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I Hate Myself 90 Percent of the Time

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    I Want A New Life...

    I hate my life & everything about it... I cant remember the last time i was REALLY HAPPY. In the past two years my life has went from bad to worse in every way. I went from one abusive relationship to another. And when i FINALLY said "i wont take it anymore, & im...
    MissCandie MissCandie 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    I always let myself down and I am always at war with my emotions they get the best of me I cry myself to sleep at night because there are prices of my heart missing and cant be found I always end up getting hurt And it tears my heart and soul apart:(
    prettyface1996 prettyface1996 18-21, M Nov 21, 2013

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    Sometimes More Than 90%...

     I hate myself for the thoughts in my head. They aren't always present, but they hide in the darkest corners of my mind. There are days that I am fine, but 90% of the time I hate myself. I hate myself for being overweight and doing nothing about it. I hate myself for...
    sadblueyes sadblueyes 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17, 2009

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    I Hate Myself (selves)

    I live a pseudo-double life--being trans and not out to my family yet-- this accentuates how much I already hate myself, I lack pretty much any self-esteem, confidence, and self-liking (there's such a thing?) I try so hard to make everyone proud of me (everyone meaning my family...
    shaun0h shaun0h 26-30, T 1 Response Feb 15, 2008

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    I Failed In Life.

    HI my name is alex and I failed to the point where it doesn't matter anymore. I did drugs and now have a disease. I hurt my mother. I hurt my stepfather. I watch ****. I am a sorry excuse of a person. I mess up other peoples lives very often. I should be killed for what I've done...
    failureinlife22 failureinlife22 13-15, M Sep 26, 2009

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    You can message me after two day, weeks, or maybe even months, but I'll always reply back to you within 24 hours. I hate myself for being too good lol.
    callmeLys callmeLys 13-15, F 23 hrs ago

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    I hate myself more and more everyday and I didn't even know that was possible. Every time I eat, the hate grow. I'm disappointing Ana and I'm sorry. I just wish I could disappear...
    unlovedana unlovedana 13-15, F 2 hrs ago

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    I hated how I say to people that Im proud of myself and I loved it. I hated how **** I am. I hated how I can be so confident. I hated how I interact with others. I hated how I feel...
    shishishosho97 shishishosho97 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    I hate being strong when I know I'm weak...but I act that way so ppl don't look at me with pity I hate being beautiful when I feel ugly, i put on makeup and dress to impress, but...
    boxgirl1987 boxgirl1987 26-30, F Jan 4

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    It's weird, I haven't really heard of it before. I thought it was just hormones or something that had me confused about my feelings for the first guy, because shortly after...
    idontcareir idontcareir 16-17, F Jan 17

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    I'm ugly, a *****, selfish, fat, lazy, lesbian, immature, thick, hated, loner, loser, ridiculous, a failure, annoying!! I have a lot of reasons to hate myself. and in case I begin...
    AceTeen123 AceTeen123 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 8

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    Yep, I hate myself. Constant litany of self hate. Going on and on. It also doesn't help that dad is constantly belittling me, and my sister insults my intelligence every time I see...
    nicias nicias 13-15, M 3 Responses Jan 11

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    I look in the mirror and I'm unhappy. I compare myself to others and I am so awful. I see pictures of myself and I can't even look at them. I do things that annoy people or I make...
    taylorsuzenski taylorsuzenski 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    I hate myself so much im so ******* ugly and I stopped cutting for a while but now I'm itching to do it again. I'm lonely and only have 4 close friends and I hate everything about...
    sociallyxawk sociallyxawk 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 1

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    I hate myself. Why couldn't I be normal and less crazy or at least be diagnosed to know what's wrong? I hate my face, too youthful. I hate my body; too skiny. I hate everything...
    Lovelife090994 Lovelife090994 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 2

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    Even though i felt lonely, felt depression and suicidal things creeping up on my back bone, the only thing thats keeping me now from waking up with a razor and slitted wrist is the...
    CursedRaven CursedRaven 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    Today I was at the hair salon and a random old lady, I haven't ever met in my whole life called me fat. It's not the fact that I didn't ever hear it before, it's just that I never...
    ihatemyself24 ihatemyself24 26-30, F 7 Responses Jan 3

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    After tonight's cheerleading practice, I kinda felt.. Left out, I've been cheering for over 5 years, with the same gym and everything. But tonight I just felt like nobody really...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 10 Responses Jan 12

