I Hate Myself For Being a Dissapointment

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    What is the point of living?

    - What is the point of living, if you cannot be the shield? If your life, if your soul cannot be the wall to keep away all the evils of the world at bay and at distance from the ones you love? A few months ago, someone on this site wrote that, should people stop coming to you...
    themanoflegends themanoflegends
    26-30, M
    1 Response Feb 8, 2015

    So, I got 3 C's in school this semester.

    Honors English, Honors Algebra 2, and Chemistry. I tried so hard to pull them up but failed to do so. My dad sees me as a total disappointment. I hate it so much. My mother was the only one who could ever be proud of me. But, she died two years ago.
    deleted deleted
    May 21, 2015

    My life was supposed to be destined

    for greatness, and then I ****** it all up. Skipping through the wildly religious childhood the perfect grades in school and the emotional abuse and forced religious gay therapy, was someone who upon graduating from high school already had a very promising career as a pharmacy...
    ellelinkin ellelinkin
    26-30, F
    Mar 4, 2014

    My father. He truly thought I could grow into

    some similar to him. It breaks his heart knowing that I wont amount to what he thought many years ago. I was his dream, now I'm his sadness. I fear my dad will die before I'm able to make him proud or prove that raising me the way he did would pay off. I want to kill myself so...
    deleted deleted
    May 21, 2015

    I'm a Big Dissapointment

     I'm crying as I'm typing this; thinking of my 9 month old cat who's gone missing. I left her on the porch and she was always good not to go anywhere. Plus, it's pretty high for her to jump down so I assumed there would be no trouble. On Sunday, I left the sliding door open...
    alex31 alex31
    1 Response Mar 30, 2009

    I feel like I'm never good enough.

    Like I'll never find love because I'm not perfect
    CaptainBenza CaptainBenza
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Jun 10, 2014

    I've never been good enough

    and I hate myself for it. When other kids were having a dandy time with their fathers. Mine was out cheating on my mom and doing drugs. I hate people that have things that I would kill for. I hate people that take things for granted that I never had.
    NPkid44 NPkid44
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 18, 2014

    No Where Perfect

    No one would expect me as a cutter. I'm that so called pretty,skinny,short girl with always a smile on my face, bunch of friends,nice clothes,and "perfect life" but if you only knew how i felt you wouldn't think that anymore. i am no where near perfect and i hope no one will ever...
    imnevergoodenough imnevergoodenough
    13-15, F
    1 Response Oct 30, 2012

    I feel like a disappointment to my father he is

    in and out of my life and I feel like he doesn't like me or care about me. I feel like he doesn't care about my time or my feelings and as much as I would like to say that this time you walk out of my life is the last time I know I could never do it because there is an...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Aug 6, 2015

    I can never ******* do anything right.

    Jesus ******* christ. People yell at me and get mad because I failed classes last semester, but this semester I drop a class because I had a 0 ******* percent in it to avoid failing and people still yell at me. The last two days people have really just been ******** on me and I...
    n0rthernwind n0rthernwind
    22-25, F
    Sep 28, 2015

    Do you ever just feel like a disappointment?

    I'm just so fed up with how I'm turning out I feel like such a failure when I see my friends bringing in a load of money and driving and having there own places. It just makes me sad
    SarcasticCxnt SarcasticCxnt
    Jan 30, 2016

    In my parents eyes, most everything I do is

    wrong. If I try to learn from my mistake and fix it I get yelled at as well. I don't know what's right from wrong anymore. How can I when everything I do is wrong? I've been depressed for a week or so, and the constant yelling isn't making it any better. I mean, just last night...
    brandonflowers brandonflowers
    Jul 12, 2015

    Hi, I'm 18 years old

    and I hate my self sometimes. It shouldn't be this way and I don't want it to be this way, but is this way. I feel as if I've disappointed my family. Most importantly I disappointed myself . I ****** up!!! I'm soo indecisive about everything not to mention I am so irresponsible...
    Youngblood27 Youngblood27
    18-21, F
    Jul 28, 2014

    Feeling Like a Loser

    I have this problem which I am going through right now. Ever sincve ages ago, I've been hated and disapproved for the things I've either done wrong or I've could of done better. It always gets to me badly and I feel that I wanna off myself for this. No even cares about me or...
    Lucius89 Lucius89
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 26, 2009

    That Look In Their Eyes

    i am always looking at my mom and sis for acceptance and all i ever get is: why didnt u try harder? this isnt a good job!  you dont do Sh#t  at home to help clean! screaming and cussing all directed at me. and i hate it sometimes thats why i tryto commit suicide...
    lilfallenangel lilfallenangel
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 21, 2007

    I **** up so many ******* times.

