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I Hate Myself For Messing Up So Badly

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    Taking The Extremes

    In the past when i messed up i just did not care at all. But hen i meke little mistakes now i over react about it and i need a middle ground!!!
    annie2011 annie2011 18-21, F Jan 10, 2011

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    I never did drugs or drank alcohol growing up

    because I thought they'd interfere with me becoming successful. Now, I realize none of that mattered; I failed at life anyway. I'm 35 and my life is a mess. I worked hard and haven't come close to my goals and it's too late. I'm tired of men, but even if I weren't the all want...
    thalia01 thalia01 36-40, F Feb 5, 2014

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    I Hurt My Boyfriend

    My boyfriend and I have had an amazing relationship. Back when we were together for about six or seven months, we were both drunk one night and things got out of hand, and i tried to break up with him. He collapsed on his bed crying hysterically and then walked out of his house...
    dobie292 dobie292 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 17, 2009

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    Give Me A 1..2..3...4...5th Chance?

    Hey...newbie here! Sooo my parents dont get along at all and dont understand me. In fact I just lost the last person who DOES understand me. Because of how I am. Help?
    sickoftrying311 sickoftrying311 13-15, F Oct 17, 2011

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    I mess up everything.

    I hurt everyone. Idk. I'm just a destroyer and that's all I'll ever be.
    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F Jul 2, 2014

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    I don't know how many times,

    on how many topics, and how many more times I will but I really want to go back and take back that I love u I really didn't mean it and now I've messed up my first relationship
    Kblue99 Kblue99 16-17, F May 18, 2014

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    I Am Loving Me

    I hate messing up yes but i am done hating myself! I firgive annie! She cut herself yes but i choose my future! I choose not to cut! well what do u think of that??
    annie2011 annie2011 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 7, 2011

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    I Cut

    I cut myself, i harmed my body, i held the blad and made myself bleed. Why is this so hard to say i mean i do not do it for like two months now but i feel so ashamed of myself and i just want to like scream at myself!! I was so stuoid to do it, now i will always have that little...
    annie2011 annie2011 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2011

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    Life

    It seems like I mess up in life all of the time... I swear my life is a mess up to. My family never takes into consideration that their words hit. Just a few minutes ago I forgot to but the bread tie back on the bread and their like "you never strive to do anything right" and in...
    courtneyDan courtneyDan 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    Everyone says no cutting. No self mutilation. No hurting yourself. They say it hurts them so much. Well I haven't cut and now I am getting more tired of all of this. My head hurts...
    Untrustworthy117 Untrustworthy117 18-21, M 4 hrs ago

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    I hate myself because I look like my dad, and most of the times and can't sleep at night because I worry too much that I end up being a worthless loser like he's always said, or...
    Elwreystingray Elwreystingray 22-25, M 17 hrs ago

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    You've caught me in one of my fragile states, now read this if you want. I don't believe in romantic love, I believe in divine, absolute love. Even I have a soft side too you know...
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    It feels so ******* bad...especially after you've spoiled a relationship and you're the only one that's in love. I can't stop thinking of what I could've done to make it better...I...
    Kbrabbit Kbrabbit 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Hello Everyone -- I came across this site when I googled "I hate my family" so I figured I'd give it a shot to hopefully find other people who can relate. I am so sad lately...
    hifuckedupworld hifuckedupworld 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    My heart is filled with hate for myself, I hate everything about me. I am weak , I am a ******* failure, I am nothing, I am useless, I am everything my mother said I would be . I...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    I can't even look at myself in the mirror because I just hate myself. I don't believe I deserve to be happy or to feel content. I try really hard at trying to find a job but keep...
    alice0493 alice0493 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    ....I almost can't believe what a detestable person I am. A lot of the things that people say are what make life living are suspended far beyond my reach. Happiness seems...
    Ewoo Ewoo 16-17 5 days ago

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    I don't really hate my self but some times I say dumb stuff a lot, there is a girl i tried to start a relationship with and it didn't work, few days ago i was talking to her and I...
    comlpicatedguy comlpicatedguy 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    I hate myself. I hate every single piece of me . I'm ugly. I'm stupid. I'm fat. I'm suicidal. I want to die.
    IAmSuicidalEmma IAmSuicidalEmma 16-17, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I hate myself. I wish I was never born.
    ChelseaMonroe ChelseaMonroe 26-30, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I fell back on my old habit of cutting so I could feel numb mentally . When my dad found out he looked so sad and it makes me so mad at myself. I wish I hadn't done it. I only did...
    rosedimond99 rosedimond99 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Sometimes i just dont really want to be myself Sorry this is a rant... I was raised as a spoiled child and I still am. I always had to have everything I wanted and refused to...
    Pillemy Pillemy 18-21 1 Response 6 days ago

