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I Hate Myself

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    Born The Wrong Way...

    You will laugh, you will judge me, you won't understand... But still I want to write it. It began when I was little, I was only five and I already hated myself. I hated the fact that looking in the mirror was painful. I was looking at myself and thinking 'this is not me!'. I...
    JJTKM JJTKM 16-17 18 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    WHY LIKE ME

    i cant spell im dyslexic im Bi and my mom hates me im in love with someone i cant have i cut and burn im a nerd i cry to much i get drunk(not all the time) i always seem to lose my friends and family im a wuss AND I WANNA DIE
    BloodyRaven BloodyRaven 16-17, F 17 Responses Jul 8, 2013

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    Today I almost lost my girlfriend

    and I never hated myself more than now. They diagnosed her with carbon monoxide poisoning. She tried to kill herself and it's my fault! I hate myself for making her feel like she had to kill yourself. I hate myself for not being good enough. I hate myself for making her feel...
    LoloRegz LoloRegz 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    Not Easy To Change That...

    What I have to do is learn how to accept that I'm not perfect.  Accept that I've been banged up mentally pretty badly. Accept that I'm older now, that I will have bad days, that I will hurt..   That I will be depressed. that there are times I'll hurt so badly I'll need to sob...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 6 Responses Jul 22, 2011

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    I spend most of my time reminding myself how

    horrible I am and how much of a screw up I am.
    BarelyReal14 BarelyReal14 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 24

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    I'm so close to jumping out my window I'm

    trapped I don't want to be alive anymore at all. I'm sick of my life in every way, my death will convey a message to my abusive mother and her ignorant ******* ways.
    BeCautious1 BeCautious1 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 17

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    I really have been struggling with this lately.

    .. well more like for the past 7 or so months. I ******* hate myself, I hate that I'm useless and can't bring home any income, I hate that I can't do hardly anything due to my chronic back and hip pain. I hate that I can't eat hardly anything anymore because I'm now diabetic... I...
    GoldenHeart69 GoldenHeart69 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    Sick Of Beind Depressed? Enjoyment Vs Pleasure

    When depressed, we turn to drugs, meaningless sex, alcohol, food full of fat and sugar, movies, video games, etc. These all give us small spikes of pleasure and do some good in lifting the gloom, but when it's over, what's left? We have less money, possibly STDs, gain weight...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 14 Responses Jul 1, 2012

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    Mess

    ​My life is a mess. I'm an unattractive slob who's too loud and can't keep her grades up in school. Everyone thinks i'm just going through a faze, but I'm not. I'm depressed, and no one cares about me enough to see it. They think i'm fine. They don't know that I hide in my room...
    teenfailure teenfailure 18-21, F 17 Responses Dec 29, 2012

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    Im tired of being a complete fool.

    I always embarass myself no matter what!!! I can't do anything right!!!! I'm tired of people telling me to be more confident in myself but for that small moment when I let go of all the insecurity that's holding me back and have a shred of confidence in what I'm saying or doing...
    FemaIeWeezy FemaIeWeezy 18-21, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 22 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    I wish I could act normal without thinking

    about what people think of my body. I want to just chill with my shirt off, but I hate my body so much.
    toprainbow toprainbow 18-21, M 12 Responses Sep 13, 2015

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    i hate myself but I'm smarter

    than most of u so it makes it ok
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 14 Responses Dec 2, 2014

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    ive figured it out who i am.

    from Charlie the Unicorn: STARFISH LOVES YOU! !!!!! Its a special moment when you figure such things out.
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M 13 hrs ago

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    I just want people to understand me

    and not go against me every time I say something.
    KT3535 KT3535 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    I hate you so much. You're

    so disgusting. How do I even look at you in the mirror and actually believe what I see. You. Are. Disgusting. Get out of my sights! Why do you exist? You're a waste of space. No seriously, why are you alive? You can't even serve basic purposes. So close your eyes, smash...
    KilljoyKitty KilljoyKitty 18-21, F 13 Responses Nov 3, 2015

