I Hate Myself

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    I know a lot of people are going to comment

    saying how stupid I am being. But I truly do not like myself. I've never told anyone this.. because it's kind of embarrassing. I like some things about myself.. but there are a lot of things I wish I could change. I run varsity cross country.. so my thigh gap is almost non...
    abbbbbby abbbbbby
    18-21, F
    18 Responses Sep 13, 2014

    Been There, It Gets Better

    If you hate yourself, it means you have empathy. It means you're human. It means you care so much about others that you're willing to damage yourself for their sake. It means you punish yourself so cruelly every second of most every day, for the sake of those you love, and...
    slow4speed slow4speed
    22-25, F
    42 Responses May 6, 2012

    I Hate Who I Am

    I hate what I see in the mirror. I hate my past. I hate my present. I hate everything I am. I go to bed every night wishing I would wakeup with some disease and only have a few months to live. Or that I would die on the way to work in a car wreck or have a massive heart attack...
    Sorriso Sorriso
    46-50, M
    299 Responses Jul 10, 2007

    Im a terrible person.

    ..i drove my ex into insanity by telling him I was bad luck and I didnt need anyone in my life. Everything I said was true im better off alone then around people. When I get close to someone I only hurt them.
    Destiny8907 Destiny8907
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 1, 2016

    Sitting hear, curled up in a ball,

    tears streaming down my face, no one knows, no one cares, not even the person reading this, life really is ****, **** **** ****.
    bethhawkins15 bethhawkins15
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 9, 2016

    Today felt great. But it wasn't.

    I was myself. I was unreserved and filterless and somehow, that freaked everyone out. they say I set the bar so high usually that when I act crazy it's weird. I understand the relativity they're talking about, but it still hurts. I just hate myself so much right now. I hate...
    mirrorimage99 mirrorimage99
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 2, 2016

    I Am Incapable of Doing Anything Worthwhile.

    I am a thirty-something overweight single woman with two cats a messy condo with late mortgage payments who can't find her checkbook atm or credit card hasn't started a huge presentation that i have to give at work in eighteen hours and just knows that i will die alone in this f...
    afjsdkl afjsdkl
    31-35, F
    38 Responses Nov 19, 2006

    I thought by this age I would have at least a

    little love for myself but it feels like the opposite is true. Do thinks ever really get better?
    Chellie85 Chellie85
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 14, 2016

    Well, today I came home from a friends house

    early, because I completely forgot I had an appointment with a client made today for her hair to be colored. I'm only 18 and will be graduated from high school in two months, so, obviously I live with my mom still. I had colored this clients daughter's hair recently and I came...
    NinaPants97 NinaPants97
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 26, 2016

    i hate myself so much.

    theres no words to experience how much i want to ******* die all of the time, i fantasise about jumping in front of cars and trains all the time just to get away from myself. im so sorry to all the people that ever met me because i know deep down they secretly hate me. even my...
    goodgonegirl goodgonegirl
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 12, 2016

    I should've just killed myself along time ago.

    I serve no purpose, I'm waste of space, and a waste of life.
    ACyanideSurprise ACyanideSurprise
    22-25, M
    23 Responses Dec 30, 2014

    Pure Hatred

    I hate everything about me. my eyes my smile. but i do love my mind. why? because i can dream and run away from everything that is making my life hell. everyday i wake up wishing i hadn't. seems like everything that comes out of my mouth irritates someone. whenever i touch...
    SkinnyJeansAndSnakeBites SkinnyJeansAndSnakeBites
    18-21, F
    13 Responses Oct 7, 2012
    WinterRose26 WinterRose26
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Apr 6, 2016

    You know how the news

    or media can edit out parts of a story to make a person look like a bad guy? I do that to myself all the time. I edit out all the good things I've done, exaggerate the bad, tell myself that all the people who love me only feel that way because I manipulated them in some way...
    shybot shybot
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 18, 2016

