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I Hate Myself

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    Born The Wrong Way...

    You will laugh, you will judge me, you won't understand... But still I want to write it. It began when I was little, I was only five and I already hated myself. I hated the fact that looking in the mirror was painful. I was looking at myself and thinking 'this is not me!'. I...
    JJTKM JJTKM 16-17 19 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    It Should Have Been Me

    I had a twin brother; when I was old enough my mother told me about him. He died a long time ago even before I was born. The doctor saved me but he was too weak. I tried to cope with it, the thought that I had a brother I'd never get to know. It was an accident, its something...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 11 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    I keep hurting the ones I love.

    I know everyone does that, but it's way worse with me. I get mad when someone is trying to help me. I'm not really grateful for anything. And I'm just so negative and angry. I sometimes wonder why my parents ever had me in the first place. I asked my mom that and she said she...
    Peridot22 Peridot22 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Call me a saboteur, I wreck everything that's

    ever good/beautiful in my life and make it ruined. Honestly my mood swing is still bad and I treat people badly according to it mostly those whom I find extremely attractive/unattractive. It's a bad habit I've changed a lot being aware of it I don't use curse words anymore it...
    Nual Nual 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Never Happy Endings On These Dark Sets

    Its just all wrong. And the one thing that felt right went left. I climbed up and fell down. I woke up and fell asleep. I drove fast and flew by. I wanted and didn't take. I have fallen and can't get up. I attempted but failed. I studied and forgot. I felt like a winner but lost...
    ninerzoon ninerzoon 36-40, M 3 Responses May 13, 2013

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    Just Venting

    I swear I'm worthless, I claim to be so ******* strong then why can't I help the ones I care so much about. What is even the point of being alive if I can't even be of some use? Everyone keeps telling me that I need to stop worrying about everyone else for once and have someone...
    sagesbones sagesbones 18-21, M 9 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    I Hate Who I Am

    I hate what I see in the mirror. I hate my past. I hate my present. I hate everything I am. I go to bed every night wishing I would wakeup with some disease and only have a few months to live. Or that I would die on the way to work in a car wreck or have a massive heart attack...
    Sorriso Sorriso 46-50, M 300 Responses Jul 10, 2007

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    Mess

    ​My life is a mess. I'm an unattractive slob who's too loud and can't keep her grades up in school. Everyone thinks i'm just going through a faze, but I'm not. I'm depressed, and no one cares about me enough to see it. They think i'm fine. They don't know that I hide in my room...
    teenfailure teenfailure 18-21, F 16 Responses Dec 29, 2012

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    I've been getting very tired of the shot I deal

    with. My crohns has had me nearly ripping my hair out. I didn't go to class today because I would have been to far from the bathroom, instead I sat in the library which is much closer. Today wasn't as bad as usual for my stomach, I've only gone to the bathroom around 15 times...
    persononinternet persononinternet 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    Sick Of Beind Depressed? Enjoyment Vs Pleasure

    When depressed, we turn to drugs, meaningless sex, alcohol, food full of fat and sugar, movies, video games, etc. These all give us small spikes of pleasure and do some good in lifting the gloom, but when it's over, what's left? We have less money, possibly STDs, gain weight...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 14 Responses Jul 1, 2012

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    why cant i just be normal.

    i look so disgusting
    ineedhelp122 ineedhelp122 18-21, F 1 Response May 12

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    sometimes i'm talking

    and i'm just like "shut the **** up"
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Nov 16, 2014

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    Sick Of It

    I can't even look in the mirror without wanting to punch the glass. I get so mad at what I am, everything is repulsive. Im so torn with wanting to be happy and just wallowing in this self hate. Im not good enough. My grades aren't good enough my personality, my weight, my face...
    kxrstxn kxrstxn 16-17, F 30 Responses Oct 20, 2013

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    if you hate yourself then you should make a

    plan to change right? yes I know that but I juz can't find the motivation nor the will or I am juz too scared to left the old me behind
    YongTauFoo YongTauFoo 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Pure Hatred

