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I Hate Myself 90 Percent of the Time

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    I Hate Myself (selves)

    I live a pseudo-double life--being trans and not out to my family yet-- this accentuates how much I already hate myself, I lack pretty much any self-esteem, confidence, and self-liking (there's such a thing?) I try so hard to make everyone proud of me (everyone meaning my family...
    shaun0h shaun0h 26-30, T 1 Response Feb 15, 2008

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    I always let myself down and I am always at war with my emotions they get the best of me I cry myself to sleep at night because there are prices of my heart missing and cant be found I always end up getting hurt And it tears my heart and soul apart:(
    prettyface1996 prettyface1996 18-21, M Nov 21, 2013

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    I Failed In Life.

    HI my name is alex and I failed to the point where it doesn't matter anymore. I did drugs and now have a disease. I hurt my mother. I hurt my stepfather. I watch ****. I am a sorry excuse of a person. I mess up other peoples lives very often. I should be killed for what I've done...
    failureinlife22 failureinlife22 13-15, M Sep 26, 2009

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    Sometimes More Than 90%...

     I hate myself for the thoughts in my head. They aren't always present, but they hide in the darkest corners of my mind. There are days that I am fine, but 90% of the time I hate myself. I hate myself for being overweight and doing nothing about it. I hate myself for...
    sadblueyes sadblueyes 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17, 2009

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    I Want A New Life...

    I hate my life & everything about it... I cant remember the last time i was REALLY HAPPY. In the past two years my life has went from bad to worse in every way. I went from one abusive relationship to another. And when i FINALLY said "i wont take it anymore, & im...
    MissCandie MissCandie 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    I've battle with this for many years.The sad part is it came from out of many years of dealing with the stress of trying to be all things to all people.I was a very strong fit...
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    I overheard of a expression that if a person hate of being along equally means he hate himself,cause he don't want to spend time with himself.In that case,I think no one really not...
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    **WARNING** This is pretty much a vent about my personal life I hate me. I just hate myself so much. I get so worried about the smallest things. Are my fingernails too big? Do the...
    winception winception 13-15, T 3 Responses Mar 3

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    There's a bloodhound in me. One that possesses not the dignity of a dog trained to hunt, and one anyone knows isn't even as cool as any dog. Still. It's there and though it doesn...
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    My mother makes me hate myself......I understand that a mother must correct you and stuff. My mother once told me that she hates me when I was in grade 8. she reminds me of...
    Adridee Adridee 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 2

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    I hate myself so much and I can never help but to put myself down every time something positive comes my way.
    theultimatesashacourtney theultimatesashacourtney 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 3

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    I hate being the reason for everything being crappy...i feel alone,and when the day is done,and when I think of all that has happened,it somehow is my fault. I feel like a jerk...
    cjimenez cjimenez 16-17 1 Response Mar 9

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    I hate being me. I am 22 and have not achieved anything in life. I have a social anxiety disorder and terrible public speaking skills. people make fun of everything I do. the way I...
    thequietgirl93 thequietgirl93 22-25, F 7 Responses Mar 13

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    It got really bad today. I was seriosuly considering suicide, and now I hate myself for feeling that low. I hate my life and I hate myself and I don't want to go on living like...
    namelessentity namelessentity 13-15 3 Responses Mar 13

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    I really can't get myself most of the time. I am a funny person but my mood change quickly. I always fake a smile. I am fine at one moment and then the next I hate myself and I don...
    RedThatDescribesMe RedThatDescribesMe 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 15

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    I seriously just want to rip my eyes out so I don't have to look at myself. I hate myself. I hate the way I look. I am a failure at 21 I feel so horrible. I just don't tell anyone...
    niafiend niafiend 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    I don't know how to stop being so self loathing. Maybe if I was a better person and I actually did what I could be proud of, I wouldn't hate myself so much. I don't want to go the...
    stellag23 stellag23 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    every time I pass a mirror I look at myself and say I am so freaking ugly. everyone tells me I'm pretty but I know that is so not true. I hate myself. I'm nothing. I'm a failure...
    DontKnow2013 DontKnow2013 18-21, F 17 Responses 4 days ago

