I Hate Myself Forum & Chat Board | Hello

I'm new to this site, it popped up after I typed 'I hate myself' into my browser bar on a whim.

 

Sometimes writing my feelings down helps me a lot because there's absolutely no one in my life that I can talk to them about.

 

At least when you're around a bunch of strangers you don't have to worry about being hurt.

 

I found this site by typing "I hate myself" into a search engine.....   And I too have no one to turn to. My reason is that I dont want to burden anyone with my troubles... or I don't want to appear negativly to anyone... and appearing to the family and "friends" like a depressed woman with the world on her shoulders would just make me feel crappier....

 

I hope you find your voice here. Best of luck.

 

I too typed I hate myself on a whim, I just needed to get some of my feelings out. I think I need to see a psychiatrist for my depression but, I don't have the resources to do so. I am so lonely. My birthday is coming up in nine days and I have no one and, I mean no one to share it with.
I wish my life was different. I just don't known how. 

 

well in my case i kinda like wana find a forum where i can write something about how i hate myself and this kinda stuff...its nothing cool i know but yeah maybe i just wanted someone to read it...you know the feeling of "atleast someone knew that i existed..something like that...

 

nanaewatts and anyone else who is still active on this post,

This is a great sounding board for your thoughts.  You do exist and people ARE aware you exist.  I know life can be tough and sometimes, or maybe all the time, you may feel as though you're insignificant, unloved, unwanted, or what not.  But you're not any of these.  You ARE significant, you ARE loved, you ARE wanted.  Please remember that.  
But let's get to the root of the problem here.  How are you?  What's going on?  Like the name says, I'm here to help. 

 

I also typed it into google looking for some way to release my feelings.

 

I can't believe there's a site like this. I'm alright, just anxious to the point of jumping out a window.  I like myself enough, its just, I'm unhappy with the life choices I've made to this point and I don't want to be destroyed by them and I feel like that's what's happening right now and I've got no one to talk to and this is a really long run on and I'm not supposed to do that because its bad english and I hate that band. So that's the problem basically, not that anyone's really interested and not that blogging about it will do me much good.

 

I dont mean to be insensitive but its nice to see so many people who like me typed 'i hate myself' truely.

 

That's funny, I typed in "I hate myself" into Google. At least everyone relates to me here. And I also cannot talk to anybody. I feel like a nuisance even if I think about venting about my problems with one of my friends, and I would definitely never talk about it with my family. They would never understand.

 

I too Googled this subject, or feeling. At this moment I am injured and alone. I feel like the friends I do have aren't my friends at the moment. It's as if I know if any of them were injured I would be in constant contact with them making sure they were okay, and when I don't get that in return it makes me feel like they don't care about me the same way I care about them. Anyways, I know that probably is not the case, but it's how I feel at the moment. I sit here waiting for a text, or a call to see how I am doing, and nothing. Yes, I know I can reach out to them, but I don't want anyone knowing how lonely and sad I feel at the moment.

 

Me, too - anti-depressants. And I can't figure out how you learn to love yourself, either. I've struggled with this since I can remember. I, too, need to be perfect and I know that is really such bullshyt.
What I really need is to be able to love myself, hell, even LIKE myself, for who I am.
But knowing who I am is not always easy.
I learned to be whoever you want me to be. Two of my brothers nicknamed me "chameleon". They are right.
The sad thing is: I really have a lot of people who love me, like me, think I'm funny, think I'm smart and witty, enjoy my company and all that good stuff.
So why can't I love me, too?
**sigh**

 

I can  relate to that whole thing about friends.

I usually always listen, comfort, help. I am almost always understanding.

Let me focus on the listening part: I have listened to SO many stories, about SO many things.

But when it's my turn to tell a story, I can tell that no one really cares or wants to hear it.
Well, a lot of times, I don't actually care or want to hear their stories, but I listen anyway. I try.

I often wonder how other people can be so damm self centered and oblivious to the path they cut through this world. And, more often, I wonder how people can think that their story or situation is so important or interesting or vexing or whatever that everyone will be interested in hearing about it and yet display such apathy when it is someone else's turn to vent?

This has been the source of a good bit of sadness in my lifetime. It's sort of like, "I care about you. Why don't you care about me in return?"

Or maybe to be more honest, "I pretend to care about you......."

I do not assume, by the way, that you are a pretender like I am. Just wanted to clarify that.

 

i guess we feel the same about ourselves....

 

Good luck everyone.

 

I'm the same way. However, I do find myself at times being not in a state of mind to listen to other people either and at this point, I let them know that so I don't seem like I don't care while I'm listening. I let them know when it's okay and when it's not.

For the longest time I was always the listener and no one ever listened to me either when it was my turn. But sometimes the other person can't handle listening. Sometimes, they truly don't care. In that case, stop talking to them. Sometimes, I will rant and rave about things that really don't matter and NO ONE would care about. No one likes to listen to whining. I try to catch myself before I start those.

 

Im new to this site too and I want someone to read and know what I want to say before anything happens