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I Hate Myself

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    I'm usually fine during the day

    and at school, but when I get home alone or at night, I punish myself and constantly put myself down. I cry myself to sleep often. I don't know why my brain feels the need to do this, it just makes me sad. During the day I believe I am smart and pretty and nice but at night I...
    z1a2r3a z1a2r3a 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Been There, It Gets Better

    If you hate yourself, it means you have empathy. It means you're human. It means you care so much about others that you're willing to damage yourself for their sake. It means you punish yourself so cruelly every second of most every day, for the sake of those you love, and...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 42 Responses May 6, 2012

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    I hate everything about myself.

    Culture, ethnicity, look, behavior, health. EVERYTHING. The way I play the piano, the way I talk, THE WAY I TYPE, the way I dress up, the way I fangirl. Someone help me. I am chinese and people make fun of me bc of that. I am ugly because I am chinese. Some chinese people are...
    jungkookies4u jungkookies4u 16-17, F 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    I always believed in the inherent consistency

    of myself; that, since I was depressed as a child, being down in the dumps is just a fact for me...as if it's my hometown that I am always destined, despite all my rebellion, to return to. But there's something else that has changed that was one of the few good things about me...
    Ewoo Ewoo 16-17 2 Responses May 23

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    Well right now I hate myself a lot I just want

    to be isolated from my family and just be away from everything I'm done with all of the **** people are telling me well I'm ok with being bullied at school and out side if home but when your own family says that i makes them look bad so I'm done with all there bullshit an I'm in...
    rymanone23 rymanone23 13-15, M 5 days ago

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    annonymous56 annonymous56 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I'm sorry that I ruin everything.

    Maybe it would be best if I leave.
    Waffl3s Waffl3s 13-15 16 Responses Jan 8

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    I Hate Who I Am

    I hate what I see in the mirror. I hate my past. I hate my present. I hate everything I am. I go to bed every night wishing I would wakeup with some disease and only have a few months to live. Or that I would die on the way to work in a car wreck or have a massive heart attack...
    Sorriso Sorriso 46-50, M 300 Responses Jul 10, 2007

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    I am numb. I have been upset enough to bawl my

    ******* eyes out for the last week, but I don't even shed a tear. I don't feel anymore, at least not how I used to feel. Something broke in me. I can't be truly happy anymore because I know I'm a rude uncaring ***** in my husband's eyes because I don't listen to and follow every...
    thatonecxnt thatonecxnt 22-25, F May 20

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    How can I learn to except myself?

    I'm 24 years old and I still find my self to be the ugliest woman walking the planet earth And it's because I'm a very dark skinned black woman. I've had ONE boyfriend in my whole life and it didn't really last to long. My skin color considered unattractive and my hair is...
    MareViCiOUS MareViCiOUS 22-25, F 21 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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    Pure Hatred

    I hate everything about me. my eyes my smile. but i do love my mind. why? because i can dream and run away from everything that is making my life hell. everyday i wake up wishing i hadn't. seems like everything that comes out of my mouth irritates someone. whenever i touch...
    SkinnyJeansAndSnakeBites SkinnyJeansAndSnakeBites 16-17, F 13 Responses Oct 7, 2012

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    I Hate Myself

    I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F 14 Responses Aug 1, 2011

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    I hate waking up feeling nothing

    but physical pain. I hate not being motivated, i want to wake up either terrified or overly exited but instead my life is a dead line.
    SarahTheEnigma SarahTheEnigma 16-17, F 9 Responses Oct 5, 2014

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    Born The Wrong Way...

