I Hate My Pessimism And Wish I Could Do Away With It

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    The Early Morning Blahs...

    I arise in the moring with a rain cloud over my heard my mood is listless~uneasy apprehensive thoughts chasing each other , they long for a warm and fuzzy niche to settle themselves and just be at peace why cannot this be i say to me? i am already at sea seeking a safe...
    Lunadelobos Lunadelobos
    41-45
    1 Response Mar 14, 2010

    I'm Not Sure When I Changed...

    ...Actually I can. It was probably about two years ago and it's changing my outlook on life. As you can see from my groups I am also passive aggressive, and I think somewhere in between halting bottling up my anger and speaking up when I feel hard done by - I've started to...
    ClosedBook ClosedBook
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 27, 2010

    I Don't Think I Will Ever Stop Being Pessimistic...

    I'm sorry. A bad joke. One of my mind's habits. I am actually an optimist, against all the evidence that the world has already gone to ****. By habit, my mind looks forward to things, even simple ones like shots of coffee or a barefoot walk on grass, my next meal, or a PM from...
    amberdextrous amberdextrous
    51-55, M
    7 Responses Mar 15, 2010

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