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I Hate Myself

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    I Hate Who I Am

    I hate what I see in the mirror. I hate my past. I hate my present. I hate everything I am. I go to bed every night wishing I would wakeup with some disease and only have a few months to live. Or that I would die on the way to work in a car wreck or have a massive heart attack...
    Sorriso Sorriso 46-50, M 299 Responses Jul 10, 2007

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    Never Happy Endings On These Dark Sets

    Its just all wrong. And the one thing that felt right went left. I climbed up and fell down. I woke up and fell asleep. I drove fast and flew by. I wanted and didn't take. I have fallen and can't get up. I attempted but failed. I studied and forgot. I felt like a winner but lost...
    ninerzoon ninerzoon 36-40, M 3 Responses May 13, 2013

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    ME

    I don't know...I guess its self explanatory really, I don't love myself. Every day I look at myself in the mirror and I hate it. I hate the fact that I hate myself, and its not just physically its also emotionally I hate who I am. I mean I know I'm being stupid but why would I...
    lifesize lifesize 22-25, F 17 Responses Apr 6, 2013

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    Never learn from my past experiences.

    It's like reading an old book and knowing how it ends but going ahead anyway. I should not be allowed to think. It's this hope for something better and maybe a bit different. I hate myself!
    gaeainchaos gaeainchaos 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 27 Responses 4 days ago

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    Sick Of It

    I can't even look in the mirror without wanting to punch the glass. I get so mad at what I am, everything is repulsive. Im so torn with wanting to be happy and just wallowing in this self hate. Im not good enough. My grades aren't good enough my personality, my weight, my face...
    kxrstxn kxrstxn 16-17, F 32 Responses Oct 20, 2013

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    Been There, It Gets Better

    If you hate yourself, it means you have empathy. It means you're human. It means you care so much about others that you're willing to damage yourself for their sake. It means you punish yourself so cruelly every second of most every day, for the sake of those you love, and...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 42 Responses May 6, 2012

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    I have to say my kids have to be the best in

    the world I really did a great job as a mom and dad to them now they have their own kids and they are doing a great job with them both I hate the fact that my second husband came into our lives to leave me after 17 years I hate myself because I aloud him into our lives I should...
    monica0215 monica0215 51-55, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    i've schizoid, avoidant,

    schizotypal as for online test that i've taken. i've no job and money. i've eat usually 1x a day. i never hold a job more than 7 months. 1've taken approx 10jobs in less 2year. can you imagine that? life is hard for me even more, because i live in bad/poor environment where...
    anonymous140385 anonymous140385 26-30, M 4 hrs ago

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    I really really do… :( Sounds awful,

    but it's whatever I guess.
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    i hate myself but I'm smarter

    than most of u so it makes it ok
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 24 Responses Dec 2

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    deadwoman1234567890 deadwoman1234567890 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    It Should Have Been Me

    I had a twin brother; when I was old enough my mother told me about him. He died a long time ago even before I was born. The doctor saved me but he was too weak. I tried to cope with it, the thought that I had a brother I'd never get to know. It was an accident, its something...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 11 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    Yesterday, with the help of a new friend,

    I've come to terms with how I really feel about myself. The truth is I hate myself. I always have. I'm fat, and it's always weighed me down (in more ways than one). So now I have a goal. I don't want to hate myself anymore. I want to be happy. My goal is to get a job somewhere...
    SerSean SerSean 18-21, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    sometimes i'm talking

    and i'm just like "shut the **** up"
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 10 Responses Nov 16

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    The Woman In The Mirror

    On nights like tonight. I sometimes wonder what others see in myself when at times I can't even see whats so special about me. Here the past 3-4 months. I've been extremely depressed and completely distant from those who matter the absolute most to me. At times I just want to...
    AmazinglyAmazing AmazinglyAmazing 22-25, F 16 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    Dreamscape98x Dreamscape98x 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    Even at this time of the year I still feel like

    no cares I'm thinking of starving myself to death Thinking haven't thought if I'm doing yet
    killam42 killam42 16-17, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I'm nothing but a ugly,

    weirdo,creepy,stupid,retarded,dumb,idiotic, poor,loser. I'm nothing, but what they call me. They were right all along. Everything they said and say about me is true. That's why at school they get away with saying these things.I hate myself so much.
    wassup305 wassup305 13-15, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    Goody Two Shoes Freak

    I was always that weird quiet kid who always knew the answer in school.  My family moved a lot and I was introverted so I didn't have many friends and honestly, I didn't really want any.  I hated kids my age for being stupid and cruel to each other.  I hated adults...
    seafall seafall 22-25 22 Responses Aug 21, 2008

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    i hate myself on what id become

    because of complicated relationship. i lose my confidence,my joy, i became jealous, alone and clingy. i hate it..
    annettesan annettesan 36-40, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Ghost21z Ghost21z 16-17, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Born The Wrong Way...

    You will laugh, you will judge me, you won't understand... But still I want to write it. It began when I was little, I was only five and I already hated myself. I hated the fact that looking in the mirror was painful. I was looking at myself and thinking 'this is not me!'. I...
    JJTKM JJTKM 16-17 19 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    How can I learn to except myself?

    I'm 24 years old and I still find my self to be the ugliest woman walking the planet earth And it's because I'm a very dark skinned black woman. I've had ONE boyfriend in my whole life and it didn't really last to long. My skin color considered unattractive and my hair is...
    MareViCiOUS MareViCiOUS 22-25, F 21 Responses Jan 7

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    SalilaKhan SalilaKhan 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I've become so warped cynical

    and bitter... I'm not outwardly bitter not without good reason anyway I can't stand it I used to be so bright so colorful now it just seems im different hues of grey Im stronger but at what cost? My trust? My faith? What good is faith? Its never gotten me anywhere certainly...
    Kitten2514 Kitten2514 22-25, F 16 hrs ago

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    Self Versus Self

    Please listen to me for once. You're not what you seem to show to people, you won't let them in but they feel your darkness.I'm not worth their time, I have to solve my issues on my own.You can't do this alone.Yes I can, I know where my problems stem from.Shut the **** up so I...
    CaptainMurphy CaptainMurphy 22-25, M 3 Responses May 23, 2013

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    Just Venting

    I swear I'm worthless, I claim to be so ******* strong then why can't I help the ones I care so much about. What is even the point of being alive if I can't even be of some use? Everyone keeps telling me that I need to stop worrying about everyone else for once and have someone...
    sagesbones sagesbones 18-21, M 9 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    Woke up today at 1pm

    because I had stayed up the previous night until 3am talking with one of my best friends. I was feeling well at first, but when I got out of bed and stared at my reflection in the mirror my mood just decreased (I sleep naked...yeah.). I'm so skinny and I ******* hate it. I was...
    losingNemo losingNemo 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Not Easy To Change That...

    What I have to do is learn how to accept that I'm not perfect.Β  Accept that I've been banged up mentally pretty badly. Accept that I'm older now, that I will have bad days, that I will hurt..Β Β  That I will be depressed. that there are times I'll hurt so badly I'll need to sob...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 7 Responses Jul 22, 2011

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    I Hate Myself

    I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F 12 Responses Aug 1, 2011

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    I hate myself because I broke up with my

    boyfriend and he's a amazing guy and all but there was little things I didn't like and it lead us to breaking up and I want him back because he's all I thing about! And I just hate myself and I don't know if I'm suppost to get over him or just give it time :(
    Alonzoisgay Alonzoisgay 13-15, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    im exactly what society hates.

    im darkskin. im too bony. i have no *** or boobs. i look like a boy in th body. im not even good in the face. i should just commit suicide now.
    msgrlfriend msgrlfriend 22-25, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    I Am Incapable of Doing Anything Worthwhile.

    I am a thirty-something overweight single woman with two cats a messy condo with late mortgage payments who can't find her checkbook atm or credit card hasn't started a huge presentation that i have to give at work in eighteen hours and just knows that i will die alone in this f...
    afjsdkl afjsdkl 31-35, F 39 Responses Nov 19, 2006

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    Pure Hatred

    I hate everything about me. my eyes my smile. but i do love my mind. why? because i can dream and run away from everything that is making my life hell. everyday i wake up wishing i hadn't. seems like everything that comes out of my mouth irritates someone. whenever i touch...
    SkinnyJeansAndSnakeBites SkinnyJeansAndSnakeBites 13-15, F 13 Responses Oct 7, 2012

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    Big time, right now..

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    MeowOnMe MeowOnMe 18-21, F 7 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm so pathetic, first let me say I'm not up

    here biitching so I can get attention. now for the biitching................ I am starting to feel like a loser again. like no matter what I do I won't be able to break my mold. like no matter what my dad does he won't help me break mines either. I want to learn logic right now...
    dksl14 dksl14 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    It sucks to be smart enough to know you're

    retarded. I think I rather just be full on retarded rather than see all my classmates succeed while I get left in the dust.Left behind with nothing but a terrible future.
    wassup305 wassup305 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I haven't let myself feel anything

    for the last 7 years. Sure, I've put on the appropriate faces for the right occassion. Grief, forced happiness, sadness...tonight I don't know what happened. I was sitting alone watching TV and it's like someone flipped a switch. Everything from the last seven years is...
    MsInked511 MsInked511 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 21

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    I Can't Do a Damn Thing

    I hate myself. and I hate that I have to tell people online that i hate myself. I don't lack good friends but i wouldnt dare telling most of them as it's so much "cooler" to be happy. I'm jelous of everyone and i don't know how to fix this. I really really don't want to admit...
    DanHughes DanHughes 21-25, M 19 Responses Apr 6, 2007

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    I hate myself. My personality is stale,

    no matter how hard I try , i just cannot fit in with other people. I feel lonely all the time which is all down to the lack of social skills I have. I hate my face, hair, body, everything... I wish I was like the others and because I'm not is why I ******* hate myself.. How is...
    StressedAndBandObsessed StressedAndBandObsessed 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    WHY LIKE ME

    i cant spell im dyslexic im Bi and my mom hates me im in love with someone i cant have i cut and burn im a nerd i cry to much i get drunk(not all the time) i always seem to lose my friends and family im a wuss AND I WANNA DIE
    BloodyRaven BloodyRaven 13-15, F 16 Responses Jul 8, 2013

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    I'm a worthless, repulsive,

    pathetic excuse for a human being. I can't do anything right, can I? I want to cut my arms to shreds right now. God knows I deserve it.
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    No guy wants me, no one likes me,

    and I HATE IT! I'm always there for them but they aren't there for me! :( Why do I bother to live when no guy finds me beautiful and wants me? What the **** is wrong with me? :(
    SeanaO SeanaO 18-21, F 20 Responses May 18

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    I am not good looking.

    I am not a genius. I am not hardworking. I am not extroverted and sociable. I am not living in the present. I am not happy. I am not interested in the things that most people are interested in. I am not confident. I am not normal. I am not worth anything. I am not good enough. I...
    Arrrbol Arrrbol 18-21, M 18 Responses May 12

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    I can't eat today, I don't need to gain any

    more weight. I need to start working out again and build myself up for transitioning.
    RyleeFTM RyleeFTM 13-15, M 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    Sick Of Beind Depressed? Enjoyment Vs Pleasure

    When depressed, we turn to drugs, meaningless sex, alcohol, food full of fat and sugar, movies, video games, etc. These all give us small spikes of pleasure and do some good in lifting the gloom, but when it's over, what's left? We have less money, possibly STDs, gain weight...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 14 Responses Jul 1, 2012

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    im so done with myself tonight.

    ... **** me and how shy i am. i hate not being able to think honestly to myself, much less talk to anybody. i just cant do it.... ive tried so hard, but i still cant say a damn thing that isnt a lie...... so that makes me a piece of **** asking to die, cause i cant say the truth...
    Pigmaginny Pigmaginny 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I hate waking up feeling nothing

    but physical pain. I hate not being motivated, i want to wake up either terrified or overly exited but instead my life is a dead line.
    SarahTheEnigma SarahTheEnigma 16-17, F 10 Responses Oct 5

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    I don't care if you are underweight

    or over weight. I don't care if you have braces, frizzy hair, acne, or a disability. I don't care, because to me: YOU ARE BEAUTIFULπŸ’•
    AmandaRachael AmandaRachael 13-15, F 9 Responses Dec 20, 2013

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    I hate myself more than anyone else ever could.

    Yes. I hate myself THAT much.
    junglejimlove junglejimlove 16-17, F 14 Responses 3 days ago

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