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I Hate Myself 90 Percent of the Time

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    I Hate Myself (selves)

    I live a pseudo-double life--being trans and not out to my family yet-- this accentuates how much I already hate myself, I lack pretty much any self-esteem, confidence, and self-liking (there's such a thing?) I try so hard to make everyone proud of me (everyone meaning my family...
    shaun0h shaun0h 26-30, T 1 Response Feb 15, 2008

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    I Want A New Life...

    I hate my life & everything about it... I cant remember the last time i was REALLY HAPPY. In the past two years my life has went from bad to worse in every way. I went from one abusive relationship to another. And when i FINALLY said "i wont take it anymore, & im...
    MissCandie MissCandie 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    I always let myself down and I am always at war with my emotions they get the best of me I cry myself to sleep at night because there are prices of my heart missing and cant be found I always end up getting hurt And it tears my heart and soul apart:(
    prettyface1996 prettyface1996 18-21, M Nov 21, 2013

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    Sometimes More Than 90%...

     I hate myself for the thoughts in my head. They aren't always present, but they hide in the darkest corners of my mind. There are days that I am fine, but 90% of the time I hate myself. I hate myself for being overweight and doing nothing about it. I hate myself for...
    sadblueyes sadblueyes 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17, 2009

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    I Failed In Life.

    HI my name is alex and I failed to the point where it doesn't matter anymore. I did drugs and now have a disease. I hurt my mother. I hurt my stepfather. I watch ****. I am a sorry excuse of a person. I mess up other peoples lives very often. I should be killed for what I've done...
    failureinlife22 failureinlife22 13-15, M Sep 26, 2009

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    I don't know how to stop. I've realised I'm not my own friend. I don't even know the person in the mirror. My heart aches because I want to love myself so much, not no matter what...
    Abcdefghijessy Abcdefghijessy 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    It feels so ******* bad...especially after you've spoiled a relationship and you're the only one that's in love. I can't stop thinking of what I could've done to make it better...I...
    Kbrabbit Kbrabbit 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I hate being Asian male. I'm 29 and never had a girlfriend or approached a girl because I'm an Asian and have nothing but a dead end job.
    monotonouso monotonouso 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    Honestly I'm so useless. Like I its rally can't do anything right, for anyone. I resent that I was born. I should've been a miscarriage or my mother should've had an abortion. I'm...
    BornBroken BornBroken 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    Hello Everyone -- I came across this site when I googled "I hate my family" so I figured I'd give it a shot to hopefully find other people who can relate. I am so sad lately...
    hifuckedupworld hifuckedupworld 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My heart is filled with hate for myself, I hate everything about me. I am weak , I am a ******* failure, I am nothing, I am useless, I am everything my mother said I would be . I...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    can you get a girlfriend if you hate yourself? I'm 29 and never had a girlfriend because I'm an ugly Asian with a dead end job
    monotonouso monotonouso 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I feel like I should just put and end to myself sometimes, well most of the time.
    staygoldenbaby staygoldenbaby 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I can't even look at myself in the mirror because I just hate myself. I don't believe I deserve to be happy or to feel content. I try really hard at trying to find a job but keep...
    alice0493 alice0493 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    ....I almost can't believe what a detestable person I am. A lot of the things that people say are what make life living are suspended far beyond my reach. Happiness seems...
    Ewoo Ewoo 16-17 4 days ago

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    I don't really hate my self but some times I say dumb stuff a lot, there is a girl i tried to start a relationship with and it didn't work, few days ago i was talking to her and I...
    comlpicatedguy comlpicatedguy 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    I hate myself. I hate every single piece of me . I'm ugly. I'm stupid. I'm fat. I'm suicidal. I want to die.
    IAmSuicidalEmma IAmSuicidalEmma 16-17, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I hate myself. I wish I was never born.
    ChelseaMonroe ChelseaMonroe 26-30, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I fell back on my old habit of cutting so I could feel numb mentally . When my dad found out he looked so sad and it makes me so mad at myself. I wish I hadn't done it. I only did...
    rosedimond99 rosedimond99 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Sometimes i just dont really want to be myself Sorry this is a rant... I was raised as a spoiled child and I still am. I always had to have everything I wanted and refused to...
    Pillemy Pillemy 18-21 1 Response 5 days ago

