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    It Should Have Been Me

    I had a twin brother; when I was old enough my mother told me about him. He died a long time ago even before I was born. The doctor saved me but he was too weak. I tried to cope with it, the thought that I had a brother I'd never get to know. It was an accident, its something...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 11 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    I'm a flawed person..

    ..inside and out . I guess we all are . For me....I spent my entire life trying to be prefect....trying to look perfect....still I was told I'm just not good enough and I'm never going to be good enough . I hate the way I look....I hate the way I feel....I hate myself...
    Sjenka Sjenka 36-40, F 1 day ago

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    I hate waking up feeling nothing

    but physical pain. I hate not being motivated, i want to wake up either terrified or overly exited but instead my life is a dead line.
    SarahTheEnigma SarahTheEnigma 16-17, F 10 Responses Oct 5

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    I HATE YOU, SUNANGEL.

    .. YOU'VE BEEN NOTHING BUT A BLIGHT AND HAVOC. YOU ARE HATED EVERYWHERE YOU GO... TODAY I SACRIFICE MY BLOOD IN THE NAME OF BEAUTY BECAUSE I AM NOT BEAUTIFUL... Maybe JESUS would see my anguish and allow me to be beautiful... The way I was meant to be... THERE ARE THINGS I...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I used say...I don't.

    I won't.I CANT hate myself....but I do.Sometimes I just look at myself....I think about myself and I just feel disgusted.... ashamed... unworthy...terrible. It's hard to love yourself or even like yourself when It's been years of being ignored,criticized,being put down,mentally...
    irreelevance irreelevance 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Self Versus Self

    Please listen to me for once. You're not what you seem to show to people, you won't let them in but they feel your darkness.I'm not worth their time, I have to solve my issues on my own.You can't do this alone.Yes I can, I know where my problems stem from.Shut the **** up so I...
    CaptainMurphy CaptainMurphy 22-25, M 3 Responses May 23, 2013

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    I Am Incapable of Doing Anything Worthwhile.

    I am a thirty-something overweight single woman with two cats a messy condo with late mortgage payments who can't find her checkbook atm or credit card hasn't started a huge presentation that i have to give at work in eighteen hours and just knows that i will die alone in this f...
    afjsdkl afjsdkl 31-35, F 39 Responses Nov 19, 2006

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    Dreamscape98x Dreamscape98x 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    WHY LIKE ME

    i cant spell im dyslexic im Bi and my mom hates me im in love with someone i cant have i cut and burn im a nerd i cry to much i get drunk(not all the time) i always seem to lose my friends and family im a wuss AND I WANNA DIE
    BloodyRaven BloodyRaven 13-15, F 16 Responses Jul 8, 2013

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    I took down my profile picture

    because i hated the way i looked in it. I hate the way i look now
    Dontlookbackk Dontlookbackk 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    so i just punished myself

    for feeling. what a way to be....
    Pigmaginny Pigmaginny 22-25, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I have been trying to learn not to hate myself,

    to know myself as I truly am. I found this book: http://www.peace.ca/powerofnow.htm, It really helped. I learned to stop seeing my mind-body emotional state, and my thoughts, as being my 'self'. And I learned to observe. I learned how projecting into the future causes anxiety...
    PurpleGlassPalace PurpleGlassPalace 26-30, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Never Happy Endings On These Dark Sets

    Its just all wrong. And the one thing that felt right went left. I climbed up and fell down. I woke up and fell asleep. I drove fast and flew by. I wanted and didn't take. I have fallen and can't get up. I attempted but failed. I studied and forgot. I felt like a winner but lost...
    ninerzoon ninerzoon 36-40, M 3 Responses May 13, 2013

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    I hate my self as stated above.

    I don't like my face, figure, voice, friends, family, location, and just overall life. I have sever anxiety and always find myself counting and picking out each and everyone of my flaws. I wish I was anyone but myself. I wish I had a better me. A better life... I've tried coping...
    mckennaolsen mckennaolsen 13-15, F a week ago

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    Sick Of Beind Depressed? Enjoyment Vs Pleasure

    When depressed, we turn to drugs, meaningless sex, alcohol, food full of fat and sugar, movies, video games, etc. These all give us small spikes of pleasure and do some good in lifting the gloom, but when it's over, what's left? We have less money, possibly STDs, gain weight...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 14 Responses Jul 1, 2012

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    Not Easy To Change That...

