I Hate Myself For Letting Him Hurt Me

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    My Fault

    I found myself with two abusive relationships, one being the root. The root : it was on and off- he hurt me on occasion, just bruises and he was my brother. Here's where I went wrong, I thought I was fine and I went on. I didn't realized I was traumatized because I acted out in...
    tealit tealit
    26-30, F
    Aug 1, 2012

    His stupid lies, his broken promises!

    I hate him for making me become the person that I am today. I should have known that I knew better than to give him a chance, but I did it anyway! And where did that leave me? Alone in the darkness, a shattered, heartbroken, and insecure girl desperately trying to find her way...
    Felicia209 Felicia209
    18-21, F
    Aug 16, 2015

    I Am Stupid And Naive

    I never should have let this happen to me. I knew better, deep down. I knew.
    BPBitch BPBitch
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Feb 2, 2013

    Will I Ever Be Happy Again?

    It's so odd half the time I hate him for everything he's done to me. But I still have those moments when I miss him so much it reduces me to tears. I think about him, everything he did to me, every lie he told me, every time he used me, every horrible thing he said to me. I think...
    nolongermyslef nolongermyslef
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 1, 2012

    I'm glad I met him, gives me the motivation to

    prove that I can and will be something.
    Angela5398 Angela5398
    18-21, F
    Nov 22, 2014

    Let The Stump Heal

    You know, it's not a magical relationship. We've never laid in bed for hours just making each other laugh. He's never run off to buy me tampons in the middle of the night. Hell, I'm not even allowed to stay the night. He doesn't know what love IS and I let him use the word as an...
    Waitwhichway Waitwhichway
    1 Response Nov 4, 2012

    Why Am I Wasting My Time With The Loser I Once Was So Deep In Love With?

    I have been with my boyfriend for about 3 years. When we met I was 17 and he was 29. We spent one night talking and I felt such a strong connection with him. I have known him for a long time and always felt something for him. We had sex once when I was 14 and I was like in love...
    dancie dancie
    May 13, 2011


    i let him manipulate me. he was older and i believed he was so much more mature, he was what i thought i wanted and needed.  He took advantage of my love and abused it.  He cheated on me, he told me he loved me every single day....yet didn't want to show me off like any...
    DistantDreamer DistantDreamer
    1 Response May 25, 2008

    Love Forever

    I was totally broken by my first relation and wanted to move on and even tried but i couldnt...after almost 2 years of my previous relation, i finally found one. He was a guide,almost 6 years older than me but i never felt the gap...infact i always felt that he was younger than...
    sonam506 sonam506
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 19, 2013

    Why Was I So Blind..

    They all told me he was bad news.. he made me belive that when he raped me it was not rape it was sex. he made me belive that every time that he wanted inside me was so we could "connect'' more. every punch was hiim playing around he said.he held a knife to my throat and wrist. i...
    melvis501388 melvis501388
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 12, 2012

    Him? More like them. I don't think I

    even know what it's like to be loved. Not only that. But loved deeply. In a way that no other could ever seem to provide. Karan 😔 I miss you. 💔💔💔
    Lollipopgoddess Lollipopgoddess
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 15, 2014

    "When someone walks away from you,

    it's not the end of your story. It's the end of their part in your story." "It may seem as the hardest thing in the world, but you have to forget the guy who forgot about you."
    flamesandicicles flamesandicicles
    41-45, F
    Nov 23, 2014

    When Love And Hate Collide.

    I am 24 now and my life has been a major struggle since I was 5. I feel mixed emotions right now.. depression, anxiety, anger and sometimes all goes numb. I hurt someone who meant everything to me, I hurt someone who loved me and made me smile. I hurt someone who made me his...
    ThePursuit ThePursuit
    22-25, F
    Sep 8, 2012

    Both Of Them

    I hate my ex for being such a coward, for choosing his family over me, for taking me for granted and losing me because of it. I hate my ex friend for taking advantage of my loneliness and playing with my feelings. And I hate myself for being so stupid to put my trust in either...
    Godess4Fun Godess4Fun
    36-40, F
    Apr 5, 2012

    I have changed my number

    so my stupid professor can't be able to communicate with me anymore.  I can't tell if I'm happy that I did that because I will be able to check A7mad's ;my love WhatsApp or it will make me suffer more than ever.  He blocked my old number,but, now I can see his last seen and...
    unknown159231 unknown159231
    22-25, F
    Nov 22, 2014

    I Thought He Liked Me...

    But I guess he didn't. I love him so much, even now, despite the fact that he hurt me. I should have known, though. I had a feeling he would hurt me...but then I really felt like he liked me. And he always cheered me up and told me not to take crap from people...he really made me...
    tqoftu tqoftu
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 1, 2008

    Him? I don't even think he's capable of being a

    human and thinking of others. It was all about you and what you wanted.
    RhinestoneEyes63 RhinestoneEyes63
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 22, 2014

    Nate came to my house Saturday

    because my mom invited him inside when she saw him with chris. AND he had the nerve to bring in his new girlfriend in my home too! But I tried to be nice I REALLY DID despite the fact that I woke up in my rubber duck pajamas, gained three pounds (weighing at 99 lbs) and my...
    ChildOfHarmony ChildOfHarmony
    18-21, F
    Apr 6, 2015

    I'm so pissed at my boyfriend.

    .. he works out of town. We live together and I haven't seen him for two weeks and he hasn't called me on his own in three days...he responds to my text messages hours later and doesn't even text back goodnight let alone call and say goodnight. he said he is doing everything he...
    lostinthoughtss lostinthoughtss
    31-35, F
    1 Response Dec 1, 2014

    Trick Or Treat

    in love at age 17, thought it was real is this a trick or a treat i constantly ask myself that question it was so real every moment we was together we was in luv at age 17 we had plans to go to prom together , graduate together, also get engaged . it was a wonderful idea at the...
    deleted deleted
    Jun 30, 2013

    No matter how much he hurt me I still tend to

    love him even more. I said I will give all my love for him and I think I did. Because during December 2014, I realized it's been two years and a month since him and I were over and that I forgot who I really was and what I love to do. Because every morning I wake up, he's the...
    XxCuTiE14xX XxCuTiE14xX
    18-21, F
    Apr 17, 2015
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