I Hated Being Abused As a Child

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 89 People

    Surviving Childhood

    Hi there, for years and years I thought I was the only person to have been abused by a brother every story I read always seemed to say that the abuser was the father or the step-father. Then I realized that I wasn't the only one to have grown up with a perverted brother after all...
    spangles spangles
    46-50
    2 Responses Jan 12, 2009

    My Brother...

    For as long as I can remember, I was physically and emotionally abused by my brother. When we were really young, I was about 5 and he was around 7, he cracked my head open. Twice. It wasn't quite the accident he made it out to be. I never thought of it as abuse when I was younger...
    xxitwaswritteninblood xxitwaswritteninblood
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Sep 27, 2010

    No One Believed Me

    even my mom. my half sister even told her that my dad hurt her too, and she didnt believe us. it ended up that we both felt alone and started cutting. but we didnt know that we did, because we lost contact. any way it hurt, i hated it, i thought it would never stop. the punches...
    fourteenbluebirds fourteenbluebirds
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Oct 1, 2011

    "i Hated Being Abused As A Child"

    Oh I dont even know how to start. I am the oldest child and have two younger brothers and a  sister. My Dad has always been I guess you could say an angry person. My baby brother passed away and I think that is when it started getting worse. My Dad would get so mad at the...
    Shortie0331 Shortie0331
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 20, 2011

    When I Think It Was All Over... Something Always Has To Come Up...

    so I'm 22 now and well life it just starting to get better for me, when some horny *** guys has to **** every thing up and make me go back to the same **** whole that i just came out of. I hope that this is the last time that this **** has to happen to me. Well here's my store. i...
    manson9099 manson9099
    18-21
    Feb 21, 2012

    Mothers Druged Up Friends...

    My mother would have her friends come to the house at all hours of the day..  just so they can get a fix, but when these men were in the house they would look at me with some eyes... It felt like if they were taking off my clothes with their eyes, they would say to me " hey...
    manson9099 manson9099
    18-21
    2 Responses Sep 27, 2010

    Being Abused

    hi since i can remember my childhood was ok i have 4 brothers and 5 sisters so yeah a big family we all got on ok but then when was bout 8 my youngest sister had started doing things to me, but with my age at that time thought it was just normal but this carried on for quite a...
    rangerbob rangerbob
    31-35
    2 Responses Jul 23, 2009

    By Man Named Timothy Diaz (Timoteo Diaz); Uncle

    Started when I was 6, I admitted it, though nothing occurred after that. Fear and ignorance are bliss it seems... till the kid grows up if the kid is like me and won't keep his or her mouth shut about the ordeal. Timothy Diaz, referred to as 'Timoteo'. Timoteo Diaz. Believe...
    unreal7reality unreal7reality
    22-25, F
    Mar 6, 2011

    Youngest Memory

    The youngest memory i have i me being 4 years old and performing oral sex on a bunch of kids my age and one ******* in my mouth and laughing  about it i was the youngest in the group and i was also the only one that was white .. Lately that's all i can think about...
    islandboy971 islandboy971
    22-25
    1 Response Feb 5, 2012

    Every Minute Of It Was Hell

    I was often paranoid, angry and fearful with all the abuse...there was no one who cared...I really did long fir someone fresh and beautiful to rescue me...wasn't I worth rescuing? why was he (my great uncle) praying on a small five year old child for sexual gratification? the...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    Jun 9, 2011

    In A Mind Of A Loner

    hello everyone i have a story to tell..when i was 13 years old i was abused by my father i was also raped and became pregnat by my father.. my daughter is now three years old. well lets go back to the night he did it. he came in drunk from a party with his friends and i was home...
    rookeyy rookeyy
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 1, 2010

    Safer That Way

    When things looked to get ugly, I just shut myself down.  My body would obey orders, even orders that ran counter to self-preservation.  Then again, the only way to consistently ensure I'd survive was to obey the adults.  Always.  I was reasonably sure they wouldn't kill me...
    Plaid Plaid
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jun 4, 2012

    Saying Hullo Again - You're Better Than You Think You Are

    I was reading a collection of papers by Michael White, and this particular set of paragraphs left daggers in my heart. I'm sharing it on here because I think that a lot of the people who find their way onto EP are the sorts of people who have been through the ringer in life, and...
    MovingForward28 MovingForward28
    26-30, M
    Jul 28, 2010

