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I Hated Being Abused As a Child

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    Being Abused

    hi since i can remember my childhood was ok i have 4 brothers and 5 sisters so yeah a big family we all got on ok but then when was bout 8 my youngest sister had started doing things to me, but with my age at that time thought it was just normal but this carried on for quite a...
    rangerbob rangerbob 31-35 2 Responses Jul 23, 2009

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    In A Mind Of A Loner

    hello everyone i have a story to tell..when i was 13 years old i was abused by my father i was also raped and became pregnat by my father.. my daughter is now three years old. well lets go back to the night he did it. he came in drunk from a party with his friends and i was home...
    rookeyy rookeyy 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 1, 2010

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    God Says So

    since i can remember i was abused not sexually but physically and mentally. one of my first memories is when i was no more than 4 years old i wanted to go to the bathroom to pee, but my dad was in the bathroom so i was waiting for him and holding my ( you know what ) just not to...
    Mishaari Mishaari 18-21, M 4 Responses Jun 7, 2011

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    I Just Thought It Was Normal....

    I was adopted into a family that had alot of money. I had an overacheiver older brother, a "perfect" sister, and a special needs brother. I was abused from early on. I look at pictures of me screaming my head off...because my father just told me that I was "soo Stupid" (I was six...
    ejpentland27 ejpentland27 26-30 May 27, 2011

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    I Understand Why Children Snap

    After a barrage of incessant teasing, year after year because I was a poor kid or whatever, I literally used to think about how I could make all those bastards suffer. What those little jerks had no way of knowing was that I was getting my azz kicked on a daily either by my Dad...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 30, 2010

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    My Brother...

    For as long as I can remember, I was physically and emotionally abused by my brother. When we were really young, I was about 5 and he was around 7, he cracked my head open. Twice. It wasn't quite the accident he made it out to be. I never thought of it as abuse when I was younger...
    xxitwaswritteninblood xxitwaswritteninblood 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 27, 2010

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    Youngest Memory

    The youngest memory i have i me being 4 years old and performing oral sex on a bunch of kids my age and one ******* in my mouth and laughing  about it i was the youngest in the group and i was also the only one that was white .. Lately that's all i can think about...
    islandboy971 islandboy971 22-25 1 Response Feb 5, 2012

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    3 To 15 Years Old

    i was abused by my father, borther, and by all my mothers friends... When this started I was 3 years old and when it all this stoped I was 15 going on 16 years old.... I member when I was one day looking for mother arouned the house I saw that she  was not home I would cry caues...
    manson9099 manson9099 18-21 2 Responses Sep 27, 2010

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    Free?

    It's been two years... two years since it all stopped. Two years since I stopped crying into my pillow every night. Two years since the bruises stopped appearing. Two years since crimson splatters stained the clean, white walls. Two years since I woke up in the hospital...
    Afishyinthesea Afishyinthesea 16-17 Dec 14, 2012

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    Mothers Druged Up Friends...

    My mother would have her friends come to the house at all hours of the day..  just so they can get a fix, but when these men were in the house they would look at me with some eyes... It felt like if they were taking off my clothes with their eyes, they would say to me " hey...
    manson9099 manson9099 18-21 2 Responses Sep 27, 2010

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    Bottled Up

    A few days ago, the musical director of my youth group lead the discussion our youth leader would normally lead. I was excited, circle with him is always fun and carefree. But he told us that there wasn't going to be any more music... for a long time. He told us that he was a man...
    Afishyinthesea Afishyinthesea 16-17 Jan 21, 2013

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    Saying Hullo Again - You're Better Than You Think You Are

    I was reading a collection of papers by Michael White, and this particular set of paragraphs left daggers in my heart. I'm sharing it on here because I think that a lot of the people who find their way onto EP are the sorts of people who have been through the ringer in life, and...
    MovingForward28 MovingForward28 26-30, M Jul 28, 2010

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    Surviving Childhood

    Hi there, for years and years I thought I was the only person to have been abused by a brother every story I read always seemed to say that the abuser was the father or the step-father. Then I realized that I wasn't the only one to have grown up with a perverted brother after all...
    spangles spangles 46-50 2 Responses Jan 12, 2009

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    Sexualy Abused

    My Mum had her friends over nearly every night. they would get drunk and stuff. one night i was lying in bed when one of the guys came on an he sat on my bed putting hes hand up my nighty and touch me. then he took all his clothes off and forced his penis in my mouth then he...
    Haylea12345 Haylea12345 13-15 1 Response Jan 27, 2012

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    Why ?

    When I was a child around the age of 4 I started to realize that my general life seemed to be alot different from my other friends or even my cousins. I can't tell you how it started or why but I can tell you how it felt to deal with the abuse for 13 years. My mother and I...
    Chief62xx Chief62xx 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    Every Minute Of It Was Hell

    I was often paranoid, angry and fearful with all the abuse...there was no one who cared...I really did long fir someone fresh and beautiful to rescue me...wasn't I worth rescuing? why was he (my great uncle) praying on a small five year old child for sexual gratification? the...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Jun 9, 2011

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    The Reason Why I Have A Blocked Memory

    the story that was told to me by my Mother , my Fathers family .... they were all the same thing not only that but I read that story in some court papers.... One day my mom sold me to my father and his wife for $300.... thats true I read the paper that my father had my mom write...
    manson9099 manson9099 18-21 Sep 30, 2010

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    Safer That Way

    When things looked to get ugly, I just shut myself down.  My body would obey orders, even orders that ran counter to self-preservation.  Then again, the only way to consistently ensure I'd survive was to obey the adults.  Always.  I was reasonably sure they wouldn't kill me...
    Plaid Plaid 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 4, 2012

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    I Was Abused By My Dad

    For years I didn't look at it as abuse.  I just thought my dad was an angry person with problems of his own.  I don't remember exactly how old I was when it started.  I was less than 10 years old for sure.  I thought it was normal for fathers to discipline...
    ktfoot97 ktfoot97 31-35 1 Response Jul 18, 2010

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    Crazy Mom

    I was abused as a child. Not nearly as bad as some children but enough to where now I have flashbacks and what not. I feel full of regret and still don't fully understand. I've never seen professional help for this. I haven't had insurance since i was about 16 years old. My...
    dancingpiff112 dancingpiff112 22-25 3 Responses Mar 22, 2013

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    And Even Though Im Still A Minor...

    i am no longer a child. i had to grow up. childhood wasnt an option. i couldnt be a child. every aspect of being a kid was killed by family wide emotional abuse. destruction. i was a disturbance, failure, loser, screw up, etc etc. i had to learn to do everything for myself. no...
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme 18-21, F Oct 30, 2011

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    By Man Named Timothy Diaz (Timoteo Diaz); Uncle

    Started when I was 6, I admitted it, though nothing occurred after that. Fear and ignorance are bliss it seems... till the kid grows up if the kid is like me and won't keep his or her mouth shut about the ordeal. Timothy Diaz, referred to as 'Timoteo'. Timoteo Diaz. Believe...
    unreal7reality unreal7reality 22-25, F Mar 6, 2011

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    When I Think It Was All Over... Something Always Has To Come Up...

    so I'm 22 now and well life it just starting to get better for me, when some horny *** guys has to **** every thing up and make me go back to the same **** whole that i just came out of. I hope that this is the last time that this **** has to happen to me. Well here's my store. i...
    manson9099 manson9099 18-21 Feb 21, 2012

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    "i Hated Being Abused As A Child"

    Oh I dont even know how to start. I am the oldest child and have two younger brothers and a  sister. My Dad has always been I guess you could say an angry person. My baby brother passed away and I think that is when it started getting worse. My Dad would get so mad at the...
    Shortie0331 Shortie0331 26-30 1 Response Apr 20, 2011

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    No One Believed Me

    even my mom. my half sister even told her that my dad hurt her too, and she didnt believe us. it ended up that we both felt alone and started cutting. but we didnt know that we did, because we lost contact. any way it hurt, i hated it, i thought it would never stop. the punches...
    fourteenbluebirds fourteenbluebirds 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 1, 2011

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    I Never Thought The People That Are Suppose To Protect You .would

    Be the person to sexually abuse you ,it started when i was 5 until 14,i was be sexually abused by my father ,my mother was so busy working and running after her next buck she wasnt interested when i told her it was like she was saying deal with it ,i had no one to run to or tell...
    tiredofdealing tiredofdealing 46-50, F 3 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I believe I am being abused.. People told me I was since I got into the relationship and until now I brushed them off but he's abusive mentally mad physically.... I wish I has some...
    thugbean26 thugbean26 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    I don't have any children of my own but I can not imagine being able to abuse my own flesh and blood. I was never abused as a child by my parents but I was sexually molested by...
    Gemz2411 Gemz2411 18-21, F Sep 30

