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I Hate My Self For Being Gay

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 39 People

    Today As Usual...

    I was thinking so much of men and my instant reaction after was to slit my wrist how stupid right? I really hate being this way and there must be a way to not be this way i know you might be reading and disagree but i do believe that there is a way.....but how or what is the way...
    Jeair Jeair 22-25, M 11 Responses Jul 28, 2009

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    So Often

    I hate myself for being gay and other times i don't. For instance i like being gay because i think it has helped me with my empathy. Being gay sometimes makes me feel defective you know? Like one of those tin items on the shelf in a supermarket with a dent so it is either sold...
    Jeair Jeair 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 13, 2010

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    It Ruined My Life

    My own family doesn't accept me. I've been facing this situation by myself since I came out in high school. I'm an adult and my parents still hope I turn gay well I'm not! I hate this, this is stupid, I don't do drugs, I finished school, and they just see that what I'm doing is...
    Ix6o Ix6o 26-30 3 Responses Sep 11, 2013

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    If Your On This Site You Can Guess What I'm Writing About Lol

    ok here it goes. my parents weren't too accepting when i came out, therefore, i act as straight as i can.  i have lots of friends who're all very cool and accepting of me, but a lot of ppl have done a lot of **** to me. i used to be really nice and carefree and trust everyone...
    fatbirdsinbonnets fatbirdsinbonnets 18-21 3 Responses Mar 26, 2011

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    I Love You

    This may not help. Some people may roll their eyes...but I will say it anyway because you never know. So many people support gay people and truly completely wholeheartedly care.I don't know each and everyone of your personal lives so i can't say that its the place that you live...
    VioletSound333 VioletSound333 18-21, F Dec 7, 2011

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    Not Actually Hating Myself Right Now...

    Year 2010 has been a quite hard year for me so far. I've been going trough a quite large emotional and spiritual crises troughout the year. And it's all because of the fact (I guess) me being a homosexual. I had my first boy crush at age of 13 and since then there has been many...
    IdontKnowEther IdontKnowEther 22-25, M 18 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    I make me two cuts today, I just hate my self and everyone thinks I have a perfect life and that, that is not true I just want someone by my side but I am lonely
    apriljackson apriljackson 13-15, F a week ago

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    People after people get disappointed in me.. And for what.. ? Everything..
    akaKitten akaKitten 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 30

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    I can't believe I hated myself and believed that there was something wrong with me because I am not attracted to women sexually. I tried to think they were ok but I know what I...
    Czexican Czexican 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 3

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    I am proud of myself! Being gay doesn't define what are you, because for me being gay defines who are you! Hello there hope to have some friends here! Feel free to message me...
    DEACTIVATEDACCNT DEACTIVATEDACCNT 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 6

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    I'm gay and this was one of the best things that ever happened to me....I love being gay:D
    000Thallensjaan 000Thallensjaan 16-17, M 4 days ago

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    I am scared of the things that come with being gay. One would be is being alone, guys are very visual and I personally don't feel like I would be visually appealing to someone you...
    ZNior ZNior 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 20

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    Hi there. Actually I'm no longer struggling :-) I had a really really hard time but managed to get out of my depression with help of my best friend (and some professionals). I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Oct 10

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    Being gay is just our flesh Just like being fat is our flesh But deny yur flesh fast n pray I p ray that all of yu will see the light I love yu all!!
    jinna69 jinna69 31-35, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I don't want to leave my wife but I'm realizing that I want to be honest about who I am. I struggle with being gay because I have deceived people (wife, family, friends, neighbors...
    walkingcast1 walkingcast1 41-45, M 5 Responses Sep 22

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    Being gay is not a crime. People aren't doing anything wrong. Because homosexuality is not something that they can control. There isn't a cure for homosexuality, because these...
    CreoleItalianwoman CreoleItalianwoman 31-35, F 4 Responses Sep 28

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    I hate my feet being cold, what a horrible feeling ❄❄❄❄❄
    mysticangel40 mysticangel40 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    I guess I hate asking for help because I always want to be the one to help others, it's what makes me happy. But lately I've had to come to the realization that you can't pour into...
    jolieember12 jolieember12 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 21

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    He has been in my life for 12 years. We've been married for 5 years. Then he just stopped talking to me. Just ... stopped. 45 days later he asked me when I was going to finally see...
    e78celia e78celia 36-40, F Sep 20

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    I was beaten up and emotionally bullied all through school. Now, I love seeing the people that bullied me for being an 'ugly freak'. I am not ugly and of a freak means not being...
    fuerza23 fuerza23 22-25, F Sep 20

