I Hate Myself Sometimes

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    I hate that I'm so socially awkward.

    I just can't seem to relax at all.
    Darkli Darkli
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Sep 7, 2015
    renguard renguard
    18-21, M
    Apr 3, 2015

    I am the biggest dickhead on earth right now,

    I've ****** things up so much. I just don't understand what I'm doing anymore, I just want to give up.
    lovetodraw19 lovetodraw19
    18-21, F
    Feb 29

    Hello there I do hate myself sometimes.

    Most of the times its in the evening or at night. But before that let me explain some stuff. Right now I'm 18 years old. I finished a degree in Social Science without much trouble and that's the problem. When I went to school (elementary and secondary school), I never had to...
    Neroy Neroy
    18-21, M
    1 Response Dec 17, 2015

    I know it's bad to compare myself to my friends

    but I can't help it. They have everything I don't. They're beautiful, smart, funny, and confident. And I'm not. So I just go home and cry until I can't because I'm trying to be those things but I can't
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 1, 2015

    Why Am I Like This Now ??

    I am starting to change ... I'm not that happy , cheerful person I used to be . Instead I'm the exact opposite . My friends are slowly pushing me away .. They don't even acknowledge my presence anymore . Maybe it is my fault , I should pretend to be happy right ? I should put on...
    shineeemoon shineeemoon
    13-15
    Jul 20, 2012
    bankzz bankzz
    13-15, M
    1 Response Dec 20, 2015

    Errrrrrrrrrrrrr I dunno,

    I always **** up -_-
    ACyanideSurprise ACyanideSurprise
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Dec 23, 2014

    Started a new college,

    sit alone at class everyday , spend my breaks alone. When its time for group project, I let everyone choose their grooup members first. When they are done, I just tell the teacher to put my name in the group where they are lack members I wanted to talk to my classmates and...
    Sal1603 Sal1603
    18-21, F
    May 20, 2015

    I hate myself sometimes.

    I try not to. But when everyone keeps pushing me to the side, not having time for me when I really just need someone to be there, or dismiss my thoughts and feelings... well, it seems like they arn't seeing anything of value in me. How can I find meaning when people treat me as...
    rhyme27 rhyme27
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 3

    The feeling comes and goes,

    some days are better / worse than others; sometimes the feeling comes out of nowhere, sometimes it is triggered.. It can disappear just as randomly, but doesn't always.. Ups and downs..
    WithClouds WithClouds
    26-30, M
    Jan 29
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jun 20, 2014

    Hate Myself

    When I wake up some mornings I really dont want to go on. I hate everything about myself. Especially thoughts that go on in my head. I find it so hard to deal with emotions especially when people kind caring and show you warmth. Due to things in my past love hugs etc are...
    angel7 angel7
    41-45
    1 Response Apr 3, 2008

    When I say I hate myself,

    that is a little stretched, because I love how I am with people, I have compassion for everyone. I love how sensitive I am to others, but what I do hate, is my physical appearance, when I look into the mirror it's very painful to see, because it's an image that doesn't feel...
    Kailey76 Kailey76
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Feb 3

    I hate my inability to act.

    Every time I think about "that" I know that I have to do something before it's too late but the fear and anxiety always overwhelms me and in the end I do nothing. I use my hobbies to get my mind off of it and end up wasting time. Everyone has a talent of sorts, and I guess mine...
    CloakedStranger CloakedStranger
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Sep 7, 2015

    Ungrateful

    I hate myself quite intensly a lot of the time. It has been like this for years. That little voice of self doubt inside my head often tells me what I think of myself and generally expletives are used. If I look at myself in a mirror my first reaction is disgust and when times are...
    WyldHoney WyldHoney
    31-35, F
    5 Responses May 4, 2008

    I wonder where my happiness went.

    it was just here...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Sep 10, 2015

    %$#@!!!

    There are a lot of times where I absolutely cannot stand who I am. My mind starts racing and I become so overwhelmed and anxious with self-loathing. It's not like hating somebody else... you can always try to avoid people you despise, but when you really feel like you hate...
    paperalias paperalias
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Apr 23, 2008

    I always mess up everything.

