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I Hate Who I Am Now

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    Hate is such a strong word.

    I would rather say I'm unhappy with who I am now. I will be honest, that a good deal of it is superficial. (First world problems) If you have images of me looking like my avatar, I don't. (As of today: Dec. 05, 13) I AM CLASSIFIED AS OVERWEIGHT according to the BMI charts! I...
    OperationHotness OperationHotness 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2013

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    I Don't Recognize Myself Anymore

    I know I have changed, and I knew I would; I am young and people change when they grow up. It's just, I hate the person I have become. I am my own enemy and I have to defeat myself. Depression is what I have but also who I am. This sounds a bit cliché-ish, but I...
    Lola91 Lola91 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 18, 2008

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    Annoyingly Melodramatic

    I don't exactly hate myself nor do i particularly like myself i have a strong feeling of nothingness towards my existence, Ive been like this since i broke up with my ex girlfriend. for a while I hurt but the pain went away what changed is that i no longer have a strong sense of...
    Jessehy Jessehy 18-21 1 Response Aug 30, 2011

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    One Who Is A Disgrace On This Earth.

    I know how everybody elso on this group feels. And I have to say that I feel the same way too. I am a boy, but I just can't stand being this way. I do not fit in with the boys. I sometimes make myself look just so socially akward and embarassing. I have no real close friends. The...
    confessionstotell confessionstotell 13-15, M Dec 21, 2010

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    Ok so for many many years I was shy super

    deadly shy (like every year excluding this one I thought I was going to die from the mini heart attacks I gave myself when people or Anything was out if my comfort zone.) anyways basically this year I have no idea what it was but something finally brought me out of my shy world...
    blaze96 blaze96 18-21, F Feb 1, 2014

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    Failing At Life...

    Every single day I wake up with no clear direction of where I'm going in life. I have a Bachelor's degree and a Master's degree and yet I feel like I am completely unprepared for life. I am sick and tired of watching all my friends succeed in life and I'm still living at home...
    Waited4UEverlong Waited4UEverlong 22-25, M 1 Response May 13, 2010

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    How Do You Cope Or Deal With Yourself After Being In Not Just One But Two Abusive Relationships?

    The first that lasted 20+ yrs and I was terrified to leave..the other that started out great until the real person came out 8 mos later? Thankfully now have a man who completely cherishes me...but very disappointed in myself for allowing myself to be in either relationship...
    tornadodave tornadodave 36-40, M 3 Responses Sep 3, 2011

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    I Hate My Life Or Myself

    Well where to start. I have it bad, but not as bad as some stories ive read, im sorry you all feel the way I do if not worse. its sad, and I dont like that. I'm very compassionate almost all the time i put everybody else before me and when I put me before anybody else i feel like...
    SitoR SitoR 18-21 1 Response Aug 10, 2011

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    Self Pity

    I hate who i am. I hate the fact i always fall short.no one seeems to really understand.i want change in my life but i can't figure thos one out. i have no friends,i can't keep a girlfriend and my life sucks. you can't talk to anyone because they will either lock you up,take your...
    borntodie borntodie 41-45 1 Response May 30, 2009

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    Self Pity

    I hate who i am. I hate the fact i always fall short.no one seeems to really understand.i want change in my life but i can't figure thos one out. i have no friends,i can't keep a girlfriend and my life sucks. you can't talk to anyone because they will either lock you up,take your...
    borntodie borntodie 41-45 1 Response May 30, 2009

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    Not Entirely....

    ~ due to technical difficulties (also read as protest to EP's partnership with Facebook) this story has been temporarily removed ~
    Areyan Areyan 31-35 1 Response Aug 20, 2010

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    I Hate Me.

     I don't want to be here anymore. I screw over the people i'm closest to, and i don't want to be here anymore. I feel empty and sick and sad and angry. I don't want to be me. I feel like i have nothing to live for. I don't see the point of anything. The boy who said he would...
    wilbr0797 wilbr0797 18-21 2 Responses Aug 3, 2009

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    Ive really just came to the conclusion that I am simply just not meant to be happy. I have never been happy. Everyone always says "it'll get better" but the thing is, is that it...
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    Ive always felt this way. Ive forever been wishing I could be anyone else but me. I hate the way I feel and act. Ugh
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    I miss my father .. :( .. really really miss him
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    I miss my sister... She was my best friend.
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    I cry every single day, I have lost me, I lost my happiness. I lost everything, my life felt apart, I don't even know how to continue. I thought that nothing could break me down...
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    My Stepmom died on Easter 2015 at the age of 37. She was closer to my age than my Dad's. I'm still in shock
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    i dont believe in god, i just logically cant its like saying believe there is a tooth fairy. but i find myself hopeing theres something more that somehow im wrong, i miss the...
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    My mom my uncle and my grandmotheršŸ˜¢šŸ˜˜
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    my first live got killed a year and nine months ago.....it still hurts jus as much
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    Lost my 17 year old uncle he was more of a brother to me I miss him so much it still hurts thinking of him
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    He has always hated me and I have talked about that. He has said it to my face in so many words too. Well, he always portends he doesn't hear me if I speak. Yet if my mother says...
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    Indeed. But I see now. The only way to combat utter hatred is with understanding and compassion. I pity the children, they were not taught love. I feel sorry for the adults they...
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    mlm121 mlm121 31-35, F 6 Responses Mar 29

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    anonymous1536 anonymous1536 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 18

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    My journey with peri menopause started almost 3 years ago and since that time, it has affected me daily. Some days it is completely debilitating! I have every symptom possible...
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    tsepten tsepten 26-30 9 hrs ago

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