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I Hate Myself Sometimes

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    I hate that I bring up the ******* past with

    him. I hate myself everyday I do that to him. Ugh why can I be a damn normal girlfriend and love him right.
    buggalue00 buggalue00 13-15, F Apr 7

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    Like right now. I'm tired

    and I just want to sleep. I feel like nothing really matters. I feel so stupid.
    namelessentity namelessentity 13-15 1 Response Mar 22

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    Welp... Here's another mental breakdown.

    . Today isn't the best day... I was in the bathroom brushing my teeth when I just looked in the mirror and realized how ugly I am. All my flaws. Hating myself because I will never have the perfect body, and yes.. There is a perfect body. My friends don't even really even like...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 6 Responses Jan 23

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    SpiritOfIzanagi SpiritOfIzanagi 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 11

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    I Hate Myself.

    I hate how im so self conscious. I hate that I always feel alone even when I have people around me. I hate how fast my mood changes. I hate that I cant communicate my feelings to my boyfriend or my family. I hate being fat. I hate wanting to but not being able to. I hate not...
    Difficultme Difficultme 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2013

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    %$#@!!!

    There are a lot of times where I absolutely cannot stand who I am. My mind starts racing and I become so overwhelmed and anxious with self-loathing. It's not like hating somebody else... you can always try to avoid people you despise, but when you really feel like you hate...
    paperalias paperalias 22-25, F 7 Responses Apr 23, 2008

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    Why Am I Like This Now ??

    I am starting to change ... I'm not that happy , cheerful person I used to be . Instead I'm the exact opposite . My friends are slowly pushing me away .. They don't even acknowledge my presence anymore . Maybe it is my fault , I should pretend to be happy right ? I should put on...
    shineeemoon shineeemoon 13-15 Jul 20, 2012

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    im jus confused. my mom doesnt trust me.

    nor my aunt or grandma, they think im gonna end up pregnant at 16 (not judging) &' they pretty much use my past mistakes as weapons on me. using words like "u shudd b tha last one.." or "i wuddnt talk if i were u.." "based off all u been doing.." like it juss sux. &' my mom is...
    pizzababyxo pizzababyxo 13-15, F Apr 6

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    sometimes I'm content with being

    who I am. but sometimes I question myself why am I like that. why did I even do that. and why do I always end up ruining things I like. The bone was in my hands already but still I let it go. seriously what is wrong with me . .... unlucky dou *sigh* sien
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 16

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    Hate Myself

    When I wake up some mornings I really dont want to go on. I hate everything about myself. Especially thoughts that go on in my head. I find it so hard to deal with emotions especially when people kind caring and show you warmth. Due to things in my past love hugs etc are...
    angel7 angel7 41-45 1 Response Apr 3, 2008

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    I think everyone does sometimes.

    But then, I think that if I had the opportunity to change anything, I wouldn't because one little fix could change everything about yourself. Sometimes I don't like me, but there's a bunch of things I do like about myself. So I have to focus on those things rather than those I...
    taylor468 taylor468 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 26, 2014

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    I'm in a wheelchair (have been my whole life)

    and I hate the way I look and honestly it makes me want to cry. I don't know if I'll ever feel attractive or my intimate life will be. I've also had a lot of surgeries and I'm insecure. People tell me "your amazing" but they don't understand ...😢
    cuteshaybay cuteshaybay 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 27, 2014

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    Have you ever loved someone

    so much you'd give an arm for? Not the expression no, literally give an arm for. When they know they're your heart and you know you are their armor, and you would destroy anyone who would try to harm her? But what happens when karma turns right around and bites you? And...
    Yourguardianangel9613 Yourguardianangel9613 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 14, 2014

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    Those Times

    society just hurts me so much. i feel so lonely every time but no one listens. I try to say it, talk about it but they just don't understand. I hate everything about myself sometimes i just wish i would die. every time, every night i cry myself to sleep and think about how much...
    paulinav paulinav 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 30, 2013

