I Hate You Because I Still Love You

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    Once Devided...Nothing Left To Subtract

    You didn't even pick up the phone and give me a last chance to listen to your sweet voice..."This will be my last email" It's the last thing you gave me before you left. I laid my head against your chest  to feel your arms around me and listened to your favorite music...It was...
    aStrangerInTheMirror aStrangerInTheMirror
    31-35, F
    Aug 26, 2011

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