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I Hate Myself For Loving Him

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    The Biggest Mistake

    I was a girl full of joy & happiness. I am a teen, when I believe it the time of doing mistakes. But I believe I did the biggest mistake of my life, got committed with a guy who I think was never mine. He was a simple guy but as the time passed by he became the best flurt of the...
    mrinalpandey mrinalpandey 16-17, F Nov 13, 2011

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    I Really Do...

    ...hate myself for loving him still. And for even allowing myself to actually have hope and think that he might actually come through; that all of this hasn't been for nothing. That I haven't wasted 2 years of my life waiting for him. I can't walk away and apparently, he can't...
    9Dragonz 9Dragonz 36-40, F 3 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    I Hate Myself For Loving Him

    im doing my best just to love me.but the worst thing he's always ignoring me.i cant feel his love.he dont care what i feel,he just love himself.what will i do?
    maddydan maddydan 22-25 1 Response Jul 22, 2013

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    I hate myself for loving someone

    who doesn't love me back...it's the worst feeling ever.. :/
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 22, 2014

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