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    Look I don't hate New Zealanders, it's not for me to judge them, I even have a couple New Zealanders in my family. But the truth is they chose to be New Zealanders look at every...
    incessantecho incessantecho 26-30, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    iwannarock iwannarock 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 23

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    This is just self evident. Why would I mind how two consenting adults love each other?
    Zabecki Zabecki 51-55, M 1 Response Sep 29

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    Sometimes I'll go to a **** shop or book store to purchase gay ****. If the store is empty I go to the gay area of the store and check out the selections. If not I can't bring...
    walkingcast1 walkingcast1 41-45, M 2 Responses Sep 29

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    Literally, like, where are all the gay people!?!?!
    lastminutethings lastminutethings 16-17, M 2 Responses Sep 22

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    I know deep down inside I am gay, I have fought this since I was a child, never understanding why this was happening to me. People preached that it was alwful and that you should...
    SexuBio SexuBio 18-21, M 6 Responses Oct 7

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    I'm out to my friends and everyone I know. If anyone asks my sexuality, I'd say I'm gay. But I'm not sure about telling my dad. He's very homophobic, and I don't want to be kicked...
    PFowler PFowler 16-17, M 4 Responses Sep 24

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    It sounds weird that since I have converted to Catholicism and have grown in Christ that I have finally accepted the fact that I'm gay. I have yet to come out to all of my friends...
    jbussing jbussing 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 4

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    I find it hard to deal with but i know i am well...gay I've already accepted this what im worried is that if come out my parents will have a fit cause of religious reasons when I...
    Joshuadd07 Joshuadd07 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 7

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    I'm so proud to be gay and I love it
    rob7819 rob7819 36-40, M Oct 8

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    I don't mind people who self harm or judge them, though i personally think that the act of self harm is stupid. I understand that people do it to relieve pain that they hold, but...
    DexterPyro DexterPyro 13-15, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    So I am that type of professional young well-mannered manly good-looking discreet gay guy. Looking for the same in a lesbian who wants the same as I want. Nobody will understand...
    LeGentle LeGentle 22-25 Sep 24

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    I can give you my phone and simply allow you look at my gallery and never see a single picture of me. When I do take selfies, I just delete them right away like a bad memory. Since...
    acitythatneverwakesup acitythatneverwakesup 16-17, F Sep 27

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    I'm a gay asian guy in the US, looking for a MOC with a nice fit lesbian. Please message me, hope to hear from you. I'm fit healthy, 30s, nice guy.
    male4moc male4moc 31-35, M Sep 27

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    I've never had a relationship that wasn't short-lived and only about sexual stuff. I was either too shy to go after the ones I really wanted or too oblivious to realize that there...
    TheEmberLeader TheEmberLeader 22-25, M Oct 12

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    Here's a shortened list: • f*ggot • lesbian (in a mean way, pointing it out) • gay • emo • too fat -> too skinny -> fat (again) WHY DO THEY CALL ME THESE THINGS?
    secretly1honest secretly1honest 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I hate winter, but this year I will be extra prepared. Ill buy that remote so I can warm up my car from inside my house. I will buy my own snow blower and leg warmers. I will...
    KiannaJ KiannaJ 22-25, F Sep 22

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    Anyone gay near Niagara Falls Canada? I'm looking for a relationship, hmu!
    CreativeBi CreativeBi 16-17, M Sep 30

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    I don't like people tell me that I need to be married if I not that into marriage or having kids as well. What get on my nerve is when people tell me to grow up which it means to...
    sham17 sham17 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 3

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    Looking for someone my age or close to it (No one over 18) who wants to skiipe with me and watch me do stuff
    Gayestofthemall Gayestofthemall 16-17, M Oct 1

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    I don't know what to do... I hate getting help but, my life is too much to tackle alone.... Guess it's just what I have to do huh? **** I hate this so much I don't even know
    debonaireash debonaireash 16-17, M Sep 28

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    I know I'll never kiss you But I can't stop thinking of your lips on mine I know I'll never hug you But I can't stop imagining being snug between your arms I know I'll never make...
    covetanother covetanother 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 28

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    Jennaaaababyy Jennaaaababyy 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 5

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    Sometimes I feel like I'm not a very good girlfriend. I want to make him happy but we are in a long distance relationship and I wanna know how I can make us even closer without...
    kitten2468 kitten2468 13-15, F Oct 8

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    This is me, clothes shopping is my worst nightmare, always need someone with me otherwise I'll come back empty handed! Currently in town looking for a new coat and it's not going...
    yabbadoo9 yabbadoo9 31-35, M Oct 10

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    I think it's week. Not if others asks for help, only if I do.
    16MoodGamer 16MoodGamer 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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