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I Hate Myself And I Want To Die

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 435 People

    Coming Undone.

    First of all I am not a kid, a teen or a heartbroken lover. I am mature enough to understand the consequences of my action and I still think suicide is the best option for me and the likes of me. It is not that my family doesn't love me or that my boyfriend left me, I want to die...
    CumaeanSibyl CumaeanSibyl 26-30 Jan 20, 2012

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    Lost

    I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE. MY PARENTS DON T TALK AT ALL SO LIVING AT HOME IS A NIGHTMARE AND IM THAT UP MY MY EYES BALLS IN DEBT THAT I CAN HARDLY AFFORF TO LIVE AT HOME NEVER MIND MOVING OUT AND GETTING A PLACE OF MY OWN. I HATE MY JOB BUT ITS THE ONLY ESCAPE FROM...
    layla8565 layla8565 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 17, 2009

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    Boooooooooooooom Boooooooom

    hi there, wazzzzup huhuhuhuh i m feelng nervous..bt y??? cn nyone answer me??
    Feb 9, 2013

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    Hate My Life

    Life is waste of time I hate my life
    preet23 preet23 26-30, M May 10, 2013

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    Operation Exit

    Having to leave a post on a random website, says a lot really doesn't it! Who am I, white male 35 unemployed, unattached and losing touch with reality more and more with each passing second. What am I, failure, loser, loner, weirdo, weak, pathetic, useless, dumb, difficult...
    tere1nure tere1nure 31-35 May 15, 2010

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    Sometimes I Wonder If Death Is The Answer For This Misery I Am In.

    If I was no longer alive then I would not have to worry about anything or anyone. I would not feel this pain and not feel unloved by the one person who I love so much. Some may think that death is a bad thing, but life is not a good thing when all you experience is hurt and pain...
    claydra claydra 36-40, F May 19, 2012

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    I Hate My Life

    hey there, since mny dayz i m feelng so depressd frm inside............ coz my mom iz angry wid me... n last night i cried a lot.. m juz a kid..a last daughtr of my parents..n if thy gt angry wid me..i feel like diyng.. i wanna suicide............ coz my dad iz nt behaving...
    Aminasiddiqua Aminasiddiqua 16-17, F 5 Responses Dec 29, 2012

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    Folks, I think you'll all I agree

    that I have real loser credentials! Here's my situation: - I'm separated, my soon to be ex wife is a controlling, brittle, cold and critical; - I have 3 young kids, one with autism; - my once successful business has collapsed. I'm down to zero employees; - I don't have any...
    Ak67 Ak67 41-45, M 1 Response Feb 18

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    Can't Hurt More People

    Hi... it's strange to come and write here but I guess it's for those who have just one last hope to live more....I have been lying all my life, sometimes knowingly, sometimes unknowingly ... I am partly schizophrenic, I have health concerns, been aging too quickly ( I am only 20...
    grumpycarson grumpycarson 18-21 3 Responses Jun 3, 2012

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    I Just Don't See The Big Picture.

    Im 20. I write my final exam on Wednesday and Im done 2 years of college. Sept'11 I was diagnosed with depression it was quite the journey. I ended up getting really drunk and cutting myself one night. My friend knocked on the door to see if I was okay, my floor was soaked in...
    captialpunishment captialpunishment 18-21 Apr 22, 2012

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    I Deserve It

    I am a worthless person. I have no reason to be alive. Only 3 people have ever loved me- My grandfather, my father, and best friend. My grandfather is dying, my father is also dying, and my best friend isn't around anymore. My mom never even loved me. No female has loved me, and...
    AtomicCorn2 AtomicCorn2 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 19, 2012

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    Sometimes.

