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I Hate My Self For Being Gay

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    Not Actually Hating Myself Right Now... - Year 2010 has been a quite hard year for me so far. I've been going trough a quite large emotional and spiritual crises troughout the year...
    IdontKnowEther IdontKnowEther 22-25, M 18 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    If Your On This Site You Can Guess What I'm Writing About Lol - ok here it goes. my parents weren't too accepting when i came out, therefore, i act as straight as i can.  i have...
    fatbirdsinbonnets fatbirdsinbonnets 18-21 3 Responses Mar 26, 2011

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    It Ruined My Life - My own family doesn't accept me. I've been facing this situation by myself since I came out in high school. I'm an adult and my parents still hope I turn gay...
    Ix6o Ix6o 26-30 3 Responses Sep 11, 2013

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    Today As Usual... - I was thinking so much of men and my instant reaction after was to slit my wrist how stupid right? I really hate being this way and there must be a way to not...
    Jeair Jeair 22-25, M 11 Responses Jul 28, 2009

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    So Often - I hate myself for being gay and other times i don't. For instance i like being gay because i think it has helped me with my empathy. Being gay sometimes makes me feel...
    Jeair Jeair 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 13, 2010

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    Only a few people know about me. One of which is my ex best friend. He told more then half the school about my sexuality and now I'm being bullied a lot. I still do have some...
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    I'm constantly telling myself "you really are pathetic." When i am in school, I can work. When I get home, all I do is fool around. I surf the internet, I text my friend, I draw...
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    I had a termination in February this year. I didn't want to have the termination but I had to as a result of our financial hardship and because I didn't want to bring a child into...
    Jenezebel Jenezebel 22-25, F Apr 6

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    I hate the way I look I hate the way I sound they way I make choices the way I talk to people the way I think the way I am as me the way I breathe the way I walk the looks on my...
    Naty13 Naty13 13-15, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    My boyfriend broke up with me and I feel weak. And there is nothing I hate more in this world than feeling weak. I am not a weak person but I guess when he left he took a part of...
    NeeverForget NeeverForget 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    i have a powerful weapon to use against people who try to hurt me..my scream!i will freakin break their ear drums and if that wont work i have another weapon.. i will cry and call...
    yaysandwich yaysandwich 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    Seriously who's going to take me seriously my personality is too contradicting to one another. I have two separate personalities. Brightness : I wish everyone even ones I dislike...
    GrumpyGrouchy GrumpyGrouchy 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    I push everyone away and wonder why no one stays. I can't keep friends or intimate relationships. All my interactions are online. People at school assume I'm stupid or mute because...
    calicorex4 calicorex4 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm happy with it, some people will give me trouble about it at school since I'm out of the closet and say I'm bad for being gay and they call me names but it doesn't get to me I...
    ItzFnDiego ItzFnDiego 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 19

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    I don't understand today how being gay is truly accepted. Today the most acceptance is "I'm okay with yo being gay" or "I'm happy for you." True acceptance would be "so?" Only then...
    WrongfulAngel WrongfulAngel 13-15, M 4 Responses Mar 21

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    It ain't a thing wrong in the world with being gay!! It's worse things that you can be other than gay. EX: stupid, a bum, ugly, etc. I honestly rather be gay than stupid. Stupid...
    Addictivethickness Addictivethickness 18-21, F Apr 6

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    I know some gays want me to be this or that, but I'm happy being just the way I am. There isn't a damn thing wrong with being gay and me being me. Same goes for everyone else gay...
    TanTwink TanTwink 22-25, M 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    The first time I knew I was gay was the age of 11. The second I realised it I ran to my room and started crying until my eyes hurt, I remember this day so clearly because it was...
    Takino Takino 16-17, M 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    I like being gay too. I know it's weird, but no matter what happens I can't even imagine not feeling an intimate attraction towards other men. I've tried to imagine how would feel...
    KeithPrice94 KeithPrice94 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 22

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    I'm scared of being gay. I more scared of not finding anyone who is attracted to me. I need someone who will give me an honest opinion on my looks. I don't have to be your type, I...
    Jbsc21 Jbsc21 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 4

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    Fall for his gay bestie? Not so confidant in that. Experiment with them, that's a different story.
    Michael5280 Michael5280 36-40, M 1 day ago

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    my mom married 3 times. each guy treated her worse than the one before. the last one was my dad who abused her, his kids, her kids by previous marriages, and anyone else within...
    Transluminal2010 Transluminal2010 41-45, M 2 Responses Apr 6

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    When you get an unexpected phone call from a debt collector your first thoughts are probably fear and shock. You don't remember any outstanding debts and the person who is...
    hemasbags hemasbags 26-30, F Apr 7

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    At times I really hate it. Accepting myself for who I was changed my life, but at the same time I'm scared of being this way for the rest of my life. I can't force myself to be...
    Rayonkier Rayonkier 18-21, F Mar 31

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    Things were okay until he came home from university. He decided to drop out a couple weeks into second semester because he hated it and it wasn't what he wanted to do with his life...
    halfbloodprincess halfbloodprincess 18-21, F Apr 7

