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I Hate My Self For Being Gay

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 41 People

    Not Actually Hating Myself Right Now...

    Year 2010 has been a quite hard year for me so far. I've been going trough a quite large emotional and spiritual crises troughout the year. And it's all because of the fact (I guess) me being a homosexual. I had my first boy crush at age of 13 and since then there has been many...
    IdontKnowEther IdontKnowEther 22-25, M 18 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    So Often

    I hate myself for being gay and other times i don't. For instance i like being gay because i think it has helped me with my empathy. Being gay sometimes makes me feel defective you know? Like one of those tin items on the shelf in a supermarket with a dent so it is either sold...
    Jeair Jeair 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 13, 2010

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    Today As Usual...

    I was thinking so much of men and my instant reaction after was to slit my wrist how stupid right? I really hate being this way and there must be a way to not be this way i know you might be reading and disagree but i do believe that there is a way.....but how or what is the way...
    Jeair Jeair 22-25, M 11 Responses Jul 28, 2009

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    I am openly gay and my family is ok with it

    but I'm the one that isn't ok with it.. It seems I'm happy but if there was a pill tomorrow to turn me str8 then I would take it. It would just be easier than have people judging me and looking at me funny. Being judged in both worlds is hard! Str8 world I'm skinny but gay world...
    lonely8888 lonely8888 26-30, M Jan 3

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    I Love You

    This may not help. Some people may roll their eyes...but I will say it anyway because you never know. So many people support gay people and truly completely wholeheartedly care.I don't know each and everyone of your personal lives so i can't say that its the place that you live...
    VioletSound333 VioletSound333 18-21, F Dec 7, 2011

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    It Ruined My Life

    My own family doesn't accept me. I've been facing this situation by myself since I came out in high school. I'm an adult and my parents still hope I turn gay well I'm not! I hate this, this is stupid, I don't do drugs, I finished school, and they just see that what I'm doing is...
    Ix6o Ix6o 26-30 3 Responses Sep 11, 2013

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    If Your On This Site You Can Guess What I'm Writing About Lol

    ok here it goes. my parents weren't too accepting when i came out, therefore, i act as straight as i can.  i have lots of friends who're all very cool and accepting of me, but a lot of ppl have done a lot of **** to me. i used to be really nice and carefree and trust everyone...
    fatbirdsinbonnets fatbirdsinbonnets 18-21 3 Responses Mar 26, 2011

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    Every day i cry about being gay. If i'm open about it jokes are made and stupid questions about sex and other girls are thrown at me, male friends make it obvious to their guy...
    IHateEverythingandMyself IHateEverythingandMyself 18-21, F Jan 10

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    so i just do my exam, math today. and i didn't answer at all because I can't. i'm so stupid you know . i have no skill. im ugly . i have no friends. no one care for me . and i just...
    onikaa onikaa 18-21, F Jan 16

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    i dont know . i just jelous at people that laughing with their friends and I dont know why I am like this . maybe I need someone who can make me so speacial . or maybe its my...
    onikaa onikaa 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    Most likely this kind of drama... I am me and I am who I am. That's the fact that all of us needs to accept. Lately, i mean 2-3 days ago i join a camp and wishing that my crush...
    etude etude 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    So I just turned 18 and am not to sure about anything. I need help and don't know who to talk to. You see ever since I can remember I have always been a little more on the feminine...
    umflic umflic 18-21, M 5 Responses Jan 9

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    I've know I am gay since I was about 13. I denied it even as I fantasized about gay sex. I have come to embrace being gay, it is all I have ever known. Still there is that part of...
    Scott1954 Scott1954 56-60, M 1 Response Jan 13

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    hate asking for help ever since I was little if I feel or hot cut my dad would stare and say to go fix myself when I hurt myself badly he just stared and left me to take care of...
    sadmistak3 sadmistak3 18-21, F Jan 4

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    God, I hate going for help. My parents never really helped me out, so I guess I got good at problem solving, and now I feel that everyone else doesnt know better than me, even...
    nicias nicias 13-15, M Jan 4

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    I hate asking for help, it's such a stressful experience. I don't mind helping out other people, but it does take something out of you when you feel you need to depend on others...
    Lifelover38 Lifelover38 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 6

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    I absolutely adore waking up every morning knowing I'm a gay man! I used to run from my feelings but now I embrace them fully, I'm gay and so very proud of it! There's nothing...
    CW3185 CW3185 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 1

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    Hey! :) So yes as u probably had already seen im gay, well actualy im the only one who knows so i think it doesnt count... :p I fell deeply depressed some times because of this...
    Bral05 Bral05 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 5

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    Open Letter To My Stepfather-At NO TIME were your children held hostage or missing! While you were telling those lies I noticed you never mentioned that by the time my mother died...
    RicanoinHouston RicanoinHouston 26-30, M Jan 10

