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I Hate Myself 90 Percent of the Time

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    I Want A New Life...

    I hate my life & everything about it... I cant remember the last time i was REALLY HAPPY. In the past two years my life has went from bad to worse in every way. I went from one abusive relationship to another. And when i FINALLY said "i wont take it anymore, & im...
    MissCandie MissCandie 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    I always let myself down and I am always at war with my emotions they get the best of me I cry myself to sleep at night because there are prices of my heart missing and cant be found I always end up getting hurt And it tears my heart and soul apart:(
    prettyface1996 prettyface1996 18-21, M Nov 21, 2013

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    I Hate Myself (selves)

    I live a pseudo-double life--being trans and not out to my family yet-- this accentuates how much I already hate myself, I lack pretty much any self-esteem, confidence, and self-liking (there's such a thing?) I try so hard to make everyone proud of me (everyone meaning my family...
    shaun0h shaun0h 26-30, T 1 Response Feb 15, 2008

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    Sometimes More Than 90%...

     I hate myself for the thoughts in my head. They aren't always present, but they hide in the darkest corners of my mind. There are days that I am fine, but 90% of the time I hate myself. I hate myself for being overweight and doing nothing about it. I hate myself for...
    sadblueyes sadblueyes 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17, 2009

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    I Failed In Life.

    HI my name is alex and I failed to the point where it doesn't matter anymore. I did drugs and now have a disease. I hurt my mother. I hurt my stepfather. I watch ****. I am a sorry excuse of a person. I mess up other peoples lives very often. I should be killed for what I've done...
    failureinlife22 failureinlife22 13-15, M Sep 26, 2009

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    Suicide? noooo! Please DON'T. Don't do it! Never! There's always a better way. If you feel so miserable and you think it's the only way out, YOU'RE WRONG! If you're being bullied...
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    I will NEVER get over it.......
    NoReasonToLiveForMe NoReasonToLiveForMe 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    When you just know you suck at life & you're a ****** person & you deserve nothing that God has blessed you with I may not show it enough, but I am thankful for all I have
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    I literally find nothing beautiful or attractive about me. My eyes are too small, I have acne, my nose is weird, my mouth is small, my eyebrows are just ew, my hair is annoying and...
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    I'll try to keep this short: I hate everything. I am 35, no talents, scary UGLY, and fat. Everyone hates me also. This isn't a feeling. I'm not a good person to be around. I'm...
    YAGWIT YAGWIT 26-30 1 Response 3 days ago

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    here's a secret, I'm a ****** up person and I actually don't want to change. there is comfort in the consistency of my ****** uppery.
    quietlucy quietlucy 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    Thinking about my life makes me so angry. I went into counseling one day and my counselor told me I looked so sad. At home I'm just filled with so much anger. I don't look sad at...
    aquamoongoddess aquamoongoddess 22-25, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    ive figured it out who i am. from Charlie the Unicorn: STARFISH LOVES YOU! !!!!! Its a special moment when you figure such things out.
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M 4 days ago

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    I have no friends people hate me The only thing I ever get told is I'm a pig and I hurt people purposely
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    It always feel like I'm being watched and judged by everything I do or say. Most of the time, I try and ignore that looming feeling but other times it just sort've..gets to me. It...
    ApatheticSpark ApatheticSpark 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    When I say I hate myself, that is a little stretched, because I love how I am with people, I have compassion for everyone. I love how sensitive I am to others, but what I do hate...
    Kailey76 Kailey76 36-40, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I feel that most people in my life are only there due to convenience. I don't feel any "bond" or connection with even my closest friends and family anymore. I know it's my fault...
    Sparklyblueunicorns Sparklyblueunicorns 22-25, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    I always mess up everything. I think too far ahead, I'm too hopeful.. but at the same time you say I'm too pessimistic.. it's either I'm too pessimistic or I'm too optimistic. you...
    Caitlinsmith1636 Caitlinsmith1636 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I am a recovering male anorexic who has been in outpatient therapy since March of last year. Back in June, I wasn't improving at all, and was starting to get very sick. It got to...
    Caridinals21 Caridinals21 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 1