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    I look in the mirror and see myself just this worthless person in front of me. Sure some say I'm handsome while others say I'm ok. But my eyes dont lie I hate myself I hate how I...
    kankuro18 kankuro18 18-21, M 4 Responses Mar 5

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    I hate myself because I have never been good at keeping and maintaining relationships, be it with friends or family, colleagues or teachers, or neighbors. I've come to realize that...
    abhisainani abhisainani 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 7

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    I suck. I am a horrible person. I hurt the people I love. I lie through my teeth. I do not do my homework. I can not tell family I love them. I always want to make people laugh so...
    molliee151 molliee151 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 7

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    I'm just so sick of everything. I want to cut. I don't even know why; it wouldn't help in any way. It'd maybe stop me thinking for a few seconds, but that's about it. I just hate...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F Mar 9

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    I could barely look at myself in the mirror. I wish I could take pictures of myself without disgust. I wish I was one of the cool guys that can talk to girls. I hate myself so much...
    ForeverALoser ForeverALoser 22-25, M 4 Responses Mar 15

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    Yesterday I competed at the state academic team thing in Louisville. And I made so many mistakes. I don't know if I'll be able to forgive myself for some of this. I'll always be...
    AshleyWCSloth AshleyWCSloth 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 16

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    i hate myself sometimes , i hate being hurt by other people. I'm sick of falling for people and they rejecting me. I want someone to love me and care for me. I want to be happy
    justa333 justa333 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 2

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    i hate myself i hate everything about me
    givenupforever givenupforever 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 5

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    I hate myself so freaking much!!! I tell myself i'm going to runaway and i tell my friends and i say goodbye but then i freaking go sickeningly weak! I just had to read those old...
    AleaAndLexi AleaAndLexi 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 11

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    When I was in college, I had to do a class project with a group of 5 others. There were two girls in the group who seemed really outgoing and nice and fun, and I tried to not be my...
    Somethinglikethat4 Somethinglikethat4 18-21, F 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I want him to let me back in so I don't hate myself anymore but I am so helpless
    elyayamama elyayamama 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 3

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    I had a wonderful loving, sweet amazing boyfriend who I loved with all my heart and I treated him like a doormat. I broke his heart, I stomped on it and spit on it and laughed...
    revoirpendant revoirpendant 36-40 1 Response Mar 14

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    I feel PATHETIC. And I hate myself.
    MevsLife MevsLife 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 18

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    There's really two of me trying to live inside one body. The first me, the one everyone see's is the crazy, loud, fun, easy going, party animal glam guy. That me is always having a...
    FlyingMonkies FlyingMonkies 36-40, M Feb 28

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    I hate my self I hate my self I hate my self I hate my self I hate my self I hate my self I hate my self I hate my self I hate my self I hate my self I hate my self I hate my self...
    barbish barbish 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    No matter how many times people tell me i'm a good person I feel fundamentally evil. I hate everything about myself, the way I look and the way I talk. I feel like I contribute...
    LinkinParkMuse LinkinParkMuse 26-30, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Sometimes I can ignore it, act like I really don't. Mostly it's for show, though, like in nature when a hurt animal wont show that it's hurt no matter how much pain it's in for...
    graveyardghosty graveyardghosty 18-21, F Mar 11

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    I really do. I hate being a teenager. I hate everything about myself.
    lamiavarc lamiavarc 16-17, F 4 Responses Feb 28

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    I honestly do. I hate how I look. I hate my stupid fat body that refuses to get thin. I hate my personality, where I'm either a pushover or constantly wanting to punch someone in...
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F 8 Responses Mar 3

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    I try to keep myself positive but it does not work. No one at my school enjoys my prescence and I am very lonely. People who I have never talked to before hate me. Why? I dont know...
    wxvx wxvx 16-17 1 Response Mar 7

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    I know that there is always someone better than me ,but why I have to be the one on the botton of everything? Recently I started to think that I won't suceed ,I actually don't...
    karymendes karymendes 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 14

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