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I Hated Being Abused As a Child

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    Crazy Mom

    I was abused as a child. Not nearly as bad as some children but enough to where now I have flashbacks and what not. I feel full of regret and still don't fully understand. I've never seen professional help for this. I haven't had insurance since i was about 16 years old. My...
    dancingpiff112 dancingpiff112 22-25 3 Responses Mar 22, 2013

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    Bottled Up

    A few days ago, the musical director of my youth group lead the discussion our youth leader would normally lead. I was excited, circle with him is always fun and carefree. But he told us that there wasn't going to be any more music... for a long time. He told us that he was a man...
    Afishyinthesea Afishyinthesea 16-17 Jan 21, 2013

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    God Says So

    since i can remember i was abused not sexually but physically and mentally. one of my first memories is when i was no more than 4 years old i wanted to go to the bathroom to pee, but my dad was in the bathroom so i was waiting for him and holding my ( you know what ) just not to...
    Mishaari Mishaari 18-21, M 4 Responses Jun 7, 2011

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    In A Mind Of A Loner

    hello everyone i have a story to tell..when i was 13 years old i was abused by my father i was also raped and became pregnat by my father.. my daughter is now three years old. well lets go back to the night he did it. he came in drunk from a party with his friends and i was home...
    rookeyy rookeyy 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 1, 2010

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    Why ?

    When I was a child around the age of 4 I started to realize that my general life seemed to be alot different from my other friends or even my cousins. I can't tell you how it started or why but I can tell you how it felt to deal with the abuse for 13 years. My mother and I...
    Chief62xx Chief62xx 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    3 To 15 Years Old

    i was abused by my father, borther, and by all my mothers friends... When this started I was 3 years old and when it all this stoped I was 15 going on 16 years old.... I member when I was one day looking for mother arouned the house I saw that she  was not home I would cry caues...
    manson9099 manson9099 18-21 2 Responses Sep 27, 2010

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    Surviving Childhood

    Hi there, for years and years I thought I was the only person to have been abused by a brother every story I read always seemed to say that the abuser was the father or the step-father. Then I realized that I wasn't the only one to have grown up with a perverted brother after all...
    spangles spangles 46-50 2 Responses Jan 12, 2009

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    When I Think It Was All Over... Something Always Has To Come Up...

    so I'm 22 now and well life it just starting to get better for me, when some horny *** guys has to **** every thing up and make me go back to the same **** whole that i just came out of. I hope that this is the last time that this **** has to happen to me. Well here's my store. i...
    manson9099 manson9099 18-21 Feb 21, 2012

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    I Understand Why Children Snap

    After a barrage of incessant teasing, year after year because I was a poor kid or whatever, I literally used to think about how I could make all those bastards suffer. What those little jerks had no way of knowing was that I was getting my azz kicked on a daily either by my Dad...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 30, 2010

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    Free?

    It's been two years... two years since it all stopped. Two years since I stopped crying into my pillow every night. Two years since the bruises stopped appearing. Two years since crimson splatters stained the clean, white walls. Two years since I woke up in the hospital...
    Afishyinthesea Afishyinthesea 16-17 1 Response Dec 14, 2012

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    Mothers Druged Up Friends...

    My mother would have her friends come to the house at all hours of the day..  just so they can get a fix, but when these men were in the house they would look at me with some eyes... It felt like if they were taking off my clothes with their eyes, they would say to me " hey...
    manson9099 manson9099 18-21 2 Responses Sep 27, 2010

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    The Reason Why I Have A Blocked Memory

    the story that was told to me by my Mother , my Fathers family .... they were all the same thing not only that but I read that story in some court papers.... One day my mom sold me to my father and his wife for $300.... thats true I read the paper that my father had my mom write...
    manson9099 manson9099 18-21 Sep 30, 2010

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    Being Abused

    hi since i can remember my childhood was ok i have 4 brothers and 5 sisters so yeah a big family we all got on ok but then when was bout 8 my youngest sister had started doing things to me, but with my age at that time thought it was just normal but this carried on for quite a...
    rangerbob rangerbob 31-35 2 Responses Jul 23, 2009

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    Saying Hullo Again - You're Better Than You Think You Are

    I was reading a collection of papers by Michael White, and this particular set of paragraphs left daggers in my heart. I'm sharing it on here because I think that a lot of the people who find their way onto EP are the sorts of people who have been through the ringer in life, and...
    MovingForward28 MovingForward28 26-30, M Jul 28, 2010

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    I Just Thought It Was Normal....

