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I Hate Myself Sometimes

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    I've been having a hard time finding any kind

    of feelings about anything lately. Nothing excites me anymore. Life just never seems to move forward to me. I'm mostly the same person that I was around ten years ago. Like a stone never growing and barely changing. I'm looking for a therapist to help me move forward. I don't...
    ianbrewman ianbrewman 26-30, T 2 Responses May 14

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    I sometimes hate myself

    because I'm a lesbian. I was bullied really badly when I was younger because people suspected me. Now it's a lot more accepted at my school, but I still feel ashamed. I can't change myself, I can't hide myself, but sometimes it's hard to embrace that I'm different.
    Boo37 Boo37 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 26, 2014

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    Why Am I Like This Now ??

    I am starting to change ... I'm not that happy , cheerful person I used to be . Instead I'm the exact opposite . My friends are slowly pushing me away .. They don't even acknowledge my presence anymore . Maybe it is my fault , I should pretend to be happy right ? I should put on...
    shineeemoon shineeemoon 13-15 Jul 20, 2012

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    Trying to leave this tendency to come down upon

    myself when something does not go well for one reason or another. I know it all comes down to self-esteem and it's hard to build up after so many years of it being low. I can love/respect everyone else, but never myself.
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 23, 2013

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    So I've asked my boyfriend

    for sex 12 times, anal 18 and asked if I could give him a blow job 13 times over the last 3 days and still isn't "in the mood". Maybe I'm just not attractive to him anymore? :( Never gone 3 days without anything before.
    LittleBeelzebub LittleBeelzebub 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 24, 2014

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    Welp... Here's another mental breakdown.

    . Today isn't the best day... I was in the bathroom brushing my teeth when I just looked in the mirror and realized how ugly I am. All my flaws. Hating myself because I will never have the perfect body, and yes.. There is a perfect body. My friends don't even really even like...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 6 Responses Jan 23

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    My Dad.

    I'm such an idiot why do I keep doing this my dad loves me and he loves all of us but I keep feeling so uncomfortable around him and I sometimes don't like it when he is around I really don't know what the hell is wrong with me I can't even like my own dad? what is going on with...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jan 28, 2013

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    I think everyone does sometimes.

    But then, I think that if I had the opportunity to change anything, I wouldn't because one little fix could change everything about yourself. Sometimes I don't like me, but there's a bunch of things I do like about myself. So I have to focus on those things rather than those I...
    taylor468 taylor468 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 26, 2014

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    Like right now. I'm tired

    and I just want to sleep. I feel like nothing really matters. I feel so stupid.
    namelessentity namelessentity 13-15 1 Response Mar 22

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    Hate Myself

    When I wake up some mornings I really dont want to go on. I hate everything about myself. Especially thoughts that go on in my head. I find it so hard to deal with emotions especially when people kind caring and show you warmth. Due to things in my past love hugs etc are...
    angel7 angel7 41-45 1 Response Apr 3, 2008

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    I hate myself for loving you.

    I am definitely done with you. I was stupid for giving you my attention and time. What a waste. I realized you aren't worth it and you aren't the one. I have no regrets.
    Togepi07 Togepi07 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 14

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    %$#@!!!

    There are a lot of times where I absolutely cannot stand who I am. My mind starts racing and I become so overwhelmed and anxious with self-loathing. It's not like hating somebody else... you can always try to avoid people you despise, but when you really feel like you hate...
    paperalias paperalias 22-25, F 7 Responses Apr 23, 2008

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    MissSara13 MissSara13 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 3

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    I relive every moment of the day

    before I go to sleep and analyze all the times I said or did something stupid. I do this until I hate myself.
    magickmegs magickmegs 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    Whatever I do/try, I cannot keep a lasting

    relationship with people, friends OR boyfriends. This one guy started texting me a few weeks ago and he'd call me beautiful, tell me I'm perfect, and just lead me on. He'd send me hearts and kisses... well anyway, once we hung out, as soon as we went home afterwards he texted...
    shlumbug shlumbug 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2014

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    I find hate to be quite fueling

    and productive when it comes a dominant force in my life. After the crash of course haha
    VampGuy1 VampGuy1 22-25, T Mar 25

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    Did I just agree to meet the narcissist?

    Why?Why?Why when I have the impulse control of a dog? Someone please hit me over the head.Somebody kill me before that time. And what is the worst is that,after all this,I liked his status for something awesome happening in his life. I did though in our chat told him to hear...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F Apr 21

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    I always seem to annoy some peeps in sum way

    or anotha. If I'm trying to explain summink, I end up annoying them, if I try 2 b nice, I end up being even more mean. I'm just not the peep I dreamed of being as a young little cute kid. I can't ever say something widdout annoying them and I can't ever think of anything nice...
    HermioneGlasse HermioneGlasse 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    renguard renguard 16-17, M Apr 3

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    " And She will learn to love people

    and use things and not the other way around".
    TheVirginRapids TheVirginRapids 18-21, F May 9, 2014

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    I hate that I bring up the ******* past with

    him. I hate myself everyday I do that to him. Ugh why can I be a damn normal girlfriend and love him right.
    buggalue00 buggalue00 13-15, F Apr 7

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    You know that moment

    when you and your friend are having a little fun and then you say something you shouldn't of? Well yeah that just happened.... You know this is probably why I lose a lot of my friends.... I hate myself sometimes, cuz I say things I shouldn't of said. Yeah I know he should be man...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 20, 2014

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    I Hate Myself.