    I hate everything about me. my eyes my smile. but i do love my mind. why? because i can dream and run away from everything that is making my life hell. everyday i wake up wishing i hadn't. seems like everything that comes out of my mouth irritates someone. whenever i touch...
    SkinnyJeansAndSnakeBites SkinnyJeansAndSnakeBites 16-17, F 13 Responses Oct 7, 2012

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    ME

    I don't know...I guess its self explanatory really, I don't love myself. Every day I look at myself in the mirror and I hate it. I hate the fact that I hate myself, and its not just physically its also emotionally I hate who I am. I mean I know I'm being stupid but why would I...
    lifesize lifesize 22-25, F 17 Responses Apr 6, 2013

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    deleted deleted 26-30 3 days ago

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    For hating myself. I let negativity run my

    whole life and I take it out on everyone around me, i never realize it until moments when I stop and see what it does to my life, people don't wanna talk to me, I'm set off easily, childish, petty, and I don't want to be like this anymore, I just want to be happy and easy going...
    civics22 civics22 18-21, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    words can never describe how much i hate

    myself. i don't blame anyone for not caring about me and no wonder why I always end up alone . how they shut me out and label me with the things they find about me . especially when they get mad at me. i know what i am . i don't need to be reminded every time...
    lonesomedove80 lonesomedove80 31-35, F 2 Responses May 10

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    I don't care if you are underweight

    or over weight. I don't care if you have braces, frizzy hair, acne, or a disability. I don't care, because to me: YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL💕
    AmandaRachael AmandaRachael 16-17, F 8 Responses Dec 20, 2013

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    I just wish i could do more

    than cutting i feel like a bother in this world everybody leaves me soon enough so i guess nobody would miss me if i was gone nobody would really notice
    zeebug99 zeebug99 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I Am Incapable of Doing Anything Worthwhile.

    I am a thirty-something overweight single woman with two cats a messy condo with late mortgage payments who can't find her checkbook atm or credit card hasn't started a huge presentation that i have to give at work in eighteen hours and just knows that i will die alone in this f...
    afjsdkl afjsdkl 31-35, F 39 Responses Nov 19, 2006

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    I don't need answers I just wanted to release

    my thoughts and say how much I hate myself. I'm weak and stupid, I can't make right choices by my own and all I'm good at is crying. I feel like crap all the time, I'm a complete failure... And I care too much about what people might think of me, can't help it. My life seems so...
    Booktiful Booktiful 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm sorry that I ruin everything.

    Maybe it would be best if I leave.
    Waffl3s Waffl3s 13-15, F 16 Responses Jan 8

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    I've spent my whole life trying to tear others

    down although it's in a form of OCD obsession that lead to hallucinations and aggression then being rude to almost everyone it's because of envy. Not that it's fixable, I even envied my own family members since I think everyone has a kinder heart/mind and I cursed myself a lot...
    Nual Nual 22-25, F 2 Responses May 14

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    I hate myself. I hate my life.

    Really. I feel i'm alone. I really need someone who can understand me. Anyone? I have my friends tho. But i'm not sure if they really were my friends. Ugh. I don't know what to do. Im really bored easily. Sometimes i'm busying myself. I read books but sometimes i got bored. Ugh...
    yeahalone yeahalone 13-15 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    No guy wants me, no one likes me,

    and I HATE IT! I'm always there for them but they aren't there for me! :( Why do I bother to live when no guy finds me beautiful and wants me? What the **** is wrong with me? :(
    SeanaO SeanaO 18-21, F 26 Responses May 18, 2014

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    I hate myself, People think I'm not good enough

    and I think so.. I hate my body and I really hate my face!
    phoneringing20 phoneringing20 18-21, F 1 Response May 15

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    People Being Mean

    I have been hated so much for like my whole life, I have been bullied . So I have always hated myself
    Skatergirl16 Skatergirl16 13-15, F 16 Responses Nov 20, 2013

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    Today.. my first exam.