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    It's one of these nights again.I hate myself.I hate everything about myself, everything that is in my life and everything that is not.I hate perfect people and those lucky enough...
    yeniC yeniC 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Because I'm so damn stupid, shy, a stutterer and hate the way I look I've passed up another chance to vid chat with a seemingly nice girl. I'm just so damn useless and that'll...
    hreinn hreinn 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I HATE BEING ME. Im the lowest piece of the low pieces of **** person. No wonder no one likes being around me. I dont even like me. Im a spineless little coward b1tch who does...
    Azena Azena 18-21, F 8 Responses 6 days ago

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    and so what...its as it should be. too much the coward to just be done and eat a bullet. screw it...useless. when does this **** end...just a ******* burden to all... earliest...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M 6 days ago

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    I haven't used this app in quite sometime but i'm giving it another go. So yes, i hate myself. Sure i'm insecure about my face and body but that's not what i mean, i hate ME. I...
    littlebird88 littlebird88 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I am hate incarnation tonight. Come purchase your gate through me. Plenty to spare. If you fing dare. Doubt you can. F$ck you all!! F&ck you to the darkest depths the solar...
    Golfknar Golfknar 36-40, M 1 Response Aug 22

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    I really do. I'm trying to become a better person but whenever I remember my mistakes from the past I begin to hate myself even more. I don't think that I deserve friendship or...
    rcmh171822 rcmh171822 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    I hate myself. I hate the way I look. I hate my shy personality. I hate that I can never speak my mind. I hate the way my life is turning out. I hate how I'm constantly thinking...
    Hammer2222 Hammer2222 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 17

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    Just bore I got on EP I knew what I wanted to share but now As I get on all I have to say is "I hate my ugly fat disgusting self." & "I can't wait to get my blades out of my car...
    secretchey secretchey 18-21, F Aug 17

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    I thought I was important to him. That I'm his bestie. That he cares. But no. That never happened. It's time for me to wake up. I don't need to believe these anymore. Because that...
    colourflame colourflame 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 17

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    Yes, hope you find someone who will not hurt u. Unlike me, I made u sad all the time.
    Lexis91 Lexis91 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    I never admitted this to myself. I'm afraid of being abandoned. I'm super sensitive to ridicule and humiliation. I hate my parents. I wrote mom a letter when I was about 6-7...
    MentAl69noMAD MentAl69noMAD 18-21 2 Responses Aug 16

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    I always fantasise about hurting myself, especially in public. I analysed myself (as cold as I could be) and found that I could be seeking for attention. I hate that part of myself...
    sabrina1ryo sabrina1ryo 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 16

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    His stupid lies, his broken promises! I hate him for making me become the person that I am today. I should have known that I knew better than to give him a chance, but I did it...
    Felicia209 Felicia209 18-21, F Aug 16

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    Why do I have to keep letting myself down all the time? I work so hard to keep everything together, I've been happy and content all day then I had to ruin it. I'm such an idiot. I...
    lovetodraw19 lovetodraw19 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 15

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    And i hate life its so ******* unfair
    ihatebeingblack44 ihatebeingblack44 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    I hate myself because most people hate me. I am shy I am single .most people treat me like crap people ack like I don't exist I am nice to everyone what I get in return nothing. I...
    youwokeme99 youwokeme99 36-40, F 2 Responses Aug 13

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    I tell my self that i hate myself at least twenty times a day. Its become a bad habit. It started when i would think of a bad memory or something embarrassing that i did. But now...
    TheAnonymousCat TheAnonymousCat 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 13

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    Its hard to love you.....Its hard to come across what once made you so normal, so happy... so carefree and confident in yourself... I dont know where to start I FEEL AS IF i will...
    undefined200 undefined200 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 13

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    when u like.her then she talks to u about the guy she likes .....FML 100 times over.and back..????....
    DaveEatsToast DaveEatsToast 13-15, M Aug 12

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