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I Hate Myself And I Want To Die

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 419 People

    No Reason I Reason Enough To Live

    got married at the age of 18,the guy had an affair with someone else and divorced me...again got married after 10 years to some other guy,turns out he is an Impotent...so I  divorced him...in the years between these marriages i fell in love with someone so deeply,he seemed to...
    wish2die wish2die
    2 Responses Jun 16, 2012

    I Want to Die Now!!!!!!

    hi i jes want to die as im reali fade up.the only thing that is keeping me alive is cutting veryday.all my arms and thighs are cover wit cuts and blood. i suffer frm severe PTSD,stressed induced psycosis,boarderline personality disoder and teen depression.my family hates me nd...
    bootyb bootyb
    18-21, F
    15 Responses Nov 2, 2007

    I Want To Cut My Heart Out

    I can feel the outline of where I want to cut. Pick a knife any knife. Who cares about infection when you are dead? I want to see the blood squirt out. I want to feel my mind drift away. I want to place the organ on the table and watch it beat from above, laughing because the...
    feelingmisplaced feelingmisplaced
    22-25, T
    3 Responses Mar 26, 2011

    Meant To Lose

    I guess I'm writing this because it feels a little therapeutic to do so in sharing my experience of a miserable life. Its just a story of some of the episodes of my life that have shaped the way things are for me now. My whole life hasn't been the greatest, my father was an...
    rjm15 rjm15
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Nov 28, 2009

    Suicide Not Necessary; I Died Years Ago. I Die Again Every Day. I Just Want To Die For Good.

    He comes to see me every day. Like a tax collector He knocks on my door expecting payment, but I have nothing to give. So He gives me another knowing grin and turns to walk away with the promise of returning again tomorrow. His name is Life, and I'm tired of seeing Him. I am a...
    8888DeadInside8888 8888DeadInside8888
    36-40, M
    Sep 3, 2013

    I hate my life. I had a job

    that was a great job. I loved that job. I worked at a college as a tutor. I walked into work a few weeks ago. My name was taken off my door. I went to the coordinator to ask why. She said that I was not going to be able to work this semester due to budget issues. That is how I...
    Orbie1 Orbie1
    41-45, F
    Aug 24, 2014

    My present .past. n future are always the worst

    and seem to be more worst.. itz so painful dat i just dont want to feel anymore. Before anythhin happen i jus u to kw that i love you **mom n dad...
    cherilovz cherilovz
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 17, 2014


    layla8565 layla8565
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Nov 17, 2009

    Coming Undone.

    First of all I am not a kid, a teen or a heartbroken lover. I am mature enough to understand the consequences of my action and I still think suicide is the best option for me and the likes of me. It is not that my family doesn't love me or that my boyfriend left me, I want to die...
    CumaeanSibyl CumaeanSibyl
    Jan 20, 2012

    "Only God Can Judge Me Now"

    I'm an *******. A verbal enthusiast and overall hater of everything humanoid. I hate everything, because nothing satisfies me. nothing makes me want to challange myself. and nothing i own or know is dear to me.   I'm a narcisistic insomniac, that procrasniates all night...
    MuteWitness MuteWitness
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Aug 31, 2009

    Dear God!God!!! Your Lil Girl Dying :'(

    First my dear mom dad I love u bt m sory I have to die I don't worth as ur child.I m nothing to u guys,i never took good results cuz i dont study nd m goin 2 fail in exam i have rumours in society,i just dont worth u guys so,i want to die.God plzz take me away 4rm dis dangerous...
    1 Response Feb 14, 2013

    You Decide

    i am double pg holder m.com and mba but i have no job what i then doing , i want to suicide, i hate my life, i have 30 years old  but not get any job , no house, no family  , i want to finish my life , sure, sureeeeeeeeeeeeee its not a joke it s come from my heart dear...
    anusam147 anusam147
    1 Response May 13, 2013

    I'm Nothing, Have Done Nothing And Doesn't Seem I Will Do Anything

    Well, i'm a 28 year old loser.Single for pretty much my whole life cus i don't beleive i'm good enough for anybody. I only finished highschool so as far as my career goes it;s pretty much dead end. People say that I should stop whinning get up and take action. I get into this...
    loserlowlifeugly loserlowlifeugly
    26-30, M
    6 Responses Feb 28, 2010

