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I Hate Myself For Missing Him

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    I need to stop hoping that he will not be like how he was before. I was so vulnerable it feels like. Being with him broke my heart. But being away, makes it hurt worse. I wish he could see his daughter and hold her, but I also don't want him to... I'm so mixed up.
    Hersheychic Hersheychic 18-21, F Mar 12, 2014

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    Its True

    i miss him... i know he doest deserve anything from me... i know its over... the hopes the dreams of having a great family which i know was a huge possibility before he walked away, away from me away from my new baby girl, away from this relationship i was trying so hard to save...
    Sumr Sumr 22-25, F 3 Responses May 27, 2009

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    Broken Throne...

    It wasn't meant to be in this life.... I HATE myself for missing him, I was in love, but I have let go. I've taken steps away but I drink just to stop my hands from shaking when I remember him calling me His Queen.
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 8 Responses May 24, 2009

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    He has been in my life

    for 12 years. We've been married for 5 years. Then he just stopped talking to me. Just ... stopped. 45 days later he asked me when I was going to finally see that he is done with me. That is a monster. A horrible person. But I can't stop reminiscing about what I now know was a...
    e78celia e78celia 36-40, F Sep 20, 2014

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    :(

    It's stupid really, but when you get used to having someone there all the time and then they can't be there it leaves a huge void.  
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 24 Responses Feb 6, 2011

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    "I Hate Myself For Missing Him"

    I hate myself so much right now, for missing him so much. He is the one who hurt me the most, and yet, I still Love him, I have Loved him this whole time. I think I will always Love him. I hate myself so much, because I still Love him, and I Miss him so much. I hate that I am not...
    DyinToBeLoved DyinToBeLoved 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 25, 2008

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    How do I unlearn all these things?

    Waiting for you at night. The sound of the 11 o'clock chime, that means you have gotten off work and have the chance to talk to me. The elegant, husky sound of your voice, saying the sweetest goodnight, wishing we were lying together side by side in bed. How do I unlearn all...
    girlon3rdfloorsuite9 girlon3rdfloorsuite9 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 9, 2014

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    I Shouldn't Miss Him

    Well, I as everyone else says, I shouldn't still miss him, but I do.  It seems nearly impossible to move on when you just want that one person back so much, but there's nothing you can do.  I haven't seemed to be missing him until the last week or so, and every...
    Faithful15 Faithful15 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 25, 2009

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    Its True

    i miss him... i know he doest deserve anything from me... i know its over... the hopes the dreams of having a great family which i know was a huge possibility before he walked away, away from me away from my new baby girl, away from this relationship i was trying so hard to save...
    Sumr Sumr 22-25, F 1 Response May 27, 2009

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    I Am So Sad And Depressed About This Right Now.

    I want him to want me. He is so much more of a man than any man I have ever been with. I adore him, I think his body is perfection- even its flaws. I love his flaws. Why doesn't he love mine? I broke up with him because of this unbalanced relationship of give give give and...
    shortcake0007 shortcake0007 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 27, 2011

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    It's Getting To Me

    I have been okay. I thought I was doing pretty good for someone who has had their dreams of a future with someone ripped out of their hands. I even began to feel less angry about being betrayed. I figured I was over the worst of it and it would just get easier from here. Tonight...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 2, 2012

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    I Don't Want to Miss Him

    He hasn't called or text me for almost 3 weeks. Last time he texted me, he said he was busy. It's an excuse, I know. I hate him! I didn't want him to ask me out in the first place. I didn't even want him to like me. He's way too old for me. I can't believe I'm missing him right...
    pepperdoll pepperdoll 31-35, F 4 Responses Apr 30, 2009

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    Wtf I'm 15

    Okay... I'm 15! I shouldn't want him back! He cheated on me and I still care about him! What's wrong with me?! All I want is for him to be happy and it seems he is happier without me but I'm not happy without him. I feel so stupid I can't get over him
    HaChomp HaChomp 16-17, F Feb 7, 2011

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    the list of things I do that disappoint myself and those close to me continues to grow day by day-_-
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    I'm so awesome at ******* up my life. Like, I want a reward. It comes so effortlessly for me. When things are finally going good, I find a way to **** everyone over and ruin it...
    PorcelainGrenade PorcelainGrenade 13-15, F May 12

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    Soooo much. It's terrible. I wish I could stop feeling this way.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 13

