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I Hate Myself

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    Yesterday I competed at the state academic team

    thing in Louisville. And I made so many mistakes. I don't know if I'll be able to forgive myself for some of this. I'll always be the idiot that thought Sophocles wrote Lysistrata. It was Aristophanes. The question was which did Sophocles not write. The options were Lysistrata...
    AshleyWCSloth AshleyWCSloth 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 16

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    Never Happy Endings On These Dark Sets

    Its just all wrong. And the one thing that felt right went left. I climbed up and fell down. I woke up and fell asleep. I drove fast and flew by. I wanted and didn't take. I have fallen and can't get up. I attempted but failed. I studied and forgot. I felt like a winner but lost...
    ninerzoon ninerzoon 36-40, M 3 Responses May 13, 2013

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    Screaming !!!!!!!!!!!

    !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God help me i gonna lose my mind. I know i dont have the heart to kill myself so I know imma lose my mind so much pain so much disappointments. My heart is heavy I am so angry
    Icantgiveupnow Icantgiveupnow 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 17

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    I'm sorry that I ruin everything.

    Maybe it would be best if I leave.
    Waffl3s Waffl3s 13-15, F 16 Responses Jan 8

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    Pure Hatred

    I hate everything about me. my eyes my smile. but i do love my mind. why? because i can dream and run away from everything that is making my life hell. everyday i wake up wishing i hadn't. seems like everything that comes out of my mouth irritates someone. whenever i touch...
    SkinnyJeansAndSnakeBites SkinnyJeansAndSnakeBites 16-17, F 13 Responses Oct 7, 2012

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    I really can't get myself most of the time.

    I am a funny person but my mood change quickly. I always fake a smile. I am fine at one moment and then the next I hate myself and I don't know what to do anymore. My life is becoming a living hell.
    RedThatDescribesMe RedThatDescribesMe 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 15

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    Feel so discourage. Feel like life is not worth

    living.Feel like nothing will get better.so many tears and no smiles.I cannot manage anymore. No one to talk to no one who cares.I hate being so sad and miserable .I hate not enjoying life .l hate that I feel so much pain .I hate the insecurities. I'm done why bother
    Icantgiveupnow Icantgiveupnow 22-25, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    Sick Of Beind Depressed? Enjoyment Vs Pleasure

    When depressed, we turn to drugs, meaningless sex, alcohol, food full of fat and sugar, movies, video games, etc. These all give us small spikes of pleasure and do some good in lifting the gloom, but when it's over, what's left? We have less money, possibly STDs, gain weight...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 15 Responses Jul 1, 2012

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    johnlee1527 johnlee1527 18-21, M Mar 16

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    i hate myself but I'm smarter

    than most of u so it makes it ok
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 19 Responses Dec 2, 2014

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    I know a lot of people are going to comment

    saying how stupid I am being. But I truly do not like myself. I've never told anyone this.. because it's kind of embarrassing. I like some things about myself.. but there are a lot of things I wish I could change. I run varsity cross country.. so my thigh gap is almost non...
    abbbbbby abbbbbby 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 13, 2014

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    WHY LIKE ME

    i cant spell im dyslexic im Bi and my mom hates me im in love with someone i cant have i cut and burn im a nerd i cry to much i get drunk(not all the time) i always seem to lose my friends and family im a wuss AND I WANNA DIE
    BloodyRaven BloodyRaven 13-15, F 17 Responses Jul 8, 2013

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    No guy wants me, no one likes me,

    and I HATE IT! I'm always there for them but they aren't there for me! :( Why do I bother to live when no guy finds me beautiful and wants me? What the **** is wrong with me? :(
    SeanaO SeanaO 18-21, F 23 Responses May 18, 2014

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    Sick Of It

    I can't even look in the mirror without wanting to punch the glass. I get so mad at what I am, everything is repulsive. Im so torn with wanting to be happy and just wallowing in this self hate. Im not good enough. My grades aren't good enough my personality, my weight, my face...
    kxrstxn kxrstxn 16-17, F 30 Responses Oct 20, 2013

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    Not Easy To Change That...

