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I Hate Myself

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    I deal with a lot of self-hatred

    and disgust. I'm disgusted with myself for feeling awful all the time. I'm disgusted with myself for feeling broken. My life is practically perfect. I'm from a wealthy family, get everything I want, no student debt so I'm basically getting a free college education, my parents...
    Hush92 Hush92 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 31

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    Not Easy To Change That...

    What I have to do is learn how to accept that I'm not perfect.  Accept that I've been banged up mentally pretty badly. Accept that I'm older now, that I will have bad days, that I will hurt..   That I will be depressed. that there are times I'll hurt so badly I'll need to sob...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 6 Responses Jul 22, 2011

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    ive figured it out who i am.

    from Charlie the Unicorn: STARFISH LOVES YOU! !!!!! Its a special moment when you figure such things out.
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M 5 days ago

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    Everytime I see the girl my ex likes it feels

    like a reminder that I'm not good enough for him. I know this thinking is bs but I can't help it. I feel like she's prettier, smarter, younger, funnier, and more talented than me and I understand why he chose her over me. He said it was because she's an actress and I'm not. I...
    AquaQ AquaQ 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    i hate myself but I'm smarter

    than most of u so it makes it ok
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 14 Responses Dec 2, 2014

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    Never Happy Endings On These Dark Sets

    Its just all wrong. And the one thing that felt right went left. I climbed up and fell down. I woke up and fell asleep. I drove fast and flew by. I wanted and didn't take. I have fallen and can't get up. I attempted but failed. I studied and forgot. I felt like a winner but lost...
    ninerzoon ninerzoon 36-40, M 3 Responses May 13, 2013

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    How can I learn to except myself?

    I'm 24 years old and I still find my self to be the ugliest woman walking the planet earth And it's because I'm a very dark skinned black woman. I've had ONE boyfriend in my whole life and it didn't really last to long. My skin color considered unattractive and my hair is...
    MareViCiOUS MareViCiOUS 26-30, F 21 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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    Sick Of It

    I can't even look in the mirror without wanting to punch the glass. I get so mad at what I am, everything is repulsive. Im so torn with wanting to be happy and just wallowing in this self hate. Im not good enough. My grades aren't good enough my personality, my weight, my face...
    kxrstxn kxrstxn 16-17, F 30 Responses Oct 20, 2013

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    I've got a lot to say

    but I just can't :""( idk, I'm not used to expressing myself to people, it seems I've just been hiding the real me. I don't deserve anything in this world, I've got a lotta guilt, unsaid confessions, insecurities, a feeling of being a loser and lot more stuff! there's just so...
    slytheringuy slytheringuy 16-17, M 6 Responses Sep 28, 2015

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    There has to be a reason

    for all of this. I can't believe I am who I am, the way I am, where I am, all that I am. I hate it all.
    NoReasonToLiveForMe NoReasonToLiveForMe 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 23

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    graceycoops1997 graceycoops1997 18-21, F 11 Responses May 27, 2015

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    I feel that most people in my life are only

    there due to convenience. I don't feel any "bond" or connection with even my closest friends and family anymore. I know it's my fault because I'm nearly impossible to form a true bond with. I hate myself for being the person that I am and for being clueless as to how I can...
    Sparklyblueunicorns Sparklyblueunicorns 22-25, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    I Hate Myself

    I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 26-30, F 14 Responses Aug 1, 2011

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    I don't like myself,and I can understand

    why others can too. I'm ugly. My family keeps telling me that I'm beautiful, but I'm not. I have an apple body shape,meaning that I have no curves,no hips,broad shoulders,slim arms,and thick legs(from exercise and fat) I'm overweight,but my problem area is my midsection. Despite...
    RainbowLollipop587 RainbowLollipop587 16-17 2 Responses Jan 26

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    I really have been struggling with this lately.

    .. well more like for the past 7 or so months. I ******* hate myself, I hate that I'm useless and can't bring home any income, I hate that I can't do hardly anything due to my chronic back and hip pain. I hate that I can't eat hardly anything anymore because I'm now diabetic... I...
    GoldenHeart69 GoldenHeart69 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    Sick Of Beind Depressed? Enjoyment Vs Pleasure

    When depressed, we turn to drugs, meaningless sex, alcohol, food full of fat and sugar, movies, video games, etc. These all give us small spikes of pleasure and do some good in lifting the gloom, but when it's over, what's left? We have less money, possibly STDs, gain weight...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 14 Responses Jul 1, 2012

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    Thinking about my life makes me

    so angry. I went into counseling one day and my counselor told me I looked so sad. At home I'm just filled with so much anger. I don't look sad at home but when I get to my counselor is when I do. I'm just irritated as hell and resentful of everything. Like I'm so over it. I'm...
    aquamoongoddess aquamoongoddess 22-25, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    What have I done today?

    As soon as I woke up got yelled at. I ate breakfast and went to school. Class was fine. Got in the car, got yelled at all the way to the store. Finished shopping. Guess what, got yelled at again in the car. Wasn't hungry once we got home. Got yelled at for not eating but if I...
    jennifer5006 jennifer5006 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 1

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    It Should Have Been Me

    I had a twin brother; when I was old enough my mother told me about him. He died a long time ago even before I was born. The doctor saved me but he was too weak. I tried to cope with it, the thought that I had a brother I'd never get to know. It was an accident, its something...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    I've been acting like the biggest **** to all

    my friends and new people I meet, and I have no clue why, but it bothers me like crazy. I can't sleep at night knowing I'm as mean as I am.
    jroyal32 jroyal32 16-17, M 2 Responses Jan 24

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    I hate myself today. Idk what is happening to

    me. I hate my face today. I think I look so ******. - soko
    LittleUnicorn LittleUnicorn 18-21 5 Responses Jan 30

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    Im tired of being a complete fool.

    I always embarass myself no matter what!!! I can't do anything right!!!! I'm tired of people telling me to be more confident in myself but for that small moment when I let go of all the insecurity that's holding me back and have a shred of confidence in what I'm saying or doing...
    FemaIeWeezy FemaIeWeezy 18-21, M 4 Responses Jan 31

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    I literally find nothing beautiful

    or attractive about me. My eyes are too small, I have acne, my nose is weird, my mouth is small, my eyebrows are just ew, my hair is annoying and I don't like the length, my voice is weird, I hate my body, it's too fat and gross, I hate how short I am...I just hate everything...
    osnapitzama osnapitzama 18-21, F 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    WHY LIKE ME

    i cant spell im dyslexic im Bi and my mom hates me im in love with someone i cant have i cut and burn im a nerd i cry to much i get drunk(not all the time) i always seem to lose my friends and family im a wuss AND I WANNA DIE
    BloodyRaven BloodyRaven 16-17, F 17 Responses Jul 8, 2013

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    Suicide? noooo! Please DON'T.

    Don't do it! Never! There's always a better way. If you feel so miserable and you think it's the only way out, YOU'RE WRONG! If you're being bullied or abused or some people are just so stupid enough to not see your worth... don't give them the satisfaction of proving they were...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    Today I almost lost my girlfriend

    and I never hated myself more than now. They diagnosed her with carbon monoxide poisoning. She tried to kill herself and it's my fault! I hate myself for making her feel like she had to kill yourself. I hate myself for not being good enough. I hate myself for making her feel...
    LoloRegz LoloRegz 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 1

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    People Being Mean

    I have been hated so much for like my whole life, I have been bullied . So I have always hated myself
    Skatergirl16 Skatergirl16 16-17, F 15 Responses Nov 20, 2013

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    My abusive ex just texted me

    and all my sad emotions and memorise has come back i thought i was done with him i thought he would never come back again we didnt talk in years i changed my number, but i forgot he has my fb account weeks ago he texted me in another social network i told him you are mistaken...
    Collegegirl23 Collegegirl23 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 18

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    I really really hate myself,

    ...ggrrrrr... I shouldn't done this and that... I should have done this and that... what if, what if, what if...there are so many what if's.. I just hate it,..I really really hate myself..:( :( :(...I want to shout out loud...I HATE MY SELF....
    shy07me shy07me 26-30, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I have no friends people hate me The only thing

    I ever get told is I'm a pig and I hurt people purposely
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I hate myself so much.

    I despise my size and hate it when I realize just how curvy I am. I want to be a tooth pick so badly. I have tried working out, I only gained muscle, I dont eat unhealthy, I just don't know what else to do but to go the weight loss pill route. so I guess I'm headed there next...
    Caitlinsmith1636 Caitlinsmith1636 18-21, F 7 Responses Jan 24

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    Self Versus Self

    Please listen to me for once. You're not what you seem to show to people, you won't let them in but they feel your darkness.I'm not worth their time, I have to solve my issues on my own.You can't do this alone.Yes I can, I know where my problems stem from.Shut the **** up so I...
    CaptainMurphy CaptainMurphy 22-25, M 2 Responses May 23, 2013

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    I just want people to understand me

    and not go against me every time I say something.
    KT3535 KT3535 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    I made a promise to myself,

    one that I haven't kept. me and my mom never had a good relationship, and this particular day after picking me up from my dad's she went to shower after we got to her house and I remember standing at the bottom of the stairs while she was at the top she was naked and talking to...
    pricklytickk pricklytickk 22-25, F Feb 1

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    I do...I am 21 and no

    where near where I feel I should be in my life. I have made so many mistakes growing up as a kid and in my teen years. I feel so inadequate and pathetic in everything I try to acheive. My motivation to get through life is shot. I'm at the point where I don't want to deal with...
    Jason947 Jason947 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 30

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    Been There, It Gets Better

    If you hate yourself, it means you have empathy. It means you're human. It means you care so much about others that you're willing to damage yourself for their sake. It means you punish yourself so cruelly every second of most every day, for the sake of those you love, and...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 42 Responses May 6, 2012

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    I hate you so much. You're

    so disgusting. How do I even look at you in the mirror and actually believe what I see. You. Are. Disgusting. Get out of my sights! Why do you exist? You're a waste of space. No seriously, why are you alive? You can't even serve basic purposes. So close your eyes, smash...
    KilljoyKitty KilljoyKitty 18-21, F 12 Responses Nov 3, 2015

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    No guy wants me, no one likes me,

    and I HATE IT! I'm always there for them but they aren't there for me! :( Why do I bother to live when no guy finds me beautiful and wants me? What the **** is wrong with me? :(
    SeanaO SeanaO 22-25, F 30 Responses May 18, 2014

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    I'm sorry that I ruin everything.

    Maybe it would be best if I leave.
    Waffl3s Waffl3s 16-17 15 Responses Jan 8, 2015

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    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 22 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Mess

    ​My life is a mess. I'm an unattractive slob who's too loud and can't keep her grades up in school. Everyone thinks i'm just going through a faze, but I'm not. I'm depressed, and no one cares about me enough to see it. They think i'm fine. They don't know that I hide in my room...
    teenfailure teenfailure 18-21, F 17 Responses Dec 29, 2012

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    When you just know you suck at life & you're a

    ****** person & you deserve nothing that God has blessed you with I may not show it enough, but I am thankful for all I have
    Baer2113 Baer2113 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    I spend most of my time reminding myself how

    horrible I am and how much of a screw up I am.
    BarelyReal14 BarelyReal14 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 24

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    I can see it. I can feel it.

    I can taste it. I even touched it...more than once. I can see how broken everything is. I can feel it all. But most importantly, I sometimes feel like apart of something that's been broken and repaired and broken again as if I was a toy that was in constant need of repairs.
    AmazonDaughter AmazonDaughter 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    I know a lot of people are going to comment

    saying how stupid I am being. But I truly do not like myself. I've never told anyone this.. because it's kind of embarrassing. I like some things about myself.. but there are a lot of things I wish I could change. I run varsity cross country.. so my thigh gap is almost non...
    abbbbbby abbbbbby 16-17, F 18 Responses Sep 13, 2014

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