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    It's one of these nights again.I hate myself.I hate everything about myself, everything that is in my life and everything that is not.I hate perfect people and those lucky enough...
    yeniC yeniC 18-21, F a week ago

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    Because I'm so damn stupid, shy, a stutterer and hate the way I look I've passed up another chance to vid chat with a seemingly nice girl. I'm just so damn useless and that'll...
    hreinn hreinn 18-21, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I HATE BEING ME. Im the lowest piece of the low pieces of **** person. No wonder no one likes being around me. I dont even like me. Im a spineless little coward b1tch who does...
    Azena Azena 18-21, F 9 Responses a week ago

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    and so what...its as it should be. too much the coward to just be done and eat a bullet. screw it...useless. when does this **** end...just a ******* burden to all... earliest...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M Aug 23

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    I haven't used this app in quite sometime but i'm giving it another go. So yes, i hate myself. Sure i'm insecure about my face and body but that's not what i mean, i hate ME. I...
    littlebird88 littlebird88 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    I am hate incarnation tonight. Come purchase your gate through me. Plenty to spare. If you fing dare. Doubt you can. F$ck you all!! F&ck you to the darkest depths the solar...
    Golfknar Golfknar 36-40, M 1 Response Aug 22

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    over and over and over again. I don't want to think about this. screaming and yelling and pain over and over again. rotten deep within,build up your walls again.over and over and...
    catacomb catacomb 66-70 Aug 21

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    I really do. I'm trying to become a better person but whenever I remember my mistakes from the past I begin to hate myself even more. I don't think that I deserve friendship or...
    rcmh171822 rcmh171822 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    I hate myself. I hate the way I look. I hate my shy personality. I hate that I can never speak my mind. I hate the way my life is turning out. I hate how I'm constantly thinking...
    Hammer2222 Hammer2222 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 17

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    Just bore I got on EP I knew what I wanted to share but now As I get on all I have to say is "I hate my ugly fat disgusting self." & "I can't wait to get my blades out of my car...
    secretchey secretchey 18-21, F Aug 17

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    I thought I was important to him. That I'm his bestie. That he cares. But no. That never happened. It's time for me to wake up. I don't need to believe these anymore. Because that...
    colourflame colourflame 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 17

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    Yes, hope you find someone who will not hurt u. Unlike me, I made u sad all the time.
    Lexis91 Lexis91 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    I never admitted this to myself. I'm afraid of being abandoned. I'm super sensitive to ridicule and humiliation. I hate my parents. I wrote mom a letter when I was about 6-7...
    MentAl69noMAD MentAl69noMAD 18-21 2 Responses Aug 16

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    I always fantasise about hurting myself, especially in public. I analysed myself (as cold as I could be) and found that I could be seeking for attention. I hate that part of myself...
    sabrina1ryo sabrina1ryo 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 16

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    His stupid lies, his broken promises! I hate him for making me become the person that I am today. I should have known that I knew better than to give him a chance, but I did it...
    Felicia209 Felicia209 18-21, F Aug 16

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    I do blame myself for the loss of a dear friend, we were the best of friends in middle school, and she was in a very dark place and i didnt see it until it was too late, and by the...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F Aug 16

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    Why do I have to keep letting myself down all the time? I work so hard to keep everything together, I've been happy and content all day then I had to ruin it. I'm such an idiot. I...
    lovetodraw19 lovetodraw19 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 15

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    And i hate life its so ******* unfair
    ihatebeingblack44 ihatebeingblack44 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    I like to do things on my own, i really do hate asking for help. ppl have no idea how hard it is for me to ask, so if I humble myself to ask you for help, consider yourself the few...
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 Aug 14

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    I hate myself because most people hate me. I am shy I am single .most people treat me like crap people ack like I don't exist I am nice to everyone what I get in return nothing. I...
    youwokeme99 youwokeme99 36-40, F 3 Responses