    I hate it I can't even pleasure my own transgender boyfriend because I will feel like a 40+ year old sexually touching a 15 Year old and I hate it. Whenever I get something good back, again, something happens and I lose it. I hate how much I destroy everything...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 28, 2015

    I make me two cuts today,

    I just hate my self and everyone thinks I have a perfect life and that, that is not true I just want someone by my side but I am lonely
    5sosfamm 5sosfamm
    16-17, F
    1 Response Oct 12, 2014

    What I Have Become

    My parents go out of their way to tell me how much they love me, how proud they are of me and what i have accomplished, how glad they are that I am their daughter, but it feels fake to me. It feels like they are trying to convince themselves that they like what I have become...
    eyes eyes
    31-35, F
    6 Responses Oct 7, 2007

    Drunk Anxiety

    I hate myself because I chaired an event party and drank too much.  I am not a good drinker, and I am a light weight.  I am moving, work is not going well because of the economy, and this event which I've been planning since the beginning of the year was...
    moveon23 moveon23
    2 Responses May 17, 2009
    burnner burnner
    61-65, M
    Oct 11, 2015

    All I have ever done in life is disappoint

    people, im not sporty enough, not fit enough, not handsome enough, not cute enough, not skinny enough, not cool enough, not interesting enough, not fun enough, not hot enough and the list goes on and on and on. I am sick of my body, The Fat on my legs, thighs, stomach, arms. I...
    ThePiggycorn ThePiggycorn
    16-17, M
    3 Responses Jun 12, 2015

    I stopped cutting for 3 months

    and relapsed during the summer. I was then clean for like 5 weeks and then I relapsed again. then 3 after that and another relapse. I can't stop. I was clean for two weeks last night and I relapsed only a little bit but I hate how I'm failing to recover.
    madybreen madybreen
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 22, 2014

    no one likes me, no one is there

    for me,...everyone thinks im some weird loser kid...prolly am... do i bother staying on this ****** up planet when legit no one wants me?...(hate comments down below) *cause i dont feel like enough of a pile of ****** up **** yet
    DaveEatsToast DaveEatsToast
    16-17, M
    1 Response May 5, 2015

    Story Of A Loser

    Ever since i was born, i have been a huge disappointment to my family. I often wish that i didn't exist. I am an embarrassment and a burden on my family. I am a good-for-nothing useless piece of crap( so says my sister). My sister has always been very outgoing, smart, a quick...
    angelina096 angelina096
    18-21, F
    Oct 19, 2012

    It always feel like I'm being watched

    and judged by everything I do or say. Most of the time, I try and ignore that looming feeling but other times it just sort've..gets to me. It just makes me hate myself more than I already do.
    ApatheticSpark ApatheticSpark
    16-17, F
    Feb 3, 2016

    Yes. ...

    Yes. There's basically nothing else to say about this.
    xxcherylannxx xxcherylannxx
    26-30, F
    Oct 12, 2007

    I'm a big dissapointment to my family.

    I can't do anything right. I can't be what they expected me to be. I can't be as strong as them. I just can't. Every time I got home, they'll blamed me for everything I did. Even they blamed me for something I didn't do. Is that how someone treated their family? If that's how...
    deepdowninside71 deepdowninside71
    1 Response Jun 10, 2014

    When Your Vision Is Out of Reach

    When I was younger, I always had this vision of becoming someone successful, not just in terms of academic and financial matters but also in terms of being fulfilled, of being really happy.   I had a vision that I would cultivate many relationships not out of creating...
    privateeye privateeye
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Nov 12, 2007

