Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I Hate Who I Am Now

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 64 People

    Annoyingly Melodramatic

    I don't exactly hate myself nor do i particularly like myself i have a strong feeling of nothingness towards my existence, Ive been like this since i broke up with my ex girlfriend. for a while I hurt but the pain went away what changed is that i no longer have a strong sense of...
    Jessehy Jessehy 18-21 1 Response Aug 30, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    How Do You Cope Or Deal With Yourself After Being In Not Just One But Two Abusive Relationships?

    The first that lasted 20+ yrs and I was terrified to leave..the other that started out great until the real person came out 8 mos later? Thankfully now have a man who completely cherishes me...but very disappointed in myself for allowing myself to be in either relationship...
    tornadodave tornadodave 36-40, M 3 Responses Sep 3, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Ok so for many many years I was shy super

    deadly shy (like every year excluding this one I thought I was going to die from the mini heart attacks I gave myself when people or Anything was out if my comfort zone.) anyways basically this year I have no idea what it was but something finally brought me out of my shy world...
    blaze96 blaze96 18-21, F Feb 1, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Don't Recognize Myself Anymore

    I know I have changed, and I knew I would; I am young and people change when they grow up. It's just, I hate the person I have become. I am my own enemy and I have to defeat myself. Depression is what I have but also who I am. This sounds a bit cliché-ish, but I...
    Lola91 Lola91 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 18, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Hate My Life Or Myself

    Well where to start. I have it bad, but not as bad as some stories ive read, im sorry you all feel the way I do if not worse. its sad, and I dont like that. I'm very compassionate almost all the time i put everybody else before me and when I put me before anybody else i feel like...
    SitoR SitoR 18-21 1 Response Aug 10, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Hate Me.

     I don't want to be here anymore. I screw over the people i'm closest to, and i don't want to be here anymore. I feel empty and sick and sad and angry. I don't want to be me. I feel like i have nothing to live for. I don't see the point of anything. The boy who said he would...
    wilbr0797 wilbr0797 18-21 2 Responses Aug 3, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    One Who Is A Disgrace On This Earth.

    I know how everybody elso on this group feels. And I have to say that I feel the same way too. I am a boy, but I just can't stand being this way. I do not fit in with the boys. I sometimes make myself look just so socially akward and embarassing. I have no real close friends. The...
    confessionstotell confessionstotell 13-15, M Dec 21, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Self Pity

    I hate who i am. I hate the fact i always fall short.no one seeems to really understand.i want change in my life but i can't figure thos one out. i have no friends,i can't keep a girlfriend and my life sucks. you can't talk to anyone because they will either lock you up,take your...
    borntodie borntodie 41-45 1 Response May 30, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Failing At Life...

    Every single day I wake up with no clear direction of where I'm going in life. I have a Bachelor's degree and a Master's degree and yet I feel like I am completely unprepared for life. I am sick and tired of watching all my friends succeed in life and I'm still living at home...
    Waited4UEverlong Waited4UEverlong 22-25, M 1 Response May 13, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Not Entirely....

    ~ due to technical difficulties (also read as protest to EP's partnership with Facebook) this story has been temporarily removed ~
    Areyan Areyan 31-35 1 Response Aug 20, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Self Pity

    I hate who i am. I hate the fact i always fall short.no one seeems to really understand.i want change in my life but i can't figure thos one out. i have no friends,i can't keep a girlfriend and my life sucks. you can't talk to anyone because they will either lock you up,take your...
    borntodie borntodie 41-45 1 Response May 30, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Hate is such a strong word.

    I would rather say I'm unhappy with who I am now. I will be honest, that a good deal of it is superficial. (First world problems) If you have images of me looking like my avatar, I don't. (As of today: Dec. 05, 13) I AM CLASSIFIED AS OVERWEIGHT according to the BMI charts! I...
    OperationHotness OperationHotness 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    I miss you older brother :( it's been more than two years now but the pain in my heart is still the same :( he was 22 years old he was killed by a drunk driver on my birthday I...
    sweetmia sweetmia 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 25

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I cry every single day, I have lost me, I lost my happiness. I lost everything, my life felt apart, I don't even know how to continue. I thought that nothing could break me down...
    claud26 claud26 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 25

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My Stepmom died on Easter 2015 at the age of 37. She was closer to my age than my Dad's. I'm still in shock
    rebackrb rebackrb 26-30, F Apr 24

    Your Response

    Cancel
    i dont believe in god, i just logically cant its like saying believe there is a tooth fairy. but i find myself hopeing theres something more that somehow im wrong, i miss the...
    kittycat1598 kittycat1598 18-21, F Apr 24

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My mom my uncle and my grandmotheršŸ˜¢šŸ˜˜
    kikilicious16 kikilicious16 16-17, F Apr 25

