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I Hate Myself For Missing Him

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    Broken Throne...

    It wasn't meant to be in this life.... I HATE myself for missing him, I was in love, but I have let go. I've taken steps away but I drink just to stop my hands from shaking when I remember him calling me His Queen.
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 8 Responses May 24, 2009

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    How do I unlearn all these things?

    Waiting for you at night. The sound of the 11 o'clock chime, that means you have gotten off work and have the chance to talk to me. The elegant, husky sound of your voice, saying the sweetest goodnight, wishing we were lying together side by side in bed. How do I unlearn all...
    girlon3rdfloorsuite9 girlon3rdfloorsuite9 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    :(

    It's stupid really, but when you get used to having someone there all the time and then they can't be there it leaves a huge void.  
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 31 Responses Feb 6, 2011

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    It's Getting To Me

    I have been okay. I thought I was doing pretty good for someone who has had their dreams of a future with someone ripped out of their hands. I even began to feel less angry about being betrayed. I figured I was over the worst of it and it would just get easier from here. Tonight...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 2, 2012

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    "I Hate Myself For Missing Him"

    I hate myself so much right now, for missing him so much. He is the one who hurt me the most, and yet, I still Love him, I have Loved him this whole time. I think I will always Love him. I hate myself so much, because I still Love him, and I Miss him so much. I hate that I am not...
    DyinToBeLoved DyinToBeLoved 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 25, 2008

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    Its True

    i miss him... i know he doest deserve anything from me... i know its over... the hopes the dreams of having a great family which i know was a huge possibility before he walked away, away from me away from my new baby girl, away from this relationship i was trying so hard to save...
    Sumr Sumr 22-25, F 3 Responses May 27, 2009

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    Its True

    i miss him... i know he doest deserve anything from me... i know its over... the hopes the dreams of having a great family which i know was a huge possibility before he walked away, away from me away from my new baby girl, away from this relationship i was trying so hard to save...
    Sumr Sumr 22-25, F 1 Response May 27, 2009

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    Wtf I'm 15

    Okay... I'm 15! I shouldn't want him back! He cheated on me and I still care about him! What's wrong with me?! All I want is for him to be happy and it seems he is happier without me but I'm not happy without him. I feel so stupid I can't get over him
    HaChomp HaChomp 16-17, F Feb 7, 2011

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    What else is there to say?

    I need to stop hoping that he will not be like how he was before. I was so vulnerable it feels like. Being with him broke my heart. But being away, makes it hurt worse. I wish he could see his daughter and hold her, but I also don't want him to... I'm so mixed up.
    Hersheychic Hersheychic 18-21, F Mar 12

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    I Am So Sad And Depressed About This Right Now.

    I want him to want me. He is so much more of a man than any man I have ever been with. I adore him, I think his body is perfection- even its flaws. I love his flaws. Why doesn't he love mine? I broke up with him because of this unbalanced relationship of give give give and...
    shortcake0007 shortcake0007 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 27, 2011

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    I Shouldn't Miss Him

    Well, I as everyone else says, I shouldn't still miss him, but I do.  It seems nearly impossible to move on when you just want that one person back so much, but there's nothing you can do.  I haven't seemed to be missing him until the last week or so, and every...
    Faithful15 Faithful15 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 25, 2009

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    I Don't Want to Miss Him

    He hasn't called or text me for almost 3 weeks. Last time he texted me, he said he was busy. It's an excuse, I know. I hate him! I didn't want him to ask me out in the first place. I didn't even want him to like me. He's way too old for me. I can't believe I'm missing him right...
    pepperdoll pepperdoll 31-35, F 4 Responses Apr 30, 2009

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