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I Hate The Demons Of Alcoholism And Drug Addiction

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 129 People

    Godzilla From Hell

    What does Godzilla have to do with drug addiction?   I'm trying to learn how to cope in a creative way.  Hollywood - Three years in the making. It's a sunny day. The sky is blue. The birds are singing. BUT, everyday, you get burned to a crisp.  You look forward, you look...
    rjohnson2828 rjohnson2828 51-55 1 Response Jul 25, 2011

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    You Will Not Win This Time

    You come like a stalker in the night while everyone is sleeping and you cast your spell.You pick your prey and you take and take until nothing is left but emptiness..rage..pain and sorrow. Your a coward...you hide so nobody can see you and therefore you stay strong and and make...
    ayankee ayankee 46-50, F 14 Responses Nov 11, 2009

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    My Beautiful Sister... Lost To Drugs

    I don't know how long I can live pretending that I don't think about my sister and her downfall. It consumes my mind and I worry about her constantly, even though I wish that I could just switch that part of my brain off. I feel guilty. she's on drugs... meth and mandrax... I...
    syengel syengel 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 3, 2013

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    Demons

    My demons are not of anything i did, but what was done to me by alcholics and drugies. My parents was alcoholics and they was very abusive. Kids at school were druggies and a couple have tried to kill me. Now then where do i come in on all of this? I am the nightmares of my...
    Arorin Arorin 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 22, 2010

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    I love my boyfriend very much.

    We just had a baby girl and I want things to work out but he has an alcohol addiction and I finally told him that we stay together he keeps drinking I'm miserable or he stays and resents me because i won't allow drinking. He didn't say anything. I told him he's free to leave if...
    iloveanalcoholic iloveanalcoholic 22-25, F Dec 29, 2014

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    For the last 6 years its been a battle between

    trying to have a good life with the man I love, and fighting with the mean, hallowed out shell of the alcoholic/ drug addict he is almost every minute were together. The alcohol has always been there. But the pills have been even more of a roller coaster. It started with hydros...
    Beth0888 Beth0888 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 12, 2014

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    Demon's....

    That tear people apart and destory families. That cause pain and ruin people. There are no words...Its just awful. And so sad.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 14, 2009

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    Im marrying a drug addict in 2 months.

    When I first met him I adored him, now I think I hate him but I'm still marrying him because he hasn't used in a while and I'm hoping his personality will be the same one day....
    Warriorbutterfly Warriorbutterfly 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 23, 2014

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    pain....pills and more pills.

    ... bigger and more pain.... surgery again & again over &overagain striping away her soul pill by pill....relief from the physical..... PAIN.... but it cost a leg..... more pain.... that no pill can ease..... no more pills.... what to do for the pain in her soul.... cost a son...
    TEMPOLTON TEMPOLTON 41-45, M 3 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    Oh Brother.

    I have an older brother who's addicted to drugs & alcohol. At age 13, he was already smoking weed, and experimenting with other drugs. He's 29 now...and I had no idea that it would turn out like this. He drinks almost every day..and when he doesn't drink, he's doing drugs, and...
    Deesha89 Deesha89 26-30, F Aug 15, 2013

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    My Sister Does Drugs

    My younger sister and I used to be very close growing up and as young adults, I considered her half sister, half daughter. She was very sweet and unfortunately had some issues (mainly self induced but some chemical imbalance) that had her turning to drugs for relief. Over the...
    tamsmiles tamsmiles 41-45 1 Response Dec 30, 2012

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    Still Clean And Yet...

    It was the entire month of February in 1996 that my ex and I cold-turkeyed heroin and methadone.  After 17 years of off and on use I finally could not take it anymore.  I could not stand being held prisoner to the drugs anymore.1995 was marred by my father's passing...
    ktnkal1 ktnkal1 46-50 2 Responses Jan 12, 2010

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    Why People Can't Find Out Another Activity?

    I don't understand why people like to abuse drugs. There are many extreme activities that we could do for fun such as bungee jumping, sky diving, hiking and sit roller coaster. I hope some body would like to eat insects such as grass hopper, wood worm, scorpion, puffer fish and...
    Arrow17 Arrow17 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 24, 2013

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    Part VII During the time my cousin

    and her girlfriend were getting together, I had been dealing with my own problems. Drug addiction. I was a part of those idiot groups who would take anything without knowing what it was we were even taking. That's where I got the nick name Blaze. It reached a point where I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 7, 2014

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    Life In Bloom.....

    I recently ended my relationship with alcohol dependance. I started using drug when i was 13 and the alcohol when I was 16. It was all I knew. I was very poor when I was a child. I had an abuser stepfather who called me dumb *** since I can remember. That was my name. Its what he...
    underwatersymphony underwatersymphony 41-45, M 2 Responses May 18, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    1994-introduction to crack, 9 months into using: went to prison (manslaughter & robbery) Incarcerated for 14 years 11 months. Earned a BA degree while in prison, got involved in...
    johnqrich johnqrich 41-45, M May 13

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    Okay I don't know where else to go, and I'm kind of scared right now. I don't have a drug addiction. But my older brother does and he's been doing pain pills for years. He crushes...
    kyliereneaa kyliereneaa 16-17, F 4 Responses May 13

