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I Hate Myself Sometimes

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    I've tried cutting before,

    but it was so painful I couldn't do it. Instead I just pissed off my cat and let him rip my arms to shreds. I'm such a ******* embarrassment.
    xMiXeRx xMiXeRx 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 9

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    HidingTheScars HidingTheScars 13-15, F May 2

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    Trying to leave this tendency to come down upon

    myself when something does not go well for one reason or another. I know it all comes down to self-esteem and it's hard to build up after so many years of it being low. I can love/respect everyone else, but never myself.
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 23, 2013

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    I Hate Myself.

    I hate how im so self conscious. I hate that I always feel alone even when I have people around me. I hate how fast my mood changes. I hate that I cant communicate my feelings to my boyfriend or my family. I hate being fat. I hate wanting to but not being able to. I hate not...
    Difficultme Difficultme 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2013

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    I feel like I am all alone in the world.

    My mother passed 15 years ago. My daughter is 18 and has moved 400 miles away. My husband is an ***. I live over 600 miles away from all my family and friends. My life sucks! I have never felt so alone in all my life. Sometimes I pray God would just take me in my sleep. I am a...
    mommatrish mommatrish 41-45, F Sep 20

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    I can get so aggravated at myself sometimes.

    I sometimes say or do the wrong thing an later on i will mentally kill myself asking "Why the hell did i do that??"
    Sierra1993 Sierra1993 18-21, F Oct 15

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    i found some clothes

    that fit me perfectly last year, and were even big on me. no i can't even get them past my tummy or my thighs or bum. i don't understand why I've gained as much as I have. I don't eat a lot of sweets and junk food. my only down fall is that i skip breakfast and most days lunch...
    LittleBeelzebub LittleBeelzebub 18-21, F Aug 18

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    I'm in a wheelchair (have been my whole life)

    and I hate the way I look and honestly it makes me want to cry. I don't know if I'll ever feel attractive or my intimate life will be. I've also had a lot of surgeries and I'm insecure. People tell me "your amazing" but they don't understand ...😢
    cuteshaybay cuteshaybay 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 27

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    Why didn't I just leave the time

    that I said I did? I could have stopped you :'(
    LittleBeelzebub LittleBeelzebub 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 31

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    Hate Myself

    When I wake up some mornings I really dont want to go on. I hate everything about myself. Especially thoughts that go on in my head. I find it so hard to deal with emotions especially when people kind caring and show you warmth. Due to things in my past love hugs etc are...
    angel7 angel7 41-45 1 Response Apr 3, 2008

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    Zeire Zeire 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 1

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    MusicJunkie6794 MusicJunkie6794 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 18

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    CaysenB12 CaysenB12 16-17, M Sep 9

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    Just went I think about myself.

    Like being around a lot of people makes me feel ugly, so my mind snaps and I start to believe it and then I hate myself
    jeaaane jeaaane 13-15, F Sep 19

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    So I've asked my boyfriend

    for sex 12 times, anal 18 and asked if I could give him a blow job 13 times over the last 3 days and still isn't "in the mood". Maybe I'm just not attractive to him anymore? :( Never gone 3 days without anything before.
    LittleBeelzebub LittleBeelzebub 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 24

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    %$#@!!!

    There are a lot of times where I absolutely cannot stand who I am. My mind starts racing and I become so overwhelmed and anxious with self-loathing. It's not like hating somebody else... you can always try to avoid people you despise, but when you really feel like you hate...
    paperalias paperalias 22-25, F 7 Responses Apr 23, 2008

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    Those Times

    society just hurts me so much. i feel so lonely every time but no one listens. I try to say it, talk about it but they just don't understand. I hate everything about myself sometimes i just wish i would die. every time, every night i cry myself to sleep and think about how much...
    paulinav paulinav 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 30, 2013

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    I hate that im not perfect

    and full of flaws. I hate that im not good enough for everybody. I hate that i cant make someone feel good or even make them laugh and happy because of me. I hate that i always feel im not important and not worth it. I hate my reflection in the mirror. All i see is a fat girl...
    flamedoll flamedoll 16-17, F Sep 14

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    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 20

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    All I want is somebody to love me

    as I come- a jackass. Ugh. I'm doing it all wrong
    JustScout JustScout 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    Ungrateful

    I hate myself quite intensly a lot of the time. It has been like this for years. That little voice of self doubt inside my head often tells me what I think of myself and generally expletives are used. If I look at myself in a mirror my first reaction is disgust and when times are...
    WyldHoney WyldHoney 31-35, F 6 Responses May 4, 2008

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    Why Am I Like This Now ??