    What I have to do is learn how to accept that I'm not perfect.  Accept that I've been banged up mentally pretty badly. Accept that I'm older now, that I will have bad days, that I will hurt..   That I will be depressed. that there are times I'll hurt so badly I'll need to sob...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 7 Responses Jul 22, 2011

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    I know, I shouldn't. Everyone should love

    themselves. But, unfortunately, I find too many faults in myself to do so. I've been conditioned to think that being black is ugly. I know it's a horrible mentality, but that's what they teach at my school. I also hate that I screw everything up with my clumsiness. And I tend...
    morekisses morekisses 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    If i kill myself who will care .

    My dad wont . The people who will , will cry for a week maximum and then forget me . No one will remember me after a month . But at least i'll be at peace . No pain . So why shouldn't i commit suicide
    peyton1998 peyton1998 16-17, F 32 Responses Aug 1

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    My friend just texted me

    and he was all happy and I just took out my anger out on him .-. I told him that I hate him and that really hurt me.... I always ruin everything ugh I'm stupid and worthless I always take stuff out on him and yet he still stays... I don't know why... And I still think about my...
    FadingStarrr FadingStarrr 13-15, F 52 mins ago

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    she decided to leave me

    for good i never thought she would i always assumed she'd be there for me shows just how wrong i was i hate myself now she hates me too
    itsalwaysme80 itsalwaysme80 31-35, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Sick Of It

    I can't even look in the mirror without wanting to punch the glass. I get so mad at what I am, everything is repulsive. Im so torn with wanting to be happy and just wallowing in this self hate. Im not good enough. My grades aren't good enough my personality, my weight, my face...
    kxrstxn kxrstxn 16-17, F 32 Responses Oct 20, 2013

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    I am so ******* stupid.

    Need I say more?
    ftmFreddy ftmFreddy 18-21, T 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    i hate myself but I'm smarter

    than most of u so it makes it ok
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 24 Responses Dec 2

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    I do hate myself I hate the person I see

    when I look in the mirror I hate the fact that I'm so nice to others and love to help others and always their for others but when it my turn their none but me in the room I'm just tired of getting hurt by others and I'm tired of being and feeling lonely and I'm tired of pretend...
    Bre142 Bre142 18-21, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    Just Venting

    I swear I'm worthless, I claim to be so ******* strong then why can't I help the ones I care so much about. What is even the point of being alive if I can't even be of some use? Everyone keeps telling me that I need to stop worrying about everyone else for once and have someone...
    sagesbones sagesbones 18-21, M 9 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    Goody Two Shoes Freak

    I was always that weird quiet kid who always knew the answer in school.  My family moved a lot and I was introverted so I didn't have many friends and honestly, I didn't really want any.  I hated kids my age for being stupid and cruel to each other.  I hated adults...
    seafall seafall 22-25 22 Responses Aug 21, 2008

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    When I was in 6th grade I became obsessive

    about a guy I had liked...he was from Pakistan... I became so obsessed that I began to bother him...he hated me for that...he wanted me dead... Prior to this I felt that I was so ugly that I could not have a boyfriend...it was like monkey see monkey do, pertaining to the fact...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    THE AFTERMATH... I LOVE GOD FOR MAKING ME,

    NOT ONLY AS A HUMAN, BUT AS AN INCAPABLE HUMAN... MAYBE IT WAS MEANT FOR ME TO SUFFER... I KNOW MY DESTINY... I LOVE YOU MY DEAR JESUS... IF ONLY I COULD BE NAILED TO THE CROSS FOR YOU, IT WOULD BE MORE WORTH THE WHILE... WHY DID YOU HAVE TO SUFFER FOR MY SINS AND...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Don't show me too much attention

    because I'll think about it for like a week, and I'll get my hopes up about that person and then the attention will stop and I'll wonder why and then I'll keep questioning what I did wrong that this person doesn't like me anymore and I'll beat myself up about it. This always...
    TheRouge TheRouge 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    drilling holes in my fake *** life,

    while my body sinks into the night......
    Pigmaginny Pigmaginny 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    I am just a worthless piece of ****.

    Don't know why I am living and want to end this meaningless existence..
    misterweirdo misterweirdo 22-25, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    How can I learn to except myself?

