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I Hate Myself For Being a Dissapointment

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    I'm constantly telling myself "you really are

    pathetic." When i am in school, I can work. When I get home, all I do is fool around. I surf the internet, I text my friend, I draw and I leave my homework there. And I leave it. And leave it. And leave it. until 8:30ish rolls around, and I realize how much of a fool I was. And...
    jeweldoggy jeweldoggy 13-15, F Apr 16

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    Usually I don't like sharing how I think about

    suicide because I know for a fact someone out there will judge me for it. They will end up thinking I am overreacting upon my situation, but I don't care anymore. It's just weird talking about this because in real life I am a very fun, crazy, happy person and saying this makes...
    HungryHippoBruh HungryHippoBruh 16-17, F Dec 10

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    I Am Such a Let Down

    I let everyone who cares even a little down.  I wish i could be a better person. I want to be successful in life.... In something. I hate that i am such a disappointment. I will probably continue to disappoint as time goes on
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 21, 2008

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    I feel like I'm never good enough.

    Like I'll never find love because I'm not perfect
    CaptainBenza CaptainBenza 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 10

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    Feeling Like a Loser

    I have this problem which I am going through right now. Ever sincve ages ago, I've been hated and disapproved for the things I've either done wrong or I've could of done better. It always gets to me badly and I feel that I wanna off myself for this. No even cares about me or...
    Lucius89 Lucius89 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 26, 2009

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    People after people get disappointed in me.

    . And for what.. ? Everything..
    ForeverKittenn ForeverKittenn 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 30

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    I hate myself so much

    for who i am. My life has been a struggle. I never found true love, im crazy addicted to horror movies personality. I hate myself for this strange disorders. I know that i help people but get nothing back and i hate people for their unthankful ways to me. I live a lonely...
    angel8i angel8i 31-35 2 Responses Dec 9

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    Disappointment ..

    I hate myself for being a disappointment. I am disappointment because I can't do anything right at all. I am disappointment because that is how people say I am. I am ugly and stupid. I am rude and disgusting. I am a lost cause and I can never be better they say. I hate that I...
    CallmeCamille CallmeCamille 70+ 7 Responses Sep 1, 2009

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    What I Have Become

    My parents go out of their way to tell me how much they love me, how proud they are of me and what i have accomplished, how glad they are that I am their daughter, but it feels fake to me. It feels like they are trying to convince themselves that they like what I have become...
    eyes eyes 31-35, F 6 Responses Oct 7, 2007

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    Drunk Anxiety

    I hate myself because I chaired an event party and drank too much.  I am not a good drinker, and I am a light weight.  I am moving, work is not going well because of the economy, and this event which I've been planning since the beginning of the year was...
    moveon23 moveon23 41-45 2 Responses May 17, 2009

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    I stopped cutting for 3 months

    and relapsed during the summer. I was then clean for like 5 weeks and then I relapsed again. then 3 after that and another relapse. I can't stop. I was clean for two weeks last night and I relapsed only a little bit but I hate how I'm failing to recover.
    madybreen madybreen 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 22

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    I hate the way I look I hate the way I sound

    they way I make choices the way I talk to people the way I think the way I am as me the way I breathe the way I walk the looks on my face the actions I take and especially the fact that I'm hitting another one of my lows. I need my pills
    JustScout JustScout 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 13

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    Oh God Yes!  It's ...

    Oh god yes!  It's an evil cirlce I hate myself for being a disappointmenet and then I get disappointed for hating myself.
    renegadeangel renegadeangel 26-30, F Oct 12, 2007

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    The Most Painful Part

    Disappointing people is natural. You're bound to disappoint people at least once in your life time. The painful part is to see the disappointed look on people's faces when you failed to do what people expect you to do. That's when you crack ... After that i died on the inside.
    NotBackingDown NotBackingDown 13-15, F Aug 23, 2012

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    Hi, I'm 18 years old

    and I hate my self sometimes. It shouldn't be this way and I don't want it to be this way, but is this way. I feel as if I've disappointed my family. Most importantly I disappointed myself . I ****** up!!! I'm soo indecisive about everything not to mention I am so irresponsible...
    Youngblood27 Youngblood27 18-21, F Jul 28

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    Yes. ...

