I Hate Myself For Messing Up So Badly

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    Give Me A 1..2..3...4...5th Chance?

    Hey...newbie here! Sooo my parents dont get along at all and dont understand me. In fact I just lost the last person who DOES understand me. Because of how I am. Help?
    sickoftrying311 sickoftrying311
    13-15, F
    Oct 17, 2011

    I Cut

    I cut myself, i harmed my body, i held the blad and made myself bleed. Why is this so hard to say i mean i do not do it for like two months now but i feel so ashamed of myself and i just want to like scream at myself!! I was so stuoid to do it, now i will always have that little...
    annie2011 annie2011
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 11, 2011

    I Am Loving Me

    I hate messing up yes but i am done hating myself! I firgive annie! She cut herself yes but i choose my future! I choose not to cut! well what do u think of that??
    annie2011 annie2011
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 7, 2011

    I mess up everything.

    I hurt everyone. Idk. I'm just a destroyer and that's all I'll ever be.
    catherineeac catherineeac
    13-15, F
    Jul 2, 2014

    Taking The Extremes

    In the past when i messed up i just did not care at all. But hen i meke little mistakes now i over react about it and i need a middle ground!!!
    annie2011 annie2011
    18-21, F
    Jan 10, 2011

    I Hurt My Boyfriend

    My boyfriend and I have had an amazing relationship. Back when we were together for about six or seven months, we were both drunk one night and things got out of hand, and i tried to break up with him. He collapsed on his bed crying hysterically and then walked out of his house...
    dobie292 dobie292
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Jun 17, 2009

    I don't know how many times,

    on how many topics, and how many more times I will but I really want to go back and take back that I love u I really didn't mean it and now I've messed up my first relationship
    Kblue99 Kblue99
    16-17, F
    May 18, 2014

    Life

    It seems like I mess up in life all of the time... I swear my life is a mess up to. My family never takes into consideration that their words hit. Just a few minutes ago I forgot to but the bread tie back on the bread and their like "you never strive to do anything right" and in...
    courtneyDan courtneyDan
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 26, 2013

    I never did drugs or drank alcohol growing up

    because I thought they'd interfere with me becoming successful. Now, I realize none of that mattered; I failed at life anyway. I'm 35 and my life is a mess. I worked hard and haven't come close to my goals and it's too late. I'm tired of men, but even if I weren't the all want...
    thalia01 thalia01
    36-40, F
    Feb 5, 2014

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