    You will laugh, you will judge me, you won't understand... But still I want to write it. It began when I was little, I was only five and I already hated myself. I hated the fact that looking in the mirror was painful. I was looking at myself and thinking 'this is not me!'. I...
    JJTKM JJTKM 16-17 19 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    I don't need answers I just wanted to release

    my thoughts and say how much I hate myself. I'm weak and stupid, I can't make right choices by my own and all I'm good at is crying. I feel like crap all the time, I'm a complete failure... And I care too much about what people might think of me, can't help it. My life seems so...
    Booktiful Booktiful 13-15, F 1 Response May 20

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    I just wish i could do more

    than cutting i feel like a bother in this world everybody leaves me soon enough so i guess nobody would miss me if i was gone nobody would really notice
    zeebug99 zeebug99 13-15, F 3 Responses May 20

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    WHY LIKE ME

    i cant spell im dyslexic im Bi and my mom hates me im in love with someone i cant have i cut and burn im a nerd i cry to much i get drunk(not all the time) i always seem to lose my friends and family im a wuss AND I WANNA DIE
    BloodyRaven BloodyRaven 16-17, F 18 Responses Jul 8, 2013

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    No guy wants me, no one likes me,

    and I HATE IT! I'm always there for them but they aren't there for me! :( Why do I bother to live when no guy finds me beautiful and wants me? What the **** is wrong with me? :(
    SeanaO SeanaO 18-21, F 28 Responses May 18, 2014

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    Sick Of Beind Depressed? Enjoyment Vs Pleasure

    When depressed, we turn to drugs, meaningless sex, alcohol, food full of fat and sugar, movies, video games, etc. These all give us small spikes of pleasure and do some good in lifting the gloom, but when it's over, what's left? We have less money, possibly STDs, gain weight...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 14 Responses Jul 1, 2012

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    Just Venting

    I swear I'm worthless, I claim to be so ******* strong then why can't I help the ones I care so much about. What is even the point of being alive if I can't even be of some use? Everyone keeps telling me that I need to stop worrying about everyone else for once and have someone...
    sagesbones sagesbones 18-21, M 9 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    I am not good looking.

    I am not a genius. I am not hardworking. I am not extroverted and sociable. I am not living in the present. I am not happy. I am not interested in the things that most people are interested in. I am not confident. I am not normal. I am not worth anything. I am not good enough. I...
    Arrrbol Arrrbol 18-21, M 17 Responses May 12, 2014

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    Why we care about what others think of us?

    Why am I so care abt what they think? What I want to please them? Why can't I be myself, I hate myself for pretending,I hate those kind people who like to pretend, like a FAKE guy!!!!!!
    lVll lVll 13-15, F a week ago

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    It Should Have Been Me

    I had a twin brother; when I was old enough my mother told me about him. He died a long time ago even before I was born. The doctor saved me but he was too weak. I tried to cope with it, the thought that I had a brother I'd never get to know. It was an accident, its something...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 11 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    Its almost 4am again I can't sleep.

    I think I cry I cut its the same thing every night World War in my head I just want to sleep forever
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    And it seems I've always hated myself,

    or hated somebody else. I guess my biggest mistake has always been saying just how I've felt.
    H8M4CH1N3 H8M4CH1N3 13-15, M 1 Response a week ago

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    if you hate yourself then you should make a

    plan to change right? yes I know that but I juz can't find the motivation nor the will or I am juz too scared to left the old me behind
    YongTauFoo YongTauFoo 18-21, F 2 Responses May 20

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    I Am Incapable of Doing Anything Worthwhile.

    I am a thirty-something overweight single woman with two cats a messy condo with late mortgage payments who can't find her checkbook atm or credit card hasn't started a huge presentation that i have to give at work in eighteen hours and just knows that i will die alone in this f...
    afjsdkl afjsdkl 31-35, F 39 Responses Nov 19, 2006

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    I don't want to nor need to live anymore.