    Operation Exit

    Having to leave a post on a random website, says a lot really doesn't it! Who am I, white male 35 unemployed, unattached and losing touch with reality more and more with each passing second. What am I, failure, loser, loner, weirdo, weak, pathetic, useless, dumb, difficult...
    tere1nure tere1nure
    May 15, 2010

    i have lost it now. i keep picking myself up

    everyday.thinking i will have it better today. but now i just have lost that energy too. i never planned my life beyond age 19 and yet at 22 .i am lost. i think i have seen everything ,edured everything,battled all diseases,and at this point i feel like a 73 year old outcast...
    areerah areerah
    26-30, F
    Jan 10, 2014

    Sometimes I Wonder If Death Is The Answer For This Misery I Am In.

    If I was no longer alive then I would not have to worry about anything or anyone. I would not feel this pain and not feel unloved by the one person who I love so much. Some may think that death is a bad thing, but life is not a good thing when all you experience is hurt and pain...
    claydra claydra
    36-40, F
    May 19, 2012

    I Am Nothing Without My Sister.. I Want To Die

    Hello friend.. i loved my sister but today she hurts me.. i feel i am lost.. i am feeling to die.. my sister is everything for me.. but she hates me.. in this full family hates me and they hurt me a lot.. but only my sister use to love me and i use to be frank to her and i was...
    AdarshaBanglore AdarshaBanglore
    22-25, M
    May 8, 2013

    chack out my suicide chat room cute

    and past the link http://www.chatzy.com/37831562858889
    hopetodie hopetodie
    51-55, M
    Jan 17, 2015

    Folks, I think you'll all I agree

    that I have real loser credentials! Here's my situation: - I'm separated, my soon to be ex wife is a controlling, brittle, cold and critical; - I have 3 young kids, one with autism; - my once successful business has collapsed. I'm down to zero employees; - I don't have any...
    Ak67 Ak67
    41-45, M
    1 Response Feb 18, 2014


    My name is James, I was physically abused as a child, I saw my mom abused, and as I got older I realized my coping mechanism was to shut down and remove everyone from my life. I joined the military at 20 and stayed in for 8 years, when I got out , I was diagnosed with PTSD , and...
    Nevah8ter Nevah8ter
    2 Responses Jan 13, 2013

    Right Now

    I currently want to slit my wrists and bleed out so I never have to wake up to this horrible life ever again. The thought of never having to be awake again excites me and makes me feel warm and relaxed all at the same time, because I would finally be at peace. I am tired of being...
    instantquack instantquack
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 24, 2013


    I feel life is just not worth it anymore.. Im angry at the so called professionals who were supposed to help but breached their duty of care. Im angry because Im basically unemployable.I blew the whistle on child abusers and now Im paying the price. I want so badly to end my life...
    idispair idispair
    36-40, F
    18 Responses Feb 2, 2011


    I hate my life and want to die been wnting to die for 15 years my life sucks
    hopetodie hopetodie
    51-55, M
    5 Responses Sep 30, 2009

    Death Is All I Think About

     I have had a very unstable life for as long as i can remember and for the last 6 years my depression is getting worse, it all started when i was 15, i was drinking non stop taking drugs and very pissed of with the world and friends and the family, my dad did not want...
    beasty123 beasty123
    18-21, M
    8 Responses Oct 9, 2009

    Can't Hurt More People

    Hi... it's strange to come and write here but I guess it's for those who have just one last hope to live more....I have been lying all my life, sometimes knowingly, sometimes unknowingly ... I am partly schizophrenic, I have health concerns, been aging too quickly ( I am only 20...
    grumpycarson grumpycarson
    3 Responses Jun 3, 2012

    I Think About Dying As The Only Way To Find Peace

    This is my first post here so don't know whether this will just get lost in the ether. I am a 46 year old alcoholic who has had depression for years and I have lost hope. These feelings make me feel deeply ashamed as well as I have two wonderful sons and a loving wife although...
    jodf jodf
    51-55, M
    1 Response Jul 4, 2013

    I need to scream I need to cry.