    It's not that i am suicidal or anything. I mean i did deal with depression earlier this year but i have been able to thankfully get past it but sometimes when i'm upset i just wish i wasn't alive. it's not a constant thought but even as little as not liking how i look one day (i...
    em4040 em4040 16-17, F 5 Responses Nov 2, 2007

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    I Want To Cut My Heart Out

    I can feel the outline of where I want to cut. Pick a knife any knife. Who cares about infection when you are dead? I want to see the blood squirt out. I want to feel my mind drift away. I want to place the organ on the table and watch it beat from above, laughing because the...
    feelingmisplaced feelingmisplaced 22-25, T 3 Responses Mar 26, 2011

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    I Can Forget My Love If I Die. I Want To Die Now To Fulfill My Lover Wish

    I love a person who will never love back & don't want to talk to me. Love is a feeling I can't create it. He is asking me to forget him. Only way I can do is by leaving my life. I want to die badly. I want to donate my heart so that I can give life to who wants to live. Give me...
    theunluckiest theunluckiest 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 15, 2012

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    Heartless

    t has been six and a half months since my mother died of cardiac arrest. Three months after her passing when I was still in my grieving phase, I met a guy six years younger to me. He was a vibrant and enthusiastic guy! He could make me feel good even when everything seemed dark...
    monty31 monty31 31-35, F 3 Responses Nov 20, 2011

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    I Dont Want To Live Anymore

    I am a lesbian woman and have been married before, now I was married again for almost 2 years, now she is also leaving me as I am such a bad person and she is straight, I have been a liar and I am sick of myself, I hate myself so much, so, so much, am divorcing again, I don't...
    zanele19 zanele19 36-40 Jan 3, 2013

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    Hartley Is Broken

    i do hate myself. i have never been really happy......now i am someone i loathe. it is 2:10 am. another sleepless night. i cant help it anymore , my body and my mind are so tired. i need to give up, i think i already have. i spend 99 % of my day thinking about...
    hartleybroken hartleybroken 22-25, F 20 Responses Jun 24, 2010

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    The Man Who Wanted Nothing

    My problem nevr was that my life was or is particularly bad. I hope no one is offended by this but it is the lack of good things/times that got me down. This is no recent thing either, I first told some one I wanted to die when I was 5 years old. I'm 35 years old now and so far I...
    tombwalker tombwalker 31-35, M 2 Responses Jan 13, 2010

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    Suicide Not Necessary; I Died Years Ago. I Die Again Every Day. I Just Want To Die For Good.

    He comes to see me every day. Like a tax collector He knocks on my door expecting payment, but I have nothing to give. So He gives me another knowing grin and turns to walk away with the promise of returning again tomorrow. His name is Life, and I'm tired of seeing Him. I am a...
    8888DeadInside8888 8888DeadInside8888 36-40, M Sep 3, 2013

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    Hate Living

    want to die cant bear d pain..i fell in love wid one..she loves me a lotttt but now she left me with out any reason..she is happy wid out me now.cant explain d pain how it is nd i cant bear d pain anymore..wen she is wid me am soooo happyy but nw she left me cant explain my pain...
    8142383155rahul 8142383155rahul 18-21 Oct 20, 2012

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    Die

    I hate my life and want to die been wnting to die for 15 years my life sucks
    hopetodie hopetodie 51-55, M 5 Responses Sep 30, 2009

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    I Hate Myself

    I hate myself and wish I was dead. Im 40 years old and have nothing to live for except my fiance. If it was not for her I would be dead already. I don't deserve to be loved.
    andrich613 andrich613 41-45, M 5 Responses Sep 9, 2013

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    Face To Face With Life

    I am 18yrs old,a boy..i m having these pimples and scars all over my face...i dnt want to live with all this ****...I wanna die....i dnt want to see myself in the mirror...dnt want to go out...
    Nitssss Nitssss 18-21 Aug 6, 2012

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    I Work As A Telemarketer And I Hate My Life

    I hate my job. I hate it with everything in me. I work at a telemarketing place that does fundraising calls for chartable organizations. I hate it with everything in me. I cannot say that enough. It barely pays the bills and it feels more like prison or some sweat shop in some...
    Orbie1 Orbie1 41-45, F 3 Responses Jun 27, 2012

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    Is Suicide Rejecting Life Or Finally Admitting It Didn't Want You?