    I have absolutely no purpose in life. No one likes/loves me and I'm losing friends by the second. Everyone would be so much happier if I was gone.
    MariahsLamb MariahsLamb 13-15, F 3 Responses May 22

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    I thought I was doing

    so well, but here I am right back where I started! I hate not being good enough! I just want to lock myself away from everyone and everything and not have to face anything!
    CatL0105 CatL0105 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    graceycoops1997 graceycoops1997 16-17, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    im tired of the way i look.

    i cant stand it anymore. i look like a man. im underweight. im dark. i have no boobs or butt. and i messed up my face
    ineedhelp122 ineedhelp122 18-21, F 2 Responses May 22

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    I don't care if you are underweight

    or over weight. I don't care if you have braces, frizzy hair, acne, or a disability. I don't care, because to me: YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL💕
    AmandaRachael AmandaRachael 16-17, F 8 Responses Dec 20, 2013

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    I've been getting very tired of the shot I deal

    with. My crohns has had me nearly ripping my hair out. I didn't go to class today because I would have been to far from the bathroom, instead I sat in the library which is much closer. Today wasn't as bad as usual for my stomach, I've only gone to the bathroom around 15 times...
    persononinternet persononinternet 18-21, M May 21

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    I should've just killed myself along time ago.

    I serve no purpose, I'm waste of space, and a waste of life.
    KNIFEvsFACE KNIFEvsFACE 18-21, M 27 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    I hate myself. I hate my life.

    Really. I feel i'm alone. I really need someone who can understand me. Anyone? I have my friends tho. But i'm not sure if they really were my friends. Ugh. I don't know what to do. Im really bored easily. Sometimes i'm busying myself. I read books but sometimes i got bored. Ugh...
    yeahalone yeahalone 13-15 1 Response May 22

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    i hate myself but I'm smarter

    than most of u so it makes it ok
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 17 Responses Dec 2, 2014

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    sometimes i'm talking

    and i'm just like "shut the **** up"
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 9 Responses Nov 16, 2014

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    Not Easy To Change That...

    What I have to do is learn how to accept that I'm not perfect.  Accept that I've been banged up mentally pretty badly. Accept that I'm older now, that I will have bad days, that I will hurt..   That I will be depressed. that there are times I'll hurt so badly I'll need to sob...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 7 Responses Jul 22, 2011

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    Um hey I feel like everybody hates me no one me

    cares for me I'm just an invisible person because my parents siblings and just everybody think I'm invisible and hate and so I'm here to say this may be the last that anyone here's from me because I'm going to kill myself because people go behind my back I will never be noticed...
    kRaZeDmODDeR kRaZeDmODDeR 13-15, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Goody Two Shoes Freak

    I was always that weird quiet kid who always knew the answer in school.  My family moved a lot and I was introverted so I didn't have many friends and honestly, I didn't really want any.  I hated kids my age for being stupid and cruel to each other.  I hated adults...
    seafall seafall 22-25 22 Responses Aug 21, 2008

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    I hate myself so much,

    that when I look in the mirror, my eyes dilate. I want to crawl out of my own skin. This is not how humans were meant to live.
    Itfloo Itfloo 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Dreamscape98x Dreamscape98x 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2014

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    Always have and I probably always will.

    If only I was good enough
    emylauren27 emylauren27 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Never Happy Endings On These Dark Sets

    Its just all wrong. And the one thing that felt right went left. I climbed up and fell down. I woke up and fell asleep. I drove fast and flew by. I wanted and didn't take. I have fallen and can't get up. I attempted but failed. I studied and forgot. I felt like a winner but lost...
    ninerzoon ninerzoon 36-40, M 3 Responses May 13, 2013

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    I want to die I can't stand living anymore

    and being told how selfish I am every fcking day. It tears me apart because I spend half of my time caring about other people and put them before me !! I do first aid community service and volunteer my time to helping people. I just hate myself for every bad thing I have done. I...
    PaintOverItBlack PaintOverItBlack 22-25, F 5 Responses May 22

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    Well, the love of my life is gone.

    He's fine with it. I'm dying here, Drinking booze. Broken Hearted. Forever. Depressed. Soul.
    NoOrdinaryDork NoOrdinaryDork 13-15, F 2 Responses May 23

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