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I Hate Myself 90 Percent of the Time

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    I Failed In Life.

    HI my name is alex and I failed to the point where it doesn't matter anymore. I did drugs and now have a disease. I hurt my mother. I hurt my stepfather. I watch ****. I am a sorry excuse of a person. I mess up other peoples lives very often. I should be killed for what I've done...
    failureinlife22 failureinlife22 13-15, M Sep 26, 2009

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    Sometimes More Than 90%...

     I hate myself for the thoughts in my head. They aren't always present, but they hide in the darkest corners of my mind. There are days that I am fine, but 90% of the time I hate myself. I hate myself for being overweight and doing nothing about it. I hate myself for...
    sadblueyes sadblueyes 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17, 2009

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    I Hate Myself (selves)

    I live a pseudo-double life--being trans and not out to my family yet-- this accentuates how much I already hate myself, I lack pretty much any self-esteem, confidence, and self-liking (there's such a thing?) I try so hard to make everyone proud of me (everyone meaning my family...
    shaun0h shaun0h 26-30, T 1 Response Feb 15, 2008

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    Ya

    I always let myself down and I am always at war with my emotions they get the best of me I cry myself to sleep at night because there are prices of my heart missing and cant be found I always end up getting hurt And it tears my heart and soul apart:(
    prettyface1996 prettyface1996 18-21, M Nov 21, 2013

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    I Want A New Life...

    I hate my life & everything about it... I cant remember the last time i was REALLY HAPPY. In the past two years my life has went from bad to worse in every way. I went from one abusive relationship to another. And when i FINALLY said "i wont take it anymore, & im...
    MissCandie MissCandie 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    The torture and pain I cause my self the things i drag people into the things i do to them willing or not I hate myself
    Lifessoundtrack85 Lifessoundtrack85 26-30, M 16 hrs ago

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    expecially lately. i hate everything about me i hate how i drive everyone away. i hate my looks, i hate how stupid i am. i know i deserve to die.
    zeebug99 zeebug99 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    Not being confident enough to express how I feel, open up an idea, share an opinion, set my boundaries. Feels friggin weak huh? I do hate this part of myself and it does get to me...
    WokenandOpen WokenandOpen 31-35, M 1 day ago

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    Time is precious. Why would you waste it on me?
    Whobody Whobody 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am not beautiful, I am not intelligent, I have no wondrous talent, I have nothing to offer... I hate myself and the person I am. There is no reason for my existence.
    js246 js246 22-25 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I enjoy being by myself, almost more than anything. I have created a nice reclusive room for me to stay and be alone from the rest of the world. I love not having to leave me room...
    nothingfeelsgreat nothingfeelsgreat 18-21, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I don't like to use the word hate often but if I am being honest...I hate myself. I've always hated myself since I was a child. This feeling has gotten to such a low point where I...
    rcmh171822 rcmh171822 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I have no hope. The only job opportunity slipped through my fingers. Job hunting is horrible. Sep without a cell phone. I have nothing to live for. I'm behind on all of my bills. I...
    BrokenWingedAngel BrokenWingedAngel 22-25, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I hate myself but there's moments like this were I actually feel good!
    sexybitchlovesyou sexybitchlovesyou 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I **** up so many ******* times. I hate it I can't even pleasure my own transgender boyfriend because I will feel like a 40+ year old sexually touching a 15 Year old and I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Sadness is where I belong, and pain is my home. I hate myself, not my physical self (what I look like), but who I actually am
    MadAsAHatterXII MadAsAHatterXII 18-21, M a week ago

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    Warning this is a rant about how much I hate my life. All the way through middle school I was bullied and to cope with that I cut my self....a lot. I also attempted suicide and...
    shybutfunky shybutfunky 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 25

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    im tired of being who i am. a dissapointment to all and a waste of time. one whos love is poison and whos presence is unwelcome. whos humor is black and is arrogant and lazy. im...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M 2 Responses Jul 25

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    Tired of everyone hating me. Sometimes I feel like I rather be nonexistent. Recent news is that my best friend's parents might hate me too. They like her other friend more than me...
    mandycandy0123 mandycandy0123 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 24