    I hate how im so self conscious. I hate that I always feel alone even when I have people around me. I hate how fast my mood changes. I hate that I cant communicate my feelings to my boyfriend or my family. I hate being fat. I hate wanting to but not being able to. I hate not...
    Difficultme Difficultme 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2013

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    I've grown so unattached to people

    and life. I don't know what to do anymore if I'm not crying I'm just numb I want to get out if I don't get out soon I'm not sure what'll happen I don't want to continue to be who I am. life just feels so pointless, take me away?
    DizziMayy DizziMayy 22-25, F Jan 31

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    Have you ever loved someone

    so much you'd give an arm for? Not the expression no, literally give an arm for. When they know they're your heart and you know you are their armor, and you would destroy anyone who would try to harm her? But what happens when karma turns right around and bites you? And...
    Yourguardianangel9613 Yourguardianangel9613 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 14, 2014

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    I hate being me. I'm

    so tired. I wish I didn't hate my self but I do.
    TeenagerInPain TeenagerInPain 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    Zeire Zeire 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 1, 2014

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    I don't know why sometimes I do sometimes I

    don't . When I'm alone it's so sad and boring.
    Adamsworld Adamsworld 18-21, M Mar 26, 2014

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    Those Times

    society just hurts me so much. i feel so lonely every time but no one listens. I try to say it, talk about it but they just don't understand. I hate everything about myself sometimes i just wish i would die. every time, every night i cry myself to sleep and think about how much...
    paulinav paulinav 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 30, 2013

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    I hate myself. But I smile an laugh.

    I donn't want people to know I'm unhappy. The people in my school are judgmental. If I said I'm not happy, they think I'm depressed. Life seems to have a lot of downs then ups right now 😔
    hockeytho121 hockeytho121 16-17, F Mar 25, 2014

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    I'm in a wheelchair (have been my whole life)

    and I hate the way I look and honestly it makes me want to cry. I don't know if I'll ever feel attractive or my intimate life will be. I've also had a lot of surgeries and I'm insecure. People tell me "your amazing" but they don't understand ...😢
    cuteshaybay cuteshaybay 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 27, 2014

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    Yea. Sometimes you just wanna get punched in

    the face because you're so stupid sometimes. That's how I feel right now. So dumb.
    Euphoricbunnymaster Euphoricbunnymaster 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    I am not mentally down right now but this

    reminds me of the time when I was so down https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qFchl7eTkPY
    FallingWind FallingWind 18-21, F Mar 18

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    SpiritOfOrpheus SpiritOfOrpheus 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 11

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    im jus confused. my mom doesnt trust me.

    nor my aunt or grandma, they think im gonna end up pregnant at 16 (not judging) &' they pretty much use my past mistakes as weapons on me. using words like "u shudd b tha last one.." or "i wuddnt talk if i were u.." "based off all u been doing.." like it juss sux. &' my mom is...
    pizzababyxo pizzababyxo 13-15, F Apr 6

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    Started a new college,

    sit alone at class everyday , spend my breaks alone. When its time for group project, I let everyone choose their grooup members first. When they are done, I just tell the teacher to put my name in the group where they are lack members I wanted to talk to my classmates and...
    YongTauFoo YongTauFoo 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I hate myself a lot. I make my mom really mad a

    lot, I'm mean to my little sister, and I make the wrong choices. I wish it could all be over...
    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F 2 Responses May 16, 2014

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    Ungrateful

    I hate myself quite intensly a lot of the time. It has been like this for years. That little voice of self doubt inside my head often tells me what I think of myself and generally expletives are used. If I look at myself in a mirror my first reaction is disgust and when times are...
    WyldHoney WyldHoney 31-35, F 6 Responses May 4, 2008

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    Negative Belief System: Trauma based

    Beliefs "I am a flawed, worthless person" TRUTH: I am a creation of God and worthy of love and respect! "No one will love me as I truly am" TRUTH: I have strengths and weaknesses like everyone else. I can be authentic, which is the key to connection with others. "I must...
    MostArdently MostArdently 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 16, 2014

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    My crush hates me. I don't know why

    or how, but I know it's because I'm an *******. I'm such a f*cked up person, and I felt something like this would happen. I felt that I would drive him away someday because i dont know how to control my emotions when I'm heated. We haven't even talked that much, but he must've...
    WinterIncandescence WinterIncandescence 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    This week has been long

    and horrible, and IDK if it'll get better. I have been upset about my body and myself. I was doing great in accepting myself and trying to be ok with myself, but i don't know what is happening. I have felt like purging and not eating and I hate it but it has just been on my mind...
    WhyWasIStupid WhyWasIStupid 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 22

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    *smashes face into keyboard

    until I'm expired*
    cartoonblankets cartoonblankets 18-21, M May 7

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    I hate how I look. I hate how Im weak.

    I hate how Im alone. I hate myself.
    vicki90 vicki90 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    Errrrrrrrrrrrrr I dunno,

    I always **** up -_-
    ComeDieWithMe ComeDieWithMe 18-21, M 4 Responses Dec 23, 2014

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    I have this friend. Or.

    ..ex friend I guess as we stopped talking. We at first got along really well and liked similar things but soon it became apparent he wanted more than I could give. He told me that he needed someone to make happy in order for him to be happy and I believe he wanted me to be that...
    Catherdra Catherdra 22-25, F Mar 27

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    sometimes I'm content with being

    who I am. but sometimes I question myself why am I like that. why did I even do that. and why do I always end up ruining things I like. The bone was in my hands already but still I let it go. seriously what is wrong with me . .... unlucky dou *sigh* sien
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 16

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