I Hate Myself Forum & Chat Board | I just don't feel good enough anymore

I used to think I was a good mom, a good friend, a good wife. Anymore I just feel like I am a failure at everything.

I know I'm not attracive enough for my husband. He has done a few things over the years to make me feel this way.



My friends pick on me in hurtful ways. Even those I thought wouldn't hurt me laugh at me anymore. It simply just makes me hate myself even more. I cannot really remember when the last time I was truely happy with myself was anymore.



I went to a wedding over the weekend. In the course of the night nearly all my "friends" picked on me most the night in one way or another, and not in a fun way. Even my husband did something I bet another person he wouldn't do cuz I thought he respected me enough. 



Maybe I don't deserve other people's caring or respect. How can I expect them to when even I hate myself.

 

That is unexcusable that the father of your chidlren, your husband would do anything less than stand by and support you and love you and respect you because you gave birth to his kid(s).. he made vows to you..  That is terrible.. I apoglogize on his behalf for treating you less than the amazing, wonderful, and beautiful woman you are.. I don't have any children, but I have a few lessons in being trea ted badly by so called, friends...  I read somewhere that Sucess is enduring the betrayl of false friends... so that you have done... I'm so sorry the people in your life who should have bulit you up, didn't.. I'm sorry you have such a poor image of yourself.. I'm certain that you are bright and beautiful, and you gave birth and deal with a husband who treats you less than a queen, so I know you're strong..  every day look in the mirror and say 5 posative things about yourself.. write them down.. and every day repeat them in front of the mirror... you can start with one.. but add to the list.. and as the list gets longer, keep repeating them, everyday write one new posative thing.. it might not happen over night, but pretty soon you'll start believing them.. it took time for you to believe all those lies about yourself, so it may take time to believe the truths.. but I wish you the best!  :) You are beautiful, you are a  wonderful mom, and an even better wife for putting up with such a loser.  You have to forgive your friends and your husband, but you don't have to put up with being treated badly.