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    If I just acted strong and had never trusted anyone, maybe I wouldn't be where I am now. I would have never trusted anyone and regretted it. Maybe I would be happier. I have...
    TiredOfBeingHurt TiredOfBeingHurt 18-21, F 1 Response May 19

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    So the other day I got invited to a party , yeah I was happy about it and pleased .... Only just to realise I got at text message saying' hey sorry some people at my party don't...
    mixedfellings mixedfellings 31-35, F 6 Responses May 21

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    So I haven't been on here in awhile. I seriously can't take my life anymore. I freaking hate myself. Everything that is going wrong is because of me...or at least that's what...
    BabeFett BabeFett 16-17, F May 3

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    I hate my dad, i hate my family, I hate the fact I was put into this world but most importantly, I hate myself for feeling this way. Please do not comment
    jellyycook jellyycook 18-21, F 1 Response May 13

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    Why we care about what others think of us? Why am I so care abt what they think? What I want to please them? Why can't I be myself, I hate myself for pretending,I hate those kind...
    lVll lVll 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    I want to die I can't stand living anymore and being told how selfish I am every fcking day. It tears me apart because I spend half of my time caring about other people and put...
    PaintOverItBlack PaintOverItBlack 22-25, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    I hate myself for the decisions I have to make
    Stucat Stucat 16-17, M 1 Response May 10

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    My father had a stroke when I was 11 years old, about 14 years ago, since then he lost most of his ability to be a functional member of the society and has been in a mental...
    iggy1296 iggy1296 22-25, M 3 Responses May 5

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    I hate everything about me. I have a shy and nice personality and because of that people think of me as a pushover. I hate the way my body looks and how ugly my face is. I am very...
    atr7887 atr7887 26-30, M 1 Response May 6

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    I have two loving parents and two great brothers. My other family is loving-ish but we are dysfunctional and no where near perfect. But I am loved. But this factor just makes me...
    HollowHeart17 HollowHeart17 18-21, F 1 Response May 7

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    My body is a prison. I hate every single inch of myself, and sometimes it's unbearable. I am such a disappointment to everyone, including myself, and I'm pretty sure my boyfriend...
    Mickkeyy Mickkeyy 18-21, F 1 Response May 2

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    more than i think i do . i hate myself because of how i am perceived . i hate myself to extent that i cant say why i do. i dont want to have friends because i dont want...
    lonesomedove80 lonesomedove80 31-35, F 2 Responses May 3

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    On the outside I almost seem to be so successful, and have so much potential, but I'm dead inside. I hate myself. I'm locked in a constant downwards spiral of *********** and self...
    Ironman2219 Ironman2219 18-21, M 1 Response May 1

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    I'm ugly I have cancer I'm fat No one wants to e my friend And everything seems to be going wrong I don't have a million dollars to buy everything that I need I hate myself...
    Jusjellybean Jusjellybean 18-21, F 8 Responses May 3

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    I legitimately hate myself. I just feel like a pathetic loser. I cried so hard last night that I actually collapsed. I'm buckling under the stress of work and school. And if I can...
    LunarRise LunarRise 22-25, F May 5

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    i hate myself so much. I'm never good enough. my hairs gross, I hate my eye color, I'm such a negative person, I'm fat I hate my smile and I hate the fact that I overthink way too...
    snj001 snj001 13-15, F 1 Response May 10

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    I hate myself, People think I'm not good enough and I think so.. I hate my body and I really hate my face!
    phoneringing20 phoneringing20 18-21, F 1 Response May 15

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    I hate myself. I hate my life. Really. I feel i'm alone. I really need someone who can understand me. Anyone? I have my friends tho. But i'm not sure if they really were my friends...
    yeahalone yeahalone 13-15 1 Response a week ago

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    It feels like every time I wish or dream something big for myself it happens to my friend instead. Since high school I've been watching her live me dreams while I'm constantly left...
    telliellie telliellie 26-30, F May 6

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    My mom is the reason why I hate myself so much. I was getting ready tonight and asked her how I looked. She shook her head meaning I looked nice, but her facial expression looked...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 3 Responses May 8

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    words can never describe how much i hate myself. i don't blame anyone for not caring about me and no wonder why I always end up alone . how they shut me out and label me...
    lonesomedove80 lonesomedove80 31-35, F 2 Responses May 10

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    I HATE MYSELF. IM UNDERWEIGHT I LOOK LIKE A MAN. I HATE IT
    ineedhelp122 ineedhelp122 18-21, F 1 Response May 21

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