    I was adopted into a family that had alot of money. I had an overacheiver older brother, a "perfect" sister, and a special needs brother. I was abused from early on. I look at pictures of me screaming my head off...because my father just told me that I was "soo Stupid" (I was six...
    ejpentland27 ejpentland27 26-30 May 27, 2011

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    No One Believed Me

    even my mom. my half sister even told her that my dad hurt her too, and she didnt believe us. it ended up that we both felt alone and started cutting. but we didnt know that we did, because we lost contact. any way it hurt, i hated it, i thought it would never stop. the punches...
    fourteenbluebirds fourteenbluebirds 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 1, 2011

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    Youngest Memory

    The youngest memory i have i me being 4 years old and performing oral sex on a bunch of kids my age and one ******* in my mouth and laughing  about it i was the youngest in the group and i was also the only one that was white .. Lately that's all i can think about...
    islandboy971 islandboy971 22-25 1 Response Feb 5, 2012

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    Every Minute Of It Was Hell

    I was often paranoid, angry and fearful with all the abuse...there was no one who cared...I really did long fir someone fresh and beautiful to rescue me...wasn't I worth rescuing? why was he (my great uncle) praying on a small five year old child for sexual gratification? the...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Jun 9, 2011

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    Safer That Way

    When things looked to get ugly, I just shut myself down.  My body would obey orders, even orders that ran counter to self-preservation.  Then again, the only way to consistently ensure I'd survive was to obey the adults.  Always.  I was reasonably sure they wouldn't kill me...
    Plaid Plaid 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 4, 2012

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    Sexualy Abused

    My Mum had her friends over nearly every night. they would get drunk and stuff. one night i was lying in bed when one of the guys came on an he sat on my bed putting hes hand up my nighty and touch me. then he took all his clothes off and forced his penis in my mouth then he...
    Haylea12345 Haylea12345 13-15 1 Response Jan 27, 2012

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    By Man Named Timothy Diaz (Timoteo Diaz); Uncle

    Started when I was 6, I admitted it, though nothing occurred after that. Fear and ignorance are bliss it seems... till the kid grows up if the kid is like me and won't keep his or her mouth shut about the ordeal. Timothy Diaz, referred to as 'Timoteo'. Timoteo Diaz. Believe...
    unreal7reality unreal7reality 22-25, F Mar 6, 2011

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    "i Hated Being Abused As A Child"

    Oh I dont even know how to start. I am the oldest child and have two younger brothers and a  sister. My Dad has always been I guess you could say an angry person. My baby brother passed away and I think that is when it started getting worse. My Dad would get so mad at the...
    Shortie0331 Shortie0331 26-30 1 Response Apr 20, 2011

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    I Was Abused By My Dad

    For years I didn't look at it as abuse.  I just thought my dad was an angry person with problems of his own.  I don't remember exactly how old I was when it started.  I was less than 10 years old for sure.  I thought it was normal for fathers to discipline...
    ktfoot97 ktfoot97 31-35 1 Response Jul 18, 2010

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    And Even Though Im Still A Minor...

    i am no longer a child. i had to grow up. childhood wasnt an option. i couldnt be a child. every aspect of being a kid was killed by family wide emotional abuse. destruction. i was a disturbance, failure, loser, screw up, etc etc. i had to learn to do everything for myself. no...
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme 16-17, F Oct 30, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    I WAS AN ABUSED CHILD, but I was also led to be good. When I acted out in rage, my friend Jared, who was beaten so badly as a kid that he was emancipated at fifteen picked me up...
    raylynn24 raylynn24 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 9

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    All through my childhood my mother abused me, physically, mentally and sexually. A lot of people never understand that a woman can sexually abuse a child but believe me there are...
    liberosis liberosis 41-45, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    I had a good childhood in some respects. I was provided all of the material items that I needed and many times that I wanted. My parents were mentally. emotionally, physically and...
    abused2 abused2 22-25 1 Response Mar 27

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    Throughout my life i never knew what abusing was. I thought there was only the physical abuse as a child. And if someone DID do that, the police would automatically send that...
    ahappymunchkin ahappymunchkin 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    Child abuse is not the way. When my Mom abused me I was very angry and sad and I don't know what was going through my messed up head but I wanted to have children just so they...
    Qwerkyqwerty Qwerkyqwerty 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    The afternoon after my adopted father was arrested my 11 year old sister finally came out of her bedroom . She looked AWFUL. Cuts,bruises,welts. And she was holding her left arm in...
    UnwantedMutt UnwantedMutt 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 5