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    I'm not sure if this is considered selfish, but I didn't know where else this list would fit. Basically, I hate people act like this: -People who make everything about them...
    Dreamer32 Dreamer32 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    I have finally come out as gay, it was a massive moment in my life :) I'm a Male to female pre op transgender and I have always thought I was Bi and would look for a woman when I...
    LucyTG LucyTG 26-30, T 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I believe that without selfishness world can become a better place. That includes the corruption and stuffs like that. Don't act like you own things that you really don't. Don't...
    yuichie yuichie 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Falling for my best friend actually fell, really hard. Was there for her when she told me she was abused n broken...told her I was gay(I'm a girl) n that I needed a friend ...we...
    Rhythmnblues9 Rhythmnblues9 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 5

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    I rebuke selfish people. How can you put yourself in front of others needs?
    AdelaideHayashi AdelaideHayashi 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    Well I'm actually bisexual. I kinda like being like this because I get along great with straight guys. If anyone is single, you can message me and I might give you my number.
    henrijay henrijay 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 20

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    I cannot stand a girl who is stuck on her self. it sickess me to see a stuck up snotty girl who is cold hearted. I don't care how pretty they are on the outside there ugly on the...
    Returnoflordtyrant Returnoflordtyrant 26-30, M Mar 23

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    Some people just steal from stores-.- what gave them the right to steal? Nothing! Those people who own the stores they have families they have to support and bills they have to pay...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 30

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    Just a sweet outgoing sissy boy bottom needs a Masculine TOP Man to treat me like the princess and I dream of being a housewife!
    FemGayBottom FemGayBottom 26-30, T 1 Response Apr 3

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    I'm 17 male and live in Carthage, Texas looking for a boyfriend. If your live around me message or kick me teenboy21 hoping I can find that perfect guy.
    Nicedude17 Nicedude17 16-17, M Mar 20

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    I want a gay from 14 to 17 to be my friend and possibly boyfriend
    LaTeAssassin LaTeAssassin 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 24

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    Anyone in the mood for phone sex?
    paulinknox paulinknox 51-55, M 2 Responses Mar 24

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    All I want is a guy who lives near me and would love me for me and won't break my heart every day someone who is kind generous with a warm heart but tough too. I would promise to...
    Nicedude17 Nicedude17 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 25

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    Looking for a bf. I live in Carthage, Texas and I'm 17. Message me here or kick me teenboy21 if u want a bf, no long distance stuff also 14-18
    Nicedude17 Nicedude17 16-17, M Mar 28

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    Looking for a boyfriend who lives near Carthage, Texas I'm 17 white guy no one older than 18 or younger than 14 message me here or kick me teenboy21.
    Nicedude17 Nicedude17 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 5

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    Looking for a boyfriend who lives near Carthage, Texas I'm 17 white guy no one older than 18 or younger than 14 message me here or kick me teenboy21.
    Nicedude17 Nicedude17 16-17, M Apr 8

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    Looking for a boyfriend who lives near Carthage, Texas I'm 17 white guy no one older than 18 or younger than 14 message me here or kick me teenboy21.
    Nicedude17 Nicedude17 16-17, M 2 days ago

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    Dear dad, I love you with my entire heart Ive watched my mother destroy you for too long it kills me to see you so depressed everyday, I've tried for 3 years to help you prosper...
    simplelife60 simplelife60 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 27

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    How can I put this into words? I started dating a very beautiful, intelligent and funny woman. It was going great, we would hang out and do things like most couples would but, she...
    No551 No551 26-30 Apr 6

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    "Oh, you're sad? It's just puberty." "You're just a teenager." How about NOT judging me and actually listening to me? Why the hell can't I be taken seriously? Yes, I'm teenager...
    adorea adorea 70+, F Apr 8

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    I started talking to this guy in September. We were crazy about each other from the beginning, but we live on opposite sides of the world. We said we wanted to be together and he...
    CaliLove87 CaliLove87 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I think that it is possible. And if he doesn't actually fall for him, maybe messing around with him is possible. We all have curiosity. Best friends are not exempt from feeling...
    Michael5280 Michael5280 36-40, M 6 days ago

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    I hate that I hate myself. I look at other people and wish I had the same confidence that they do. But I know some day I'll be confident just like them, I just have to wait.
    sammylynn333 sammylynn333 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    When I ask for help, I always feel like it's admitting that I'm stupid, yes I score high on the standardized tests and have a high IQ but I still hate it when I don't get things...
    EmoGirl286 EmoGirl286 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 19

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    I have done a lot for cancer and awareness. I will not feel bad because I will not participate. I am perfectly comfortable without makeup, and those photos can easily be found on...
    sylviaturner sylviaturner 26-30, F Mar 18

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    One of the main reason why I don't like asking for help because most of the time when I ask for it, the person does not deliver. It only talk and no action.
    ChillyWilly82 ChillyWilly82 31-35, M Mar 18