    Yes. There's basically nothing else to say about this.
    xxcherylannxx xxcherylannxx 26-30, F Oct 12, 2007

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    That Look In Their Eyes

    i am always looking at my mom and sis for acceptance and all i ever get is: why didnt u try harder? this isnt a good job!  you dont do Sh#t  at home to help clean! screaming and cussing all directed at me. and i hate it sometimes thats why i tryto commit suicide...
    lilfallenangel lilfallenangel 18-21, F 2 Responses May 21, 2007

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    I'm a big dissapointment to my family.

    I can't do anything right. I can't be what they expected me to be. I can't be as strong as them. I just can't. Every time I got home, they'll blamed me for everything I did. Even they blamed me for something I didn't do. Is that how someone treated their family? If that's how...
    deepdowninside71 deepdowninside71 13-15 1 Response Jun 10

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    I've never been good enough

    and I hate myself for it. When other kids were having a dandy time with their fathers. Mine was out cheating on my mom and doing drugs. I hate people that have things that I would kill for. I hate people that take things for granted that I never had.
    NPkid97 NPkid97 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 18

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    I Have Dissapointed My Parents In So Many Ways, Will I Ever Be Able To Turn Things Around?

    In my second year of college i fell pregnant with my son now 1yr & a half. My parents took it very badly and expressed to me how much they where dissapointed in me. I was away at school while i was pregnant, i was not invited to any family functions, I was told about them only...
    96Nat 96Nat 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 2, 2012

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    Life

    Throughout life I come to realize something important about life itself. Life is, cruel. Life is full of opportunities and full of disappointments. I enjoyed life till I came to America. America, people in my country would kill for the, “opportunity.” I’m just an average...
    ASimpleWish ASimpleWish 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 20, 2012

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    I Try Not To, But I Always Fail.

    I am not just a disappointment to my parents but to my grandparents, my siblings even my friends. I try not to be. I will be motivated for a little while, do ok, maybe make one small achievement which I know will make them happy, so I tell them about it think I...
    pine90apple pine90apple 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 26, 2009

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    Turning Away From Me

    Now-a-days, I feel that I can go anywhere in my life. Although my problem is how I see myself sometimes as a failure. I'm doing a level 2 course in Catering and occasionally, I get blasted at by my classmate for the things that I don't do right and shuts me out when I try to...
    Lucius89 Lucius89 18-21, M Jan 11, 2009

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    I Hate My Self

    I always feel like i am disappointment! Everyone expects me do everything for them and i am sick and tired of! My family treats me like a nobody and i feel like i am nobody! I feel like I don't please everyone! I feel like i don't have a family but my friends at school! I cry all...
    rachelkerns91 rachelkerns91 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 11, 2008

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    My life was supposed to be destined

    for greatness, and then I ****** it all up. Skipping through the wildly religious childhood the perfect grades in school and the emotional abuse and forced religious gay therapy, was someone who upon graduating from high school already had a very promising career as a pharmacy...
    ellelinkin ellelinkin 26-30, F Mar 4

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    I'm A Disgrace To The World

    I am a dissappointment to the world-to my family,my friends,myself...and I feel like if I kill myself there won't be anything for the good Lord to be ashamed of anymore.
    toofartolove toofartolove 16-17, F Aug 24, 2012

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    No Where Perfect

    No one would expect me as a cutter. I'm that so called pretty,skinny,short girl with always a smile on my face, bunch of friends,nice clothes,and "perfect life" but if you only knew how i felt you wouldn't think that anymore. i am no where near perfect and i hope no one will ever...
    imnevergoodenough imnevergoodenough 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 30, 2012

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    Story Of A Loser

    Ever since i was born, i have been a huge disappointment to my family. I often wish that i didn't exist. I am an embarrassment and a burden on my family. I am a good-for-nothing useless piece of crap( so says my sister). My sister has always been very outgoing, smart, a quick...
    angelina096 angelina096 18-21, F Oct 19, 2012

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    I'm a Big Dissapointment

