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I Hate Who I Am Now

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 64 People

    Hate is such a strong word.

    I would rather say I'm unhappy with who I am now. I will be honest, that a good deal of it is superficial. (First world problems) If you have images of me looking like my avatar, I don't. (As of today: Dec. 05, 13) I AM CLASSIFIED AS OVERWEIGHT according to the BMI charts! I...
    OperationHotness OperationHotness 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2013

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    I Am Someone I Did Not Want To Be Now

    I am angry and hurt most of the time I am outspoken and don't care if I hurt peoples feelings (where as once I would never have said things or even half the things that people said to me) I am a time waster... I complain a lot more then I want to I often feel so depressed...
    IceEntice IceEntice 36-40, F Jan 4, 2013

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    Not Entirely....

    ~ due to technical difficulties (also read as protest to EP's partnership with Facebook) this story has been temporarily removed ~
    Areyan Areyan 31-35 1 Response Aug 20, 2010

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    Self Pity

    I hate who i am. I hate the fact i always fall short.no one seeems to really understand.i want change in my life but i can't figure thos one out. i have no friends,i can't keep a girlfriend and my life sucks. you can't talk to anyone because they will either lock you up,take your...
    borntodie borntodie 41-45 1 Response May 30, 2009

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    Self Pity

    I hate who i am. I hate the fact i always fall short.no one seeems to really understand.i want change in my life but i can't figure thos one out. i have no friends,i can't keep a girlfriend and my life sucks. you can't talk to anyone because they will either lock you up,take your...
    borntodie borntodie 41-45 1 Response May 30, 2009

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    I Don't Recognize Myself Anymore

    I know I have changed, and I knew I would; I am young and people change when they grow up. It's just, I hate the person I have become. I am my own enemy and I have to defeat myself. Depression is what I have but also who I am. This sounds a bit cliché-ish, but I...
    Lola91 Lola91 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 18, 2008

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    Failing At Life...

    Every single day I wake up with no clear direction of where I'm going in life. I have a Bachelor's degree and a Master's degree and yet I feel like I am completely unprepared for life. I am sick and tired of watching all my friends succeed in life and I'm still living at home...
    Waited4UEverlong Waited4UEverlong 22-25, M 1 Response May 13, 2010

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    I Hate My Life Or Myself

    Well where to start. I have it bad, but not as bad as some stories ive read, im sorry you all feel the way I do if not worse. its sad, and I dont like that. I'm very compassionate almost all the time i put everybody else before me and when I put me before anybody else i feel like...
    SitoR SitoR 18-21 1 Response Aug 10, 2011

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    Ok so for many many years I was shy super

    deadly shy (like every year excluding this one I thought I was going to die from the mini heart attacks I gave myself when people or Anything was out if my comfort zone.) anyways basically this year I have no idea what it was but something finally brought me out of my shy world...
    blaze96 blaze96 16-17, F Feb 1

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    Annoyingly Melodramatic

    I don't exactly hate myself nor do i particularly like myself i have a strong feeling of nothingness towards my existence, Ive been like this since i broke up with my ex girlfriend. for a while I hurt but the pain went away what changed is that i no longer have a strong sense of...
    Jessehy Jessehy 18-21 1 Response Aug 30, 2011

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    I Hate Me.

     I don't want to be here anymore. I screw over the people i'm closest to, and i don't want to be here anymore. I feel empty and sick and sad and angry. I don't want to be me. I feel like i have nothing to live for. I don't see the point of anything. The boy who said he would...
    wilbr0797 wilbr0797 18-21 2 Responses Aug 3, 2009

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    How Do You Cope Or Deal With Yourself After Being In Not Just One But Two Abusive Relationships?

    The first that lasted 20+ yrs and I was terrified to leave..the other that started out great until the real person came out 8 mos later? Thankfully now have a man who completely cherishes me...but very disappointed in myself for allowing myself to be in either relationship...
    tornadodave tornadodave 36-40, M 3 Responses Sep 3, 2011

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    One Who Is A Disgrace On This Earth.