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    I don't understand why it is that I could never fit in.... I grew up in a bad home.. my only friend i had in high school wasn't a very good friend.. but she was all i could get...
    Traddarker Traddarker 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 24

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    I hate myself more than you can know. Worthless doesn't even begin to describe how I feel. I smile and act happy just so people don't have to put up with my bullshit. I can't stand...
    NothingtoNoOne NothingtoNoOne 26-30, M Jul 24

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    I hate myself for being a boring noone. Thats the reason noone has crush on me EVER.
    lonely4560 lonely4560 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    So I was tall and skinny my whole life and beautiful but I kept getting bullied for being skinny and I hated myself. And I ruined my face trying to be white. And I am so stupid...
    ihatebeingblack44 ihatebeingblack44 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    I just wanna go to sleep and never wake up I don't wanna feel this pain anymore everyone would be happier if I just died someone please let me kill myself I really want to
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 7 Responses Jul 22

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    Confusion. The mind shattered into pieces from long ago, painstakingly putting it together to see the actions of my past. Was it me or them that struck down the hammer? Better yet...
    NigNog96 NigNog96 18-21, M Jul 22

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    Ah, yes, ugly 'n brooding. Precisely what a girl needs to be.... Yeah, fair warning: I'll be using a bit of sarcasm in this even though I am anything but a sarcastic person...
    Ewoo Ewoo 16-17 1 Response Jul 22

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    and i dont know why everyone hates me so much but maybe i do because now i hate me too and now i really don't see the reason for trying, or for talking, or for breathing im just...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 19

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    I hate myself for not listening to my head. I hate myself for not breaking it off when I knew I HAD to. I hate myself for not letting it go. I hate myself for not crying when I...
    forevergirly forevergirly 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    I can go from being okay to hating myself and wanting to kill myself in 5 seconds :(
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    I hate the way I look, I hate that I'm depressed, I hate everything about me. I'm alone and the women I want to date don't like me and I don't know why.
    Foxmanrox Foxmanrox 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 17

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    Why so negative, what about 100 reasons you love yourself or like 100 reasons your worth living cause there is definitely some and even if I don't know you, I know there is reasons...
    Emsickles Emsickles 13-15, F Jul 16

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    You hate me? That's fine!.... I hate myself too
    JustineMusey JustineMusey 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 15

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    I make myself sick. Unstable emotions, I hate one minutes I'm so happy and the next I want to cut my throat open. I'm disgusted by everything about me. From my looks to my...
    FleshEatingBacteria FleshEatingBacteria 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 15

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    I hate every single thing about me.
    fiji0water0 fiji0water0 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    Last night I got drunk and my friend was throwing up so her boyfriend took her home and I hung out with these other guys... Well I ended up having sex with both of them and gosh I...
    Nicole1334 Nicole1334 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    Being around people is draining... Yet being alone is painful. I'm lost and alone, no one understands me, I don't even understand myself. I'm tired of all this built up emotion...
    busybrain busybrain 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    I hate myself! Normal would be good right about now!
    Zefwed Zefwed 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    Today's my birthday. I don't have any plans with anyone. Probably won't be getting any gifts. I don't want expensive things, just something to know someone was thinking about me. I...
    nothingfeelsgreat nothingfeelsgreat 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 14

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    It's not fair. **** the media. **** celebrities. **** the vast majority of society. They make some many people mentally ill it's not even funny. I feel like in order to be...
    peacesoullove peacesoullove 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 13

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    I really really wish I wasn't here, I wish I was never born, and I know no one wants me here. including myself, I'm close to killing myself, everyday I live is just a constant...
    PleasureOverMatter PleasureOverMatter 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 12

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    In my parents eyes, most everything I do is wrong. If I try to learn from my mistake and fix it I get yelled at as well. I don't know what's right from wrong anymore. How can I...
    brandonflowers brandonflowers 13-15, F Jul 12

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    i really do and thats why i dont expect ppl to like me and no one does but i cant blame them because i hate myself too
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 12