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I Hate Myself For Missing Him

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    "I Hate Myself For Missing Him"

    I hate myself so much right now, for missing him so much. He is the one who hurt me the most, and yet, I still Love him, I have Loved him this whole time. I think I will always Love him. I hate myself so much, because I still Love him, and I Miss him so much. I hate that I am not...
    DyinToBeLoved DyinToBeLoved 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 25, 2008

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    What else is there to say?

    I need to stop hoping that he will not be like how he was before. I was so vulnerable it feels like. Being with him broke my heart. But being away, makes it hurt worse. I wish he could see his daughter and hold her, but I also don't want him to... I'm so mixed up.
    Hersheychic Hersheychic 18-21, F Mar 12, 2014

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    How do I unlearn all these things?

    Waiting for you at night. The sound of the 11 o'clock chime, that means you have gotten off work and have the chance to talk to me. The elegant, husky sound of your voice, saying the sweetest goodnight, wishing we were lying together side by side in bed. How do I unlearn all...
    girlon3rdfloorsuite9 girlon3rdfloorsuite9 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 9, 2014

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    Its True

    i miss him... i know he doest deserve anything from me... i know its over... the hopes the dreams of having a great family which i know was a huge possibility before he walked away, away from me away from my new baby girl, away from this relationship i was trying so hard to save...
    Sumr Sumr 22-25, F 3 Responses May 27, 2009

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    I Shouldn't Miss Him

    Well, I as everyone else says, I shouldn't still miss him, but I do.  It seems nearly impossible to move on when you just want that one person back so much, but there's nothing you can do.  I haven't seemed to be missing him until the last week or so, and every...
    Faithful15 Faithful15 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 25, 2009

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    I Am So Sad And Depressed About This Right Now.

    I want him to want me. He is so much more of a man than any man I have ever been with. I adore him, I think his body is perfection- even its flaws. I love his flaws. Why doesn't he love mine? I broke up with him because of this unbalanced relationship of give give give and...
    shortcake0007 shortcake0007 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 27, 2011

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    It's Getting To Me

    I have been okay. I thought I was doing pretty good for someone who has had their dreams of a future with someone ripped out of their hands. I even began to feel less angry about being betrayed. I figured I was over the worst of it and it would just get easier from here. Tonight...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 2, 2012

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    Broken Throne...

    It wasn't meant to be in this life.... I HATE myself for missing him, I was in love, but I have let go. I've taken steps away but I drink just to stop my hands from shaking when I remember him calling me His Queen.
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 8 Responses May 24, 2009

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    He has been in my life

    for 12 years. We've been married for 5 years. Then he just stopped talking to me. Just ... stopped. 45 days later he asked me when I was going to finally see that he is done with me. That is a monster. A horrible person. But I can't stop reminiscing about what I now know was a...
    e78celia e78celia 36-40, F Sep 20, 2014

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    :(

    It's stupid really, but when you get used to having someone there all the time and then they can't be there it leaves a huge void.  
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 24 Responses Feb 6, 2011

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    Its True

    i miss him... i know he doest deserve anything from me... i know its over... the hopes the dreams of having a great family which i know was a huge possibility before he walked away, away from me away from my new baby girl, away from this relationship i was trying so hard to save...
    Sumr Sumr 22-25, F 1 Response May 27, 2009

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    I Don't Want to Miss Him

    He hasn't called or text me for almost 3 weeks. Last time he texted me, he said he was busy. It's an excuse, I know. I hate him! I didn't want him to ask me out in the first place. I didn't even want him to like me. He's way too old for me. I can't believe I'm missing him right...
    pepperdoll pepperdoll 31-35, F 4 Responses Apr 30, 2009

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    Wtf I'm 15

    Okay... I'm 15! I shouldn't want him back! He cheated on me and I still care about him! What's wrong with me?! All I want is for him to be happy and it seems he is happier without me but I'm not happy without him. I feel so stupid I can't get over him
    HaChomp HaChomp 16-17, F Feb 7, 2011

