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I Hate My Self For Being Gay

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 43 People

    I Love You

    This may not help. Some people may roll their eyes...but I will say it anyway because you never know. So many people support gay people and truly completely wholeheartedly care.I don't know each and everyone of your personal lives so i can't say that its the place that you live...
    VioletSound333 VioletSound333 18-21, F Dec 7, 2011

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    If Your On This Site You Can Guess What I'm Writing About Lol

    ok here it goes. my parents weren't too accepting when i came out, therefore, i act as straight as i can.  i have lots of friends who're all very cool and accepting of me, but a lot of ppl have done a lot of **** to me. i used to be really nice and carefree and trust everyone...
    fatbirdsinbonnets fatbirdsinbonnets 18-21 3 Responses Mar 26, 2011

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    Today As Usual...

    I was thinking so much of men and my instant reaction after was to slit my wrist how stupid right? I really hate being this way and there must be a way to not be this way i know you might be reading and disagree but i do believe that there is a way.....but how or what is the way...
    Jeair Jeair 22-25, M 11 Responses Jul 28, 2009

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    Not Actually Hating Myself Right Now...

    Year 2010 has been a quite hard year for me so far. I've been going trough a quite large emotional and spiritual crises troughout the year. And it's all because of the fact (I guess) me being a homosexual. I had my first boy crush at age of 13 and since then there has been many...
    IdontKnowEther IdontKnowEther 22-25, M 18 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    It Ruined My Life

    My own family doesn't accept me. I've been facing this situation by myself since I came out in high school. I'm an adult and my parents still hope I turn gay well I'm not! I hate this, this is stupid, I don't do drugs, I finished school, and they just see that what I'm doing is...
    Ix6o Ix6o 26-30 3 Responses Sep 11, 2013

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    I am openly gay and my family is ok with it

    but I'm the one that isn't ok with it.. It seems I'm happy but if there was a pill tomorrow to turn me str8 then I would take it. It would just be easier than have people judging me and looking at me funny. Being judged in both worlds is hard! Str8 world I'm skinny but gay world...
    lonely8888 lonely8888 26-30, M Jan 3

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    So Often

    I hate myself for being gay and other times i don't. For instance i like being gay because i think it has helped me with my empathy. Being gay sometimes makes me feel defective you know? Like one of those tin items on the shelf in a supermarket with a dent so it is either sold...
    Jeair Jeair 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 13, 2010

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    This is it. I give up. I'm sorry for giving up but I can only take so much. I've lost to many people I care about and I'm worried of hurting another. It's best it's all over now.
    EpicBrotato EpicBrotato 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 5

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    I hate being gay because it means that I will be alone for the rest of my life. The feeling of liking someone is so wonderful yet you should stop right aways cause that guy that...
    johnlee1527 johnlee1527 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 13

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    I had a dream my wife was dating a guy seriously and I was really hurt. To think of all the intimacy and love we shared and then to think of her sharing that with another man is...
    RobertE22 RobertE22 31-35 1 Response Mar 9

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    Is like you are instantly the center of attraction , people turning the heads around to look at you and check you out with a magnifying glass, oh and those looks, oh looks to die...
    Iamaboytoo Iamaboytoo 31-35, M Mar 10

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    I hate self righteous Christians who generally lack compassion.
    Eflen7 Eflen7 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    I have been hit and bullied for being transgender but that's was when I was in high school and know I just get dirty looks and name called so yeah me and my transgender and gay...
    imyourboyhere imyourboyhere 18-21, T 3 Responses Mar 8

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    ... or actually basically always. But I try hard not to show it. The truth is: I feel ashamed for not being loved. I feel ashamed for living alone, without a loving partner...
    ElonaElona ElonaElona 41-45, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Dont Like People Who Make Fun N Abuse Kids For Being Kids
    goodnites25 goodnites25 22-25, M Mar 21

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    I have been picking here and there article that our young teenage community may benefit from. The below was chosen fom an article of the gay Advocate magazine, if you are specially...
    Iamaboytoo Iamaboytoo 31-35, M Mar 13

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    Today's reasons why my husband that I should divorce hates me today: 1. My credit score is better than his, but it's my fault anyway. 2. Not having time to read a self help book...
    Booksaremypassion Booksaremypassion 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 9

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    I love beind gay and looking to talk and meet new people
    JakeeeeR JakeeeeR 18-21, M Mar 19