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    Trying to leave this tendency to come down upon

    myself when something does not go well for one reason or another. I know it all comes down to self-esteem and it's hard to build up after so many years of it being low. I can love/respect everyone else, but never myself.
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 23, 2013

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    I hate myself a lot. I make my mom really mad a

    lot, I'm mean to my little sister, and I make the wrong choices. I wish it could all be over...
    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F 2 Responses May 16, 2014

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    I sometimes hate myself

    because I'm a lesbian. I was bullied really badly when I was younger because people suspected me. Now it's a lot more accepted at my school, but I still feel ashamed. I can't change myself, I can't hide myself, but sometimes it's hard to embrace that I'm different.
    Boo37 Boo37 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 26, 2014

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    Zeire Zeire 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 1, 2014

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    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 20, 2014

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    My crush hates me. I don't know why

    or how, but I know it's because I'm an *******. I'm such a f*cked up person, and I felt something like this would happen. I felt that I would drive him away someday because i dont know how to control my emotions when I'm heated. We haven't even talked that much, but he must've...
    WinterIncandescence WinterIncandescence 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    Errrrrrrrrrrrrr I dunno,

    I always **** up -_-
    EmbraceTheEVIL EmbraceTheEVIL 18-21, M 4 Responses Dec 23, 2014

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    I hate how I look. I hate how Im weak.

    I hate how Im alone. I hate myself.
    vicki90 vicki90 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    I am usually calm and composed.

    But this time I was just so angry. I let my emotions get the better of me....**** me...
    loklambert loklambert 16-17, M 2 Responses Feb 20

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    I always seem to annoy some peeps in sum way

    or anotha. If I'm trying to explain summink, I end up annoying them, if I try 2 b nice, I end up being even more mean. I'm just not the peep I dreamed of being as a young little cute kid. I can't ever say something widdout annoying them and I can't ever think of anything nice...
    HermioneGlasse HermioneGlasse 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    I hate being me. I'm

    so tired. I wish I didn't hate my self but I do.
    TeenagerInPain TeenagerInPain 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    I relive every moment of the day

    before I go to sleep and analyze all the times I said or did something stupid. I do this until I hate myself.
    magickmegs magickmegs 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    So, I'm tired of life in general.

    I look on here and all of these younger people accept themselves. Fine...fine. But I'm f.ucking 22 years old and I still am having problems being gay. I live in a rural area first of all at f.ucking home still. Dropped out of college being depressed and S.hit Imagining my hand...
    Pride49 Pride49 22-25, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    MissSara13 MissSara13 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    I have this friend. Or.

    ..ex friend I guess as we stopped talking. We at first got along really well and liked similar things but soon it became apparent he wanted more than I could give. He told me that he needed someone to make happy in order for him to be happy and I believe he wanted me to be that...
    Catherdra Catherdra 22-25, F Mar 27

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    I am not mentally down right now but this

    reminds me of the time when I was so down https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qFchl7eTkPY
    FallingWind FallingWind 18-21, F Mar 18

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    Ungrateful

    I hate myself quite intensly a lot of the time. It has been like this for years. That little voice of self doubt inside my head often tells me what I think of myself and generally expletives are used. If I look at myself in a mirror my first reaction is disgust and when times are...
    WyldHoney WyldHoney 31-35, F 6 Responses May 4, 2008

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    I don't know why sometimes I do sometimes I

    don't . When I'm alone it's so sad and boring.
    Adamsworld Adamsworld 18-21, M Mar 26, 2014

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    Who I thought was my bestfriend in the entire

    world, now hates me. All I did was try and look out for her and she doesn't understand. If I tell her straight up how the guy she's in love with acts, it ain't my fault. I ******* loved this girl like family and she just goes off cause I got a lil mad. This guy goes around...
    IDontEvenKnowAnymore1 IDontEvenKnowAnymore1 13-15, M Dec 22, 2014

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    I can be mean,cruel,ruthless,

    and a ***** sometimes. I mean I'm a mistake after all. Then I can be sweet,nice,caring,loving,passionate, but it makes me feel fake. I'm nothing but a mistake that's careless and screw everything up. I'm not wants I don't belong here on this planet. I was born in the wrong time...
    Idiedinside Idiedinside 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    Not all the time but sometimes.

