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I Hate Myself Sometimes

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    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 20, 2014

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    Did I just agree to meet the narcissist?

    Why?Why?Why when I have the impulse control of a dog? Someone please hit me over the head.Somebody kill me before that time. And what is the worst is that,after all this,I liked his status for something awesome happening in his life. I did though in our chat told him to hear...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F Apr 21

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    Welp... Here's another mental breakdown.

    . Today isn't the best day... I was in the bathroom brushing my teeth when I just looked in the mirror and realized how ugly I am. All my flaws. Hating myself because I will never have the perfect body, and yes.. There is a perfect body. My friends don't even really even like...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 23

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    I hate the decision I made on what to do tonight

    because it involved lying to two people. I'm so disturbed with myself that I can't sleep. Nothing I can do now. It's 2:30 am. Damage done. Lie told. Explanation will be asked for and another lie will follow. I'm a bad liar so it will be hard to believe. Everyone's asleep except...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 8

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    %$#@!!!

    There are a lot of times where I absolutely cannot stand who I am. My mind starts racing and I become so overwhelmed and anxious with self-loathing. It's not like hating somebody else... you can always try to avoid people you despise, but when you really feel like you hate...
    paperalias paperalias 22-25, F 7 Responses Apr 23, 2008

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    SpiritOfOrpheus SpiritOfOrpheus 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 11

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    Isn't it the most frustrating feeling,

    laying in your bed looking at pictures of people who are more successful, beautiful and talented than you. It just drives me into this pit of self loath that I can't even try to get out of because it's what I want, I want to be like them, I want to look like them and though it...
    LittlePrincess01 LittlePrincess01 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 28, 2014

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    I find hate to be quite fueling

    and productive when it comes a dominant force in my life. After the crash of course haha
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 25

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    Ungrateful

    I hate myself quite intensly a lot of the time. It has been like this for years. That little voice of self doubt inside my head often tells me what I think of myself and generally expletives are used. If I look at myself in a mirror my first reaction is disgust and when times are...
    WyldHoney WyldHoney 31-35, F 6 Responses May 4, 2008

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    lol even my mom feels bad

    for anyone who dates me
    cartoonblankets cartoonblankets 18-21, M 1 Response May 8

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    My Dad.

    I'm such an idiot why do I keep doing this my dad loves me and he loves all of us but I keep feeling so uncomfortable around him and I sometimes don't like it when he is around I really don't know what the hell is wrong with me I can't even like my own dad? what is going on with...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jan 28, 2013

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    renguard renguard 16-17, M Apr 3

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    I only hope that one day,

    I'll be someone I don't feel obligated to hate. That's my goal in life, to do more good than harm, and to give more than I take.
    justalittlewallflower justalittlewallflower 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 11

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    I'm in a wheelchair (have been my whole life)

    and I hate the way I look and honestly it makes me want to cry. I don't know if I'll ever feel attractive or my intimate life will be. I've also had a lot of surgeries and I'm insecure. People tell me "your amazing" but they don't understand ...😢
    cuteshaybay cuteshaybay 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 27, 2014

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    KrissiaGeramie KrissiaGeramie 18-21, F Jun 11

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    I think everyone does sometimes.

    But then, I think that if I had the opportunity to change anything, I wouldn't because one little fix could change everything about yourself. Sometimes I don't like me, but there's a bunch of things I do like about myself. So I have to focus on those things rather than those I...
    taylor468 taylor468 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 26, 2014

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    Trying to leave this tendency to come down upon

    myself when something does not go well for one reason or another. I know it all comes down to self-esteem and it's hard to build up after so many years of it being low. I can love/respect everyone else, but never myself.
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 23, 2013

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    Those Times

    society just hurts me so much. i feel so lonely every time but no one listens. I try to say it, talk about it but they just don't understand. I hate everything about myself sometimes i just wish i would die. every time, every night i cry myself to sleep and think about how much...
    paulinav paulinav 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 30, 2013

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    Why Am I Like This Now ??

    I am starting to change ... I'm not that happy , cheerful person I used to be . Instead I'm the exact opposite . My friends are slowly pushing me away .. They don't even acknowledge my presence anymore . Maybe it is my fault , I should pretend to be happy right ? I should put on...
    shineeemoon shineeemoon 13-15 Jul 20, 2012

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    sometimes I'm content with being

    who I am. but sometimes I question myself why am I like that. why did I even do that. and why do I always end up ruining things I like. The bone was in my hands already but still I let it go. seriously what is wrong with me . .... unlucky dou *sigh* sien
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 16

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    Whatever I do/try, I cannot keep a lasting

    relationship with people, friends OR boyfriends. This one guy started texting me a few weeks ago and he'd call me beautiful, tell me I'm perfect, and just lead me on. He'd send me hearts and kisses... well anyway, once we hung out, as soon as we went home afterwards he texted...
    shlumbug shlumbug 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2014

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    When I meditate yesterday I can't help

    but concentrate on the physical pain I felt when guilt takes over all feeling and overwhelms me. I wished during meditation whenever I hurt someone to feel these pain. The headache, chest pain all of it to make me remember not to hurt other people's feeling ever again. I wish...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 15, 2014

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    Just had a moment today

    where I'm hating myself even more. police was called on me. after talking with several people and even the officer, I did nothing wrong. but I still feel like a failure and should have done certain things differently. I just wish I would get over this self hate over a mistake. I...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F Jun 20

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    I hate that I bring up the ******* past with

    him. I hate myself everyday I do that to him. Ugh why can I be a damn normal girlfriend and love him right.
    buggalue00 buggalue00 13-15, F Apr 7

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    Catho Catho 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 16

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    So, I'm tired of life in general.