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    Don't start our conversation by saying stuff like "I know I'm ugly but," or "I'm not the smartest,". Just stop. The first step to being confident is acting confident, and thinking...
    TickleMeCell TickleMeCell 16-17, T 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm so Confused! PART 1 So I changed schools. I finished my tenth grade and left to another school and stayed there my junior and senior year. In my junior year I met a boy named...
    M1k3L3vitZ M1k3L3vitZ 18-21, M Mar 5

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    I'm so Confused PART 2 ...So Josh is constantly telling me to go to places with him, like the mall, to the pool, he even wanted to spend New Years Eve with me, and of course I...
    M1k3L3vitZ M1k3L3vitZ 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 5

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    Here I am again at the end of the day missing my wife and kids. I still see them, but obviously everything is exceptionally different. I want to sleep in the same bed, share the...
    RobertE22 RobertE22 31-35 1 Response Mar 9

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    Mainly cuz I'm gay cause apparently that makes me different from every freaking person ever
    silverstrike silverstrike 13-15, M 4 Responses Mar 10

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    I really want a friend to talk to! It doesnt matter if you r gay,lesbian or straight. As long as u are around my age.
    Taviluvsyou Taviluvsyou 13-15, M Mar 15

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    My wife is doing really well, and for the first time, I realized that she's going to be ok. I want that for her but it also makes me sad. She's probably going to find someone...
    RobertE22 RobertE22 31-35 4 Responses Mar 22

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    dm me on instagram at dylan_carney if you wanna talk. i follow for follow
    dylancrny dylancrny 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    But I'm going to say it anyway!! I am sick of living under the same roof with this man. I am sick of hearing his wheezing and his farts through my bedroom wall. I am sick of...
    lovelywarpedlemon lovelywarpedlemon 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 10

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    I'm 16 from Dallas tx. I am single looking for a boyfriend
    gboebi gboebi 16-17, M Mar 22

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    I was so upset that I almost forgot who I was. I really had to think about the reasons why I was crying and the reasons weren't worth my tears. I just have to learn how to forgive...
    HerTrapQueen HerTrapQueen 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    Today, I called my mother and said, "I'm going to die unless you help me." I did absolutely mean that in the literal sense, too. This is a long life. I have aTN, and I'm only 29. I...
    itsaggggthang itsaggggthang 26-30, F Mar 10

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    The One Who has brought you into being from nothingness can take your worries back into nothingness. Subhaan Allah
    Fizzy0875 Fizzy0875 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    Best thing in the world **** wins hands down
    gaypolice999 gaypolice999 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 4

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    I just saw one of my wife's cousins, normally she would wave and say hi, today she looked at me and walked away. As much as I don't want to admit it, it hurt. It makes me feel...
    RobertE22 RobertE22 31-35 Mar 8

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    I have a boyfriend of two months and he's great! He's perfect and an awesome guy but I feel that my struggle is holding me back. I start to wonder if I want to be with him and how...
    kidflash360 kidflash360 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 9

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    I'm struggling with it because I don't want anyone to find out. (With the exception of those who already know.) I don't want them to judge me, but then again I could care less what...
    NobodyLove NobodyLove 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 10

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    So I know that I have to "Find myself", but I don't even know how to start that process. What does that even mean? I know there's so much turmoil inside of me that things...
    RobertE22 RobertE22 31-35 1 Response Mar 16

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    Get up, you're not dead yet.
    casualtyofwar casualtyofwar 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 4

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    or just anyone my age. I just want someone to talk to about anything. I don't care if you're 5000 miles away or more or wherever you are. alright?
    MrRadicals MrRadicals 18-21, M Mar 17

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    Why do I wear my hair up? SO U CANT TOUCH IT!! What is so fascinating about my hair? Yes it's real I get that, yes I know it's soft and it's growing back. Why do you think I cut it...
    ANNI3PI3 ANNI3PI3 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    I used to not like it, but as I have gotten older it's really grown on me. I'm not sure why, it just has.
    ethan96 ethan96 18-21, M 4 Responses Mar 12

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    I was on the fence about this at first but it really gets me going nowadays
    bbyxoxo bbyxoxo 18-21, F a week ago

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    i've been told to write my about my EP rules, so that's what i'm doing (because i just love assignments (take that as you will)). i'm not to talk to anyone on EP inappropriately...
    shimmeringrose shimmeringrose 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 5