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I Hate Who I Am Now

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 65 People

    How Do You Cope Or Deal With Yourself After Being In Not Just One But Two Abusive Relationships?

    The first that lasted 20+ yrs and I was terrified to leave..the other that started out great until the real person came out 8 mos later? Thankfully now have a man who completely cherishes me...but very disappointed in myself for allowing myself to be in either relationship...
    tornadodave tornadodave 36-40, M 3 Responses Sep 3, 2011

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    One Who Is A Disgrace On This Earth.

    I know how everybody elso on this group feels. And I have to say that I feel the same way too. I am a boy, but I just can't stand being this way. I do not fit in with the boys. I sometimes make myself look just so socially akward and embarassing. I have no real close friends. The...
    confessionstotell confessionstotell 13-15, M Dec 21, 2010

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    I Don't Recognize Myself Anymore

    I know I have changed, and I knew I would; I am young and people change when they grow up. It's just, I hate the person I have become. I am my own enemy and I have to defeat myself. Depression is what I have but also who I am. This sounds a bit cliché-ish, but I...
    Lola91 Lola91 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 18, 2008

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    Annoyingly Melodramatic

    I don't exactly hate myself nor do i particularly like myself i have a strong feeling of nothingness towards my existence, Ive been like this since i broke up with my ex girlfriend. for a while I hurt but the pain went away what changed is that i no longer have a strong sense of...
    Jessehy Jessehy 18-21 1 Response Aug 30, 2011

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    Not Entirely....

    ~ due to technical difficulties (also read as protest to EP's partnership with Facebook) this story has been temporarily removed ~
    Areyan Areyan 31-35 1 Response Aug 20, 2010

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    I Hate My Life Or Myself

    Well where to start. I have it bad, but not as bad as some stories ive read, im sorry you all feel the way I do if not worse. its sad, and I dont like that. I'm very compassionate almost all the time i put everybody else before me and when I put me before anybody else i feel like...
    SitoR SitoR 18-21 1 Response Aug 10, 2011

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    Self Pity

    I hate who i am. I hate the fact i always fall short.no one seeems to really understand.i want change in my life but i can't figure thos one out. i have no friends,i can't keep a girlfriend and my life sucks. you can't talk to anyone because they will either lock you up,take your...
    borntodie borntodie 41-45 1 Response May 30, 2009

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    I Hate Me.

     I don't want to be here anymore. I screw over the people i'm closest to, and i don't want to be here anymore. I feel empty and sick and sad and angry. I don't want to be me. I feel like i have nothing to live for. I don't see the point of anything. The boy who said he would...
    wilbr0797 wilbr0797 18-21 2 Responses Aug 3, 2009

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    Ok so for many many years I was shy super

    deadly shy (like every year excluding this one I thought I was going to die from the mini heart attacks I gave myself when people or Anything was out if my comfort zone.) anyways basically this year I have no idea what it was but something finally brought me out of my shy world...
    blaze96 blaze96 18-21, F Feb 1, 2014

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    Hate is such a strong word.

    I would rather say I'm unhappy with who I am now. I will be honest, that a good deal of it is superficial. (First world problems) If you have images of me looking like my avatar, I don't. (As of today: Dec. 05, 13) I AM CLASSIFIED AS OVERWEIGHT according to the BMI charts! I...
    OperationHotness OperationHotness 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2013

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    Failing At Life...

    Every single day I wake up with no clear direction of where I'm going in life. I have a Bachelor's degree and a Master's degree and yet I feel like I am completely unprepared for life. I am sick and tired of watching all my friends succeed in life and I'm still living at home...
    Waited4UEverlong Waited4UEverlong 22-25, M 1 Response May 13, 2010

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    Self Pity

    I hate who i am. I hate the fact i always fall short.no one seeems to really understand.i want change in my life but i can't figure thos one out. i have no friends,i can't keep a girlfriend and my life sucks. you can't talk to anyone because they will either lock you up,take your...
    borntodie borntodie 41-45 1 Response May 30, 2009

