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I Hated Being Abused As a Child

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    I Never Thought The People That Are Suppose To Protect You .would

    Be the person to sexually abuse you ,it started when i was 5 until 14,i was be sexually abused by my father ,my mother was so busy working and running after her next buck she wasnt interested when i told her it was like she was saying deal with it ,i had no one to run to or tell...
    tiredofdealing tiredofdealing 46-50, F 3 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    When I Think It Was All Over... Something Always Has To Come Up...

    so I'm 22 now and well life it just starting to get better for me, when some horny *** guys has to **** every thing up and make me go back to the same **** whole that i just came out of. I hope that this is the last time that this **** has to happen to me. Well here's my store. i...
    manson9099 manson9099 18-21 Feb 21, 2012

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    When I was a little kid,

    my dad was always in and out of my life. I was happy that he was in it and that he was with my mom....Untill he did things...he started pushing me around at the age of 4 when I was little. He put me in a hospital and when I went there, they stuck huge needles in me that caused...
    Blank593 Blank593 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 7

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    "i Hated Being Abused As A Child"

    Oh I dont even know how to start. I am the oldest child and have two younger brothers and a  sister. My Dad has always been I guess you could say an angry person. My baby brother passed away and I think that is when it started getting worse. My Dad would get so mad at the...
    Shortie0331 Shortie0331 26-30 1 Response Apr 20, 2011

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    Being Abused

    hi since i can remember my childhood was ok i have 4 brothers and 5 sisters so yeah a big family we all got on ok but then when was bout 8 my youngest sister had started doing things to me, but with my age at that time thought it was just normal but this carried on for quite a...
    rangerbob rangerbob 31-35 2 Responses Jul 23, 2009

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    By Man Named Timothy Diaz (Timoteo Diaz); Uncle

    Started when I was 6, I admitted it, though nothing occurred after that. Fear and ignorance are bliss it seems... till the kid grows up if the kid is like me and won't keep his or her mouth shut about the ordeal. Timothy Diaz, referred to as 'Timoteo'. Timoteo Diaz. Believe...
    unreal7reality unreal7reality 22-25, F Mar 6, 2011

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    I Just Thought It Was Normal....

    I was adopted into a family that had alot of money. I had an overacheiver older brother, a "perfect" sister, and a special needs brother. I was abused from early on. I look at pictures of me screaming my head off...because my father just told me that I was "soo Stupid" (I was six...
    ejpentland27 ejpentland27 26-30 May 27, 2011

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    My Brother...

    For as long as I can remember, I was physically and emotionally abused by my brother. When we were really young, I was about 5 and he was around 7, he cracked my head open. Twice. It wasn't quite the accident he made it out to be. I never thought of it as abuse when I was younger...
    xxitwaswritteninblood xxitwaswritteninblood 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 27, 2010

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    Why ?

    When I was a child around the age of 4 I started to realize that my general life seemed to be alot different from my other friends or even my cousins. I can't tell you how it started or why but I can tell you how it felt to deal with the abuse for 13 years. My mother and I...
    Chief62xx Chief62xx 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    The Reason Why I Have A Blocked Memory

    the story that was told to me by my Mother , my Fathers family .... they were all the same thing not only that but I read that story in some court papers.... One day my mom sold me to my father and his wife for $300.... thats true I read the paper that my father had my mom write...
    manson9099 manson9099 18-21 Sep 30, 2010

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    3 To 15 Years Old

    i was abused by my father, borther, and by all my mothers friends... When this started I was 3 years old and when it all this stoped I was 15 going on 16 years old.... I member when I was one day looking for mother arouned the house I saw that she  was not home I would cry caues...
    manson9099 manson9099 18-21 2 Responses Sep 27, 2010

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    No One Believed Me

    even my mom. my half sister even told her that my dad hurt her too, and she didnt believe us. it ended up that we both felt alone and started cutting. but we didnt know that we did, because we lost contact. any way it hurt, i hated it, i thought it would never stop. the punches...
    fourteenbluebirds fourteenbluebirds 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 1, 2011

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    Saying Hullo Again - You're Better Than You Think You Are

    I was reading a collection of papers by Michael White, and this particular set of paragraphs left daggers in my heart. I'm sharing it on here because I think that a lot of the people who find their way onto EP are the sorts of people who have been through the ringer in life, and...
    MovingForward28 MovingForward28 26-30, M Jul 28, 2010

