I Hate the Way I Am Feeling

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 425 People

    I wanted to be free from all those emotions.

    . They are haunting me every night.. Please go away.. I can't help but see every fear, every weakens and pleasure of other people..
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 18, 2015

    I'm worn out stuck laying on the couch thoughts

    of all the things I should do. Someone just give me all the time, energy, and money in the world then I'll be happy. At least the time and energy part then I can make the money on my own.
    nocturnalhound nocturnalhound
    31-35, M
    Nov 20, 2015

    Grief Something terrible happened to me.

    It's not a death, but a loss. I am devastated, but I'm managing. Then suddenly, it's as if someone punches me in the stomach and starts to choke me. Then, I'm not managing so well.
    ijustneed2talk ijustneed2talk
    46-50, F
    1 Response Apr 23, 2015

    I feel abandoned. I have friends

    but it seems as though they avoid me and I know they say things behind my back. I thought we could be friends but it seems that my religious beliefs are making that impossible. The only person I trust right is myself.
    Dante12345 Dante12345
    18-21, M
    May 1, 2014

    When I go to sleep at night: I am sleeping 3%

    and 97% I am thinking of thousands of why's, if's and how's .
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    3 Responses Feb 25, 2015

    I always get the worst anxiety on Sundays.

    I guess it's always before the start of a new week which makes me antsy. It's the worst feeling.
    emelon12 emelon12
    22-25, F
    Aug 24, 2014

    I hate having memories with someone that

    now is a stranger to me ... I hate missing him so much, and i hate knowing that we are just strangers with random memories ... I just hate myself for people that once were bullets for me ..
    Trustyourself Trustyourself
    22-25, M
    May 12, 2014

    Sometimes, when people decide to leave you

    for good, you have to let them. No matter how much you don't want them to. There are some things that are far beyond our control. Even if you have the strength to fight for them, you have to accept the cold harsh truth - the people that you can't live without, can live without...
    ShalomEk ShalomEk
    22-25, F
    Feb 23, 2016

    I have cramps, I feel sick,

    I'm plagued with these cursed thoughts and memories, I feel like you don't care anymore, I feel like I'm losing you. Do you really even care? Can I call you my friend anymore? It's like I'm being replaced. I want to tell you how I feel, yet I feel like you're going to tell me...
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan
    1 Response Apr 14, 2014

    I'm terrible at showing my emotions,

    I hate crying and I just brush things off when I shouldn't
    MyThoughtsInWords MyThoughtsInWords
    18-21, F
    Feb 18, 2014

    I liked my friend's crushed,

    because she was helping me get over my ex. but felt **** when they actually share d same feeling. f*** me for geting jealous. they deserves each other
    adenhigh adenhigh
    18-21, M
    Aug 1, 2015

    I was content with loneliness,

    I was happy with the life I had already set up for myself. It's so unfair for someone to come into your life and take you out of there, and make you feel special again to just abandon you. He just left me here waiting for him; with a million unanswered questions. I think what...
    Anchoredheart1 Anchoredheart1
    22-25, F
    May 18, 2015

    A Pitiful Sight.

    I really hate myself for thinking up this thought: I am a very very pitiful sight right now. I rose from my chair and went to get food from the kitchen as I predicted it was about ready. On the way, I picked a plate I had used earlier with me to wash it and use it again. I...
    dispendymous dispendymous
    22-25, M
    Jan 29, 2013

    Like I'm nothing special.

    Like I'm never gonna be enough. Like I want to go throw up and cry. I feel like ****. I want to binge eat..but that's bad. I want to cut, but that's bad too. I don't know why I even feel like this....but I just do..just let these next 20 minutes go by fast so I can get home..
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan
    May 6, 2014


    Hopeless Resistance is futile I'm just wasting my time Tired of pleasing everyone else They all end up hurt and disappointed in me anyways I'm not gonna do any better My mind is scrambled Scrambled eggs Scrambled thoughts Hopeless Useless Resistance is futile Focusing on the...
    ijustneed2talk ijustneed2talk
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Sep 7, 2012

    Hit On During Internship

    I am happily and faithfully married to my high school sweetheart. I have spent the past 18 years as a married stay at home mom. A few years ago my husband got very sick. He is all better now, but the event was life changing for both of us. I realized I had no skills to support my...
    icis2475 icis2475
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Nov 5, 2013

    It's sad when the only thing keeping you alive

    is because you know you are not worth the funeral cost </3
    kamriaskarlett1995 kamriaskarlett1995
    22-25, F
    May 12, 2014

    Itz frustrating.. Itz painful too.

    . I feel clueless most of the time.. I try doing meditation but the fact is if the mind is disturbed... It becomes vry stubborn to do anythin..
    pinkchicadb pinkchicadb
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 1, 2014

    It's usually when I have a free evening.

    I want to go do things, but I'm too tired to go do them, so I want to do things at home,(dishes, computer, video games), but because I want to do outside things too, I can't justify just staying at home. So, due to my indecision, I usually end up laying on the couch for long...
    oibrulee oibrulee
    26-30, M
    Jun 7, 2015

    I miss talking to someone

    who I really felt a connection with. I don't know what happened though...it's like, one day we were becoming so close, and the next day it's was like being complete strangers again. I just wish I knew what made everything good dissolve so quickly...
    lovemattie lovemattie
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 11, 2014

    Hate fills my heart once again.