    Hi, My name is Saerie, I just turned 15, I hate myself and I want to die. It was sort of funny actually, I typed that exact sentence into google and this popped up, I've never told anybody any of these things, never even on a blog like this, so I'm a bit uncertain, if...
    SaerieFaerie SaerieFaerie 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 29, 2009

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    This Phrase Haunts Me

    I have no particular interest in Nirvana (I quite liked their unplugged record, but that was it!), but ever since I heard this phrase it has been my default/go-to thought process. It derails my train of thought, work, or play, regularly (I can barely make a sentence when reading...
    ablackfogdescends ablackfogdescends 26-30, M Jul 12, 2012

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    I Am Nothing Without My Sister.. I Want To Die

    Hello friend.. i loved my sister but today she hurts me.. i feel i am lost.. i am feeling to die.. my sister is everything for me.. but she hates me.. in this full family hates me and they hurt me a lot.. but only my sister use to love me and i use to be frank to her and i was...
    AdarshaBanglore AdarshaBanglore 18-21, M May 8, 2013

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    I Think About Dying As The Only Way To Find Peace

    This is my first post here so don't know whether this will just get lost in the ether. I am a 46 year old alcoholic who has had depression for years and I have lost hope. These feelings make me feel deeply ashamed as well as I have two wonderful sons and a loving wife although...
    jodf jodf 46-50, M 1 Response Jul 4, 2013

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    Let Me Just Go

    32 had ms for 9yrs cant find a girl who dont us and bin me just want to die now
    biffyclyro biffyclyro 31-35 Dec 24, 2012

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    "Only God Can Judge Me Now"

    I'm an *******. A verbal enthusiast and overall hater of everything humanoid. I hate everything, because nothing satisfies me. nothing makes me want to challange myself. and nothing i own or know is dear to me.   I'm a narcisistic insomniac, that procrasniates all night...
    MuteWitness MuteWitness 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 31, 2009

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    I Want to Die Now!!!!!!

    hi i jes want to die as im reali fade up.the only thing that is keeping me alive is cutting veryday.all my arms and thighs are cover wit cuts and blood. i suffer frm severe PTSD,stressed induced psycosis,boarderline personality disoder and teen depression.my family hates me nd...
    bootyb bootyb 18-21, F 16 Responses Nov 2, 2007

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    Help!

    I feel life is just not worth it anymore.. Im angry at the so called professionals who were supposed to help but breached their duty of care. Im angry because Im basically unemployable.I blew the whistle on child abusers and now Im paying the price. I want so badly to end my life...
    idispair idispair 36-40, F 17 Responses Feb 2, 2011

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    17 May 1993

    On the 17 May 1993 i was in a car Crash.As a result i lost my Left Eye and have never got over this.
    scmdndy1 scmdndy1 41-45, M Sep 16, 2012

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    I Cant Breathe Straight Anymore...i Love And Miss Him Tooo Much

    I am truly helpless and destroyed and i really dont want to live anymore. I can barely breathe from the pain that i am goin through. I feel lifeless so I think its better to actually be lifeless and stop thinkin. I have thought about poisoning myself like drinking some random...
    alternativewhite alternativewhite 22-25, F 54 Responses Sep 16, 2011

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    Dear God!God!!! Your Lil Girl Dying :'(

    First my dear mom dad I love u bt m sory I have to die I don't worth as ur child.I m nothing to u guys,i never took good results cuz i dont study nd m goin 2 fail in exam i have rumours in society,i just dont worth u guys so,i want to die.God plzz take me away 4rm dis dangerous...
    1 Response Feb 14, 2013

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    I Want To Die

    i hate myself i m of no use i m just a burden for my family i m all alone i want die
    confusedzzz confusedzzz 18-21 Aug 22, 2012

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    Hate Myself The Most!

    It’s funny. Sometimes i’m hyper and sometimes i feel somewhat dejected. Dejected because of life, obviously. I don’t know why. What is there for me to complain? Why must i emphasis all my negative thoughts into one trivial matter? It seemed foolish and it seemed...
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 12, 2011

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    I Have No Reason To Live

    My hate story begins from the day is was born. Am the black sheep and weed of the family. Was always compared to the other kids and was told of how i pale in comparison to my cousins and world at large.. My parents have a horrible relationship and would be much better of living...
    ammyenemy ammyenemy 26-30, F 3 Responses Jul 21, 2010

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    My present .past. n future are always the worst

    and seem to be more worst.. itz so painful dat i just dont want to feel anymore. Before anythhin happen i jus u to kw that i love you **mom n dad...
    cherilovz cherilovz 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 17