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    In A Mind Of A Loner

    hello everyone i have a story to tell..when i was 13 years old i was abused by my father i was also raped and became pregnat by my father.. my daughter is now three years old. well lets go back to the night he did it. he came in drunk from a party with his friends and i was home...
    rookeyy rookeyy 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 1, 2010

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    Youngest Memory

    The youngest memory i have i me being 4 years old and performing oral sex on a bunch of kids my age and one ******* in my mouth and laughing  about it i was the youngest in the group and i was also the only one that was white .. Lately that's all i can think about...
    islandboy971 islandboy971 22-25 1 Response Feb 5, 2012

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    Every Minute Of It Was Hell

    I was often paranoid, angry and fearful with all the abuse...there was no one who cared...I really did long fir someone fresh and beautiful to rescue me...wasn't I worth rescuing? why was he (my great uncle) praying on a small five year old child for sexual gratification? the...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Jun 9, 2011

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    Mothers Druged Up Friends...

    My mother would have her friends come to the house at all hours of the day..  just so they can get a fix, but when these men were in the house they would look at me with some eyes... It felt like if they were taking off my clothes with their eyes, they would say to me " hey...
    manson9099 manson9099 18-21 2 Responses Sep 27, 2010

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    Sexualy Abused

    My Mum had her friends over nearly every night. they would get drunk and stuff. one night i was lying in bed when one of the guys came on an he sat on my bed putting hes hand up my nighty and touch me. then he took all his clothes off and forced his penis in my mouth then he...
    Haylea12345 Haylea12345 13-15 1 Response Jan 27, 2012

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    Crazy Mom

    I was abused as a child. Not nearly as bad as some children but enough to where now I have flashbacks and what not. I feel full of regret and still don't fully understand. I've never seen professional help for this. I haven't had insurance since i was about 16 years old. My...
    dancingpiff112 dancingpiff112 22-25 3 Responses Mar 22, 2013

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    Free?

    It's been two years... two years since it all stopped. Two years since I stopped crying into my pillow every night. Two years since the bruises stopped appearing. Two years since crimson splatters stained the clean, white walls. Two years since I woke up in the hospital...
    Afishyinthesea Afishyinthesea 16-17 Dec 14, 2012

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    Bottled Up

    A few days ago, the musical director of my youth group lead the discussion our youth leader would normally lead. I was excited, circle with him is always fun and carefree. But he told us that there wasn't going to be any more music... for a long time. He told us that he was a man...
    Afishyinthesea Afishyinthesea 16-17 Jan 21, 2013

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    I Understand Why Children Snap

    After a barrage of incessant teasing, year after year because I was a poor kid or whatever, I literally used to think about how I could make all those bastards suffer. What those little jerks had no way of knowing was that I was getting my azz kicked on a daily either by my Dad...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 30, 2010

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    I Was Abused By My Dad

    For years I didn't look at it as abuse.  I just thought my dad was an angry person with problems of his own.  I don't remember exactly how old I was when it started.  I was less than 10 years old for sure.  I thought it was normal for fathers to discipline...
    ktfoot97 ktfoot97 31-35 1 Response Jul 18, 2010

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    Safer That Way

    When things looked to get ugly, I just shut myself down.  My body would obey orders, even orders that ran counter to self-preservation.  Then again, the only way to consistently ensure I'd survive was to obey the adults.  Always.  I was reasonably sure they wouldn't kill me...
    Plaid Plaid 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 4, 2012

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    Surviving Childhood

    Hi there, for years and years I thought I was the only person to have been abused by a brother every story I read always seemed to say that the abuser was the father or the step-father. Then I realized that I wasn't the only one to have grown up with a perverted brother after all...
    spangles spangles 46-50 2 Responses Jan 12, 2009

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    And Even Though Im Still A Minor...

    i am no longer a child. i had to grow up. childhood wasnt an option. i couldnt be a child. every aspect of being a kid was killed by family wide emotional abuse. destruction. i was a disturbance, failure, loser, screw up, etc etc. i had to learn to do everything for myself. no...
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme 18-21, F Oct 30, 2011

