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I Hate Myself 90 Percent of the Time

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    I Want A New Life...

    I hate my life & everything about it... I cant remember the last time i was REALLY HAPPY. In the past two years my life has went from bad to worse in every way. I went from one abusive relationship to another. And when i FINALLY said "i wont take it anymore, & im...
    MissCandie MissCandie 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    I Hate Myself (selves)

    I live a pseudo-double life--being trans and not out to my family yet-- this accentuates how much I already hate myself, I lack pretty much any self-esteem, confidence, and self-liking (there's such a thing?) I try so hard to make everyone proud of me (everyone meaning my family...
    shaun0h shaun0h 26-30, T 1 Response Feb 15, 2008

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    I Failed In Life.

    HI my name is alex and I failed to the point where it doesn't matter anymore. I did drugs and now have a disease. I hurt my mother. I hurt my stepfather. I watch ****. I am a sorry excuse of a person. I mess up other peoples lives very often. I should be killed for what I've done...
    failureinlife22 failureinlife22 13-15, M Sep 26, 2009

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    Sometimes More Than 90%...

     I hate myself for the thoughts in my head. They aren't always present, but they hide in the darkest corners of my mind. There are days that I am fine, but 90% of the time I hate myself. I hate myself for being overweight and doing nothing about it. I hate myself for...
    sadblueyes sadblueyes 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17, 2009

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    Ya

    I always let myself down and I am always at war with my emotions they get the best of me I cry myself to sleep at night because there are prices of my heart missing and cant be found I always end up getting hurt And it tears my heart and soul apart:(
    prettyface1996 prettyface1996 18-21, M Nov 21, 2013

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    I hate myself. I have been nothing but a disappointment to everyone in my life. I come from a very affluent family. I went to an amazing private high school that costs more than...
    deekbox deekbox 18-21, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I'm not sure if I actually hate myself, but my parents make me feel like I should. My dad and step mom just love to tell me what a horrible person I am and how I can never do...
    LiveLoveCoffee LiveLoveCoffee 16-17, F 3 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I hate myself. I can't even begin to explain the pain I feel everyday. I cant listen to music, read books, or watch movies without feeling this emptiness inside. **** you Shelby...
    ToLiveYouMustDie ToLiveYouMustDie 13-15, F 22 hrs ago

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    I have two loving parents and two great brothers. My other family is loving-ish but we are dysfunctional and no where near perfect. But I am loved. But this factor just makes me...
    HollowHeart17 HollowHeart17 18-21, F 1 Response May 7

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    words can never describe how much i hate myself. i don't blame anyone for not caring about me and no wonder why I always end up alone . how they shut me out and label me...
    lonesomedove80 lonesomedove80 31-35, F 2 Responses May 10

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    I want to die I can't stand living anymore and being told how selfish I am every fcking day. It tears me apart because I spend half of my time caring about other people and put...
    PaintOverItBlack PaintOverItBlack 22-25, F 5 Responses May 22

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    So I haven't been on here in awhile. I seriously can't take my life anymore. I freaking hate myself. Everything that is going wrong is because of me...or at least that's what...
    BabeFett BabeFett 16-17, F May 3

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    My body is a prison. I hate every single inch of myself, and sometimes it's unbearable. I am such a disappointment to everyone, including myself, and I'm pretty sure my boyfriend...
    Mickkeyy Mickkeyy 18-21, F 1 Response May 2

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    I hate everything about me. I have a shy and nice personality and because of that people think of me as a pushover. I hate the way my body looks and how ugly my face is. I am very...
    atr7887 atr7887 26-30, M 1 Response May 6

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    It feels like every time I wish or dream something big for myself it happens to my friend instead. Since high school I've been watching her live me dreams while I'm constantly left...
    telliellie telliellie 26-30, F May 6

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    Um hey I feel like everybody hates me no one me cares for me I'm just an invisible person because my parents siblings and just everybody think I'm invisible and hate and so I'm...
    kRaZeDmODDeR kRaZeDmODDeR 13-15, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    more than i think i do . i hate myself because of how i am perceived . i hate myself to extent that i cant say why i do. i dont want to have friends because i dont want...
    lonesomedove80 lonesomedove80 31-35, F 2 Responses May 3

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    I'm ugly I have cancer I'm fat No one wants to e my friend And everything seems to be going wrong I don't have a million dollars to buy everything that I need I hate myself...
    Jusjellybean Jusjellybean 18-21, F 8 Responses May 3

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    I legitimately hate myself. I just feel like a pathetic loser. I cried so hard last night that I actually collapsed. I'm buckling under the stress of work and school. And if I can...
    LunarRise LunarRise 22-25, F May 5

