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I Hate Myself For Messing Up So Badly

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    Taking The Extremes

    In the past when i messed up i just did not care at all. But hen i meke little mistakes now i over react about it and i need a middle ground!!!
    annie2011 annie2011 18-21, F Jan 10, 2011

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    Give Me A 1..2..3...4...5th Chance?

    Hey...newbie here! Sooo my parents dont get along at all and dont understand me. In fact I just lost the last person who DOES understand me. Because of how I am. Help?
    sickoftrying311 sickoftrying311 13-15, F Oct 17, 2011

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    I Am Loving Me

    I hate messing up yes but i am done hating myself! I firgive annie! She cut herself yes but i choose my future! I choose not to cut! well what do u think of that??
    annie2011 annie2011 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 7, 2011

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    I Hurt My Boyfriend

    My boyfriend and I have had an amazing relationship. Back when we were together for about six or seven months, we were both drunk one night and things got out of hand, and i tried to break up with him. He collapsed on his bed crying hysterically and then walked out of his house...
    dobie292 dobie292 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 17, 2009

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    I never did drugs or drank alcohol growing up

    because I thought they'd interfere with me becoming successful. Now, I realize none of that mattered; I failed at life anyway. I'm 35 and my life is a mess. I worked hard and haven't come close to my goals and it's too late. I'm tired of men, but even if I weren't the all want...
    thalia01 thalia01 36-40, F Feb 5, 2014

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    I Cut

    I cut myself, i harmed my body, i held the blad and made myself bleed. Why is this so hard to say i mean i do not do it for like two months now but i feel so ashamed of myself and i just want to like scream at myself!! I was so stuoid to do it, now i will always have that little...
    annie2011 annie2011 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2011

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    I mess up everything.

    I hurt everyone. Idk. I'm just a destroyer and that's all I'll ever be.
    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F Jul 2, 2014

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    Life

    It seems like I mess up in life all of the time... I swear my life is a mess up to. My family never takes into consideration that their words hit. Just a few minutes ago I forgot to but the bread tie back on the bread and their like "you never strive to do anything right" and in...
    courtneyDan courtneyDan 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2013

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    I don't know how many times,

    on how many topics, and how many more times I will but I really want to go back and take back that I love u I really didn't mean it and now I've messed up my first relationship
    Kblue99 Kblue99 16-17, F May 18, 2014

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    here's a secret, I'm a ****** up person and I actually don't want to change. there is comfort in the consistency of my ****** uppery.
    quietlucy quietlucy 22-25, F 1 hr ago

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    You attract confusion when you put yourself in a complicated situation.. You wont feel the effect at first but once you indulge yourself with others peoples dilemma you find your...
    nalbyan nalbyan 31-35, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have no friends people hate me The only thing I ever get told is I'm a pig and I hurt people purposely
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    It always feel like I'm being watched and judged by everything I do or say. Most of the time, I try and ignore that looming feeling but other times it just sort've..gets to me. It...
    ApatheticSpark ApatheticSpark 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    When I say I hate myself, that is a little stretched, because I love how I am with people, I have compassion for everyone. I love how sensitive I am to others, but what I do hate...
    Kailey76 Kailey76 36-40, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I feel that most people in my life are only there due to convenience. I don't feel any "bond" or connection with even my closest friends and family anymore. I know it's my fault...
    Sparklyblueunicorns Sparklyblueunicorns 22-25, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I always mess up everything. I think too far ahead, I'm too hopeful.. but at the same time you say I'm too pessimistic.. it's either I'm too pessimistic or I'm too optimistic. you...
    Caitlinsmith1636 Caitlinsmith1636 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I am a recovering male anorexic who has been in outpatient therapy since March of last year. Back in June, I wasn't improving at all, and was starting to get very sick. It got to...
    Caridinals21 Caridinals21 22-25, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    What have I done today? As soon as I woke up got yelled at. I ate breakfast and went to school. Class was fine. Got in the car, got yelled at all the way to the store. Finished...
    jennifer5006 jennifer5006 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I made a promise to myself, one that I haven't kept. me and my mom never had a good relationship, and this particular day after picking me up from my dad's she went to shower after...
    pricklytickk pricklytickk 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    Today I almost lost my girlfriend and I never hated myself more than now. They diagnosed her with carbon monoxide poisoning. She tried to kill herself and it's my fault! I hate...
    LoloRegz LoloRegz 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I am a recovering male anorexic, and I just finished an outpatient treatment program for eating disorders. On the whole, it wasn’t a helpful program. I may be at a healthy weight...
    Caridinals21 Caridinals21 22-25, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I deal with a lot of self-hatred and disgust. I'm disgusted with myself for feeling awful all the time. I'm disgusted with myself for feeling broken. My life is practically perfect...
    Hush92 Hush92 18-21, F 9 Responses a week ago