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    I like the way this website has all of these "sponsored from around the web" images of before and after pictures and botox, etc. trying to sell crap to the people who hate...
    Lucyismycat Lucyismycat 31-35 a week ago

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    BEWARE!! I am about to write the most personal and sucky story ever. I just need to get it out since no one will talk to me anymore. On Wensday, my "friend" Cam had a party to...
    QuinnMac12 QuinnMac12 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    i feel sick i shouldnt have done what i did its not even been a day and i miss her im so stupid and worthless even just if shed talk to me again im so stupid and pathetic ive...
    greatbritain1707 greatbritain1707 18-21, M Jan 2

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    I absolutely hate myself last night I tried to commit suicide,but I couldn't go through with it. It's like I'm trapped here. One main reason I hate myself is I'm not smart like...
    wassup305 wassup305 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 3

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    I hate myself so bad, I just want to stop being here. I'm here sitting in a bar on my own and that's so lame.
    rosejonescr rosejonescr 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    I hate myself because I can't make any friends , the one true friend I have is my bf , and hes always asleep when I need him. How did I become such a loner , I hate myself for not...
    Lovelyloo Lovelyloo 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 12

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    I hate how I look. I hate how Im weak. I hate how Im alone. I hate myself.
    vicki90 vicki90 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    My dads hate me. Am I really that horrible? My whole life I tried to live up to his expectations. I hid my suicide thoughts my whole life so I wouldn't be a disappointment. I did...
    lexrae lexrae 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 19

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    this speaks for itself... I hate myself.. lmfao its pathetic that a human being like me hate himself... gahh
    dksl14 dksl14 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 1

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    I hate myself for various reasons that i cannot even put into words. Whether it be i feel i always did something wrong, or i am just simply a waste of space, i know no amount of...
    Horse10202 Horse10202 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    I hate myself, i don't need to explain why, i just hate me.
    beee23 beee23 26-30, F 5 Responses Jan 7

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    Sometimes I just have those moments where a little voice in my head says "you're not good enough quit now" and the voice always sounds like my biological dad which makes it that...
    arirose43 arirose43 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 8

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    I hate myself and my body. Ugh I disgust myself.
    PierceSleepingWithParamore PierceSleepingWithParamore 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 8

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    I want to die. I hate myself so much. I hate the way I look, speak and act. Everything about is awful. I'm so talentless, pathetic, desperate and clingy and terrible an ugh god I...
    gybe gybe 18-21, M 5 Responses Jan 16

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    I hate myself, I'm way overweight for my age, not only fat but ugly AF and I just hate the way I am, I'm annoying, I'm such a terrible person and I don't really know how to change...
    cappyroe1 cappyroe1 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 18

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    Sigh. I've ruined it all. Good job, idiot. Honestly, I might not hate myself as much as I hate the way the human brain works.
    junipersun21 junipersun21 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I hate myself for being such a creepy bastard but ****, I need her
    styxc styxc 18-21, M Jan 1

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    I always **** things up! I ****** over the boy I love for someone I was just lusting after. Or so I think. Either way I'll never get the boy I loved back. I'm such a **** up! No...
    Dreamscape98x Dreamscape98x 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    I have a master in pushing guys away, i am 23 years old and I don't have a single relationship, I hate myself because of that but I can't be anybody else but that, I feel lonely...
    fightforme fightforme 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    I ******* hate myself. Why can't I be a good person? Why can't I just be good at talking? Confident.
    Heyheyheyhey99 Heyheyheyhey99 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 7

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    I ******* hate myself and my life right now. I just want to disappear.
    unlovedana unlovedana 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    I hate myself and I'm pretty sure everyone else does I mean who could love me I'm just a waste of space I'll just put it that way
    FadingStarrr FadingStarrr 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 13

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    Wow I really hate myself. Everything I do is wrong.
    BabeFett BabeFett 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 18

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    I hate myself and have really low confidence and self esteem . I don't know how I will surivie in a world where those tangibles are what we are dependent on . I have no drive or...
    Mizo0217 Mizo0217 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    this is recent when i got the chance to communicate with my elementary classmate and now we are in college. i don't know what got me but i like to have him!!! hahaha , you know...
    ritztwain ritztwain 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    Yes I hate my self it's sad to say, but I truly do! All my life I've let people down, I've never been good enough, everyone is always looking for a way to fix me or what to do with...
    br00klynn br00klynn 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    Hey guys. I wrote this as a letter ill never send. let me know what you think? I stopped writing for a while, mostly because, well, I wanted to block out how I had been feeling...
    abbylynn98 abbylynn98 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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