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I Hate Myself Sometimes

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    I always mess up everything.

    I think too far ahead, I'm too hopeful.. but at the same time you say I'm too pessimistic.. it's either I'm too pessimistic or I'm too optimistic. you want me happy yet you knock me when I try to think of a future with you in it. but when I think what if we so not make it you...
    Caitlinsmith1636 Caitlinsmith1636 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    renguard renguard 18-21, M Apr 3, 2015

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    Negative Belief System: Trauma based

    Beliefs "I am a flawed, worthless person" TRUTH: I am a creation of God and worthy of love and respect! "No one will love me as I truly am" TRUTH: I have strengths and weaknesses like everyone else. I can be authentic, which is the key to connection with others. "I must...
    MostArdently MostArdently 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 16, 2014

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    I hate myself sometimes.

    I try not to. But when everyone keeps pushing me to the side, not having time for me when I really just need someone to be there, or dismiss my thoughts and feelings... well, it seems like they arn't seeing anything of value in me. How can I find meaning when people treat me as...
    rhyme27 rhyme27 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 3

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    Welp... Here's another mental breakdown.

    . Today isn't the best day... I was in the bathroom brushing my teeth when I just looked in the mirror and realized how ugly I am. All my flaws. Hating myself because I will never have the perfect body, and yes.. There is a perfect body. My friends don't even really even like...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jan 23, 2015

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    I made my friend angry

    because I told her a fact now she won't even look at my best friend and I during class. she keeps using her phone and I don't know what to do because a lot of things change when she came into our (my BFF and mine) lives. we love her as a friend and we don't want to change that...
    RebelFighter RebelFighter 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 7, 2015

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    This week has been long

    and horrible, and IDK if it'll get better. I have been upset about my body and myself. I was doing great in accepting myself and trying to be ok with myself, but i don't know what is happening. I have felt like purging and not eating and I hate it but it has just been on my mind...
    WhyWasIStupid WhyWasIStupid 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 22, 2015

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    Why Am I Like This Now ??

    I am starting to change ... I'm not that happy , cheerful person I used to be . Instead I'm the exact opposite . My friends are slowly pushing me away .. They don't even acknowledge my presence anymore . Maybe it is my fault , I should pretend to be happy right ? I should put on...
    shineeemoon shineeemoon 13-15 Jul 20, 2012

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    I feel bad again. Looking at my past life I see

    nothing but stupidity and ignorance from a dumb kid. I am always saying that is what I hate the most, but that is what I am... To this point my life has been nothing else than me being drunk and hurting myself and my parents. And recently I am thinking about suicide again :( I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 16, 2015

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    Honestly explaining myself to someone is the

    hardest thing, because nobody understands. I'm not like anyone In my family, my family always just thinks I'm a defective child who needs help. My dad doesn't believe in depression, he says it's an excuse to lay in bed and do nothing. My mom doesn't understand it, she...
    bflyboo14 bflyboo14 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    I look at myself with disgust.

    I can't stand the darker pieces of myself that I cover up to my best ability. The cruel half of me that hurts others. The me who has an inferiority complex with the two really attractive family members. Out of the three I'm always the last option it's not like it's their fault...
    blaze96 blaze96 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 17, 2015

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    I've failed... I didn't turn in a project in

    person that I had actually done... It's 10% of my grade... @&*%... I've lost all motivation to keep up my grades... Heck, I don't even need that class! The other ones are more important than that one! What the heck... Ps: Procrastination can kill one [s' motivation...]
    Sil833 Sil833 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 30, 2015

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    Not my looks but my distructive personality

    that I got I ruin everything that is good. I throw it away and cry afterwords and chase those or that who or what is wrong for me. A part of me just wants to have fun but another part wants him back so much. The guy who I met a few years ago who was happy. I honk his ex really...
    Blueberrybliss Blueberrybliss 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 6, 2015

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    I hate my inability to act.

    Every time I think about "that" I know that I have to do something before it's too late but the fear and anxiety always overwhelms me and in the end I do nothing. I use my hobbies to get my mind off of it and end up wasting time. Everyone has a talent of sorts, and I guess mine...
    CloakedStranger CloakedStranger 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 7, 2015

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    https://www.youtube.com/watch?

    v=ystcJh3HwkI I just want you to watch and think about it.It is not a long boring video i swear
    ghostdolly ghostdolly 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 2

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 11, 2015

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    I hate myself for giving up n

    for letting my mind take over, i hate not being in control of my emotions n thoughts n i hate how wound up it makes me. i feel like its a constant battle between me n bpd n im so sick of it!!!!
    LJglasgow LJglasgow 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 8, 2015

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    I don't exactly hate myself

    as a person, but I hate the fact that I have a really hard time connecting to new people.
    LittleMidnight LittleMidnight 18-21 1 Response Sep 7, 2015

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    Sometimes I feel like

    if I wasn't part of the queer or kink community that I'd hate myself less and not feel like I'm just a problem for everyone.
    EmSiren EmSiren 26-30, F Dec 30, 2015

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    I hate myself so much sometimes there's time I

    talk forever and I just don't shut up I don't know what to say and I say the wrong thing. As well as me ******* being annoying text my friend so much times. I don't know what to do. 😔😔😔😢😢
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 7, 2015

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    Started a new college,

    sit alone at class everyday , spend my breaks alone. When its time for group project, I let everyone choose their grooup members first. When they are done, I just tell the teacher to put my name in the group where they are lack members I wanted to talk to my classmates and...
    Sal1603 Sal1603 18-21, F 1 Response May 20, 2015

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    bankzz bankzz 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 20, 2015

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    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 20, 2014

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    People look stare and laugh at me I look at

    myself all I see is ugly and fat maybe that's because that's what everyone has said for 17 years and 8months maybe I'm just starting to believe what's said Gym class is the worst they stare and laugh at me while we run lap or do a stupid workout because I'm not like them I...
    Gabbytheartist Gabbytheartist 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 23, 2015

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    I Hate Myself.

