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I Hate Myself For Doing This to You

For those of us who have made the mistake of hurting someone we love, physically or emotionally. Tell us your story. 28 People

    This entire day I had been more emotional

    than usual. My eyes were forcing tears I've been holding back for so long. I was alone and overwhelmed with sadness, so I decided to call my dad for some support. My dad is the only person who has genuinely stood by my side through my struggles with this addiction. He is all I...
    addictionbarbie addictionbarbie 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 19, 2014

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    Just Hate Me Please.

    i can stand hate and i can stand torture, but i cant stand your pain, your tears. i wish you would just hate me, want to never see me again... anything but this. i dont want to hear you will be waiting and that you will never leave. leave me please! stop crying, stop trying to...
    DarkAmber DarkAmber 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 24, 2010

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    What A Perfect Group...

    Look M....For all the sh!t i've put you through im very very very sorry....i really am...i know you probably think im bullshItting but it's the truth...Now im going to tell ep our story over the last 2/3 months.M went to have surgery....and since the operation she's been in bits...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 26, 2012

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    Look I know we are coworkers

    and I am supposed to be giving my all and know I am not. I have been working less hard every day. And I now realize what you have been doing to cover up that. I felt as if I got a special privileges to not do anything at work. And I sized you up and realize I couldn't beat you...
    andrew1512 andrew1512 18-21, M Nov 15, 2014

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    You just wanted to help,

    but I pushed you away. At the last minute I realized, I needed you more than ever. You talked to me, tried to help. I pushed you away thinking you would never understand, but you do. You do understand. And I hate myself for hurting the only friend I've had in 4 months. In real...
    BlahhHead BlahhHead 13-15, F Jun 10, 2014

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    i wasted your time, i wasted your love.

    i want to return, and do it over. i want to do it right, without ... oh. i wanted to make it a poem, but i can't. i just wish i did it right and not ruin it. it is all my fault.
    HanaKatsuragi HanaKatsuragi 18-21, T Jan 10, 2014

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    every time I pass a mirror I look at myself and say I am so freaking ugly. everyone tells me I'm pretty but I know that is so not true. I hate myself. I'm nothing. I'm a failure...
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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 3

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