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I Hate Myself For Messing Up So Badly

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    I don't know how many times,

    on how many topics, and how many more times I will but I really want to go back and take back that I love u I really didn't mean it and now I've messed up my first relationship
    Kblue99 Kblue99 16-17, F May 18, 2014

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    I mess up everything.

    I hurt everyone. Idk. I'm just a destroyer and that's all I'll ever be.
    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F Jul 2, 2014

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    Life

    It seems like I mess up in life all of the time... I swear my life is a mess up to. My family never takes into consideration that their words hit. Just a few minutes ago I forgot to but the bread tie back on the bread and their like "you never strive to do anything right" and in...
    courtneyDan courtneyDan 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2013

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    Give Me A 1..2..3...4...5th Chance?

    Hey...newbie here! Sooo my parents dont get along at all and dont understand me. In fact I just lost the last person who DOES understand me. Because of how I am. Help?
    sickoftrying311 sickoftrying311 13-15, F Oct 17, 2011

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    Taking The Extremes

    In the past when i messed up i just did not care at all. But hen i meke little mistakes now i over react about it and i need a middle ground!!!
    annie2011 annie2011 18-21, F Jan 10, 2011

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    I Hurt My Boyfriend

    My boyfriend and I have had an amazing relationship. Back when we were together for about six or seven months, we were both drunk one night and things got out of hand, and i tried to break up with him. He collapsed on his bed crying hysterically and then walked out of his house...
    dobie292 dobie292 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 17, 2009

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    I never did drugs or drank alcohol growing up

    because I thought they'd interfere with me becoming successful. Now, I realize none of that mattered; I failed at life anyway. I'm 35 and my life is a mess. I worked hard and haven't come close to my goals and it's too late. I'm tired of men, but even if I weren't the all want...
    thalia01 thalia01 36-40, F Feb 5, 2014

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    I Cut

    I cut myself, i harmed my body, i held the blad and made myself bleed. Why is this so hard to say i mean i do not do it for like two months now but i feel so ashamed of myself and i just want to like scream at myself!! I was so stuoid to do it, now i will always have that little...
    annie2011 annie2011 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2011

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    I Am Loving Me

    I hate messing up yes but i am done hating myself! I firgive annie! She cut herself yes but i choose my future! I choose not to cut! well what do u think of that??
    annie2011 annie2011 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 7, 2011

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    Warning this is a rant about how much I hate my life. All the way through middle school I was bullied and to cope with that I cut my self....a lot. I also attempted suicide and...
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    Tired of everyone hating me. Sometimes I feel like I rather be nonexistent. Recent news is that my best friend's parents might hate me too. They like her other friend more than me...
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    I don't understand why it is that I could never fit in.... I grew up in a bad home.. my only friend i had in high school wasn't a very good friend.. but she was all i could get...
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    I hate myself more than you can know. Worthless doesn't even begin to describe how I feel. I smile and act happy just so people don't have to put up with my bullshit. I can't stand...
    NothingtoNoOne NothingtoNoOne 26-30, M a week ago

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    I hate myself for being a boring noone. Thats the reason noone has crush on me EVER.
    lonely4560 lonely4560 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    So I was tall and skinny my whole life and beautiful but I kept getting bullied for being skinny and I hated myself. And I ruined my face trying to be white. And I am so stupid...
    ihatebeingblack44 ihatebeingblack44 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    For example, my boyfriend forced me to meet his mother and brother once. It was probably the most uncomfortable hour of my life. Everyone at the table just ignored me. I couldn't...
    cairah cairah 22-25, F Jul 23

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    I just wanna go to sleep and never wake up I don't wanna feel this pain anymore everyone would be happier if I just died someone please let me kill myself I really want to
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 7 Responses Jul 22

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    Ah, yes, ugly 'n brooding. Precisely what a girl needs to be.... Yeah, fair warning: I'll be using a bit of sarcasm in this even though I am anything but a sarcastic person...
    Ewoo Ewoo 16-17 1 Response Jul 22

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    and i dont know why everyone hates me so much but maybe i do because now i hate me too and now i really don't see the reason for trying, or for talking, or for breathing im just...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 19

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    forevergirly forevergirly 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    I can go from being okay to hating myself and wanting to kill myself in 5 seconds :(
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    I hate the way I look, I hate that I'm depressed, I hate everything about me. I'm alone and the women I want to date don't like me and I don't know why.
    Foxmanrox Foxmanrox 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 17

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    And I don't care for those who use it as an excuse/justification.
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M Jul 17

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    Why so negative, what about 100 reasons you love yourself or like 100 reasons your worth living cause there is definitely some and even if I don't know you, I know there is reasons...
    Emsickles Emsickles 13-15, F Jul 16

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    You hate me? That's fine!.... I hate myself too
    JustineMusey JustineMusey 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 15

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    I make myself sick. Unstable emotions, I hate one minutes I'm so happy and the next I want to cut my throat open. I'm disgusted by everything about me. From my looks to my...
    FleshEatingBacteria FleshEatingBacteria 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 15

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    I hate every single thing about me.
    fiji0water0 fiji0water0 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    Last night I got drunk and my friend was throwing up so her boyfriend took her home and I hung out with these other guys... Well I ended up having sex with both of them and gosh I...
    Nicole1334 Nicole1334 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    I can't believe I said that to him. Why did I say he treats me like a s*x toy. He doesn't he treats me well like s princess and I'm grateful for that. I'm so stupid I love him so...
    BooBear99 BooBear99 16-17, F Jul 14

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    Have been meaning to go shop for clothes, get something nice just in case I get a job interview or something, so i would look sooooo good, you know ;) BUT I hate shopping for...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    Being around people is draining... Yet being alone is painful. I'm lost and alone, no one understands me, I don't even understand myself. I'm tired of all this built up emotion...
    busybrain busybrain 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    I'm a Christian and if some people hates me for what I believe then that's fine it won't stop me believing.
    shellie77 shellie77 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    I hate myself! Normal would be good right about now!
    Zefwed Zefwed 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    Today's my birthday. I don't have any plans with anyone. Probably won't be getting any gifts. I don't want expensive things, just something to know someone was thinking about me. I...
    nothingfeelsgreat nothingfeelsgreat 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 14

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    It's not fair. **** the media. **** celebrities. **** the vast majority of society. They make some many people mentally ill it's not even funny. I feel like in order to be...
    peacesoullove peacesoullove 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 13