    Sexualy Abused

    My Mum had her friends over nearly every night. they would get drunk and stuff. one night i was lying in bed when one of the guys came on an he sat on my bed putting hes hand up my nighty and touch me. then he took all his clothes off and forced his penis in my mouth then he...
    Haylea12345 Haylea12345
    13-15
    1 Response Jan 27, 2012

    I Never Thought The People That Are Suppose To Protect You .would

    Be the person to sexually abuse you ,it started when i was 5 until 14,i was be sexually abused by my father ,my mother was so busy working and running after her next buck she wasnt interested when i told her it was like she was saying deal with it ,i had no one to run to or tell...
    tiredofdealing tiredofdealing
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Nov 12, 2012

    I Understand Why Children Snap

    After a barrage of incessant teasing, year after year because I was a poor kid or whatever, I literally used to think about how I could make all those bastards suffer. What those little jerks had no way of knowing was that I was getting my azz kicked on a daily either by my Dad...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 30, 2010

    3 To 15 Years Old

    i was abused by my father, borther, and by all my mothers friends... When this started I was 3 years old and when it all this stoped I was 15 going on 16 years old.... I member when I was one day looking for mother arouned the house I saw that she  was not home I would cry caues...
    manson9099 manson9099
    18-21
    2 Responses Sep 27, 2010

    Free?

    It's been two years... two years since it all stopped. Two years since I stopped crying into my pillow every night. Two years since the bruises stopped appearing. Two years since crimson splatters stained the clean, white walls. Two years since I woke up in the hospital...
    Afishyinthesea Afishyinthesea
    16-17
    Dec 14, 2012

    And Even Though Im Still A Minor...

    i am no longer a child. i had to grow up. childhood wasnt an option. i couldnt be a child. every aspect of being a kid was killed by family wide emotional abuse. destruction. i was a disturbance, failure, loser, screw up, etc etc. i had to learn to do everything for myself. no...
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme
    18-21, F
    Oct 30, 2011

    God Says So

    since i can remember i was abused not sexually but physically and mentally. one of my first memories is when i was no more than 4 years old i wanted to go to the bathroom to pee, but my dad was in the bathroom so i was waiting for him and holding my ( you know what ) just not to...
    Mishaari Mishaari
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Jun 7, 2011

    The Reason Why I Have A Blocked Memory

    the story that was told to me by my Mother , my Fathers family .... they were all the same thing not only that but I read that story in some court papers.... One day my mom sold me to my father and his wife for $300.... thats true I read the paper that my father had my mom write...
    manson9099 manson9099
    18-21
    Sep 30, 2010

    I Was Abused By My Dad

    For years I didn't look at it as abuse.  I just thought my dad was an angry person with problems of his own.  I don't remember exactly how old I was when it started.  I was less than 10 years old for sure.  I thought it was normal for fathers to discipline...
    ktfoot97 ktfoot97
    31-35
    1 Response Jul 18, 2010

    I Just Thought It Was Normal....

    I was adopted into a family that had alot of money. I had an overacheiver older brother, a "perfect" sister, and a special needs brother. I was abused from early on. I look at pictures of me screaming my head off...because my father just told me that I was "soo Stupid" (I was six...
    ejpentland27 ejpentland27
    26-30
    May 27, 2011

    Crazy Mom

    I was abused as a child. Not nearly as bad as some children but enough to where now I have flashbacks and what not. I feel full of regret and still don't fully understand. I've never seen professional help for this. I haven't had insurance since i was about 16 years old. My...
    dancingpiff112 dancingpiff112
    22-25
    3 Responses Mar 22, 2013

    Why ?

    When I was a child around the age of 4 I started to realize that my general life seemed to be alot different from my other friends or even my cousins. I can't tell you how it started or why but I can tell you how it felt to deal with the abuse for 13 years. My mother and I...
    Chief62xx Chief62xx
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Nov 30, 2012

    When I was a little kid,

    my dad was always in and out of my life. I was happy that he was in it and that he was with my mom....Untill he did things...he started pushing me around at the age of 4 when I was little. He put me in a hospital and when I went there, they stuck huge needles in me that caused...
    Blank593 Blank593
    18-21, M
    1 Response Nov 7, 2014

    Bottled Up

    A few days ago, the musical director of my youth group lead the discussion our youth leader would normally lead. I was excited, circle with him is always fun and carefree. But he told us that there wasn't going to be any more music... for a long time. He told us that he was a man...
    Afishyinthesea Afishyinthesea
    16-17
    Jan 21, 2013

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