    I am starting to change ... I'm not that happy , cheerful person I used to be . Instead I'm the exact opposite . My friends are slowly pushing me away .. They don't even acknowledge my presence anymore . Maybe it is my fault , I should pretend to be happy right ? I should put on...
    shineeemoon shineeemoon 13-15 Jul 20, 2012

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    Isn't it the most frustrating feeling,

    laying in your bed looking at pictures of people who are more successful, beautiful and talented than you. It just drives me into this pit of self loath that I can't even try to get out of because it's what I want, I want to be like them, I want to look like them and though it...
    ljevans1234 ljevans1234 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 28

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    I hate myself right now.

    I'm so stupid. why do I even try? I mean it's not like I'm worth anything. I don't even understand why he would love me. All I do is mess everything up. Everything I've ever had that was great I've always ruined. I'm just so scared and I just don't want him to be mad. I just don...
    whispywind whispywind 16-17, F Oct 12

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    I hate myself. But I smile an laugh.

    I donn't want people to know I'm unhappy. The people in my school are judgmental. If I said I'm not happy, they think I'm depressed. Life seems to have a lot of downs then ups right now 😔
    hockeytho121 hockeytho121 13-15, F Mar 25

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    I'm ******* done with bullshit.

    Took 16 panadeines. Hope I pass out and don't ******* wake up this time.
    LittleBeelzebub LittleBeelzebub 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 31

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    You know that moment

    when you and your friend are having a little fun and then you say something you shouldn't of? Well yeah that just happened.... You know this is probably why I lose a lot of my friends.... I hate myself sometimes, cuz I say things I shouldn't of said. Yeah I know he should be man...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 20

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    someoneforyou12 someoneforyou12 22-25, F Oct 23

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    Not all the time but sometimes.

    I always make my friends mad and I hate it as hard as I try they still get mad.. I always f.uck up. And I hate it. God I'm such a bad friend. I have ADHD and I get a little to hyper and make my friends mad.. Love always, Alexander
    crazyhyperkid crazyhyperkid 18-21, M Feb 17

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    Whatever I do/try, I cannot keep a lasting

    relationship with people, friends OR boyfriends. This one guy started texting me a few weeks ago and he'd call me beautiful, tell me I'm perfect, and just lead me on. He'd send me hearts and kisses... well anyway, once we hung out, as soon as we went home afterwards he texted...
    shlumbug shlumbug 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 1

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    Negative Belief System: Trauma based

    Beliefs "I am a flawed, worthless person" TRUTH: I am a creation of God and worthy of love and respect! "No one will love me as I truly am" TRUTH: I have strengths and weaknesses like everyone else. I can be authentic, which is the key to connection with others. "I must...
    MostArdently MostArdently 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 16

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    Yes guys.. It's another post about how bad my

    life sucks... Firstly.. This isn't where I wanted to be at this age, I'm not smart, and I won't go to college, This isn't exactly my dream family, if I could take my mom, and leave my other family behind... I would, Having rich friends, really makes me realize how poor...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 9

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    Have you ever loved someone

    so much you'd give an arm for? Not the expression no, literally give an arm for. When they know they're your heart and you know you are their armor, and you would destroy anyone who would try to harm her? But what happens when karma turns right around and bites you? And...
    Yourguardianangel9613 Yourguardianangel9613 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 14

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    " And She will learn to love people

    and use things and not the other way around".
    TheVirginRapids TheVirginRapids 18-21, F 1 Response May 9

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    I don't know why sometimes I do sometimes I

    don't . When I'm alone it's so sad and boring.
    Adamsworld Adamsworld 18-21, M Mar 26

