I Hate Who I Am Now

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 64 People

    Self Pity

    I hate who i am. I hate the fact i always fall short.no one seeems to really understand.i want change in my life but i can't figure thos one out. i have no friends,i can't keep a girlfriend and my life sucks. you can't talk to anyone because they will either lock you up,take your...
    borntodie borntodie
    41-45
    1 Response May 30, 2009

    I Hate Me.

     I don't want to be here anymore. I screw over the people i'm closest to, and i don't want to be here anymore. I feel empty and sick and sad and angry. I don't want to be me. I feel like i have nothing to live for. I don't see the point of anything. The boy who said he would...
    wilbr0797 wilbr0797
    18-21
    2 Responses Aug 3, 2009

    Annoyingly Melodramatic

    I don't exactly hate myself nor do i particularly like myself i have a strong feeling of nothingness towards my existence, Ive been like this since i broke up with my ex girlfriend. for a while I hurt but the pain went away what changed is that i no longer have a strong sense of...
    Jessehy Jessehy
    18-21
    1 Response Aug 30, 2011

    I Hate My Life Or Myself

    Well where to start. I have it bad, but not as bad as some stories ive read, im sorry you all feel the way I do if not worse. its sad, and I dont like that. I'm very compassionate almost all the time i put everybody else before me and when I put me before anybody else i feel like...
    SitoR SitoR
    18-21
    1 Response Aug 10, 2011

    I Don't Recognize Myself Anymore

    I know I have changed, and I knew I would; I am young and people change when they grow up. It's just, I hate the person I have become. I am my own enemy and I have to defeat myself. Depression is what I have but also who I am. This sounds a bit cliché-ish, but I...
    Lola91 Lola91
    16-17, F
    5 Responses Jun 18, 2008

    Ok so for many many years I was shy super

    deadly shy (like every year excluding this one I thought I was going to die from the mini heart attacks I gave myself when people or Anything was out if my comfort zone.) anyways basically this year I have no idea what it was but something finally brought me out of my shy world...
    blaze96 blaze96
    18-21, F
    Feb 1, 2014

    One Who Is A Disgrace On This Earth.

    I know how everybody elso on this group feels. And I have to say that I feel the same way too. I am a boy, but I just can't stand being this way. I do not fit in with the boys. I sometimes make myself look just so socially akward and embarassing. I have no real close friends. The...
    confessionstotell confessionstotell
    13-15, M
    Dec 21, 2010

    Self Pity

    I hate who i am. I hate the fact i always fall short.no one seeems to really understand.i want change in my life but i can't figure thos one out. i have no friends,i can't keep a girlfriend and my life sucks. you can't talk to anyone because they will either lock you up,take your...
    borntodie borntodie
    41-45
    1 Response May 30, 2009

    How Do You Cope Or Deal With Yourself After Being In Not Just One But Two Abusive Relationships?

    The first that lasted 20+ yrs and I was terrified to leave..the other that started out great until the real person came out 8 mos later? Thankfully now have a man who completely cherishes me...but very disappointed in myself for allowing myself to be in either relationship...
    tornadodave tornadodave
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Sep 3, 2011

    Not Entirely....

    ~ due to technical difficulties (also read as protest to EP's partnership with Facebook) this story has been temporarily removed ~
    Areyan Areyan
    31-35
    1 Response Aug 20, 2010

    Failing At Life...

    Every single day I wake up with no clear direction of where I'm going in life. I have a Bachelor's degree and a Master's degree and yet I feel like I am completely unprepared for life. I am sick and tired of watching all my friends succeed in life and I'm still living at home...
    Waited4UEverlong Waited4UEverlong
    22-25, M
    1 Response May 13, 2010

    Hate is such a strong word.

    I would rather say I'm unhappy with who I am now. I will be honest, that a good deal of it is superficial. (First world problems) If you have images of me looking like my avatar, I don't. (As of today: Dec. 05, 13) I AM CLASSIFIED AS OVERWEIGHT according to the BMI charts! I...
    OperationHotness OperationHotness
    36-40, F
    1 Response Dec 5, 2013

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