    I yearn to change who I am,

    to be outgoing and charismatic, like what society considers the ideal "normal." But, I always have been reserved, awkward, and morose. It's not as simply as having "Social Energy" because I don't ever feel like conversation or being with people; it always begins unpleasantly...
    howlsowls howlsowls
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 31, 2016

    lesson pounded into myself over

    and over again throughout the years. that I am the kind of guy who's going to spend most of his life ammounting to nothing. ill right long and involved post on sites like this. only to receive messages from people telling me to quit my f****** whining. which normally would make...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    1 Response Apr 14, 2016

    I really hate myself

    and am always negative about everything around me that I am starting to worry that things will never change. I feel like I am such a failure and I think that I will always feel this way...I don't know what I should do. I have had counselling for years and my self-hatred has only...
    rcmh171822 rcmh171822
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 27, 2016


    I don't know...I guess its self explanatory really, I don't love myself. Every day I look at myself in the mirror and I hate it. I hate the fact that I hate myself, and its not just physically its also emotionally I hate who I am. I mean I know I'm being stupid but why would I...
    lifesize lifesize
    22-25, F
    15 Responses Apr 6, 2013

    Sometimes I really wish i could disappear.

    I'll never be good enough for this world. I dont even know why god put me on this earth. I wish he wouldn't have. Im just a disgrace that shouldn't have been born.
    animegirl63 animegirl63
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 18, 2016

    Up until this year I assumed everyone strived

    to be good. I have these high expectations for people and I continuously get let down because of them. I cannot stay mad at anyone for more than a couple hours which enables me to keep harmful ppl in my life. I am entirely too nice and I do too much to be getting ignored daily...
    remisahn remisahn
    22-25, M
    Apr 1, 2016

    Part 4: My head hurts.

    I cant think straight anymore. I want to run away. I hate going to this school, this state, this country, this world. I hate how i overthink things too much, how i doubt myself all the time, i hate how i dont have any common sense. People would tell me to stop eating so much cuz...
    ohayomegu ohayomegu
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 19, 2016

    dragoncub dragoncub
    31-35, M
    Apr 9, 2016

    I wish I could act normal without thinking

    about what people think of my body. I want to just chill with my shirt off, but I hate my body so much.
    toprainbow toprainbow
    22-25, M
    9 Responses Sep 13, 2015

    I'm laughing while at the same time crying.

    It's funny really. It's ironic and just sad. Me. I can't believe I'm doing what I'm doing. So it must have felt like that when he did it. Really I hate it. I feel so wrong afterwards and I hate myself. I've become the same monster I fought almost two year ago. I'm filled with...
    deleted deleted
    7 Responses Mar 12, 2016

    I really wish I wasn't born.

    I just feel like a burden. I really just wish someone would accept me for who I am rather than try and change me. I want to feel loved, and yet yet can't love myself. Really feeling alone right now
    Thethirdkid Thethirdkid
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 27, 2016

    Never Happy Endings On These Dark Sets

    Its just all wrong. And the one thing that felt right went left. I climbed up and fell down. I woke up and fell asleep. I drove fast and flew by. I wanted and didn't take. I have fallen and can't get up. I attempted but failed. I studied and forgot. I felt like a winner but lost...
    ninerzoon ninerzoon
    36-40, M
    3 Responses May 13, 2013

    I'm sorry that I ruin everything.

    Maybe it would be best if I leave.
    Waffl3s Waffl3s
    14 Responses Jan 8, 2015

    How can I learn to except myself?

    I'm 24 years old and I still find my self to be the ugliest woman walking the planet earth And it's because I'm a very dark skinned black woman. I've had ONE boyfriend in my whole life and it didn't really last to long. My skin color considered unattractive and my hair is...
    MareViCiOUS MareViCiOUS
    26-30, F
    19 Responses Jan 7, 2014

    Isnt this typical. I get here

    and the place shuts down. May as well vanish from the earth.
    Psychasthenia Psychasthenia
    56-60, M
    Mar 23, 2016

    It's not hard to love me,

    but it's obviously hard to stay in love with me... I have ****** up every relationship I've ever had including friendships, family bonds, just everything. I'm told I'm too negative, how the **** am I supposed to be positive when everyone leaves? I'm sorry that I like some...
    Baer2113 Baer2113
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Apr 19, 2016
    TryingToGetBy18 TryingToGetBy18
    1 Response Apr 9, 2016


    i cant spell im dyslexic im Bi and my mom hates me im in love with someone i cant have i cut and burn im a nerd i cry to much i get drunk(not all the time) i always seem to lose my friends and family im a wuss AND I WANNA DIE
    BloodyRaven BloodyRaven
    18-21, F
    17 Responses Jul 8, 2013

    I just wished I was dead.