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    What have I done today? As soon as I woke up got yelled at. I ate breakfast and went to school. Class was fine. Got in the car, got yelled at all the way to the store. Finished...
    jennifer5006 jennifer5006 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 1

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    I made a promise to myself, one that I haven't kept. me and my mom never had a good relationship, and this particular day after picking me up from my dad's she went to shower after...
    pricklytickk pricklytickk 22-25, F Feb 1

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    Today I almost lost my girlfriend and I never hated myself more than now. They diagnosed her with carbon monoxide poisoning. She tried to kill herself and it's my fault! I hate...
    LoloRegz LoloRegz 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 1

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    I am a recovering male anorexic, and I just finished an outpatient treatment program for eating disorders. On the whole, it wasn’t a helpful program. I may be at a healthy weight...
    Caridinals21 Caridinals21 22-25, M 3 Responses Jan 31

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    want to go somewhere where I can be alone where I do not need to care about others.. n be myself.
    crystisazz crystisazz 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    I am very spontaneous and adventurous. to be able to wander in places I never been before is a very enjoyable time for me. anytime I am on vacation at a place I never been...
    looking4chemistry looking4chemistry 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 31

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    I deal with a lot of self-hatred and disgust. I'm disgusted with myself for feeling awful all the time. I'm disgusted with myself for feeling broken. My life is practically perfect...
    Hush92 Hush92 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 31

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    Im tired of being a complete fool. I always embarass myself no matter what!!! I can't do anything right!!!! I'm tired of people telling me to be more confident in myself but for...
    FemaIeWeezy FemaIeWeezy 18-21, M 4 Responses Jan 31

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    I used to do this a lot, but I moved and now I have to find new places to enjoy my solitude. I would be gone for hours, just laying in a field listening to music. But then again I...
    Lacrimosadies Lacrimosadies 18-21, F Jan 30

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    Do you ever just feel like a disappointment? I'm just so fed up with how I'm turning out I feel like such a failure when I see my friends bringing in a load of money and driving...
    SarcasticCxnt SarcasticCxnt 18-21 Jan 30

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    I hate myself today. Idk what is happening to me. I hate my face today. I think I look so ******. - soko
    LittleUnicorn LittleUnicorn 18-21 5 Responses Jan 30

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    I do...I am 21 and no where near where I feel I should be in my life. I have made so many mistakes growing up as a kid and in my teen years. I feel so inadequate and pathetic in...
    Jason947 Jason947 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 30

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    The feeling comes and goes, some days are better / worse than others; sometimes the feeling comes out of nowhere, sometimes it is triggered.. It can disappear just as randomly, but...
    WithClouds WithClouds 26-30, M Jan 29

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    Honestly explaining myself to someone is the hardest thing, because nobody understands. I'm not like anyone In my family, my family always just thinks I'm a defective child who...
    bflyboo14 bflyboo14 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    I can see it. I can feel it. I can taste it. I even touched it...more than once. I can see how broken everything is. I can feel it all. But most importantly, I sometimes feel...
    AmazonDaughter AmazonDaughter 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    Everytime I see the girl my ex likes it feels like a reminder that I'm not good enough for him. I know this thinking is bs but I can't help it. I feel like she's prettier, smarter...
    AquaQ AquaQ 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    I don't like myself,and I can understand why others can too. I'm ugly. My family keeps telling me that I'm beautiful, but I'm not. I have an apple body shape,meaning that I have no...
    RainbowLollipop587 RainbowLollipop587 16-17 2 Responses Jan 26

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    I just want people to understand me and not go against me every time I say something.
    KT3535 KT3535 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    I really have been struggling with this lately... well more like for the past 7 or so months. I ******* hate myself, I hate that I'm useless and can't bring home any income, I hate...
    GoldenHeart69 GoldenHeart69 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    just what it says. a ******* fool too f_n stupid to understand that no one gives a **** about his whining. stop thinking you matter. you are nothing. this world does not need...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer