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I Hate Myself

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    for being a coward. It really ****** me of!

    Especially with my mom. I am just so afraid of she is going to react. I AM SO ******* STUPID... The first time I told her I had a bf was over text cuz I was so scared. That is ******* embarrassing :'( I feel so impotent, I just want to die. I hate myself for this and many more...
    DRgirl809 DRgirl809 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Self Versus Self

    Please listen to me for once. You're not what you seem to show to people, you won't let them in but they feel your darkness.I'm not worth their time, I have to solve my issues on my own.You can't do this alone.Yes I can, I know where my problems stem from.Shut the **** up so I...
    CaptainMurphy CaptainMurphy 22-25, M 2 Responses May 23, 2013

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    Sick Of Beind Depressed? Enjoyment Vs Pleasure

    When depressed, we turn to drugs, meaningless sex, alcohol, food full of fat and sugar, movies, video games, etc. These all give us small spikes of pleasure and do some good in lifting the gloom, but when it's over, what's left? We have less money, possibly STDs, gain weight...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 14 Responses Jul 1, 2012

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    I've lost all motivation

    and I hate these stupid headaches.
    nostalgickittens nostalgickittens 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    It Should Have Been Me

    I had a twin brother; when I was old enough my mother told me about him. He died a long time ago even before I was born. The doctor saved me but he was too weak. I tried to cope with it, the thought that I had a brother I'd never get to know. It was an accident, its something...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 11 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    whyusteens whyusteens 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 18

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    I hate waking up feeling nothing

    but physical pain. I hate not being motivated, i want to wake up either terrified or overly exited but instead my life is a dead line.
    SarahTheEnigma SarahTheEnigma 16-17, F 9 Responses Oct 5, 2014

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    Been There, It Gets Better

    If you hate yourself, it means you have empathy. It means you're human. It means you care so much about others that you're willing to damage yourself for their sake. It means you punish yourself so cruelly every second of most every day, for the sake of those you love, and...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 42 Responses May 6, 2012

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    WHY LIKE ME

    i cant spell im dyslexic im Bi and my mom hates me im in love with someone i cant have i cut and burn im a nerd i cry to much i get drunk(not all the time) i always seem to lose my friends and family im a wuss AND I WANNA DIE
    BloodyRaven BloodyRaven 13-15, F 17 Responses Jul 8, 2013

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    if we want to forget someone by force

    even we love them then its a stupidity..
    prashik1996 prashik1996 18-21, M Apr 11

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    I'm sorry that I ruin everything.

    Maybe it would be best if I leave.
    Waffl3s Waffl3s 13-15, F 17 Responses Jan 8

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    And I hate myself for hating myself.

    I've turned into someone else.
    khadij khadij 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 19

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    Born The Wrong Way...

    You will laugh, you will judge me, you won't understand... But still I want to write it. It began when I was little, I was only five and I already hated myself. I hated the fact that looking in the mirror was painful. I was looking at myself and thinking 'this is not me!'. I...
    JJTKM JJTKM 16-17 19 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    Just Venting

    I swear I'm worthless, I claim to be so ******* strong then why can't I help the ones I care so much about. What is even the point of being alive if I can't even be of some use? Everyone keeps telling me that I need to stop worrying about everyone else for once and have someone...
    sagesbones sagesbones 18-21, M 9 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    Why can't I just keep my mouth shut

    and carry on with life?
    WisdomIsKeyyyy WisdomIsKeyyyy 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 11

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    Never Happy Endings On These Dark Sets

    Its just all wrong. And the one thing that felt right went left. I climbed up and fell down. I woke up and fell asleep. I drove fast and flew by. I wanted and didn't take. I have fallen and can't get up. I attempted but failed. I studied and forgot. I felt like a winner but lost...
    ninerzoon ninerzoon 36-40, M 3 Responses May 13, 2013

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    persononinternet persononinternet 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 11

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    Will i find someone

    who will make me feel peace? I'm tired of feeling like an animal on a cage, a time bomb or a loaded gun. Will I ever close my eyes and feel calm? Stop this rage against the world and everything on it? I'm tired of feeling this, like I'm alone on a world of enemies, I have...
    Healinghate Healinghate 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    How can I learn to except myself?

    I'm 24 years old and I still find my self to be the ugliest woman walking the planet earth And it's because I'm a very dark skinned black woman. I've had ONE boyfriend in my whole life and it didn't really last to long. My skin color considered unattractive and my hair is...
    MareViCiOUS MareViCiOUS 22-25, F 21 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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    I Hate Who I Am

    I hate what I see in the mirror. I hate my past. I hate my present. I hate everything I am. I go to bed every night wishing I would wakeup with some disease and only have a few months to live. Or that I would die on the way to work in a car wreck or have a massive heart attack...
    Sorriso Sorriso 46-50, M 300 Responses Jul 10, 2007

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    pansexualgirl pansexualgirl 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I am not good looking.

