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I Hate Myself For Loving Him

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    I Really Do...

    ...hate myself for loving him still. And for even allowing myself to actually have hope and think that he might actually come through; that all of this hasn't been for nothing. That I haven't wasted 2 years of my life waiting for him. I can't walk away and apparently, he can't...
    9Dragonz 9Dragonz 36-40, F 3 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    I Hate Myself For Loving Him

    im doing my best just to love me.but the worst thing he's always ignoring me.i cant feel his love.he dont care what i feel,he just love himself.what will i do?
    maddydan maddydan 22-25 1 Response Jul 22, 2013

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    The Biggest Mistake

    I was a girl full of joy & happiness. I am a teen, when I believe it the time of doing mistakes. But I believe I did the biggest mistake of my life, got committed with a guy who I think was never mine. He was a simple guy but as the time passed by he became the best flurt of the...
    mrinalpandey mrinalpandey 16-17, F Nov 13, 2011

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    I hate myself for loving someone

    who doesn't love me back...it's the worst feeling ever.. :/
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 22, 2014

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    I hate myself for various reasons that i cannot even put into words. Whether it be i feel i always did something wrong, or i am just simply a waste of space, i know no amount of...
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    I hated how I say to people that Im proud of myself and I loved it. I hated how **** I am. I hated how I can be so confident. I hated how I interact with others. I hated how I feel...
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    I hate myself because I can't make any friends , the one true friend I have is my bf , and hes always asleep when I need him. How did I become such a loner , I hate myself for not...
    Lovelyloo Lovelyloo 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 12

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    The title says it all. Well yeah, I really do hate myself. I've been hospitalized 3 times in the past year for suicide attempts, self-harm, and drug use. I've done so many things...
    shecancareless shecancareless 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    I've become so warped cynical and bitter... I'm not outwardly bitter not without good reason anyway I can't stand it I used to be so bright so colorful now it just seems im...
    Kitten2514 Kitten2514 22-25, F Dec 28, 2014

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    I hate myself for being such a creepy bastard but ****, I need her
    styxc styxc 18-21, M Jan 1

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    Hey guys. I wrote this as a letter ill never send. let me know what you think? I stopped writing for a while, mostly because, well, I wanted to block out how I had been feeling...
    abbylynn98 abbylynn98 18-21, F 1 Response 17 mins ago

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    I've done somethings I'm not proud of and now I can't even bring myself to look at my reflection. I despise myself I hate that I hate myself that I'm so pitiful and incapable of...
    Alx42 Alx42 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    It's weird, I haven't really heard of it before. I thought it was just hormones or something that had me confused about my feelings for the first guy, because shortly after...
    idontcareir idontcareir 16-17, F Jan 17

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    My dads hate me. Am I really that horrible? My whole life I tried to live up to his expectations. I hid my suicide thoughts my whole life so I wouldn't be a disappointment. I did...
    lexrae lexrae 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 19

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    this speaks for itself... I hate myself.. lmfao its pathetic that a human being like me hate himself... gahh
    dksl14 dksl14 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 1

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    I hate being strong when I know I'm weak...but I act that way so ppl don't look at me with pity I hate being beautiful when I feel ugly, i put on makeup and dress to impress, but...
    boxgirl1987 boxgirl1987 26-30, F Jan 4

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    I hate myself. Why couldn't I be normal and less crazy or at least be diagnosed to know what's wrong? I hate my face, too youthful. I hate my body; too skiny. I hate everything...
    Lovelife090994 Lovelife090994 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 2

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    I always **** things up! I ****** over the boy I love for someone I was just lusting after. Or so I think. Either way I'll never get the boy I loved back. I'm such a **** up! No...
    Dreamscape98x Dreamscape98x 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    Today I was at the hair salon and a random old lady, I haven't ever met in my whole life called me fat. It's not the fact that I didn't ever hear it before, it's just that I never...
    ihatemyself24 ihatemyself24 26-30, F 7 Responses Jan 3

