I Hate Myself For Being This Way

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    Warning this is a rant about how much I hate my

    life. All the way through middle school I was bullied and to cope with that I cut my self....a lot. I also attempted suicide and landed my self in a hospital a few times. I went to treatment for almost a year and I can say that I'm over it I'm not to suicidal or cutting anymore...
    shybutfunky shybutfunky
    18-21, F
    Jul 25, 2015

    I'm not sure why I try.

    I'm not sure why I exist. What lesson is it I am to learn so it can be my turn to get off this ****** world?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 8, 2014

    My boyfriend broke up with me

    and I feel weak. And there is nothing I hate more in this world than feeling weak. I am not a weak person but I guess when he left he took a part of me with him.
    NeeverForget NeeverForget
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 10, 2014

    ---I hate myself for not being able to accept

    change--- ---I hate myself for not being able to look on the bright side--- ---I hate myself for not being able to forgive--- ---I hate myself for not being able to love my parents--- I hate myself for all of these things, I just don't know how to change. Maybe some part of...
    Shadoevines Shadoevines
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Feb 18, 2014

    I'm so awesome at ******* up my life.

    Like, I want a reward. It comes so effortlessly for me. When things are finally going good, I find a way to **** everyone over and ruin it. Skilz.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 12, 2015

    She. There is she. She comes with hesitation.

    She speaks in ways that could drown love and float hate all in the same puddle. There is she. The opposite of all ever known or understood. She. The fear of desire and the travesty of never experiencing is she. She is the warmth of the sun. She is the frigidness of...
    mrred2linita mrred2linita
    36-40, M
    May 23, 2014

    I've been in a very low place the past few

    weeks, a lot of it is my own fault, drinking to excess etc, I'm going to try and turn things around. I have a good job, a great son who needs me more than ever a decent life style. I should be more grateful for what I have. Yes things get difficult at times but they are...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 9, 2015

    so i just do my exam,

    math today. and i didn't answer at all because I can't. i'm so stupid you know . i have no skill. im ugly . i have no friends. no one care for me . and i just like trash . i hatey self so much. my worst life ~
    barbish barbish
    18-21, F
    Jan 16, 2015

    i dont know . i just jelous at people

    that laughing with their friends and I dont know why I am like this . maybe I need someone who can make me so speacial . or maybe its my destiny i hate being me . i hate being my self. i hate this life . but i cant stop it i just wanna go outside and scream . i always think...
    barbish barbish
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 14, 2015

    Alcohol seems to be a problem

    for me at the moment. I'll have a drink during the week nothing to heavy but ok the weekends I've been terrible. Last night I went out with friends, got trashed and have been in bed all day it's disgraceful.. I don't think I'm a alcohol but I certainly have an issue with drink.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 2, 2015

    I have emotionally cheated on my lover.

    I was talking to a ex. I was confronted and I lied. Repeatedly. It wasn't until I knew I had hurt them did I change my ways. But change I did. I have damaged my relationship. Is there redemption from this? Do I deserve it?
    Killingcasper Killingcasper
    31-35, M
    Jun 29, 2015

    I Hate Myself For Being This Way

    I hate myself for being this way and yet still I continue.  I promise myself I'll stop, get my head sorted out, be different, yet nothing changes.  Or at least nothing stays changed.  I do stop myself being this way, I make improvements and yet somehow I always end up back...
    loopy210 loopy210
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jan 28, 2011

    For some reason (unknown) I have a problem with

    everybody I know. I feel like maybe I'm a bit too selfish, yet I always seem to put people before me. I cannot hold a relationship down (friend/girlfriend) or I just start picking out the faults about these people and than just completely look at them completely different. At...
    justintrubela justintrubela
    26-30, M
    May 22, 2014
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