    I hate how im so self conscious. I hate that I always feel alone even when I have people around me. I hate how fast my mood changes. I hate that I cant communicate my feelings to my boyfriend or my family. I hate being fat. I hate wanting to but not being able to. I hate not...
    Difficultme Difficultme 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2013

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    When I meet someone who has (especially) a

    feature, for example a really cute, pointed nose, I get soo jealous and I feel like an ugly piece of **** because my nose is kinda long and tips downward slightly when I smile or laugh.
    Eninferno Eninferno 13-15, F Aug 24, 2015

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    I wonder where my happiness went.

    it was just here...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Sep 10, 2015

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    Why do I have to keep letting myself down all

    the time? I work so hard to keep everything together, I've been happy and content all day then I had to ruin it. I'm such an idiot. I seriously hate myself right now.
    lovetodraw19 lovetodraw19 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 15, 2015

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    Whatever I do, its wrong.

    I'll never be smart enough to satisfy myself-- I'm never smart enough, never, never. . . And I'm not kind enough, I'm certainly not funny. My thoughts I despise, for they feel so empty, so worthless. I can't keep a conversation going if I am to be true to myself, if a self there...
    Lalalalovely Lalalalovely 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 7, 2015

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    Have you ever loved someone

    so much you'd give an arm for? Not the expression no, literally give an arm for. When they know they're your heart and you know you are their armor, and you would destroy anyone who would try to harm her? But what happens when karma turns right around and bites you? And...
    Yourguardianangel9613 Yourguardianangel9613 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 14, 2014

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    Errrrrrrrrrrrrr I dunno,

    I always **** up -_-
    PopulaceInOne PopulaceInOne 18-21, M 4 Responses Dec 23, 2014

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    I hate myself. But I smile an laugh.

    I donn't want people to know I'm unhappy. The people in my school are judgmental. If I said I'm not happy, they think I'm depressed. Life seems to have a lot of downs then ups right now 😔
    hockeytho121 hockeytho121 16-17, F Mar 25, 2014

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    Everyday is the same damn thing.

    My life has become nothing more than work. Mind-numbing, unfullfilling work. I want more than this. I think I know what I want for my future, but I don't feel that I will ever get there. It feels like I'm trying to wade through quicksand.
    Bethh96 Bethh96 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 8, 2015

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    My Dad.

    I'm such an idiot why do I keep doing this my dad loves me and he loves all of us but I keep feeling so uncomfortable around him and I sometimes don't like it when he is around I really don't know what the hell is wrong with me I can't even like my own dad? what is going on with...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jan 28, 2013

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    Everyone does at some point,

    I'm sure. I often look at my negative side more than the positive side, I guess that's why I lean toward self hate.
    LikeICare13 LikeICare13 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    I know it's bad to compare myself to my friends

    but I can't help it. They have everything I don't. They're beautiful, smart, funny, and confident. And I'm not. So I just go home and cry until I can't because I'm trying to be those things but I can't
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 1, 2015

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    I hate how I look. I hate how Im weak.

    I hate how Im alone. I hate myself.
    vicki90 vicki90 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 16, 2015

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    When I say I hate myself,

    that is a little stretched, because I love how I am with people, I have compassion for everyone. I love how sensitive I am to others, but what I do hate, is my physical appearance, when I look into the mirror it's very painful to see, because it's an image that doesn't feel...
    Kailey76 Kailey76 36-40, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Hello there I do hate myself sometimes.

    Most of the times its in the evening or at night. But before that let me explain some stuff. Right now I'm 18 years old. I finished a degree in Social Science without much trouble and that's the problem. When I went to school (elementary and secondary school), I never had to...
    Neroy Neroy 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 17, 2015

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    Hate Myself

    When I wake up some mornings I really dont want to go on. I hate everything about myself. Especially thoughts that go on in my head. I find it so hard to deal with emotions especially when people kind caring and show you warmth. Due to things in my past love hugs etc are...
    angel7 angel7 41-45 1 Response Apr 3, 2008

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    You know that moment

    when you and your friend are having a little fun and then you say something you shouldn't of? Well yeah that just happened.... You know this is probably why I lose a lot of my friends.... I hate myself sometimes, cuz I say things I shouldn't of said. Yeah I know he should be man...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 20, 2014

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    %$#@!!!

    There are a lot of times where I absolutely cannot stand who I am. My mind starts racing and I become so overwhelmed and anxious with self-loathing. It's not like hating somebody else... you can always try to avoid people you despise, but when you really feel like you hate...
    paperalias paperalias 22-25, F 7 Responses Apr 23, 2008

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    I hate myself always.

    I find it hard to believe that this isn't the normal state of being. But I am an exceptionally terrible person
    username17452 username17452 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 7, 2015

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    I hate that I'm so socially awkward.

    I just can't seem to relax at all.
    Darkli Darkli 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 7, 2015

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    I act that I am strong enough to face challenges

    that comes in my life but the truth is I'm really weak inside....
    Ayessa30 Ayessa30 26-30, F Sep 7, 2015

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