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    I like the way this website has all of these "sponsored from around the web" images of before and after pictures and botox, etc. trying to sell crap to the people who hate...
    Lucyismycat Lucyismycat 31-35 3 days ago

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    Yesterday, with the help of a new friend, I've come to terms with how I really feel about myself. The truth is I hate myself. I always have. I'm fat, and it's always weighed me...
    SerSean SerSean 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    I hate myself so much im so ******* ugly and I stopped cutting for a while but now I'm itching to do it again. I'm lonely and only have 4 close friends and I hate everything about...
    sociallyxawk sociallyxawk 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 1

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    i feel sick i shouldnt have done what i did its not even been a day and i miss her im so stupid and worthless even just if shed talk to me again im so stupid and pathetic ive...
    greatbritain1707 greatbritain1707 16-17, M Jan 2

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    Even though i felt lonely, felt depression and suicidal things creeping up on my back bone, the only thing thats keeping me now from waking up with a razor and slitted wrist is the...
    CursedRaven CursedRaven 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I absolutely hate myself last night I tried to commit suicide,but I couldn't go through with it. It's like I'm trapped here. One main reason I hate myself is I'm not smart like...
    wassup305 wassup305 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 3

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    Yep, I hate myself. Constant litany of self hate. Going on and on. It also doesn't help that dad is constantly belittling me, and my sister insults my intelligence every time I see...
    nicias nicias 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 11

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    I hate how I look. I hate how Im weak. I hate how Im alone. I hate myself.
    vicki90 vicki90 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    I look in the mirror and I'm unhappy. I compare myself to others and I am so awful. I see pictures of myself and I can't even look at them. I do things that annoy people or I make...
    taylorsuzenski taylorsuzenski 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    hate asking for help ever since I was little if I feel or hot cut my dad would stare and say to go fix myself when I hurt myself badly he just stared and left me to take care of...
    sadmistak3 sadmistak3 18-21, F Jan 4

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    I hate myself, i don't need to explain why, i just hate me.
    beee23 beee23 26-30, F 5 Responses Jan 7

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    I'm ugly, a *****, selfish, fat, lazy, lesbian, immature, thick, hated, loner, loser, ridiculous, a failure, annoying!! I have a lot of reasons to hate myself. and in case I begin...
    AceTeen123 AceTeen123 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 8

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    Sigh. I've ruined it all. Good job, idiot. Honestly, I might not hate myself as much as I hate the way the human brain works.
    junipersun21 junipersun21 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Its really weird....How could someone be afraid of them self? How could my own thoughts rip me apart like that? I fear myself and I hate myself. Its like arguing with someone who...
    Adridee Adridee 16-17, F Dec 30, 2014

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    Sometimes I just have those moments where a little voice in my head says "you're not good enough quit now" and the voice always sounds like my biological dad which makes it that...
    arirose43 arirose43 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 8

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    I hate myself and my body. Ugh I disgust myself.
    Parawhorex3 Parawhorex3 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 8

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    After tonight's cheerleading practice, I kinda felt.. Left out, I've been cheering for over 5 years, with the same gym and everything. But tonight I just felt like nobody really...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 10 Responses Jan 12

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    I want to die. I hate myself so much. I hate the way I look, speak and act. Everything about is awful. I'm so talentless, pathetic, desperate and clingy and terrible an ugh god I...
    gybe gybe 18-21, M 5 Responses Jan 16

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    I hate myself, I'm way overweight for my age, not only fat but ugly AF and I just hate the way I am, I'm annoying, I'm such a terrible person and I don't really know how to change...
    cappyroe1 cappyroe1 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 18

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    i was awoken today by my recent ex patents informing me that my beautiful amazing love killed herself last night claiming even after i finally let her go there was to much damage...
    itsalwaysme80 itsalwaysme80 31-35, M 4 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    I have a master in pushing guys away, i am 23 years old and I don't have a single relationship, I hate myself because of that but I can't be anybody else but that, I feel lonely...
    fightforme fightforme 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    I hate myself so bad, I just want to stop being here. I'm here sitting in a bar on my own and that's so lame.
    rosejonescr rosejonescr 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 6

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