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I Hate Who I Am Now

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 66 People

    How Do You Cope Or Deal With Yourself After Being In Not Just One But Two Abusive Relationships?

    The first that lasted 20+ yrs and I was terrified to leave..the other that started out great until the real person came out 8 mos later? Thankfully now have a man who completely cherishes me...but very disappointed in myself for allowing myself to be in either relationship...
    tornadodave tornadodave 36-40, M 3 Responses Sep 3, 2011

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    I Don't Recognize Myself Anymore

    I know I have changed, and I knew I would; I am young and people change when they grow up. It's just, I hate the person I have become. I am my own enemy and I have to defeat myself. Depression is what I have but also who I am. This sounds a bit cliché-ish, but I...
    Lola91 Lola91 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 18, 2008

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    Self Pity

    I hate who i am. I hate the fact i always fall short.no one seeems to really understand.i want change in my life but i can't figure thos one out. i have no friends,i can't keep a girlfriend and my life sucks. you can't talk to anyone because they will either lock you up,take your...
    borntodie borntodie 41-45 1 Response May 30, 2009

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    Hate is such a strong word.

    I would rather say I'm unhappy with who I am now. I will be honest, that a good deal of it is superficial. (First world problems) If you have images of me looking like my avatar, I don't. (As of today: Dec. 05, 13) I AM CLASSIFIED AS OVERWEIGHT according to the BMI charts! I...
    OperationHotness OperationHotness 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2013

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    One Who Is A Disgrace On This Earth.

    I know how everybody elso on this group feels. And I have to say that I feel the same way too. I am a boy, but I just can't stand being this way. I do not fit in with the boys. I sometimes make myself look just so socially akward and embarassing. I have no real close friends. The...
    confessionstotell confessionstotell 13-15, M Dec 21, 2010

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    Not Entirely....

    ~ due to technical difficulties (also read as protest to EP's partnership with Facebook) this story has been temporarily removed ~
    Areyan Areyan 31-35 1 Response Aug 20, 2010

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    Failing At Life...

    Every single day I wake up with no clear direction of where I'm going in life. I have a Bachelor's degree and a Master's degree and yet I feel like I am completely unprepared for life. I am sick and tired of watching all my friends succeed in life and I'm still living at home...
    Waited4UEverlong Waited4UEverlong 22-25, M 1 Response May 13, 2010

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    Annoyingly Melodramatic

    I don't exactly hate myself nor do i particularly like myself i have a strong feeling of nothingness towards my existence, Ive been like this since i broke up with my ex girlfriend. for a while I hurt but the pain went away what changed is that i no longer have a strong sense of...
    Jessehy Jessehy 18-21 1 Response Aug 30, 2011

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    Ok so for many many years I was shy super

    deadly shy (like every year excluding this one I thought I was going to die from the mini heart attacks I gave myself when people or Anything was out if my comfort zone.) anyways basically this year I have no idea what it was but something finally brought me out of my shy world...
    blaze96 blaze96 18-21, F Feb 1, 2014

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    Self Pity

    I hate who i am. I hate the fact i always fall short.no one seeems to really understand.i want change in my life but i can't figure thos one out. i have no friends,i can't keep a girlfriend and my life sucks. you can't talk to anyone because they will either lock you up,take your...
    borntodie borntodie 41-45 1 Response May 30, 2009

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    I Hate Me.

     I don't want to be here anymore. I screw over the people i'm closest to, and i don't want to be here anymore. I feel empty and sick and sad and angry. I don't want to be me. I feel like i have nothing to live for. I don't see the point of anything. The boy who said he would...
    wilbr0797 wilbr0797 18-21 2 Responses Aug 3, 2009

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    I Hate My Life Or Myself

    Well where to start. I have it bad, but not as bad as some stories ive read, im sorry you all feel the way I do if not worse. its sad, and I dont like that. I'm very compassionate almost all the time i put everybody else before me and when I put me before anybody else i feel like...
    SitoR SitoR 18-21 1 Response Aug 10, 2011

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    Spent the day reading 'Crank' by Ellen Hopkins, and am now going to read the sequel titled 'Glass'. :)
    LittleMidnight LittleMidnight 18-21 37 mins ago

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    I love them cause they're my parents, Although they don't know whats going on with me and whatever i'm going through but i sure as hell hate their guts so ******* much.
    hayalnaimi hayalnaimi 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    I really do, you know? I had a really close friend of mine suddenly disappear without saying goodbye. I couldn't tell if she was angry with me about something or she just didn't...
    LovingChihiro LovingChihiro 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 hr ago

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    My EP friend said it was difficult for me to understand sarcasm, and that I could only think in black or white which was linked to my ADD disorder. She said, it was ok because many...
    katsuobushi katsuobushi 36-40, M 1 hr ago

