I Hate My Past

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    People Think My Life Is Perfect...

    I have always been bullied since I was just starting school but that's not the thing bothering me the most... A month before I was born my dad died... It was a bad accident and it changed my life... I will never have met my real dad and my mom is the only biological parent now...
    AngryLittlePrincess AngryLittlePrincess
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 23, 2012


    I have been neglected, pimped and abandoned by my mother. I have been molested by my brother, sexually assaulted by my grandfather and father. I have been an addict, prostitute and ********. I have overcame major obstacles in life and am very lucky to be alive. I am here to share...
    PatyH PatyH
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Jun 12, 2012

    Dark Cloud

    My past has always been this dark cloud that has hung over my head, one that never seems to pass, for I just don't know how to let it go. Some parts are things I've done to myself, other parts are things that have been done towards me. But all parts are things that remain in my...
    Lucidblue Lucidblue
    36-40, F
    12 Responses Aug 6, 2010

    But I Can't Fix It

    So, what's the point of complaining?I choose to live for now, and plan for the future.
    Serenitree Serenitree
    70+, F
    Oct 14, 2012

    It's not such a big thing,

    but my old classmates always bring up things I used to do or when sometimes I did something wrong. That's why I was so happy when I changed school, I don't have to see them again.
    Meduchan Meduchan
    16-17, M
    Jun 18, 2015

    I feel like my past is going to follow me all

    my life.. I guess thts life about.. Nobody is perfect but I hate it ..
    ladany19 ladany19
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 21, 2015

    But I Learned From It

    Even though I hate so much my past and how I wish it didn't happen.. I am still grateful for it because it helps me define my true self.... even though it hurts so much.. It still teach me a lifetime lesson... Happiness is a choice
    deleted deleted
    Feb 25, 2013

    there was this thing

    that happened to me in the past.... I just wish I would've stopped it in the past :'(
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Sep 14, 2015

    My Days As An Orphan

    "Natasha,...Does it hurt?" Said the boy on the bed next to me. I looked down to my hands, there wasn't really much to see since the lights were out, but I could feel the wounds and the torn skin.It was hard looking him back in the eyes. I don't remember his name really, but I do...
    NatashaBluerain NatashaBluerain
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 4, 2012

    Most people boast i don't regret my past.

    Most people boast themselves as something super strong or out of this world.I think there is no problem admitting mistakes and times when you're wrong.So yeah i made mistakes,i made wrong choices and i'm sorry i did that. Most important point however is i am not dishearted by...
    deleted deleted
    Jan 17, 2016

    I've used and hurt someone

    who didn't deserve and I apologize many times but I know it won't fix it. I feel gilt. When I go to bed I I always pray for him and I hope God can give to him what I ask.
    NenisMon NenisMon
    31-35, F
    1 Response Sep 26, 2015
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 3, 2015
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Oct 30, 2014

    I hate how my family just died off,

    how my friends left... I'm just a girl with abandonment issues. My "friend" said my family will only be labeled as a family of suicide and abuse. My family is death... I'm such bad luck.
    QueenxChance QueenxChance
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 19, 2016

    Since I was 7, I'd go to my cousin's house

    every day after school. Let's just say I wasn't very smart or was sure what I was even doing. I hated their house, I hated waiting there, I hated getting mentally abused. I had to eat everything on my plate, which is too much, and technically, I didn't know how to say "it's too...
    allnamesrtakenx allnamesrtakenx
    16-17, F
    Feb 12, 2016

    I hate in the past It always happen in my dream.

    I hate it. I want to forget it. Every time I try don't thought it but It will appear in my dream and then I awake up I felt sad and I thought someone who I love and I wanna forget the same time
    nimkansiri nimkansiri
    26-30, F
    May 11, 2015
    EnigmaticStare EnigmaticStare
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 24, 2015

    I have such a dark past

    that lingers in the back of my mind and sometimes it darkens my bright future and my amazing now that I'm living in
    Spfxartist13 Spfxartist13
    18-21, F
    Jun 19, 2015

    I have quite a few skeletons in my closet i

    wish i could turn back time and change certain things.. :( there is 1 girl i wish i never hurt and let go of.... im sure alot of your ep users have dark skeletons in your closets
    deleted deleted
    Nov 23, 2015

    Dear Past, please stop bothering me.

    Just stop. Please. No matter how fast you run and chase me, you'll catch me anyway. No matter how hard you beat me, I'll break anyway. No matter how long you keep me awake, I won't be able to sleep anyway. No matter how many pictures you draw, I'll see them anyway. No matter how...
    crackedwriter crackedwriter
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 23, 2015
    prashuk1996 prashuk1996
    18-21, M
    1 Response May 3, 2015

    My mother has always humiliated

    and sort of abused me emotionally since I was a kid. I was a little tomboyish when I was a child and I grew up in an all-boys neighborhood. Mostly I would be with my grandparents because my mother was at work and father never around. I admit that I had no fashion-sense or...
    silverpapercut silverpapercut
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 2, 2015
    darkangellights darkangellights
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 23, 2015

    Am I the only one that has allowed their past

    to mold them into something they regret.
    LotusFlower22 LotusFlower22
    22-25, F
    4 Responses May 9, 2015

    I have done some things in my past

    that still affect my relationship now
    sadandstressed sadandstressed
    18-21, F
    May 22, 2015

    Why does our past have to haunt me

    so much??!!! Ok, I'll just come out and say it...my ex used to think it was funny and a joke to repeatedly rape me, he would slap me if I wouldn't have sex with him, all because he said he had a sex problem and needed sex... And then when I would try to escape from him and run...
    AFriend2All AFriend2All
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Jan 26, 2015

    It sounds romantic, doesn't it?