    I'm nothing and a big expenditure to my family. There are many things I don't love about myself. The looks, the mental sickness, getting into trouble, and mentally disabled to do any work. Fatigued.
    lonelylifeindia lonelylifeindia
    26-30, M
    Apr 19, 2016

    I do everything the wrong way no matter how

    hard I work , I always fail and in the end everyone gets hurt because of me and exhausted ... I ve had enough I don t want to live anymore like this , i want to change but i don t know how and the more i think about this the more i hate myself .. .it s suffocating !!!!!
    cami94 cami94
    22-25, F
    Mar 25, 2016

    Sick Of It

    I can't even look in the mirror without wanting to punch the glass. I get so mad at what I am, everything is repulsive. Im so torn with wanting to be happy and just wallowing in this self hate. Im not good enough. My grades aren't good enough my personality, my weight, my face...
    kxrstxn kxrstxn
    18-21, F
    29 Responses Oct 20, 2013

    Self Versus Self

    Please listen to me for once. You're not what you seem to show to people, you won't let them in but they feel your darkness.I'm not worth their time, I have to solve my issues on my own.You can't do this alone.Yes I can, I know where my problems stem from.Shut the **** up so I...
    CaptainMurphy CaptainMurphy
    22-25, M
    1 Response May 23, 2013
    SapphireHeart1997 SapphireHeart1997
    18-21, F
    12 Responses May 27, 2015

    Why can't I just die

    why just why wait I can though
    Dontcareok Dontcareok
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 2, 2016

    I told myself something this year

    that I was dead serious about. Writing it tugs at my heart a bit. I figure this would be a last good EP post until I figure out a different site or place to post my rants. I told myself that I would kill myself at the end of this year if I didn't see progress in my goals..I...
    Sometimesilence Sometimesilence
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Mar 23, 2016

    Let's see. I try to be nice,

    I'm treated poorly. I try to be douchebag, I'm asked to be nicer. I try to do everything in my power to keep others happy at the cost of my own resources, and I'm left feeling like it's all my fault for trying to do that as I'm pushed further away, as I am in the way. People...
    Condescendinitis Condescendinitis
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Apr 6, 2016

    No guy wants me, no one likes me,

    and I HATE IT! I'm always there for them but they aren't there for me! :( Why do I bother to live when no guy finds me beautiful and wants me? What the **** is wrong with me? :(
    deleted deleted
    25 Responses May 18, 2014

    Not Easy To Change That...

    What I have to do is learn how to accept that I'm not perfect.  Accept that I've been banged up mentally pretty badly. Accept that I'm older now, that I will have bad days, that I will hurt..   That I will be depressed. that there are times I'll hurt so badly I'll need to sob...
    hylierandom hylierandom
    6 Responses Jul 22, 2011

    I...don't know anymore.

    ..it feels like all the bitterness and fight is gone. Instead, I feel wretched and weary, unable to act... I feel so goddamned empty. I'm scared...so scared... where did it go? Where did I go, where did my precious thoughts go? Why? Why am I here? I feel so alone... unable to...
    Ewoo Ewoo
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 30, 2016

    Lately I haven't been sleeping

    as much as I usually have and it has made my thoughts race. I feel as though the pain, isolation, and loneliness have turned me into something I'm not. I look at myself in the mirror and all I see is something I hate. Something that would be better off hidden from the world...
    Ghost5619 Ghost5619
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 25, 2016

    It Should Have Been Me

    I had a twin brother; when I was old enough my mother told me about him. He died a long time ago even before I was born. The doctor saved me but he was too weak. I tried to cope with it, the thought that I had a brother I'd never get to know. It was an accident, its something...
    deleted deleted
    9 Responses Nov 28, 2013

    i hate myself but I'm smarter

    than most of u so it makes it ok
    Angelcum Angelcum
    18-21, F
    13 Responses Dec 2, 2014