    I know how everybody elso on this group feels. And I have to say that I feel the same way too. I am a boy, but I just can't stand being this way. I do not fit in with the boys. I sometimes make myself look just so socially akward and embarassing. I have no real close friends. The...
    confessionstotell confessionstotell 13-15, M Dec 21, 2010

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    I hope my boyfriend realizes this before it's too late. He has ignored me soo long. I feel like I'm not enough. I don't want to be ignored. I wish he would just realize it so it...
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    I have been missing my son tremendously lately, the holidays are making it worse. he would be 2 in April. I still remember everything like it was yesterday. mommy loves you...
    blueeyeddevil18 blueeyeddevil18 36-40, F 4 Responses Nov 13

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    I'm going to be honest here, and I'm sure I'll sound like a monster, but I'm pretty sure I hate my baby. Im almost positive I have postpartum. I posted once, then immediately...
    turtles2014 turtles2014 22-25 1 Response Nov 1

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    Mainly hate the horrible overplayed music, which is always about SANTA. A fella that doesn't even exist. Who took the place of Jesus, who is what Christmas is all about Anagram of...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't know how should I start this story. Am I even able to say that my mom is the main reason of my un happiness and my sadness?   I never knew love , till I met my love Ahmad...
    unknown159231 unknown159231 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 27

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    I always feel so uncomfortable towards those of the opposite sex.. Whether I find them attractive or not. I hate it. A while ago I went to the school library.. I like it there cuz...
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    For those who think you cannot experience "real"stress while a teen/under age. Ahh but there's where you are wrong.You have no idea who I am or what i've been through. In fact I've...
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    I'm watching my stepkids alone tomorrow for the first time. She's 10, he's 7. I spent over $50 at the craft store picking out a zillion cool projects and crafts and activities...
    theytestme theytestme 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 24

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    He was my first and may be last relationship in my life. He was a douchbag but he was the cutest person ever. I was fat and ugly that time but he chost to love me as what i was. We...
    rosirposy rosirposy 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I had an emotional affair two years ago, and my husband has yet to forgive me. He throws it in my face all the time; even on good days he has thrown it in my face. I really put...
    fatgirl17 fatgirl17 31-35, F Oct 24

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    4 years that I'm depressed. Nobody can help me. I have absolutely nothing: no friends, no job, a family, but I hate... who can not understand what I live. I'm not good at anything...
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    People would hate who they see. Or what they see.
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    skittay skittay 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 8

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    I always hated high-school because of the simple fact that I never fit in there. I was always different from the other kids and I hated the city I lived in so I couldn't wait for...
    HelenaMaiden HelenaMaiden 18-21, F 13 mins ago

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    As I have written here a while ago, all this experience I earned dealing with my mil and consequently with my husband as her "product" is unwilling, but something I can´t avoid...
    stellera stellera 51-55, F 7 hrs ago

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    Some people are so sick in the head I hate bullies :(
    Rach1544 Rach1544 16-17, F 1 hr ago

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    I am beyond frustrated. Because of a divorce and some other personal issues (that were not my fault), I was forced to move back in with my parents. I am 43 years old and have a...
    cosmowoman13 cosmowoman13 41-45, F 1 hr ago

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    There's one thing I also hate, is how teenage magazines promote makeup, or giveaway free makeup with the magazine! Being a young girl at 13-15 with teenage magazines, you feel as...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 7 hrs ago

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    :( Once Upon a Time is gonna go off soon, my Sunday nights will be empty. It's bad enough my Thursday nights are empty now.Guess I'll wait for 2015.
    PsychedelicSmile PsychedelicSmile 18-21, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    It's just 3 bimbos ...let me know when the cams are done Everyone knew I was under oder too rest...drums and banging now ladies
    3weekrest123 3weekrest123 51-55, F 35 mins ago

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    Peccare Peccare 22-25, F 3 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I am a girl; I am 16 years old. My sister is 18. This long story is mostly about us two. Therefore, please read this carefully and help me get out of this living hell!:( I hate my...
    Miserabelle Miserabelle 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 4

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    I hate my family. At first I thought it was because of our misunderstandings and fights but as time passed I knew that I really hate my family. I hate my mom for being so...
    Dardar113 Dardar113 13-15 Nov 2

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    I come from a very broken family. My mother tortures my dad physically, hits him with knifes and bricks and my father is too scared to retaliate or even argue back. My sister is...
    faketure faketure 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 27

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    Omg I seriously hate you grown a$$ men talking so nasty to these little girls shame on you yeah some of these little girls do ask inappropriate questions but damn your an adult and...
    UpStateNyMom33 UpStateNyMom33 31-35, F 6 hrs ago

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    Jose 4 is on a cam.hate ...all witnessed and fried like usual They also voted her as a bum
    jose3done jose3done 51-55, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    well here's my story. everyday i wake up thinking to myself don't let them get to you. It clearly never works because without them even needing to say a word i know its me they're...
    misslettinggo misslettinggo 13-15, F 23 mins ago

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