    The dream of fading away, vanishing into the night and when the sun comes up you simply cease to exist, or perhaps you become somebody new. All your troubles are left behind, you can undo every single wrong thing that you've done. It's as if you get to live another life, this...
    4inthemorningdew 4inthemorningdew
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 28, 2013

    many things i did. i can't forget in

    until now. really bad thing...
    shirosuki shirosuki
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jul 24, 2015

    I ******* hate my parents.

    They are so damn overprotective and freaking annoying. What the hell is wrong with them. I can't even go out to see my friends unless it related to study. And even if I get to go out the have to know every single **** about the person I'm going with. They say that everyone else...
    BiancaRollo BiancaRollo
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 10, 2015

    I wish I could just forget the past.

    It hurts way too much.
    Mariegirl1984 Mariegirl1984
    31-35, F
    3 Responses May 2, 2015

    I hate when I open your email it's flooded with

    everything that I hate about you... I'm reminded of the past... I'm reminded of what you always chose over me... Over our children And yet you thought it was ok to do it again that it wouldn't hurt... You must be the most uncaring uncompassionate person that has ever lived.. To...
    deleted deleted
    Aug 21, 2015

    I hate it but i'm glad i went through it.

    I would have never been the kind of person i am today.
    RandomExistence RandomExistence
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Mar 25, 2014

    OK... YES, I messed up in a big,

    big way but that was in 2001 for crying out loud. I got in trouble and the law made damn sure that I suffered and believe me, I get it. So why do people (ie: my wife) still feel the need to throw it in my face 14 years later? I just want to be alone. I'm so sick of being judged...
    SRayne SRayne
    51-55, M
    May 3, 2015

    ~ I Was Raped By My Uncle ~

    When I was in the 7th grade my uncle ( my dad's brother ) moved in with us , it was great at first , but one day I came home from school and my uncle was the only one there , he asked me to come to his bedroom he wanted to show me something , he told me to sit on his bed  so...
    41-45, F
    56 Responses Sep 8, 2006

    I'm not sure about everyone else's elementary

    school life, but for me, grade 5-8 were the worst. I was the odd ball, the different, the ugly out of my generation class. My parents didn't let me listen to the music that was "in" nor did they let me wear what was "in". So naturally, people thought I was weird. In grade 5 my...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Feb 17, 2016


    Memories of eternal days, Left thy heart in holy grave From hatred of unusual pay Take my soul and be brave...
    eaden594 eaden594
    18-21, M
    Jan 15, 2013

    I was abused from a very early age

    but I'm not defeated I am a survivor not a victim they may have won the battle but I'm going to win the war x
    lchainey lchainey
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Mar 17, 2014

    My Past Defines Who I Am Today...

    My past defines who I am today and I am a good person. It has not always been easy but, it has been what I needed at the time.
    tylrhere tylrhere
    46-50, F
    1 Response Apr 6, 2007
    Mixedemotions2k Mixedemotions2k
    16-17, M
    Aug 9, 2015

    I've messed up so many times in the past,

    and that's tainted my future. I pray that it just won't affect what I hope to achieve.
    Lunasnight Lunasnight
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 3, 2015

    I Was Too Ashamed to Leave...

    I had a boyfriend, two years older, who seemed the all-american boy. He was smart, handsome, popular-- everything I wasn't in high school. I was the nerdy, frumpy, ugly duck who volunteered her weekends at soup kitchens or the library just to feel like she'd gone out at least. I...
    wolfton wolfton
    22-25, F
    12 Responses Oct 22, 2006
    lonely6999 lonely6999
    18-21, M
    1 Response May 5, 2015

    I hate it when people talk about their school

    days. People get all rosary eyed and wistful telling this story and that about being happy and having fun. To my core I hate it. Usually people don't notice me go silent. It's worse when they do notice because they'll usually assume that I was popular and had no issue. I hate...
    Drcreegan Drcreegan
    26-30, M
    1 Response Mar 20, 2014

    When a social worker tells your 14 year old self

    that I have been mentally and physically abused my whole life. People wonder why kids don't speak out until then I had no idea it wasn't normal. I didn't believe him he tried to bribe me with a mars bar :/ police shouting at me to answer there questions outside the interview...
    rbambro rbambro
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 6, 2015

    I don't tell many people about my past.

    I may tell them a little, but I never tell them everything unless I completely trust them. Maybe one day I'll be able to tell someone about my past.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 11, 2015

    My Life... Please Don't Judge Me

    Starting with first things first. My mother gave me up for adoption but my grandparents ended up taking me instead of a family in Texas. That family died when I was 6. After that my mother tried to be involved in my life but never was, she couldn't even remember my birthday. Now...
    Itskaylababy Itskaylababy
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 22, 2012
    deleted deleted
    Feb 24, 2016

    I hate I hate I hate

    so much. There was pain and mistakes. There was holes and tears in my heart and my sanity. There has been loss and there has been suffering. And I will not stop pushing forward. I hate. I hate this so much. All of it. The idiots around is. The fools who speak without hearing...
    WinterRose26 WinterRose26
    18-21, M
    Mar 21, 2016

    Dear past. Stop tapping me on the shoulder.

    I don't want to look back.
    Slowlydying16 Slowlydying16
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 13, 2014
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