    I'm constantly telling myself "you really are

    pathetic." When i am in school, I can work. When I get home, all I do is fool around. I surf the internet, I text my friend, I draw and I leave my homework there. And I leave it. And leave it. And leave it. until 8:30ish rolls around, and I realize how much of a fool I was. And...
    jeweldoggy jeweldoggy
    18-21, F
    Apr 16, 2014

    That Look In Their Eyes

    i am always looking at my mom and sis for acceptance and all i ever get is: why didnt u try harder? this isnt a good job!  you dont do Sh#t  at home to help clean! screaming and cussing all directed at me. and i hate it sometimes thats why i tryto commit suicide...
    lilfallenangel lilfallenangel
    18-21, F
    6 Responses May 21, 2007

    I am almost 20. I have a boyfriend,

    I live with him. My family bought me an expensive flat in a capital city last year, because I moved here to study. The studies are not going that well and since some time I just decided not to go to the university, and to take up next course from next year. I'm constantly...
    vaguelyarabic vaguelyarabic
    31-35, F
    Apr 1, 2015

    the list of things I do

    that disappoint myself and those close to me continues to grow day by day-_-
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses May 22, 2015

    So the other day I got invited to a party ,

    yeah I was happy about it and pleased .... Only just to realise I got at text message saying' hey sorry some people at my party don't like you so I think it would be better if you didn't come at all - a lot ** x ' that is literally what she said word or word .. Some people are...
    mixedfellings mixedfellings
    36-40, F
    4 Responses May 21, 2015

    I hate the way I look I hate the way I sound

    they way I make choices the way I talk to people the way I think the way I am as me the way I breathe the way I walk the looks on my face the actions I take and especially the fact that I'm hitting another one of my lows. I need my pills
    JustScout JustScout
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 13, 2014

    This Is What I Am ...

    Everyone has had expectations of me so it seems but whether people admit it or not is another matter. When it comes down to it though i end up being one big disappointment to them and i don't know what it truly is inside of me that makes me not enough. I guess there has been many...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jul 17, 2013

    Usually I don't like sharing how I think about

    suicide because I know for a fact someone out there will judge me for it. They will end up thinking I am overreacting upon my situation, but I don't care anymore. It's just weird talking about this because in real life I am a very fun, crazy, happy person and saying this makes...
    HungryHippoBruh HungryHippoBruh
    18-21, F
    Dec 10, 2014

    I Am Such a Let Down

    I let everyone who cares even a little down.  I wish i could be a better person. I want to be successful in life.... In something. I hate that i am such a disappointment. I will probably continue to disappoint as time goes on
    Tacit Tacit
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 21, 2008

    I am a weak individual,

    maybe not so much physically, but mentally and emotionally. The mental and emotional strength is what really counts, it is how you stay positive and to keep moving forward through whatever it is that life may bring your way. I keep all of my issues bottled up inside and I hate...
    CuntySwag CuntySwag
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jan 8, 2014

    Oh God Yes!  It's ...

    Oh god yes!  It's an evil cirlce I hate myself for being a disappointmenet and then I get disappointed for hating myself.
    renegadeangel renegadeangel
    26-30, F
    Oct 12, 2007

    I am a 20 year old girl,

    that is soon to be 21, and my parents give me no freedom whatsoever. This stresses me out to no end. So let's start from the beginning. In January 2009, my family and I (which is my younger sister, and my parents) moved abroad to North America in hopes of a better life, however...
    fallenangelxo fallenangelxo
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 12, 2016

    I Try Not To, But I Always Fail.

    I am not just a disappointment to my parents but to my grandparents, my siblings even my friends. I try not to be. I will be motivated for a little while, do ok, maybe make one small achievement which I know will make them happy, so I tell them about it think I...
    pine90apple pine90apple
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Mar 26, 2009

    I wish I could sleep

    and never wake up, like one of those Sleeping Beauty type of deals. I seem to be much happier in dream state than in this crappy reality I have to deal with every day.
    jimcrick jimcrick
    26-30, M
    Jun 17, 2015

    This is it. I give up.

    I'm sorry for giving up but I can only take so much. I've lost to many people I care about and I'm worried of hurting another. It's best it's all over now.
    EpicBrotato EpicBrotato
    16-17, M
    1 Response Mar 5, 2015
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