    What I have to do is learn how to accept that I'm not perfect.  Accept that I've been banged up mentally pretty badly. Accept that I'm older now, that I will have bad days, that I will hurt..   That I will be depressed. that there are times I'll hurt so badly I'll need to sob...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 7 Responses Jul 22, 2011

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    Been There, It Gets Better

    If you hate yourself, it means you have empathy. It means you're human. It means you care so much about others that you're willing to damage yourself for their sake. It means you punish yourself so cruelly every second of most every day, for the sake of those you love, and...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 42 Responses May 6, 2012

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    I seriously just want to rip my eyes out

    so I don't have to look at myself. I hate myself. I hate the way I look. I am a failure at 21 I feel so horrible. I just don't tell anyone how much I hate myself. I let everyone think km happy when I'm not. I'm not happy. I'm really not.
    niafiend niafiend 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    I Hate Myself

    I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F 14 Responses Aug 1, 2011

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    ME

    I don't know...I guess its self explanatory really, I don't love myself. Every day I look at myself in the mirror and I hate it. I hate the fact that I hate myself, and its not just physically its also emotionally I hate who I am. I mean I know I'm being stupid but why would I...
    lifesize lifesize 22-25, F 17 Responses Apr 6, 2013

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    I'm not enough. I'm not enough.

    I'm not enough. It's not an opinion, to me, it's a fact. I've never been enough. I'm ugly. I'm clinically obese. I'm not one bit desirable. Trust me, I know this.
    Mxrbid Mxrbid 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    How can I learn to except myself?

    I'm 24 years old and I still find my self to be the ugliest woman walking the planet earth And it's because I'm a very dark skinned black woman. I've had ONE boyfriend in my whole life and it didn't really last to long. My skin color considered unattractive and my hair is...
    MareViCiOUS MareViCiOUS 22-25, F 21 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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    I hate having you see me at my worst.

    I am really sorry. Its all my fault.
    BlackAsBlackCouldEverBe BlackAsBlackCouldEverBe 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    My mother makes me feel like a stupid *****

    because I have a boyfriend who wants to do more than just hold my hand on occasion. I feel worthless because of her and it's not fair.
    JellyfishPrincess JellyfishPrincess 13-15, F Mar 19

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    I could barely look at myself in the mirror.

    I wish I could take pictures of myself without disgust. I wish I was one of the cool guys that can talk to girls. I hate myself so much I want people to beat me up and insult me.
    ForeverALoser ForeverALoser 22-25, M 4 Responses Mar 15

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    Born The Wrong Way...

    You will laugh, you will judge me, you won't understand... But still I want to write it. It began when I was little, I was only five and I already hated myself. I hated the fact that looking in the mirror was painful. I was looking at myself and thinking 'this is not me!'. I...
    JJTKM JJTKM 16-17 19 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    I dont want to live anymore,

    but i am too scared to kill myself. Hope I die soon!
    misterweirdo misterweirdo 22-25, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I Am Incapable of Doing Anything Worthwhile.

    I am a thirty-something overweight single woman with two cats a messy condo with late mortgage payments who can't find her checkbook atm or credit card hasn't started a huge presentation that i have to give at work in eighteen hours and just knows that i will die alone in this f...
    afjsdkl afjsdkl 31-35, F 39 Responses Nov 19, 2006

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    I should've just killed myself along time ago.

    I serve no purpose, I'm waste of space, and a waste of life.
    TeethTheSizeOfPianoKeys TeethTheSizeOfPianoKeys 18-21, M 30 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    I hate waking up feeling nothing

    but physical pain. I hate not being motivated, i want to wake up either terrified or overly exited but instead my life is a dead line.
    SarahTheEnigma SarahTheEnigma 16-17, F 9 Responses Oct 5, 2014

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    i hate my self. no one takes me seriously.

    i have a husband that hates me and ive destroyed his life just by meeting him. i have 2 children with him. i feel eorry for him. he refuses to leave because he doesnt want to be away from his kids again. sometimes i just wish life would take me away forever.
    leahwh leahwh 22-25, F 9 mins ago

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    People Being Mean

    I have been hated so much for like my whole life, I have been bullied . So I have always hated myself
    Skatergirl16 Skatergirl16 13-15, F 16 Responses Nov 20, 2013