    I'm 24 years old and I still find my self to be the ugliest woman walking the planet earth And it's because I'm a very dark skinned black woman. I've had ONE boyfriend in my whole life and it didn't really last to long. My skin color considered unattractive and my hair is...
    MareViCiOUS MareViCiOUS 22-25, F 21 Responses Jan 7

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    i was beat pretty bad

    as i was growing up. i got hit alot when i was very young for wetting the bed. this was when my father was still around, a drunk for sure. but when he took off it got worse.... i got hit for not finishing my meals and bad grades (second grade.. wtf) and almost...
    Pigmaginny Pigmaginny 22-25, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    sometimes i'm talking

    and i'm just like "shut the **** up"
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 10 Responses Nov 16

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    I know a lot of people are going to comment

    saying how stupid I am being. But I truly do not like myself. I've never told anyone this.. because it's kind of embarrassing. I like some things about myself.. but there are a lot of things I wish I could change. I run varsity cross country.. so my thigh gap is almost non...
    abbbbbby abbbbbby 13-15, F 18 Responses Sep 13

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    People Being Mean

    I have been hated so much for like my whole life, I have been bullied . So I have always hated myself
    Skatergirl16 Skatergirl16 13-15, F 17 Responses Nov 20, 2013

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    I Hate Who I Am

    I hate what I see in the mirror. I hate my past. I hate my present. I hate everything I am. I go to bed every night wishing I would wakeup with some disease and only have a few months to live. Or that I would die on the way to work in a car wreck or have a massive heart attack...
    Sorriso Sorriso 46-50, M 299 Responses Jul 10, 2007

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    Mess

    ​My life is a mess. I'm an unattractive slob who's too loud and can't keep her grades up in school. Everyone thinks i'm just going through a faze, but I'm not. I'm depressed, and no one cares about me enough to see it. They think i'm fine. They don't know that I hide in my room...
    teenfailure teenfailure 16-17, F 16 Responses Dec 29, 2012

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    I really do... I'm so fcking stupid I fck

    everything up I'm not gonna graduate so I might as well just give up and wait to drop out I don't even wanna be here I might as well just do everyone a favor and kill myself
    FadingStarrr FadingStarrr 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    mentally torture myself

    even have cut myself starve dehydrate myself as well . as you can tell I clearly don't love myself
    Mizo0217 Mizo0217 18-21, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    well i am the type of person

    that would try everything to help others, help them laugh, a very "hyper" as you may say...i try to keep up this happy face just so people can like me and not look at me weirdly but i truly hate myself. I am from a very strict family and my dad is pretty into my life, i try my...
    neeuQ neeuQ 18-21 2 days ago

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    I'm disgusting. I'm 14

    and 140 pounds, and I'm not stupid I know it's all fat. My stomach isn't just flabby, it "pooches" out and makes me look bloated and pregnant. I have a crooked face because of my crossbite and I may have tmj, but I think braces will fix this somewhat. I'm only 14 and have dark...
    kkam34 kkam34 13-15, F 6 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    I'm falling apart. I had a bad childhood

    which I got through. I thought I was strong. I told myself I'd never do.. it. I'm doing it... I'm so disappointed but I'm numb. I bottled everything up and now I'm facing the outcome of it all. It's just too much. I hate myself. I realised all this apart confidence I had and me...
    WeCouldBeDead WeCouldBeDead 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I don't care if you are underweight

    or over weight. I don't care if you have braces, frizzy hair, acne, or a disability. I don't care, because to me: YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL💕
    AmandaRachael AmandaRachael 13-15, F 8 Responses Dec 20, 2013

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    The Woman In The Mirror

    On nights like tonight. I sometimes wonder what others see in myself when at times I can't even see whats so special about me. Here the past 3-4 months. I've been extremely depressed and completely distant from those who matter the absolute most to me. At times I just want to...
    AmazinglyAmazing AmazinglyAmazing 22-25, F 16 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    I Can't Do a Damn Thing

    I hate myself. and I hate that I have to tell people online that i hate myself. I don't lack good friends but i wouldnt dare telling most of them as it's so much "cooler" to be happy. I'm jelous of everyone and i don't know how to fix this. I really really don't want to admit...
    DanHughes DanHughes 21-25, M 19 Responses Apr 6, 2007

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    I Hate Myself

    I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F 12 Responses Aug 1, 2011

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    DreamingSouls DreamingSouls 13-15, F 9 Responses 4 days ago

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    MJV10 MJV10 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Pure Hatred

    I hate everything about me. my eyes my smile. but i do love my mind. why? because i can dream and run away from everything that is making my life hell. everyday i wake up wishing i hadn't. seems like everything that comes out of my mouth irritates someone. whenever i touch...
    SkinnyJeansAndSnakeBites SkinnyJeansAndSnakeBites 13-15, F 13 Responses Oct 7, 2012

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    styxc styxc 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    No guy wants me, no one likes me,

    and I HATE IT! I'm always there for them but they aren't there for me! :( Why do I bother to live when no guy finds me beautiful and wants me? What the **** is wrong with me? :(
    SeanaO SeanaO 18-21, F 19 Responses