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    People Being Mean

    I have been hated so much for like my whole life, I have been bullied . So I have always hated myself
    Skatergirl16 Skatergirl16 16-17, F 15 Responses Nov 20, 2013

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    Never Happy Endings On These Dark Sets

    Its just all wrong. And the one thing that felt right went left. I climbed up and fell down. I woke up and fell asleep. I drove fast and flew by. I wanted and didn't take. I have fallen and can't get up. I attempted but failed. I studied and forgot. I felt like a winner but lost...
    ninerzoon ninerzoon 36-40, M 3 Responses May 13, 2013

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    Pure Hatred

    I hate everything about me. my eyes my smile. but i do love my mind. why? because i can dream and run away from everything that is making my life hell. everyday i wake up wishing i hadn't. seems like everything that comes out of my mouth irritates someone. whenever i touch...
    SkinnyJeansAndSnakeBites SkinnyJeansAndSnakeBites 16-17, F 13 Responses Oct 7, 2012

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    graceycoops1997 graceycoops1997 18-21, F 11 Responses May 27, 2015

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    Been There, It Gets Better

    If you hate yourself, it means you have empathy. It means you're human. It means you care so much about others that you're willing to damage yourself for their sake. It means you punish yourself so cruelly every second of most every day, for the sake of those you love, and...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 42 Responses May 6, 2012

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    I don't care if you are underweight

    or over weight. I don't care if you have braces, frizzy hair, acne, or a disability. I don't care, because to me: YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL💕
    AmandaRachael AmandaRachael 16-17, F 8 Responses Dec 20, 2013

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    I know a lot of people are going to comment

    saying how stupid I am being. But I truly do not like myself. I've never told anyone this.. because it's kind of embarrassing. I like some things about myself.. but there are a lot of things I wish I could change. I run varsity cross country.. so my thigh gap is almost non...
    abbbbbby abbbbbby 16-17, F 18 Responses Sep 13, 2014

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    I can see it. I can feel it.

    I can taste it. I even touched it...more than once. I can see how broken everything is. I can feel it all. But most importantly, I sometimes feel like apart of something that's been broken and repaired and broken again as if I was a toy that was in constant need of repairs.
    AmazonDaughter AmazonDaughter 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    Self Versus Self

    Please listen to me for once. You're not what you seem to show to people, you won't let them in but they feel your darkness.I'm not worth their time, I have to solve my issues on my own.You can't do this alone.Yes I can, I know where my problems stem from.Shut the **** up so I...
    CaptainMurphy CaptainMurphy 22-25, M 2 Responses May 23, 2013

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    I've been acting like the biggest **** to all

    my friends and new people I meet, and I have no clue why, but it bothers me like crazy. I can't sleep at night knowing I'm as mean as I am.
    jroyal32 jroyal32 16-17, M 3 Responses Jan 24

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    I Hate Who I Am

    I hate what I see in the mirror. I hate my past. I hate my present. I hate everything I am. I go to bed every night wishing I would wakeup with some disease and only have a few months to live. Or that I would die on the way to work in a car wreck or have a massive heart attack...
    Sorriso Sorriso 46-50, M 299 Responses Jul 10, 2007

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    just what it says. a ******* fool too f_n

    stupid to understand that no one gives a **** about his whining. stop thinking you matter. you are nothing. this world does not need you...no one needs you. die right now and no one would care. in fact it would make people happy.
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M Jan 24

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    I Am Incapable of Doing Anything Worthwhile.

    I am a thirty-something overweight single woman with two cats a messy condo with late mortgage payments who can't find her checkbook atm or credit card hasn't started a huge presentation that i have to give at work in eighteen hours and just knows that i will die alone in this f...
    afjsdkl afjsdkl 31-35, F 39 Responses Nov 19, 2006

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    I hate myself today. Idk what is happening to

    me. I hate my face today. I think I look so ******. - soko
    LittleUnicorn LittleUnicorn 18-21 5 Responses a week ago

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    Nobody understands what I'm going through.

