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I Hate Myself 90 Percent of the Time

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    Sometimes More Than 90%...

     I hate myself for the thoughts in my head. They aren't always present, but they hide in the darkest corners of my mind. There are days that I am fine, but 90% of the time I hate myself. I hate myself for being overweight and doing nothing about it. I hate myself for...
    sadblueyes sadblueyes 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17, 2009

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    I always let myself down and I am always at war with my emotions they get the best of me I cry myself to sleep at night because there are prices of my heart missing and cant be found I always end up getting hurt And it tears my heart and soul apart:(
    prettyface1996 prettyface1996 16-17, M Nov 21, 2013

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    I Want A New Life...

    I hate my life & everything about it... I cant remember the last time i was REALLY HAPPY. In the past two years my life has went from bad to worse in every way. I went from one abusive relationship to another. And when i FINALLY said "i wont take it anymore, & im...
    MissCandie MissCandie 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    I Hate Myself (selves)

    I live a pseudo-double life--being trans and not out to my family yet-- this accentuates how much I already hate myself, I lack pretty much any self-esteem, confidence, and self-liking (there's such a thing?) I try so hard to make everyone proud of me (everyone meaning my family...
    shaun0h shaun0h 26-30, T 1 Response Feb 15, 2008

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    I Failed In Life.

    HI my name is alex and I failed to the point where it doesn't matter anymore. I did drugs and now have a disease. I hurt my mother. I hurt my stepfather. I watch ****. I am a sorry excuse of a person. I mess up other peoples lives very often. I should be killed for what I've done...
    failureinlife22 failureinlife22 13-15, M Sep 26, 2009

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    once there was a guy who message me this "hii, youve probably heard this a million times but i think youre suuuper cute :p" this amaze me a little 'cause he give a different...
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    I had never hated anything ever, until this very moment and that thing is me. I was always that happy kid growing up. Nothing ever really bothered my until these last couple of...
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    I don't always but every now and then I have nights like tonight. I know I shouldn't hate myself, I wish I didn't but sometimes I just can't stop the way I feel. I've never been a...
    misspaperwait misspaperwait 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 15

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    I hate myself... im ugly stupid annoying and stupid and people hate me for no reason.. I hate myself for not being good enough for people.. I'm always such a disappointment... i...
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    Sometimes you hate Sometimes you hate a thing I hated a person I hated him with all my soul We were two completely different personalities We were always conflicted Every bit...
    august97 august97 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    We hate ourselves so much, for so many years. But when someone else says they hate themselves, we somehow feel the need to make them realize they shouldn't. We want to cheer them...
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    I've been depressed for 5 or 6 years. I don't want to live anymore. I'm ugly, dumb, boring, weird, worthless and a coward. Trust me, I know my self better than any if you know me...
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    People probably wouldn't think this if they knew me. I mean I have no good reason to hate myself I just do. I have never technically been bullied and I have some friends and nice...
    BlueSkysGreySkys BlueSkysGreySkys 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    StayingSaneWithoutYou StayingSaneWithoutYou 13-15, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I hate myself right now. I'm so stupid. why do I even try? I mean it's not like I'm worth anything. I don't even understand why he would love me. All I do is mess everything up...
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    anonymous112022 anonymous112022 18-21, M a week ago

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    So in the past I've had problems with stealing stuff from my mom, dad, and brother. It wasn't ever like money or anything but like stuff that was theres. I've gotten in trouble...
    LexiK88 LexiK88 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Everyone calls me gay and thinks I look like a girl. A fly could kick my ***. I hate myself. I'm so pathetic. The bruises on my face? Not even done by a dude. I'm so worthless...
    Levi1 Levi1 13-15, M 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm WAY to wide and I think that's why people hate me. I also hate myself because of it
    himynameishikari himynameishikari 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 4

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    I'm afraid that if I hate too much I'll become like them. And I already hate myself plenty =_=
    KazeDream KazeDream 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 7

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    No one will ever hate me as much as I hate myself When people try to insult me with what they think are 'hurtful' words, I can't help but agree with them
    Kampion Kampion 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 8

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    I'm just so ugly. I have such small eyes, and chubby cheeks, a crooked nose, a skinny rib cage, fat legs, an oily face, and acne. I am so ugly, I hate it. My sister is so pretty...
    bandfreak26 bandfreak26 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 14

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    I'm pregnant. The test said yes. The nurses said yes. I can't deal with this. I hate myself.
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    I feel lonely Hate myself I wanted to need a gf seriously
    shovons shovons 18-21, M Oct 3

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    I wish I was smart, likeable, wealthy, and attractive like everyone else. I hate myself I wish I was never born.
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    I am thin and hate myself Why because I'm thin I want huge thighs No butt but thigh This summer I was 135. I go to the doctor. Guess whAt I went down to 129. I'm thinking how I...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F Oct 5

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    i hate myself more than anyone . i wont show it im usually a joyful person with friends but nobody knows the true me
    miz0217 miz0217 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 5

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    I hate myself so much. I wish I could be outgoing, driven individual, but Im jut a lazy weakling. Im too weak to do anything right. I dont get it, if im too weak for this world...
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    I bust my ***. To be the best. That I can be. I'm a nerd. I guess. I try for you. Always for you. I get 86/85. On an exam. Happiest day of my life. But. I misread teacher's email...
    2ndB3ST 2ndB3ST 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    Ughh seriously all my friends are thin and fit and i'm just fat and chubby and huge and i hate myself and I tried diets and all but its so hard...
    xnelx xnelx 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 9

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    I'm the most disgusting, filthy, worthless piece of human trash to exist. I ******* hate myself. I want to die. Ugh.
    Levi1 Levi1 13-15, M 5 Responses Oct 11

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    paigezero paigezero 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 3

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    I hate the way I look, I hate the way I act, and there's nothing I can do about it. Am I not in essence, myself? I cannot change myself that deeply. I cannot alter my core. There...
    Hatter4 Hatter4 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 7

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