    I always make my friends mad and I hate it as hard as I try they still get mad.. I always f.uck up. And I hate it. God I'm such a bad friend. I have ADHD and I get a little to hyper and make my friends mad.. Love always, Alexander
    crazyhyperkid crazyhyperkid 18-21, M Feb 17, 2014

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    Whatever I do/try, I cannot keep a lasting

    relationship with people, friends OR boyfriends. This one guy started texting me a few weeks ago and he'd call me beautiful, tell me I'm perfect, and just lead me on. He'd send me hearts and kisses... well anyway, once we hung out, as soon as we went home afterwards he texted...
    shlumbug shlumbug 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2014

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    I hate myself for loving you.

    I am definitely done with you. I was stupid for giving you my attention and time. What a waste. I realized you aren't worth it and you aren't the one. I have no regrets.
    Togepi07 Togepi07 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 14

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    This week has been long

    and horrible, and IDK if it'll get better. I have been upset about my body and myself. I was doing great in accepting myself and trying to be ok with myself, but i don't know what is happening. I have felt like purging and not eating and I hate it but it has just been on my mind...
    WhyWasIStupid WhyWasIStupid 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 22

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    Sometimes I just have those moments

    where a little voice in my head says "you're not good enough quit now" and the voice always sounds like my biological dad which makes it that much more frightening. I cut myself for years and quit cold turkey when my ex threatened to leave me. I still have my blade and sometimes...
    arirose43 arirose43 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 8

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    I just had my abortion last Tuesday

    and I feel so bad I feel sad, hate myself. I regret my decision Idk if it was the right choice. I just stay home all the time I only leave to go to work and at that I don't even wanna be there. I decided to Google support groups and I found this site hope it will help me...
    princessangiev13 princessangiev13 22-25, F 2 Responses May 19, 2014

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    So I've asked my boyfriend

    for sex 12 times, anal 18 and asked if I could give him a blow job 13 times over the last 3 days and still isn't "in the mood". Maybe I'm just not attractive to him anymore? :( Never gone 3 days without anything before.
    LittleBeelzebub LittleBeelzebub 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 24, 2014

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    When I meditate yesterday I can't help

    but concentrate on the physical pain I felt when guilt takes over all feeling and overwhelms me. I wished during meditation whenever I hurt someone to feel these pain. The headache, chest pain all of it to make me remember not to hurt other people's feeling ever again. I wish...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 3 Responses May 15, 2014

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    Negative Belief System: Trauma based

    Beliefs "I am a flawed, worthless person" TRUTH: I am a creation of God and worthy of love and respect! "No one will love me as I truly am" TRUTH: I have strengths and weaknesses like everyone else. I can be authentic, which is the key to connection with others. "I must...
    MostArdently MostArdently 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 16, 2014

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    Did I just agree to meet the narcissist?

    Why?Why?Why when I have the impulse control of a dog? Someone please hit me over the head.Somebody kill me before that time. And what is the worst is that,after all this,I liked his status for something awesome happening in his life. I did though in our chat told him to hear...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    My Dad.

    I'm such an idiot why do I keep doing this my dad loves me and he loves all of us but I keep feeling so uncomfortable around him and I sometimes don't like it when he is around I really don't know what the hell is wrong with me I can't even like my own dad? what is going on with...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jan 28, 2013

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    Yea. Sometimes you just wanna get punched in

    the face because you're so stupid sometimes. That's how I feel right now. So dumb.
    Euphoricbunnymaster Euphoricbunnymaster 18-21, F 1 Response