    I am not a genius. I am not hardworking. I am not extroverted and sociable. I am not living in the present. I am not happy. I am not interested in the things that most people are interested in. I am not confident. I am not normal. I am not worth anything. I am not good enough. I...
    Arrrbol Arrrbol 18-21, M 17 Responses May 12, 2014

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    Goody Two Shoes Freak

    I was always that weird quiet kid who always knew the answer in school.  My family moved a lot and I was introverted so I didn't have many friends and honestly, I didn't really want any.  I hated kids my age for being stupid and cruel to each other.  I hated adults...
    seafall seafall 22-25 22 Responses Aug 21, 2008

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    I am a childhood sexual abuse survivor

    but now I have this thing where I want guys to pin me down and have their way with me I don't know what's wrong with me
    maleeny maleeny 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I care a lot about my family,

    even though they don't care about me. The only reason why I haven't offed myself is because I know it'd cause a lot of money problems, my mother is really the only one who partially cares for me, I wouldn't want to hurt her like that. To clear up any confusion I've never just...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 2 Responses Apr 19

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    I Am pathetic i cant

    even kill myself
    emre3211 emre3211 22-25, T 5 hrs ago

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    I'll be honest. Death seems appetizing.

    I just can't cope with the self-hatred anymore. I hate the way I look, I hate the way I am, I hate that everyone hates me, I hate that everyone at school bullies me, I hate that my parents think this is just a phase and ignore me, I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH I'M SO USELESS
    OtakuAndEmo OtakuAndEmo 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I hate my life so much.

    My family all hate me because i 'don't listen', they all treat me like ****. My mum threatens to punch me and slap me all the time. She shouts and swears at me a lot. In school I have about 3 friends. People who were meant to be my friends sit and talk about me behind my back...
    michael1129 michael1129 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    Not Easy To Change That...

    What I have to do is learn how to accept that I'm not perfect.  Accept that I've been banged up mentally pretty badly. Accept that I'm older now, that I will have bad days, that I will hurt..   That I will be depressed. that there are times I'll hurt so badly I'll need to sob...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 7 Responses Jul 22, 2011

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    I wish I can give my parents their favorite

    cars, a big house... I am such a disappointment.
    afyfa afyfa 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 19

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    i hate myself but I'm smarter

    than most of u so it makes it ok
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 17 Responses Dec 2, 2014

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    i hate myself and my life.

    i am the complete opposite of what i want to be in life. every time i try to better myself it gets me nowhere so i just give up. my family is no help. just because im.not sure if i should go to college my mom wants to throw me out after school ends. i dont see a point in my life...
    avalily avalily 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Times like this, I wish I could just perish.

    I actually brought miserable into my own life. I literally destroyed my own happiness. And eternal darkness conquered the lands once again. Goodnight world....
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 18

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    I Hate Myself

    I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F 14 Responses Aug 1, 2011

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    I hate myself for still being in love with a

    girl, who walked over our serious long term relationship, because her parents did not approve me(I am not from her 'culture'.
    eternallonely eternallonely 26-30, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Pure Hatred

    I hate everything about me. my eyes my smile. but i do love my mind. why? because i can dream and run away from everything that is making my life hell. everyday i wake up wishing i hadn't. seems like everything that comes out of my mouth irritates someone. whenever i touch...
    SkinnyJeansAndSnakeBites SkinnyJeansAndSnakeBites 16-17, F 13 Responses Oct 7, 2012

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    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 6 Responses Apr 11

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    No guy wants me, no one likes me,

    and I HATE IT! I'm always there for them but they aren't there for me! :( Why do I bother to live when no guy finds me beautiful and wants me? What the **** is wrong with me? :(
    SeanaO SeanaO 18-21, F 24 Responses May 18, 2014

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    I always tell myself

    that I like myself but the saddest truth is that I really hate myself.
    Xemplefied Xemplefied 26-30, M 4 days ago

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    Always have and probably will

    for a while. Of course it doesn't upset me much that I hate myself, it encourages me to try and pinpoint why and how I can change it.
    Meirin Meirin 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 10

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    ME

    I don't know...I guess its self explanatory really, I don't love myself. Every day I look at myself in the mirror and I hate it. I hate the fact that I hate myself, and its not just physically its also emotionally I hate who I am. I mean I know I'm being stupid but why would I...
    lifesize lifesize 22-25, F 17 Responses Apr 6, 2013

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    I know a lot of people are going to comment

    saying how stupid I am being. But I truly do not like myself. I've never told anyone this.. because it's kind of embarrassing. I like some things about myself.. but there are a lot of things I wish I could change. I run varsity cross country.. so my thigh gap is almost non...
    abbbbbby abbbbbby 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 13, 2014

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    Dreamscape98x Dreamscape98x 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2014

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    Mess

    ​My life is a mess. I'm an unattractive slob who's too loud and can't keep her grades up in school. Everyone thinks i'm just going through a faze, but I'm not. I'm depressed, and no one cares about me enough to see it. They think i'm fine. They don't know that I hide in my room...
    teenfailure teenfailure 16-17, F 16 Responses Dec 29, 2012

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    I should've just killed myself along time ago.

    I serve no purpose, I'm waste of space, and a waste of life.
    EmbraceTheEVIL EmbraceTheEVIL 18-21, M 28 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    Sick Of It

    I can't even look in the mirror without wanting to punch the glass. I get so mad at what I am, everything is repulsive. Im so torn with wanting to be happy and just wallowing in this self hate. Im not good enough. My grades aren't good enough my personality, my weight, my face...
    kxrstxn kxrstxn 16-17, F 30 Responses Oct 20, 2013

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