    ... I need to deep cut I need to die. ) :
    ProSolitude ProSolitude
    31-35, F
    Nov 12, 2015

    I Dont Want To Live Anymore

    I am a lesbian woman and have been married before, now I was married again for almost 2 years, now she is also leaving me as I am such a bad person and she is straight, I have been a liar and I am sick of myself, I hate myself so much, so, so much, am divorcing again, I don't...
    zanele19 zanele19
    1 Response Jan 3, 2013

    I Hate Myself

    I hate myself and wish I was dead. Im 40 years old and have nothing to live for except my fiance. If it was not for her I would be dead already. I don't deserve to be loved.
    andrich613 andrich613
    41-45, M
    5 Responses Sep 9, 2013

    Is Suicide Rejecting Life Or Finally Admitting It Didn't Want You?

    Hi, My name is Saerie, I just turned 15, I hate myself and I want to die. It was sort of funny actually, I typed that exact sentence into google and this popped up, I've never told anybody any of these things, never even on a blog like this, so I'm a bit uncertain, if...
    SaerieFaerie SaerieFaerie
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Oct 29, 2009

    The Man Who Wanted Nothing

    My problem nevr was that my life was or is particularly bad. I hope no one is offended by this but it is the lack of good things/times that got me down. This is no recent thing either, I first told some one I wanted to die when I was 5 years old. I'm 35 years old now and so far I...
    tombwalker tombwalker
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Jan 13, 2010

    Hate Living

    want to die cant bear d pain..i fell in love wid one..she loves me a lotttt but now she left me with out any reason..she is happy wid out me now.cant explain d pain how it is nd i cant bear d pain anymore..wen she is wid me am soooo happyy but nw she left me cant explain my pain...
    8142383155rahul 8142383155rahul
    Oct 20, 2012

    I Have No Reason To Live

    My hate story begins from the day is was born. Am the black sheep and weed of the family. Was always compared to the other kids and was told of how i pale in comparison to my cousins and world at large.. My parents have a horrible relationship and would be much better of living...
    ammyenemy ammyenemy
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jul 21, 2010

    I Cant Breathe Straight Anymore...i Love And Miss Him Tooo Much

    I am truly helpless and destroyed and i really dont want to live anymore. I can barely breathe from the pain that i am goin through. I feel lifeless so I think its better to actually be lifeless and stop thinkin. I have thought about poisoning myself like drinking some random...
    alternativewhite alternativewhite
    22-25, F
    54 Responses Sep 16, 2011

    Let Me Just Go

    32 had ms for 9yrs cant find a girl who dont us and bin me just want to die now
    biffyclyro biffyclyro
    Dec 24, 2012

    I don't know what's wrong with me,

    but I hate every fibre of my being. I have a lot of "issues" (OCD, social anxiety, anorexia) which I've sought help for, but nothing has helped. Each day is full of the same negative self-taught. I'm fat. I'm awkward. I'm ugly. I'm worthless. I'm a piece of trash. I don't...
    Caridinals21 Caridinals21
    22-25, M
    Mar 8, 2016

    17 May 1993

    On the 17 May 1993 i was in a car Crash.As a result i lost my Left Eye and have never got over this.
    scmdndy1 scmdndy1
    41-45, M
    Sep 16, 2012

    A Disgousting Life

    Hi! Hello to every one who read my story .my life is soooo bore and i never like my parents at the same time they dont like me .each and every minute they schold me .and my parents never show affection on me.and i doesnt say that my parents are bad.
    jayaprakash7 jayaprakash7
    26-30, M
    May 16, 2013

    Suicide Is The Only Way

    Hello, I am 25 year old male from India. I am highly depressed since past one year, and instead of healing it's just increasing day by day. I don't think I can hold this pain longer & thinking to end my life. It's all started when I broke up with my girl friend. We were in...
    shldntbalive shldntbalive
    Jul 8, 2013

    Hartley Is Broken

    i do hate myself. i have never been really happy......now i am someone i loathe. it is 2:10 am. another sleepless night. i cant help it anymore , my body and my mind are so tired. i need to give up, i think i already have. i spend 99 % of my day thinking about...
    hartleybroken hartleybroken
    22-25, F
    21 Responses Jun 24, 2010

    I feel like such a failure to everyone!