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    I just had my abortion last Tuesday

    and I feel so bad I feel sad, hate myself. I regret my decision Idk if it was the right choice. I just stay home all the time I only leave to go to work and at that I don't even wanna be there. I decided to Google support groups and I found this site hope it will help me...
    princessangiev13 princessangiev13 22-25, F 2 Responses May 19

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    I hate myself or being weak,

    for being caring, sympathetic all these useless things that make the persona weak. I hate myself for bringing the pain on myself from my own blindness and stupidity. Betrayal. One of the things I loathe mostly with all my heart in this world. Deception AND Betrayal then is...
    Ic3Queen Ic3Queen 22-25, F Nov 24

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    When I meditate yesterday I can't help

    but concentrate on the physical pain I felt when guilt takes over all feeling and overwhelms me. I wished during meditation whenever I hurt someone to feel these pain. The headache, chest pain all of it to make me remember not to hurt other people's feeling ever again. I wish...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 3 Responses May 15

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    There are days when I won't be able to do

    anything but feel. (I say only "feel" because I can't quite find the words. I feel bad about myself and everything else, but not really. If emotion were water, on these days I'd feel just enough not to be empty, and at the same time too much but not quite full.) I call them...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 16

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    dont know why but all of a sudden sometimes i

    just have 0 respect for myself and feel like a meaningless waste of space
    Builda47 Builda47 22-25, M Aug 28

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    I literally was just crying my gut out (to the

    point where i was coughing and choking on nothing) and shouting how much I hate myself. Ugh it's getting unbearable. There is only so long I can take this abuse...I think I'll have to look into therapy. I can't believe how much picking on myself hurts.
    misscoffee misscoffee 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 5

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    My Dad.

    I'm such an idiot why do I keep doing this my dad loves me and he loves all of us but I keep feeling so uncomfortable around him and I sometimes don't like it when he is around I really don't know what the hell is wrong with me I can't even like my own dad? what is going on with...
    Frozenfires Frozenfires 18-21 5 Responses Jan 28, 2013

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    On the outside I seem really successful - high

    profile job in the media, good looking boyfriend, lots of friends... but really I struggle with anxiety, not feeling good enough and smoking weed daily to forget all the things that are bothering me. When I try to quit smoking I become even more emotional and volatile. And I...
    thedarkerplace thedarkerplace 26-30, F Aug 11

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    Right now, I just feel

    so worthless & ugly 😒. No lie. I can't even explain how I'm exactly feelings...
    jeaaane jeaaane 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 18

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    I hate myself a lot. I make my mom really mad a

    lot, I'm mean to my little sister, and I make the wrong choices. I wish it could all be over...
    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F 2 Responses May 16

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    MusicJunkie6794 MusicJunkie6794 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 21

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    After that embarrassing experience with my cat,

    I finally cut myself near my wrists. I've also stabbed myself in the leg with a pencil and I'm pretty sure the led is still there because I see something grey right where I stabbed it. Huh, weird.
    xMiXeRx xMiXeRx 13-15, M Aug 9

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    On the outside I always look happy I'm smiling

    and I joke around with everyone. But deep down inside I worry, I deal with anxiety. I always feel like I'm not good enough. And I don't have many friends mostly because I suck at talking or sometimes I'm scared to hang out with people. When I actually get the courage to go out...
    blooop123 blooop123 18-21, F Aug 18

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    It happened again. Whenever I try helping I

    manage to inflict pain. It keeps happening.
    Untrustworthy117 Untrustworthy117 16-17, M Aug 23

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    I think everyone does sometimes.

    But then, I think that if I had the opportunity to change anything, I wouldn't because one little fix could change everything about yourself. Sometimes I don't like me, but there's a bunch of things I do like about myself. So I have to focus on those things rather than those I...
    taylor468 taylor468 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    So I was talking to this girl

    for a while and was just about to ask her out, and she turns around and goes out with a freshman that was obsessed with her. He also started talking to her about 2 days before he asked her to homecoming.
    TylerReed TylerReed 13-15, M