    I Hate Myself

    I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale
    26-30, F
    14 Responses Aug 1, 2011

    People Being Mean

    I have been hated so much for like my whole life, I have been bullied . So I have always hated myself
    Skatergirl16 Skatergirl16
    18-21, F
    14 Responses Nov 20, 2013

    I am ugly, fat, annoying,

    stupid, worthless, hopeless, forgettable and straight up a piece of trash. I am ******* mental. Anorexia, bulimia, body dysmorphic disorder, depression, anxiety and social anxiety. I am honest when I say I hate myself. I don't expect anybody to like me when I can't even like...
    deleted deleted
    20 Responses Apr 12, 2016

    Born The Wrong Way...

    You will laugh, you will judge me, you won't understand... But still I want to write it. It began when I was little, I was only five and I already hated myself. I hated the fact that looking in the mirror was painful. I was looking at myself and thinking 'this is not me!'. I...
    18 Responses Feb 21, 2013

    I hate myself because 1.

    im ugly 2.im fat even though I work out almost every day 3. I have really bad acne 4. I can't talk to guys 5.im shy 6. My parents favour my sisters over me 7. I stuff everything up with my friends 8.i don't like people .9. I'm dumb 10. I'm not good at anything 11. I never win at...
    Thatgirl3569 Thatgirl3569
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Apr 3, 2016

    I don't care if you are underweight

    or over weight. I don't care if you have braces, frizzy hair, acne, or a disability. I don't care, because to me: YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL💕
    AmandaRachael AmandaRachael
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Dec 20, 2013

    Sick Of Beind Depressed? Enjoyment Vs Pleasure

    When depressed, we turn to drugs, meaningless sex, alcohol, food full of fat and sugar, movies, video games, etc. These all give us small spikes of pleasure and do some good in lifting the gloom, but when it's over, what's left? We have less money, possibly STDs, gain weight...
    slow4speed slow4speed
    22-25, F
    14 Responses Jul 1, 2012

    I feel like I would rather just wait to die

    instead of trying to fix myself. Because I am too exhausted and it's been too long already.
    Pleiotropic Pleiotropic
    46-50, M
    1 Response Apr 19, 2016


    ​My life is a mess. I'm an unattractive slob who's too loud and can't keep her grades up in school. Everyone thinks i'm just going through a faze, but I'm not. I'm depressed, and no one cares about me enough to see it. They think i'm fine. They don't know that I hide in my room...
    teenfailure teenfailure
    18-21, F
    16 Responses Dec 29, 2012
    deleted deleted
    21 Responses Dec 24, 2014

    Just Venting

    I swear I'm worthless, I claim to be so ******* strong then why can't I help the ones I care so much about. What is even the point of being alive if I can't even be of some use? Everyone keeps telling me that I need to stop worrying about everyone else for once and have someone...
    sagesbones sagesbones
    22-25, M
    9 Responses Apr 1, 2013

    To be perfectly honest,

    I've hated myself so much these past couple of days that I've been considering suicide. I don't want you guys to answer with 'But there are people who care about you!' 'People would miss you!' or whatever. But I'm not feeling this way because I think no one loves me or that no...
    NerdTrash6000 NerdTrash6000
    16-17, T
    4 Responses Mar 25, 2016

    I've got a lot to say

    but I just can't :""( idk, I'm not used to expressing myself to people, it seems I've just been hiding the real me. I don't deserve anything in this world, I've got a lotta guilt, unsaid confessions, insecurities, a feeling of being a loser and lot more stuff! there's just so...
    slytheringuy slytheringuy
    18-21, M
    6 Responses Sep 28, 2015

    Do you know what it's like to not be accepted,

    for people to hate you and you just expect it, you look in the mirror and you hate your reflection! Errrgh! 😡 ************!
    MarijuanaAbuser MarijuanaAbuser
    18-21, M
    10 Responses Aug 12, 2015
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