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I Hate Myself 90 Percent of the Time

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    I always let myself down and I am always at war with my emotions they get the best of me I cry myself to sleep at night because there are prices of my heart missing and cant be found I always end up getting hurt And it tears my heart and soul apart:(
    prettyface1996 prettyface1996 18-21, M Nov 21, 2013

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    I Hate Myself (selves)

    I live a pseudo-double life--being trans and not out to my family yet-- this accentuates how much I already hate myself, I lack pretty much any self-esteem, confidence, and self-liking (there's such a thing?) I try so hard to make everyone proud of me (everyone meaning my family...
    shaun0h shaun0h 26-30, T 1 Response Feb 15, 2008

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    Sometimes More Than 90%...

     I hate myself for the thoughts in my head. They aren't always present, but they hide in the darkest corners of my mind. There are days that I am fine, but 90% of the time I hate myself. I hate myself for being overweight and doing nothing about it. I hate myself for...
    sadblueyes sadblueyes 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17, 2009

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    I Failed In Life.

    HI my name is alex and I failed to the point where it doesn't matter anymore. I did drugs and now have a disease. I hurt my mother. I hurt my stepfather. I watch ****. I am a sorry excuse of a person. I mess up other peoples lives very often. I should be killed for what I've done...
    failureinlife22 failureinlife22 13-15, M Sep 26, 2009

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    I Want A New Life...

    I hate my life & everything about it... I cant remember the last time i was REALLY HAPPY. In the past two years my life has went from bad to worse in every way. I went from one abusive relationship to another. And when i FINALLY said "i wont take it anymore, & im...
    MissCandie MissCandie 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    I was raped a little over a year ago, and my body is just damaged goods to me now. I hate it. I am a recovering self harmer, so it's scarred all over. I even have my exes initial...
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    I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate you!!!! I hate you!!!!! I hate you!!!!
    walkinwonder walkinwonder 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 18

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    I hate myself because I am not pretty. I am bull headed and clumsy. Forgetful and unkind at times. Have bad grades and am a disappointment to me, my friends, and my family. I seek...
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    I have hated myself for as long as I can rememeber it may appeared that I was in love with myself. But that was all part of my act. I loathe myself for a lot of different reasons...
    xdarkangelx666 xdarkangelx666 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 20

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    I hate myself or being weak, for being caring, sympathetic all these useless things that make the persona weak. I hate myself for bringing the pain on myself from my own...
    Ic3Queen Ic3Queen 22-25, F Nov 24

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    I have been trying to learn not to hate myself, to know myself as I truly am. I found this book: http://www.peace.ca/powerofnow.htm, It really helped. I learned to stop seeing my...
    PurpleGlassPalace PurpleGlassPalace 26-30, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I hate myself. I know people don't like me. I hate my gender and my skin colour. I hate that I have issues understanding words when others speak to me. I can't finish projects...
    zvezdnyy zvezdnyy 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 1

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    I hate myself..People always take avantaged from me. I know it but i don't know how to deny. I care their poeple feeling too much but they don't care my feeling. I cannot really...
    chombongkoch chombongkoch 31-35, F Dec 2

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    I hate my heart for being stubborn. I hate my mind for keeping our memories alive. I hate my eyes when they see your face. I hate my ears when they hear your name I hate my voice...
    susieibeth susieibeth 18-21, F Dec 10

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    I do hate myself I hate the person I see when I look in the mirror I hate the fact that I'm so nice to others and love to help others and always their for others but when it my...
    Bre142 Bre142 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I was with a friend today. while we were talking, he stopped a minute and looked very carefully at my face, he told me that he doesn't believe I don't care about anything because I...
    SwansongForARaven SwansongForARaven 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    I hate my body. My life. Just me. The way I look especially. I'm never first choice, never is never was. I'm not even an option....ppl in my class call me a mistake, annoying...
    TheLoner1234 TheLoner1234 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    All of the choices I've made in life have made me into who I am today, and I deeply regret most of those choices. Although, my future choices are uncertain as I have yet to...
    DarkestDespair DarkestDespair 36-40, M Dec 5

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    I don't know I have this terrible gut feeling & I just hate myself so much I hate who I am physically & emotionally I want to kill myself so badly but something's stopping me & it...
    kencity kencity 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 9

