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I Hate My Self For Being Gay

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 46 People

    It Ruined My Life

    My own family doesn't accept me. I've been facing this situation by myself since I came out in high school. I'm an adult and my parents still hope I turn gay well I'm not! I hate this, this is stupid, I don't do drugs, I finished school, and they just see that what I'm doing is...
    Ix6o Ix6o 26-30 3 Responses Sep 11, 2013

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    I Love You

    This may not help. Some people may roll their eyes...but I will say it anyway because you never know. So many people support gay people and truly completely wholeheartedly care.I don't know each and everyone of your personal lives so i can't say that its the place that you live...
    VioletSound333 VioletSound333 18-21, F Dec 7, 2011

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    Today As Usual...

    I was thinking so much of men and my instant reaction after was to slit my wrist how stupid right? I really hate being this way and there must be a way to not be this way i know you might be reading and disagree but i do believe that there is a way.....but how or what is the way...
    Jeair Jeair 22-25, M 11 Responses Jul 28, 2009

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    I am openly gay and my family is ok with it

    but I'm the one that isn't ok with it.. It seems I'm happy but if there was a pill tomorrow to turn me str8 then I would take it. It would just be easier than have people judging me and looking at me funny. Being judged in both worlds is hard! Str8 world I'm skinny but gay world...
    lonely8888 lonely8888 26-30, M Jan 3

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    If Your On This Site You Can Guess What I'm Writing About Lol

    ok here it goes. my parents weren't too accepting when i came out, therefore, i act as straight as i can.  i have lots of friends who're all very cool and accepting of me, but a lot of ppl have done a lot of **** to me. i used to be really nice and carefree and trust everyone...
    fatbirdsinbonnets fatbirdsinbonnets 18-21 3 Responses Mar 26, 2011

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    So Often

    I hate myself for being gay and other times i don't. For instance i like being gay because i think it has helped me with my empathy. Being gay sometimes makes me feel defective you know? Like one of those tin items on the shelf in a supermarket with a dent so it is either sold...
    Jeair Jeair 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 13, 2010

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    Not Actually Hating Myself Right Now...

    Year 2010 has been a quite hard year for me so far. I've been going trough a quite large emotional and spiritual crises troughout the year. And it's all because of the fact (I guess) me being a homosexual. I had my first boy crush at age of 13 and since then there has been many...
    IdontKnowEther IdontKnowEther 22-25, M 18 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    I have my faults as well. But why does he need to change?
    Asereht Asereht 31-35, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    If you hate me, I am just gonna keep on loving you unconditionally like God tells us to so whoever reads this I love you so much and I hope you have a very nice day :) :)
    theguywiththeredhair theguywiththeredhair 18-21, M 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    why are you making him wrong for changing? what was your part in that change? did he change to be closer to you? food for thought.
    bigheartsmallworld bigheartsmallworld 36-40, M 23 hrs ago

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    It feels so ******* bad...especially after you've spoiled a relationship and you're the only one that's in love. I can't stop thinking of what I could've done to make it better...I...
    Kbrabbit Kbrabbit 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    My Dusautonomia has gotten the better of me..at times I have to ask for help and it hurts me so much to have to do this. I had to have assistance in the shower from my boyfriend...
    katelynchildress katelynchildress 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    Half the people under 24 now admit they're not straight. It's time to stop identifying ourselves with labels. https://yougov.co.uk/news/2015/08/16/half-young-not-heterosexual/
    PolyesterTrouser PolyesterTrouser 22-25, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I ******* hate job hunting its a hirers market in this crap day and age and economy. Employers today are ******** lol.
    Sirmarkwhite Sirmarkwhite 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    How To Turn Six Dollars Into Six Thousand Dollars: I found this on a bulletin board and decided to try it. A little while back I was browsing through newsgroups just like you are...
    manusundr manusundr 46-50, M Aug 22

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    of MYSELF O_O .
    cashetty69 cashetty69 51-55, M Aug 22

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    I only speak when I've got something worthwhile to say. I'm not going to say something purely for the sake of opening my mouth. Yes, I am quiet, so what?!
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 21