    I rarely am seen as anyone who has any good ideas eventhough I know people read my stuff on facebook but my husband and everyone else in my life seems to get more validation of talent and support that they can go far! People agree I am a good writer but they don't want me to...
    angelicalprincess23 angelicalprincess23
    26-30, F
    Jun 5, 2015

    Hate My Life

    Life is waste of time I hate my life
    preet23 preet23
    26-30, M
    May 10, 2013

    Hate Myself And I Want To Die

    not so long just 10months before all things are going well. My life was cool and i am happy with it. During exam times my father got suffer from UTI and as he is diabetic we took all the precautions and medications properly. But the **** had has to happen. The medications...
    xwinx30 xwinx30
    22-25, M
    Oct 11, 2012
    ta1kingdinosaur ta1kingdinosaur
    Jan 13, 2014

    Hate Myself The Most!

    It’s funny. Sometimes i’m hyper and sometimes i feel somewhat dejected. Dejected because of life, obviously. I don’t know why. What is there for me to complain? Why must i emphasis all my negative thoughts into one trivial matter? It seemed foolish and it seemed...
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Oct 12, 2011

    The Pain Ends When I End

    I cant help the way i feel.Wanting to kill myself is like breathing for me.It goes on all day and night.Currently we live in a household of six were my mom is the only one who works.She has contracted an illness that may one day incapacitate her from walking im deafly scared...
    Jan 20, 2013
    amador01 amador01
    46-50, F
    May 23, 2015

    Am 56, everything good in my life I through

    away, today I'm a piece crap, I have a son going to be a looser like me.if I get out off his life may be he would be forced to fix his life. Every I've done was bad, I'm almost a very bad woman. I have all bad qualities and intensions in life like, I can't understand someone...
    Rosangela123 Rosangela123
    56-60, F
    2 Responses Apr 2, 2014

    The End

    It's so stupid, really I don't have anything to be depressed about. I'm in uni, doing ok have a group of close friends, nice family who loves me, no major financial worries. But I just feel nothing inside. I dated a few people in the past too, but they really did care for me...
    Ivan555 Ivan555
    18-21, M
    Dec 10, 2012


    t has been six and a half months since my mother died of cardiac arrest. Three months after her passing when I was still in my grieving phase, I met a guy six years younger to me. He was a vibrant and enthusiastic guy! He could make me feel good even when everything seemed dark...
    monty31 monty31
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Nov 20, 2011

    I Deserve It

    I am a worthless person. I have no reason to be alive. Only 3 people have ever loved me- My grandfather, my father, and best friend. My grandfather is dying, my father is also dying, and my best friend isn't around anymore. My mom never even loved me. No female has loved me, and...
    AtomicCorn2 AtomicCorn2
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 19, 2012

    I Just Don't See The Big Picture.

    Im 20. I write my final exam on Wednesday and Im done 2 years of college. Sept'11 I was diagnosed with depression it was quite the journey. I ended up getting really drunk and cutting myself one night. My friend knocked on the door to see if I was okay, my floor was soaked in...
    captialpunishment captialpunishment
    Apr 22, 2012

    Wheel Of Fortune

    When the bipolar flips to the down-side, and i'm in despair and distressed depression, and i keep indulging in reckless, self-destructive behaviour, like drinking three bottles of whiskey in a night and trashing my apartment, i do hate myself, and feel suicidal for the next few...
    jerrychap jerrychap
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jan 23, 2010

    Alone And Lonely.

    I never had a single friend in my life. Never have been able to share anything. People come, they talk, I listen and they move out. Nobody waits to hear what I have to say. If I am in a crowd with people I call friends, You can still point me out for being all alone. It's not...
    siddharth25 siddharth25
    26-30, M
    1 Response Oct 27, 2013
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