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I Hate Myself For Being a Dissapointment

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    I make me two cuts today,

    I just hate my self and everyone thinks I have a perfect life and that, that is not true I just want someone by my side but I am lonely
    5sosfamm 5sosfamm 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 12, 2014

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    I'm a big dissapointment to my family.

    I can't do anything right. I can't be what they expected me to be. I can't be as strong as them. I just can't. Every time I got home, they'll blamed me for everything I did. Even they blamed me for something I didn't do. Is that how someone treated their family? If that's how...
    deepdowninside71 deepdowninside71 13-15 1 Response Jun 10, 2014

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    I am a weak individual,

    maybe not so much physically, but mentally and emotionally. The mental and emotional strength is what really counts, it is how you stay positive and to keep moving forward through whatever it is that life may bring your way. I keep all of my issues bottled up inside and I hate...
    CuntySwag CuntySwag 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 8, 2014

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    Usually I don't like sharing how I think about

    suicide because I know for a fact someone out there will judge me for it. They will end up thinking I am overreacting upon my situation, but I don't care anymore. It's just weird talking about this because in real life I am a very fun, crazy, happy person and saying this makes...
    HungryHippoBruh HungryHippoBruh 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2014

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    Hi, I'm 18 years old

    and I hate my self sometimes. It shouldn't be this way and I don't want it to be this way, but is this way. I feel as if I've disappointed my family. Most importantly I disappointed myself . I ****** up!!! I'm soo indecisive about everything not to mention I am so irresponsible...
    Youngblood27 Youngblood27 18-21, F Jul 28, 2014

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    Turning Away From Me

    Now-a-days, I feel that I can go anywhere in my life. Although my problem is how I see myself sometimes as a failure. I'm doing a level 2 course in Catering and occasionally, I get blasted at by my classmate for the things that I don't do right and shuts me out when I try to...
    Lucius89 Lucius89 18-21, M Jan 11, 2009

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    I feel like I'm never good enough.

    Like I'll never find love because I'm not perfect
    CaptainBenza CaptainBenza 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 10, 2014

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    People after people get disappointed in me.

    . And for what.. ? Everything..
    ForeverKittenn ForeverKittenn 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 30, 2014

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    I stopped cutting for 3 months

    and relapsed during the summer. I was then clean for like 5 weeks and then I relapsed again. then 3 after that and another relapse. I can't stop. I was clean for two weeks last night and I relapsed only a little bit but I hate how I'm failing to recover.
    madybreen madybreen 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 22, 2014

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    Drunk Anxiety

    I hate myself because I chaired an event party and drank too much.  I am not a good drinker, and I am a light weight.  I am moving, work is not going well because of the economy, and this event which I've been planning since the beginning of the year was...
    moveon23 moveon23 41-45 2 Responses May 17, 2009

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    This Is What I Am ...

    Everyone has had expectations of me so it seems but whether people admit it or not is another matter. When it comes down to it though i end up being one big disappointment to them and i don't know what it truly is inside of me that makes me not enough. I guess there has been many...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 17, 2013

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    That Look In Their Eyes

    i am always looking at my mom and sis for acceptance and all i ever get is: why didnt u try harder? this isnt a good job!  you dont do Sh#t  at home to help clean! screaming and cussing all directed at me. and i hate it sometimes thats why i tryto commit suicide...
    lilfallenangel lilfallenangel 18-21, F 2 Responses May 21, 2007

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    That Look In Their Eyes

    i am always looking at my mom and sis for acceptance and all i ever get is: why didnt u try harder? this isnt a good job!  you dont do Sh#t  at home to help clean! screaming and cussing all directed at me. and i hate it sometimes thats why i tryto commit suicide...
    lilfallenangel lilfallenangel 18-21, F 6 Responses May 21, 2007

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    the list of things I do

    that disappoint myself and those close to me continues to grow day by day-_-
    cartoonblankets cartoonblankets 18-21, M 2 Responses May 22

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    no one likes me, no one is there

    for me,...everyone thinks im some weird loser kid...prolly am... do i bother staying on this ****** up planet when legit no one wants me?...(hate comments down below) *cause i dont feel like enough of a pile of ****** up **** yet
    DaveEatsToast DaveEatsToast 13-15, M 1 Response May 5

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    What is the point of living?