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    TheLoneAnonymous TheLoneAnonymous 13-15, M 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    when I was 5-6 my dad molested me and my mom denied it and says that the flash backs I get are lies I've filled my head with and now I find out that if my mom gets another thing...
    sirenserenade sirenserenade 13-15, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    It was Begging of September of 2015... I was invited to a Wedding to a military buddy of mine. And I was feeling more Obligated to go because I am a man of my word.. I woke up that...
    Micheael Micheael 26-30, M 4 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Has anyone else noticed that one troll who goes around posting random incoherent stuff on peoples questions? Most of the post are about phone taps and hacking and things that make...
    PanHead1989 PanHead1989 26-30, M 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I've dealt with a lot of mental abuse. I was always protected from people outside the house but I had Zero protection from Family members including parents. It's not okay for...
    FrostyElsie FrostyElsie 22-25, F 6 hrs ago

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    Some people, esp the young things, (as i have said before in posts i love you all but ....) seem to think they have had more *experience* than someone much older.. this goes with...
    Adaydreambeliever Adaydreambeliever 51-55, F 7 hrs ago

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    Since I was 7, I'd go to my cousin's house every day after school. Let's just say I wasn't very smart or was sure what I was even doing. I hated their house, I hated waiting there...
    allnamesrtakenx allnamesrtakenx 16-17, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Every day is a roller coaster of emotions. She feels the need to harass me the moment she sees me in the morning. One time, I had just walked into the building while she was...
    sayhellnotobs sayhellnotobs 26-30, F 9 hrs ago

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    I am not afraid to speak my mind so I will. This is a place I come to get the truth off my chest. I think women who call themselves Bitc*** and other insulting names are the...
    Kornisone Kornisone 26-30, F 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    The biggest turn off for me is when someone poses giving the finger. I immediately look at a person in a different light. And what my brain sees when people do that is......... You...
    Kornisone Kornisone 26-30, F 19 hrs ago

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    I wish I had taken the advice from the few ones who informed me that my mother didn't like me and she would destroy every thing for ..I'm 36 today and the last four years I had...
    Inthedark16 Inthedark16 36-40, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I visited the FBI website and was surprised to see three social network buttons. Twitter - Facebook and YouTube. It made me mad that the FBI is promoting, suggesting, leading...
    ItsOurLife ItsOurLife 56-60, M 3 days ago

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    I really hate dishonesty of any kind. Mostly the sneaky insidious kind that comes from self deception, and the inability too many people have to be self introspective. It makes...
    Jackie69C Jackie69C 46-50, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have been so unlucky with humans even with the person who suppose to be my mother ..she was so hateful since I was a little kid before I even could walk and talk ..she never...
    Inthedark16 Inthedark16 36-40, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I hate the fact that the Steelers got him. I hate people who defend Michael Vick. I hate their excuses for defending him. Such as "he paid his dues", you're all just a bunch of...
    DiabolusInMusica DiabolusInMusica 31-35, F 6 days ago

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    I'm sitting in between my two sister in laws who at one point could not stand each other and you know that feeling you get where you feel your invisible yeah that's how I felt...
    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I hate my life because I hate myself. I hate everything about myself and I'm sick of living in a world full of crap and crappy people. I'm not trying to tell others what I think of...
    cupcakedips cupcakedips 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 4

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    In 2004 I got treated badly and heavily humiliated by two managers at hotel du vin in Brighton ..the mistreatment could possibly be racial or it could because I'm an ugly looking...
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    I feel that most people in my life are only there due to convenience. I don't feel any "bond" or connection with even my closest friends and family anymore. I know it's my fault...
    Sparklyblueunicorns Sparklyblueunicorns 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 3

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    My stepfather is abusive. I can still contact my biological dad but he's abusive too. However, my stepdad is more abusive and makes me feel worse than my biological dad ever has...
    igetweirddreams igetweirddreams 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    I'm not officially a step-mom yet and before anyone tells me that I shouldn't marry this man...I am going to someday. But...I cannot stand his children. His son, in particular...
    mmbvt mmbvt 36-40, F 7 Responses Feb 2

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    I was never all that interested in having kids. I liked them just fine, I just never really saw myself as a Dad and couldn't imagine taking on that responsibility. I met my...
    Fedup2016 Fedup2016 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 1

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    I have always dreamed of having one of those husbands that would die for me. That loved me so much and had nothing but nice, beautiful things to say about me. To be my knight in...
    Scarletcharlotte Scarletcharlotte 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 31

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