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    We've known of and disliked each other for years..Eventually we let bygones be bygones. We seemed to fit together pretty well, but the relationship was really hot, intense and...
    Debro85 Debro85 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Well before my stepdad came along in our lives, me and my mom never had such a thing as asking for each other's phone passwords. But once he came in our lives, he started banding...
    JcCrazyLife JcCrazyLife 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    You say you love me, yet you disappear without a word, without a good bye or good night. You always do your own things and never care about me. Why am I the one who has to do my...
    Sakaii Sakaii 18-21, M 2 hrs ago

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    Cooking can be a new experience for many men and women who have not too long ago left the comfort of their parents' cooking. This article provides a few useful guidelines to the...
    angoracheck53 angoracheck53 41-45, F 3 hrs ago

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    I know this is my third post on the subject but I still can't get over the nerve (or pure selfishness) of some people! When you've talked online with the same person online for...
    DaddyBear214 DaddyBear214 56-60, M 3 hrs ago

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    I never wanted to move to Indiana so quickly. But my husband made the decision and I was forced here. I have been here about a year and I dread it. My mother in law is a nightmare...
    Hannahmikel Hannahmikel 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    Hell yeah I hate them. Last month I got them so bad I fainted! It was horrible but I will try anything to prevent that from happening again
    dontknowww dontknowww 18-21, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I just want someone at my side, is that too hard to ask for? Why do I have to be stuck like this? Why do I have to be born to this family I hate, this place that is in the middle...
    JadeKnight JadeKnight 26-30, T 5 hrs ago

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    I hate school , the education system is corrupt, everyone attending knows it and nobody is speaking up about it
    Brookeross521 Brookeross521 13-15 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Hello Everyone -- I came across this site when I googled "I hate my family" so I figured I'd give it a shot to hopefully find other people who can relate. I am so sad lately...
    hifuckedupworld hifuckedupworld 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    My dad, to put it simply, is a ****! There is 11 in my family but to him there is only 3: himself, my eldest sister (who is "perfect") and one of my brothers. He doesn't care about...
    theforgottensoul theforgottensoul 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I hate my abusive, sick, hypocrite, pig father. He never treats me right, he never did and he never will no matter how hard I tried to please him and be a good son to him he will...
    VerySimple2015 VerySimple2015 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    It's one of these nights again.I hate myself.I hate everything about myself, everything that is in my life and everything that is not.I hate perfect people and those lucky enough...
    yeniC yeniC 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    I was born in Connecticut and raised in a terrible little town called Ansonia in an even further away from the tiny town area that doesn't offer **** to do but drink in one of the...
    lifeisdumb62 lifeisdumb62 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    My experiences at ASB the Alabama school for the blind, will be recorded here. My first years My first memory of ASB was a bus. Frn that bus, I came to the school that would...
    devinprater devinprater 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    I hate annoying people who make annoying songs that play on the radio all the time. FYI: I'm just making jokes about these really overplayed songs. If you like them, I'm not...
    Lcy2472 Lcy2472 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    How To Turn Six Dollars Into Six Thousand Dollars: I found this on a bulletin board and decided to try it. A little while back I was browsing through newsgroups just like you are...
    manusundr manusundr 46-50, M a week ago

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    I hate her even more now for defending Bill Cosby, she needs to die of natural causes.
    AvalonWeiss AvalonWeiss 31-35, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm not detoxing from drugs. well, not from narcotics, anyways. I am detoxing my liver and colon of built up toxins aka candida. it probably hurts more than drug detox. once...
    morganza504 morganza504 36-40 a week ago

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    So it's Saturday night 22 August and it happened to be so that my elder sis and I hate each other more than someone will ever love someone. I just don't know I can't stand her at...
    sarahnvodka sarahnvodka 13-15 a week ago

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    I am hate incarnation tonight. Come purchase your gate through me. Plenty to spare. If you fing dare. Doubt you can. F$ck you all!! F&ck you to the darkest depths the solar...
    Golfknar Golfknar 36-40, M 1 Response Aug 22

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    I just realised recently that I hate my mother. Because she practiced favouritism, and was abusive with it. And from the time I was under 5 years old, she would constantly accuse...
    AngryPlum AngryPlum 31-35, F Aug 20

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    I was harassed my a mob of people all because of a "misunderstanding". I was watching my brother's dog for the weekend while he was on a lil trip. I've watched him before for like...
    MyMindCravesNectar MyMindCravesNectar 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 18

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    I didnt used hate them. the reason i hate them now is because of my time in Iraq, and the remind me of my time there. it wasnt easy being there in 2004-05. there was still a lot...
    jsmith19941978 jsmith19941978 36-40, M 2 Responses Aug 18

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    I really am in disgust with this rotten family, and constantly think of killing myself. Never have they ever showed any love twords me. My idiotic mother - Early back on she had a...
    MysteryZ MysteryZ 18-21, M Aug 17

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    I won't go into particulars, just need to vent in general. I hate both of my step daughters. In fact, looking at them makes my skin crawl, I can't stand hearing them, and every...
    Trapped75 Trapped75 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 16

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