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    I'm the type to get attached to things I love and since that day all I do is pills. At first it was super cool and life was extra beautiful. Now it somehow ruined my life and it...
    Sheisinlove Sheisinlove 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I am your Disease. I hate meetings. I hate your higher power. I hate anyone who has a program. To all who come in contact with me, I wish you suffering and death. Allow me to...
    ajb234 ajb234 41-45, M 4 Responses Apr 25

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    I have two older sisters, L 12 and M 13 years older to be exact. The oldest is terrible to deal with and I honestly think I hate her. She tried to throw our father in jail when...
    Ant20 Ant20 18-21, F 2 hrs ago

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    Dear Mommy, I'm sorry that I don't remember that your sick, just like me, just like all addict's are. I have to remember that it's your addiction that I hate, not you. I must...
    skinbaby69 skinbaby69 18-21, F May 1

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    The Worse Traits Of Most These Anglo-Saxon Aussies Have That's If You Want Too Call Them People There Worse Than Animals.... Racism Discrimination Egotistic Arrogant Ignorant...
    MARSOC2004 MARSOC2004 22-25, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    When I was in 6th grade we had the D.A.R.E program, but when I was in the 6th grade, drugs had already taken control of my life. I started drinking at a young age. I'm not gonna...
    Godheals0328 Godheals0328 18-21, F 1 Response May 11

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    It's been the hardest thing to deal with. I support him in recovery and I do not bother getting angry with him however I tell him it isn't right. It's ongoing- his addiction has...
    Gingerfab Gingerfab 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    In April of 2014 I lost my mother to brain cancer. I am sixteen years old, and it was extremely depressing and hard on both my sister and I. My sister is twenty, so she takes care...
    aarondisney aarondisney 22-25, M May 1

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    I see demons , lots of them. They look like regular people from all walks of life. They work or attack in groups or they elect antagonists from among themselves to harass and delay...
    Afflicted01 Afflicted01 46-50, M 1 Response May 5

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    meth is a love hate relationship for me. i like the high i get off it, and i just enjoy being with people. but then the comedowns are terrible and i begin to doubt myself and...
    cocaineblues cocaineblues 18-21, F 2 Responses May 10

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    I think that hating ALL drugs is being close-minded and is a result of being underexposed to the vast array of sensations and experiences they can provide to their users. I'm...
    psychonautosorus psychonautosorus 16-17, M 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    I never used drugs I grew up in a big city and saw first hand what crack had done to my neighborhood alcohol had killed my dad my high school friend lived on the streets due to...
    Daddyslovingarms Daddyslovingarms 41-45, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    sbs journalist made these great truthful comments on Anzac day Australian World War I “celebration” buries history of mass anti-war opposition18 April 2015The...
    vladdyy vladdyy 31-35, M 4 Responses Apr 26

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    Today is my 3 year anniversary with the boy I love. I knew I loved him since I was 13. I'm 20 now. This morning I found out he took percocets. He has a history of doing xanax...
    livelaughlove08642 livelaughlove08642 18-21, F May 4

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    I ******* hate air mattresses. I ******* hate not being able to sleep. I ******* hate this ****. Trying to have a good vacation and it is ******* ruined by a piece of **** air...
    DramaBabe94 DramaBabe94 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    I am always afraid of the devil. He had ruined my life. He was there in my school and he cause my classmates to hate me so I had been bullied from elementary to highschool so I...
    redsilver26 redsilver26 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    I mean this is a serious kind of hate, not the whiney "my parents didn't let me get my way" kind of hate. Sometimes I have murderous thoughts... I want to hurt them but I won't, I...
    Knixveus5 Knixveus5 18-21, M 5 Responses Apr 28

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    I hate my father. He was a drug addict, and an abuser. He terrorized me, dragged me through poverty and hell, he ruined my credit (he stole my identity and put two evictions, a...
    rkmarco rkmarco 36-40, F 3 Responses May 8

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    My inner demons made me evil and I like that my power of darkness will soon consume this world and I will consume every human soul on this pitiful earth. Father Satan will soon...
    BadassDemon666 BadassDemon666 26-30, M 2 Responses May 11

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    I am a recovering drug addict. I got addicted to pain pills when I injured my back. Coming off them was one of the hardest things I have done. I have been told I have an addictive...
    SissyJazmin SissyJazmin 36-40, M 3 Responses Apr 24

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    My son kicked his addiction to heroine 6 years ago. My heart breaks today knowing he's back using. I thought love cured everything but my son needs strength now. All my love won't...
    1with101 1with101 46-50, F 4 Responses Apr 30

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    ....but I have an addiction to heels, and the warmer weather means the cute strappy ones get to come out!
    girlfaith girlfaith 36-40, F 9 Responses May 1

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    It's official; I have been clean for 6 days so far. Tomorrow will be 7 days. I may have had a relapse with my addiction to alcohol on last week, but I am getting the help I need...
    anonymous112392 anonymous112392 22-25 11 Responses May 6

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    Any recovering addicts here, opiates and heroin in general. I was real proud of myself cuz im about to be 2 years clean off heroin but then my insurance ended and im on...
    braster25 braster25 26-30, M 2 Responses May 9

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    Almost after a half a year clean it got me again. I swore to myself I wouldn't. You can never leave the addiction behind. It consumes you
    DrumheadTrial DrumheadTrial 18-21, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I am addicted to Gem...the best drug I ever tried and the only one im gonna keep consuming
    yairdjudas999 yairdjudas999 16-17, M 1 Response 2 days ago