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    I have been with my partner since October of 2011 and love him very much. I have never been crazy about children but decided to give it a try. His son is almost 5 now and it really...
    gagnone19 gagnone19 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    I was never forced to do anything, I was never threatened or afraid. It just kind of happened. And I let it happen.
    Wanderlust7 Wanderlust7 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    About 2.5-3 years ago, my mom dated a really bad guy. And one day he came over high. That's when he beat my brother with a bat. About a year had gone by. He was gone and my mother...
    matti1342 matti1342 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 2

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    No Witnesses- "Noah! Noah! Where are you,girl?" Out in the hall Papa,my adopted father,was calling for my little sister. She was in her bedroom just like every other day and he...
    UnwantedMutt UnwantedMutt 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 4

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    I got away from my abusive father
    Bethany17 Bethany17 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    My father was rather aggressive and often beat me. I'm sad to say that I was actually happy when he died...
    DezSheeran DezSheeran 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I swear my mom hates me cause all she does is beat me.
    TwdFireflyy TwdFireflyy 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    Spanked I get spanked with a belt by my uncle. With my pants and underpants off to. It is extreme painful and leaves marks sometimes. He says he is sorry to hit me but he has a...
    1Maria17 1Maria17 16-17, F 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I would yell at my mom sometimes as a teen because she was a very aggravating person to deal with and on top of that I already had anger issues (don't really any more). I got up...
    boastroasttoast boastroasttoast 36-40, M 6 days ago

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    All you minors out there being abused, try www.childhelpusa.org/ childline in the UK
    ernestcharles ernestcharles 56-60, M 1 day ago

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    I grew up in an old-fashioned home. My parents are loving, but they raised my sister and me strictly, and spankings were commonplace. I was spanked by both parents, but my dad...
    StarterStar StarterStar 26-30, M 6 Responses Apr 3

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    It's honestly the worst thing ever and I would never wish abuse upon my worst enemy. I can't take back this past year and a half and I regret it every day. It truly does suck. I...
    cak22 cak22 18-21, F Mar 31

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    I can't remember the first time it happened but I most have been too young to deserve it. I was abused by my father growing up until the age of 16. He always hit me and my siblings...
    xomamb xomamb 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I have deep hatred for the MAN abused me sexually when I was just a little kid. I was only 4-5 years old when this guy, this so called relatives sexually abused me. I din't know...
    nobodyn234 nobodyn234 26-30, M 3 Responses Mar 25

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    As far as I can go through my childhood memories I can remember the first one… just feeling… fear. My childhood was full of it. Scared of dark, of sleeping in my own bed, of...
    Mellangela Mellangela 26-30, F Apr 11

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    Hi, it's Dakota again. I've already told my story of being raped by my uncle and three strange men last summer, just after I turned 14. One of the men was killed in a bad drug deal...
    mouthdakota mouthdakota 18-21, M 11 Responses Apr 4

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    Everybody who I've told what she does to me says that she is abusive, but I'm still not sure. I know that she's narcissistic because in all the articles I read about it almost all...
    jules401 jules401 13-15, F 7 Responses Mar 29

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    When I was a child, I had an uncle that raped me over and over. I feared him, I was taken into a room as my pants was pulled down to my ankles and he forced himself inside me. I...
    Mark223 Mark223 36-40, M 4 Responses Apr 3

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    April 3. I think we often forget the little boys affected by child abuse. We only really think about the boys when there are big cases like Michael Jackson or Jerry Sandusky are in...
    RuthieAnja RuthieAnja 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 3

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    My mom just told me the other day that I might have been sexually abused when I was 4. I was like, "What do you mean, "might" ? " She would drop me off at daycare when she went to...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21 1 Response Apr 7

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    Sorry, but this is going to be long.. I want to know what anyone else thinks. I have read many of your stories, and to be honest, I feel extremely fortunate. My husband (a mental...
    brokenbutlucky brokenbutlucky 22-25, F 11 hrs ago

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    I was brought up with three siblings, the older two hated my father especially the older brother who was from a previous marriage. They egged one another on and accused my father...
    Tigermoth35 Tigermoth35 31-35, F Apr 11