    They either think I'm lying or they just think I think I have depression or something, when I know for a matter of a fact I don't. I know that many teenagers go through puppetry and stuff but this feels different. Everyday I have to plan out the things that I do so I don't seem...
    KT3535 KT3535 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 22

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    Normally I do not hate myself

    but lately a lot of my past failures are surfacing and I feel like I am a big incompetent idiot. Where was my brain when I was doing all that stuff? My boss is great though but even she will have her breaking point with me, I am afraid. Now I don't want to do anything for fear...
    mljenkins mljenkins 41-45, F Jan 15

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    Everytime I see the girl my ex likes it feels

    like a reminder that I'm not good enough for him. I know this thinking is bs but I can't help it. I feel like she's prettier, smarter, younger, funnier, and more talented than me and I understand why he chose her over me. He said it was because she's an actress and I'm not. I...
    AquaQ AquaQ 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    My abusive ex just texted me

    and all my sad emotions and memorise has come back i thought i was done with him i thought he would never come back again we didnt talk in years i changed my number, but i forgot he has my fb account weeks ago he texted me in another social network i told him you are mistaken...
    Collegegirl23 Collegegirl23 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 18

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    Sick Of It

    I can't even look in the mirror without wanting to punch the glass. I get so mad at what I am, everything is repulsive. Im so torn with wanting to be happy and just wallowing in this self hate. Im not good enough. My grades aren't good enough my personality, my weight, my face...
    kxrstxn kxrstxn 16-17, F 30 Responses Oct 20, 2013

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    It Should Have Been Me

    I had a twin brother; when I was old enough my mother told me about him. He died a long time ago even before I was born. The doctor saved me but he was too weak. I tried to cope with it, the thought that I had a brother I'd never get to know. It was an accident, its something...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    I have no friends people hate me The only thing

    I ever get told is I'm a pig and I hurt people purposely
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Do you know what it's like to not be accepted,

    for people to hate you and you just expect it, you look in the mirror and you hate your reflection! Errrgh! 😡 ************!
    MarijuanaAbuser MarijuanaAbuser 18-21, M 10 Responses Aug 12, 2015

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    I do . I hate myself ,

    I hate my life I hate having PTSD . I hate having no friends . I hate getting upset / depressed and anxious over nothing . I just hate this . my life . everything.
    roseblood123 roseblood123 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 15

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    ME

    I don't know...I guess its self explanatory really, I don't love myself. Every day I look at myself in the mirror and I hate it. I hate the fact that I hate myself, and its not just physically its also emotionally I hate who I am. I mean I know I'm being stupid but why would I...
    lifesize lifesize 22-25, F 16 Responses Apr 6, 2013

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    I do...I am 21 and no

    where near where I feel I should be in my life. I have made so many mistakes growing up as a kid and in my teen years. I feel so inadequate and pathetic in everything I try to acheive. My motivation to get through life is shot. I'm at the point where I don't want to deal with...
    Jason947 Jason947 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Just Venting

    I swear I'm worthless, I claim to be so ******* strong then why can't I help the ones I care so much about. What is even the point of being alive if I can't even be of some use? Everyone keeps telling me that I need to stop worrying about everyone else for once and have someone...
    sagesbones sagesbones 18-21, M 9 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    I hate the way I am. I hate my personality.

    I'm such a jerk. I've been thinking about the past and the friends I've had and I came to realize that I am such a jerk. I'm so ungrateful and theirs nothing about me to like. I'm trying to change but it's so hard. My family doesn't make it any better because I strongly dislike...
    EnigmaticPerson EnigmaticPerson 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 17

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    No guy wants me, no one likes me,

    and I HATE IT! I'm always there for them but they aren't there for me! :( Why do I bother to live when no guy finds me beautiful and wants me? What the **** is wrong with me? :(
    SeanaO SeanaO 22-25, F 30 Responses May 18, 2014

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    I hate myself so much.

    I despise my size and hate it when I realize just how curvy I am. I want to be a tooth pick so badly. I have tried working out, I only gained muscle, I dont eat unhealthy, I just don't know what else to do but to go the weight loss pill route. so I guess I'm headed there next...
    Caitlinsmith1636 Caitlinsmith1636 18-21, F 7 Responses Jan 24

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