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I Hate Myself Sometimes

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    lol even my mom feels bad

    for anyone who dates me
    cartoonblankets cartoonblankets 18-21, M 1 Response May 8

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    So I've asked my boyfriend

    for sex 12 times, anal 18 and asked if I could give him a blow job 13 times over the last 3 days and still isn't "in the mood". Maybe I'm just not attractive to him anymore? :( Never gone 3 days without anything before.
    LittleBeelzebub LittleBeelzebub 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 24, 2014

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    renguard renguard 16-17, M Apr 3

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    SpiritOfOrpheus SpiritOfOrpheus 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 11

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    I try as hard as I can to make those I love

    and admire proud of me, but every day in some way I'm told "You're not good enough" or "you're not attractive at all." I try to prove I work hard, show people how much I'm trying but I am always scolded for not trying hard enough. I believe in myself to be good, that I am...
    SomethingThatWorks SomethingThatWorks 18-21, F 1 Response May 5

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    I have this friend. Or.

    ..ex friend I guess as we stopped talking. We at first got along really well and liked similar things but soon it became apparent he wanted more than I could give. He told me that he needed someone to make happy in order for him to be happy and I believe he wanted me to be that...
    Catherdra Catherdra 22-25, F Mar 27

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    I feel ugly. My mom and dad say i'm pretty.

    My I don't think I am. I'm thick--curvy hips and legs, round cheeks, "full" arms... but I want to be skinny. most of the girls in my grade are all thin and model-material. It's driving me nuts. I love my FACE, though. But without my glasses on, people think i'm Japanese. I hate...
    secretyo101 secretyo101 13-15, F Aug 11

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    Catho Catho 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 16

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    I hate being me. I'm

    so tired. I wish I didn't hate my self but I do.
    Valentine244 Valentine244 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    I hate myself and what I do to people.

    I hate this body that I'm in. I hate my words. I hate my actions. I hate my feelings. Sometimes I wish I could be someone else, but then I realize I would hate them too. Because it would still be me.
    ThatAwkwardGuy ThatAwkwardGuy 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 18

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    KrissiaGeramie KrissiaGeramie 18-21, F Jun 11

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    I hate myself a lot. I make my mom really mad a

    lot, I'm mean to my little sister, and I make the wrong choices. I wish it could all be over...
    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F 2 Responses May 16, 2014

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    I sometimes hate myself

    because I'm a lesbian. I was bullied really badly when I was younger because people suspected me. Now it's a lot more accepted at my school, but I still feel ashamed. I can't change myself, I can't hide myself, but sometimes it's hard to embrace that I'm different.
    Boo37 Boo37 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 26, 2014

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    I find hate to be quite fueling

    and productive when it comes a dominant force in my life. After the crash of course haha
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 25

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    I've been having a hard time finding any kind

    of feelings about anything lately. Nothing excites me anymore. Life just never seems to move forward to me. I'm mostly the same person that I was around ten years ago. Like a stone never growing and barely changing. I'm looking for a therapist to help me move forward. I don't...
    ianbrewman ianbrewman 26-30, T 2 Responses May 14

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    When I meditate yesterday I can't help

    but concentrate on the physical pain I felt when guilt takes over all feeling and overwhelms me. I wished during meditation whenever I hurt someone to feel these pain. The headache, chest pain all of it to make me remember not to hurt other people's feeling ever again. I wish...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 15, 2014

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    cartoonblankets cartoonblankets 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 27

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    Hate Myself

    When I wake up some mornings I really dont want to go on. I hate everything about myself. Especially thoughts that go on in my head. I find it so hard to deal with emotions especially when people kind caring and show you warmth. Due to things in my past love hugs etc are...
    angel7 angel7 41-45 1 Response Apr 3, 2008

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    im jus confused. my mom doesnt trust me.

    nor my aunt or grandma, they think im gonna end up pregnant at 16 (not judging) &' they pretty much use my past mistakes as weapons on me. using words like "u shudd b tha last one.." or "i wuddnt talk if i were u.." "based off all u been doing.." like it juss sux. &' my mom is...
    pizzababyxo pizzababyxo 13-15, F Apr 6

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    Why Am I Like This Now ??

    I am starting to change ... I'm not that happy , cheerful person I used to be . Instead I'm the exact opposite . My friends are slowly pushing me away .. They don't even acknowledge my presence anymore . Maybe it is my fault , I should pretend to be happy right ? I should put on...
    shineeemoon shineeemoon 13-15 Jul 20, 2012

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    This week has been long

    and horrible, and IDK if it'll get better. I have been upset about my body and myself. I was doing great in accepting myself and trying to be ok with myself, but i don't know what is happening. I have felt like purging and not eating and I hate it but it has just been on my mind...
    WhyWasIStupid WhyWasIStupid 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 22

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    You know that moment

    when you and your friend are having a little fun and then you say something you shouldn't of? Well yeah that just happened.... You know this is probably why I lose a lot of my friends.... I hate myself sometimes, cuz I say things I shouldn't of said. Yeah I know he should be man...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 20, 2014

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    sometimes I'm content with being

    who I am. but sometimes I question myself why am I like that. why did I even do that. and why do I always end up ruining things I like. The bone was in my hands already but still I let it go. seriously what is wrong with me . .... unlucky dou *sigh* sien
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 16

