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I Hate Who I Am Now

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    Ok so for many many years I was shy super

    deadly shy (like every year excluding this one I thought I was going to die from the mini heart attacks I gave myself when people or Anything was out if my comfort zone.) anyways basically this year I have no idea what it was but something finally brought me out of my shy world...
    blaze96 blaze96 18-21, F Feb 1, 2014

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    Hate is such a strong word.

    I would rather say I'm unhappy with who I am now. I will be honest, that a good deal of it is superficial. (First world problems) If you have images of me looking like my avatar, I don't. (As of today: Dec. 05, 13) I AM CLASSIFIED AS OVERWEIGHT according to the BMI charts! I...
    OperationHotness OperationHotness 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2013

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    One Who Is A Disgrace On This Earth.

    I know how everybody elso on this group feels. And I have to say that I feel the same way too. I am a boy, but I just can't stand being this way. I do not fit in with the boys. I sometimes make myself look just so socially akward and embarassing. I have no real close friends. The...
    confessionstotell confessionstotell 13-15, M Dec 21, 2010

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    Annoyingly Melodramatic

    I don't exactly hate myself nor do i particularly like myself i have a strong feeling of nothingness towards my existence, Ive been like this since i broke up with my ex girlfriend. for a while I hurt but the pain went away what changed is that i no longer have a strong sense of...
    Jessehy Jessehy 18-21 1 Response Aug 30, 2011

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    Failing At Life...

    Every single day I wake up with no clear direction of where I'm going in life. I have a Bachelor's degree and a Master's degree and yet I feel like I am completely unprepared for life. I am sick and tired of watching all my friends succeed in life and I'm still living at home...
    Waited4UEverlong Waited4UEverlong 22-25, M 1 Response May 13, 2010

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    I Hate My Life Or Myself

    Well where to start. I have it bad, but not as bad as some stories ive read, im sorry you all feel the way I do if not worse. its sad, and I dont like that. I'm very compassionate almost all the time i put everybody else before me and when I put me before anybody else i feel like...
    SitoR SitoR 18-21 1 Response Aug 10, 2011

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    Not Entirely....

    ~ due to technical difficulties (also read as protest to EP's partnership with Facebook) this story has been temporarily removed ~
    Areyan Areyan 31-35 1 Response Aug 20, 2010

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    Self Pity

    I hate who i am. I hate the fact i always fall short.no one seeems to really understand.i want change in my life but i can't figure thos one out. i have no friends,i can't keep a girlfriend and my life sucks. you can't talk to anyone because they will either lock you up,take your...
    borntodie borntodie 41-45 1 Response May 30, 2009

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    How Do You Cope Or Deal With Yourself After Being In Not Just One But Two Abusive Relationships?

    The first that lasted 20+ yrs and I was terrified to leave..the other that started out great until the real person came out 8 mos later? Thankfully now have a man who completely cherishes me...but very disappointed in myself for allowing myself to be in either relationship...
    tornadodave tornadodave 36-40, M 3 Responses Sep 3, 2011

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    I Don't Recognize Myself Anymore

    I know I have changed, and I knew I would; I am young and people change when they grow up. It's just, I hate the person I have become. I am my own enemy and I have to defeat myself. Depression is what I have but also who I am. This sounds a bit cliché-ish, but I...
    Lola91 Lola91 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 18, 2008

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    Self Pity

    I hate who i am. I hate the fact i always fall short.no one seeems to really understand.i want change in my life but i can't figure thos one out. i have no friends,i can't keep a girlfriend and my life sucks. you can't talk to anyone because they will either lock you up,take your...
    borntodie borntodie 41-45 1 Response May 30, 2009

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    I Hate Me.

     I don't want to be here anymore. I screw over the people i'm closest to, and i don't want to be here anymore. I feel empty and sick and sad and angry. I don't want to be me. I feel like i have nothing to live for. I don't see the point of anything. The boy who said he would...
    wilbr0797 wilbr0797 18-21 2 Responses Aug 3, 2009

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    I just really ******* hate this life.. I haven't done anything wrong, plus i never meant to exist.. I never meant for my parents to meet.. I really didn't mean it.. I just want all...
    xXGothicAngelxx xXGothicAngelxx 16-17, F 1 Response 23 mins ago

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    my family have and always had health and personal issues, and every ******* day the talk about their problems. Also my two aunts and my cousin are living in the same apartment as...
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    The privacy wasn't there. The communication was awful. I often wonder what made them want to be parents in the first place. In my baby book they wrote what they hoped I'd be. I...
    Allforaview Allforaview 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    People nowadays look at body builders or people with nice bodies in general and say "Oh, that's not real" and think that these peoples' bodies are unreasonable standards of what...
    CaptainHoof CaptainHoof 18-21, M 1 hr ago

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    I hate it when people assume that I am a hoarder and live in a nasty house because I have multiple pets. I take good care of them mentally and medically....and I clean constantly...
    BluChild BluChild 41-45, F 1 hr ago