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    Gay kiik- suck_it_baby_ Looking for some fun too Snap chat too just ask 15+
    suckmegay suckmegay 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 1

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    I dont know where to post this . In 2013 i was asked by two girls that are in my cab if i was gay :'( . We talked that day because we found a rare connection between us three that...
    Savagez Savagez 13-15, M Jan 22

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    And Suicide but I respect those who do it though, I understand that they are going through so much pain and that to them it's their only way out but to me- I see many different...
    AlohaJess AlohaJess 13-15, F Jan 22

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    Saying I am sorry fell on deaf ears not ready to hear it. Going on 4years since I left is long enough for me to grieve, recoup myself... My frailties, my strengths and take a big...
    rowenbumble rowenbumble 56-60, F Jan 12

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    hi am 23 bisexual lesbian i live in Tunisia in north Africa my parents are pressuring to get married and i don't have other options but marriage with a bi or gay man if you are...
    sihem444 sihem444 18-21 Jan 1

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    I'm looking for a bf and I'm tired of getting my heart broken, I want a guy who would love me more than life itself. I'm willing to give you all my love. I'm really into asian guys...
    HydroNitewing15 HydroNitewing15 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 12

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    Hey so I'm 16, from the midwest, and obviously Gay. I play lacrosse and soccer, party like any straight guy, but also at the same time academically focused. I come from an upper...
    zdales98 zdales98 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 18

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    My name is Henry. I'm 13. I'm in 8th grade. I'm pretty small. I'm one of the smallest boys in my grade. I'm short. I'm weak. I'm nowhere close to puberty, as far as I can tell. I'm...
    00Henry 00Henry 13-15, M 8 Responses Jan 22

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    I am 26 year old muslim feminine lesbian. I’m looking for a MOC due to family pressure and also because I want to have children!! I come from a respectful family background, I...
    sabahk sabahk 26-30 Jan 4

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    I have people in my life that I could go to and I know they would listen and do what they could to help, but I don't ask. I don't see needing help as a sign of weakness and I think...
    cowboy004 cowboy004 36-40, M Jan 4

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    I feel like when I ask for help it lower myself and I can't do anything for my self
    Sexybbbbb Sexybbbbb 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    I was told I was a sick by a beautiful woman, so..... I cut all negativity out of my life, stopped being a **** n things are going canny well, I'm in college, new friends, happy...
    gingerstone gingerstone 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 15

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    EP is dead slow for me :/ I don't get any notifications properly.. 'friends who are online' list is another useless thing :/ it doesn't work really.. it shows that a person is...
    amazingmoment90 amazingmoment90 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    I'm in Orlando Fl. At universal studios for the next 2 days, message me if you want more info!
    tacomutated tacomutated 18-21, M Jan 4

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    Well now Ep has deleted my post about my wife sending me pictures. Obviously I included the pictures she sent me and received a deluge of positive comments from both male and...
    dangerousliasons dangerousliasons 46-50, M 13 Responses Jan 21

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    Wow um yea I mean ive never been with another guy before but im ready for it hmu
    jrej16 jrej16 16-17, M 6 days ago

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    I wish I could find a bf that likes me for me
    wweking123 wweking123 16-17, M 5 days ago

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    I'm roughly the same age as him (I'm about a year younger) I've never done anything wrong that I'm aware of! I own my own business I passed all exams and they just hate me because...
    Beccybell Beccybell 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I always help people when they need me I'm always there for them, but when I need help nobody is there, so I don't ask for help anymore.
    brownzugar brownzugar 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 3

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    i beg for help but then I turned out stupid........... **** I always beg for help but this time I'll never ask for help again............
    laineswift13 laineswift13 18-21, F Jan 15

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    If I send you a Snapchat, text, or email and you don't respond fast I will be upset. Especially if it's for something important.
    hondurananonymous hondurananonymous 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 18

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    Nothing makes me totally pig out more than being told how much of a greedy glutton I am, and how every bite of whatever fattening treat I'm devouring is just making me fatter and...
    erica9091 erica9091 26-30, F 7 Responses Jan 15

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    A.. Wipes call me fat all the time I don't care I lick being fat you don't have to run but I wont to kill them
    matto432 matto432 13-15 4 days ago

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    I would have to go for close to two weeks naked. I'll try for it next summer.
    pardax pardax 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 6

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    We have an on-call-duty who is reachable 24/7 in the company I work for. In one week I was the on-call-duty. In the evening I drove home. While driving I got called so I drove to...
    BiNiceBoy BiNiceBoy 22-25, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Wtf ?! I don't feel related to what've written before , not even sure about my sexuality anymore !
    rogersphy rogersphy 18-21, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    Uurrrgghhh... Wow, I am so impatient, it's so annoying
    kingrhys1st kingrhys1st 18-21, M 3 hrs ago

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