I Hate Myself Some Days

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    Yeah it's one of those days.

    I thought I was finally becoming emotionally stable, over my teen angst, but I guess not. This year has been rough for me emotionally. Between dropping out of college twice (winter and fall semesters) and quitting my first job which, admittedly, was totally irresponsible, I can...
    LonelyistheAdventurer LonelyistheAdventurer
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 16, 2014

    I Feel Bad About This...

    In short (as short as I can make it), there is a girl that I really have feelings for. She means a lot to me and I really wanted to be with her for months. About 3 months ago she got into a relationship with this guy. It hurt me more than anyone knows. I hoped so much that he...
    obvious11 obvious11
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 1, 2010

    By some days, I actually mean MOST days.

    MOST days, I either avoid looking into the mirror, or when I do, I pick apart all of my imperfections. My nose is too big, my face is too long, and even though after struggling with facial acne for five years I have finally conquered 95% of it, I still look at the 5%, the little...
    Boulier Boulier
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 26, 2013

    Yeah, Me Too.

    You don't have to be young to be stupid.  Although I was young and for the times did something really goofy.  I was 17 and by that time, in this day and age a girl would know the score.  Well, your's truly didn't.  I went out with a college sophomore.  I...
    Barbara726 Barbara726
    56-60, F
    1 Response Aug 19, 2010

    I don't know what to do.

    I had some stuff happen that caused me to leave for a while. I finally got back and one of the few people that understood and accepted me won't speak to me now. I think she felt or feels abandoned. ideas?
    Joshuawt Joshuawt
    31-35, M
    Jan 27, 2015

    The Mirror Said "I Hate You"

    The mirror said "i hate you" so i think ill kill myself tonight. That's what she said,   before she took the razor, dragged it across her skin and sat in agony. She sat there like a doll waiting to be played with, for she had never experienced that...
    Lithium4mySoul Lithium4mySoul
    13-15, F
    5 Responses Dec 10, 2008

    I Just Cut Myself.

    I just cut myself three times for the three stupid things I did today. I cut myself yesterday, and the day before that, and the day before that. I have so many cuts on my wrist, old and new. So why doesn't anyone notice? I wear short sleeves almost every day, my We Heart It...
    anonymousinlove anonymousinlove
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Dec 19, 2012

    So my first post on this got deleted

    which just made my day even worse. What I was writing about that made me upset and angry got made worse by ep deleting it! So apparently I can't even say how I feel. I am a .... If I stick up for myself, I am a .... If I get upset or angry about how I am being treated, I tried...
    NewDay NewDay
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Feb 17, 2015

    Im A Failure

    i hate myself because everyday my family and guys i like make me feel like im a nobody they dont so much say it ans the way they treat me and the look in their eyes. i know people say its a sin and its wrong to kill urself and that life is worth living people wonder how others...
    melindabush11 melindabush11
    22-25, F
    Apr 27, 2013

    I just don't know what my purpose is.

    and I just feel like my life is over
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 9, 2015

    Picture Day.

    So I decided yesturday that for picture day I would wake up the next morning and whatever I was wearing I would also pick the matching background after I came up with an outfit. My outfit the next day ended up being a dress I picked out for our middle school eighth grade formal...
    AverageTeenager AverageTeenager
    13-15, F
    Sep 14, 2012

    Every guy. Is going to fall

    for the same girl. The same girls are going to get told there pretty over and over again. Because they are. And then there are the best friends. The ones who keep waiting for there turn. The ones that are pretty but not pretty enough I guess. The ones that live on the outside...
    Cozie Cozie
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jul 13, 2014

    Today i feel awful is like nobody is there.

    I feel bad about myself, i look in the mirror and i just want to brake it. I don't like me and i feel stupid about it. Nobody cares about me or about how i feel and i just wish i could have more friends, go out and laugh.. i wish i could have a life. I wish i could see myself...
    havenoideaa havenoideaa
    18-21, F
    Jul 19, 2014

    I mostly hate myself is

    because some days I'm really clumsy and destructive and can be rude while other days its great, but the reason I hate myself a lot I'm self destructive, i know I'm not alone though, I stand for my fallen brothers and sisters
    Hotdudez78 Hotdudez78
    13-15, M
    Jun 11, 2014

    I Can't Love Myself

    Dear whoever actually takes the time to read this, I can't love myself anymore. I think I've forgotten how and I don't know why. i have always been that kid that can't seem to do well, even though I try a lot. But I do try! I try so hard sometimes it hurts, oh well. I like to...
    Infinitebliss21 Infinitebliss21
    18-21, F
    Oct 24, 2013

    Today For Being Stupid

    It's true. Ignorance is bliss. The truth can't hurt you if you know what it is. So I found out today that the boy I once loved (ok some twisted part of my heart still does) lied more than I imagined. He's an even bigger scumbag than I thought. But I'm still the idiot who fell...
    annathom annathom
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 22, 2008

    I used to have it all.

    I was the bassist in a major jam band. It all fell apart. We had it in our hands and threw it away. What really sucks is gave my career up for my dream. Now my wife supports us and I have trouble getting a good job. I was a glazier. Making more money than I could spend. It was a...
    Emack Emack
    26-30, M
    Dec 26, 2013

    Wrong Turns

    I've made so many bad decisions in my life. The ones that are the toughest are the ones that I can't undo. I wish I could pause time and get out of this mess. Everyone thinks I lead such a perfect life because I'm positive on a daily basis but when I stop and reflect on my...
    FallenAngelWOOT FallenAngelWOOT
    31-35, F
    9 Responses Jun 1, 2012

    Who Doesn't?

    i guess, we all have those days when we feel so not at ease with ourselves, so annoyed with ourselves, so disappointed. so not us.
    mistyeyedlass mistyeyedlass
    18-21, F
    May 3, 2009

    It doesn't happened often.

    Sometimes it strikes me and I don't know why. I just hate myself. I see myself as pathetic and degrading. I have things people will never get and I know why. But some days despite that I feel worse. I see people some days surrounded by happiness and it makes me feel terrible. I...
    cloudycarnage cloudycarnage
    16-17, M
    1 Response Jun 27, 2015

    Why?

    If I wake up with the alarm, then close my eyes again because I'm not ready to get up and sleep another hour, I hate myself all day. If it snows heavily and ices over so it's impossible to get to the mailbox, and I don't have a shovel since I moved in down here, I'm no good for...
    MaryJanine MaryJanine
    61-65, F
    Mar 13, 2013

    Cinderella

    School shopping with my fam today, my mom asked me to see if any more parking spaces were available up ahead so when I found one I stood in it. Some guy in a truck came around the bend saw me standing in the space and told me to move. Long story short he didnt care about the car...
    undeniablyMe undeniablyMe
    26-30, F
    Aug 18, 2013

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