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    God Says So

    since i can remember i was abused not sexually but physically and mentally. one of my first memories is when i was no more than 4 years old i wanted to go to the bathroom to pee, but my dad was in the bathroom so i was waiting for him and holding my ( you know what ) just not to...
    Mishaari Mishaari 18-21, M 4 Responses Jun 7, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    I think I was an abused child. Growing up (4-8) my mom would get angry over the littlest things like me forgetting to put my shoes in the closet or missing the garbage when I put...
    salemwinters salemwinters 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 16

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    I had a pretty good childhood I think. I grew up in a small rural Pennine Village in Yorkshire where my dad was the local doctor. He knew everyone and we were always 'the doctor's...
    splashUK2014 splashUK2014 41-45, M Nov 6

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    I was never a child. I could write an entire book, but I'll keep it short on this post and just share a snippet of my past. From my earliest memories, I remember my mother being...
    Survivor919 Survivor919 22-25, M 3 Responses Nov 16

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    It is an awful thing to see on the outside a child that has been abused. The problem is that there are so many varying degrees of abuse and dysfunctional families especially from...
    teekitten teekitten 31-35, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Was I Abused? I remember when my mother had first became lesbian. ... and one girlfriend in particular, had 2 children of her own. We were playing in the living room and mikayla...
    LotusFlower994 LotusFlower994 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 2

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    when birth parents got a divorce 3 of us went into foster care , when we went in our 1st foster home, we all abused everyday. it went on for 3 yrs.
    moedogger51 moedogger51 46-50, M 6 days ago

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    I can't look at you without seeing everything you did to me and my brother. Hearing every word. You forced us against each other. I lost 17 years with my Father because of the lies...
    GuiltyAllTheSame1821 GuiltyAllTheSame1821 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 5

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    My dad would beat me up so much as a child and still today as an adult that I thought it was normal. Thought that every child went through what I went through. Bruises I would...
    roselani2005 roselani2005 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 29

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    No child should have to go through any problem that is bigger then themselves, there is NO excuse for abusing a child.
    RealProject RealProject 13-15, M Oct 31

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    Tonight I'm having random body aches. Lower back especially. I've read somewhere this isn't unusual for survivors of child abuse. Phantom pains plaguing me. This is new. The pain...
    scarecrow71 scarecrow71 41-45, M 4 Responses Nov 16

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    What can I say, dad was a bully & we feared his every move. Grandpa was a perv. U get it
    MiddleSister45 MiddleSister45 41-45, F Nov 17

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    I know all forms of abuse.. But to this day I have not been able to tell anyone. I have been beaten, drowned under water. Friends I no longer have. Life seems pointless.
    Damaged20 Damaged20 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I have always been told to be grateful for my life. And I am grateful for where I am today. However I hate using the term to diminsh the pain one feels after being done wrong. I...
    loudsilence1 loudsilence1 26-30, F Oct 26

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    Because I work with abused children on a regular basis I know that my story is neither unique or uncommon. Man's inhumanity to man shouldn't really surprise me, yet somehow it...
    brokenat5 brokenat5 61-65, M 2 Responses Oct 30

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    I have been watching YouTube videos of children that were abused and killed. It broke my heart entirely and I pray for the ones being abused today.
    NaNaJene NaNaJene 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 6

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    There was an old man, a neighbor, who lured me in and molested me. I was about 8 years old. Actually its kind of my fault, as I sought his attention. At first he was just nice...
    ijustneedtoletitout ijustneedtoletitout 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 4

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    I had a major flashback to childhood today. I finally decided to tell someone that my boyfriend has been very abusive to me for the past two years. I sat down next to my mom and...
    SkullRoseInsignia SkullRoseInsignia 16-17, T 4 Responses Nov 1

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    I got a really bad call from the school yesterday. He's been supposedly acting out in class. He says his teacher never believes when he says another student is picking on him. My...
    flypiggie flypiggie 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 4

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    It takes a lot for a kid to come back around from being abused by a parent. I wasn't myself, but witnessed it happen to someone else and it's tough seeing someone close being...
    astrokitty4341 astrokitty4341 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 8

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    Especially since I was the ABUSER. I feel deeply ashamed of my actions when I was 10 years old. I bullied a younger girl at school. I would poke fun at her, pull her hair, threaten...
    kouklara4 kouklara4 22-25, F 7 Responses 5 days ago

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    i have friends, i really do. some of them i can relate to so well and others i just wanna punch half the time. but i can never be truthful with them. they only know half my story...
    LoveLessOne97 LoveLessOne97 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 9

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