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I Hate My Self For Being Gay

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 43 People

    Not Actually Hating Myself Right Now...

    Year 2010 has been a quite hard year for me so far. I've been going trough a quite large emotional and spiritual crises troughout the year. And it's all because of the fact (I guess) me being a homosexual. I had my first boy crush at age of 13 and since then there has been many...
    IdontKnowEther IdontKnowEther 22-25, M 18 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    So Often

    I hate myself for being gay and other times i don't. For instance i like being gay because i think it has helped me with my empathy. Being gay sometimes makes me feel defective you know? Like one of those tin items on the shelf in a supermarket with a dent so it is either sold...
    Jeair Jeair 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 13, 2010

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    I am openly gay and my family is ok with it

    but I'm the one that isn't ok with it.. It seems I'm happy but if there was a pill tomorrow to turn me str8 then I would take it. It would just be easier than have people judging me and looking at me funny. Being judged in both worlds is hard! Str8 world I'm skinny but gay world...
    lonely8888 lonely8888 26-30, M Jan 3

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    I Love You

    This may not help. Some people may roll their eyes...but I will say it anyway because you never know. So many people support gay people and truly completely wholeheartedly care.I don't know each and everyone of your personal lives so i can't say that its the place that you live...
    VioletSound333 VioletSound333 18-21, F Dec 7, 2011

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    Today As Usual...

    I was thinking so much of men and my instant reaction after was to slit my wrist how stupid right? I really hate being this way and there must be a way to not be this way i know you might be reading and disagree but i do believe that there is a way.....but how or what is the way...
    Jeair Jeair 22-25, M 11 Responses Jul 28, 2009

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    If Your On This Site You Can Guess What I'm Writing About Lol

    ok here it goes. my parents weren't too accepting when i came out, therefore, i act as straight as i can.  i have lots of friends who're all very cool and accepting of me, but a lot of ppl have done a lot of **** to me. i used to be really nice and carefree and trust everyone...
    fatbirdsinbonnets fatbirdsinbonnets 18-21 3 Responses Mar 26, 2011

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    It Ruined My Life

    My own family doesn't accept me. I've been facing this situation by myself since I came out in high school. I'm an adult and my parents still hope I turn gay well I'm not! I hate this, this is stupid, I don't do drugs, I finished school, and they just see that what I'm doing is...
    Ix6o Ix6o 26-30 3 Responses Sep 11, 2013

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    I'm gay. I have my ups and downs with being gay. For example today I was quite happy being gay. I know that one day I'll be happy with my boyfriend or maybe husband, if it's...
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    It's been four months since I have been in a relationship and I think it's time to start dating again and I am done with getting hurt and feeling bad and Ik thats what happens in a...
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    Hi everyone, there's something I need to get of my chest and it's killing me. I'm a 27 year old woman who recently got out of a relationship with a muslim man. I met him about 7...
    Katef88 Katef88 22-25 Apr 8

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    I've finally accepted that I'm gay. It feels great, I thought I was Bi, but I feel like it was just a go to thing for not being sure. Now to explain this to all my friends who...
    DLaPratt DLaPratt 13-15, M Apr 7

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    JakeeeeR JakeeeeR 18-21, M Mar 19

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    Don't start our conversation by saying stuff like "I know I'm ugly but," or "I'm not the smartest,". Just stop. The first step to being confident is acting confident, and thinking...
    TickleMeCell TickleMeCell 16-17, T 1 Response Mar 26

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    I've hurt so many people. I've lost so many people. I've disappointed so many people... but my love for that high overrules it all. it's not that I don't care, I just don't see a...
    addictionbarbie addictionbarbie 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    I'm so tired of being alone, I used to love my alone time, now I have as much as I want and I'm completely unsatisfied. I spend my free time meeting people, trying to fill that...
    RobertE22 RobertE22 31-35 4 Responses Apr 9

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    My wife is doing really well, and for the first time, I realized that she's going to be ok. I want that for her but it also makes me sad. She's probably going to find someone...
    RobertE22 RobertE22 31-35 4 Responses Mar 22

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    dm me on instagram at dylan_carney if you wanna talk. i follow for follow
    dylancrny dylancrny 18-21, M Mar 29

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    I don't even know where to start and that's exactly how I feel. I've been saying for the past two months that I don't want a relationship, only to realize that I do, it's exactly...
    RobertE22 RobertE22 31-35 2 Responses Apr 2

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    I'm 16 from Dallas tx. I am single looking for a boyfriend
    Alexfroot Alexfroot 16-17, M Mar 22

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    trew5432 trew5432 13-15, M 3 Responses Apr 3

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    awsome2 awsome2 18-21, T Apr 6

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    I was so upset that I almost forgot who I was. I really had to think about the reasons why I was crying and the reasons weren't worth my tears. I just have to learn how to forgive...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 28

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    The One Who has brought you into being from nothingness can take your worries back into nothingness. Subhaan Allah
    Fizzy0875 Fizzy0875 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    Aw my poor uncle. I know you've only got the next 24 to 48 hours. I Probly won't get to see you again. I forgive you and I love you. May the great spirit rest your soul. Say hi to...
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F Apr 8

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    No matter how much he hurt me I still tend to love him even more. I said I will give all my love for him and I think I did. Because during December 2014, I realized it's been two...
    RoselynnPila RoselynnPila 16-17, F 14 hrs ago

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    Hey prokamin I can say what I wanna say. I've got a lot of crap going on. You can be a see you next Tuesday about my choice of words but this place isn't about hakuna matata...
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    follow me on insta at dylan_carney. dm me and i follow back
    dylancrny dylancrny 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    koh72 koh72 41-45, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    ANNI3PI3 ANNI3PI3 16-17, F Mar 25

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    I was on the fence about this at first but it really gets me going nowadays
    bbyxoxo bbyxoxo 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    Mmmm so naughty bend me over and spank me!
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    I may not act like the best Muslim but I'm still very proud of my religion and I feel very blessed to be Muslim
    Zjmsmyking Zjmsmyking 16-17, F Mar 20

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    Laa ilaaha illaa anta subhaanaka innee kuntu minazzalimeen There is no God but Thou,glory be to Thee,surely I am of those who make themselves to suffer loss. SURAH AL-ANBIYA...
    Fizzy0875 Fizzy0875 36-40, F Mar 21

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