    I think too far ahead, I'm too hopeful.. but at the same time you say I'm too pessimistic.. it's either I'm too pessimistic or I'm too optimistic. you want me happy yet you knock me when I try to think of a future with you in it. but when I think what if we so not make it you...
    Caitlinsmith1636 Caitlinsmith1636
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 2

    I don't exactly hate myself

    as a person, but I hate the fact that I have a really hard time connecting to new people.
    LittleMidnight LittleMidnight
    18-21
    1 Response Sep 7, 2015

    Whatever I do, its wrong.

    I'll never be smart enough to satisfy myself-- I'm never smart enough, never, never. . . And I'm not kind enough, I'm certainly not funny. My thoughts I despise, for they feel so empty, so worthless. I can't keep a conversation going if I am to be true to myself, if a self there...
    Lalalalovely Lalalalovely
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 7, 2015

    I Hate Myself.

    I hate how im so self conscious. I hate that I always feel alone even when I have people around me. I hate how fast my mood changes. I hate that I cant communicate my feelings to my boyfriend or my family. I hate being fat. I hate wanting to but not being able to. I hate not...
    Difficultme Difficultme
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 27, 2013

    Have you ever loved someone

    so much you'd give an arm for? Not the expression no, literally give an arm for. When they know they're your heart and you know you are their armor, and you would destroy anyone who would try to harm her? But what happens when karma turns right around and bites you? And...
    Yourguardianangel9613 Yourguardianangel9613
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 14, 2014

    when Im feeling bad about myself,

    I tend to turn to comfort foods to console myself. i worry about what I eat because I worry I might end up diabetic in the future if I kept wolfing down junk foods. yet, I cant help it. i hate myself and my brain.
    noaht43 noaht43
    41-45, T
    1 Response Mar 15

    I feel bad again. Looking at my past life I see

    nothing but stupidity and ignorance from a dumb kid. I am always saying that is what I hate the most, but that is what I am... To this point my life has been nothing else than me being drunk and hurting myself and my parents. And recently I am thinking about suicide again :( I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Sep 16, 2015

    I look at myself with disgust.

    I can't stand the darker pieces of myself that I cover up to my best ability. The cruel half of me that hurts others. The me who has an inferiority complex with the two really attractive family members. Out of the three I'm always the last option it's not like it's their fault...
    blaze96 blaze96
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 17, 2015

    Everyone does at some point,

    I'm sure. I often look at my negative side more than the positive side, I guess that's why I lean toward self hate.
    LikeICare13 LikeICare13
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jan 4

    Negative Belief System: Trauma based

    Beliefs "I am a flawed, worthless person" TRUTH: I am a creation of God and worthy of love and respect! "No one will love me as I truly am" TRUTH: I have strengths and weaknesses like everyone else. I can be authentic, which is the key to connection with others. "I must...
    MostArdently MostArdently
    31-35, M
    1 Response Aug 16, 2014

    Welp... Here's another mental breakdown.

    . Today isn't the best day... I was in the bathroom brushing my teeth when I just looked in the mirror and realized how ugly I am. All my flaws. Hating myself because I will never have the perfect body, and yes.. There is a perfect body. My friends don't even really even like...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Jan 23, 2015

    This week has been long

    and horrible, and IDK if it'll get better. I have been upset about my body and myself. I was doing great in accepting myself and trying to be ok with myself, but i don't know what is happening. I have felt like purging and not eating and I hate it but it has just been on my mind...
    KeKeNae KeKeNae
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 22, 2015

    My Dad.

    I'm such an idiot why do I keep doing this my dad loves me and he loves all of us but I keep feeling so uncomfortable around him and I sometimes don't like it when he is around I really don't know what the hell is wrong with me I can't even like my own dad? what is going on with...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Jan 28, 2013

    Everyday is the same damn thing.

