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I Hate Myself 90 Percent of the Time

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    I Hate Myself (selves)

    I live a pseudo-double life--being trans and not out to my family yet-- this accentuates how much I already hate myself, I lack pretty much any self-esteem, confidence, and self-liking (there's such a thing?) I try so hard to make everyone proud of me (everyone meaning my family...
    shaun0h shaun0h 26-30, T 1 Response Feb 15, 2008

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    I Want A New Life...

    I hate my life & everything about it... I cant remember the last time i was REALLY HAPPY. In the past two years my life has went from bad to worse in every way. I went from one abusive relationship to another. And when i FINALLY said "i wont take it anymore, & im...
    MissCandie MissCandie 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    I Failed In Life.

    HI my name is alex and I failed to the point where it doesn't matter anymore. I did drugs and now have a disease. I hurt my mother. I hurt my stepfather. I watch ****. I am a sorry excuse of a person. I mess up other peoples lives very often. I should be killed for what I've done...
    failureinlife22 failureinlife22 13-15, M Sep 26, 2009

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    Sometimes More Than 90%...

     I hate myself for the thoughts in my head. They aren't always present, but they hide in the darkest corners of my mind. There are days that I am fine, but 90% of the time I hate myself. I hate myself for being overweight and doing nothing about it. I hate myself for...
    sadblueyes sadblueyes 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17, 2009

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    Ya

    I always let myself down and I am always at war with my emotions they get the best of me I cry myself to sleep at night because there are prices of my heart missing and cant be found I always end up getting hurt And it tears my heart and soul apart:(
    prettyface1996 prettyface1996 18-21, M Nov 21, 2013

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    I just hate myself. I really do. I did work really hard to improve myself. What I hate about myself lately is that I seemed to have lost my motivation for life. I just don't care...
    ChrisBoshi ChrisBoshi 22-25 1 Response Nov 12

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    I just hate myself. I really do. I did work really hard to improve myself. What I hate about myself lately is that I seemed to have lost my motivation for life. I just don't care...
    ChrisBoshi ChrisBoshi 22-25 Nov 12

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    I hate myself. I hate being so stupid, and not being good at anything. I hate my face, my nose, my cheeks, my lips, and my eyes. I hate my personality, and my laugh. I hate the way...
    Missprincessgabby Missprincessgabby 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    lets put it this way. i hate myself for lettin people fool the hell outta me i hate myself for trusting i hate myself for liking someone i shouldn't i hate myself writing this i...
    johnL3 johnL3 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 3

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    I have a lot of dysphoria. I have hated myself for years, and sometimes, I think I'm getting better, but I still hate myself. I hate my body. I hate my body. I want to be a boy. I...
    savakora savakora 16-17 Nov 5

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    I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate you!!!! I hate you!!!!! I hate you!!!!
    walkinwonder walkinwonder 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 18

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    I am disgusting in every way possible... I'm too fat, too ugly. I am extremely slow, and fast at the wrong times. I'm a cold girl, most of the times I do not care about anyone...
    Dementxa Dementxa 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I have hated myself for as long as I can rememeber it may appeared that I was in love with myself. But that was all part of my act. I loathe myself for a lot of different reasons...
    xdarkangelx666 xdarkangelx666 22-25, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I hate myself or being weak, for being caring, sympathetic all these useless things that make the persona weak. I hate myself for bringing the pain on myself from my own...
    Ic3Queen Ic3Queen 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    i hate how i feel trapped. I hate how no matter how hard i try i cant stop cutting. i hate all the loneliness thats surrounds me. I hate how i dont enjoy the things i used to. I...
    nadia50 nadia50 16-17, M Nov 15

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    Saying that I hate myself sounds so harsh and cruel but its more or less what it is. It's not something that emerged during my early teenage years but rather something that's been...
    lokiirs lokiirs 16-17, F Nov 15

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    I always feel so uncomfortable towards those of the opposite sex.. Whether I find them attractive or not. I hate it. A while ago I went to the school library.. I like it there cuz...
    kangaroo02 kangaroo02 16-17, F Nov 4

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    I am fat. It is clear to anybody who looks at me. I hate it and I often hate myself because of it but I also know that I'm the only one who can change it. Diets are hard because I...
    DriftingDreaming DriftingDreaming 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 10

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    I do... I just hate myself and everything I do... I hate me, and everyone hates me and I wanna just disappear and die and I'm so done with people and I just ugh! I'm just so...
    debonaireash debonaireash 16-17, M 2 Responses Nov 15

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    4 hours ago, I attempted suicide and I hate myself for it. I promised I wouldnt, but I did. Unfortunately, it didn't work. I took 15 pills. I hate myself so much.
    smpoetry smpoetry 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 4