    Your Response

    Cancel
    my first live got killed a year and nine months ago.....it still hurts jus as much
    raebaybrown raebaybrown 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Lost my 17 year old uncle he was more of a brother to me I miss him so much it still hurts thinking of him
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 26

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I miss my father .. :( .. really really miss him
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I miss my sister... She was my best friend.
    Blackberries Blackberries 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Nanny Elaine. breaks my heart every damn day that you're not here. It's hitting me hard lately.
    XxForeverBlueXx XxForeverBlueXx 18-21, F Apr 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My baby sister... Died at seven months old from heart problems. Her picture is still my background 3 years later. I miss my ladybug a little more everyday. But I know she's looking...
    bbybleu bbybleu 16-17, F 3 Responses May 11

    Your Response

    Cancel
    What can I say? Just the usual suspect, the bullies, the picking on, the anguish you want to do something but you couldn't? I suppose I beat myself up every now and than. Sometimes...
    Cudd1efish Cudd1efish 26-30, M 1 Response May 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    That is just great !!! My parents hates me now!! I told them I was going through depression and now they blame me for it that is just great my mom wouldn't speak to me and my dad...
    Katt007 Katt007 18-21, F 3 Responses May 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    First semester: I was friends with a girl called Viki. I sat next to her in class, we hung out....and all that stuff. Winter break Second semester: Started being friends with a...
    crystalsky crystalsky 18-21, F a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    He's just...my best friend ^.^ believe t or not, I used to hate him. Now, 9 months and going :)
    kitkat1269858 kitkat1269858 13-15, F May 9

    Your Response

    Cancel
    6 a.m. and I'm still awake. Slightly tired but my mind won't allow me to rest. I can see the sun starting to peak... I hate it. Now that summer is arriving the sun Is rising...
    SylenaEverlasting SylenaEverlasting 18-21, F May 10

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I wish I had known.... - what options I had for careers back then. - some people I talk to more know were actually nice - that there was no reason for me to be so hostile against...
    Sil833 Sil833 18-21, F 2 Responses May 15

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My mother hates me ever since I was a kid. She always likes my older brother more than me and my older sister. She always treats me like a black sheep of the family, just because...
    chloe92vendetta chloe92vendetta 22-25, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    A letter I would write to my ex: Hey So just a quick overview of everything we went through together: When I met you, you had a history of bad relationships, including...
    SeeJayEss SeeJayEss 16-17, M 7 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    So this starts years ago when i moved to live with my grandparents because my parents could not raise me up as the problems were those times.I never knew my dad i was just a little...
    abelstafa abelstafa 22-25, M 1 Response 5 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Ever since I turned 18 my mom has been cold to me. She never talks to me now...and when she does, it's more Like screaming at me for no reason....I don't know why she's like this...
    AlexisQ AlexisQ 16-17, F 8 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Today I was bag packing for my dance group that have won a competition to perform 5 days in Disneyland Florida, right, and this woman said to me what you raising for, I explained...
    hannahashleigh23 hannahashleigh23 18-21, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I hate being alive.....i hate that i have to get up every day to just suffer through every day with a fake personality and fake emotions...i hate that i cant even kill myself...
    TheDarknessInsideM3 TheDarknessInsideM3 18-21, M 3 Responses 18 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Same thing for the women who know they are being used, and letting them get away with it. Well, I pity these people more, than hate. It's the idea that I find so hateful.
    iCuriousBabe iCuriousBabe 41-45, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Let me start off with a story first. My soon to be husband had his lower wisdom teeth pulled almost a week ago. So of course he's been in a bit of pain, not much because he's a man...
    MissJessieGurl MissJessieGurl 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    What sucks about these people is that everyone has anger issues. Due to that, no one can get along, theres no happiness, and everyone makes each other feel bad. A family is...
    DessyLove DessyLove 18-21, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    The Oh-So Wonderful and Usual Things That Happen For People Of Color: - You get followed at the supermarket or clothing store. Don't worry! They're making sure you don't steal...
    kisthename kisthename 18-21, F 9 Responses 7 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Right now I'm not liking the people who enable domestic violence. My friend in my neighborhood sent me a message saying if he comes back call the police no matter what. Shortly...
    Morrgin Morrgin 31-35, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I JUST HATE GUY WHO HIT WOMEN'S AND GIRLS I JUST GET MAD.AND JUST CUSS THEM OUT I GUY ARE ******* P.S. WOMENS AND GIRLS WATCH OUT WHAT EVERY GUY 9R BOY UR MEETING
    DANGELOMOSS DANGELOMOSS 13-15, M 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Why are there so many people who claim to know the love of God always so quick to judge others? I was always taught in Sunday school to show others God's love. I guess they forgot...
    loanother loanother 36-40, F 2 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I hate my Birthday. I don't care for it to be honest. All I really ever want to do is get black out drunk and just pretend that I'm not getting older. I mean I'm nearly 20 Now...