    My life has become nothing more than work. Mind-numbing, unfullfilling work. I want more than this. I think I know what I want for my future, but I don't feel that I will ever get there. It feels like I'm trying to wade through quicksand.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Sep 8, 2015

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?

    v=ystcJh3HwkI I just want you to watch and think about it.It is not a long boring video i swear
    ghostdolly ghostdolly
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Jan 2

    I don't do enough, everything wrong seems to

    always be my fault. I'm going to fail and loose my chances of ever escaping home. I'm not sure if I'm having flashbacks or intrusive thoughts, but I wished they'd stop and I could go back to acting like I was normal. I've been feeling really stressed lately, yes, but it's always...
    Resmkat Resmkat
    18-21
    1 Response Mar 26

    not in a good mood hate living with physical

    restrains in life. always there in the way, being trapped in a dysfunctional body
    ErbiumbInTheEr ErbiumbInTheEr
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 10

    I hate myself always.

    I find it hard to believe that this isn't the normal state of being. But I am an exceptionally terrible person
    username17452 username17452
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 7, 2015

    People look stare and laugh at me I look at

    myself all I see is ugly and fat maybe that's because that's what everyone has said for 17 years and 8months maybe I'm just starting to believe what's said Gym class is the worst they stare and laugh at me while we run lap or do a stupid workout because I'm not like them I...
    Gabbytheartist Gabbytheartist
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 23, 2015

    I've failed... I didn't turn in a project in

    person that I had actually done... It's 10% of my grade... @&*%... I've lost all motivation to keep up my grades... Heck, I don't even need that class! The other ones are more important than that one! What the heck... Ps: Procrastination can kill one [s' motivation...]
    Sil833 Sil833
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 30, 2015

    I have really bad attachment

    and trust issues and sometimes I'm grateful for them because they save me from getting myself hurt or heartbroken but sometimes I hate them because I always think everyone is going to hurt me, even if they won't
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 11

    I hate myself for giving up n

    for letting my mind take over, i hate not being in control of my emotions n thoughts n i hate how wound up it makes me. i feel like its a constant battle between me n bpd n im so sick of it!!!!
    LJglasgow LJglasgow
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 8, 2015

    sometimes I'm convicted

    that my entire existence is just a mistake. I wasn't ever really meant to be here. maybe that's why I'm unlovable. I hate myself and I wish I was anybody else
    jazzyohsofresh jazzyohsofresh
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Mar 25

    Sometimes I feel like

    if I wasn't part of the queer or kink community that I'd hate myself less and not feel like I'm just a problem for everyone.
    EmSiren EmSiren
    26-30, F
    Dec 30, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 11, 2015

    I hate myself. But I smile an laugh.

    I donn't want people to know I'm unhappy. The people in my school are judgmental. If I said I'm not happy, they think I'm depressed. Life seems to have a lot of downs then ups right now 😔
    hockeytho121 hockeytho121
    16-17, F
    Mar 25, 2014

    When I meditate yesterday I can't help

    but concentrate on the physical pain I felt when guilt takes over all feeling and overwhelms me. I wished during meditation whenever I hurt someone to feel these pain. The headache, chest pain all of it to make me remember not to hurt other people's feeling ever again. I wish...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses May 15, 2014

    currently having bad view of self currently I

    wish I can get my view back. I HATE it everyone's assumption about me, especially messed up society standards about woman. Everyone say your nice and skinny to go to the gym it doesn't seem like you need to work out or not strong enough to lift, why are you so skinny. usually...
    ErbiumbInTheEr ErbiumbInTheEr
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 9

    You know that moment

    when you and your friend are having a little fun and then you say something you shouldn't of? Well yeah that just happened.... You know this is probably why I lose a lot of my friends.... I hate myself sometimes, cuz I say things I shouldn't of said. Yeah I know he should be man...
    Zimry96 Zimry96
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jun 20, 2014

    I hate how I look. I hate how Im weak.

    I hate how Im alone. I hate myself.
    vicki90 vicki90
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jan 16, 2015

    I hate myself so much sometimes there's time I

    talk forever and I just don't shut up I don't know what to say and I say the wrong thing. As well as me ******* being annoying text my friend so much times. I don't know what to do. 😔😔😔😢😢
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 7, 2015
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