    I look on here and all of these younger people accept themselves. Fine...fine. But I'm f.ucking 22 years old and I still am having problems being gay. I live in a rural area first of all at f.ucking home still. Dropped out of college being depressed and S.hit Imagining my hand...
    Pride49 Pride49 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 22

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    I just had my abortion last Tuesday

    and I feel so bad I feel sad, hate myself. I regret my decision Idk if it was the right choice. I just stay home all the time I only leave to go to work and at that I don't even wanna be there. I decided to Google support groups and I found this site hope it will help me...
    princessangiev13 princessangiev13 26-30, F 2 Responses May 19, 2014

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    mysterion412 mysterion412 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 18

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    So I haven't used this in ages,

    so I'm sorry if this is a load of crap, but I need to vent. Now I have an amazing boyfriend and I love him very much. But I am an idiot. There's a guy I slept with once in the past who is a really good friend of ours, and recently we started getting close - as friends. But...
    charliosborne charliosborne 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 7

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    You know that moment

    when you and your friend are having a little fun and then you say something you shouldn't of? Well yeah that just happened.... You know this is probably why I lose a lot of my friends.... I hate myself sometimes, cuz I say things I shouldn't of said. Yeah I know he should be man...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 20, 2014

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    I don't know why sometimes I do sometimes I

    don't . When I'm alone it's so sad and boring.
    Adamsworld Adamsworld 18-21, M Mar 26, 2014

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    Started a new college,

    sit alone at class everyday , spend my breaks alone. When its time for group project, I let everyone choose their grooup members first. When they are done, I just tell the teacher to put my name in the group where they are lack members I wanted to talk to my classmates and...
    Sal1603 Sal1603 18-21, F 1 Response May 20

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    I try as hard as I can to make those I love

    and admire proud of me, but every day in some way I'm told "You're not good enough" or "you're not attractive at all." I try to prove I work hard, show people how much I'm trying but I am always scolded for not trying hard enough. I believe in myself to be good, that I am...
    SomethingThatWorks SomethingThatWorks 18-21, F 1 Response May 5

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    I Hate Myself.

    I hate how im so self conscious. I hate that I always feel alone even when I have people around me. I hate how fast my mood changes. I hate that I cant communicate my feelings to my boyfriend or my family. I hate being fat. I hate wanting to but not being able to. I hate not...
    Difficultme Difficultme 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2013

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    Why do I have to keep letting myself down all

    the time? I work so hard to keep everything together, I've been happy and content all day then I had to ruin it. I'm such an idiot. I seriously hate myself right now.
    lovetodraw19 lovetodraw19 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 15

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    I have this friend. Or.

    ..ex friend I guess as we stopped talking. We at first got along really well and liked similar things but soon it became apparent he wanted more than I could give. He told me that he needed someone to make happy in order for him to be happy and I believe he wanted me to be that...
    Catherdra Catherdra 22-25, F Mar 27

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    I hate myself. But I smile an laugh.

    I donn't want people to know I'm unhappy. The people in my school are judgmental. If I said I'm not happy, they think I'm depressed. Life seems to have a lot of downs then ups right now 😔
    hockeytho121 hockeytho121 16-17, F Mar 25, 2014

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    im jus confused. my mom doesnt trust me.

    nor my aunt or grandma, they think im gonna end up pregnant at 16 (not judging) &' they pretty much use my past mistakes as weapons on me. using words like "u shudd b tha last one.." or "i wuddnt talk if i were u.." "based off all u been doing.." like it juss sux. &' my mom is...
    pizzababyxo pizzababyxo 13-15, F Apr 6

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    I sometimes hate myself

    because I'm a lesbian. I was bullied really badly when I was younger because people suspected me. Now it's a lot more accepted at my school, but I still feel ashamed. I can't change myself, I can't hide myself, but sometimes it's hard to embrace that I'm different.
    Boo37 Boo37 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 26, 2014

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    I hate being me. I'm

    so tired. I wish I didn't hate my self but I do.
    Valentine244 Valentine244 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    Most people don't like me in school

    and and my parents don't get me,
    SilverMoony SilverMoony 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 2

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    I always seem to annoy some peeps in sum way

    or anotha. If I'm trying to explain summink, I end up annoying them, if I try 2 b nice, I end up being even more mean. I'm just not the peep I dreamed of being as a young little cute kid. I can't ever say something widdout annoying them and I can't ever think of anything nice...
    PenelopePotter PenelopePotter 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    cartoonblankets cartoonblankets 18-21, M Jul 20

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    When I meet someone who has (especially) a

    feature, for example a really cute, pointed nose, I get soo jealous and I feel like an ugly piece of **** because my nose is kinda long and tips downward slightly when I smile or laugh.
    Eninferno Eninferno 13-15, F Aug 24

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    I hate myself and what I do to people.

    I hate this body that I'm in. I hate my words. I hate my actions. I hate my feelings. Sometimes I wish I could be someone else, but then I realize I would hate them too. Because it would still be me.
    ThatAwkwardGuy ThatAwkwardGuy 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 18

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    Zeire Zeire 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 1, 2014

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