     I'm crying as I'm typing this; thinking of my 9 month old cat who's gone missing. I left her on the porch and she was always good not to go anywhere. Plus, it's pretty high for her to jump down so I assumed there would be no trouble. On Sunday, I left the sliding door open...
    alex31 alex31 31-35 1 Response Mar 30, 2009

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    That Look In Their Eyes

    i am always looking at my mom and sis for acceptance and all i ever get is: why didnt u try harder? this isnt a good job!  you dont do Sh#t  at home to help clean! screaming and cussing all directed at me. and i hate it sometimes thats why i tryto commit suicide...
    lilfallenangel lilfallenangel 18-21, F 6 Responses May 21, 2007

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    I Don'T Even

    I don't even know why I'm posting in a group like this, everyone just says the same words of advice "you're not useless etc etc etc." But whatever. My mom hates me. Ok that's a lie. My mom loves me. But I'm nothing compared to my sister. My sister was a high honors student...
    miked64 miked64 18-21, M 2 Responses May 30, 2013

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    I am a weak individual,

    maybe not so much physically, but mentally and emotionally. The mental and emotional strength is what really counts, it is how you stay positive and to keep moving forward through whatever it is that life may bring your way. I keep all of my issues bottled up inside and I hate...
    CuntySwag CuntySwag 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 8

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    When Your Vision Is Out of Reach

    When I was younger, I always had this vision of becoming someone successful, not just in terms of academic and financial matters but also in terms of being fulfilled, of being really happy.   I had a vision that I would cultivate many relationships not out of creating...
    privateeye privateeye 21-25, F 4 Responses Nov 12, 2007

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    This Is What I Am ...

    Everyone has had expectations of me so it seems but whether people admit it or not is another matter. When it comes down to it though i end up being one big disappointment to them and i don't know what it truly is inside of me that makes me not enough. I guess there has been many...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 17, 2013

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    I'm pissed at my self no one else.

    I am a big failure in life.I cant even accomplish half of the goals i set for my self,and i only had 3. I have missed my finale dead line .I look back and i see a girl thinking she was gonna do it without a doubt.She thinks as long as you believe in your self,pray & work hard at...
    prankqueen prankqueen 16-17, F Jul 11

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    End of the Day

    I start the day too tired to think about anything other than catching the bus. I get to school and thrive off of the positive energy most people give off. I spend the day trusting people and wearing this mask of what people think I am. Eventually I go home and right in front of...
    peachplumpear peachplumpear 16-17, F May 6, 2009

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    I make me two cuts today,

    I just hate my self and everyone thinks I have a perfect life and that, that is not true I just want someone by my side but I am lonely
    5sosfamm 5sosfamm 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 12

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    Whats The Point?

    I hate myself I always put people first before myself yet, I lose everyone It seems and that I'm a failure/disappointment to everyone no matter what
    Shortstack03 Shortstack03 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 4, 2012

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    Mom And Dad I Know And I Am Sorry

    to mom and daddy i know i am hard to love i know i have so many issues i know that you have tried to help me over and over i know you isick of worry over me and that you wish things could get better for all of us i know it is hard i know you wish i was better you wish i had other...
    pinkapp pinkapp 13-15, F Apr 12, 2011

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    Go Jump Off A Cliff, Me!

    I truley hate myself. I DESPISE myself, no words can discribe how much I just really, really, really, HATE HATE HATE you me! When you bleed yourself to death and start screaming bloody murder, about ready to die, I am so happy that I get to be the first one to see it (: You're...
    DewDropsontheGrass DewDropsontheGrass 13-15, F Sep 24, 2012

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    I Hate Me.

    I hate myself so much, I cry myself to sleep sometimes......I feel like my boyfriend will soon leave me, ....I wish I could explain more of whats happened in the past.. ...Im a **** up, I feel like I have 1,365,299 mental disorders...I'm 21...I hate my brain, my body, and...
    darktaurus002 darktaurus002 18-21, F Jul 22, 2012

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    Because Sometimes I Have to Pu...

    Because sometimes I have to put my hopes into other
    lostchild lostchild 26-30, F Oct 12, 2007

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