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    Im tired of being a complete fool. I always embarass myself no matter what!!! I can't do anything right!!!! I'm tired of people telling me to be more confident in myself but for...
    FemaIeWeezy FemaIeWeezy 18-21, M 4 Responses a week ago

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    Do you ever just feel like a disappointment? I'm just so fed up with how I'm turning out I feel like such a failure when I see my friends bringing in a load of money and driving...
    SarcasticCxnt SarcasticCxnt 18-21 a week ago

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    It is not the best way I know, and probably wrong, but when I stuck generally I struggle and try to figure out things myself. The best part you learn things, internalizes them. But...
    JetWoes JetWoes 36-40, M a week ago

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    I hate myself today. Idk what is happening to me. I hate my face today. I think I look so ******. - soko
    LittleUnicorn LittleUnicorn 18-21 5 Responses Jan 30

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    I do...I am 21 and no where near where I feel I should be in my life. I have made so many mistakes growing up as a kid and in my teen years. I feel so inadequate and pathetic in...
    Jason947 Jason947 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 30

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    While I was allowed to wear a diaper when I needed to growing up, I also discovered that NOT wearing a diaper could be just as much fun. Last year I discovered that my son (then 12...
    bcmom22 bcmom22 31-35, F 10 Responses Jan 29

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    I'm in the middle of epilepsy surgery evaluation and I have been for the past 2 to 3 months there's just so many tests and so many doctors appointments before the panel of doctors...
    Leo2015 Leo2015 26-30, M Jan 27

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    Honestly explaining myself to someone is the hardest thing, because nobody understands. I'm not like anyone In my family, my family always just thinks I'm a defective child who...
    bflyboo14 bflyboo14 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    Everytime I see the girl my ex likes it feels like a reminder that I'm not good enough for him. I know this thinking is bs but I can't help it. I feel like she's prettier, smarter...
    AquaQ AquaQ 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    I don't like myself,and I can understand why others can too. I'm ugly. My family keeps telling me that I'm beautiful, but I'm not. I have an apple body shape,meaning that I have no...
    RainbowLollipop587 RainbowLollipop587 16-17 2 Responses Jan 26

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    I really have been struggling with this lately... well more like for the past 7 or so months. I ******* hate myself, I hate that I'm useless and can't bring home any income, I hate...
    GoldenHeart69 GoldenHeart69 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    I hate myself so much. I despise my size and hate it when I realize just how curvy I am. I want to be a tooth pick so badly. I have tried working out, I only gained muscle, I dont...
    Caitlinsmith1636 Caitlinsmith1636 18-21, F 7 Responses Jan 24

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    I spend most of my time reminding myself how horrible I am and how much of a screw up I am.
    BarelyReal14 BarelyReal14 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 24

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    It never will be- I don't care what you've been through, that's no excuse to be toxic.
    FlowerWarrior FlowerWarrior 13-15, T Jan 24

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    I have been with my husband for 10 years, married for 6. We have 3 children together and I have an older son. My spouse is younger than me by a few years. When we were dating...
    jpslone0821 jpslone0821 36-40, F 2 Responses Jan 23

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    I've posted here before about my social anxiety, and it's something I've been working extremely hard to combat. The thing is, forming friendships is difficult for me because I...
    Caridinals21 Caridinals21 22-25, M Jan 23

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    There has to be a reason for all of this. I can't believe I am who I am, the way I am, where I am, all that I am. I hate it all.
    NoReasonToLiveForMe NoReasonToLiveForMe 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 23

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    I believe that sex is something to be saved for marriage. That being said, I am not a virgin. I have only had sex twice with one person. I was in a bad place and didn't value...
    texas1917 texas1917 18-21, F Jan 22

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    Nobody understands what I'm going through. They either think I'm lying or they just think I think I have depression or something, when I know for a matter of a fact I don't. I know...
    KT3535 KT3535 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 22

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