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I Hate My Self For Being Gay

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    It Ruined My Life

    My own family doesn't accept me. I've been facing this situation by myself since I came out in high school. I'm an adult and my parents still hope I turn gay well I'm not! I hate this, this is stupid, I don't do drugs, I finished school, and they just see that what I'm doing is...
    Ix6o Ix6o 26-30 3 Responses Sep 11, 2013

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    I Love You

    This may not help. Some people may roll their eyes...but I will say it anyway because you never know. So many people support gay people and truly completely wholeheartedly care.I don't know each and everyone of your personal lives so i can't say that its the place that you live...
    VioletSound333 VioletSound333 18-21, F Dec 7, 2011

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    I am openly gay and my family is ok with it

    but I'm the one that isn't ok with it.. It seems I'm happy but if there was a pill tomorrow to turn me str8 then I would take it. It would just be easier than have people judging me and looking at me funny. Being judged in both worlds is hard! Str8 world I'm skinny but gay world...
    lonely8888 lonely8888 26-30, M Jan 3, 2015

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    So Often

    I hate myself for being gay and other times i don't. For instance i like being gay because i think it has helped me with my empathy. Being gay sometimes makes me feel defective you know? Like one of those tin items on the shelf in a supermarket with a dent so it is either sold...
    Jeair Jeair 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 13, 2010

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    i just hate myself.i dont like being gay

    and im constantly worried somebody is going to find out. every time i have gay thoughts or experience same s ex attraction i hurt myself because i just feel. digusting. i really wish somebody could help me just.... not be gay. please.
    raygell raygell 22-25, M 3 Responses Sep 21, 2015

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    Not Actually Hating Myself Right Now...

    Year 2010 has been a quite hard year for me so far. I've been going trough a quite large emotional and spiritual crises troughout the year. And it's all because of the fact (I guess) me being a homosexual. I had my first boy crush at age of 13 and since then there has been many...
    IdontKnowEther IdontKnowEther 26-30, M 18 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    Today As Usual...

    I was thinking so much of men and my instant reaction after was to slit my wrist how stupid right? I really hate being this way and there must be a way to not be this way i know you might be reading and disagree but i do believe that there is a way.....but how or what is the way...
    Jeair Jeair 22-25, M 11 Responses Jul 28, 2009

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    If Your On This Site You Can Guess What I'm Writing About Lol

    ok here it goes. my parents weren't too accepting when i came out, therefore, i act as straight as i can.  i have lots of friends who're all very cool and accepting of me, but a lot of ppl have done a lot of **** to me. i used to be really nice and carefree and trust everyone...
    fatbirdsinbonnets fatbirdsinbonnets 18-21 3 Responses Mar 26, 2011

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    I am a genuine, educated, athletic, handsome, physically fit DISCREET gay man looking for a discreet lesbian to enjoy life with. I am looking to experience all the little things in...
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    I am a genuine, educated, athletic, handsome, physically fit DISCREET gay man looking for a discreet lesbian to enjoy life with. I am looking to experience all the little things in...
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    I came out a while back ,its been really hard . my family had the biggest problem with it .I was sad and couldn't seem to think I could handle the situation but it has made me...
    timjusttim123 timjusttim123 16-17, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I still remember every single moment back then , when i was bullied for being thin and weak , for being smart in opposite of the others . I remember how every one in my class tried...
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    I still remember when i first accepted the fact that i am a gay man. My whole life i knew i was attracted to men but i would always be ashamed and hide it even from myself. I...
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    It always feel like I'm being watched and judged by everything I do or say. Most of the time, I try and ignore that looming feeling but other times it just sort've..gets to me. It...
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    I feel that most people in my life are only there due to convenience. I don't feel any "bond" or connection with even my closest friends and family anymore. I know it's my fault...
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    Well... since this is an experience-sharing group I would like to tell my story of how is being gay in my life ^~^ maybe will be a lot to write... so if dont like to read skip this...
    Dominii Dominii 16-17, M Feb 2

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