    .. I tried too hard and I was realy good at this but my exam was so bad and I lost my hope for the other exams. And I Don't Know why, I'm not lucky .... I Think I Don't belong to music... Please pray for me .... I want a good mark for all my exams cuz it's realy important for me...
    maryviolin maryviolin 18-21, F 2 Responses May 12

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    I hate waking up feeling nothing

    but physical pain. I hate not being motivated, i want to wake up either terrified or overly exited but instead my life is a dead line.
    SarahTheEnigma SarahTheEnigma 16-17, F 9 Responses Oct 5, 2014

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    Self Versus Self

    Please listen to me for once. You're not what you seem to show to people, you won't let them in but they feel your darkness.I'm not worth their time, I have to solve my issues on my own.You can't do this alone.Yes I can, I know where my problems stem from.Shut the **** up so I...
    CaptainMurphy CaptainMurphy 22-25, M 2 Responses May 23, 2013

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    I should've just killed myself along time ago.

    I serve no purpose, I'm waste of space, and a waste of life.
    ComeDieWithMe ComeDieWithMe 18-21, M 27 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    WHY LIKE ME

    i cant spell im dyslexic im Bi and my mom hates me im in love with someone i cant have i cut and burn im a nerd i cry to much i get drunk(not all the time) i always seem to lose my friends and family im a wuss AND I WANNA DIE
    BloodyRaven BloodyRaven 16-17, F 18 Responses Jul 8, 2013

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    ineedhelp122 ineedhelp122 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    i hate myself but I'm smarter

    than most of u so it makes it ok
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 17 Responses Dec 2, 2014

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    I hate my dad, i hate my family,

    I hate the fact I was put into this world but most importantly, I hate myself for feeling this way. Please do not comment
    jellyycook jellyycook 18-21, F 1 Response May 13

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    I am not good looking.

    I am not a genius. I am not hardworking. I am not extroverted and sociable. I am not living in the present. I am not happy. I am not interested in the things that most people are interested in. I am not confident. I am not normal. I am not worth anything. I am not good enough. I...
    Arrrbol Arrrbol 18-21, M 17 Responses May 12, 2014

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    Been There, It Gets Better

    If you hate yourself, it means you have empathy. It means you're human. It means you care so much about others that you're willing to damage yourself for their sake. It means you punish yourself so cruelly every second of most every day, for the sake of those you love, and...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 42 Responses May 6, 2012

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    im so insecure about myself.

    i hate the way i look. hate that i have stretch marks, & i feel like im just worthless. i have no self esteem and struggle making friends ( i dont have friends ).
    mekaxoxo mekaxoxo 16-17, F 5 Responses May 14

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    I am a cancer I had one job to do take care of

    him and I f#cked that sh@t up to damn it , now he's in the emergency room because of me
    Blackandugly Blackandugly 18-21, M 1 Response May 13

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    Not Easy To Change That...

    What I have to do is learn how to accept that I'm not perfect.  Accept that I've been banged up mentally pretty badly. Accept that I'm older now, that I will have bad days, that I will hurt..   That I will be depressed. that there are times I'll hurt so badly I'll need to sob...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 7 Responses Jul 22, 2011

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    I Hate Myself

    I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F 14 Responses Aug 1, 2011

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    im tired of the way i look.

    i cant stand it anymore. i look like a man. im underweight. im dark. i have no boobs or butt. and i messed up my face
    ineedhelp122 ineedhelp122 18-21, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 23 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    i hate how i look. i hate how i cant be

    who i want to be. i hate how i am embrassed about going anywhere. i look like a skinny man. i hate how dark my skin is. i hate how i have nothing to offer a man and i have to be stared at like im disgusting all the time. i will never get married or have a husband who actually...
    ineedhelp122 ineedhelp122 18-21, F 1 Response May 12

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    being beaten up sucks.

    specially if it was your old friend doing it. :( B