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    I hate myself I hate my looks I hate my life I hate my body i hate my hair I hate my height I hate my voice I hate my thoughts
    prettybrowneyes1993 prettybrowneyes1993 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I hate myself so much for who i am. My life has been a struggle. I never found true love, im crazy addicted to horror movies personality. I hate myself for this strange disorders...
    angel8i angel8i 31-35 2 Responses Dec 9

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    I'm fat, ugly, 'too religious', hated, my mom hates me, not good enough, not smart enough, disgusting, and much more. I make so many mistakes and I just hate myself for everything...
    pxthetic pxthetic 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 23

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    I know I really shouldn't. I have to spend every minute of every day with myself. If there's one person I should care about it would be me. I thought if someone else loved me I...
    theoneleftme theoneleftme 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    I'm currently trying to starve myself and work out. I don't know why but I feel like I do that I'll feel better in myself.. I hate myself so much. If I had the opportunity to kill...
    oxoxJillianxoxo oxoxJillianxoxo 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    I get those days when I hate myself so much. I've always had the self destruction feeling in my mind but I try to ignore it. Some days it's really hard and I have a strong urge to...
    ponycupcake ponycupcake 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    I walk with confidence but I truly hate myself. The only thing I want to ever do is sleep. It's the only time I feel good. I've realized I like being in bed because I can't be...
    walkinwonder walkinwonder 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 1

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    I hate myself sometimes i mean all the time i wish i was dead or never born
    Mizo0217 Mizo0217 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 3

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    I know hate is a strong word but I'm gonna say this I hate myself I hate having an eating disorder and a bunch of other stuff
    relapsing14 relapsing14 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    Around 6 months ago I was going through a terribly hard time. I was partying like crazy, had no money, and no self esteem. These photographers asked two of my friends and me to...
    Liz967 Liz967 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I hate that I left my wife. Ever since I left I have missed her so much. A few months ago we signed the papers. It was so hard too but I did it. She was the world to me and still...
    mophasa mophasa 36-40, M 6 days ago

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    I'm falling apart. I had a bad childhood which I got through. I thought I was strong. I told myself I'd never do.. it. I'm doing it... I'm so disappointed but I'm numb. I bottled...
    WeCouldBeDead WeCouldBeDead 16-17, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I just want to cut...I want someone to give me a reason to first though.I'm addicted to the feeling of hate and depression. I hate myself.
    wassup305 wassup305 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 19

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    well here's my story. everyday i wake up thinking to myself don't let them get to you. It clearly never works because without them even needing to say a word i know its me they're...
    misslettinggo misslettinggo 13-15, F Nov 22

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    I hate myself so much. I wish I was smart like"normal" people,and I wish I wasn't ugly. I'm not going to graduate because I will never pass algebra 1 or biology topics how pathetic...
    wassup305 wassup305 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 27

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    I hate what I'm becoming :( And I can't seem to stop it even when my brain is telling me to stop or this is not you or don't think this way. It seems that the only way to make me...
    LoveJaney LoveJaney 36-40, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    she decided to leave me for good i never thought she would i always assumed she'd be there for me shows just how wrong i was i hate myself now she hates me too
    itsalwaysme80 itsalwaysme80 31-35, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Its becoming easier and easier to hate myself more and more.... thanks.... </3
    imgivingupnow imgivingupnow 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 22

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    i hate myself but I'm smarter than most of u so it makes it ok
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 24 Responses Dec 2

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    I hate myself becuase of my brain is stupid.
    Sentoat Sentoat 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 5

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    I hate myself so ******* much. Just everything about me is horrible
    EternallyHeartBroken EternallyHeartBroken 13-15, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    Oh how I can't wait to die I would speed up the process but I can't cause it would do hurt my family and anyone who cared. The days are to long and tedious the only things that...
    originalmonstermouse originalmonstermouse 16-17, M Nov 30

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    I worked out how to view oneself in a better light. Look at your past, see how unreal all those memories seem? Memories are not solid, we cannot be certain the past happened at all...
    PurpleGlassPalace PurpleGlassPalace 26-30, M 2 Responses Dec 4

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    I don't know what to do. My little sister is getting her sutures out and she wants me to be there. No brainier right? Your little sister asked you to go you go! Well here's the...
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013 18-21, F Dec 4

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