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    I love myself. I hate myself. I hate you all... I love you all. Who cares what I think. Who cares what you think. That's life.
    LeMadCat LeMadCat 16-17, F Nov 7

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    Before I start, I realise this will be a short but chaotic story, as I'm just writing down my emotions in a certain state of what I believe to be panic...
    Keyamon Keyamon 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 9

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    I'm sick of life... and I idk what to do.. Her best friend hates me, she's starting too, and I might as well hate myself... why shouldn't I ? Tiffany told me I'm scum... Cat says I...
    debonaireash debonaireash 16-17, M Nov 9

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    I hate myself . I always catch myself going into the kitchen and eating anything in sight . I am scared of becoming overweight and what others will think of me . Everyday is a...
    relatableALY relatableALY 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 13

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    I hate myself. I hate everything about me. One day death will knock on my door and he will find I did it myself.
    Ghost21z Ghost21z 16-17, M 2 Responses Nov 16

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    I'm fat, ugly, 'too religious', hated, my mom hates me, not good enough, not smart enough, disgusting, and much more. I make so many mistakes and I just hate myself for everything...
    therealsydster therealsydster 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I know I really shouldn't. I have to spend every minute of every day with myself. If there's one person I should care about it would be me. I thought if someone else loved me I...
    theoneleftme theoneleftme 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I have the best family 3 kids and a hot husband i have been married to for the past 16 years we was high school sweethearts and they love me so much and i love them but lately i...
    char8C char8C 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 28

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    I hate myself. I've been lonely my whole life, and realized I have been depressed for 5 years. I'm lonely, ugly, worthless and pathetic. I've been thinking about suicide. Thinking...
    Classicalbird Classicalbird 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 28

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    I may be a model but that doesn't mean I have to like myself I hate myself
    freakinone freakinone 16-17, F 7 Responses Oct 30

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    I don't hate myself and I don't love you but I'm not happy with myself for coming back to you. You give me reasons to leave but I can't bring myself to give up on you.
    HappyHart5 HappyHart5 16-17, F Nov 4

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    For many reasons but mostly because I care too much, I am way too sensitive, and I'm also pathetic. And it doesn't help that I hate myself for hating myself. I just don't know how...
    brimc7 brimc7 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 17

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    I just want to cut...I want someone to give me a reason to first though.I'm addicted to the feeling of hate and depression. I hate myself.
    wassup305 wassup305 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    well here's my story. everyday i wake up thinking to myself don't let them get to you. It clearly never works because without them even needing to say a word i know its me they're...
    misslettinggo misslettinggo 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    It don't realy matter what religion i get to know i feel like evrything is pointless,i just can't look in the mirror and say im good because i'm not at all ...no talent...ugly as...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 4 Responses Nov 1

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    I hate myself. l my self harm is getting worse eveyday
    oxoxJillianxoxo oxoxJillianxoxo 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 3

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    I hate myself for everything I do, everything I think and everything I am.
    gomega98 gomega98 16-17, M 2 Responses Nov 4

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    Ugh I hate myself so much. I'm so awkward and fat. Idk how to loosen up. I'm tired of my awkward life.
    allie6618 allie6618 16-17, F Nov 6

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    Everyone, everyone even people here said to me that "you're innocent and childish", the statement is half-true. Yes I act like a kid and expect people to accept me for who I am and...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 6

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    I just...I hate myself so much. I don't have any good or redeeming qualities. I am fat/ugly/stupid/boring/lame/worthless/ and a lot of other things.Like...just look at me up there...
    Apricity7 Apricity7 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 9

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    Its becoming easier and easier to hate myself more and more.... thanks.... </3
    imgivingupnow imgivingupnow 18-21, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I suffer from depression, I self harm almost every night now and I have a lot of suicidal thoughts. I get bullied for my appearance, skin colour and weight. My parents expect me to...
    IllBeGoneSoon IllBeGoneSoon 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 30

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    You are beautiful, you are smart, you are funny, you are kind, your unique You are worthy of LOVE and AFFECTION, you are never too much and you are always enough you are precious...
    Gilxx Gilxx 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 9

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    It hurts when people use you. Half the time, I don't even know what I'm being used for, but it happens, and people forget about me. I'm that kind of person. You meet me one year...
    PresentlyNobody PresentlyNobody 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 17

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    I am the worst person ever many times I do awful things. I test people I care about to see if they care. I hang with people I don't care about so those I do don't hurt me. I go...
    herealways2017 herealways2017 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 6

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    I'm not a writer, sometimes I lack common sense, and other times I make no sense at all. If you still with me for the nect few minutes though I only hope that it gives you some...
    InfinitelyCurious InfinitelyCurious 18-21, F Nov 12

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