    - What is the point of living, if you cannot be the shield? If your life, if your soul cannot be the wall to keep away all the evils of the world at bay and at distance from the ones you love? A few months ago, someone on this site wrote that, should people stop coming to you...
    themanoflegends themanoflegends 26-30, M 2 Responses Feb 8

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    Feeling Like a Loser

    I have this problem which I am going through right now. Ever sincve ages ago, I've been hated and disapproved for the things I've either done wrong or I've could of done better. It always gets to me badly and I feel that I wanna off myself for this. No even cares about me or...
    Lucius89 Lucius89 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 26, 2009

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    I hate the way I look I hate the way I sound

    they way I make choices the way I talk to people the way I think the way I am as me the way I breathe the way I walk the looks on my face the actions I take and especially the fact that I'm hitting another one of my lows. I need my pills
    JustScout JustScout 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 13, 2014

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    over and over and over again.

    I don't want to think about this. screaming and yelling and pain over and over again. rotten deep within,build up your walls again.over and over and over again.
    catacomb catacomb 66-70 Aug 21

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    I wish I could sleep

    and never wake up, like one of those Sleeping Beauty type of deals. I seem to be much happier in dream state than in this crappy reality I have to deal with every day.
    jimcrick jimcrick 22-25, M Jun 17

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    All I have ever done in life is disappoint

    people, im not sporty enough, not fit enough, not handsome enough, not cute enough, not skinny enough, not cool enough, not interesting enough, not fun enough, not hot enough and the list goes on and on and on. I am sick of my body, The Fat on my legs, thighs, stomach, arms. I...
    ThePiggycorn ThePiggycorn 13-15, M 3 Responses Jun 12

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    I Try Not To, But I Always Fail.

    I am not just a disappointment to my parents but to my grandparents, my siblings even my friends. I try not to be. I will be motivated for a little while, do ok, maybe make one small achievement which I know will make them happy, so I tell them about it think I...
    pine90apple pine90apple 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 26, 2009

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    Oh God Yes!  It's ...

    Oh god yes!  It's an evil cirlce I hate myself for being a disappointmenet and then I get disappointed for hating myself.
    renegadeangel renegadeangel 26-30, F Oct 12, 2007

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    I **** up so many ******* times.

    I hate it I can't even pleasure my own transgender boyfriend because I will feel like a 40+ year old sexually touching a 15 Year old and I hate it. Whenever I get something good back, again, something happens and I lose it. I hate how much I destroy everything...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 28

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    I feel like a disappointment to my father he is

    in and out of my life and I feel like he doesn't like me or care about me. I feel like he doesn't care about my time or my feelings and as much as I would like to say that this time you walk out of my life is the last time I know I could never do it because there is an...
    snapesotherwoman snapesotherwoman 18-21, F Aug 6

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    I Don'T Even

    I don't even know why I'm posting in a group like this, everyone just says the same words of advice "you're not useless etc etc etc." But whatever. My mom hates me. Ok that's a lie. My mom loves me. But I'm nothing compared to my sister. My sister was a high honors student...
    miked64 miked64 18-21, M 2 Responses May 30, 2013

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    I'm constantly telling myself "you really are

    pathetic." When i am in school, I can work. When I get home, all I do is fool around. I surf the internet, I text my friend, I draw and I leave my homework there. And I leave it. And leave it. And leave it. until 8:30ish rolls around, and I realize how much of a fool I was. And...
    jeweldoggy jeweldoggy 16-17, F Apr 16, 2014

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    So the other day I got invited to a party ,

    yeah I was happy about it and pleased .... Only just to realise I got at text message saying' hey sorry some people at my party don't like you so I think it would be better if you didn't come at all - a lot ** x ' that is literally what she said word or word .. Some people are...
    mixedfellings mixedfellings 31-35, F 5 Responses May 21

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    When Your Vision Is Out of Reach

    When I was younger, I always had this vision of becoming someone successful, not just in terms of academic and financial matters but also in terms of being fulfilled, of being really happy.   I had a vision that I would cultivate many relationships not out of creating...
    privateeye privateeye 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 12, 2007