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    I always seem to annoy some peeps in sum way

    or anotha. If I'm trying to explain summink, I end up annoying them, if I try 2 b nice, I end up being even more mean. I'm just not the peep I dreamed of being as a young little cute kid. I can't ever say something widdout annoying them and I can't ever think of anything nice...
    PenelopePotter PenelopePotter 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    My crush hates me. I don't know why

    or how, but I know it's because I'm an *******. I'm such a f*cked up person, and I felt something like this would happen. I felt that I would drive him away someday because i dont know how to control my emotions when I'm heated. We haven't even talked that much, but he must've...
    WinterIncandescence WinterIncandescence 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    Zeire Zeire 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 1, 2014

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    Most people don't like me in school

    and and my parents don't get me,
    SilverMoony SilverMoony 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 2

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    Those Times

    society just hurts me so much. i feel so lonely every time but no one listens. I try to say it, talk about it but they just don't understand. I hate everything about myself sometimes i just wish i would die. every time, every night i cry myself to sleep and think about how much...
    paulinav paulinav 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 30, 2013

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    *smashes face into keyboard

    until I'm expired*
    cartoonblankets cartoonblankets 18-21, M May 7

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    %$#@!!!

    There are a lot of times where I absolutely cannot stand who I am. My mind starts racing and I become so overwhelmed and anxious with self-loathing. It's not like hating somebody else... you can always try to avoid people you despise, but when you really feel like you hate...
    paperalias paperalias 22-25, F 7 Responses Apr 23, 2008

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    I just had my abortion last Tuesday

    and I feel so bad I feel sad, hate myself. I regret my decision Idk if it was the right choice. I just stay home all the time I only leave to go to work and at that I don't even wanna be there. I decided to Google support groups and I found this site hope it will help me...
    princessangiev13 princessangiev13 26-30, F 2 Responses May 19, 2014

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    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 20, 2014

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    So I haven't used this in ages,

    so I'm sorry if this is a load of crap, but I need to vent. Now I have an amazing boyfriend and I love him very much. But I am an idiot. There's a guy I slept with once in the past who is a really good friend of ours, and recently we started getting close - as friends. But...
    charliosborne charliosborne 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 7

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    Why do I have to keep letting myself down all

    the time? I work so hard to keep everything together, I've been happy and content all day then I had to ruin it. I'm such an idiot. I seriously hate myself right now.
    lovetodraw19 lovetodraw19 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 15

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    I hate the decision I made on what to do tonight

    because it involved lying to two people. I'm so disturbed with myself that I can't sleep. Nothing I can do now. It's 2:30 am. Damage done. Lie told. Explanation will be asked for and another lie will follow. I'm a bad liar so it will be hard to believe. Everyone's asleep except...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 8

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    Whatever I do/try, I cannot keep a lasting

    relationship with people, friends OR boyfriends. This one guy started texting me a few weeks ago and he'd call me beautiful, tell me I'm perfect, and just lead me on. He'd send me hearts and kisses... well anyway, once we hung out, as soon as we went home afterwards he texted...
    shlumbug shlumbug 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2014

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    When I meet someone who has (especially) a

    feature, for example a really cute, pointed nose, I get soo jealous and I feel like an ugly piece of **** because my nose is kinda long and tips downward slightly when I smile or laugh.
    Eninferno Eninferno 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    So, I'm tired of life in general.

    I look on here and all of these younger people accept themselves. Fine...fine. But I'm f.ucking 22 years old and I still am having problems being gay. I live in a rural area first of all at f.ucking home still. Dropped out of college being depressed and S.hit Imagining my hand...
    Pride49 Pride49 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 22

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    Trying to leave this tendency to come down upon

    myself when something does not go well for one reason or another. I know it all comes down to self-esteem and it's hard to build up after so many years of it being low. I can love/respect everyone else, but never myself.
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 23, 2013

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    Started a new college,

    sit alone at class everyday , spend my breaks alone. When its time for group project, I let everyone choose their grooup members first. When they are done, I just tell the teacher to put my name in the group where they are lack members I wanted to talk to my classmates and...
    Sal1603 Sal1603 18-21, F 1 Response May 20

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    Have you ever loved someone

    so much you'd give an arm for? Not the expression no, literally give an arm for. When they know they're your heart and you know you are their armor, and you would destroy anyone who would try to harm her? But what happens when karma turns right around and bites you? And...
    Yourguardianangel9613 Yourguardianangel9613 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 14, 2014

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    I think everyone does sometimes.

    But then, I think that if I had the opportunity to change anything, I wouldn't because one little fix could change everything about yourself. Sometimes I don't like me, but there's a bunch of things I do like about myself. So I have to focus on those things rather than those I...
    taylor468 taylor468 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 26, 2014

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    I hate that I bring up the ******* past with

    him. I hate myself everyday I do that to him. Ugh why can I be a damn normal girlfriend and love him right.
    buggalue00 buggalue00 13-15, F Apr 7

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    cartoonblankets cartoonblankets 18-21, M Jul 20

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    I'm in a wheelchair (have been my whole life)

    and I hate the way I look and honestly it makes me want to cry. I don't know if I'll ever feel attractive or my intimate life will be. I've also had a lot of surgeries and I'm insecure. People tell me "your amazing" but they don't understand ...😢
    cuteshaybay cuteshaybay 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 27, 2014

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