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    I hate myself for loving you. I am definitely done with you. I was stupid for giving you my attention and time. What a waste. I realized you aren't worth it and you aren't the one...
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    i hate myself i hate everything about me
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    I have always had a picture of my honeymoon night all planned in my head. i have always wanted to surprise my husband with a gift that god had given me. i am not a girl that is...
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    winception winception 13-15, T 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    My brother and I just had an argument. He sucks at arguing because of how he drags the focus of the argument to other things. Things like me. He constantly insults me for being...
    DrowningInRed DrowningInRed 13-15, F 6 Responses Feb 13

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    There's really two of me trying to live inside one body. The first me, the one everyone see's is the crazy, loud, fun, easy going, party animal glam guy. That me is always having a...
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    I just got back from Sadie.. It really ******* sucked. I asked a really good guy friend of mine and discussed it with a chick friend. She then went behind my back and asked him and...
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    How can love and hate be so close but yet so far in definition? I would know considering I love the person I hate most. And I now realize that the only reason I hate him is because...
    ariel2891 ariel2891 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    I hate my life so much, I really have been compensating whether or not I should kill myself, but I can never bring myself to it, like it's just thoughts; but seriously Life's...
    Krchan2 Krchan2 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 12

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    I hate the way I am I hate the way I look I hate that I can't be better I hate that when I try I always fail I hate that my friends hate me I hate being alone when I'm not I hate...
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    I want him to let me back in so I don't hate myself anymore but I am so helpless
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    My mother makes me hate myself......I understand that a mother must correct you and stuff. My mother once told me that she hates me when I was in grade 8. she reminds me of...
    Adridee Adridee 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I just realized how much I hate myself I cant even look at myself in the mirror without crying I hate my personality I cant even talk to people im pathetic and weak and I just want...
    Crystalsgirl08 Crystalsgirl08 13-15, F 16 Responses Feb 7

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    I hate myself but when I say that I mean I hate everything about me no joke I font like one bit of me. I sit in my room in the dark cuz I'm to afraid to go out in the world and let...
    sexybeast1202 sexybeast1202 13-15, F Feb 10

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    To be completely honest I truly hate myself. Just the way I look and act make's me absolutely sick to my stomach. I have no confidence in the way I look, I feel as though everyone...
    CarsonKid14 CarsonKid14 13-15, M 6 Responses Feb 22

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    Dear everyone, I hate myself. I always have and I do not know why. Looming feelings of inadequacy along with body-image problems have plagued me since roughly the beginning of...
    Systral Systral 22-25, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    i hate myself sometimes , i hate being hurt by other people. I'm sick of falling for people and they rejecting me. I want someone to love me and care for me. I want to be happy
    justa333 justa333 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I hate myself so much and I can never help but to put myself down every time something positive comes my way.
    theultimatesashacourtney theultimatesashacourtney 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Kind of. My whole life was full of horrible.. Just horrible days. As a child, I was always beaten so severely I couldn't go to school ever, no one would know. My mom was a crazy...
    GuuIsAwesome GuuIsAwesome 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 5

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    I am a freshman college student at a small university. I have friends, but I always text first and don't feel met half way by any of them. Some of my friends are sophomores and...
    alec90 alec90 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 7

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    Well I pretty much hate myself all the time
    silverstrike silverstrike 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 11

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    I relive every moment of the day before I go to sleep and analyze all the times I said or did something stupid. I do this until I hate myself.
    magickmegs magickmegs 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    I hate myself so much I just want someone to talk to but I guess I'm too much of a freak for anyone to like me :/
    adelinep013 adelinep013 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 22

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    Whenever I post somthing people go straight ahead and message me I get about 3 new messages from people every time I get on :3 yes I hate myself yes I think my life sucks yes I...
    BiXwolfsXbears BiXwolfsXbears 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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