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    Waiting for a reply is like waiting for a bomb to drop and explode upon impact. The bone-chilling anxiety that surrounds you is just crazy...
    fuwhat fuwhat 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 21

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    I am all way free to talk to
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 21

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    over and over and over again. I don't want to think about this. screaming and yelling and pain over and over again. rotten deep within,build up your walls again.over and over and...
    catacomb catacomb 66-70 Aug 21

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    *Part 3* Chris's birthday came up in July, so I bought him a basketball which he needed since he's a player. And I made him a beach party with his close friends including Joyce...
    M1k3L3vitZ M1k3L3vitZ 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 20

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    *Part 2* Joyce is one of my dearest friends, and she was interested in my best friend Chris. So it kinda hurt me deciding wether to give Joyce, Chris's phone number, but I did...
    M1k3L3vitZ M1k3L3vitZ 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    This is quite a long story, but I'm gonna try to summarize it the best I can. So, I have this best friend called Chris, and another one called Polly. At the start of this new year...
    M1k3L3vitZ M1k3L3vitZ 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 20

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    Is being quiet is crime now?
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 20

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    my fingers get sore typing up all that info. on a job application, and then they also want a resume n you have to take like 5 different surveys, and register for accounts and log...
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 Aug 20

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    advice sisters for me for being a good husband ??
    Billyaldo Billyaldo 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    Hey guys K|k me - suck_it_baby_ Or snapchat me - darkboy001 For some fun 16+
    suckitdaddy suckitdaddy 18-21, M Aug 17

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    i tend to ramble and talk a lot. i also go off on tangents. i used to have a friend and we were so alike in this and it was fun talking to her...so i know there's people out there...
    cosmosdrift cosmosdrift 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    Why express such vanity as to take photographs of yourself for no good reason. It would be okay if someone took a photo for you for something memorable, but when people take 10-20...
    Randompi Randompi 13-15, F Aug 16

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    Hey guys. How's everyone doing?
    Schumy Schumy 31-35, M 4 Responses Aug 16

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    His stupid lies, his broken promises! I hate him for making me become the person that I am today. I should have known that I knew better than to give him a chance, but I did it...
    Felicia209 Felicia209 18-21, F Aug 16

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    K|k me for some fun 16 n older K|k- suck_it_baby_ Snapchat- darkboy001
    suckitdaddy suckitdaddy 18-21, M Aug 15

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    When I observe people talking, I notice that in most cases, they talk about themselves the whole time. They don't really listen to the person, they just stay silent until the...
    coolestdweebyahknow coolestdweebyahknow 22-25, F Aug 15

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    I like to do things on my own, i really do hate asking for help. ppl have no idea how hard it is for me to ask, so if I humble myself to ask you for help, consider yourself the few...
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 Aug 14

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    I have no problem if a guy is gay. If anybody is gay and is beining judged by that always remember that I think there is noooo problem if u are gay❤️❤️
    Joan8916 Joan8916 13-15, F Aug 14

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    I think selfish people are entitled to be selfish ( as long as they realize that in being selfish they'll have no/fewer friends :-)
    cashetty69 cashetty69 51-55, M Aug 14

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    I cooked some food and my Fake Mother cussed at me. My other stories will tell you everything you need to know about my current situation. AS FAR AS MY FAKE MOTHER IS CONCERNED...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F Aug 13

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    I hate asking for help, especially if it is something I really need/want. I can't stand being indebted to someone.
    Evabeth Evabeth 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 13

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    Not even the millionth picture I take of myself could tell me that I'm beautiful. I am the ugliest creation ever made. and... I take at least 50-70 pictures a day to analyze...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 12

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    Yeah. As if I haven't been abused by many men enough. I thought I was having a wonderful conversation with someone until I get inboxed by the guy asking me to suck his thing...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 11

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    I went to a family reunion last week and I hadnt seen most of my fam for over two years. I overheard my aunts talking abut how much weight I'd gained... i guess theyre right. what...
    lulululu908 lulululu908 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 11

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