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    Mess

    ​My life is a mess. I'm an unattractive slob who's too loud and can't keep her grades up in school. Everyone thinks i'm just going through a faze, but I'm not. I'm depressed, and no one cares about me enough to see it. They think i'm fine. They don't know that I hide in my room...
    teenfailure teenfailure 16-17, F 16 Responses Dec 29, 2012

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    I've eaten way to much today,

    I do everyday, just binge and comfort eat. I feel discusting and fat now. I just want to stop eating and drop 3 stone immediately. I want my old clothes to fit and I want to be skinny.
    Unicornpeasant Unicornpeasant 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 18

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    Self Versus Self

    Please listen to me for once. You're not what you seem to show to people, you won't let them in but they feel your darkness.I'm not worth their time, I have to solve my issues on my own.You can't do this alone.Yes I can, I know where my problems stem from.Shut the **** up so I...
    CaptainMurphy CaptainMurphy 22-25, M 2 Responses May 23, 2013

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    I Hate Who I Am

    I hate what I see in the mirror. I hate my past. I hate my present. I hate everything I am. I go to bed every night wishing I would wakeup with some disease and only have a few months to live. Or that I would die on the way to work in a car wreck or have a massive heart attack...
    Sorriso Sorriso 46-50, M 300 Responses Jul 10, 2007

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    barbish barbish 18-21, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    im done. i cant do it anymore.

    the anger and hate towards myself is too great. i just cant take it anymore. im tired of looking like an idiot always making a fool outta myself. im just a failure at everything even when i do my best. im tired of hurting everyone i love i think all of them would be much better...
    arias831 arias831 22-25, M 3 Responses Mar 18

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    Dreamscape98x Dreamscape98x 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2014

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    i hate myself i dont want to feel like this

    anymore should i take some very strong painkillers to feel nuthing i cant cope
    givenupforever givenupforever 22-25, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    When I was in college,

    I had to do a class project with a group of 5 others. There were two girls in the group who seemed really outgoing and nice and fun, and I tried to not be my stupid awkward, antisocial, shy, introverted self and interact with them. They said they'd keep in touch and promised...
    Somethinglikethat4 Somethinglikethat4 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am just an awful person,

    I really can't stand myself :(
    Awhiteorchid Awhiteorchid 18-21, F 8 Responses Mar 18

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    Just Venting

    I swear I'm worthless, I claim to be so ******* strong then why can't I help the ones I care so much about. What is even the point of being alive if I can't even be of some use? Everyone keeps telling me that I need to stop worrying about everyone else for once and have someone...
    sagesbones sagesbones 18-21, M 9 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    every time I pass a mirror I look at myself

    and say I am so freaking ugly. everyone tells me I'm pretty but I know that is so not true. I hate myself. I'm nothing. I'm a failure. And most important I'm worthless.
    DontKnow2013 DontKnow2013 18-21, F 17 Responses 4 days ago

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    No matter how many times people tell me i'm a

    good person I feel fundamentally evil. I hate everything about myself, the way I look and the way I talk. I feel like I contribute nothing good to the world.
    LinkinParkMuse LinkinParkMuse 26-30, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I hate how much of a pushover I am.

    It's been that way since I was a little kid, and it hasn't changed now that I'm an adult. I'm just so sick of everyone treating me like I'm some insignificant little speck who needs her hand held and be told what to do. I wish I were brave, more confident in myself and the...
    warclaw warclaw 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't know how to stop being

    so self loathing. Maybe if I was a better person and I actually did what I could be proud of, I wouldn't hate myself so much. I don't want to go the rest of this year with regrets. I guess it's time to endure intense pain and get to where I want to be. I don't care if I cry at...
    stellag23 stellag23 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I had a wonderful loving,

    sweet amazing boyfriend who I loved with all my heart and I treated him like a doormat. I broke his heart, I stomped on it and spit on it and laughed about it. I hurt him so badly he will probably never speak to me again and I feel like I don't deserve friends or even to live. I...
    revoirpendant revoirpendant 36-40 1 Response Mar 14