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    i hate myself so much. I'm never good enough. my hairs gross, I hate my eye color, I'm such a negative person, I'm fat I hate my smile and I hate the fact that I overthink way too...
    snj001 snj001 13-15, F 1 Response May 10

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    I hate myself very much. I am battling depression. i have barely ate anything all day. i keep loosing weight all the time, & more than anything i feel so alone. suicide? take me...
    mekaxoxo mekaxoxo 16-17, F 1 Response May 12

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    I hate my dad, i hate my family, I hate the fact I was put into this world but most importantly, I hate myself for feeling this way. Please do not comment
    jellyycook jellyycook 18-21, F 1 Response May 13

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    I hate myself, People think I'm not good enough and I think so.. I hate my body and I really hate my face!
    phoneringing20 phoneringing20 18-21, F 1 Response May 15

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    I don't need answers I just wanted to release my thoughts and say how much I hate myself. I'm weak and stupid, I can't make right choices by my own and all I'm good at is crying. I...
    Booktiful Booktiful 13-15, F 1 Response May 20

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    I hate myself. I hate my life. Really. I feel i'm alone. I really need someone who can understand me. Anyone? I have my friends tho. But i'm not sure if they really were my friends...
    yeahalone yeahalone 13-15 1 Response May 22

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    Why we care about what others think of us? Why am I so care abt what they think? What I want to please them? Why can't I be myself, I hate myself for pretending,I hate those kind...
    lVll lVll 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    My mom is the reason why I hate myself so much. I was getting ready tonight and asked her how I looked. She shook her head meaning I looked nice, but her facial expression looked...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 3 Responses May 8

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    I HATE MYSELF. IM UNDERWEIGHT I LOOK LIKE A MAN. I HATE IT
    ineedhelp122 ineedhelp122 18-21, F 1 Response May 21

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    And it seems I've always hated myself, or hated somebody else. I guess my biggest mistake has always been saying just how I've felt.
    H8M4CH1N3 H8M4CH1N3 13-15, M 1 Response a week ago

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    My father had a stroke when I was 11 years old, about 14 years ago, since then he lost most of his ability to be a functional member of the society and has been in a mental...
    iggy1296 iggy1296 22-25, M 3 Responses May 5

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    I hate myself for the decisions I have to make
    Stucat Stucat 16-17, M 1 Response May 10

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    The way i look. The wayi feel how i think why am i so nice. Why i get nervous around teenagers my age i hate myself i just wanna be happy but i can never get there no matter if i...
    tishabanks tishabanks 18-21, F 1 Response May 10

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    I hate myself and my inability to do anything right. I don't give my husband the respect and attention he deserves, I ****** up so bad in the past that he doesn't trust me at all...
    thatonecxnt thatonecxnt 22-25, F 1 Response May 16

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    I hate myself, and I can't say it in another way
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 19

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    I hate myself so much, that when I look in the mirror, my eyes dilate. I want to crawl out of my own skin. This is not how humans were meant to live.
    Itfloo Itfloo 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Well right now I hate myself a lot I just want to be isolated from my family and just be away from everything I'm done with all of the **** people are telling me well I'm ok with...
    rymanone23 rymanone23 13-15, M 5 days ago

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    I hate everything about myself. Culture, ethnicity, look, behavior, health. EVERYTHING. The way I play the piano, the way I talk, THE WAY I TYPE, the way I dress up, the way I...
    jungkookies4u jungkookies4u 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I'm usually fine during the day and at school, but when I get home alone or at night, I punish myself and constantly put myself down. I cry myself to sleep often. I don't know why...
    z1a2r3a z1a2r3a 13-15, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    i hate how i look. i hate how i cant be who i want to be. i hate how i am embrassed about going anywhere. i look like a skinny man. i hate how dark my skin is. i hate how i have...
    ineedhelp122 ineedhelp122 18-21, F 1 Response May 12

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    I had a good morning today and yes, I hate waking up because it's cold outside of the bed, but I was okay. I actually spent time with my mum and talked to her and went shopping...
    TunedOut TunedOut 16-17, F 2 Responses May 3

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    I'm here again tonight, just when i thought i should have by now feeling more better about myself after the short escape from the hermit shell i've been self-confined in - I'm not...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F May 9

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    I try as hard as I can to make those I love and admire proud of me, but every day in some way I'm told "You're not good enough" or "you're not attractive at all." I try to prove I...
    SomethingThatWorks SomethingThatWorks 18-21, F May 5