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    So I'm 13, and no I'm trying my best not to bit©h on the internet about how my mother CAN be an a$$hole. So let's move on... I love my family, I wish that we could never go into...
    MilicaNikolic MilicaNikolic 16-17, F 1 hr ago

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    I got yelled at for the job the Lawyers didn't do. They were all on leave last week - hard to chase them to get the work done. And I m sick of having to work on weekends looking at...
    thousandcuts thousandcuts 22-25, F 2 hrs ago

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    I mean who doesn't xD They always seem so hard 😂
    iTzzMike iTzzMike 13-15, M 2 hrs ago

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    my ex was very slim up to 18, I left to go college and she seemed to lose herself a bit. she didn't really know what to do, I tried to get her into hobbies but nothing worked...
    Spector12 Spector12 26-30, M 3 hrs ago

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    I couldn't sleep as usual. Tried to sleep at about 5. my daughter came to me crying because she didn't feel good. I hate when my babies are sick. I'm pretty sure it's not serious...
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F 3 hrs ago

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    "Hupokritos" to be fair. I hate actors. Okay, I don't hate all actors, I hate some actors...and maybe hate is too strong a word. I dislike some actors. Even that would be...
    SoberingBabySteps SoberingBabySteps 31-35, M 4 hrs ago

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    I feel that way when I see two two girls are in love or kissing in the films.I feel tightly in the heart whenever I see them.Never felt this way in mf kissing.Now I am watching...
    SecretlyLovingYou SecretlyLovingYou 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Now it's been 33 hours since I last relieved my throbbing bladder! It's bulging and full of hot pee, wich is sloshing around inside it! It's regularly sending strong waves of...
    bellyyyy bellyyyy 18-21, F 6 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    So I decided to share my story with you all, because I can't find a solution anymore... I'm sorry for my bad english. I'm almost 18 years old, my boyfriend is 19 years old. We...
    1brokenwing 1brokenwing 16-17 4 hrs ago

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    As if the world is not already overpopulated and filthy enough,babies are born into this stinky,rotten,falling apart violent world. And babies are annoying,a nuisance and all the...
    Iloveowl Iloveowl 26-30, F 6 hrs ago

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    I am married with 3 great children. Married for over 14 years now. My wife is a great mother to my children but the relationship ends there. I have slept on the couch for the...
    cameo007 cameo007 41-45, M 7 hrs ago

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    If you know what I mean. We are good friends now for years, but I have never felt attracted to her in that way. I don't know about her, if she wants or ever wanted me that way. I...
    IronicIgor IronicIgor 31-35, M 7 hrs ago

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    and I hate women who hit men. Just don't be violent to people, how about that.
    teenageapple teenageapple 18-21, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    there are two different people in this world, there are people who get touchy when its the right moment or when u actually need to , like a huge when feeling down . And then there...
    Lihlya Lihlya 16-17, F 9 hrs ago

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    It's like getting a tun of bricks bashing into your stomach! Every girl should be putting this as their experience. Half the time I don't get much cranky, I'm all for the munches...
    SarahDotCom SarahDotCom 16-17, F 9 hrs ago

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    No...no, I don't! I love cats. But.....I do not like one particular cat who comes to hunt birds in my woods. He is very tricky, very sneaky. He raids nests and kills birds for fun...
    meowmermaid meowmermaid 36-40, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I politely turned you down for oral sex. I had a hangover, and I had a shower and was lying on my bed with a head ache. I explained its not personal it's just that I'm not feeling...
    FPMXO FPMXO 22-25, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    A while before I turned 20, I was so depressed about getting older. I thought that was the end of the world for me. I'm now getting closer to 22, and all I want is this teenage era...
    girlinwhite girlinwhite 18-21, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I hate it when my eyes burn from crying so much but I hate it more when my heart hurts from holding it all in :/
    ImTheQueenFYM ImTheQueenFYM 16-17, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Been holding it in all day.I finally let it out and you know what that haunting voice came back and caught me.I cut.I'm so disappointed in myself.My scars were nearly gone.I hate...
    MusicLover4Eternity MusicLover4Eternity 13-15, F 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    I don't like kids. I never planned on having kids. My daughter wasn't planned. Her dad was a rebound from the love of my life. I knew we shouldn't be together very early on and...
    crkdhalo0827 crkdhalo0827 41-45, F 1 day ago

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    Do you ever wonder why I use sexy avatars? Its because it gives me a lil boost. It makes me feel somewhat good, even if they aren't me...shallow i know =/ Do ever wonder why I...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have antisocial personality disorder symptom after I reader the symptoms I can find myself in many of them life seems harder and harder for me
    Mongyy Mongyy 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    An interesting note, is how I seem to attract so many unsolicited messages on EP. Many are curious, want to chat. Some thinking about becoming a bull, or a girl wanting to select...
    LdnBreeder LdnBreeder 31-35, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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