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    My mother abused me: During most of my childhood my mother didn't even really spank me or anything. However, once I hit my teens she started to become physically and verbally...
    asariblue asariblue 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    I was sexually,physically,and verbally abused for three years from 9-12
    AnasFailure AnasFailure 13-15, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    My son is trying to take my grand daughter out of my life. I've mostly raised her while he drank, slept, used drugs and was suicidal/homicidal. He somehow got the support of a...
    Nunashamed Nunashamed 36-40, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I can't forget what he's done to me physically or what he's said verbally. The words he said....that's where the real scars are found when you look into my eyes...that is if I can...
    lonewolf2323 lonewolf2323 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 24

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    At 16 my mom hit me with a telephone in the head got 7 stitches and a concussion. Nothing happened to her. Just got mandated to counseling and sent home
    teriberri7 teriberri7 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 14

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    Sometimes my mom beats me and tells me she wants me to die because I'll never amount to anything anyway and that she hopes I get a husband who beats me..sometimes I wish she would...
    coffeecake420 coffeecake420 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    But its life in this rabid world. So dodge. And collect pals. Since we can. And pals soothe us if we try for them.
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M 5 days ago

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    I really hated being a kid. My English is not really good. I apologize for that. I don't really have anyone to tell this that's probably why I'm posting it here. I never met my...
    Yukio0001 Yukio0001 16-17, M Sep 30

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    Somebody here wrote that we are all so very disconnected. It really makes no difference if you are an ACoA or not. I guess not AcoAs are just better at faking being connected than...
    rtvbvfde rtvbvfde 26-30, M 6 days ago

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    Growing up, I was never very active. I always just stayed home with my parents & brothers. I would just watch television & play with our pets. There were a few times during my...
    s4019t s4019t 26-30, M Sep 26

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    I'm actually still being abused. Yes, physically. By my brothers. When I tell people they say "every sibling PICKS on the other. It's normal" the thing that no one notices is it...
    lexrae lexrae 13-15, F 7 Responses Oct 13

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    Attention Stepmom's: Put yourself first. I recently left my husband this week after 10 years of marriage. I was unhappy with the conditions of our home and how he never held his...
    Februarychic Februarychic 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 15

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    Being a child of the 90s just makes me sad to be honest. You talk to people now about the cartoons and music and stuff I grew up with and only get blank stares. We had better tv...
    scrtasnman13 scrtasnman13 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 11

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    well my dads is a ex cop and he use to beat me up over stupied **** like when I was little like 12 years old he picked my up off my feet and was chocking me for a game we played...
    Louguyz4 Louguyz4 22-25, M 2 hrs ago

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    So much for so many reasons... I was never a particularly sporty child so found PE lessons a constant challenge then there were the forced showers which I used to hate and try to...
    smacio smacio 51-55, M 8 hrs ago

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    You know my name, but not my story. I am strong, yet also weak. I am independent, yet also dependent. I am optimist, yet pessimist. I am many different things, which make me who I...
    SimplySecure SimplySecure 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    It is unfortunate that at the time in your life when you are least confident. You have to do the stuff that makes you feel clumsy and inadequate in front of your peers. A unique...
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M 5 hrs ago

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    Wow. Never done this before. Please no harsher than necessary judgement... Where to begin? Easy-really never planned for kids. Was married five years to very successful...
    canirunaway canirunaway 46-50, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I can handle most of it. I can handle the flashbacks and not being able to smell cigarette smoke or see certain cars or having to leave certain situations but I'm getting really...
    musikachick musikachick 16-17, F 20 hrs ago

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    It's difficult because of time. I want more time to give to my kids. I don't have it cause I work a lot. I'm doing better with that by spending time with them on the weekends...
    Jennerrous Jennerrous 36-40, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I always felt so jealous when I saw little girls wearing what I should have been wearing. I always wanted to wear dresses and frocks and skirts and nighties. I loved twirling in...
    Iamsasha Iamsasha 18-21, F 19 hrs ago

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