    At one time, I thought, the storm had finally passed. but it was only a temporary calm. Now the dark clouds have enveloped the skies, and only darkness fills in the void. Any progress I had made, has since left. Any glimmer of light and hope that once shined has been choked back...
    AnubisRising AnubisRising
    26-30, M
    Dec 29, 2015

    I feel like an absolute FAILURE.

    I feel like I was born a failure and will die as one. I'm not suicidal or anything.. Just saying..
    ConcealedWildheart ConcealedWildheart
    6 Responses Aug 15, 2014

    Le sigh. I'm so in my head sometimes it ruins

    everything. I stress out over things I shouldn't stress out so much about. I like to think I'm a person who goes with the flow but a lot of the time I'm too stressed / over analytical / hard on myself.
    emelon12 emelon12
    22-25, F
    Aug 12, 2014

    I always feel that I dont fit in,

    when it comes to my husband's family.
    mabuhayka mabuhayka
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Aug 14, 2014

    I found the most amazing man I've ever met; he

    was loving and caring, not only towards me, but my son.....today he told me his ex is pregnant, and that he's going to be there for her. My heart broke to a million pieces. Why me? Never did I imagine this could me happening to me. My head is spinning, my heart is shattered...
    Anchoredheart1 Anchoredheart1
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 10, 2015

    Why Does My Ex Ignore My Son's Natural Feelings?

    'Daddy, if Mum's boyfriend lives with us, I am going to live with you!' says my 6 year old son while visiting me this weekend. 'Daddy I miss you and I want to see you everyday.' 'Daddy, we need a plan to get rid of mummy's boyfriend so you and her can be together!' 'Could Mummy...
    HappyWiggy HappyWiggy
    36-40, M
    Oct 1, 2012


    I am feeling alone and empty. The person I have devoted my life to for 10 years is furious with me and thinking that we can't go on. Partly my fault, partly hers. As it stand right now, it is more my fault, or I think it is. We have been through a lot in the last 10...
    shady68 shady68
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 19, 2009

    Venting is natural yes?

    We are all sometimes pushed to a corner, either we retaliate or we just walk away. All my life I've walked away, been called "push-over" or "spinless ." The onetime I chose to stand up and fight back and give as good as I got.... I am the one that is hurting! Why is this...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Feb 5, 2015

    Right Now

    I'm feeling lots of things in the same time, lost, weird, overcome, lonely, let down, angry at myself for not being able to cope. This can't go on like this.
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses May 23, 2012

    I Need To Talk

    So latley I have just been so down I know that it is because I am depressed everyday I try to keep a smile on my face just to keep from crying I hate everything about myself and its getting real bad I have hurt myself in the past and I don't want to do it again I don't feel that...
    marcusduncanhope marcusduncanhope
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jun 26, 2013

    Is It Fruitful Or Not?

    sunyata means emptiness--FRUITFUL emptiness.  i've been through many dark places in my life but have come out the other side with many valuable insights.  right now i'm going through an empty spot in my life--but i'm failing to see where it's going, i'm...
    trixi trixi
    41-45, F
    1 Response Apr 5, 2008

    You know, the feeling

    that something is missing in your life. That one thing or person that gives you so much energy... It's like that one piece of the puzzle that totally distorts the picture until you add it. Ever get that feeling?
    lovemattie lovemattie
    18-21, F
    May 9, 2014

    i just hate it.. i am not happy anymore.

    . your love is suffocating.. it is tiring.. i wish i could just turn my back,walk away and fcking move on.. but i cant.. fck ittt
    Sheenausedtobehere Sheenausedtobehere
    22-25, F
    Sep 11, 2014

    Where You Can Always Find Me...

    I miss him, I'm angry at him, I can't live without him. I'm torn between wanting to keep him in my heart and to finally let go like i should have a long time ago. I'm always missing you. Nightmares and days where i don't want to leave my bed. Between this all i meet someone...
    Tool88 Tool88
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 22, 2010

    I hate feeling insecure,

    it sneaks in without me wanting it there,it's slowly getting better but it's still there,words of people of the past put those there and their so hard to forget,I'm happy now but those flash backs show up,will it ever go away.
    anna4862 anna4862
    51-55, F
    2 Responses May 12, 2014

    I Hate When I Feel Like This.

    I don't like complaining on here but we're allowed to. I hate the way I'm feeling right now. I'm with an amazing boy, but whenever I do something that may be a bit off he says we need to break up. And that everyone says that he should dump me. Every GIRL he talks to wants him to...
    xXPsychochic56 xXPsychochic56
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Dec 23, 2009

    I Can't Open Up, Can't Show My True Emotions!

    who knows if anyone will even read this, I guess it's just good to write something down and know that if someone does read this maybe they feel the same and they will see that they are not the only person. I shouldn't be feeling this way but I am, I have no reason to be depressed...
    another21 another21
    3 Responses May 1, 2011
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