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    In my parents eyes, most everything I do is

    wrong. If I try to learn from my mistake and fix it I get yelled at as well. I don't know what's right from wrong anymore. How can I when everything I do is wrong? I've been depressed for a week or so, and the constant yelling isn't making it any better. I mean, just last night...
    brandonflowers brandonflowers 13-15, F Jul 12

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    I am almost 20. I have a boyfriend,

    I live with him. My family bought me an expensive flat in a capital city last year, because I moved here to study. The studies are not going that well and since some time I just decided not to go to the university, and to take up next course from next year. I'm constantly...
    vaguelyarabic vaguelyarabic 31-35, F Apr 1

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    No Where Perfect

    No one would expect me as a cutter. I'm that so called pretty,skinny,short girl with always a smile on my face, bunch of friends,nice clothes,and "perfect life" but if you only knew how i felt you wouldn't think that anymore. i am no where near perfect and i hope no one will ever...
    imnevergoodenough imnevergoodenough 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 30, 2012

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    This is it. I give up.

    I'm sorry for giving up but I can only take so much. I've lost to many people I care about and I'm worried of hurting another. It's best it's all over now.
    EpicBrotato EpicBrotato 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 5

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    My father. He truly thought I could grow into

    some similar to him. It breaks his heart knowing that I wont amount to what he thought many years ago. I was his dream, now I'm his sadness. I fear my dad will die before I'm able to make him proud or prove that raising me the way he did would pay off. I want to kill myself so...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 21

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    I hate myself for being a boring noone.

    Thats the reason noone has crush on me EVER.
    lonely4560 lonely4560 31-35, F Jul 23

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    I'm a Big Dissapointment

     I'm crying as I'm typing this; thinking of my 9 month old cat who's gone missing. I left her on the porch and she was always good not to go anywhere. Plus, it's pretty high for her to jump down so I assumed there would be no trouble. On Sunday, I left the sliding door open...
    alex31 alex31 31-35 1 Response Mar 30, 2009

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    Because Sometimes I Have to Pu...

    Because sometimes I have to put my hopes into other
    lostchild lostchild 26-30, F Oct 12, 2007

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    Yes. ...

    Yes. There's basically nothing else to say about this.
    xxcherylannxx xxcherylannxx 26-30, F Oct 12, 2007

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    So, I got 3 C's in school this semester.

    Honors English, Honors Algebra 2, and Chemistry. I tried so hard to pull them up but failed to do so. My dad sees me as a total disappointment. I hate it so much. My mother was the only one who could ever be proud of me. But, she died two years ago.
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 21

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    What I Have Become

    My parents go out of their way to tell me how much they love me, how proud they are of me and what i have accomplished, how glad they are that I am their daughter, but it feels fake to me. It feels like they are trying to convince themselves that they like what I have become...
    eyes eyes 31-35, F 6 Responses Oct 7, 2007

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    My life was supposed to be destined

    for greatness, and then I ****** it all up. Skipping through the wildly religious childhood the perfect grades in school and the emotional abuse and forced religious gay therapy, was someone who upon graduating from high school already had a very promising career as a pharmacy...
    ellelinkin ellelinkin 26-30, F Mar 4, 2014

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    I've never been good enough

    and I hate myself for it. When other kids were having a dandy time with their fathers. Mine was out cheating on my mom and doing drugs. I hate people that have things that I would kill for. I hate people that take things for granted that I never had.
    NPkid44 NPkid44 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 18, 2014

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    Life

    Throughout life I come to realize something important about life itself. Life is, cruel. Life is full of opportunities and full of disappointments. I enjoyed life till I came to America. America, people in my country would kill for the, “opportunity.” I’m just an average...
    ASimpleWish ASimpleWish 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 20, 2012

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    I Am Such a Let Down

    I let everyone who cares even a little down.  I wish i could be a better person. I want to be successful in life.... In something. I hate that i am such a disappointment. I will probably continue to disappoint as time goes on
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 21, 2008

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    Disappointment ..

    I hate myself for being a disappointment. I am disappointment because I can't do anything right at all. I am disappointment because that is how people say I am. I am ugly and stupid. I am rude and disgusting. I am a lost cause and I can never be better they say. I hate that I...
    catacomb catacomb 66-70 7 Responses Sep 1, 2009

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