disappear.

    I don't want to be here.
    Scaredmonster Scaredmonster 16-17, F 1 Response May 25

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    I've been kicked out of all of that,

    all of this bullshit has just gotten to me, I've been throwed out of all of this dramatized crap, I simply cannot do it anymore, I'm done with all of this ****, and I'm gonna just drown alone by myself for a while
    debonaireash debonaireash 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    I went through my entire life being told

    that life gets better. Well I am 24 and its still ****. I should have killed myself before I hit 21 like I planned. I am stressed all the time, I hate my god damn job.... The only piece of mind I get is when I turn my work phone off as well as my personal cellphone and drink...
    Krie Krie 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 30

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    I really hate myself especially theses last

    couple of days. I don't know what to do Maybe I should drink. Drinking that always got me happy for a while
    PedroNune PedroNune 18-21, M 3 Responses Jun 4

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    I was homeschooled all my life,

    I never went to school with other kids or didn't really had a nice childhood. My mom and dad never took me, I hated my mom and still do for not taking me to school or not even be concerned about my education. My dad was just a lazy *** drunk and he didn't even care too. My dad...
    Whatsername21 Whatsername21 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 25

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    I feel pretty selfish admitting this.

    . Life is such a precious thing but lately it hasn't been seeming like it. Honestly, nothing is particularly "wrong". Not many big problems going on, just feeling with out any purpose or direction. I often think if someone else's mind was in my body, how would I turn out? I'm not...
    lonelyxsoul lonelyxsoul 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 21

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    I Hate My Life Dnt Want Too Be Here No More

    i am 18 i have been in foster care an i have been rapied twice i carnt evan go out no more cause i have panic attacts i have tryed suicide cuts my wrists tryed hanging myself an taken overdoses my mum is metally ill i have no one too turn too or talk too i really need a friend...
    samantha2345 samantha2345 19-21, F 2 Responses Sep 16, 2007

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    All my life has been is just a waist.

    I try to help everyone I can but it sees that no one wants to help me. My parents both left me my life has been gone I have no family and I have no friends. I have nothing to live for my mom and dad both said I could go die in a whole. No one on this earth cares about me they...
    Farl Farl 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 22

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    I hate my life, I wanna waste my life,

    I wanna kill myself.. My family hates me so, GOD I feel so down!
    xxBoyishGirlxx xxBoyishGirlxx 13-15, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Everything has fallen apart

    and the most important person in my life is just drifting farther and farther apart. Sometimes I wonder what would have happened had I died that night. he would be happier. And I would be gone... I just remember all the good times and sometimes this all just seems like a...
    iwillfly iwillfly 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I was supposed to leave today

    for a trip I had been looking forward to since June. About 90 minutes before the flight, just before I was going to leave for the airport, I suffered what I can only describe as the worst panic attack I've ever had. Then again, I've only had one other in my life, but this...
    AggieGuy AggieGuy 36-40, M Dec 12

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    I feel like sh*t today,

    because I just learned that I can't do the job I really want to because I'm awful at science and now I'm just so over everything and honestly just don't want to be here anymore, not to mention that my parents never shut up and make me feel like crap. And I feel extremely fat...
    Alecea21 Alecea21 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    TheRouge TheRouge 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 3

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    I want to jump in front of a train

    or get hit by a car something so that I will die really fast I just hate my life
    whoooocares whoooocares 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 4

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    Hey again. Just me!I'm sorry I keep forgetting

    to post but from now on every week day I will post from around 4:20-4:50 ish Today: Fear. I live in constant fear that people hate me and they're out to get me. I don't know what to do. When ever I tell someone they say I'm being stupid. U think this is all because I was chased...
    tomboycait tomboycait 16-17, T 1 Response Dec 8

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    I Wish..

    I want something to change or something to happen. There is actaully **** all good about it.. I don't think there is anything good about it. I don't know how I don't get deperssed more often.
    Achilles1989 Achilles1989 22-25, M 3 Responses Aug 28, 2010

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    I stay hidden, away from the world.

    Unseen, and unheard of. No one is here, no one can find me. I will stay, as my life is taken. As I notice, I'm left alone. I wonder if someone will find me. My body is getting as cold as stone. I wonder, what is wrong with me? I lay on the ground, looking at the sky. These...
    JEJ2259 JEJ2259 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 29

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    I've had the I hate my self feelings,

    suicidal thoughts, depression, the feelings of hopelessness, my life started out **** and got shittier. But I'm here to tell you there is light at the end of the tunnel and if you need help or someone to talk to contact me.
    thatDfunnyJguy thatDfunnyJguy 31-35, M 2 Responses May 14

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    i just feel like my life has been

    so unfortunate and sad and i cant get it back together because it was never together.
    msworstlife msworstlife 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 26

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    Everyone is ALWAYS mad at me.

    I never did one ******* thing to them and they decide to make my life a living hell.
    BloodRedDarkness BloodRedDarkness 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 5

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    Ok so I fall In love

    for two years,she used me I moved on to this girl for 3 mouths.now she hates commitment.just before Christmas so I spend all this year heart broken.i hate people they screw me over every time.i have no one I can trust and I'll never trust anyone cuz when I do they start hurting...
    Eadwyn22nd Eadwyn22nd 16-17, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    lifesasecret127 lifesasecret127 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 8

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    debonaireash debonaireash 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    Slit your wrist and cut your thighs,

    fake a smile and dry your eyes,hate yourself and hate your life.Welcome To My World Of Lies
    xXBeautifulTragedyXx xXBeautifulTragedyXx 16-17, F 3 Responses May 29

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    I hate how everything is

    so hard. Why is everyone so happy? they all look so happy from where i see them....they can be happy over there while i stay here in this hell hole and do nothing! why does time go so slow??? i wish time went faster because everything is so boring. i dont do anything all day but...
    Insomniac77 Insomniac77 18-21, M Dec 11

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    I hate what it could mean.

    ... I giving hate what it probably does mean.... and i can't stand what will happen.... I'm about to be done,... with all of it... all the pillars that took years to build... were built upon pillars of sand.... and now.... they are about to fall.... all of them.... gone.....
    debonaireash debonaireash 16-17, M 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    so i was this tall and skinny girl.

    flat chested flat butted. i kept getting told i was disgusting all my life. i kept getting made fun of. people told me i wasnt good enough and i had no assests. no one ever made me feel good about myself or appraised me. notmy evil mother who just made me hate myself my whole...
    msworstlife msworstlife 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I wouldn't say I completely hate my life.

    ..but I hate a huge part of it. Most of the time I'm unhappy at home - and the only way I can escape it is when I go to mu boyfriends house for a few nights during the week I'm in pain every day from cervical dystonia, which I have had for 6 years - and there's no cure - and I...
    MeowOnMe MeowOnMe 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 28

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    There's no point of living

    when you have a low IQ,and there's no point of living when you're ugly.Having a low IQ just makes you stupid you can't pass tests,every one around you is better than you etc.Being ugly gets you made fun of,no relationships of any kind etc. I hate myself. I can't wait till I kill...
    wassup305 wassup305 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I do really hate my life,

    I came from a broken family.My father is a ******* ******* , he had an affair, he didn't support as financially and he left us.My mother is the only one who took care for us.She did everything for us and I'm thankful because she didn't even give up. I finish college and earned...
    sen017 sen017 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 14