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    Hate Myself And I Want To Die

    not so long just 10months before all things are going well. My life was cool and i am happy with it. During exam times my father got suffer from UTI and as he is diabetic we took all the precautions and medications properly. But the **** had has to happen. The medications...
    xwinx30 xwinx30 22-25, M Oct 11, 2012

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    Am 56, everything good in my life I through

    away, today I'm a piece crap, I have a son going to be a looser like me.if I get out off his life may be he would be forced to fix his life. Every I've done was bad, I'm almost a very bad woman. I have all bad qualities and intensions in life like, I can't understand someone...
    Rosangela123 Rosangela123 56-60, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    Fml

    life just seems pointless, im not happy with what i have and fail at everything i try to achieve, so whats the point in living? maybe if i were to die i'd finally have achieved something and make people remember my name. i have no self motivation anymore for i fail at everything...
    onlyforyou33 onlyforyou33 16-17 3 Responses Jul 15, 2010

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    Alone And Lonely.

    I never had a single friend in my life. Never have been able to share anything. People come, they talk, I listen and they move out. Nobody waits to hear what I have to say. If I am in a crowd with people I call friends, You can still point me out for being all alone. It's not...
    siddharth25 siddharth25 22-25, M Oct 27, 2013

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    The Pain Ends When I End

    I cant help the way i feel.Wanting to kill myself is like breathing for me.It goes on all day and night.Currently we live in a household of six were my mom is the only one who works.She has contracted an illness that may one day incapacitate her from walking im deafly scared...
    Jan 20, 2013

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    Yet Another Dead-end Life

    I'm in a dead-end job, in a dead-end life, friendless and solitary. There's nothing left for me here. That's why I want to die. Some people are mangled by life, manipulated by others to the point of complete despair. At that point they begin to contemplate self-annihilation. I...
    sovind sovind 36-40, M 8 Responses Sep 1, 2009

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    A Disgousting Life

    Hi! Hello to every one who read my story .my life is soooo bore and i never like my parents at the same time they dont like me .each and every minute they schold me .and my parents never show affection on me.and i doesnt say that my parents are bad.
    jayaprakash7 jayaprakash7 22-25, M May 16, 2013

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    Meant To Lose

    I guess I'm writing this because it feels a little therapeutic to do so in sharing my experience of a miserable life. Its just a story of some of the episodes of my life that have shaped the way things are for me now. My whole life hasn't been the greatest, my father was an...
    rjm15 rjm15 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 28, 2009

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    You Decide

    i am double pg holder m.com and mba but i have no job what i then doing , i want to suicide, i hate my life, i have 30 years old  but not get any job , no house, no family  , i want to finish my life , sure, sureeeeeeeeeeeeee its not a joke it s come from my heart dear...
    anusam147 anusam147 26-30 1 Response May 13, 2013

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    Suicide Is The Only Way

    Hello, I am 25 year old male from India. I am highly depressed since past one year, and instead of healing it's just increasing day by day. I don't think I can hold this pain longer & thinking to end my life. It's all started when I broke up with my girl friend. We were in...
    shldntbalive shldntbalive 26-30 Jul 8, 2013

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    i have lost it now. i keep picking myself up

    everyday.thinking i will have it better today. but now i just have lost that energy too. i never planned my life beyond age 19 and yet at 22 .i am lost. i think i have seen everything ,edured everything,battled all diseases,and at this point i feel like a 73 year old outcast...
    areerah areerah 22-25, F Jan 10

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    James

    My name is James, I was physically abused as a child, I saw my mom abused, and as I got older I realized my coping mechanism was to shut down and remove everyone from my life. I joined the military at 20 and stayed in for 8 years, when I got out , I was diagnosed with PTSD , and...
    Nevah8ter Nevah8ter 31-35 2 Responses Jan 13, 2013

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    Right Now

    I currently want to slit my wrists and bleed out so I never have to wake up to this horrible life ever again. The thought of never having to be awake again excites me and makes me feel warm and relaxed all at the same time, because I would finally be at peace. I am tired of being...
    instantquack instantquack 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 24, 2013

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    ta1kingdinosaur ta1kingdinosaur 18-21 Jan 13

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